% \ (I m i y aK v-F^^^s^ Of^C0 PZ F888 An Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2011 with funding from LYRASIS members and Sloan Foundation http://www.archive.org/details/annamayliestoryoOOprat 'old hon'ere Miss Hanna. ANNA MAYLIE: BT ELLA FAEMAU. /^a-i-fr " Behold, the husbandman waiteth for the precious fruit of the earth, and hath long patience for it, until he receive the early and latter rain." James 5 : 7. " And let us not he weary in weU doing: for in due season we ehall reap if we faint not." Gai* 6 , a> Boston : Published bv S). Xothrop & 60. Entered, according to Act af Congress, in the year 1873, By D. LOTHROP & CO., In the Office of the Librariaa of Congress, at Washington 00 o CONTENTS. CHAPTER I. PAGi:. Miss Clbmmer's Class ....••• 7 CHAPTER n. Anna Maylie's Home • . 20 CHAPTER ni. Anna's Day at Miss Clemmer's 84 CHAPTER IV. The Prayeb Meeting 61 CHAPTER V. Searching FOB A Cross 72 CHAPTER YI. Rachel * • • 8i CHAPTER Yll. The Story of Joseph 97 CHAPTER Ytn. The New Twilight 106 CHAPTER rx. Peace 130 CHAPTER X. Out -OF -Doors 132 iv. Contents. CHAPTER XI. PAGE. PjlEMONITIONS 154 CHAPTER Xn. Bex .... 166 CHAPTER Xni. A Sabbath Evening 188 CHAPTER XTV. Among THE Weeds 217 CHAPTER XV. Another Sabbath Evening ..... 236 CHAPTER XVI. Changes . , 257 CHAPTER XVII. The Harvest 270 CHAPTER XVJn. " He GivETH His Beloved Sleep" . • , .292 CHAPTER XIX. A Message FROM THE Dead ...... 304 CHAPTER XX. In THE Memorial Church 320 CHAPTER XXI. "Let HER OWN Works Praise Her" . • • .810 ^**^o^^J PREFACE. In presenting to my readers the story of Anna Maylie, of her life both as girl and woman , at the East and in the West, I have endeavored to show, first of all, that whoever loves Jesus with a full and vital love will be busy in His service. I have labored to show that the blessing of Him whose thoughts are higher than our thoughts rest upon eveiy word, every wish, every prayer, every deed, which is bom of an intense desire to further His work. I have labored to show that God uses these words, and wishes, and prayers, and deeds, — even the simplest and most minute of them, — as in- struments by which to work out His larger, wider and more glorious scheme for the spread of His gospel, and the elevation, usefulness and happiness of his crea- tures. I have endeavored to show those who stand in the high places of the world that God may choose His hum- blest child for the choicest mission ; and at the same time I have endeavored to dispossess the minds of the "vi* Preface, poor of the idea that true religion, true devotion, and an active Christian sympathy are not to be found among the wealthy, and so teach them that the Son of God makes us truly all " one in Christ." And I shall not have written the story of my simple cottage girl in vain if I succeed in teaching even one the lesson of Faith, and that the hand of both God and man will be reached oat to the worthy and persever- ing. If one, even one, earnest soul finds a light falling from my pages to light the path of daily duty, feels that I have encouraged it to be patient, to wait, and to go steadily and hopefully on with the w(/rk while waiting, I shall feel that I have not held my humble torch aloft in vain ANNA MAYLIE A STORY OF WORK. CHAPTER I. EAR ME ! Why will Miss Clemmer persist in keeping Anna Maylie in our class ? Every year it is just the same old story." " I know it. But I should think Anna herself would have pride enough, if nothing else, to go into some other class. Mercy ! Do you suppose if I had nothing but calico, or a shilling delaine, I'd go among silks and grenadines V " " That 's just it, Fan I Miss Clemmer is a lady, 8 Anna Maylie, of course , but some of her tastes are perfectly unaccountable. Now, of course, she knows this must be very disagreeable to us." There was a pause, and then I heard Fan's voice again. "Father is superintendent, and if it was anybody but Miss Clemmer, I would have it arranged so that we could change teachers ; but it would not be Sabbath - school without Miss Clemmer." " That is not to be thought of. 1 suppose we must put up with it. Only think, though, of our washer - woman's daughter in our class, with her drunken fither, and her print dress, and cotton gloves, and such shoes ! " I was then a stranger in Morristown, and un- acquainted with the faces, names, and social posi- tions at the church I attended ; so I managed as I passed them to take a sharp look at the two ladies whose conversation I had overlieard. Even while I walked behind them, their air of high breeding and fashion had been unmistakable ; and Miss Clemmer^s Glass. 9 as I passed them, I saw a pair of those delicate, clear - cut faces so common in the best families of our cities and large towns. All the supercilious- ness of a fashionable week-day life was plairly written upon those countenances, and by their bearing I could see that even their Sabbath - school was part and parcel o^ their fashionable worldliness ; and I thought how faithful and de- TOted the teacher of such girls ought to be. An interest was awakened in my mind concern- ing Miss Clemmer's class ; and so during the week, as I had little in my own affairs to occupy me, my thoughts often recurred to the teacher who evidently had persisted in retaining a poor and plainly - dressed girl in her class of fashionable young ladies, in direct opposition to their wishes. I felt very sure she was aware of their wishes, for my own experience had taught me that girls of fifteen and seventeen are never over - delicate in making their dislikes apparent. As I took my seat in the Strangers' Bible class 10 Anna Maylie, the following Sabbath, my thoughts recurred again to Miss Clemmer and her class ; and I thought it just possible that I should be able to recognize my two aristocratic young ladies among the bright throng. But delicate - hued silks and dainty bareges were quite as plenty as muslins and prints, and the high -bred type of face is com- mon, as I said before. I might have asked Mr. Barrett, who was in charge of our class, to point out Miss Clemmer ; but I had a fancy to find her for myself. So I scanned the teachers within range, and during singing I searched the seats beyond, but found no one whom I was satisfied to call Miss Clemmer. I concluded that I had magnified a very trivial incident into something of impor- tance ; so I turned to our lesson, and became in- terested, when the superintendent came up and requested Mr. Barrett to send some one to take charge of a class whose teacher was absent. I was asked to go, and the superintendent con- Miss cummer's Class, 11 ducted me to a distant part of the room. Busy with my scholars, I yet had ears for a very sweet voice behind me, and at last, managing to look back, I saw, at the head of a class of young ladies, a very sweet face also. I was interested in my little charges, but I became still more in- terested in the lesson - giving going on behind mcj which I soon found to be a sort of dialogue be- tween the sweet, cultivated voice and another voice which was ready and self-reliant. It was only occasionally that I could hear a well -bred, characterless answer given by the other members of the class to some direct appeal or question. I became very much interested in the unhesita- ting answers which that one scholar had for every question ; they were so different from the few, quiet, non-committal replies of her companions ; and then, all at once, it flashed over me — Miss Clemmer and her class ! All my old interest as- sumed its former importance. I placed myself in front of my scholars, and found an opportunity to 12 Anna Maylie* survey my neighbors ; and there, among the well -'dressed occupants of the seat, I easily recognized my two haughty acquaintances of the sidewalk, and, as if to determine the matter, next the sweet - voiced teacher there sat a girl who strongly contrasted with the rest, — Anna May- lie, I was sure. She was a nice - looking girl, with a remarkably clear complexion, and bright, dark hair and eyes, but her roses, plumpness, and frank, open expression gave her a rustic appear- ance, and spoke of some simple manner of life. I looked at her again and again, for she had such a good face, — almost lovable. But I was not so ignorant of life and of human nature as to wonder why her class - mates disliked her. I am a wom- an, and, though perhaps I should not have done so, I involuntarily inventoried her attire : A cottage bonnet of coarse straw, simply trimmed with an inexpensive blue ribbon, a dress of print, — pretty and delicate, but at the best nothing but print, — a plain, white sacque, and Miss Clemmer^s Class, 13 plain, linen collar, and a parasol of gingham. This was in painful contrast with the blonde frills, the Valenciennes collars, and the handsome Neapolitan bonnets of the young ladies at her side. It must have needed the very best quality of courage to sit with a sunny face. Sabbath after Sabbath, while her poor print skirts were crushed and hidden beneath the costly and beautiful robes which crowded her on every hand. "Yes, this must be Anna May lie, and I won- der too why she stays in such a class," I said to myself, because girls of her own station were plenty enough around me. I turned to Miss Clemmer, with her sweet, snow - drop face. Her bonnet was French, — white bonnets were in Btyle then, if you think back thirteen years, — and with its broad, white ties, and its white wreath of lily bells, it was very becoming. Indeed, her whole attire was that of a wealthy young lady of exquisite taste, who shunned display ; still, her one poor scholar could not have crept to her side 14 Anna Maylie. to avoid the contrast with the class. I know that I care little for mere externals, but I remem- ber that unconsciously I looked first at poor Anna's brown, sun -burned wrist, which was re- vealed by her short cotton glove, then at the blue - veined patrician hand of her teacher, shaded by a fall of costly lace, and then wondered again, — though I trust I am a Christian, — why the girl was there. But as I quietly continued my observations, I noticed what an undisturbed air there was about Anna Maylie, and the appearance she had of nestling down by Miss Clemmer's side ; and I grew to feel that in some way her Sabbath - school teacher was very dear to her. I noticed also how, after every unsatisfactory answer from the rest of the class. Miss Clemmer would always turn back with, "I am sure you must have thought about this, Anna," and how attentively she listened to what Anna said, and how satis- fied she looked at Anna's modest promptness, Miss Glemmer^s Glass, 15 until I felt sure she was her favorite scholar, and that it was a personal affection which bound the lady to the little rustic. I was sitting among my little strangers when Miss Clemmer closed her Bible, and I had an undisturbed opportunity to hear what followed. It was in a voice lower and more quiet than she had used in teaching, that she began : " My girls, I have something to consult with you about. The superintendent, your father, Fanny, has requested all his teachers to do some especial work for the good of his scholars. I have long felt the need of especial and unusual work, — how long is it, Satie, that I have taught you?" "I think it is four years. Miss Clemmer," Satie, one of the young ladies of the previous Sunday's conversation, answered. "Yes, it is four years. Fanny, do you think my four years' work has done any good ? " " O Miss Clemmer, I hope so." 16 Anna May lie, "My dear girls, I have tried to be faithful, but are you, any one of you, nearer the kingdom of Heaven?" There was silence in the class, a long silence. She went on ; "I have worked every Sunday for four years, yet not one of my girls can tell me that she is any nearer the kingdom of Heaven ! Does one of you love Jesus any better because I have taught you of Him for four years? Do you, Clara? Fanny? Satie? Eachel? Anna?" I could hear the restrained sob in Miss Clem- mer's voice as she leaned forward to her silent class. I could almost hear, too, that painful, restrained silence, — that silence which so many a teacher has helplessly encountered when she has endeavored to break down the barrier between herself and her class. How mournful her voice was when she spoke again ! "I have been in my Master's field four years, and I have not a sheaf to carry to Him ! Your Miss Clemmer^s Class, 17 father was right, Fanny, when he said he must appoint especial work to us. He has given ua the choice as to what each would do. But I — I can not do the work which I have chosen, alone. I have worked too much alone, I fear, these four years." She paused, and then resumed : " Will you come to my prayer - meeting, girls ? I have had an evening of prayer for my class for many months, but I think I have erred in not having my class with me. Now you would hardly refuse me anything else, — you have always regarded all my wishes, — and this wish is more to me than anything else ever was. Fri- day evening, I would like to see you all in my room. Rachel, you will not let me hold my prayer - meeting alone ? " she added in a gentle tone to the tall, dark girl who sat next Anna May lie. She said it as the rest of the class were looking out the hymn which the superintendent was reading, and she took RacIieFs hand within 18 Anna May lie, her own. The gh'l's face paled, but she turaed awaj and made no answer. I could see, as I quietly glanced that way while the school was sino'ing^, that Miss Clemmer was endeavorinoj to control her evident emotion, and also that none of her class were singing. At the close of school I heard her address Anna Maylie : " I shall be around to see you in the morning ; if you can, try and be at home ;" and then she stepped aside to let the girls pass out. Fanny Howland, the superintendent's daughter, came last, and her Miss Clemmer detained, and said, earnestly : " Fanny, I have asked none of you to promise me, but if you could know how I want you to come ; you lead them, and if you would come" The young lady was embarrassed ; but she finally stammered ; " I am sorry, Miss Clemmer, but I had an eno^agement." " Yes, Fanny, I know, and I hesitated some about saying Friday evening. I knew of couree Miss Clemmer's Class. 19 you had invitations to Miss Graham's ; I had heard Gertie speak of it ; bat the Bible so- ciety, and Dr. Mason's lecture, and the teachers' meeting, and our Aid society, seem to take every other evening. Yet I feel as if I must have you, Fanny. Think of it half an hour each day, for my sake, won't you ? " Fanny could not help returning the clasp of her teacher's hand, but her face was flushed, and she went down the aisle without giving her any promise. From the door I glanced back, and saw Miss Clemmer still standing by her empty class - seat, many moments after the room was deserted ; and with her, I felt that she had entered upon a diffi- cult work. CHAPTER n. ANNA MAYLIE'S HOME. NNA Maylie's home was on Mor- ristown Common ; and to her it never ^jp looked so unattractive as on those days when she was expecting her Sunday, school teacher. From motives of delicacy, Miss Clemmer always made her aware when she in- tended to come round and see her, wishino^ to speire her all unnecessary mortification, and feel- ing intuitively that there might be many little things which the poor girl would wish to do to be in a manner prepared for her coming. In spite, Anna Maylie's Home* 21 however, of this delicate care, these little calls, which Anna would not have missed for worlds, which she was proud to know she received aa often as Eachel Mansfield or Fanny Howland, were the severest mortifications of her life. This Monday morning was one of June's love- liest. Bird, and bee, and sunshine, and breeze, and flower, were all at their gayest. Nothing inanimate, save actual dirt and disorder, could be wholly disagreeable, upon such a morning ; and at dirt and disorder poor Anna tugged. She was glad it was summer ; poverty is not so staring then ; in winter their dwelling was so wretched - looking and comfortless ; but now the maples and rose - bushes were doing their best to hide the age and ruin of the old brown house. Giant rose- bushes of a long ago planting kindly covered the starting boards, and the graceful maples towered higher than the tumbling chimney. This morn- ing, too, the window curtains of white cotton *were not so soiled as usual ; she noticed with a 22 Anna May lie. sigh of relief that they blew in and out, quite fi*esh and white among the dark, green leaves. Purring away in the deepest gratitude for the sun- shine sat her pretty cat upon the window - sill, rubbing her head gently against the casement, and wooing Anna's soft caress. As she paused a moment to stroke her, Anna thought, — " she has added her lovin^^ little mite towards makin": thinors seem better : " and then she turned to her task again. She had washed the little looking-glass, and the table, and chairs, until they shone. Both her pots of geranium were in full bloom, and she felt that, if nothing else about the room bore marks of refinement, the table surely did, as she massed the green and scarlet luxuriance beneath the looking - glass, with her Bible and Sunday - school books piled before upon her great Commentary. But the tears came up again as she went on rinsing up the floor. In spite of her little attempts at refinement, a great unwholesomeness rested Anna Maylle^s Home. 23 upon everything ; and more than onco she turned with a sick face toward the rough wooden lounge, where hiy a man who was then the exact embodi- ment of your idea of a drunkard. His heavy snoring overpowered the songs of the birds ; the indescribable vileness of his breath stifled the per- fume of the geraniums and roses. There, the secret of all Anna's poverty, disgrace, and mor- tifications, lay Anna's father, deep in the heavy Monday sleep which follows the drunkard's Sabbath. This morning, Anna had cast many an appeal- ing look toward her mother, who was hurrying away to be in time for her Monday's washing at Esquire Howlands ; and more than ono heavy sigh did the miserable woman heave when she was out of Anna's sight. But she felt she could do nothing. The time came for her to go, and then Anna dropped the mop and followed her to the gate. "O Mother," said she, "can't you coax Father out of doors somewhere ? How can 24 Anna Maylie. I have Miss Clemmer see him so ? I shall sink through the floor. Do come back and do some- thing, Mother."* " I can't, Anna. You know as well as I do where he '11 go if he is roused up and got out of the house. I ain't a-goin' to send him to the tavern. You '11 have to make the best of it, for all I see. I wish that Miss Clemmer would stay at home, and everybody else that is fine like she is." The poor girl gave a dry sob as her mother hurried away. " There's no use in living ; and I wish I was dead." She went slowly back to hei work. Her plump face was not easily moved; but now it was distorted by emotion, and was oh, so bitter in its expression ! "I don't care if I did wish so ; I do wish Miss Clemmer woulc stay at home. She is too fair and sweet to come to such a place as this. I wish I had never seen her. I wish there was no church, no Bible, no heaven, no me I I hate living I I hate day- Anna Maylie^s Home, 25 light ! I hate all the comfort folks have ! I wish there was nothing anywhere in the world but savages and misery ; then nobody would care for anything ! " There was an expression of horror, of such utter heathenism on her face for a moment, that it was a relief when it gave place to a look of common, every - day crossness as she caught the sound of children's voices, and their bare feet fresh from a mud - puddle ; — little Jim chasing Jacky with shrieks of laughter straight across the half -dried floor, and out of the front door, and through the gate, and away, with a whoop and a yell, straight against dainty Miss Clemmer who was just coming round the corner, knocking her parasol and her flowers into the ditch. Poor Anna saw it all, and in her utter despair stood perfectly still. She noted with a dreadful sense of misery the look of indignation which swept across Miss Clemmer's face, and the gesture of disgust with which she stooped to fish her para- 26 Anna Maylze* eol out of the filth, — and then — then she dropped her mop and ran out of the back door down amono; the old currant bushes. Such utter con- fusion ! Such bitter shame ! " She knows it's Jacky and Jim ; she will come to the door and see father ; my mop - pail stands right in the doorway ; I won't go in ! " She crouched lower among the bushes. She heard the gate swing to, and then the decisive, peremptory, little knock upon the door - casing. Again, again. After a pause she heard her name called by Miss Oemmer's sweet voice, — that sweet voice which she could never resist ; it was the voice which had called her to all the good she had ever known. " Anna ! Where is Anna ? " She instinctively rose to her feet, and the back door being open, she found herself directly op- posite Miss Clemmer, who saw her down the garden and smiled. Mechanically Anna came forward. Her father's heavy snoring sounded Anna Maylie's IIom,e, 27 tliroiigh the summer stillness of the room, but Miss Clemmer ignored it all. " Why, Anna, how industrious you are, to have your scrubbing out of the way so early ? I dare say our Norah has n't thought of it yet. But I am in quite a hurry this morning, Anna ; I will stay out here among your roses while you brush your hair ; I shall stay too long if I come in and sit down ; " — so she turned her back upon Anna's troubles. While she was brushing her braids, and pinning on a collar, Anna thought with a fresh horror of Miss Clemmer in her dainty, white morning dress, endeavoring to make her way though the tall grass in which the wilderness of untrimmed bushes grew. She saw, however, that Miss Clemmer had confined her ramble to the rose - tree which grew near the gate ; and when Anna came to the door she bade her put on her bonnet for a walk ; and how grateful the girl was to be taken away from the shame of home. Miss (Clemmer drew the brown arm with ita 28 Anna Maylie. calico sleeve within her own. As they left the Common, and Cottage Grove, and walked on, Anna's spirits rose once more. "She knows it all ; she has seen it all ; seen the worst ; and yet she likes me. And, anyway, none of it was me ! " she added to herself, as she caught the contagious gladness of Nature. Miss Clemmer's eyes had rested all the way upon the changing face, and now she said, — "Anna, I would like to know how old you are ; fifteen, is it not? I thought so. You have always been at home, I think? Are you accus- tomed to doing many varieties of work ? " Anna looked puzzled. "Why, yes, of course. No — that is. Miss Clemmer, you would n't think I was — yet I am a great help to mother." "Yes, Anna, I know you are ; and I think my question was very abrupt indeed. I know you must do a great deal ; your mother is gone sev- eral days every week. You must do cooking, and something of all varieties of housework. It A7ina Maylie^s Home, 29 was something quite different that I meant, how- I ever. It was whether you understand any kind of work which would bring money into your hands ; — you are growing to need many things wliich your parents are scarcely able to procure for you." Anna's face crimsoned painfully. She said nothing. Miss Clemmer, after a pause, went on : " Would you like to earn something ? or do you already? I am not inquisitive, Anna, but you are now old enough to feel personal responsibil- ity, and to have plans of your own. I think you need a friend. Will you not tell me how it is at home, and how you look at life, my dear? I have long wished that I could assist you, — assist you to become not only independent, but to be a greater help to your mother." "Poor mother!" exclaimed Anna, in a half choked voice. " Poor mother at the washtub, buys so much with her earnings, — so much, — you can have no idea, Miss Clemmer ! And the 30 Anna Maylie, best is for me, — nothing for herself. All of Jim's and Jacky's clothes, and father's, too," she added with a blush. " I have never earned any- thing. No one at our house earns anything but mother, — not anything, — not flour, — not wood, — not any one thing, — mother does it all. And if I only could ! I do n't need anything for myself; but it would help mother so, and per- haps she could be at home more." " Then would you be willing to come to our house and assist me two days of every week ? " "Help you, Miss Clemmer? Come to your house? But I could n't, if you only think. I have never done any work in a right or nice way. You need a lady to do even your work." " Hush, Anna ! The work I wished help about is not the housework, and I expected to teach you to do it myself. I think it is very agreeable work, and I could easily do it, but I think it bet- ter to give employment to those who need assist* ance ; for I have found that those who are truly Anna Maylie's Home, 31 deserving of it, usually prefer to receive money as payment for services rendered, than as a gift. It is for this reason that I so frequently hire work performed which 1 might do myself." But Anna had a doubt as to whether she could learn to do work which Miss Clemmer herself would like. She said, — " You may have patience with me, but I know the servants never would. I know that I often try mother dreadfully." Miss Clemmer smiled. " I will tell you about this work, Anna. Ger- tie and I have always spent a portion of our al- lowance in assisting a young woman who has a great attachment for us. We employed her to do our fine ironing, — our ruffles, handkerchiefs, and collars, and to get up our laces, — articles too fine to go with the family ironings. The same wom- an has always done our white mending, but her sister is ill, and she has gone back to France, and probably will not return. I have long 32 Anna Mat/lie, thouglit of taking you partially in my care, Anna ; and lately I have concluded that if you would like it, I would teach you to do this woman's work, I can teach you to get up laces, and to clear starch, and to mend and do darning like a lady. There are a large number of families who would give employment and good wages to persons who could do this class of work satisfactorily. It ought to be a fortune to you. And it is not hard work, — it is only particular." " I would like a steady way of earning money," said Anna, thoughtfully. " So much Monday, and so much Tuesday, and Wednesday, and every day the week through. I would like it to be me v/ho earned the money, instead of poor mother. Would you please, Miss Clemmer, to go and see mother and talk to her about it as you have to me? She will know better than I do whether I am capable of doing this." " Yes, I will, ray dear Anna. I will go round and see her this morning. Shall I also settle the Anna Maylie^s Home, 33 question of wages with her? and what days you will be able to come to me? Well, then, I will send you back home now, for I have kept you a long time, and your mother away too. I hope she will allow you to spend the coming Friday with me. But I may feel certain, may I not, Anna, that you will not forget what I said to you all last Sabbath? I should be very sad if you should forget to come to your teacher's prayer- meeting, Anna." And without waiting for a re- ply, she left h^r. CHAPTER m. ais^a's day at ivnss cle^oier's. S ISS CLEMMER'S benevolences were carefully arranged ; this endeav- ro)^ or to assist Anna Maylie was only one of them. But in the Maylie household, Anna's going out from home was a vivid event. In poor ]Mrs. Maylie's heart there was a settled faith that this was a commencement which would affect the entire future life of her daughter. Jacky and Jim looked upon it as a sort of excursion into fairy - land, and they spec- Annans Day at Miss Clemmer's, 35 ulated upon what sister might bring home ; for their mother, on those memorable days when the regular help had failed in the Clemmer kitchen and she had been summoned, had always returned liiden with baskets of fruit, or fragments of dainty cookery whose composition was something en- tirely unknown to her children. "Well, what of it? It's high time she was earning her own living ! " Mr. Mayliesaid when, during one of his half sober intervals, he was made aware of the arrangement. " But mind, now, what I tell you, Anna ! Don't you be put upon ! May lie blood 's as good as Clemmer blood any day ; and no Maylie yet ever eat at the second table. You just come home if you ain't treated well ; mind that, Anna ! " Anna's lip half curled at her father's maudlin independence. She could not very well help remembering how often their breakfast table had been supplied entirely from the baskets of broken viands which her poor, patient mother had 36 Anna Maylie, brought home from the great houses where she washed ; but, wreck as her father was, she had never yet spoken a disrespectful word to him, and constantly strove to avoid thinking a disrespect- ful thought. To Anna herself it was the event of her life. Her affection for her teacher was a perfect passion with her, — a passionate blending of admiration and gratitude. She was never weary of looking at her; never weary of admiring her loveliness and refinement ; never weary of remembering that summer night, years ago, when the graceful lady came out of the arbor by the garden path, as she was going home with her mother after the wash- ing was over, and talked with them, and called her a nice - looking little girl, and made her mother promise to have her ready to go to Sun- day - school the next Sabbath ; and from that day on her place had been next to her teacher's side. All the beauty that she had ever known, all the good, all the hope for something better and AnnoCs Day at Miss Chmmer's, 37 brighter, had come to her through her Sunday- school and her teacher. And until lately she had never appreciated how her mother had worked, and washed, and sat up nights, that her child's clothes should be neat and whole on the Sabbath ; — she could hardly understand, even now, how the thought that her daughter was growing up respectable was a sufficient reward. Miss Clemmer had given much week - day at- tention to the little waif she had taken by the hand. Indeed, in her practice of Christianity, she never forgot the close reasoning of the Apos- tle James : " If a brother or sister be naked, and destitute of daily food, and one of you say unto them, Depart in peace, be ye warmed and filled ; not- withstanding ye give them not those things which are needful to the body ; what doth it profit ? " She had found Anna singularly alive to in- struction, and singularly able to use everything she learned in learning more. She added a Bible 38 Anna Maylie* Dictionary to her previous gift of a Bible, and followed the Dictionary with a couple of volumes of Biblical antiquities. Finding her able to ap- preciate any research which threw light upon Bible life, she lent her books of Eastern travel, and gave her the use of a set of Commentaries, thouorh she marveled the while at her eaojer little pupil. Of course this girl of thirteen, fourteen, and fifteen, could not master or appreciate the finer portions of these works, — I dare say she did not even read the profound arguments, the speculations, and the doctrinal parts. But all facts she appropriated ; and she remembered all points of geography, and all descriptions of man- ners and customs. She thought it merely duty to answer all questions asked by her teacher or the superintendent, and she never left that task to the usual chorus of younger children. In com- mon with the young ladies of other Sunday- schools, those of the Morristown First church thought it hardly becoming or dignified to an- AnncHs Day at Miss Clemmer's, 39 swer the Superintendent's questions in common with the children ; but Anna Maylie was too downright to be held back by any such scruples. E^Gry year Miss Clemmer's interest in this girl from Morristown Common had deepened, until now nothinof would have induced her to let go her clasp of that strong, loving, little brown hand. Of late her interest in her as a Sunday- school scholar had widened into the thought that she was a girl for whose future as a woman she might be held responsible. As this feeling of responsibility grew upon her, she used, at first, to shrink ; for it laid so many duties and so much care upon her ; and it was only after half a year's pondering, and maturing of her plans, and after many prayers for patience and wisdom, that she made that Monday morning call I told you of. I can not describe to you the feelings in Anna Maylie's heart as she hastened away on that Fri- day morning, thinking not so much of what she was to do, or how much she was to earn, as of 40 Anna Maylie. the fact that she was to work directly under Miss Clemmer's own eye. To her also it was ^^ery much like an excursion into fairyland ; but her pleasure was toned down by the fear that she misfht not succeed in doinsr Miss Clemmer's work nicely ; and she lost more and more confidence in herself as she came nearer and nearer, until she felt strangely timid as she unlatched the mas- sive garden gate which opened upon the nearest approach to the house. She walked slowly up the broad, graveled path, noticing the immense expanse of strawberry beds, the innumerable grape trellises, the sparkling array of glass, and the long stretches of vegetables whose very leaf sometimes was quite unknown to her. Measur- ing the land with her eye, she wondered why, since one gardener could do all this, it had not been so ordered that her father should be a sober, working man, and then they might at least have had a good garden. " What a difference it would have made with our living," she thought. Anna's Day at Miss Clemmer's, 41 " 'Twould have helped mother so." And her lip already began to quiver. A few steps on brought her into Miss Clem- mer's rosery. And Anna loved flowers so that she could not help pausing and wondering at the strange, emerald freshness of nearly all the bush- es ; they were almost as freshly green as the close - shorn velvet turf at their feet. "Why!" said she after a moment's survey, " there is not a bare twig, nor g, dead leaf, nor a withered rose ! What makes them so different from mine? Qh, I see. The old flowers, and rusty leaves, and empty stems, go into a big basket. I '11 remem- ber that." But suddenly she started on with a curious consciousness that she was using, not her own time, but Miss Clemmer's ; for her mother had impressed it upon her that she must expect to work from 7, A. M., until 6, p. M. Following her mother's instructions, she proceeded at once to a certain side door, and inquired of the girl who 42 Anna Maylie, answered her ring, for the housekeeper. To that bustling personage she gave her name, and said that she was expected by Miss Clemmer. She was left standing in the hall while the house- keeper visited some distant portion of the house ; but finally the woman reappeared and told Anna to follow her. She was taken through a large apartment, where the only furniture seemed to be an immense table standing upon a gorgeous crumb - cloth, and glittering with three or four great silver dishes whose uses she could not even guess at ; then into another hall, and up a grand staircase, whose broad, low steps was a strange revelation of ease to Anna after the steep, high stairs she toiled up and down at home. They passed along a beautifully - panneled corridor, and, half way down, the housekeeper threw open a door and ushered her into a great room which seemed at first, to her dazzled eyes, to be a gar- den of flowers. " There, this be Miss Clemmer's room. She Annans Day at Miss Clemmer^s, 43 told me to take you up here and leave you till she come. And she told me to tell you to spend your time getting acquainted with her plants and her pictures." She turned to the door, mutter- ing, — " Though what's got into her head, I can't tell, a- sending such as this alone in here ! " She closed the door, leaving Anna standing on the velvet carpet entirely bewildered. Years afterward, in the elegant parlor of her own pleas- ant parsonage home, Anna said, speaking of that morning and the rich carpet with its soft, heavy pile, that she remembered feeling, absurd though it was, very much as if she had stepped upon somebody's best bed with her shoes on. But Miss Clemmer had calculated wisely. Anna could not long feel ill at ease, left to herself among so many flowers. The callas, and oleanders, and azalias won her soon to forget herself and come familiarly in among them, and it was not long be- fore she had made the circuit of the apartment, pausing before each picture, and, like any other 44 Anna May lie, natural and uncultivated young girl, trying all the different easy chairs. She lingered a long time before Miss Clemmer's melodeon ; but I will here say that she never once paused at the well - strewn writing - table, nor examined the cozy work -stand whose vase of house violets, togeth- er with the little cane seat rocking - chair with its snowy cushions and tidies, standing at the balcony window, spoke so strongly of her teacher. She had quite lost her sense of awkwardness and restraint when Miss Clemmer came in, fol- lowed by a house - maid who carried a large basket of ironed clothes. She sat down, pre- pared to try to understand all she n>ight wish her to learn. " I am obliged to your mother for gratifying me, Anna," she said, " and I see you are quite a pattern of punctuality ; for I saw you at seven aa you came up the path ; but at that time I waa busy. Papa wished me to hear Gertie's nevi Anna's Bay at Miss Olemmer's. 45 music teacher before engaging him. Would you like to hear her new song ? I think it rather pretty." You must remember that it was thirteen years ago when I tell you that the piece was " Hazel Dell." Tame and old-fashioned as it would seem now among the brilliant compositions which load our music-racks, it was something exquisite then, when it was sung by so sweet a voice as Miss Clemmer's, and accompanied by the rich tones of her melodeon. As Anna stood by her teacher, she knew that she had been just as graciously entertained as Fanny or Eachel would have been, and she thought that Miss Clemmer must be more like a friend than an employer, so they sat down by the work-table. " Since I am to enjoy your services, Anna, I thought I would like to give you an outfit ; and I have accordingly purchased this pocket work- box for you. I thought that years from now you \?ould like to use something I had given you." 46 Anna Maylie, You may think it unsuitable for a girl like Anna, as it was a mother-of-pearl work- box with silver mountings, — just as exquisite a pres- ent as she would have given to Fanny or Eachel, Anna felt. It locked with a tiny silver lock and key, and contained a silver thimble engraved with Anna's name, together with the usual furnishings, all of the best and daintiest. " It is too handsome," Anna said when she could speak ; " much too handsome for our house, and my clothes, and me." " But, Anna, I expect that your surroundings will constantly change, now that you are begin- ning to take an active share in life. Besides, I think it never does a girl any harm to have some- thing beautiful for her own. I fancied that you would like to see it on the table where your books and your beautiful geraniums are." She was ex- amining a pair of fine stockings as she spoke, and she added, — "Do you know how to pic^ up rav- eled stitches in stockings ? Few girls do ; but Annans Day at Miss Glemmers, 47 Ninette taught me. It is no difficult task after it is learned." Anna watched her, with her delicate fingers deftly using a sewing needle to knit up the brok- en stitches until the fine stocking seemed never to have needed repairing. " Here are a pair of Papa's socks, which you may try," her teacher said. "It is so much easier to learn with a coarser thread." Anna took the work, but from the first the soft cotton stuck to her fingers, and it was a long, long time before her simple task was accom- plished, and then the mended place was not soft and imperceptible like Miss Clemmer's. She saw that Miss Clemmer was looking over the basket of garments for those which needed mending, or a timely stitch, and she ventured to say, — "If you please, give me something as plain and coarse as possible. My fingers seem so very rough this morning. I never noticed before that they were so big." 48 Anna May lie, " Useful fingers often are," Miss Clemmer said, pleasantly ; but she could not avoid observing the clumsiness of thos€ poor, reddened and roughened hands. In silence she unladed her basket of its linens, and lawns, and long clothes, with their fine rufflings, and tucks, and embroideries. Anna's eyes could not help brightening with a natural feminine delight as she surveyed them ; yet it was with a sober face that she threaded a needle to sew on a bit of crimped ruffling which had been ripped from the hem of a skirt. The deli- cate cambric was still less easily managed by her rough fingers, neither could she manage a needle of the requisite fineness, but broke it, and then tumbled the skirt sadly in her eflforts to find the place again. Her face was covered with a pro- fuse perspiration by the time she had completed her task, and her endeavors to refold the garment were something painful for Miss Clemmer to wit- ness. Her rough hands I With a great efibrt she AnncCs Day at Miss Clemmer*s, 49 choked back her tears and said, — and was she not brave, girls ? — "I can 't do your work, after all. Miss Clemmer. I can't wash dishes, and mop, and have my hands in hot suds, and split wood, and pick up chips, and pare potatoes, four days of the week, and then come and sew your beautiful clothes the other two days ; — my fin- gers just stick to everything I touch. I do n't see why I did not think of my hands." " Do n't be discouraged, dear Anna," said Miss Clemmer, but her own sweet, rose - leaf cheek was flooded with a red tide. She ought to have thought of Anna's hands ; she ought to have known that this was unsuitable work for her, unless, indeed, she could employ her all the time. She said kindly, — "Perhaps you will find the starching and ironing pleasanter." Anna shook her head. *' It was your collars and laces? I remember your pretty laces, and your worked collars. I could never handle them without tearing them all to pieces. You need a 50 Anna Maylie, lady to do your work ; not such as you find me." " A little practice would make you at home with these things ; that would make a great differ- ence, I think." "!N'o. It's my hands; and they never '11 be any better. I can 't parboil them, and cut them, and scratch them, and tear them with the wood, four days, and then be fit to handle laces the other two," repeated poor Anna, decisively. She put down the cambrics she had been looking at without unfolding, and sat back in her chair. " You need a lady, Miss Clemmer," Miss Clemmer scarcely knew how to combat the straightforwardness of the young girl, or whether, indeed, it ought to be combatted. She remained silent because she knew not what to say. She regarded the hardened brown hands, folded in Anna's lap, and then remembered Ninette's lady fingers, delicate, soft and taper as her own, and she realized her mistake. She wondered that she could have made it. After every possible view Annans Day at Miss Clemmer's, 51 of the matter, she was obliged to come back to Anna's common -sense decision, — to do this work she must employ her all the while, or not at all. Could she educate her to become an efficient lady's maid? She ran over Ninette's myriad dainty duties, of every one of which this young girl was ignorant, and for which, it began to glimmer through Miss Clemmer's mind, she had no instinctive taste. She would not only have to learn every art, but have to learn it mechani- cally. Had she herself time to teach her ? There was so much to learn if she was to be thoroughly fitted to support herself by filling that position. For instance, the simple care of the wardrobes, which Ninette assumed so readily, what a varied knowledge of fine sewing was required. She looked again at the bright, good face, — how frank and faithful its expression was ! — and then at the reddened hands, and at the square, rugged, little figure, and she intuitively felt that Anna would have no liking at all for the life of a lady's 52 Anna Maylie, maid. *^ I must not go on with my mistake," she said to herself, "if, indeed, I can atone for the mischief I have already wrought ; for I fear she may have built many hopes upon what I said to her; said so thoughtlessly, it now seems." As Miss Clemmer still preserved her silence, the heavy tears began to fall over Anna's cheeks. She felt acutely all that the silence implied, — her undeniable awkwardness which she had never before realized, her unfitness to serve her beloved teacher, — in fact, she knew the end of all her dreams had come. She rose. " I think I better go home, Miss Clemmer, since I am no good." "No, Anna, indeed, no ! You need not sew if you dislike it. It is of no consequence, except that it still leaves me to study what is your voca- tion in life ; because I know there is some em- ployment awaiting you which nature has fitted you for, and which you will enjo}^ Would you like to read to me a short time while I sew ? " Annans Day at Miss Glemmer's, 55 A volume of Thomas a Kempis lay upon the work - table, and near by was Jeremy Taylor's Holy Living, and the life of Madame Guy on. But she gave the girl none of this grave, medita- tive prose in which she herself delighted. Both Beulah and Prime's Boat Life lay on the melo- deon, and this latter book she handed to Anna. But Anna was a dry, monotonous reader at the best, and I think Miss Clemmer gave her the book only to employ and detain her while she thought. The lotus waters of the Nile, the lazy, Egyptian sunshine, the waving palms, and the dusky Nubian boatmen of Prime's enchanting pages blended before her eyes in a distant mirage while she incessantly asked herself, " What shall I do with this girl ? What ? " And it seemed that Anna failed also to inter- est herself, for in the very middle of a sentence she shut the book, and said, — " I could be taught to work in the kitchen, Miss Clemmer, and I could soon do that kind of work nicely ; but I 54 Anna May lie, should n*t like it, — not at all, — I am sure 1 should not." "Yes, I know you could, Anna," her teacher replied. " I had glanced at such a plan myself, out it is not quite what we would like for you. I think there is something better, some particular avocation for you. And if there is, my dear, doubt not that you will be led toward it. I think there are kinds of employment which will pay you better than domestic service, and be also more congenial. You will remember, will you not, that it was my purpose to give you work that would have kept you near me ? What would you like to do, Anna? " " Oh, I know very well what I would like to do. Miss Clemmer," Anna answered without a moment's hesitation, " only you would n't think it proper." "Proper, my dear, indeed ! What is it then?" " It is to work for your gardener. It 's boy's work, I know," she hurried on, noticing Miss Annans Day at Miss Clemmer'*s. 55 Clemmer's sisprised look, and fearing reproof. " It 's always called boy's work ; but I do n't care what it 's called ; it 's easy. It 's much easier than what I do at home ; a great deal easier than scrubbing, and sweeping, and lifting heavy ket- tles and tubs, and it 's so much cleaner and sweeter. Oh, if it could only be that you would not think it improper, but let me come, and have the gardener teach me." " This is, indeed, a very strange fancy of yours, Anna. What could you do with John- son's heavy tools ? How could you use his spades^ for instance ? " " Oh, but Miss Clemmer, it is not all spading. His little dibbles, and rakes, and hoes, and prun- ing shears are so nice; — they are not half so heavy as house things. Oh, Miss Clemmer," — and the girl leaned anxiously forward toward her teacher, her eyes actually filling with tears. "There, there, Anna, — don't suffer yourself to become excited. Sit down and let me think.'* 56 Anna Maylie, But Anna could not control hei eagerness. Miss Clemmer had never seen her somewhat im- movable features stirred before, and her expres- sion was one of such intense enthusiasm, and her determination not to be refused so plain, that she v^as almost shocked vrith the idea which she re- ceived of Anna's strength of will. Her growing conviction, that this was no commonplace girl, seemed to make her duty only the more difficult. She could not avoid seeing that she had under- taken to deal with a nature much stronger, and more original and daring, than her own. In- deed, she felt she must even only advise her after the most mature deliberation, lest Anna should impetuously lead her where she was not prepared to go. All this while Anna had gone on talking. " I remember so well what I have heard you say, dear teacher, that we could be true ladies, no matter who and what we were with. I always think of it at home when it is at the worst. Now AnnaHs Day at Miss Clemmer^s, 57 I am sure that the ground, and the grass, and the weeds even, are nicer and more agreeable than a kitchen. I can 't think it would make me rougher; and I just love everything out doors so ! And here it would be more refined than among almost anybody's housework — among your roses, and lilies, and arbors, and trees, and nice walks — oh, Miss Clemmer, it would make me a lady if anything would ! " Her torrent of entreaty made Miss Clemmer almost nervous, and she made no reply. She only quietly said, — "You have dropped your book, Anna. And won 't you straighten the melodeon cover, please? — Thank you. And now would n't you like to go down in the garden a little while? I will show you the way down. Tell Johnson, if you please, that I would like him to take you over the grounds and then into the conservatory. Come back when you are tired." The girl understood instinctively that she was 58 Anna Maylie, not at liberty to urge her wishes any farther at present, and she followed Miss Clemmer down stairs in silence. Miss Clemmer came slowly back, and sat down and folded her hands, and tried once more to solve the intricate problem which she had taken up so confidently. She believed domestic service the proper, the most comfortable and honorable employment for nine - tenths of those of her sex w^ho lived by their labor ; but she still clung to her first idea, that there was a different and a more remunerative avocation awaiting Anna May lie ; and she decided that she should not take her into the kitchen until her unfitness for any- thing else was proved. Quite as resolutely she put aside the girl's own plans ; but they came back to her again and again, with Anna's own persistence, until, at last, she wearily asked her- self, "And, pray, why is it not proper ? " She thoughtfully reviewed Anna's reasonings. And although she instinctively shrank from anything Annans Day at Miss Clemmer^s, 59 like innovation, she yet felt that she ought to hon- or her own words to the girl, — that if she was fitted for any particular avocation, God would lead her towards it. " I scarcely think Johnson needs her, or would care to have her come," she pursued. Still, was there any good reason why she should not here act upon the same principle which caused her to hire so many kinds of work done, which she might easily do herself, in order to give employment and wages to those who needed them ? After an hour of thought and perplexity, she said, — "If I could only believe that it would be a lasting benefit to her, I would do it. I would certainly do it if I could in any way become con- vinced that it was really fitting her to earn her own living. I think I have somewhere read of women who grew the small fruits for market as a business, and I really don't see why they might not become professional florists. But 60 Anna May lie. in Anna's case I do n't know, I am sure, wheth- er this would lead to any actual good or not. Yet at present I can see nothing better -to do than to allow her to follow her inclmations. Let me not fail to trust that in all things He leadeth ^ CHAPTEE IV. THE PKAYER MEETING. dM^O^NNA Maylie thought that Friday night, that she had never known any- thing before so peaceful as the twi- light which was shuttino: down so dreamily upon the Clemmer grounds, and around the great house. For to her, Morristown Com- mon, and the house with its waste land, were always, witliout fail, very dreary in the edge of the evening. At that hour, her father was always off down at the saloon on the corner, Jacky and little Jim away on some distant street 62 Anna Maylie, corner with other young vagabonds, and she was left alone, watching long and lonesomely for her tired and belated mother. It had always been, from her earliest remembrance, her hour to hate life. But to - night, twilight was a beautiful hour ; and, listening to her teacher's low tones, life re- vealed itself to her, grand and solemn. She list- ened dreamily, leaning her head against the tasement. The dewy odors of the flower garden ^lled the great, luxurious room, and from where she sat she could see the house stretch away, wing upon wing, with its lighted windows, until it seemed almost like a palace or a temple ; and then she saw the carriage with its lamps drive up, and Miss Gertie go out in her white cloak and floating tarleton, all flowers and brightness. It was all like some beautiful changing dream without, and deeply contrasted with the peaceful, church - like quiet within Miss Clemmer's room, where the story of our sin and His suffering, The Prayer Meeting. 63 which she had heard so often, was being told to her again, until the thino^s seen became to her as a dream, and the things unseen life's only solemn reality. And Anna thought, as she moved away from the window to the melodeon which her teacher had opened, that, this time, she should not forgot the story. Both voices were sweet. Miss Clemmer's was particularly so, while Anna's alto was strong and clear, and ^she knew this part for many tunes which they sang in church and Sabbath school. It seemed to her, as one sacred hymn after an- other floated cut upon the peaceful night, that she could never be fretful and discontented with the troubles of her lot again, since they were but for a season. If she could always be sure that she would remember her responsibility to God «,s she felt it to - night ; if she could only re- member just that and feel it, not fearfully, but lovingly, as she did now, even her life might be grand and serene. 64 Anna Maylte, " And I never can feel again as I have to - day, I think. Here I have fretted because I could not have just my choice of work, when it is all only to last a few months or years. Never once in all my life have I considered what my life would be throughout all eternity. Never once ! I never once remember out of Sunday school that the Son of God died for me. I wonder, if I should become a Christian, if that would keep me from foro^ettino^ it. Life can not be such a trouble to Christians, for I suppose these things I think of for just to - night are always in their minds. Oh, I wish I was a Christian too." She wondered no longer at the placid dignity of Dr. Mason, at the loveliness of her teacher's daily life, or at the serene and beaming look of go many faces she had liked to gaze upon at church. A deep, earnest longing to be a Chris- tian herself took possession of Anna Maylie. With her it was not so much a sorrowing over her past life, as it was an all - pervading wish The Prayer Meeting. 65 henceforward to belong wholly to God. I think even then the hand of Compassion was resting upon her. The thouglit of Jesus came to her as a great gladness. He was the Way, and she knew the Way, and there need be no search. She did not comprehend her gladness. But there came stealing over her such a sweet thank- fulness, that there was to be a prayer meeting that very night, not one of the general kind for the whole world, but a prayer meeting for just their own little Sunday-school class, — her class. It semed to her as if her teacher already lived so near heaven that she had only to reach up her hand to take a blessing down. If she might only reach one down to her ! Miss Clemmer sang on, though she felt that the evening was passing ; but she knew very well that the gate had not o pened, nor had there been any ring at the door - bell since Gertie went. Her ear had' been painfully alert. Her heart sank, for now she felt sure that none of her class 66 Anna Maylie. were coming, — not one of them. Perhaps even Anna would not have been there if she had not been, as it were, entrapped. Her head sank upon the melodeon. " O Heavenly Father, work Thou for me ; I am nothing ; I have faUed." When at last she spoke to the girl who stood at her chair, there was a painful quiver in her voice. " Anna, it is time for our prayer - meet- ing, and I think we will not feel troubled because there are only two of us. Jesus left, as we know, an especial promise to two or three. He must have known, I love to believe, that work for Him would often begin with just two or three, and so He left that sweet, strengthening promise. The girls have none of them come, but we will have our meeting^ all the same." " A prayer meeting for just me ? " Anna re- peated at last, in astonishment. Tears came to Miss Clemmer's eyes as she turned around, and took Anna's hand. The Prayer Meeting, 67 "Just you, dear. Do you not know that if one of my scholars could be given to me as a jewel of rejoicing, I could go on and serve four years longer? Can you tell me, Anna, that you should certainly have come here to - night, if you had not already been here through the day?" Anna thought wonderingly upon the earnest- ness of the question, and the earnestness which she saw upon her teacher's face. " Why, I never thought there was such a thing as not com- ing," she answered, simply. So in the room where she had prayed for them all so many years, IVIiss Clemmer knelt with her one faithful scholar. Anna knelt also, feeling half friohtened at the thousfht that an entire prayer meeting was being held for her. None of her teacher's sorrow and longing could be hidden in her prayer, and Anna was shaken to see her so moved. Her head sank low in her hands. " Can she have felt like this for us, for me, 6S Anna Maylie. these four years ? We were not worth this ; no one on earth is." She knew nothing of prayer like this. She had heard sinners prayed for, indeed, and listened unmoved as church going people do. But this tearful pleading for Rachel, for Satie, and Fanny, and Clara, and herself too, was prayer that shook her like a tempest. Once with a white face she glanced toward the door, and listened for foot- steps, she believed that they must come ; she too prayed that they might. If they had listened never 80 carelessly in Sunday - school, they could not hear the name of Jesus pronounced here without tears. " Oh, it will never, never be so again with me," she thought, " for I have heard EQm say even unto me, ' Behold my hands and my feet ! ' I wonder if He does not once appear unto every one who will go and be His disciple." Pale, but with a face of light, Miss Clemmer rose. Anna stood irresolutely a moment, and then went to her teacher's side. " Oh, I am so The Prayer Meeting. 69 grieved ; I can not bear to see you suffer so ; we are not worth it." Miss Clemmer hushed her, and drew her be- side her on the sofa. " Anna, you are grieved to see me suffer for you ; and yet so often you have heard me tell of Jesus and been unmoved. You know so well of those hours in the garden ; you know of His life here. Every sinner that has lived, and will live, He bore in His heart, and wept over, and sorrowed over with a grief to which my poor human grief is as a shadow and a dream. He died, Anna, and such a death ! Oh, I have sometimes thought that He suffered, in dying, the pains of all the millions of earth when they die. — Have you no heart to give your Sav iour, Anna?" Anna's face was wet with tears, but she looked up quietly into her teacher's eyes. " I believe 1 love Him ; I know I love Him. But that is so little ; how can I show it ? " A sound as of a sob outside the door arrested 70 • Anna Maylie, them. Miss Clemmer hastily crossed the floor, but she saw no one. She went down the pas- sage, but there was no one to be seen. She came back to the window and sat down. As she held Anna's hand in hers, and tried to pray for wisdom in her hour of rejoicing, she became con- scious of a swift figure passing under the trees skirting the walk, and afterwards she felt sure that she saw, in the faint starlight, the gate open and close. Something about the form, its swift grace perhaps, aroused her suspicions, but she preferred not to speak of them. She turned back to Anna. But the girl had withdrawn into her- self, and Miss Clemmer did not think it best to urge her confidence ; she knCw the heart when full would overflow. Looking at her watch, she said, " It is nine, I see ; and I suppose I must send you back to your mother. I shall want you again soon. I would like to think over m}^ plans for a few days. I am not quite sure but I shall adopt yours ; and The Prayer Meeting, 71 then 1 will see you. I will talk to Johnson about work among the strawberries. I do not see why a girl may not properly enough trim rose - bushes, and cut off strawberry runners. I will soon come round and see you, Anna." She would not withhold any brightness from Anna's life ; she told her, that she might have it for her hope and cheer. She went down with her to the garden gate, and as she bade her good night, she said, " Do not be concerned about the way to show it ; only be sure you love Jesus. You can not then avoid showing it. For our re- ligion, Anna, is life ; in one sense it is like the life of the beautiful tree beneath which you stand ; if it is alive, it will put forth leaves, and in due time, flowers and fruit. You can not hide the * Life of God in the soul of man.' " CHAPTER V. SEAECHmG FOR A CROSS. Saturday brought many sad and weary reflections to Miss Clemmer. Pondering over the lesson for to - mor- l\ i row, her thoughts would constantly revert to the fact that only one of her girls came to her prayer meeting. They had had but one opportunity, it is true. Still, she felt strangely hopeless of them all. And she went to her class, the next day, in the same discouraged mood, and still undecided what she would say to them Searching for a Oi'oss, 73 Her young ladies were all in their places, but she felt there was a change. As she took her seat, she missed that indescribable, pleasant, little stir among them, the smile of wordless greeting, and the old look of trust and affection. To - day their very quietness gave her the feeling that between them and her had arisen a 2:rowin2: distance. Could it be possible that, in her solici- tude for them, she had raised a barrier between herself and her girls ? Had she made a mistake ? Was it possible for her Heavenly Father to allow any service performed for Him in such singleness and sorrow of heart to become a mistake ? With a fervent prayer to be taught of God what to do, and His way of accomplishing it, she put her new troubles aside, and took up the les- son for the day with as much of the old freedom as she could command. But a new disquiet seized upon her. Anna Maylie had not yet come. One anxious thought after another passed through her mind, and she felt how mechanically 74 Anna May lie, she was going on with the lesson. Could the child also have made a mistake? Could feeling, excitement, or sympathy perhaps, have misled her? and, conscious of her mistake, was she now shrinking from meeting her teacher? These thoughts too Miss Clemmer tried to put aside. She reasoned firmly with herself, that never yet had her faith been fed with Dead Sea apples. She remembered how, all the morning while pre- paring for church, and all Saturday, she had felt a peaceful assurance respecting Anna, — that the Good Shepherd had been seeking her ; that the Master had called her into His service. She at last became satisfied that this was a day of temptations, a day through which she was called to live by faith, and not by sight. She experienced a great relief when she at last saw Anna coming up the aisle, with the same pleasant look of peace resting on her bright face. She felt sudden contrition too. She bowed her head in humility as she remembered that, all this Searching for a Cross, 75 while, she had been murmuring, because she had not received still greater reward for her one small service. " Should I have asked my entire class for my one prayer meeting ? " she thought in her self-reproach. And then, as if to strengthen her, a voice sounded sweetly in her ear : " For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and return eth not thither, but wa- tereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater : " So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth ; it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." As the hour of school drew to its close, she pondered whether she ought not to invite Anna home with her for an hour's conversation. She might strengthen her perhaps, and perhaps ad- vise her. But she felt intuitively that it was 76 Anna Maylie, better to leave Anna to seek her. " If she needs me, she will some. I am fearful of confusing her ; her ways are not my ways." She could not, however, resist the impulse to take the girl's hand in hers as they sang for the last time. Anna felt the closer sympathy, the dearer tie. As they were dismissed, she turned, and mur- mured again the one only sentence she seemed, as yet, able to utter. "I know I love Jesus. I know I do. Miss Clemmer." Her gentle, beaming look made light in a dark place, and though Anna herself had gone, the look still strengthened Miss Clemmer, as she gently but firmly detained the rest. " The prayer meeting for my class will be held regularly every Friday night in my room. If they do not come, I may trust, may I not, that my girls do not for- get it?" She tried to scan each countenance. Clara and Satie were studiously indifferent. Fanny Rowland had quite averted her face. Neither Searching for a Cross. 77 would Kachel meet that sorrowful, searching blue eye ; but the workings of her dark, haughty face revealed what she could not entirely hide, — a struggle going on in the heart beneath. Miss Clemmer saw it all, and she remembered now that she had noticed that same look of hopeless- ness upon Kachel's face before, during the past year. She continued, still detaining them, — " Already one of those so dear to me has found the pearl of great price. Girls, Anna knows that she loves Jesus ! " She turned and let them pass out. One by one they went by her, and made no sign. In- stead, they looked willful, and hardened too, she thought. Her girls, who always had had some sweet word for her before, — for Anna May lie had not been alone in her loving admiration for her teacher. At first, she thought that Eachel half intended to pause and speak to her, but the irresolution and the hope were alike momentary. " My girls have hardened their hearts against 78 Anna Maylie, me ! " she said, so sadly, again and again that afternoon. But the promise of the morning re- peated to her again and again its lesson of faith, and through it all she found herself at last be- lieving that merely human words like hers would have never alarmed them so. She went forth cherishing a trembling faith that the Holy Spirit was hovering near her work. Friday night came round again, and it brought Anna Maylie to her teacher's prayer meeting, but brought not one of the rest. Still, doubt not that that prayer meeting accomplished " the work whereto it was sent." For that night a great blessing of faith was let down upon the teacher's tired heart, and though her girls indeed were not there, she felt, for the first time, quietly secure as to the final result of her work ; and she felt too that it was by no means necessary that her girls should, first of all, come to her prayer meeting. Searching for a Cross. 79 A strange excitement seemed to have posses- sion of Anna that night as she knelt by her teach- er's side. And as she drew near the close of her own petition, Miss Clemmer herself grew aware that the child was trembling. As Miss Clemmer ceased, Anna lifted her voice in a swift utterance, — a swift, broken utterance which told its own tale to the teacher of the struo^ole which Anna had gone through over the performance of this duty. And it was a strange prayer too, — the prayer of a strong, simple nature bent upon its one purpose. It was not a prayer for more love; it came from a heart full to the brim of love ; but the burden of its crying was, " Lord, what wilt thou have me to do ? " " Lord, why hast thou bestowed upon her the worker's zeal, and withheld the worker's talent?" Miss Clemmer found herself, almost unconscious- ly, questioning as the girl's intensity weighed down upon her. From the depths of her own humility came the 80 Anna Maylie, reproving answer : " thou of little faith ! Was it not so from the beginning? Hath not God chosen the weak things of the world to con- found the things which are mighty ? The Master may even choose that she, and not you, shall ac- complish the precious work which you have planned." As the evening wore to its close, and they lin- gered at the melodeon. Miss Clemmer said, " I have said very little to you, Anna, but I think you must know what it is to me that you have entered the new life. I have not questioned you, because 1 can not make it seem to myself that it is necessary. It seems to me that youi measure of faith and love is running over, my happy Anna. I also know that you love Jesus. If you needed my counsel it would be different." Anna smiled back her teacher's look, but then her brow clouded, and she laid aside her bonnet again, and sat dowm. "I am your happy Anna," she said. "But yet I have my troubles. And Searching for a Cross, 81 to me they are great troubles, thougli they may not seem much to one like you." " Tell me about them, Anna. I should be glad to have you." Anna did not hesitate. "You told me that if I loved Jesus I could show it ; — you said there would be ways." " And you do not find it so ? " " Not yet. I have found nothing that I am satisfied to call a way. Do you think that just to be happy is enough ? to be always just so pleas- ant and even - tempered is anything ? It is so very easy, now, never to be vexed. Why, Miss Clemmer, I am almost frightened sometimes be- cause I find no cross anywhere in my religion I " " So you find no crosses, Anna? " "No — that is — yes. Miss Clemmer, it was hard to pray here to - night, but in such a very few moments after I would, and did, there was no more strusfsjle at all about it. But what I meant is, that I am almost unhappy because 1 82 Anna Maylie. can find no work to do for Him ; no hard {hing to do that would show that I love him." Crosses had been plenty for Miss Clemmer. Should she search to find them for those willing shoulders? She conscientiously went over the girl's duties so far as she could know them, and searched to see if that strangely - coveted cross was not among them. " Of course you read your Bible?" she said. "You read it as you never did before, praying for light to read it by; you could not neglect to pray and still be so happy ; you restrain selfishness? — why, Anna, I think you can not avoid the confession of your Saviour ; avoid showing that you love him in a thousand ways." Anna shook her head sadly over Miss Clem- mer's help. " All this has been so easy." " You want some distinct, positive work to do, perhaps. Is that it?" " That is it. Eeal work — hard work." "Does it not lie at your feet, dear? There are Searching for a Cross, 83 those little brothers. Are they in the true way ? " Anna made no answer now. There was cer- tainly work. Miss Clemmer enlarged not upon her suggestions. She felt it was better to allow one like Anna to find her own way to do her own work. Anna sat there a long time silent, but as she rose to go, and said good night, she added, " It's Jacky and Jim I do suppose. I am afraid that it was pleasant hard work that I wanted, aft- er all." As Miss Clemmer closed the door, she sighed over this first cloud upon Anna's happy face. She knew that she had found one of the most heavy of the Christian's crosses, — the coming down of the soul from the heavenly hights to do a commonplace duty. CHAPTER VI ber life. RACHEL. HAD many opportunities of ob- serving Miss Clemmer, during the years I lived in Morristown, and 1 became deeply impressed with the harmony of She was placed in the very highest circle of society, and I, like many others, had always considered this the most difficult place of all for a Christian to be a consistent Christian. But Miss Clemmer moved in it without casting a single reproach upon the cause of Christ. She was a lovely example of obedience to the injunc- tion, to be in the world but not of it. She shared Rachel. 85 in many of its unobjectionable pleasures ; she had a pleasant, reasonable interest in the fashions, and in new books, and pictures, and in the pub- lic events around her. She received and paid calls, and I am sure was none the less a sincere Christian because she carried a silver card - case, and chose that her velvets should be royal and Jaer laces real. I saw all this, but 1 observed at the same time, — and no one could fail to see it, — that she shone in society with a light not of this world. Although it was always unobtrusively, she was ever busy about her Master's work. Her culti- vated and Christian taste controlled a large circle in the selection of books, the choice of lectures and amusements and buying of music, and in the matter of social entertainments. And I can not tell you how many reputations she has saved, how many giddy girls she has held back from dan- gerous paths, how much boldness she checked, how many scandals she quietly quenched, and 86 Anna May lie. how she raised the standard of womanly character in the minds of all those with whom she was sur- rounded. I think that none in the circle of her acquaintance, — not even the most worldly wom- an or the boldest skeptic, — ever sneered at Miss Clemmer's religion. So I trust you will not fear that the influence of her little Friday prayer meeting had faded away from her mind, when I tell you that I saw her on Saturday, in the Clemmer carriage, paying a long list of fashionable calls. During the after- noon, I had seen it waiting, here and there, in several streets, and just as I was going home, I saw it glittering across the Common and pausing in front of Tom Maylie's little, old, brown house. Anna came out to the gate just a little awed by the showy equipage ; but the primrose - gloved fingers clasped the brown hand with a cordiality as earnest as Anna's own. "I can not stop, Anna, but Johnson says the roses must be cut on Eachel. 87 Monday for the rose water, and the housekeeper wishes to make the strawberry preserves next week also ; so if you still retain your fancy for out- of- door life, we can keep you busy all the week. And I must not forget to add, that John- son has taken quite a fancy to you. And the wages too, — I shall pay you fifty cents per day, if that will be satisfactory to yourself and to your mother." "Fifty cents — so much? — that will be five cents — only five cents ! " " Only five cents ? " repeated Miss Clemmer, inquiringly. Anna colored. " One - tenth, I meant." " One - tenth ? I do not quite comprehend you, Anna." She hesitated a little, and then answered, quietly : " The Bible system of giving is what I meant. I always thought I should like to give in that old way, Miss Clemmer. I hope I do n't seem pre- 88 Anna Maylie, sumptuous in speaking so, Miss Clemmer ; but I like Bible ways. Only ^ye cents is such a very small sum, — such a very small sum to give. I do n't know what to do about it, after all." Miss Clemmer regarded the girl in silence. She was looking far away, and seemed so anx- ious, and so earnest. She remembered what the girl's own needs must be and the needs of the family. She said to herself, " I should not bear comparison at all with this little cottage Chris- tian. I wonder, too, where her thoroughness will lead her." Finally she spoke : " You may be contented, Anna. Be sure that when God wishes you to give more than five cents for His cause, he wil) at the same time place more than fifty cents in your hands to use." She bade her good- bye, and was driven away. Anna stood by the gate, absently watching the silver gleam of carriage and harness until all was out of sight. She was evidently busy with some RacheL 89 train of reasoning ; for slie said aloud at last, " Would it be right, then, to rest contented with fifty cents, since five cents is all I owe of it to the Lord? She could not have meant anything like that. Oh, I never cared for money as I do now. " Miss Clemmer rode home pondering upon Anna May lie's strange thoroughness, and feeling what a responsible position it was to stand in the place of guide to such a strong nature, — a nature not to be led and guided after all, she saw, but one that needed help, judicious help and sympa- thy. As she left the carriage and entered the house, the housekeeper met her in the hall and said, " There he's a young lady in the large drawing - room. Miss Clemmer. She called when you was out, and I told her, and told her as Miss Gertie too was away at the picnic, but she said as she would wait until you came ; and she be's in there now." 90 Anna Maylie. Miss Clemmer turned back and entered the drawing - room. In the shadows of the heavy curtains she did not at first recognize her visitor, but after a moment she saw that it was one of her class, — Rachel Mansfield. She greeted her warmly : " It is so long since you were here, Rachel." But Miss Clemmer speedily saw that some es- pecial errand had brought her ; for upon all topics the conversation soon flagged. Rachel, so good a talker, had only monosyllables for "Beulah," for the last volume of Robertson's sermons, for Archbishop Manning's Apostacy, for " Star Papers," for the coming strawberry festival, for Esquire Rowland's approaching departure for Europe ; — only monosyllables, or some brief re- mark. However, she was easily prevailed upon to stay to tea with Miss Clemmer ; but as they entered the hall on their way back, she laid her hand on Miss Clemmer's arm. "Not back there, Miss Clemmer. Won't you take me to your own Rachel, 91 room, — the little prayer meeting room ? I must see you quite alone." Miss Clemmer led the way thither, and as they entered the dimly -lighted apartment, the haughty girl turned and buried her face on her teacher's shoulder. "I am so wretched, — so wicked and wretched," she sobbed ; " and if you do n't help me I shall perish now ; — there must be an end soon, I know." " Why, Rachel ! " and Miss Clemmer led her to the sofa and sat down by her. " What has made you wretched ? You know that I will help you if I can ; but I think — it is not my help that you need, is it, Rachel?" "Yes, yours. You can pray. You must pray, for you have prayed for me, Miss Clemmer, until I am utterly miserable, and you must not leave me now. Four years I know you have been praying for me, and every year I have grown Btiil more wretched." The girl was rocking to and fro, and there waa 92 Anna Maylie. no color in her face, save the blackness of her eyes and the pallor of her cheeks. " I think 1 am lost, though," she added, drearily. Miss Clemmer spoke very gently to her. " No, Rachel. If that were so, I can not think you would feel such concern." " Yes I should ; for you know nothing of how I have grieved away the Spirit, — the Holy Spirit which I know has striven with me. Why, I have just fought not to come to your prayer meetings ! I came one evening. Miss Clemmer, but I tore myself away and went back. I walked my room all night that night. And I meant not to come to you at all ! Yet I am here, and if you can help me, you may; — if you could, I suppose I should be glad. But, Miss Clemmer, I am so wicked that I do n't even know that I want to be a Christian ! I doubt if I care for more than in some way to be relieved of my wretchedness. Is not that feeling the next step to being lost?" EacheL 93 **It must indeed be very terrible to feel, iny dear Racliel. Yet I do n^t think you really do feel so. I think, instead, that so much loss of sleep has disturbed your mental balance. I do not doubt your wretchedness of soul, my poor, sin - sick child ; still, a part of this utter hope- lessness about yourself comes of physical pros- tration , — hush — do n't try to talk any more now. Let me talk to you, and your answers need be only ^yes' and ^no.' Try to think now of what I ask you. Is not your very strong- est feeling an utter abhorrence of yourself? " The girl sprang up from Miss Clemmer's sooth- ing hand. " Abhor myself ? I hate myself ! I have no respect for myself left ! For four years I have been too proud — I actually refused — to bend my knee to my Maker, to my Creator ! I, the poor child of a day ! I have repeatedly and willfully turned my back upon my Saviour, — the Prince of Life who died for me ! Yes, I know it all. He died for me. I have shrunk from 94 Anna Maylie. naming His name ! I have trampled upon all His kindness ! And I have avoided my best friends because they loved Him ; and I have walked boldly with His enemies ! Oh, do you not see? — I have done it all so willfully, so de- fiantly ! I believe I have sometimes rejoiced in my victories when I have broken away from His Holy Spirit and gone my own ways ! " Miss Clemmer sat there, delicate, slender, white, and trembling before this dark, impetu- ous girl, as she poured forth this torrent of words, turning her eyes imperiously upon her at the close of each sentence as if she would ask, " What can you, or your prayers, do for one like me?" Yet when Eachel sank back exhausted in her seat, she quietly resumed, " I can see why you hate yourself, as you say. It is for persisting in sin- ning and staying away when you long so for the peace and the purity of the Christian life. You are fighting so hard all the while not to be a Christian, Kachel, you must see that the Holy Rachel. 95 Spirit has not deserted jou, or the struggle would be over. Why, Rachel, I truly think you have only to give up and let your heart go its own way ! I truly think that, so thoroughly do you hate your own sinfulness, you have only to turn and stretch out your hand toward the Saviour, and you would be a Christian ! I can see that you are holding yourself away only by a most terrible exercise of your will. I am certain, from the very struggle, that Jesus is extending forgive- ness to you still. How can you hold out ? How can you refuse this faithful love, my poor Rachel?" " I can not give up," she answered, sadly. " I am powerless to do that." " Can you not confess that you want to be a Christian? You do, do you not?" " I really, really do not know," said the girl, piteously. " My poor Rachel ! Yet I feel certain that you do. Else why did you come to me ? If you 96 Anna Maylie, had been contented to remain a sinner, you would not have come. Do you not see, Eachel?" " I was so wretched I could not stay at home,'* Rachel answered. She rose as she spoke, and looked around her so wearily that Miss Clemmer's eyes filled with tears. " I thought there might be ease found with you, — but it is just the same. No, Miss Clemmer, I will not stay any longer to - night ; but when I am gone you may pray for me. I need it, God knows ! " But at the door she came back. " Anna Maylie — did you tell us that Anna Maylie — that she" — " Yes, Eachel. Anna has found peace." " How was it ? " she asked, hesitatingly. " Simply by loving Jesus. She forgot herself, Rachel." After a pause she inquired, " Does she live at home ? " and bidding Miss Clemmer good night, she was gone. CHAPTER VII. THE STORY OF JOSEPH. NNA rose on Saturday morning, after the last prayer meeting, feeling just as decided and earnest to do something about Jacky and Jim as she did when she left Miss Clemmer the night before. From the very first, her Christianity was a working Christianity, and it had from the very first revealed itself by work. She had been utterly faithful in her humble, little field. At home, she had taken more steps than ever to make the house attractive. She had read in 98 Anna Maylie, Sunday - school books of girls who had made a home as shabby as hers so pleasant a place that the fathers and brothers were won to stay by their own fireside. But she could n't see that her nicely - ironed, white table - cloths, and the pitch- er of roses which she placed among the plates of potatoes and bread, had, as yet, any effect upon her father and brothers. So soon as the meals were over, they were off and away, and they came home as boisterous as ever. It was with the greatest difficulty that she ever kept Jacky and Jim within reach of her voice for five min- utes. But this morning, by extra efforts and much maneuvering, she succeeded in retaining them until her mother was gone, and then she left the dishes, and all the work standing, and sat down to tell them the story she had promised. In the most entertaining style which she could command, she commenced the story of Joseph and liis brethren, prefacing it with the informa- tion that the same Book held many other such The Story of Joseph. 99 nice stories, and if they should like this one, she would sit down every morning and tell them one. But our little home missionary encountered troubles which she had never dreamed of. They might have listened to Dr. Mason, or to Miss Clemmer, in respectful silence ; but with her they felt at liberty to interrupt at any time, and it was perfectly startling to Anna to hear their remarks^ and to witness the transformation which the beau- tiful Oriental incidents suffered upon passing through the imaginations of these young Amer- ican street - boys. And Jacky, as being the elder brother, seemed to feel that it devolved upon him to bring all the foreign features of the story down to little Jim's comprehension. For instance, the Eastern system of feeding flocks and herds waa altogether too vast for little Jim's mind, and as Anna explained it to him, Jacky proceeded to il- lustrate : '* I see how 't was, and I '11 tell you, Jim, — 100 Anna May lie. but it was a jolly go, — 't would n't go down now- a-days, no how ! See here now, Jim, 'twas like this : S 'posin' now Mr. Clark upon the hill kept thousands and thousands of sheep, and they 'd eat off his pastures spic and span, nipped every blade clean into the ground, and then he should send Hank and Charlie on with 'em right onto Hartwell's farm, and they 'd stay there till they 'd eat everything there, and then they 'd be up and off onto old Meyrick, or Green, and so on, — nobody knows where." As well as she could, Anna explained to them that the land in those young years of the world was not fenced or owned as it is now, and that there were only a few great boundaries, such as rivers, or ranges of mountains, for the few tribes and families, and that thousands and thousands of acres, — whole counties, and states, — would belong to one family and it branches. She soon found that her efforts at explanation helped her to a very vivid realization of it all herself. The Story of Joseph. 101 The boys were quite taken with the I'ree life of those young Jewish shepherds, — a dozen or so of boys away from home, out from under their father's eyes for weeks and weeks together. "Kee-e Jim! Wouldn't we hke that? Would n't it be prime, though? " Anna laughed with them, but felt herself called upon to inform them of what age those " boys" of Jacob's probably were at that time, — boys of twenty - eight and thirty perhaps, — like the men who owned the corner grocery, Grey son and Hall, or grave Mr. Lee, the cashier at Mr. Clem- mer's bank. This idea of " boy" was rather over- whelming to Jacky and Jim, and they both pre- served a respectful silence, until Anna came to the description of letting Joseph down into the pit. They asked question upon question concerning <-he pit, and little Jim was very much disgusted with Anna because she was not certain whether the pit was a dry cistern dug to catch rain water 102 Anna Maylie, in the rainy season for the flocks and herds, or whether it was a great hole excavated for the pur- pose of trapping lions. He inclined to the latter opinion, because he thought it would be such fun to lay the limbs of trees across, and put the dead lamb on, and then run and hide, and watch to see the lion steal up and pounce upon the lamb, and then break through and fall in. And the possibility of Joseph's being in the pit at the same time the lion fell in, seemed to possess a strange fascination for Jacky, and to incline him to Jim's view of the matter. At this point, listening to their animated dis- cussions and suggestions, Anna felt quite unde- cided as to whether her Bible story was having a good or bad influence upon her little listeners. They dwelt a long time upon Joseph in the pit ; and Jacky lingered so long to compute the probable tallness of a boy of seventeen, and he rendered it so probable that Rex Palmer, or even himself, coiilJ have scrambled up the sides, and The Story of Joseph, 103 been off and away, that Anna felt not only obliged to darken and deepen the pit, and to state that Joseph was probably bound before he was put in, but also to suppose that his brothers remained quite near, and that he was in much greater terror of them than he was of the pit, because they had at first intended to actually kill him ; and that he must have felt much safer in the pit than with them. Finally, to entice them away, she drew a vivid picture of the Midianites and their camels ; but she could not succeed in interesting them until she referred them to the camel they saw when they visited the caravan, a year or two before. Jacky then remembered the giraffe^ perfectly well, and Jim had retained a vivid remembrance of the elephant ; but the camel seemed to have made no impression at all upon their minds ; and they remembered so many other things so much bet- ter, and in such rapid succession, — the monkeys, and Tom Thumb in his car, and the baby ele- 104 Anna May lie, phant, and Mr. Nellis, — " the man without any arms, you know, Sis," — that Sis repented very much having referred to the camel of the caravan at all. Especially was it so when little Jim per- sisted to the last in loading the Midianites upon Zebras, and Jacky spoke of them as the peddlers and the camelopards. But when it came upon them that Joseph was sold, their interest w^as renewed. "My, Sis! — you do n't mean they could sell little Joseph ! " "Yes, they did, — the cruel brothers, — the wicked brothers ! " " D' you know how much they got ? " " Twenty pieces of silver." " Kee-e ! that was something now. Was they quarters, or only dimes, d'you know? " There was something so perfectly diabolical in the face of the child as he asked this question, that Anna felt much more inclined to " cuff his ears" than to answer him. Still, as well as she could, she explained to them that the probable The Story of Joseph. 105 value of a "piece of silver" was about fifty cents. " So they got twenty half- dollar pieces, — ten dollars ? D' you hear that, Jim ? I' d sell you for that, any day ! " Sadly out of patience, Anna dismissed her young street Arabs, feeling that she liad done them just no good at all. She rose with a help- less consciousness that their minds were quicker and stronger than hers, and that she could never teach them. They were so very different from the bad boys of books, — not vicious, not cruel, — but so free and lawless. They had "real- ized" and Americanized her simple Bible story until she was actually frightened from her task. She felt that it would have been far more easy to deal with profanity, or theft, or 'lying, than to have thus encountered the free - thinking irrever- ence of those sharp little street- corner urchins. CHAPTER Vni. THE NEW TWILIGHT. HAVE spoken somewhere before of Anna Maylie's loveliness when twi- light came. She was almost always, at that hour, the only occupant of the houee ; the great Common, noisy an hour before with base ball, quoits, and other uproarious games, was now deserted and joined its lonesome- ness to the gray desolation of their own waste land with its broken fences ; for the old brown house stood upon a disgraced remnant of the The New TwilighL 107 countless acres which had been the great Maylle estate in the days when her grandfather, old Colonel Maylie, was one of the magnates of the county. Anna never felt that they could afford a light until her mother came home, and the candle was needed for their work ; so she usually sat in the gathering darkness, by the window, or in the door, or went down and stood by the gate. Thus it happened, naturally enough, that twilight had been the hour, all her life, for growing bitter over her lot. Anna Maylie certainly had a sunny - looking face. Her clear eyes, and bright braided hair, and her plumpness, and her freshness, gave one a strong impression of cheer- fulness ; but I have found that bitter thoughts and a general discontent lurk beneath rosy cheeks and bright eyes quite as often as where I used to associate them when, I was a child, with a wrinkled brow and a pale face. And even now thc4igh Anna, as she joyfully believed, had be- 108 Anna Maylie, come a Christian, and all her thoughts and re- flections had become very different from what they once were, she often felt something which was akin to the old depression. Many young Christians would have devoted that hour to prayer, and perhaps it would have been better for Anna ; but it was not quite like her to do that ; for something like prayer, — a perpetual thanks giving that she had become a lamb of the fold, a perpetual aspiration for help and wisdom, — was constantly arising from her heart like perfume from a flower. A blind wish that she could bet ter her lot, and the hopelessness of that wish, to- gether with her daily mortifications, used to be the burden of her bitter loneliness. But now, since the divine fiat, " Let there be light," had gone forth, Anna's nature was full of tumult. All her latent energies were moving dimly. The creative force, the breath of Life, which was brooding over the depths of her soul, was the Love of Jesus ; and the center of all her longings The Nqw Twilight. 109 was to Work for Jesus. This feeling grew so strong that it really began to unsettle her first joyous happiness. She felt sometimes like a mis- sionary without any field, — nothing but a home, and for that field she felt a hopeless incapacity al- most amounting to a positive disinclination. Her morning's experience with Jacky and Jim had been so discouraging ! If the boys had been positively bad, if they had had glaring wicked- ness, she could have encountered them ; she would have known much better how to talk. But how to combat their street -smartness, how to fill them with the proper awe for God's word, was much more difficult. If she could only have quelled their roguish pranks, it would have been a OTeat comfort to her to talk to them to - night. But they were both off, hatless, shoeless, jacket- less, down town, gathered under some street lamp with a dozen of their young comrades, play- ing " toss up" for an orange or an apple. How well she could tell just where each mem- 110 Anna Maylie» ber of the family was at this hour, and what they were doing ! Her mother was probably just fin- ishing up the day's washing and ironing, or house - cleaning at Squire Rowland's and, per- haps, was just starting home with the hard- earned dollar which must stretch to buy the Saturday nights groceries and vegetables. She could see her coming so plainly, — a little bent, — with such a slow, painful, tired step, — poor, poor tired mother ! Her father — he was down at the corner saloon, which was not far from the Common, the chief source of its profits, spending his dollar if he had one ; if he had n't one he was at the saloon just the same ; for his singing brought customers enough to Mallory to more than pay for all the liquor he would drink. Old Colonel Maylie had given his son a thorough ed- ucation, a fine musical education especially, as his tastes seemed to lean that way ; and even now it was as good as any concert to hear him sing, — 60 it was said, though Anna had never heard The New Twilight. Ill him ; — as good as any concert to hear poor Tom May lie sing the songs of twenty years ago ; and floating out, rich and clear, upon the evening streets, they beguiled many a well - dressed gen- tleman down the narrow steps who never else would have entered Mallory's saloon. Head and heart both ached with the troubles of home, until she felt that, for to - night at least, she could do no more than leave them all in God's hands. She went out, down to the gate, and stood gazing around at the small, miserable houses which skirted the Common on all its four sides, each with its tiny spark of candle light. '* Here, too, is work," sighed Anna. " Is it work for me, I wonder? Would Miss Clemmer point me to this ? For I do n't believe there is a Christian, or a person, who cares for their soul, within reach of my voice, if I should call out ever so loudly. I know there is nobody in these houses who has been inside of a church, or a prayer meeting, for four years ! I do feel as if I 112 Anna May lie, might have managed to have at least mother" — "Hello, Anna !" interrupted a boy who came along whistling, his hands in his pockets and a ragged straw hat on his head. "Hello, Eex ! she answered. He paused by the gate, and looked on to the next house, the one on the corner. "No one at home, I see. I wish Lute would ever stay at home and get supper for a fellow \ " "You at work, somewhere, Rex?" "No— why?" " Nothing ; only I dare say Lute do n't think it so necessary to get supper if there's nobody at work. You ought to be doing something, Rex ? " "Me? Oh, I'm no good." " Then you ought to be ashamed ! " "Well, what of it, and who cares? Supposing I am ashamed — what then ? " " But of course you ai'n't ashamed. If you was, you 'd do different. Here you are, eighteen years old, Rex Palmer, and if Lute did n t take The New Twilight. 113 in sewing all the while, where would your living come from ? I just wish I had your strength ! What are you going to do, any way, Hex? You '11 be twenty -one soon. I heard Johnson say that, when he was twenty - one, he had earned enough to come to America and had a hundred dollars besides. What are you going to do, Eex?" "Oh, Id' know ! Stay on in the old house, I suppose." " 'T would be better for you, Eex Palmer, if the old house should burn down ! " "Could n't get anything to do if I wanted to," Eex said, sulkily. "I've hung 'round the stores and the depots, and there ain't a job offered me once a month." "Offered you!" repeated Anna, contemptu- ously. "Why do n't you ask for work?" " Humph ! Great yon know of such things ! I tell you, there ain't anything in Morristown to do for a fellow like me. If there was, I 'd do it, 114 Anna May lie, if only to get rid of Lute's scolding. She scolds from morninoj till nio^ht." " I dare say, — poor Lute ! There 's herself, and you, and Mary, and Min, to support and work for ; and what do you do to help her ? Nothing, only to split a few sticks of wood now and then ! " " What is the use of your growing up in this way, Rex? " slie added, in a kinder tone. "You could be just as good - looking a young business man as there is on Main Street. I 've often looked at you coming up the street, and thought if you would only get rid of your lounging walk, and could wear good clothes, and have your hair barbered like Virgil Dustin and those Academy boys, you would look full as well as they." " Well, I declare, Anna Maylie ! " But a flush of gratification swept over his face and left its light in his great gray eyes, and its pride in the lift of his head ; and as he swept the mass of jet black hair away from his forehead. The New Twilight, 115 he did look handsome. There was the material for a man in him. But Anna had no intention of complimenting him. She was only speaking of an evident fact. She went on earnestly : " If you really can't get anything to do, Rex, why don't you go to school this summer ? — School is free to everybody ; you have plenty of time." "That's nonsense, Anna I Isha'n't do that. What would folks say? I'd get laughed at finely." "And that would kill you, I suppose? " "Well — no. I rather guess if I can stand your talk I could stand that. You 're pretty good at giving a fellow a going over, Anna ! " " Rex, I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings in any way ; but I have always felt that you could be somebody, and I wish I could see you at it. Honestly, now, you must go to school." He looked down at himself with a sarcastic smile. " I'm a pretty figure to go to school I 116 Anna Maylie. Not a whole garment in the world, and Lute is such a washer ! " "But, Eex, 1 will mend your clothes, and I will keep them in order too. I am the same as my own mistress here, alone all day long." A flush mounted to his forehead, and Anna saw it. "That is," she added, "I will if you will turn round and teach me in the evening what you learn in the day-time. I only wish I could go to school ! " " I was just wondering why you did n't prac- tice what you preach. I'd like to know what wonderful good you have ever done ! " " Oh, dear, I do n't know, Eex ! I need somebody to tell me what to do full as much as you do — hush ! — some one is coming." Some one was always coming for that matter, but this seemed to b^ some one in particular, — a tall figure, — a young lady, evidently. Eex saw her, and was off. " Good evening, Anna," said a quiet voice. The JSTew Twilight, 117 Anna managed to say " good evening," and then stood silent, for it was Kachel Mansfield. What could have brought her there ? For never before had she been seen on Morristovvn Common, — not walking at least. She waited, expecting her to go on, but Kachel stopped. " Then this is where you live, is it, Anna? " " Did n't you know it before ? " asked Anna, bluntly. "Forgive me, Anna," said Eachel, holding out her hand ; " I know very well that I ought to have looked you up before. We have belonged to the same Sunday - school class so long." Anna took the hand. " I did n't mean my question in that way, Eachel. There is nothing to forgive, of course not. Being in the same Sun- day-school class is nothing." " It ought to have been something, Anna. I have always known that our relations should be very different ; but then, if I had lived up to my light in anything, I should be a very different 118 Anna Maylie, girl. Now that I am here, Anna, won't you walk a - ways with me ? " Anna's face expressed her great sm-prise. But she looked back to the unlighted house, standing there with its dark, open doors ; it would seem so silent and lonely, so desolate to her mother when she came. She said, " You are very kind, Rachel, to invite me, but I never like to go away in the evening when I am expecting mother." " You are alone, then ? JVIight we not go in and sit down ? " " If you will, I should be glad." Eachel opened the gate and followed the as- tonished Anna in. She sat down in a chair in the dark, while Anna lighted a candle. As Anna turned to place the light upon the table, she was struck with Rachel's look of utter weari- ness, — her great black eyes looked so sad, and the haughty head leaned heavily upon the white hand which flashed its rings so dazzlingiy. The JSTew Twilight, 119 They gave more light than the candle, she thought. As the young lady raised her eyes, she encountered Anna's expression of sympathy. " You look very tired, Hachel," she said. " And you, — you look very happy, Anna. Are you? Miss Clemmer thinks you are." Anna hesitated. "Yes, I am happy, Eachel. I think I am more happy than contented." " I did not know as that could be with Chris- tians," said Eachel, inquiringly. "I thought there was an end of all the soul's troubles, at least. You, I thought, were entirely happy, from Miss Clemmer's account." It was all said in- quiringly, and Rachel wore an air of being strangely disappointed. Anna was silent for some time, and then she said, thoughtfully, — " It is not unhappiness to be discontented in the way I am. I am only dis- contented because I am so anxious to be doing- good, and I can not see how to do it, even when I can see right where the work lies." 120 Anna Maylie, Rachel leaned back in her chair with a sigh. "Yes, she was right, Anna; you are happy; as happy as God means you to be. There is no mistake about you. But I am sick and wretched, Anna ! " "you,Eachel?" Judge Mansfield's great freestone residence on Maple street, the tales she had heard of the mag- nificence of their style of living, Miss Eachel's rubies and silk dresses, her pony carriage, her visits to New York, and Washington, and Bos- ton, her splendid education, — all this flashed through Anna's mind. ^Not that she would bar- ter one ray of the light which shone upon her own humble pathway for them all ; but how could Rachel be unhappy, unless, indeed, — yet she could not easily imagine Rachel wretched be- cause she was a sinner ! Rachel met Anna's wondering eyes, and turned impatiently. "Do n't say 'you, Rachel ! ' to me in that way, Anna ! I came here because I am The New Tivilight, 121 very miserable, tiud I knew you had found, — ^ everything I want. If you could only sit down and make it all plain for me." A gush of tears came to Anna's eyes then. "You, too, Rachel? How glad it will make Miss Clemmer ! Why, Kachel, it is all so easy ; — it is only to love Jesus." Rachel turned away with the same hopeless look with which she had turned from Miss Clem- mer. " You were never wretched then like me ; you can not help me, either." Not Jesus ? No, Rachel would not have Jesus ! But Anna knew no other remedy for sin. She looked with sorrowful astonishment to see Rachel turn away from the all -powerful Name. She had never heard anything quite so sad as Rachers tone was when she spoke again. "If you, Anna, who have so lately learned the way, can not show it to me, it is of no use." " Have you talked with Dr. Mason ? He is so wise ; he could explain everything to you so much 122 Anna Maylie. « better than I can. He is wise and strong, while I am ignorant and weak. " No," said Eachel, decisively, and at once. " I can not bear his searching eyes, and his searching questions — not yet. He would never let me alone again. I will not — will not com- mit myself so. I could never go back, then." Then Anna saw it all. She said, — " Eachel, it is my way that you must go, after all. I see now what hinders you ; you can not get into the way. You stand at the entrance, and you are busy all the while building up a wall of Kachel Mansfield's pride and Rachel Mansfield's will. It seems as if I could almost see them stand, just like a stone wall, right across your way to heaven ! " At this moment Anna felt no awe of Eachel, and Eachel listened to her with almost a look of dread and quailing. After a moment's thought, Anna came and sat down close by her side and began talking in a The New Twilight, 123 low voice. " You said I had never been wretched, Eachel. I suppose I have not been — like you. But there was a short time when I was even as sad as you ; and I will tell you about it. It was at the first of Miss Clemmer's Friday prayer meet- ings, and she was praying for us all, Rachel, and she was so sorrowful over us ; you never can think what it was. It was very strange, even then ; but all at once I scarcely heard a word. I was away among dreary mountains, in dreary lands, and there, between two gloomy hills, was the cross, and Jesus was on it, and oh, what agony it was upon His face ! And he said, ''It was for thee — fo7' thee ! ' In a moment it was all gone, and I heard Miss Clemmer's voice again, but plainer still, Rachel, I was repeating to myself, ' It was for thee — for thee I ' and what agony it was ! Oh, I could not help loving Him ! How can you ? " Rachel's face was hidden, but she pressed An- na's hand convulsively. In a choked voice she 124 Anna Maylie, said, while her whole frame shook with emotion, —"And it lasts?" ''Yes, Each el, it lasts. I, too, wondei'^d if it would. But as soon as I told Miss Clemmer, as soon as I confessed my Saviour, Rachel, then I knew that I loved Jesus, and that my sins were forgiven." " And you never feel that you are a sinner any more, Anna? " Anna answered not for a long time. At last she said, — " It is a very solemn thing to say ' I am not a wretched sinner ! ' I feel that I should be one, Rachel, if I were not kept by a power that comes from heaven." *'And it will last, you think, Anna? Shall you never do wrong again ? " Anna looked distressed. " O Rachel ! " she ex- claimed, in a pained voice. After many mo- ments' pause, she said, " I know that I have many feelings which are not right, but it seems to me, if I try to put them away, and if I do not willfully The New Tivilight. 125 do that which I know to bo wrong when I am doing it, that the atonement which Jesus has made will always be for me, always availing." " And you are not afraid, Anna, to proclaim to the whole world that you are a Christian ? What if you should go back and lose all this ? " Rachel's proud eyes were bent upon her now ; but Anna Maylie's religion was something not to be torn down by the skepticism, or the analysis, or the pride of Rachel Mansfield. Her face shone with a more glorious light than the light of intellect. In a voice that thrilled her listener, she answered, " I know that I love Je- sus now! And, Rachel, ^ I believe that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto Him' ! " For a moment Rachel forgot her proud, wretched self. She gazed at Anna, and she gazed around the room with its bare walls, and /ts bare floor, its tallow candle, its scanty wood- en furniture, and then again a,t the grave, sturdy 126 Anna Maylie, girl in her calico dress, and for one moment she wished — oh, so mournfully — that she was Anna May lie. She heard voices at the gate. It was Mrs. May lie and the children, and she rose to go. The voice was very quiet and low in which she said. "I will follow your advice, Anna. On my way home I shall call on Dr. Mason. I will not be kept out of heaven by Rachel Mansfield's pride. But I will do my duty as you have shown it to me, dear Anna, and I will leave God to deal with me according to His mercy. " As Rachel walked slowly home, so utterly weary, there came not up to her remembrance any one of those sublime utterances of the mas- ters of thouo^ht and son