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Your unmerited kindness, shown to me on many other occasions, intrusted them to me for publication ; and I welt know that whilst your Grace has felt that the light of such an example as they exhibit ought not to be concealed, you rejoice to know that you have lived to see a British Court which in purity of morals and domestic virtue affords the most blessed contrast to those evil days through which Margaret Godolphin was ena- bled to live in the brightness of a godly purity, and to die in peace. I have the honour to be, Your Grace's obliged and affectionate S. OxoN : Cuddesdon Palace, Feb. 1847. INTRODUCTION. The following Memoir was drawn up by the ac- complished John Evelyn, of Wootton, and intended by him for publication ; but it never received his final corrections. In a manuscript paper of memoranda left at Wootton in Mr. Evelyn's hand- writing, its title occurs in a list of '•' Things I would write out faire and reform if I had the leisure." In his family, the MS. has remained until the present time, having passed into the hands of Mr. Evelyn's great-great-grandson,* His Grace the Honourable Edward Venables- Vernon Har- court. Lord Archbishop of York, by whom it has been intrusted for publication to the care of the present Editor. The MS. which is written with extraordinary care and neatness, and apparently in Mr. Evelyn's own hand- * See Table V. p. 151. INTRODUCTION. writing, has been printed almost as it stands. The original spelling, which is not uniform throughout the volume, has been preserved wherever its strangeness did not throw some obscurity over the meaning of the passage. A few words which here and there were "heedful to complete the sense have been conjecturally inserted, but always in brackets. The text is illustrated by two genealogical tables, a short sketch of the life of Sir George Blagge, and a valuable body of illustrative notes, which the Editor owes to the accurate and well-furnished pen of John Holmes, Esq. of the British Museum, who has kindly contributed them to this volume. From the genealogical table it will be seen, that Mrs. Godolphin sprang from an ancient and honourable house, and that her blood still flows in the veins of some of the most illustrious of the nobility of England. Her husband, who rose to the highest honours of the state, was early left a widower, and, surviving his wife thirty-four years, never remarried. He transmitted to Francis, their only child, the earldom of Godolphin. This Francis, 2nd Earl of Godolphin, married Hen- INTRODUCTION. XI rietta Churchill, eldest daughter and co-heir of John Duke of Marlborough, to whom in her own right passed the dukedom of Marlborough. By the death without issue of William Godolphin, first, Viscount Rialton, and afterwards, Marquis of Blandford, — their only son who attained to manhood, — the honours of the house of Marlborough passed to the family of Spencer from the descendants of Margaret Godolphin. By the marriage of Mary the heiress of the 2nd Lord Godolphin to Thomas the 4th Duke of Leeds, her name and blood passed into the succession of that illustrious house. But it was not for gentle descent or noble alliance that Margaret Godolphin was the most remarkable or best deserves remembrance. Rather did she add dis- tinction to an ancient line, and transmit to all her pos- terity that memory of her virtues and inheritance of good deeds without which titles and hereditaiy rank are but splendid contradictions and conspicuous blem- ishes. Her lot was cast in the darkest age of England's morals ; she lived in a court where flourished in their rankest luxuriance all the vice and littleness, which the XU INTRODUCTION. envy of detractors without, has ever loved to impute — and at times, thank God, with such utter falsehood — to courts in general. In the reign of Charles the Second, that revulsion of feeling which affects nations just as it does indi- viduals had plunged into dissipation all ranks on their escape from the narrow austerities and gloomy sourness of puritanism. The court, as was natural, shared to the full in these new excesses of an unrestrained indulgence ; whilst many other influences led to its wider corrup- tion. The foreign habits contracted in their banish- ment by the returning courtiers were ill suited to the natural gravity of English manners, and introduced at once a wide-spread licentiousness. The personal char- acter, moreover, of the King helped on the general cor- ruption. Gay, popular, and witty, with a temper nothing could cross, and an affability nothing could repress, he was thoroughly sensual, selfish, and de- praved — ^vice in him was made so attractive by the wit and gaiety with which it was tricked out, that its ut- most grossness seemed for the time rather to win than to repulse beholders. Around the King clustered a band of congenial spirits, a galaxy of corruption, who > k I INTRODUCTION. Xlll spread the pollution upon every side. The names of Buckingham and Rochester, of Etheridge, Lyttelton> and Sedley, still maintain a bad pre-eminence in the annals of English vice. As far as the common eye could reach there was little to resist the evil. The' Duke of York, the next heir to the throne, a cold» hearted libertine, shared the vices of the King, without the poor gloss of his social attractions. It was the day of England's deepest degradation, when in private life morality was a reproach, truth departed, and religion a jest ; when in affairs of state French gold and foreign influence had corrupted and subdued the throned mon- arch, and England's King was daily losing what had been gained by the Protector of the Commonwealth, It was a day of heartless merriment, upon which fell suddenly a night of blackness, which swallowed up its crew of godless revellers. A picture more deeply tragical than that thus simply sketched by Mr. Evelyn at the end, of Charles himself, can scarcely be con- ceived. " I can never forget the inexpressible luxury and prophaneness, gaming and all dissoluteness, and as it were total forgetfulness of God (it being Sunday even- ing) which this day se'nnight I was witness of, the XIV INTRODUCTION. King sitting and toying with his concubines, Ports- mouth, Cleaveland, and Mazarine, &c. a French boy singing love songs in that glorious gallery, whilst about 20 of the great courtiers and other dissolute persons were at Basset round a large table, a bank of at least 2000 in gold before them, upon which two gentlemen who were with me made reflexions with astonishment. Six days after was all in the dust." Evelyn's Diary, Feb. 1684-5. In the midst of such a general reign of wickedness, it is most refreshing to the wearied spirit to find by closer search some living witnesses for truth and holi- ness — some who, through God's Grace, passed at His call their vexed days amongst the orgies of that crew, as untainted by its evils, as is the clear sunbeam by the corruption of a loathsome atmosphere. Such an one was Margaret Godolphin, whom neither the license of those evil days, nor the scandal and detraction with which they abounded, ever touched in spirit or in reputation. Verily she walked in the flames of " the fiery furnace and felt no hurt, neither did the smell of fire pass upon her." INTRODUCTION. XV In what strength she lived this Hfe the following pages will declare. They will show that ever by her side, conversing with her spirit through its living faith, there was a fourth form like unto the Son of God. And one thing for our instruction and encouragement may here be specially noted : that in that day of reproach she was a true daughter of the Church of England. Puritanism did not contract her soul into moroseness ; nor did she go to Rome to learn the habits of devotion. In the training of our own Church she found enough of God's teaching to instruct her soul ; in its lessons she found a rule of holy self-denying obedience ; in its prayers a practice of devotion ; in its body a fellow- ship with saints ; in its ordinances a true communion with her God and Saviour ; which were able to main- tain in simple, unaffected purity her faith at court, in dutiful, active love her married life ; which sufficed to crown her hours of bitter anguish and untimely death with a joyful resignation and assured waiting for her crown. Such is the sketch presented in these pages to the reader. May he in a better day learn in secret, for XVI INTRODUCTION. himself, those lessons of heavenly w^isdom which adorned the life and glorified the death of Margaret Godolphin. THE LIFE OF MRS. GODOLPHIN. Vn Dieu vn Amy. Madam, I am not vnmindfull of what your Ladyship lately suggested to me concerning that blessed Saint now in heaven. Doe you beleive I need be incited to preserve the memoiy of one whose Image is soe deeply printed in my heart ? Butt you would have a more perma- nent Record of her perfections, and soe would I ; not onely for the veneration wee beare her precious Ashes, butt for the good of those who, emulous of her vertues, would pursue the Instance of it, in this, or perhapps any age before it. 'Tis certaine the materialls I have by me would furnish one who were Master of a Stile becomeing soe admirable a Subject : and wish'd I have, a thousand tymes, the person in the world who knew her best, and most she loved, would give vs the picture his pencill could best delineat : if such an Artist as he is decline the vndertakeing, for fear that even with all his skill he should not reach the originall, how farr short am I like to fall, who cannot pretend to the meanest of his Talents. But as indignation (they say) sometymes creats a poem where there is no natural! 2 THE LIFE OF disposition in the composer ; soe a mighty obligation, a holy tVeindshipp, and your Ladyshipp's comands, irre- sistibly prevaile with me rather to hazard the censure of my Imperfections, then to disobey you, or suffer those precious memoryes to be lost which deserve con- secration to Eternity : 'tis then the least and last ser- vice 1 can express to a dyeing friend for whom I should not have refused even to dye my selfe. Butt, Madam, you will not expect I should be soe exactly particular in the minuter circumstances of her birth and what past in her Infancy and more tender years, because, [though] I have sometimes told her pleasantly I would write her life, when God knowes I little thought of surviveing her whome often I have wished might be att the closeing of myne owne Eyes, I had not the honor of being acquainted with her till the last seaven years of her life ; I say the httle expecta- tion I had of erecting to her a monument of this nature, made me not soe Industrious to Informe my selfe of what was past as I should have beene, for I arri per- swaded that from the begining something of exterord- nary remarkeable was all along conspicuous in her ; nor was it possible that my admiration of her vertues, when I came to know her, should not have prompted me to enquire concerneing many particulars of her life before I knew her ; something I learned casually con- versing with her, diverse things from the papers comu- nicated to me since her decease, and from what your Ladyshipp has Informed me ; from whome I might derive ample matter to furnish vpon this subject ; butt, as I said, it would become a steadier hand and the penn of an Angells wing to describe the life of a Saint, MRS. GODOLPHIN. who is now amongst those Illustrious orders: butt, Madam, 'tis your peremptorye Comand, I should sett downe what I know, and how diffident soever I ought to be of acquitting my selfe as I should, yett since 'tis hardly possible to say any thing soe indifferently, butt must raise an Emulation in those that read or hear of it to Imitate her vertues, [I enter] vpon the adventure. Where this excellent creature was borne, I have learned from you ; when, from herselfe ; namely, as I remember, on the Second of August, in the year 1652 ; a month and a year never to be forgotten by me with- out a mixture of different passions, for then had I born that child whose early hopes you have often heard me deplore the loss of, nor doe I yett remember him with- out emotion. 'Tis not to informe your Ladyshipp of a thing you doe not know, butt for methods sake, that I speake something of the family of this Lady, which was very honorable : her father was CoUonell Thomas Blagge, a Gent, of an ancient Suffolke family, and a person of soe exterordnary witt and signal Loyalty, as not only made him esteemed by that blessed Martyr Charles the First, being made Groome of his Bedd Chamber, butt to be intrusted with one of his principall Garrisons, namely that of Wallingford, dureing the late rebeUion. How worthyly he acquitted himselefe of that charge in that unhappy warr, is upon another monumental Record. Hee lived to see his Majestye who now raignes restored to his Kingdomes and to dye in his favour. Mrs. Blagge, his Lady, (Mother to our Saint) was a THE LIFE OF woman soe eminent in all the vertues and perfections of her sex, that it were hard to say whether were snperior her Beauty, Witt, or Piety ; for, as I have heard from those Avho intimately knew her, she was in all these very like her daughter, and then I am sure there could nothing be added to render her a most admirable person. The iniquitye of the tymes had acquainted her with sorrow enough to have distracted her, being left butt in difficult circumstances, yett she lived to discharge all her husband's engagements that were very considerable, and to provide an honourable com- petency for noe less then 3 young daughters, whereof this was the youngest. Itt was by this excellent mother that this rare child was as early instituted in the fear of God as she could speake : and as her exterordnary discernment soone advanced to a great and early sense of Religion, soe she brought her to be confirmed by the now Lord Bishopp of Ely, Doctor Gunning, who itt appeares was soe surprized att those early Graces he discovered in her, that he thought fitt she should be admitted to the holy Sacrament when she was hardly Eleaven years of Age : from that moment forwards, young and sprightfull as she was, she was observed to live with great circumspection, prescribeing to herselfe a constant method of devotion, and certaine dayes of abstinence, that she might the better vacate to holy dutyes and gaine that mastery over her appetite, which, with all other passions, she had strangely subdued to niy often admiration. Butt I should have told your Ladyshipp, though I remember not on what occasion, she went MRS. GODOLPHIN. with the old Dutchess of Richmond into France, who consign'd her to the care of the late Countess of Guil- ford, Groome of the Stoole to the late Queens Mother, with whome she continued till her Majestye came into England : And this minds me of what I have heard, that being frequently tempted by that Bygott proseli- tesse to go to Masse, and be a papist, our young Saint would not only not be perswaded to it, but asserted her better faith with such readiness and constancy, (as according to the argument of that keen Religion) caused her to be rudely treated and menaced by the Countess ; soe as she was become a Confessor and almost a Martyr before she was 7 years old. This passage I have from her selfe and she would relate it with pretty circumstances ; but long staid she not in France ; when being returned to her mother, she lived with her sometyme in London, till the raigneing pesti- lence of Sixty-five breakeing out, every body retireing into the Country, she accompanyed her into SufFolke amongst her fathers Relations there, and past the Re- cess with soe much order and satisfaction, that with exterordnary regrett she was taken notice of to quitt it ; when being demanded by the then Dutchess of Yorke for a Maid of Honour, her Mother was prevailed with to place her little Daughter att Court. This was indeed a surprizeing change of Aire, and a perilous CUmate, for one soe very young as she, and scarcely yett attained to the twelvth year of her age : butt by how much more the danger soe much greater the vir- tue and discretion which not only preserved her steady in that giddy Station, but soe improv'd, that the exam- ple of this little Saint influenced not onely her honour- THE LIFE OF able companions, butt some who were advanc'd in yeares before her, and of the most illustrious quality. What ! shall I say, she like a young Apostless began to plant Religion in that barren Soyle ? Arethusa pass'd thro' all those turbulent waters without soe much as the least staine or tincture in her Christall, with her Piety grew vp her Witt, which was soe sparkling, accompanyed with a Judgment and Elo- quence soe exterordnary, a Beauty and Ayre soe charmeing and lovely, in a word, an Address soe vni- versally takeing, that after few years, the Court never saw or had seen such a Constellation of perfections amongst all their splendid Circles. Nor did this, nor the admiration it created, the E logics she every day received, and application of the greatest persons, at all elate her ; she was still the same, allwayes in perfect good humour, allwayes humble, allwayes Religious to exactness. Itt rendred her not a whitt moross, tho' sometymes more serious, casting still about how she might continue the houres of publique and private devotion and other exercises of piety, to comply with her duty and attendance on her Royall Mistress with- out singularity or Reproach. Thus pass'd she her tyme in that Court till the Dutch- ess dyed, dureing whose Sickness, accompanyed (as it was) with many vncomfortable, circumstances, she waited and attended with an exterordnary sedulity, and as she has sometymes told me, when few of the rest were able to endure the fatigue : and therefore here, be- fore I proceed, I cannot but take notice of those holy and exterordnary reflections she made upon this occa- MRS. GODOLPHIN. sion, as I find them amongst other loose papers vn- der her owne faire hand, when compareing her dear Mother's sickness and other freinds departure with that of the Dutchess, thus she writes. " Mrs. N. dead, was an example of patience vnder a burthen that was well nigh vnsupportable ; often she received the blessed Sacrament, often she prayed and was very much resign'd, not surprized nor in confusion, but perceiveing her sight decay, calling vpon God after many holy and pious discourses and exhortations, she calmely bidd her freinds farewell. " A poore woman dead, worne to skyn and bones with a consumption, she made noe Complaints, but trusted in God, and that what ^^ thought fitt was best, and to him resign'd her soule. A poore creature that had been a great sinner, died in misserable paines, in exceeding terror ; God was gracious to her, she was patient, very devout, she was released in prayer. My mother dead, at first surprized, and very vnwilling ; she was afterwards resign'd, received often, prayed much, had holy things read to her, delighted in hea- venly discourse, desired to be dissolv'd and be with Christ, ended her life chearfully, and without paine, left her family in order and was much lamented. ''The D — dead, a princess, honoured in power, had much witt, much mony, much esteeme ; she was full of vnspeakable tortur, and died (poore creature) in doubt of her Religion, without the Sacrament, or divine by her, like a poore wretch ; none remembred her after 8 THE I-IFE OF one weekc, none sorry for her ; she was tost and flung about, and every one did what they would with that stately carcase. What is this world, what its great- ness, what to be esteemed, or thought a witt? Wee shall all be stript without sence or remembrance. But God, if wee serve him in our health, will give vs pa- tience in our Sickness." I repeate the instance as sett downe in her diarye, to shew how early she made these uscfull and pious Recollections, for she must needs be then very young, and att an age att least when very few of her sex, and in her circumstances, much concerne themselves with these mortifyeing reflections. Butt, as I have often heard her say, she loved to be att funeralls, and in the house of mourning, soe being of the most compassion- ate nature in the world, she was a constant visiter of the sick and of people in distress. But, to proceed ; she had not been above two yeares att Court before her virtue, beauty, and witt made her be looked vpon as a little miracle ; and indeed there were some addresses made her of the greatest persons, not from the attrac- tion of affected Charmes, for she was ever, att that sprightfull and free age, severely carefull how she might give the least countenance to that liberty which the Gallants there doe vsually assume of talking with less reserve ; nor did this ecclipse her pretty humour, which was chearfull and easy amongst those she thought worthy her conversation. Itt is not to be de- scribed (for it was tho' naturall, in her ^?^imitable) with what Grace, ready and solid vnderstanding, she would discourse. Nothing that she conceived could be better MRS. GODOLPHIN. 9 expressed, and when she was sometymes provok'd to Railly, there was nothing in the w^orld so pleasant, and. inoffensively diverting, (shall I say) or instructive ; for she ever mingl'd her freest entertainments with some- thing which tended to serious, and did it in such a manner, as allwayes left some impressions exterordnary even vpon those who came perhapps with inclinations to pervert the most harmeless conversations ; soe as it was impossible for any to introduce a syllable which did not comply with the strictest rules of decency. But I shall not be soe well able to describe what I should say upon this occasion, as by giveing your La- dyshipp the measures which she prescrib'd herselfe for the government of her Actions, when she was of duty to attend vpon her Majestye in publique, and when it was not only impossible, but vnbecomeing to entertaine those who composed the Royall Circle, and were per- sons of the most illustrious qualitye, without censure and rudeness. Behold then, Madam, what I find writ- ten in her owne hands againe. and that might be a coppy for all that succeed her in that honourable Sta- tion to transcribe and imitate it ; for she kept not onely a most acourate account of all her actions, butt did like- wise register her serious purposes and resolutions, the better to confirme and fix them, soe as they were not hasty fitts of zeale and sudden transports, but sollemne and deliberate ; and this I rather chuse to doe alsoe in her owne very words and method, innocent, naturall, and vnaffected. 10 THE LIFE OF " My life, hy God's Grace, without which I can doe nothing. " I must, till Lent, rise att halfe an houre after eight a clock ; whilst putting on morning cloathes, say the prayer for Death and the Te Deum : then presently to my prayers, and soe either dress my selfe or goe to Church prayers. In dressing, I must consider how lit- tle it signifyes to the saveing of my soule, and how foolish 'tis to be angry about a thing so unneces- sary. Consider what our Saviour suffered. — O Lord, assist me. " When I goe into the withdrawing roome, lett me consider what my caUing is : to entertaine the Ladys, not to talke foolishly to Men, more especially the King ; lett me consider, if a Traytor be hatefull, she that be- trayes the soule of one is much worse ; — the danger, the sin of it. Then without pretending to witt, how quiet and pleasant a thing it is to be silent, or if I doe speake, that it be to the Glory of God. — Lord, as- sist me. " Att Church lett me mind in what place I am ; what about to ask, even the salvation of my soule ; to whome I speak, — to the God that made me, redeemed and sanctifyed me. and can yett cutt me off" when he pleases. — O Lord, assist me. "When I goe to my Lady Falmouths, I ought to take paines with her about her Religion, or else I am not her friend ; to shew example by calmness in dis- MRS. GODOLPHIN. 11 pute, in never speaking ill of anybody to her, butt ex- cuseing them rather. '• Goe to the Q^ueene allwayes att nine, and then read that place concerning the drawing roome, and lett my man waite for me to bring me word before pub- lique prayers begin. If I find she dynes late, come downe, pray and read, namely, that concerning pray- er ; and think why I read, to benefitt my soule, pass my tyme well, and improve my understanding. — O Lord, assist me. '•' Be sure still to read that for the drawing roome in the privy chamber, or presence, or other place before prayers, and soe againe into the drawing room for an hour or soe ; and then slipp to my chamber and divert myself in reading some pretty booke, because the Queene does not require my waiteing ; after this to supper, which must not be much if I have dyned well ; and att neither meale to eate above two dishes, be- cause temperance is best both for soule and body ; then goe upp to the Q,ueen, haveing before read, and well thought of what you have written. Amen. " Sett not up above halfe an hour after eleaven att most ; and as you undress, repeate that prayer againe ; butt before, consider that you are perhapps goeing to sleepe your last ; being in bedd repeate your hymne softly, ere you turne to sleepe. " If I awake in the night lett me say that (for which she had collected many excellent passages, as I find among her papers,) psalm. Lord, assist me. 12 THE LIFE OF *' In the morning, wakeing, use a short devotion and then as soone as ever you awake, rise imediately to praise him. The Lord assist me." In another place of the same Diarye, about which tyme I suppose there was some play to be acted by the maids of honour. — " Now as to pleasure, they are speak- ing of playes and laughing att devout people : well, I will laugh att myselfe for my impertinencyes, that by degrees I may come to wonder why any body does like me ; and divert the discourse ; and talke of God and moralitye : avoid those people when I come into the drawing roome, especially among great persons to divert them ; because noe raillary al Impost can be in- nocent : goe not to the Dutchess of Monmouth above once a week, except when wee dress to rehearse, and then carry a booke along with me to read when I don't act, and soe come away before supper. " Talke little when you are there ; if they speak of any body I can't commend, hold my peace, what jest soever they make ; be sure never to talk to the King ; when they speak filthyly, tho' I be laugh'd att, looke grave, remembring that of Micha, there will a tyme come when the Lord will bind up his Jewells. Never meddle with others business, nor hardly ask a ques- iion ; talk not slightly of religion. If you speake any thing they like, say 'tis borrowed, and be humble when commended. Before I speake. Lord, assist me ; when I pray. Lord, heare me ; when I am praised, God, hum- ble me ; may the clock, the candle, every thing I see, instruct me ; Lord cleanse my hands, lett my feete MRS. GODOLPHIN. 13 tread thy pathes. Is any body laughed att, say it may be my case ; is any in trouble, say, ' Lord, in justice I deserve it ; butt thou art all mercy ; make me thank- full.' On Festivall evens I resolve to dyne att home, and to repeat all the psalmes I know by heart," (of which she had almost the whole psalter,) " reserveing my reading or part of my prayers till night ; and supp with bread and beere only. *•' On Frydayes and Wednesdaies Tie eat nothing till after evening prayer ; and soe come downe as soon as ever the Q^ueene has dyned, without goeing to visitt, till my owne prayers are finished. " The same will I observe the day before I receive; use to pray on those dayes by daylight ; and early on Sundayes, and think of no diversion till after evening prayer ; to dyne abroad as little as possible, but per- forme my constant duty to God and the Glueene. As- sist me, O Lord ; Amen. " Sing Psalmes now and then out of Sundayes. Endeavour tobegg with teares what you aske, and O lett them be, O Lord, my onely pleasure. There are 3 Sundayes to come from this Saturday night ; pray one day earnestly to God for love, and against takeing his name in vaine, pray against intemperance and sen- suality ; and the other day for meckeness, and against envy ; another for fear and alliance, and against de- traction. " I have vowed, if it be possible, not to sett upp past ten o'clock ; therefore, before you engage in com- 14 THE LIFE OF pany, goe downe and read this, and be as much alone as you can ; and when you are abroad talke to men as Uttle as may be : carry your prayer booke in your pockettj or any thing that may decently keepe you from converseing with men." Behold what this blessed saint had promiscuously sett downe in her diary att severall tymes, as resolu- tions made upon severall occasions, all of them tending to the institution of her life in a course of exterordnary and early piety, for she was now^ very young, and I, therefore, give them your Ladyshipp in her ownc method, without method or studied connexion : nor are these the first I have scene of hers in this nature. She did upon several occurrences record her purposes, and what she soe resolved she punctually perform'd. Butt with what exterordnary caution she governed herself att Court ; how holy, innocent, instructive, and useful, her intire conversation was ; how much she improved in virtue, and made devotion the pleasure as well as imployment of her tyme, I need not tell your Ladyshipp : nor used she to trick and dress herselfe upp, tho' in soe splendid and vaine a theater, to the purposes of vanity, or to be fine and ador'd : she was extreami)^ shy of talking among the gallants and young men, to pass away the tediousness of attend- ance ; nor made she impertinent visitts ; for she had fill'd vp the w^hole day, and destin'd almost every mi- nute of it to exercise. When, therefore, I have sum'd vp all, and consider'd well how much of it all I have scene, and how with it all she preserved the lively and elegant conversation which rendered her soe infinitely MRS. GODOLPHIN. 15 agreeable to all that knew her, I cannot butt redouble my admiration and especially how often and sensible she has discoursed with me concerning the wonderful satisfaction she took in the dutyes of Religion. Butt here, before I proceed any further, the method of tymCj and other circumstances require me to say something how I came to be first acquainted with this excellent creature, and by what tyes of sacred friend- shipp I find my selfe soe highly obliged to celebrate her memory ; and this I shall doe the rather because the Lord has soe great a part in itt, that without in- gratitude, I may not pass it over ; nor is it without fresh delight that 1 still call to mind those innocent dayes, and the sweet conversation which fifteene yeares since wee enjoyed, that our familyes being neare to one another, gave us the happyness to be knowne to the most obligeing neighbour in the world ; from soe long a date it is that my wife computes her first haveing had the blessing of beginning an acquaintance with Mrs. Blagge, whome your mother and sister sometimes kindly brought with them to our poore villa : butt few of those civilityes of casuall or respectfuU visitts had passed, before my wife had discovered such exterord- nary charmes, markes of virtue and discretion in her conversation, that she would often reprove the diffi- dence I was wont to express, when they would some- tymes discourse of Piety and Religion, eminent among the Court Ladyes ; and upon which subject your Lady- shipp would frequently joine with my wife in conflict against me, to the reproach of my Moroseness, and In- fidelity, especially of a thing soe airy and soe gay as 16 THE LIFE OF some represented this miracle to me. And in this Error I had certainly persisted, notwithstanding 1 had some- tymes taken notice of her, both att my house and att Church, to be a very agreeable Lady ; but that she or any body else in her Court circumstances, was principl'd with such a solid Virtue, and did cultivate it to that degree, I was brought to believe with soe much difficulty, that it was almost Seaven yeares before your Ladyshipp could convince me. You had, indeed, a Sister there, whose perfections would no longer suffer me to continue alltogeather in this false perswasion ; butt to believe there were many Saints in that Country I was not much inclined ; nur likely had chang'd that opinion, if an Imployment had not of necessity some- tymes obliged me to come from my Recess, when I as little affected to be knowne and to multiply acquaint- ance of that sex as another man. I minded my Bookes and my Garden, and the Circle was bigg enough for me. I aspti'd to no offices, noe titles, noe favours att Court, and really was hardly knowne to those next neighbours of mine, whome I had lived all- most twenty years by : butt the Country where this Lady lived I had much more aversion to, for the rea- sons you may guess, and which made her quitt it as soone as she could. 'Twas, I say, about a year that she had sometymes beene att my house, when your Ladyshipp came to hector me out of my contracted humour, but I continually return'd to it ; and when, by Chance, you att any tyme nam'd her. I fancied her some airy thing, that had more Witt than Discretion ; till upon your Ladyshipp and my Wifes more severely reproaching me for being scarcely civill to a Companion MRS. GODOLPHIN. 17 of your excellent Sisters, for whome I had much es- teeme, (though but little acquainted,) 1 found my selfe oblig'd, in good manners, to waite upon her Avhen I came to AYhitehall. I speake of the Lady, your Sister, then Maid of Honour : for T would object, that there was a Witt with her whome I feared, and that I was the most unfitt person in the world for the entertain- ments of the Anti Chamber, and the little Spiritts that dwell in Fairy Land. Yoii assured me she was hum- ble and Religious, and extreamly serious, and that [if] I would believe you, I should not be displeased with the adventure ; for tho' she had abundance of Witt, and rallied shrewdly, yett she was civil and discreete, and exterordnary obligeing. Ypon this, I made your Sister a visitt, and surprized Mrs. Blagge, who it seems that day was dressed for Audience and Ceremony, vpon which I would have withdrawne, butt her Cham- ber fellow staid me, and I was not vn willing to hear her talke ; but I since came to understand, it was a day of solemn devotion with her, and she excused her selfe, said little, and look'd very humble, which I liked, and soe for this tyme, tooke my leave. I concluded by this she mJght not be that pert Lady I had fancyed ; and she afterwards spake curteously to me, casually meeting her in the house, and that she hoped she had not frighted me from her apartment. I came once or twice after this with my wife to visitt your Sister ; when this Lady keepeing her Chamber caused me one day to dyne with her, which I tooke kindly, because 'twas without affectation and with no danger of surfeiting. Butt her conversation was a treat, 18 THE LIFE OF and I began to admire her temperance, and tooke espe- ciall notice, that however wide or indifferent the subject of our discourse was amongst the rest, she would all- wayes divert it to some ReHgious conchision ; and soe temper and season her Replyes, as shew'd a gratious heart, and that she had a mind wholly taken vp with heavenly thoughts. After this introduction she conjur'd me not to baulk her holy Cell, and I was not a little pleased to be soe solemnly diverted and find my selfe mistaken, that soe young, soe elegant, soe charming a Witt and Beauty should preserve soe much Virtue in a place where it neither naturally grew nor much was cultivated ; for with all these perfections, Yivacitye and Apprehention beyond what I could expect, she seemed vnconcerned and steady, could endure to be serious, and gently re- prove my Morossness, and was greatly devout, which putt me out of all feare of her Railary, and made me vpon her with exterordnary respect. Thus every visitt abated of my prejudice : her discourses were not tri- fleing and effeminate, butt full of Yirtue and materiall, and of a most tender regard to Religion. Butt itt was after your Ladyshipps Mother was gone into Lincoln- sheir, and had carryed away her companion, that she told me, " now Mrs. Howard is gone, she beleived she should have little of my Company ; butt if I were not weary of her, and would be soe charitable, she should take it kindly that I came often to her." This was a Compliment you know I needed not, for by this tyme I was so well assured of her Inclinacion to Goodness, that she could not imagine me capable of neglecting a per- MRS. GODOLPHIN. 19 son from whose conversation I never return'd butt with advantage. I soone perceived what touched me lo the heart, and that was her soule ; and how her IncUna- cions pointed to God ; that her discourses, designes, and actions tended allwayes thither: and other obser- vations which I made to my exterordnary wonder and admiracion. This Creature (would I say to my selfe) loves God ; 'tis a thousand pittyes butt she should per- sist ; what a new thing is this, I think Paulina and Eustochius are come from Bethlehem to Whitehall ; and from this moment I began to looke vpon her as sa- cred, and to bless God for the graces which shoone in her. I dayly prayed for her as she had enjoined me, and she began to open some of her holy thoughts to me ; and I saw a flagrant devotion, and that she had totally resigned herselfe to God ; and with these Incen- tiues, who, that had any sence of Religion, could for- beare to vallue her exceedingly ? Itt was not long after this, that being one day to visitt her, she seenVd to me more thoughtfull than ordi- nary. I asked her, what made her looke soe solemnly. She told me, she had never a freind in the world. Noe, said I, that's impossible ; I beleive no body has more ; for all that know you must love you, and those that love you are continually your freinds. Butt I, who well knew where her heart att that tvme was, asked her what she esteemed a certaine Gentleman beyond the Seas. Alas, says she, he is very ill, and that makes me very much concerned ; butt I doe not speake to you of him, whome God will I hope be gratious to, but I would have a Freind. In that name is a great deale ^0 THE LIFE or more then T can express, a faith full freind, wliome I might trust with all that I have, and God knows, that is butt little ; for him whome you meane does not care to meddle with my concerns, nor would I give him the trouble. This, to my remembrance, were her very ex- pressions to me. Madam, said I, doe you speake this to me, as if I were capable of serving you in any thing considerable ? I beleive you the person in the world (replyed she) who would make such a freind as I wish for, if I hadd meritt enough to deserve it. Madam, said I, consider well what you say, and what you doe, for it is such a trust, and soe great an obligation that you lay upon me, as I ought to embrace with all imaginable respect, and acknowledgment for the greatest honour you could doe me ; Madam, to be called your freind were the most desirable in the word, and I am sure I should endeavour to acquitt me of the duty with great chearfullness and fidelity. Pray leave your compli- menting, (said she smileing) and be my freind then, and looke upon me henceforth as your Child. To this purpose was her obligeing reply ; and there standing pen and ink vpon the table, in which I had been draw- ing something upon a paper like an Alter, she writt these words : Be this the Symboll of Inviolable Preind- ship, — Mary Blagge, 16th October, 1672, and vnder- neath, For my brother E ; and soe delivered it to me with a smile. AVell, said I, Madam, this is an high obligation, and you have allready paid me for the great- est service that I can ever pretend to doe you ; butt yett doe you know what you have done? Yes, sayes she, very well ; butt pray what doe ^^ou meane ? Why, said I, the title that has consecrated this Alter is the MRS. GODOLPHIN. 21 Marriage of Souls, and the Golden thread that tyes the hearts of all the world ; I tell you. Madam, Freindshipp is heyond all relations of flesh and blood, because it is less materiall ; there is nature in that of parents and kindred, butt [that of] Freindshipp is of course and without election, for which the Conjugall State it selfe is not alwayes tlie most happy : and, therefore, those who have had best experience chuse their freind out of all these circumstances, and have found him more last- ing, and more effectuall. By this Symboll you give me title to all that you can with Honour and Religion part with in this world ; and it is a topic I could adorne with glorious examples of what I speak ; and the noblest things have been said vpon it ; and the Laws and Measures of Freindshipp are the nicest and the most obhgeing ; — but you know them all. Well, replyed she, smileing, be it soe, — pray what am I to doe ? Nay, said I, I'll tell you first what you are to suffer. The priviledges I claime (in virtue of that charac- ter) are that I may visitt you without being thought importunate ; that I may now and then write to you to cultivate my Stile ; discourse with you to improve my Vnderstanding ; read to you to receive your Reflec- tions ; and that you freely command me vpon all occa- sions without any reserve whatsoever : you are to write to me when 1 am absent ; mention me in all your pray- ers to God, to admonish me of all my failings, to visitt me in sickness, to take care of me when I am in dis- tress, and never to forsake me, change or lessen your particular esteeme, till I prove vnconstant or perfidious, and no mans freind : in a word, there is in Freindshipp 22 THE LIFE OF something of all relations, and something above them all. These, Madam, are the Laws, and they are recip- rocal! and eternal 1, (fee. Thus, for a tyme, 'twixt jest and earnest, the con- versation putt her into the most agreeable humor in the world. Well, said she, I will consider of what you say ; butt pray remember you be my freind, and when next you come, I will tell you what I have for you to doe in good earnest ; and a little after writt me this Letter. " My Freind^ " I have considered and minded well what was said, and what I writt, and will not recall it. I vnder- stood something of the office of freindshipp before I knew you, butt after what you have said and offered, I beleive I shall need little Instruction. Gratitude, join'd with the greatest esteeme I had before of you, will require all that you mention on my part : you are then, my first freind, the first that ever I had, and ever shall you be soe. This is trueth vpon the word of a Christian ; and I beleive I shall not lay downe my resolution of con- tinueing yours butt with my life. I thankfully accept all your Councell, and will endeavour to follow it ; butt birds themselves have allwayes the good nature to teach their young ones, and soe must you ; looke vpon me then as your child as well as freind, and love me as your child, and, if you will, call me soe. What Mea- sures you are to observe I meddle not with ; for a freind may doe what he pleases ; they who give mo- ny, give all ; 'tis a saying of your owne as to Charity, MRS. GODOLPHIN. 23 they that are freinds are all things, — lett that be myne. Butt as for the returnes for the good offices I receive, I beleive my advice can be of httle vso to you, vnless to serve you as an Act of humihty, which must be all the reason you will ever have to require it i what shall I say then more? till death reckon me your freind ; you see how I think I am with you ; and now, after all this, I may grow old or forgettfull, and Melancholy or Stu- pid, and in that Case, will no more answer for my selfe then for a Stranger ; butt, w^hilst I am my selfe and a Christian, I will be yours." Itt w^ould be an vnpardonable ostentation in me, and a great temptation to over valine my selfe, and the poore services she was pleased to accept of, should I here repeate what she has left me vnder her own hand vpon this subject, in the most pious and endearing ex- pressions that could possibly fall from the most sincere and obligeing Creature in the world : butt to lett them pass, — 'tis certaine, that from this moment, I no more look'd vpon her as Mrs. Blagge, butt as my child in- deed, and did, to the vttmost of my poore abilitye, advice and serve her in all her secular and no few spirituall aftaires and concerns, with a diligence and fidelity becomeing the trust and confidence she reposed in me, as an honour to be envyed by the best of men : her friendshipp af;er this was soe transcendently sin- cere, noble, and Religious, as taught me all its demean- sions, beyond any thing I ever read of its highest Ideas ; and she herselfe was heard to say, what she once thought to be a name onely and nothing else, she found a reall existance ; and that freindshipp was for mutual I 24 THE LIFE OF Improvement, and to fortifye every virtue ; and, indeed, she was able to direct, and Councell, and encourage, and Comfort. Nay, and has often told me with be- comeing passion, Tliat she with Joy could dye for a friend ; vrgeing that sentence of St. Pauls, nor are the measures hard ; I am sure willingly would I have done it for her : O sweete, O how desireable ! And, indeed, these holy transports made the Christians communicate all they had ; the apostles speake of some who would have pluck'd out. their very eyes and laid downe their necks for him, and called nothing their owne which others wanted. 'Tis this which made those saints of one mind and of one heart ; 'tis this has Crown'd a hundred thousand martyrs, and shewed vs that the most consumate friendshipps are the products of Re- ligion and the love of God. There are Inumerable expressions of this nature to be found in her letters to me, which are Charming, and indeed, soe tender and personall, that, tho' one (who) knew my demeritts as well as I my selfe doe, would suspect their sincerity ; yett I knew to be from her heart, which was full of most generous resentments. In a word, I may say, as David did of Jonathan, her friendshipp to me was passing the love of women ; nor verily, was it without an intire sympathye on my part ; and there was provi- dence in itt, as well as inclination for the exceeding and most eminent piety and goodness that ever conse- crated a worthy friendshipp, shone soe bright in this blessed saint, as intitled her to all the services, respect, and veneration I was capable of giveing her. Never am I to forgett this Golden expression of hers MRS. GODOLPHIN. 25 to me. I would have (sayes she) nothing that passes betweene vs have any Resemblance of friendshipp that doe not last. Butt, Madam, whither has this Indearing topic transported me. After this solemn engagement then, she soone ac- quainted me with many of her concerns ; made me the depositarie of her pious thoughts and resolutions, and putt her whole fortune intirely into my hands ; which, indeed, lay in some danger for want of that assistance, which she might have had from an able person, tho' from none more faithfull and more Indus- trious to Improve it to the best of my capacity ; I was only griev'd, when att any tyme she thought it a trouble to me ; butt she would say : I am your Child, and whither should I goe butt to you ; never will I doe any thing without you whilst I live : more difference and humility could she not have paid to a father ; more confidence in a friend ; and this temper'd with that sweetness and exterordnary piety, that I am not able to support the consideration of the loss of such a friend- shipp without vnspeakable griefe. Seldome or rarely came I to waite on her, (if she were not in company) but I found her in her little oratorio, and some tymes all in feares, for never was Creature more devout and tender ; and a thousand Cases and questions would she propound to me, for which I would still referr her to that Reverend and learn'd divine, with whome she did constantly corres- pond vpon all occasions of spirituall advice ; soe care- full and curious was this saint in the concernments of 8 26 THE LIFE OF her soule ; butt she would often tell me, he was too gentle, and, therefore, required of me to deale Impar- tially; [that] 1 was her friend, and that a friend was Ghostly father, and every thing to her ; indeed I would often reprove her tiresome methods and thought to plant the consideracion of the memory and love of God in her thoughts ; and to cure her of the sad and frieght- full apprehensions she sometymes seemed to have, that God was a severe exacter ; that she had never done enough, and served an austere Master, not to be pleased without abundance of labour and formes without end ; and for this she would frequently give me thanks, that I had lett her see and tast more of the love of God and delices of Religion, than ever she had before. And veryly this holy and Religious temper of hers, was enough to winn the esteeme of all that had any sence of goodness. Nor was her tyme wholly spent in the contemplative part of piety ; she was always doeing some good offices for one or other, gave frequent and considerable reliefe to poore and indigent people, and not seldome made me her almoner, and the hand to convey it where she could not well her selfe ; but of this and the many visitts she in her owne person made (delicate as she was) to refresh and comfort the sick and miserable, even amongst the most wretchedly poore, nott without great inconveniency to her health, I shall give account hereafter : butt hitherto was she advanc'd, being yett hardly enter'd her Nineteenth yeare, an age that few in her circumstances soe soone sett out att, and [would] that I begun as early and as early finish'd. MRS. GODOLPHIN. 27 Wee will now then looke vpon her as att White- hall, whither she came from St. James to waite vpon her Majestye, after the death of the Dutchess, when she was not above sixteene. I had not then indeed the honour to know her ; hutt I have heard from others, that her beauty and her witt was so exterordnary im- proved, as there had nothing been scene more surprize- ing, and full of charmes ; every body was in love with, and some allmost dyeing foi' her, whilst with all the Modesty and Circumspection imaginable, she strove to Eclipse the luster which she gave ; and would often check the vivacity which was naturall, and perfectly became her, for feare of giveing occasion to those who lay in waite to deceive. Butt it was not possible here to make the least approach, butt such as was full of Honour ; and the distance she observ'd, and Caution and Judgment she was mistress of, protected her from all impertinent addresses, till she had made a Choice, without Reproach, and worthy her Esteeme, namely, of that excellent Person, who was afterwards her Hus- band, after a passion of no less than Nine long yeares, that they both had been the most intire and faithfull lovers in the world. This was a space indeed of suf- ficient probation, nor will I presume to dive into the circumstances which made them be soe long resolveing, she being then it seems butt very young, and both of a temper soe extreamly discreete. Butt as to the first Impressions, I will relate to your Ladyshipp what 1 have learn'd from her selfe, when sometymes she was pleased to trust me with diverse passages of her Life. For it was not possible I could hear of soe long an Amour, soe honorable a love and constant passion, and 28 THE LIFE OF which I easily perceived concerned her, as lookeing vpon herselfe vnsettled, and one who had long since resolved nott to make the Court her rest, butt I must be touched with some Care for her. I would now and then kindly chide her, why she suffer'd those languish- ments, when I knew not on whome to lay the blame* For tho' she would industriously conceale her disquiett, and divert it vnder the notion of the Spleene, she could not but acknowledge to i?ie where the dart was fix'd ; nor was any thing more ingenious then what she now writt me vpon this Subject, by which your Ladyshipp will perceive, as with what peculiar confidence she was pleased to honour me, soe, with what early prudence and great pietye she manag'd the passion, which, of all other, young people are comonly the most precipi- tate in and unadvis'd. " I came," sayes she, " soe young, as I tell you, into the world (that is, about 14 yeares of Age,) where no sooner was I entred, butt various opinions were deliv- ered of me and the person whome (you know,) was more favourable then the rest were to me, and did, after some tyme, declare it to me. The first thing which tempts young weomen is vanity, and I made that my great designe. Butt Love soone taught me another Lesson, and I found the trouble of being tyed to the hearing of any save him ; which made made me resolve that either he or none should have the posses- sion of your Friend. Being thus soone sencible of Love my selfe, I was easily perswaded to keepe my selfe from giving him any cause of Jealousye, and in soe long a tyme never has there been the least. MRS. GODOLPHIN. 29 ^ This, vnder God's providence, has been the means of preserveing me from many of those misfor- tunes young Creatures meet with in the world, and in a Coiut espetially. Att first wee thought of nothing but Hveing alwayes togeather, and that wee should be happy. Butt att last he was sent abroad by his Ma- jestye, and fell sick, which gave me great trouble ; and 1 allow'd more tyme for Prayer and the performance of holy dutyes than before I had ever done, and I thank God, found infinite pleasure in it, farr beyond any other, and I thought less of foolish things that vsed to take vp my tyme. Being thus changed my selfe, and likeing it soe well, I earnestly begg'd of God that he would impart the same satisfaction to him I loved ; 'tis done, (my friend) 'tis done, and from my soule I am thankfuU ; and tho' I beleive he loves me passionatehr, yett I am not where I was : my place is fiU'd vpp with HIM who is all in all. I find in him none of that tor- menting passion to which I need sacrefice my selfe ; butt still were wee dissengag'd from the world, wee should marry vnder such restraints as were fitt, and by the agreeableness of our humour, make each other happy. Butt att present there are obstructions : he must be perpetually engaged in buissness, and follow the Court, and live allwayes in the world, and soe have less tyme for the service of God, which is a sens- cible affliction to him ; wherefore, wee are not deter- mined to precipitate that matter, butt to expect a while, and see how things will goe ; haveing a great mind to be togeather, which cannot with decency be done with- out marrying, nor, to either of our satisfactions, without being free from the world. In short, serving of God is 30 THE LIFE OF our end, and if wee cannott do that quietly togeather wee will asunder. You know our Saviour sayes, that all could not receive that doctrine, but to those who could, he gave noe contradiction ; and if wee can butt pass our younger yeares, 'tis not likely wee should be concern'd for marrying when old. If wee could marry now, I don't see butt those inconveniencys may happen by sickness, or absence, or death. In a word, if we marry, it will be to serve God and to encourage one another dayly ; if wee doe not, 'tis for that end too ; and wee know God will direct those who sincerely desire his love above all other Considerations ; now should wee both resolve to continue as we are, be assur'd, I should be as little Idle as if I were a wife. I should attend to prayer and all other Christian dutyes, and make these my pleasures, seeing I chuse not the condition out of restraint and singularity, but to serve God the better." This being in answer to something I had written to her vpon a serious debate, -in which I had opposed a melancholy Resolution, she would now and then entertaine me with, of absolutely renouncing the thoughts of Marriage and wholly retireing in the world, I give 5^ou [it] in her owne Style and holy thoughts, as an Instance of that early piety and prudentiall- weigh- ing of things and circimistances, which accompanied all her actions ; nor could I have presented your Lady- shipp with a more Illustrious part of her history nor more instructive. In good earnest, this purpose of wholly vacateing to MRS. GODOLPHIN. 31 Religion, was att this tyme soe imprinted in her, that whether she marryed or remain'd single, resolv'd she was to depart the Court. She had frequently told me, that Seaven yeares was enough and too much, to trifle any longer there : and, accordingly, one day that I least dream't of it, she came expressly to my lodgeing and accquainted me with her Intention to goe [and] live att Berkley House, and that if she did alter her condition by Marriage, it should be when she was perfectly free, and had essayed how her detachment from Royall servitude would comport with her before she determin'd concerning another change. I happen'd to be with her in the Q,ueens withdrawing roome, when a day or two after, finding her oppertunity, and that there vv^as less company, she begg'd leave of their Majestyes to retire ; never shall I forgett the humble and becomeing address she made, nor the Joy that discover'd its selfe in this Angells countenance, above any thing I had ever observed of transport in her, when she had obtained her suite ; for, I must tell you, Madam, she had made some attempts before without success, which gave her much anxietie. Their Majes- tyes were both vnwilling to part with such a Jewell ; and I confess, from that tyme, I look'd vpon White Hall with pitty, not to say Contempt. What will become said I, of Corinthus, the Citty of Luxury, when the graces have abandon'd it, whose piety and example is soe highlj'- necessary? Astrasa soe left the Lower world. And for my part, I never sett my foote in it afterwards, butt as ent'ring into a solitude, and was ready to cry out with the wife of Phineas, that its glory was departed. She tooke, I assure you, her 32 THE LIFE OF leave of their Majestyes with soe much modesty and good a Grace, that tho' they look't as if they would have a Httle reproach't her for makeiiig so nmch hast, they could not find in their hearts to say an vnkind word to her ; hutt there was for all that I am cej taine something att the heart like griefe ; and I leave you, Madam, to imagine how the rest of the Court mourn'd this Recess, and how dim the tapers burnt as she pass'd the anti-chamber. ' Is Mrs. Blagge goeing,' says a faire creature ; ' why stay I here any longer V others, 'that the Court had never such a Starr in all its hemi- spheere ; and veryly, I had not observed soe vniversall a damp vpon the spiritts of every one that knew her. Itt was, I remember, on a Sunday night, after most of the company were departed, that I waited on her downe to her Chamber, where she was noe sooner en- ter'd, butt falUng on her knees, she blessed God as for a Signall deliverance ; she was come out of Egypt, and now in the way to the Land of Promise. You will easyly figure to your selfe how buissy the young Saint was the next morning in makeing vpp her little car- riage to quitt her prison : and when you have fancied the Conflagration of a certaine Citty the Scripture speaks of, imagine this Lady trussing vpp her little fardle, like the two daughters whom the angell hastned and conducted ; but the simiHtude goes no further, for this holy Virgin went to Zoar, they to the cave of Folly and Intemperance ; there was no danger of her looke- ing back and becomeing a Statue for sorrow of what she left behind. All her household stu tie besides a Bible and a bundle of Prayer bookes, was packed vpp in a very little Compass, for she lived soe farr from su- MRS. GODOLPHIN. 33 perfluitye, that she carryed all that was vallueable in her person ; and tho' she had a Courtly wardrobe, she affected it not, because every thing became her that she putt on, and she became every thing was putt vpon her. She tooke her leave of the mother of the Maids as became her ; butt she could not weepe till your Lady- shipps sister, whome she was still to leave in Captivitye fell on her neck, and then there fell mutuall tears, that trickled down her Cheeks like the dew of Flowers, and made a lovely griefe ; to her and to your Ladyshipp she left her pretty Oratorye, soe often consecrated with her prayers and dev^otions, as to the only successors of her Virtues and Piety ; and as I am perswaded that the Court was every day less sensible of its losse whilst you both continued in it, because you trode in this Religious Ladys Stepps, soe the piety it any where still retaines is accoimtable to your rare examples; of such Importance is one Religious Person to a whole Society, and sometymes to a Nation. Butt to returne to her remove from Court. 1 am the more particular as haveing had the honour to waite on her to Berkley House ; I tell your Ladyshipp, I never beheld her more orient than she appeared att this tyme, and the moment she sett foote in the Coach her eyes sparkled with Joy, and a marvelous lustre ; the Roses of her Cheeks were soe fresh, and her countenance soe gay, as if with the rest of her perfections (had she not left your two Sisters there) she had carded all the Beautyes as well as all the Virtue of the Court away with her too. Butt ah, had you seen with what effu- se 34 THE LIFE OF sion and open armes she entred Berkley House, and sprung into the Caresses of my Lady, in what a trice after she was ledd vp into her apartmentt she had putt all her Equipage in order, rang'd her Library, and dis- posed of her Compendious Inventory, you would have said there was nothing prettyer then that buissy mo- ment. And now when she had consecrated her new Oratorye with a devout Aspiration and the Incense of an humble Soule, for the blessings of this sweete Retire- ment, she satt down and admired her sweete felicitye. For, as I told your Ladyshipp, "twas not altogeather that she might be disengaged from Court that she de- signed to quitt itt ; butt that she might vacate more to stricter duty. She believed that att Berkley House she should be more att her owne disposall ; that she should have noe body to observe butt God ; be mistress of her houres, and governe her affaires suitable to her devout Inclinations : and when she seriously requir'd my opinion of it, I could not disapprove it. Itt brought to mind how in the declension of the Empire, and when the sinns and vices of a licentious and abandon'd age had allarm'd the Roman world with a barbarous and vniversall warr, like what was now vpon the scene of Europe, that Paula and her daughter Eustochium, (two rich and beautifull Ladys) quitted the splendor of a pompous Court for the Recesses of Bethlehem and the Solitudes of Judea, and to prostrate themselves att the manger of a divine babe, and then att the foote of Cal- varye, where this holy Mother and beautious Daughter spent the rest of their days in the recollection of their lives and the service of Jesus : me-thought nothing more ever resembled this Act of those Devotas than the MRS. GODOLPHIN. 35 heroick resolution of our Saint ; in this yett superior to theirs, as hers was spontaneous, theirs by the importu- nityes of St. Hierorne ; abandoning the Royall Circle, where she made vp the constellacions, for a Circle of reall Starrs, and to stand before the throne of the Lamb ; she deserts the glittering Balls, and goes no more to the Theater, that she may sing in the quire of Seraphins, and contemplate the celestiall vision ; she cares not for the Sumptuous Entertainments, the Musick, Masking, and perfumes, to mortify her sences, and enjoy intel- lectual pleasures ; she neglects the gay and studious Dress, the Raillery and reputation of a Witt, which made her the life of Conversation and the pretty miracle of Court, that she may adorne her bright Soule, and converse with Angells ; she chuses rather to suffer diminution, and the censure of men as precise and sin- gular ; to be a reall Maid of Honour, then to have the name, and live in the scene of Temptation and the pleasures of Sinn for a season : in a word, I fancied her call'd, as was Abraham out of Vr of the Chaldees and from the Idolls of Haran. Butt as nothing on this side heaven is permanent long, she had not been in this Imaginarye and indeed sweete retirement, and where tho' one of the most mag- nificent pallaces of the Towne, she had her apartment remote from the buissy part of the house, and was rarely fitted for her purposes of devotion ; I say, it was not long, when partly from the necessity of Complyance with the Lady of the family, the continuall and impor- tune visitts of the great persons which vs'd to frequent that place, obligeing her to tedious Cerimony and con- 36 THE LIFE or versation that often interrupted her Course, and partly (from) other circumstances, which for the present seemed less favourable to their Intentions of marriage soe soone, and the disquiett it putt her to. she not only- deliberated in good earnest, butt resum'd her former In- clination with more resolution than ever, of removeing farther from these Impediments and all togeather aban- doning the world. I have really been touch'd in the deepest sence to see the Conflicts this devout Creature vnderwent, betweene her love and her devotion ; or shall I call them both her love ; for soe they were : a thousand times has she told me she would abide as she was, and then her pilty for him who could not live in her absence, divided her afresh, and peirc'd her to the soule ; and when she was in the deepest of this Con- cerne for him, nothing I have ever read in the Epistles of Seneca, had that excellent Stoick been indeed a Christian, appear'd more divinely philosophicall than the Topics she would vse to divert his passion, and reason him into an indiiference for her, when (of all things in the world.) it was not indifferent to her that he should have lov'd her less. Butt she had really that absolute Empire over her owne affections, and such po- tent Inclinations to make God and Religion the buissness of her life, that as I said, she w^as many times vpon the Brink of Resolveing to abandon all the world : she be- leived that 1 who knew love to be stronger than death, would never approve of this resolution; and, therefore, she pretended att first, only to make a visilt to her sister the Lady Yarbrough, in Yorksheir, for a month or two dureing the summer ; butt after that she could not con- ceale from me a further designe of goeing from thence MRS. GODOLPHIN. 37 to Hereford, to live by herselfe vnder the direction of the Reverend Deane of that Cathedral!, who had long been her spirituall father. This was the Zoare she often languished after, vseing that of Righteous Lott, " Is it not a little one, and my soule shall live." " Yes, my friend,'' says she, '' in perfect liberty without formes ; frugally, without Contempt ; conveniently, without pomp ; att distance from the Bustle of the world, where I shall forgett and be forgotten, be arbitress of my tyme, and serve God regularly ; chuse my Conversation, and when I alter my Condition, doe it with your advice ; which I am sure will never be to alter a purpose soe reasonable, and soe fit for one in my Circumstances." Thus would this blessed Creature discourse it with me, whilst in the meane tyme she was ballanceing in her- selfe when it came to a Resolution. " The Lord help me, dear freind," sayes she to me, in another Letter, " I know not vrhat to determine ; sometymes I think one thing, sometymes another ; one day I fancy noe life soe pure as the vnmarryed, another day I think it less exemplarye, and that the marryed life has more opper- tunity of exerciseing Charity ; and then againe, that 'tis full of solicitude and worldly ness, soe as what I shall doe, I know not. He can live without a wife wil- lingly, but without me he is vnwilling to live, soe as if I doe not marry he is not in danger of sinn ; but if I or he or both should repent, O Lord and Governor of my life, leave me not to my selfe, to the Counsellof my whole heart, butt send me wisdome from thy throne to direct, assist, and lead me soberly in my doeings. Thou hast imparted to us reason for our guide ; butt O rule thou that reason, for without thou Conduct it I shall be 38 THE LIFE OF in perpetual! hazard. Lord, J renounce all Judgment, all knowledge, and discretion of my owne ; I desire not to be a Child of this world, wise in their Genera- tion, butt to be a Foole that I may indeed be wise. I am in a straight and know not what to chuse, deter- mine thou for me, O blessed Lord. Remember that for near these one and twenty yeares I have been thy care, and I bless the for it. Thou hast frequently and won- derfully preserv'd me, both in spirituall and temporall dangers, and over and above has done Innumerable good things for me ; O leave me not now in this diffi- culty, butt once more be thou my Councellor, and whilst I live will I be thy faithful!, thankfull, servant. Say, Amen with me, dear freind." • Behold Madam, the Letter, or rather the ejaculation which an heart intirely possess'd with Religious Senti- ments, made her dictate on this occasion ; nor should I have produc'd these particulars (con-credited to me in spetiall Confidence) butt to lett you see, with how holy a designe and consideracion she proceeded ; and how Infinitely different from the method of makeing love and receiveing addresses now a dayes. Veryly, when I reflect vpon her youth, beauty, witt, the temptations and conflicts she sustain'd, to comply with the affection she had for her two Rivall loves (for soe I againe call them) I am halfe astonish'd, butt you shall hear how passionately she describes it, and thus goes on. " Much afliicted and in great agony was your poor friend this day, to think of the love of the holy Jesus, and yett be soe little able to make him any returne. For with what favour have I protested against all af- MRS. GODOLPHIN. 39 fection to the things of this world ; resign'd them all without exception ; when the first moment I am tryed, I shiink away, and am passionately fond of the Crea- ture, and forgetfull of the Creator. This, when I con- sidered, I fell on my knees, and with many teares, begg'd of God to assist me with his Grace, and banish from me all Concerne butt that of heavenly things, and wholly to possess my heart himselfe ; and either releive me in this Conflict, now soe long sustain'd, or continue to me Strength to resist it, still fearing if the combate cease not in tyme, I should repine for being putt vpon soe hard a dutye. Butt then againe, when I call to mind the Grace of Selfe denyall, the honour of suffer- ing for my Saviour, the Reward propos'd for those that conquer, the delight I shall conceive in seeing and en- joying him ; the happyness of the life above ; I that am thus feeble, thus fearfull, call, (out of exercise of his Grace,) yea, for tribulation, for persecution, for contra- dictions to my own desires, and for every thing agree- able to the Spiritt and displeasing to the flesh. Thus, with St. Paul, when I am weake then am I strong ; when I am in sorrow then am I rejoiceing ; one whome I love is here, butt I am gott to other Company, and well have I been regal'd, for God has been very gratious to me ; most bitterly have I wept to think how much of my heart he has, how little my blessed Saviour, who has loved and suffered for me soe much more ; happy, ah happy, are you my friend, that are past that mighty love to the Creature. Butt I make this my humble confession to God and you, bewayleing my loveing any- thing butt himself; imploreing him to translate my af- fections, and place them on him alone. Thus to you 40 THE LIFE OF doe I display my griefe, I can leave him whome here I love, to goe to my Jesus for ever ; butt I Confess 'tis hard for me to leave him now soe often as I doe, and this breaks my heart, that after soe many solemn pro- fessions to God, what I would doe for him, I should with such reluctancy part from this person, to pray, and to read, and to goe to holy dutyes. " Now, dear friend, should I marry, and refuse to goe to my Lord, part vnwillingl^^j or refuse him, what would become of me? No, No, I will remaine my Sa- viours ; he shall be my love, my husband, my all ; I will keepe my Virgin, present it vnto Christ, and not putt myselfe into the temptation of loveing any thing in Competition with my God." Thus farr this devout and tender Creature : nor this the last wherein she has conjur'd me to advise what she should resolve on, when often her heart as I said, has been divided betweene her lovers, as was St. Pauls in another case, even wishing to be dissolved, that she might be with Christ, and freed from all this solicitude, as she has frequently express'd it to me. And now what was I to returne ? truely I was myselfe also some- tymes divided in my thoughts. She had perpetuall Inclinations to retire from all the world, espetially ap- prehending that by any secular circumstances, she might possibly remaine in a doubtful condition, and the resolution was once soe strongly fix'd, that with noe small difficulty I opposed it. Being soe fully perswa- ded as I Vv^as, that they would be exceeding blessings to one another, rare examples of the conjugall state, and that nothing could hinder the pursuite of an holy MRS. GODOLPHIN. 41 life and the love of God, soe much as this pendulous and vnceitaine condition, whilst marriage she would find compose her devout spiritt, and improve it, I told her. she was not free, as I conceiv'd, to resolve soe pe- remptorylye ; that it was to doe violence to one whome she acknowledged could not live without her ; nay, that if to comply with her, he putt constraint vpon him- selfe, she should not doe well, since his Action in this Case ought to be as free as her owne ; and that she should doe a much nobler and [more] self denying thing, to preferr the satisfaction of soe worthy a Crea- ture before her owne. I consented to all her Elogies of the Virgin State, butt that there were no less due to the Conjugall ; and that if there were some temptations in it. her meritts would be the greater, and the exercise of her virtue ; Circled indeed it was with some tollera- ble thorns, butt rewarded with illustrious Coronetts for the good it produc'd ; that as to the oppertunityes of serveing God, an active life was preferrable to the Con- templative ; and that I should not doubt to see as many Crown'd in heaven who had been marryed, as of Vir- gins : since from Marriage all the Virgins in the world had their orriginall, and all the Saints that ever were or ever shall be ; that it was the Seminary of the Church and care of Angells ; and that [though] our beloved [Lord] were borne of a Virgin, she was yett vail'd vnder the Cover of Marriage ; and soe when St. Paul exalted the Celibate above it, for the advantages he enumerates, itt was nott to derogate from Marriage, butt because of the present distress and the Impediments of a family to an Itinerant and Persecuted Apostle, and those who in that Conjuncture had noe certaine aboade. 42 THE LIFE OF That as to the perfection and puritye of the State, 'twas one thing to be marryed to a Man, and another to a Husband ; to the first indeed, most of the world were joined, to the second, none butt the Rehgious. That as 'twas Instituted in Paradise, and dignifyed by our blessed Saviours presence ; compared to the most inti- mate Indearements of Christ to his Church, 'twas often blessed with exterordnary prosperity even in this world. That the fidelity, society, mutuall affection, and instance of religious Marriages, the regularity of their Charitye, and hospitality of their familyes, was Emulous of the highest pretences of the Virgin and more solitary Condition. Doe you (would I say) es- teeme it noe honour to have given Saints to the Church, and usefull members to the State in which you live ; and that you can be hospitable to strangers, institute jouY Children, give instruction to your servants, exam- ple to the neighbours, and be the parent of a thousand other blessings. I remembered her of what somelymes she would say, that if she marryed and had noe Child- ren, she should be displeased ; and if she had, she might have either too many, or too wicked and vnto- ward ; this, I told her, was to distrust Gods providence, and she did not well to make those reflections ; when in all events there was exercise of faith, and patience. Industry, and other graces ; and that she would not be happy vnless shee was alone, not considering that the few may be as well fooles, as vitious, — which is worse ; and that one of the many may recompence all her care for the rest ; that if she who bare her had been of that mind, there would have been one less Saint to Glorifye God ; that I should have wanted an excellent friend, MRS. GODOLPHIN. 43 and soe would many others, who now bless'd God for the Gharityes she did them. Ypon all these Topycs I challeng'd her humility, her faith, and her love. I laid before her how much more affected, morose, covetous, obnoxious to temptation and reproach an old Maid would be, who was knowne to have engaged her af- fection allready, than one who had never entertain'd an address. Then the trouble and sorrow of brinorin^ forth and expence of a family, would att another tyme affreight her ; little woemen, I told her, had little paine ; and that Glueens had endured as much with patience and chearfullness ; that as to great fortunes and sup- port, opulent couples were not exempted from Gares, and that tho' I Vv^as assured God had great blessings of that kind also in reserve ; yett sowre provisions and less Ambition, were as happy in the mutuall affection of each other, where there was a Gompetency for the present, and soe faire a prospect for the future : in a word, that there was some thing soe patriarchall (not to say despotic) and Royall in a well govern'd family, and worthy marriages, that I could not butt give it pre- heminence to all she had objected. These were the conflicts wee had on this subject ; and the difficultyes she suggested, where, I plainly told her, Itt was by no means agreeable to her piety, nor to the Equitye of the thing, that any less consideration than a fore sight of inevitable ruine, should suspend her resolutions of give- ing her selfe to a deserving person whose approaches had been soe honourable, and whome she confess'd she lov'd above all the world. There is certainly nothing more calamitous, then where love (as they call it) drives the bargaine, and passion blinds the Man ; butt soe the 44 THE LIFE OF young things precipitate, and the Giddy are entangled, and when the fancy cooles, repentance succeeds, and it ends in aversion and anxietye. But these Calentures concern'd not this excellent Couple, and such a Conju- gation of likely circumstances. I would tell her itt was not enough to be happy alone, when she might make another soe ; or ought she to resolve not to alter her Condition till she was out of reach of accidents, that it became a cruell and ill natur'd Laban to exact a double apprentyshipp for a Rachell ; that it was Saul that putt David to adventure for a wife ; that the He- roick tymes were now antiquated, and people proceed- ed by gentler and more compendious methods ; and the decencyes of her sex, and custome of the nation, and the honour of the condition, and the want of Mon- asteryes and pyous Recesses obliged her to marry. Marry then in Gods name, said I, since my advice you aske : itt is finally what I think you ought to resolve on; tho' if I studdied my owne satisfaction, I should rather promote this aversion, and seeke to fortifye your suspicion ; for as I profess it the greatest Contentment of my life that you have vowed me your friendshipp soe solemnly, and tkat you will be constant, whilst I incite you to marry, I endanger and putt it to the haz- ard ; for perhaps 3^our husband may be jealous, tho' without cause ; or he may have particular dislike to me, or may not be noble, free, and ingenious, or may make you vnhappy otherwise, which would be the greatest affliction could happen to me ; whereas, con- tinuing as you are, mistress of your selfe and your con- versation, your virtue and my yeares, and the con- science of my duty, and both our discretions, will pie- MRS. GODOLPHIN. 45 serve our friendshipp honorable, pious, and vsefull. In sum, I said nothing vpon Marriage, butt what I could vnravell to the advantage of virginity e, — the ease of a single life, the opportunityes of doeing more good, of serveing God better, of prolonging life — by example and precept from Scripture, from Fathers, from Legends and hi story es, and present her such a lovely picture of that state, which approaches next the nature of Angells, (who neither marry nor are given in marriage) as would have brought her to more than a suspense, or requireing farther advice : she would have needed no farther argument to render her more vnkind to Hymen, and to the repose of one who she knew I pittyed ; and, therefore, I ever perswaded her against the Recess she soe often was threatning, as a thing singular and of little advantage. I applauded her recourse to assiduous and humble prayer ; that God would direct her for the best, and that after all I had said and written to her, she would make that her Oracle ; being confident that God, who had hitherto taken such signall care of her, would not suffer her to miscarry in this Concerne. For I could not endure to see her allwayes in a doubffull and vncertaine condition ; because it could be profitable for neither, for when she had seriously consulted her friends, she had done all that was required ; and since it could not but be their vniversall suffrage, she was to accquiess, I therefore advised her, that in case she still resolv'd to live as she was, it should be butt for a tyme, without Imposeing on her selfe, and soe from tyme to tyme, as Circumstances might be, butt till then mind her health ; for she began to looke pale and leane, and had been too negligent of her selfe, which I reproved 46 THE LIFE OF her for. Butt this did not alltogeather the effect, — she rejoiiieSj and writes to me from Twicknam thus: — " 2^th July. " Your advice I hke, and all you say on both sub- jects ; yett am still where I was, wishing to live alone, as a thing most suiteable to my humour, and the nearest way to heaven ; nor can you blame one soe v/eake as I am, to chuse that path which will soonest bring me to my Journeys end. However, I shall observe your Rules, and soe farr your counsell, as not to determine any thing rashly, till he give me free leave to doe it. In the meane tyme, if you approve of it, that the world may not think by my growing leane as you say, I leave it with regrett, for the tyme I stay here I intend to take care of my health, and drink the Cows milk in the Morning, and because I am not to sleep imediately vpon it, my Maid shall read to me some divine Subject ; then rise and finish my private dutyes, then pray with my Servants, and be dressed by Eleaven, and soe have tyme before prayers to read a Chapter with other dutyes ; note and collect something out of what I read. Att six in the Evening I will repeate my Course againe, and after that learn such things by heart as I gladly would retaine ; after Supper pray with my people and by my selfe, my Maid reading to me whilst I am vndressing, and then lay me downe in peace. This is the method I intend for ordnary dayes, nott Frydayes, when you know I am to fast, and spend it intirely with God ; or Sundayes, [when] I will rise early and Imploy it with as much devotion as I can ; — this is, I say, the course I purpose here, if you approve of it ; for the rest, eat my MRS. GODOLPHIN. 47 meate heartyly, and comply with the conversation of the Family ; tho' I all this tyme wish extreamly that I were setled, where I needed vse none of these Imper- tinencyes, the observances and ceremonyes of visitts, formall meals, (fcc. to the expence of my tyme ; butt wholly attend on God, night and day. Nor should I dare yett to indulge my selfe this liberty, did I att all please my selfe in it as formerly I had done : or that I intend to continue it above 3 months att furthest, if I change not my Condition, which is to marry (as you would have me) and become worldly. Soe as by the end of Summer, I shall be free, and then none will con- sider my lookes, nor shall I be concern'd if they doe, att the distance of my retreate. Pray lett me know what you think of all this. I was this day very devout, but nott tender, and I hope it was as well, for I thank God I have made good resolutions." This being the substance of her letter in reply to one of myne, your Ladyshipp may perceive, as, how devoutly this blessed Virgin, (for soe must I call her,) spent her tyme in that delicious place, and amongst such a Confluence of Yisittants, (fee, soe how her heart was bent vpon her Northern Recess, to which I was soe averse ; and I was confident she would not long have enjoy'd herselfe in it ; nor could the distance of Here- fordsheir have worne him out of her thoughts, which that of France and Spaine could not doe. The trueth is, I did heartily pitty that worthy Gentleman, and saw noe reason in the world Avhy they should not both be happy in each other, and my friend composed, without takeing any exterordnary or singular course ; tho' on 48 THE LIFE OF the other hand, when I considered thro' what difficul- tyes and rehictances, this tender creature, now in the flower of her beauty, witt, and reputation att court, would sacrifice all to God, I could hardly abstaine from crying out, O magnanimous Virgin, I applaud your de- signe, I approve, I admire your choice ; I magnifye your example ; itt is great, 'tis illustrious, because it is the bet- ter part, and formed vpon just consideration : you have weighed itt long, and enquired of God : I allow, I allow, and envye your purpose ; O sweet repose of a devout soule, the flames of Celestial love, the fruition of Jesus, theantepasts of Heaven, what shall I call, what shall I name it; Consumate felicitye who has none to feare, none to serve, none to love butt God ; but whilst you are made free why leave you me behind, intangl'd in the world, whilst you are in the light, I [am] in darkness and a chaos ; for when you are gone what is the Court or Country to your friend. I shall see you no more in the Circle, nor Joine voices with you in the Quire, nor visitt your holy cell ; with you our Joyes are departed, re- ceive me then from this hateful! abode ; and begg of God, that the circumstances of my life being composed, I, who Emulate, may Imitate your example, and de- vote the remainder of my few dayes to eternity ; or at least while I am to converse here below, (for you are gone from the Earth) may I live in the contemplation of your virtues, and be a part of your Intercessions. Goe then, my holy freind, when you please, and be happy. Madam, you may possibly imagine this a Roman- tick folly, or the transport of some lover ; butt I assure MRS. GODOLPHIN. 49 you, they were the dictates of my mind and heart, whilst I was Councelling her to stay and to marry ; for, tho' I thought this more expedient, I could not but pro- nounce that the more perfect and exterordnary well. Thus she continued att Twicknam, as it were, in pro- bation, for the most part retired, and sometymes in con- versation. He often came to visitt her, and that broke her heart if he abstain'd from comeing. She was still vneasy ; soe after some weeks, she returnes to London, with full resolution of beginning her Journey, and the very day was prefixt ; butt when it approach'd, indeed it was not possible to pacifye my Lady Berkley ; who being to lose the most sweet and agreeable companion in the world, imploy'd all that friendshipp, love, and passion could inspire for the changeing her resolution, and the Convulsion was so sensible to them both, that she was forced to give way to her Importunityes, and deliberate on it some longer tyme. Nor was itt allto- geather in the consideration of my Lady alone, that she sufFer'd herselfe to be prevailed on, there were others whome (when it came to the Test) she was vn willing to leave for soe long a tyme, and soe great a distance, and among them, I should be strangely vngratefull, not to acknowledge the share I had in her thoughts and excellent nature, when I shall accquaint you of the Resolution she had to take a little house att Greenwich ; and I had commission from her to find out a place whither she might retire to, without goeing as it were out of the world, into the North ; not being able as she affirmed, to comply any longer with the receiveing and paying Impertinent visitts, and other avocations and circumstances, which took vpp all her tyme att London, 4 50 THE LIFE OF tho' with a Lady who soe much esteem'd her. I con- fess, I was not forward to promote this designe, not only because I thought [it] inconvenient for a Lady soe young, and who was ahready disposed to a more than ordnary reservedness, to cherish the humour ; butt that it would appeare like something over singular in her and prejudicial! to her health. I proposed therefore, ber ac- cepting the best accomodation I could give her, and she had certainly spent some considerable ty me with my wife, and retired to the little Cell, where your Ladyshipp has sometymes found her ; but my Lady Berkley could not suffer this Ecclipse, or endure that she should goe from her with any patience. Itt was on this that she writes me thus at large what conflicts she had endured ; and att the close : — " My best friend as to my being in your family, itt was allmost, and ah ! that it had not been allmost, butt alltogeather ; for whatever you think, it is hard for me to describe how sorry I am to be thus farr from so deare a friend ; and you don't know that I have given over severall other proposals of settling my selfe, when that thought comes into my head, that I shall be a great way from you, vnless I continue where I am att least for some months, till God is pleased to dispose of me one way or other," Butt whilst she was in this vncertainty and suspence where she should fix, and that the winter began to ap- proach, there was a play to be acted att Court before their Majestyes, wherein none were to be Actors butt persons of the most Illustrious quality ; the Lady Mary, since Princess of Orange, the Dutchess of Monmouth, and all the shineing beautyes ; and itt was not possible MRS. GODOLPHIN. 51 to leave her out, who had vpon the Hke solemnity for- merly, and when she was Maid of Honour, acquitted her selfe with soe vniversall applause and admiration ; and veryly, never was any thing more charmeing and more a divertisement, than to hear her at any tyme recite, or read a Dramatick poem. She had not only a most happy memory, butt exquisite Judgment, and could add those motions to her voice, as gave what she pronounced, the greatest sweetness and grace Imagin- able. This, though she would heretofore and butt rarely have done for diversion, and amongst freinds, the most innocentt in the world, she had now intirely taken leave of, and butt in Comply ance with some great Ladyes (whome she could not decently refuse) did she willingly see a play att the Theater ; and therefore, to be now herselfe an Actoress (tho' am.ong such an As- sembly of noble Persons) was to putt a Mortification on her, that cost her not only great reluctancy, butt miany teares. Butt there was no refuseing ; the King and Duke had laid their Commands vpon her, to beare a part with the Lady Mary, and others of Illustrious name. I came often to her when she was reciteing, and am wittness with what extreame regrett, and how vnwelcome to her this honour was. Butt she had att this moment alsoe another afiaire in hand, which more Imported her, and the difficulty in compassing that which solely by his Majestes favour was to be obtain'd, dispos'd her the more reasonably to comply. She had ever since her Recess from Court, hv'd in expectation of the present which of course their Majestyes vsed to make to the Maids of Honour, who haveing waited a competent time vpon the dueene, doe either marry or 52 THE LIFE OF withdraw from Court with their Roy all permission ; and now had she newly solicited the Duke to bespeake my Lord Treasurer about it, who gave her kind words, butt told her he must have the Kings particular direc- tion in it, butt in the meane while, was not forward to put his Majestye in mind of it ; and there was nothing to which she had a greater aversion then the Impor- tuneing great persons in her owne behalfe, for Civility which did not flow naturally from those in whose power it lay to oblige her. " I perceive," sayes she, in a letter to me, written 22d September, on this occasion, " that my buissness makes noe advance, and that where I least expected difiiculty I find the greatest. The King sayes nothing to my Lord Treasurer, nor my Lord to him ; soe that for ought I perceive, 'tis likely to depend thus a long tyme : well. Gods will be done, as in Heaven, soe on Earth ; in the meane tyme I am extreamly heavy, for I would be free from that place, and have nothing to doe in itt att all ; butt it will not be, for the play goes on mightyly, which I hoped would never have proceeded farther. Dear friend, I begg your prayers this cloudy Weather, that God would endow me with patience and Resignation. Would you beleive itt, there are some that envy me the honour (as they esteeme it) of acting in this play, and pass mali- tious Jests vpon me. Now you know I am to turne the other Cheeke, nor take I notice of itt." See the humility of this excellent Creature, who you soe well knew, looked on this occasion as" one of her greatest afilictions, and would have devolved the share she had in this Court Magnificence on any other MRS. GODOLPHIN. 53 Lady with a thousand acknowledgments, had their Majestyes butt excused her ; butt there was no retreat- ing ; she had her part assigned her, which, as itt was the most illustrious, soe never was there any perform'd with more grace, and becomeing the solemnity. She had on her that day near twenty thousand pounds value of Jewells, which were more sett off with her native beauty and luster then any they contributed of their owne to hers ; in a word, she seemed to me a Saint in Glory, abstracting her from the Stage. For I must tell you, that amidst all this pomp and serious impertinence, whilst the rest were acting, and that her part was some- tymes to goe off, as the scenes required, into the tireing roome, where severall Ladyes her companions were railing with the Gallants trifleingly enough till they were called to reenter, she vnder pretence of conning her next part, was retired into a Corner, reading a booke of devotion, without att all concerning herselfe or mingling with the young Company ; as if she had. no farther part to act, who was the principall person of the Comedy ; nor this with the least discernable affec- tation, butt to divert and take off her thoughts from the present vanity, which from her soule she abhorred. I mention the passage as a singular work of her reall piety, and to shew how she continually applyed her mind on all occasions, and how little transported with those splendid follyes and gay entertainments which vsually take vp soe much of the pretious tyme which is given vs to worke out our Salvation. I need not en- large vpon the argument of the Poem, which you may be sure, however defective in other particulars, was exactly modest, and suiteable to the Persons, who were 54 THE LIFE OF all of the first rank and most illustrious of the Court : nor need I recount to your Ladyshipp with what a surprizeing and admirable aire she trode the Stage, and performed her Part, because she could doe nothing of this sort, or any thing else she undertooke, indifferently, butt in the highest perfection. Butt whilst the whole Theater were extolling her, she was then in her owne Eyes, not only the humblest, butt the most diffident of herself, and least affecting praise. Thus ended the Play, butt soe did not her affliction, for a disaster happened which extreamly concern'd her, and that was the loss of a Diamond of considerable val- lue, which had been lent her by the Countess of Suffolke ; the Stage was immediately swept, and dilligent search made to find it, butt without success, soe as .probably it had been taken from her, as she was oft inviron'd with that infinite Crowd which tis impossible to avoid vpon such occasion. Butt the loss was soone repair'd, for his Royall Highness vnderstanding the trouble she was in, generousely sent her wherewithall to make my Lady Suffolke a present of soe good a Jewell. For the rest of that dayes triumph, I have a particular account still by me of the rich Apparell she had on her, amount- ing, besides the Pearles and Pretious Stones, to above three hundred pounds, butt of all which she immedi- ately disposed her selfe, soe soone as ever she could gett clear of the Stage. Without complimenting an}?- Crea- ture, or trifling with the rest who staid the collation and refreshment that was prepar'd, away she slipps like a Spiritt to Berkley House, and to her little Ora- torye ; whither I waited on her, and left her on her MRS. GODOLPHIN. 55 knees, thanking God that she was deUvered from this vanity, and with her Saviour againe, never, sayes she, will I come within this temptation more whilst I breath. And thus Mrs. Blagge took her leave of the pomp and glory of the world, and with fresh resolutions that if other circumstances did not intervene, namely, such as might soe alter her condition as decently to counte- nance her longer stay in these Parts, she would yett be- take hei-selfe to her designed retreat. She was not satis- fyed that those who could not butt take notice what Per- son it was she preferr'd before all the world, should speak of her withdrawing from Court, and liveing now soe long near it without proceeding any further, tho' divers could not be driven from the opinion that she was allready marryed. Itt is certaine that excellent Man could never think of parting with her, nor she herselfe from soe many Friends besides, as infinitely vallued her; butt vnless he could alsoe decently have taken himselfe from Court, which was the thing they both projected and desired, that they might wholy quit all dependancys which interrupted their living to- geather, butt which for many prudent considerations had been inconvenient for him as yett, she was not easily perswaded to linger here and be vpon vncertain- tyes, who had all along in her Eye the modelling of her life, so as not to be obliged to those complyances she was of necessity to vndergoe in a Station soe near to the Court, unless Mr. G. should fix on firme Im- ployment as might not only countenance her stay and mariying, butt render other circumstances easy like- wise : tho', as I said, there was nothing which they 56 THE LIFE OF both did breathe after more then to have settled some- where remote in the Country, from all Intanglements of the World. Thus farr she had pleased herselfe to acquaint me with her most intimate concerns. I doe not affirme that to obviate some objections of hers he meditated the purchase of that honorable Office which he afterwards succeeded in, butt the Master of the Robes, now Earle of Rochester, discovering his inten- tion about this tyme to part with that place, might, in my opinion, be an inducement with them to marry, and rather trust God with the event of things, then give the World occasion, after soe long expectation, to think she made a retreat out of rashness or discontent : where- fore vpon the 16th of May, which was Assention Day, they both marryed togeather in the Temple Church, by the Reverend Doctor Lake, one of his Royall High- nesse Chaplaines, my Lady Berkley and a Servant of the Brides onely being present, and I think nobody else, both the blessed Paii^ receiveing the holy Sacra- ment, and consecrateing the Solemnity with a double Mistery. Her not acquainting me with this particular of a good while after, occasioned a friendly quarrell between vs, that she who had intrusted me for many years with all her concerns, nay her greatest Inclinations, and vpon occasion not only named me for the particular Friend that should be wittness of her Marriage, butt give her to her Husband, should now with such In- dustry conceale it from me. And now I'le tell your Ladyshipp how I could not butt discover it, for noe sooner was the Knott tyed, butt she one day desired I MRS. GODOLPHIN. 57 would lett her pervse all the Letters I had of hers, and which she knew I too religiously reserv'd, not that she could be conscious of haveing ever written that to me which might not have past the severest Eye, butt be- cause there being in many of them professions of the sinceritye and holy friendshipp that an excellent Soule (and such as hers was) could express, they might by any accident possibly fall into hands that prophane every thing, and most, [the] innocent and virtuous ; I failed not to transmitt them to her, nor she to returne them, as indeed finding nothing in them which should cause her to deprive me of a Treasure she knew I soe infinitely vallued ; nor could I beleive that tho' she had given [herself] to so worthy a Person she design'd by sending for her Letters to break with me, as Ladys vse to doe with vnfortunate Rivalls : for she thus accom- panyes her Pacquett : My Friend, This being Tuesday, a Day which long since you know has belonged to a Friend of myne, I have putt togeather all the Letters, Papers, and other Fragments, excepting Meditations, which I think you have Coppyes of, and among which are some Prayers of mine, and all your Bookes ; only that you last sent me, and I am now reading, of the Intercourse betweene Christ and the Soule, I desire to retaine, because now and then I am much pleased and softned with some passages of it ; and now I have this day prayed your prayers, thought your thoughts, wish'd, I dare say, your wishes, which were that I might every Day sett looser and looser to the things of this World, discern- ing, as every day I doe, the folly and vanity of it : how 4* 58 THE LIFE OF short all its Pleasures, how trifling all its Recreations, how false most of its Friendshipps, how transitory every thing in it, and on the contrary, how sweete the Service of God, how delightfull the meditateing on his Word, how pleasant the Conversation of the FaithfuU, and above all, how charmeing Prayer, how glorious our Hopes, how gratious our God is to all his Children, how gentle his Corrections, and how frequently by the first Invitations of his Spiritt, he calls vs from our low Designes to those great and noble ones of serveing him, and attaineing eternall happiness ; these have been this Dayes Thoughts and Imployment ; for my Lady Hamilton being here, and some Freinds att Cards, I have had the whole Day to myselfe. Rejoyce with me my Friend and be exceeding glad, for soe it be- comes vs whenever wee have opportunity of serveing him. And now, Madam, by this, which accompanied the redition of her Letters, your Ladyshipp may conclude what Courtshipp there vsed to pass betweene vs ; how- ever, her solicitude thus for them on a suddaine might well give me vmbrage, and I was resolved to live vnder an affected Ignorance, assured by knowing, and as af- terwards I learn'd, that this niceness could never pro- ceed from herselfe, but from some other prevalent obli- gation ; and I ever esteemed it an Impertinence to be over curious when I found there was designe of con- cealement, and should have much wondred att it of her to me, butt that I was soe perfectly accquainted with her Virtues ; whereof one, and that none of the least care in her sex, was that whenever she was vnder a MRS. GODOLPHIN. 59 promise of Sacrifice, nothing in the World could vnlock her Bosome, or slack her resolution. A Secrett' was indeed a Secrett when comitted to her : and yett againe, when I called to mind the reiterated Premisses she had made me never to alter her condition without adviseing with me, I was somtymes in suspence of my Conjec- tures, and woutd often reproach myselfe for the Sugges- tion. Nor did this a little confirme me that she was not marryed, that my Lady Berkley now vpon her goe- ing with her Husband, design'd Ambassoder Exteror- dinarye to the Court of France, and Plenepotentiarye at the famous Treaty of Nymeghen, she solemnly con- sulted me about her accompanying her Ladyshipp to Paris, and staying there with her some competent tyme, to see how God would dispose of things. I must ac- knowledg I was not soe averse from this proposall of hers, ashopeing it might divert her melancholy designe and hank[ering] after Herefordsheir, and since my son, then butt a Youth, had importun'd me to lett him travell, I was the easier inclin'd to gratifye him, vpon the as- sureance I had of the great care she would have of him, since he was not only to accompany her in the way, butt be in the same House with her, and in all things injoin'd to follow her dirrections. Nor ever could he have had soe blessed an opportunitye of improveing himselfe ; this little selfe interest obtain'd on me I con- fess, att that tyme, butt such as I would most willingly have sacrificed, could I have prevail'd with her to stay without pursueing her Notherne Journey, where [the] abandoning herselfe to Solitude, must soone have ruin'd her health and made her vnbappy, 60 THE LIFE OF This excursion then concluded on, and lyeing intire- ly vpon me for her Provisions and Supplyes abroad, her mind scem'd to be much att ease, butt it was some Months that this resolution was taken ere they sett forth, and all this tyme, I am perswaded, she and her Husband liv'd with the same reserves that the Angells doe in Heaven, not thinking fitt to cohabitt till they de- clar'd their Marriage, which for reasons best knowneto themselv's they did not doe till she came back from France againe. In this interim, and towards the latter end of June, she did me the honour to pass a fortnight att my little Villa, and brought me a Letter of Attorney to transact all her concerns dureing her absence, as looke- ing now every Day when my Lord Berkley would be dispatched and enter on his Journey, when behold vpon the 27th a Fitt of an Appoplexy seizing on him as he was sitting at the Councell Table at White Hall, and continueing on him all that night, without the least ap- pearance of releasing him from its mortall effects, or if that might be possible,^of ever restoreing him to tollera- ble sence and vigour, banished all thoughts of Embas- syes, and consequently of our goeing into France. But God was more gratious to him, for the Phisitians had beyond all expectations, and even amidst dispair, brought him not only out of this fatall Paroxysme, butt after some tyme to soe much strength (tho' in most men's opinions not perfectly restored to his memorye and abilityes) as nothing would divert him from his intended progress. On the 10th of November his Ex- cellency sett forth with his Traine, my son and 1 ac- companying them the first Day to Sittinborne ; for in regardof his Lordshipps indisposition they made butt MRS. GODOLPHIN. 61 easy Journeys. Canterbury was our next nights re- pose ; when in the Morning after wee had been att Prayers in the Cathedrall, Mrs. Godolphin and I walk- ing alone togeather, she declared to me what exceeding regrett she was in to leave her Friends. Not without many teares I expostulated with her, why she would goe then, I am engaged, sayes she, to my Lady Berkley, who tells me I breake her Heart if I forsake her, and you see in what condition her Lord is, and poore Woman, what would become of her if he should dye, and she have never a Friend by her ? nor would I have People think I retire out of any other respect. B utt Mr. E. if ever I returne againe, and doe not marry, I will still retire, and end my Dayes among you, and you are like to have the share of the trouble ; for she had often said she would divide her Life among her Friends, and did me the honour to putt me into the Rank of one of the first. This, Madam, was the only tyme that in her Life she ever prevaricated with me, and cover'd it with that address ; and was, I am most assured, in deepest sorrow, as all my former suspicions of her being marryed van- ish't. Doe you not think, sayes she, that it afiiicts me to the Soule to part with you, and from one who I am sure you believe I love intirely, and leave in my Condi- tion ? This, vttered with a filood of sorrow, I was not able to sustain without reciprocall kindness and tender- dess. Butt the tyme now call'd us to break off this Conversation, the saddest that in my Life I ever saw [her] in ; she had left her Heart att another Place, and with one that therefore did not accompany her, because 62 THE LIFE OF he was of a tender nature, and durst not trust his Pas- sion, whilst their Designe was to conceal their relation: Wee arrived this evening att Dover, where, after supper, calling me into her Chamber, she sign'd and delivered me her Will, before her Maid, wherein she had me her Administrator : for it seems her Husband had impow- er'd her to dispose of what she pleas'd, and as she pleased, as afterwards she told me ; this done, she de- sir'd I would pray with her, and soe I left her, as full of Sorrow as she could hold. Early the next Morning I waited on her againe, and againe, and fell into the same resentments ; and that now she was soe near the tyme when she must be sep- arated from them she lov'd, I know not how, said I, you part from your Lover, butt never may you feele what it is to part from a Friend. I beleive there is one that you really love, and that 'tis mutuall, how is it then you thus goe from him, and he from you ? this is strange proceedings, 'tis spirituall, 'tis high, 'tis mysterious and singular; but find it a name if you can, for I confess 1 vnderstand it not ; doe you preserve serenity of mind, and yett continue languishing ? Nothing is in nature soe repugnant as Love and absence, where nothing for- bidds the object to be present. O heroick Soules, if you think to be att ease, I shall be glad ; butt greatly oblig'd to learne the Secrett, and be taught to beare this Divulsion with as little pain, since I know of noe In- gagement you have to goe from your Friends and those whom you profess to love. Goe back, goe back then, and be happy both, for this Course will weare you both out, if really you love him. For goodness sake doe not break my Heart (sayes she), you see I am engaged ; and MRS. GODOLPHIN. 63 then she wept and wore such a cloud of Sorrow all that Morning, that she could hardly speak a word when T lead her downe to the Company.'now prepareing to goe on board. Itt was vpon the 13th of November that vpon the Beach wee tooke solemn leave, and I should discover too much of my weakness to express the trou- ble I was in, to see her overwhelm'd with grief that she could not speake one word ; butt thus she was carried into the Yatch, when being a little launched in- to the Sea, the Fort from the Castle gave his Excellencye ] 7 Guns, and was answered with five, according to the Forme. I recount this passage to your Ladyshipp more minuitely, as being the most passionate and most mys- terious ; nor will I therefore make any reflections on it then what I am perswaded your Ladyshipp must doe, and then conclude them with admiration how two Persons that lov'd each other soe intirely, could support a Divorce soe long ; or what might be the Cause, if any other there were, butt a singular and extreme niceness not to come together, which they might be suspected to doe, however to appearance they lived reserv'd, till they publickly avow'd their Marriage, which you may remember they forbare till they had made their Familyes and Equipage complete. On the 5th of December, she writt me word of their safe arrivall att Paris, and how they had dispos'd of themselves ; together with an Account of my Lord Am- bassadors magnificent Entry and Audience att the French Court, with other pompious Circumstances, 64 THE LIFE OP which yett soe little concern'd this admirable Creature, that she would only be noe Spectator of it, butt not soe much as once appeared att Court all the tyme of her being att the Ambassadors House. And tho' the Re- port of such a Beauty and Witt had soe forerun her ar- rivall, by some who had known her in the Circle att Court, that the French King was desireous to see her in that att Saint Germans ; yett she soe order'd matters as to avoid all occasions of goeing thither, and came back to England without giveing that great Monarch the satisfaction of one Glaunce, or her selfe of the Splendor or Vanity of his Court ; which is soe singular a Note in her sex, and of one naturally soe curious and observeing, that I cannot pass it over without a just remarke, es- pecially being a Lady soe infinitely compleasant, and of a nature soe obligeing, Mistress alsoe of the French Tongue to such perfection, as rendered her capable of entertaining Persons of the highest quality, nor was this reservdness out of humour or singularity. She now considers her selfe a marryed Woman, and tho' she went over to accompany my Lady, there was no ne- cessity for her to appeare att Court, where the virtues of strangers did not allways protect the Sex from Incon- veniencyes ; and she was resolv'd to give no occasion to be talk'd of or admir'd. All the Tyme she could re- deeme from those Civilityes she owed my Lady, and which now begun to be very tedious to one whose Heart was in another Country, she spent in Devotion, reading excellent Bookes, and converseing with some few of her Accquaintance, butt without gratifyeing her curiosity by goeing out to see the many rarityes which the famous Citty she was in invites all strangers to, vn- MRS. GODOLPHIN. 65 less it were that of her goeing one afternoone to a Cloyster of Nuns ; whose manner of hveing did not displease her, whilst nothing of their Superstition could endanger one soe well principled in her Religion. 1 will give your Ladyshipp a transcript of the first Letter sent me after her arrival att Paris, to comfirme it. "My Friend, I promised you an Account of our Journey hither ; there was nothing in it of exterordnar)^, no ill accident, nothing like Pintos Travells. Since I came to Paris, I have hardly been out of doores to visit any body, butt there has been a Preist to visitt me ; butt without Vanity I think I said as much for my Opinion as he did for his. I am now reading Moun- sieur Clauds Defence de la Reformation, and like it most exceedingly ; soe as you need have noe fear of me on that side. God knows, the more one sees of their Church, the more one finds to dislike in itt ; I did not imagine the tenth part of the Superstition I find in it, yett still could approve of their Orders. Their Nun- neryes seem to be holy Institutions, if they are abused 'tis not their fault : what is not perverted ? Marriage itt selfe is become a snare, and People seem to dispose of their Children young, lest the remedy increase the dissease : butt when I have commended that baile of theirs, I have said for them, I think, all that reasonably can be said. One thing I must tell you, Friend, Peo- ple can have the Spleens here in Paris, lett them say what they will of the Aire ; butt if Arilhmetick will cure itt, I am goeing with my Charge, your Son, to be a very hard Student, and wee intend to be very wise." 66 THE LIFE OF I present you, Madam, with this Fragment of a Letter, to shew your Ladyshipp how she spent her Tyme, when she could redeeme it from Complyances with the Company, and the Decencyes of such Yisitts as were not to be resisted where Persons of Gluahtye came to see her ; butt of which she grew soe weary att last — and for another reason you may conjecture, — as with- in a Month or two of her arrivall, this excellent Crea- ture was quite sick of France. " I am weary," says she, in another Letter to me of the 4th of February, " of my Life, I have here no tyme for my Soule. Cards wee play att four Houres every Day ; whoever comes to visitt, I must be by to inter- prett ; where ever a certaine Lady goes (if my Lady H. be not att hand), I must trudge ; soe that poore I can scarce say my Prayers, and seldome or never read. Dear Friend, pray hearty ly, that if it be Gods will, I may be restor'd to my owne People, and to my God ; for tho' he be every where I cannott call vpon him as I was wont att home : therefore for God's sake pray that I may speedily and once again worshipp him in his Congregation, and enjoy the assistance of his Grace, the presence of my best Friends, whom as my Life I love. I could content my selfe with any thing, I think, were I once at home. Butt I must doe nothing rashly ; I hope yett in God through your Prayers, and my owne firme Resolutions, to gett home assoone as ever I can, being quite wearyed with dedicateing my selfe perpet- ually to other People. 'Tis almost one a Clock ere I can gett to Bedd. soe that in the Morning I am not able to rise before Eight, and passing then an Hour in Prayer MRS. GODOLPHIN. 67 and Psalmes, and an Houre and a halfe in reading, sometymes one Booke, sonietjmies another, by the tyme I am dress'd PubUque Prayers begin ; then follows Din- ner, then Talk till 3, then goe to Publick Prayers, then prate againe, God knows till Six a Clock, and then with much difficulty gett away to pray, for my selfe, for you, and some other, then am I call'd to Cards till Bed tyme. O pittye, pittye me, dear Friend !" I shall need repeate noe more of her sad laments ; diverse have I by me, and yet it was still more for this interruption of her assiduous course and devotion than for any other consideration. She lookes vpon it as an Exile from the House of God, which like holy David, was to her intoUerable. Even amongst the circum- stances of splendor, ease, and worldly diversion, she had been made beleive she should be as much Mistress of her retirements att Paris as she was wont to be att Berkley House : tho' neither there was she att the Lib- erty she breath'd after. Devotion, and Solitude, and Lea- sure for the improvement of her Mind. Butt this Affliction did not last, for vpon my Lord Ambassadors prepareing to goe to Nimoghen, and a reall pretence of an Affaire that concern'd her, namely, the disposeing of a considerable summe of mony intrusted with me. she decently tooke the oppertunitye of Mr. Bernard Green- vile returneing out of Italy, (whither he had been sent with a Publique Character to the great Duke of Tus- cany) and passing through Paris, of being conducted by that honorable and worthy Gentleman, without those difficultyes she might otherwise have met with ; nor doubt I butt my Lady Berkley, who was privy to 68 THE LIFE OF her being marryed, and had now another Lady with her, less scrupulous and more diverting, was the easier wrought on to part with one she could suffer to be sup- planted by another, after such professions of the most superlative Friendship and Indearments in the World, and which, I am certaine, contributed not a little to what afflicted this tender and good natured Creature. Mrs. Godolphin (for soe now I call her) haveing thus taken leave of Paris, arrived att Dover the 3d of Aprill, in which interim I had by her direction order'd her Accomodations to be remov'd from Berkley House to Doctor Warnetts in Covent Garden, whose wife was her near relation. Soe on the Sixth of Aprill she gave me notice of her being come to London, where the next Day I waited on her, to the no small Joy, you may be sure, of all her Friends, as well as of my selfe. I will not repeate to your Ladyshipp what had all ready pass'd betweene vs in friendly expostulations, for the vnkindness of her soe long concealing from me the cir- cumstance of her Marriage, because she had express'd her Sorrow with such an asseveration as in my whole Life before I never heard her vtter, soe as I could not but forgive her heartyly. Nor did this suffice, for she often acknowledg'd her fault, and beg'd of me that I would not diminish ought of my good Opinion of her, to the least wounding the intire Freindshipp which was betweene vs ; protesting she had been soe afflicted in her selfe for it, that were it to doe againe, noe con- sideration or complyance in the World should have prevailed on her to break her Promise, as some had done to her regrett. In good earnest I was sorry to see MRS. GODOLPHIN. 69 her troubled for it, considering the Empire of a pas- sionate Love, the singular and silent way of the Lover, whose gravitye and temper you know soe well, and with whome I had nothing of that intimacy and in- dear'd Friendshipp, which might intitle me to the Con- fidence he has since not thought me vnworthy of. I therefore mention this passage, because she was a Per- son of soe exact and nice a Conscience, that for all the World she would not have violated her Promise ; nor did I ever find it in the least save this, which, when all is done, was of noe great importance. Save that I tooke it a little to heart she should soe industriously con- ceale a thing from one to whome she had all along comunicated her most intimate thoughts ; and when that affection of hers was placed, which she would of- ten acknowledge was not possible for her to moderate as she desir'd, or bring to the least indifference, after all her innocent stratagems and endeavours, and even sometymes resolutions, to quitt all the World, and think of him only in her Prayers. This scene being thus over, to my great satisfac- tion, and, as vpon all occasions I advised, when those melancholy thoughts and fancyes vs'd to interrupt her quiett, wee will looke vpon this Lady now, as a setled Woman, and in the Armes of that excellent Person the most worthy to possess her. Itt was on the 13th of Aprill that she did me the honour of a visitt att my house, expressing infinite acknowledgments to Al- mighty Grod for his goodness to her, after a most sol- emn manner, and that once againe she was come among her friends, beging of me, that I would continue 70 THE LIFE OF to assist her with those Httle services she was pleased to accept. And now haveing thought fitt to make their marriage noe longer a secrett, — for she had not yett, I think, revealed it to her sister, nor did his Ma- jestye or Court, know any thing of it, till she was in Equipage to appeare as became her — she obtained of the Q^ueen a considerable augmentation of a Lease she had of certaine Lands in Spalding, about which she was pleased to make vse of my assistance, for the settlement of it. This was in May, and by the next month she had furnish'd and formed her pretty family att Berkley house, whether on the 27th of June, she removed out of Covent Garden, and began to receive the visitts and vsuall Congratulations vpon Marriages, soe vniversally approved of. Dureing this, I had the good fortune to secure a considerable summe due to her, which lay in some danger. V. in September began to build and accom- modate that pretty habitation for her in Scotland yard, which she contrived and adorn'd with soe much Inge- nuity and decency ; and where your Ladyshipp and all who knew and lov'd that excellent creature, have been soe chearfull, soe happy, and so vnhappy, that I never can pass or think vpon the place butt a thou- sand sad thoughts aifect me. tt was dureing the fitting of that Lodging, that she came downe to vs att Sayes Court againe, and blessed the little apartment you know, with her presence, from the 28th of September, to the 19th of October, her hus- band then being att Newmarkett with his Majesty; MRS. GODOLPHIN. 71 nor can your Laclyshipp forgett how sweetly she liv'd in their retirement all this winter, till hearing of my Lord Berkleys retnrne from his Embassy, she thought fitt to remove to her own Lodgings, now finished att White- hall for alltogeather ; which accordingly she did on ths last of March, settling with that pretty and discreete oeconomye soe naturall to her ; and never was there such an household of faith, never Lady more worthy of the blessings she was entering into, who was soe thankfuU to God for them. *' Lord," (says she, in a Letter to me) " when I this day considered my happy ness, in haveing soe perfect health of body, chearfullness of mind, noe disturbance from without, nor griefe within, my tyme my owne, my house quiett sweete and pretty, all manner of Con- veniencys for serving God, in publick and private, how happy in my Friends, Husband, Relations, Servants, Creditt, and none to waite or attend on, but my dear and beloved God, from whome I receive all this, what ft melting joy run through me att the thoughts of all these mercyes, and how did I think myselfe obliged to goe to the foote of -my Redeemer, and acknowledge my owne vnworthiness of his favour : butt then what words was I to make vse of; truely att first of none att all, but a devout silence did speak for me ; but after that I power'd out my prayers, and was in an amaze- ment that there should be such a sin as ingratitude, in the world, and that any should neglect this great duty ; butt why doe I say all this to you my friend ? truely that out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaketh, and I am still soe full of it, that I cannot for- beare expressing my thoughts to you." 12 THE LIFE OF And that this was not a transient rapture, vpon the sence of her present Enjoyment, butt a permanent and devout affection ; vpon the 16th day of October follow- ing, which day she constantly vsed to give me an ac- count of her concerns the year past, I find this passage in a Letter. " God AUmighty has been Infinitely gratious to me this year, for he has brought me back into my owne native Country in safety, and honourably prospered me in my temporall affaires ; above my expectation con- tinued my health, and my friends ; deliver'd me from the torments of suspence ; given me a husband that above all men living I valine ; in a word, I have little to wish butt a Child, and to contribute something to my friends happy ness, which I most impatiently desire; and then I must think before I can remember, what I would have more then I enjoy in this world, butt the continuance of a thankfuU heart to my God." This, Madam, was the vse and the gratefull returne she made of the short blessings she enjoyed. Nor need I accquaint your Ladyshipp, with what care she in- structed her servants, how sedulously she kept her family to Religious dutyes, how decently she received her friends, how profitably she imployed every mo- ment of tyme. Nothing in this world had she more to wish, butt what God soone after gave her, that she might be Mother of a Child ; which she soe passionately de- sir'd after two yeares that she yett had none, as in the intervall she tooke home to her, a poore orphan girle, whome she tended, instructed and cherished, with the MRS. GODOLPHIN. 73 tenderness of a naturall mother. For I have beheld when she dress'd and midress'd it, and laid it to sleep with all the circumstances of a carefull Mother and nurse ; till it pleased God to give her certaine hopes of the blessing she thought onely wanting to consumate her happyness. Nor did (as your Ladyshipp well knows) any Inconveniency of that burthen, at all slacken her devout course, but improve it rather ; when to other considerable Charityes a little before she was brought to bedd. she sent me £.70 to distribute ; by which were releived many indigent people and poore house keepers ; and this was her owne entirely, for her excellent husband had the year before settled on her, not onely the product, but absolute disposall of the portion which she brought, to above £.4000, for the irreversible continuance thereof, they were pleased to intrust me to manage the Stock, soe as now haveing still wherewithall to inlarge her Charitye, without pre- judice ; there was indeed nothing wanting which she desired more in the world, as often she would repeate it to me, butt the life of that Dear Man, for soe she called her husband, for whome she had now and then much apprehension, subject as he was to fevors that had formerly endangered him, not in the least forebode- ing her owne departure, and leaveing him behind her ; tho' vpon a dreame of myne I once related to her some yeares before, she affirmed with much earnestness that she should certainely dye before me : which tho' I tooke little notice of then, and believed nothing less, I cannot but since reflect vpon ; especially when I call to mind, the order she gave the painter, that in the picture she some years shice bestowed vpon me, she 5 74 THE LIFE OF would be drawne in a lugubrous posture, silting vpon a Tomb stone adorned with a Sepulcher Yrne ; nor was this att all my fancy, butt her express desire. Butt to lay noe more stress on this, how frequently have I heard her say, she lov'd to be in the house of Mourning. Nor does your Ladyshipp forgett how a few dayes before her Reckoning was out, my Lady Viscountess Mordant giveing her a visitt, and finding her eyes swollen with teares, she told her she had being doeing a sad, yett to her a pleasing thing, and that was the writeing something to her husband which she requested he would doe for her, if she should dye of that Child ; and then added the great Comfort and satisfaction it was to her, that she had putt her little concerns in order, and otherwise made preparations against all surprizes, and was perfectly resign'd. This discourse for the present drew mutuall Tears, but abated nothing of her wonted chearfullness : when on the fifteenth of May, which was the Anniversary ot her marriage, she with your Ladyshipp and sister Gr. honour'd my poore house with a visitt, (the last she ever gave me, and therefore not to be forgotten) the perfect good humour she then was in renders the memory of it sad, as well as that she was in the July after, when wee all went with her to Mr. Ashmoles att Lambath who diverted her with many curiosityes : butt after this, growing bigger, she rarely stirr'd abroad, save to the Chappell. Itt was yett againe on the fourth of August, that my Lady Mordant and my wife (by as- signation betweene them) went to dyne with her att her pretty appartment, they found her well, but some- thing more then vsually solemne ; she had it seemes MRS. GODOLPHIN. 75 been reading and sorting of papers and Letters, and how, sayes she, is it possible to think of ones friends wee are to leave behind, without concernment ; with discourse to this purpose. This more then ordinary- Impulse, that she should not outlive the happiness she had soe long wished for, made the Conversation less gay and chearfull then otherwise it was wont to be, and it seemes to me, she had some apprehensions ex- terordinary, which were not discern'd by any of her friends ; when often wishing that she might, if soe it pleas'd God, bring her husband one Child, and leave him that pledge of her intire affection. She seemed to thirst after nothing more than to be with God ; and veryly what estimate she tooke of these poore satisfac- tions here, when I have sometymes reflected on the circumstances of her youth and chearfull temper, with the prospect of as much worldly happyness as she could desire, I have extreamly wonder'd att her con- tempt of it, finding likewise that it did not proceed from any peevish discontent or singularitye of humour, butt from a philosophical!, wise and pious considera- tion of the vicissitude and instabilitye of all earthly fruitions, and an ardent longing after that glorious state, where (said she) I shall be perfectly att repose, and sin no more. And that these were almost her con- tinuall thoughts and aspirations, see how she enter- taines me, in a postcript about the very tyme. "Lett vs pray, that Gods Kingdome of Grace being received into our hearts, his Kingdome of Glory may succeed, and soe wee ever be with the Lord ; which indeed I long for, more then all the satisfactions of this 76 THE LIFE OF world ; really Friend there's nothing in it to be chosen for itselfe. Is not eating to satisfye the paine of hunger, sleepe to ease our wearyness, and other divertisements to take off the mind from being too intent on things that it cannot allwayes support without great inconve- niency to its facultyes ? Retirement againe is to dis- charge it of that burthen, and the staines it has con- tracted by being in conversation, and impertinent Com- pany ; soe that vpon the matter, our intire hfe is in my opinion, an inquiry after remedyes, which doe often if not allways exchange rather than cure our infirmityes ; I acknowledge that God has imparted to me many great blessings, which if our nature were not sadly de- prav'd, wee might exceedingly rejoyce in, butt wee make soe ill vse of most of them, that wee turne those things to mischeifes, which are given to vs for our good &c." In this style she goes on, and could a Seneca, or an Antoninus, or indeed the wisest and holyest person have vttered [aught] more divine and piously serious : nor did she say this only, butt she practis'd it : for with what devout and solemne preparations pass'd the rest of this fatall month ! Haveing received the blessed sacrament butt two dayes before she was brought to bedd, soe preventing all possible surprizes, and waiteing now with her Avonted alacritye and resignation the ap- proach of the conflict she was to enter vpon, she on the second of September, began first to be sensible of some alteration in her temper, and dureing that night it was concluded it might be her labour, and soe it was. With what exceeding patience, devotion, and courage she sustain'd it, your Ladyshipp, who was all the tyme assisting, with both those excellent sisters, can best tell. MRS. GODOLPHIN. 77 Itt was then on Tuesday the third of that vnfortu- nate Month, when comeing about 11 a clock in the forenoone as my custome was, to visitt her and ask of her heaUh, that I found she was in Travell ; and you may easyly imagine how extreamly I was concern'd, not to stirr from the house till I had some assureance that all succeeded Avell. And indeed to all appearance soe it did. For it pleas'd God that within an hour, your Ladyshipp brought me the joyfull tydeings of a Man Child born into the world, and a very little after admitted me to see and bless that lovely Babe by the Mothers side ; when the very first word she spake to me was, I hope you have given thanks to God for his infinite mercy to me ; O with what satisfaction, with what joy and over rapture did I hear her pronounce it, with what satisfaction and pleasure did I see the Mother safe, and her desire accomplished, without any accident that could give the least vmbrage or suspicion of ap- proaching danger, soe as me thought of nothing more than rejoyceing and praiseing God, augureing a thou- sand benedictions. In this faire and hopefull condition she continued all that day, when her husband, now att Windsor with the Court, being sent for to come to double and com- pleat the Joy, upon the Thursday following, his little Son was made a Christian, [his name Francis] in pre- sence of both the parents ; his Ynkle Sir William Go- dolphyn, Mr. Harvey, Treasurer to her Majestye, and Lady Berkley being susceptors ; the Chaplaines who constantly vsed to say prayers in the family performe- ing the office. 78 THE LIFE OF Seeing this dear Lady soe well layd, the Child bap- tized, and every thing in a hopefull way, my wife, who was now to visitt her, and I, return'd home, as full of joy and satisfaction as wee could be, for the best and most estimable friend wee had in the world ; butt ah, how were wee both surprized, when on the Sunday following there was a Letter delivered me in the Church, about the latter end of the Morning Sermon, in this dolefuU style. " My poore wife is fallen very ill of a ffevor, with hghtness in her head. You know who sayes the prayer of the faithfull shall save the sick ; I humbly begg your charitable prayers, for this poore creature and your distracted servant. London : Saturday, 9 a clock." O how was I struck through, as with a dart. I am not able to tell your Ladyshipp with how sad and ap- prehensive thoughts my wife and I hastned imediately to Whitehall ; where wee found her in all the circum- stances of danger ; and tho' distinctly knowing those who came to visitt and were about her, yett had the distemper allready soe farr prevailed on her spiritts, that it was a sad and mournfuU thing to find how her fancy and vsuall temper was disorder'd. To all this, the season happen'd to prove excessively hott, which ex- ceedingly contributed to her suffering. There had been, when I came, butt one physitian sent for ; butt my wife, suspecting (with others) that this violent sur- prize could not likely proceed from either the intem- perance of the weather or impaire of one, soe well laid MRS. GODOLPHIN. 79 as to all appearance as she was, butt possibly from ac- cident, itt was thought advisable to call an experienc'd person in cases of this nature. Butt itt was soe very- long ere the doctor could be found, and soe late ere he came, that through the frequency and violence of her fitts, which were now delirious, her spiritts were soe farr wasted, that tho' he were of the same opinion, and that something was omitted, yett would he by no in- treaty be pers waded to apply any thing but in conjunc- tion with other phisityans. Doctor Lowther being call'd away some houres before, and besides it being now farr in the night, itt was with exterordinary difi- culty that I gott my antient dear and religious friend, Doctor Needham, since with God, and then but valetu- dinary e himselfe, to come. Others who were sent for, wearyed as they pretended with toyle, would not be pre- vailed with to rise, except Doctor Short ; soe as till now, there had been little attempted ; nor any thing even by these with any assureance, so farr she was spent, and her condition not admitting of proper remedyes for what they feared, gave slender hopes of success. The Deliriums increase, and allbeit with some promise and intermissions, to appearance, yett were they only such as proceeded from languor and tiredness ; soe that tho' she still retained her memory of the persons about her, what she said was altogeather inconsistent, and grow- ing more impetuous and deplorable, gave presage of uttmost danger. This only was highly remarkeable, that in all this disorder of fancy and allmost distraction, she vttered not one syllable or expression that might in the least offend God, or any creature about her ; a thing which dureing these alienations of mind does seldome so THE LIFE OF happen ; bntt which shewed how blessed a thing it was to live holylye and carefully, as this Innocent did ; persons that are delirious vsually vttering extra vigan- cyes that discover their worst inclinations. Butt she was now in a manner spent, and no't could physitians doe, when neither the cupping nor the pidgeons, those last of remedies, wrought any effect. Other things had been perhapps convenient ; butt there was noe strength to bear inward remedyes, when even the most gentle had been fatall ; and there now appearing a kind of Erisypulus on her back, neck, and amies, the mahg- nancy grew desperate, — and this excellent Creature passes a fiery Triall, exercised in all the circumstances of paine and wearyness. Wee beheld her now lan- guishing vnder the last conflicts till the morning of the next day. There had been, your Ladyshipp knows, a consultation the night before, and a resolution of at- tempting searching att a venture, if she lived till day, and the rather that the physitians might not seeme to doe nothing in a desperate case, than expecting any good effect without a miracle. Butt when the morning came, finding her still more debilitated, and the parox- ysmes impetuous and allmost vncessant, all hopes being given over, vpon the importunitye and recomen- dation of that excellent and pious lady, the Viscountess Mordant, they permitted one Doctor Ffaber to make tryall of a Cordiall, celebrated by her Ladyshipp for the great matter it had performed, and indeed it seem'd att first to compose her, and somewhat allay the vio- lence of her fitts. Butt the moments were short, and her conflict is repeated with the vsuall violence ; till she who was wont to raise her selfe vp as oft as they MRS. GODOLPHIN. 81 came, now sinkes downe as no more able to sustaine them : her spiritts faint : till no more pulse perceivable, — for your Ladyshipp and I held her all this while by the hands, — with the most ardent prayers and offices of the holy Man, who continually attended, he earnestly, and wee all devoutly recomend, and she quietly renders vp her happy soule to her blessed Redeemer, in whose bosome she is now deliver'd from all earthly miseryes, and assumed into those blissfuU Mansions prepared for his Saints, and such as like her excellent in virtue. Thus ended this incomparable Lady : our never to be sufficiently lamented losse : leaveing not only a dis- consolate husband, whose vnexpressible griefe and deep affliction would hardly suffer him to be a spec- tator of her languishments, drown'd in tears and pros- trate att the mercy seate, butt all her Relations, and who had the honour to know her in as much reall and pungent sorrow as Christians and tender hearts were capable to express, and as was highly due for soe sen- cible and vniversall a loss, and soe infinitely deplor"d. This fatall houre was (your Ladyshipp knows) about one o'clock, att noone on the Munday, Septem- ber the nineth, 167S, in the 25 year and prime of her age. O vnparalell'd loss ! O griefe indicible ! By me never to be forgotten — never to be overcome ! Nor pass I the sad anniversary and lugubruous period, without the most sencible emotions, sorrow that draws tears from my very heart whilst I am reciteing it. Butt thus she pass'd to a better World, when only 5* 82 THE LIFE OF worthy of her, when as if presageing what was att hand, she that very day seavenight (as I noted) fur- nish'd herselfe with the heavenly Viaticum, after an extordinary preparation, preventing the possible dissad- vantages of what might surprize her spiritts and dis- order her recollection with a most pious and heavenly address. Nor was this taken notice of onely by those ■\vho were witnesses of it some dayes before she was brought to bedd, but signally appeared in that paper which she had left in the hands of her indear'd Sister in law Mistress Boscawen, to deliver her Husband, in case of mortall accident, which soe soone as it was possible to compose his and the vniversall grief to any temper, was perform'd. "My deare, not knowing how God Allmighty may deale with me, I think it my best course to settle my aftaires, soe as that, in case I be to leave this world, noe earthly thing may take vp my thoughts. In the first place, my dear, beleive me, that of all earthly things you were and are the most dear to me ; and I am convinced that nobody ever had a better or halfe soe good a husband. I begg your pardon for all my Imperfections, which I am sencible were many ; but such as I could help, I did endeavour to subdue, that they might not trouble you : for those defects which I could not rectifye in myselfe, as want of judgement in the management of my family and household affaires, which I owne myselfe to be very defective in, I hope your good nature will excuse, and not remember to my disadvantage when I am gone. I ask your pardon for the vanitye of my humour, and for being often [more] MRS. GODOLPHIN. 83 melancholy and splenetick than I had cause to be. I was allwayes ashamed of myselfe when I was soe. and sorry for it, and I hope it will come into the number of those faults which I could not help. Now (my dear) God be with thee ; pray God bless you, and keepe you his faithfull Servant for ever. In him be all thy joy and delight, satisfaction and comfort, and doe not grieve too much for me, since I hope I shall be happy, being veiy much resign'd to God's will, and leaveing this World with, I hope, in Christ Jesus, a good Conscience. Now, my dear, if you please, permitt me to ask leave to bestow a legacy or two amongst my friends and servants. In the first place, if it might be, I could wish, when the Child I goe with grows of a fitt bigg- ness, itt might be either with my sister Boscawen, or my sister Penn, for I know they will be carefull of its better Part, which is the cheife thing I am concern'd about. In the next place, I desire you would give B [her woman] one hundred pounds (the vse of which being six pounds a year, she may live att her Ffather's house vpon, if she will, for I fear she will scarce gett any one to bear with her want of good service, as I have done). For my Maid, if she doe not marry, I hope she will be kept to looke after my Child, when it comes from Nurse. In the meane tyme, you will give her board wages. For my two footemen, I hope you will gett them places as soone as you can, etc. How- ever, if you be not disposed (o keepe them, you will give (hem att parting ten pounds a piece. I desire you will give my Sisters my share of the (Queen's Lease, fifty pounds a year ; itt is betweene them two, my vn- marryed ones I meane ; and to my Cozen Sarah an 84 THE LIFE OF hundred pounds in mony. To my Lady Silvius my great diamond ring,