Class _ P5353S_ Book .Oi^fe Copyright N° COPYRFGHT DEPOSIT. JOE'S PLACE Copyright, 1902, •— p ^^ By George W. Jacobs & Co. / c> O O 3 ^J O Entered at Stationers' Hall, London Published November, 1902 .L THE LIBRAftV OF CONGRESS, Tffo Ct*»tc£ ftbcatvE!:, ^COPVRKJMT ENTRY CLASeP^XXc No. OOP»Y S. A'V: ''\:-'l •'''*'''* ' Press of Allen, Lane & Scott Philadelphia CONTENTS I His Mother's Own II Our Christmases III For Fortune an' a Wife IV Blackness an' Trouble V How Others Fare VI Three Comforters VII No Joe in Sight VIII The Church of the Parabler IX A Sad Surprise X We Reap Our Sowin' CONTENTS XI Annie's Quest XII FOREGLEAMS XIII Here Was Joe ! XIV A "Moulder" XV His Last Wrassle XVI Brighter Days Ahead XVII What To Do XVIII Wedding Bells — and Tolling XIX A Sweetly Memorable Day XX Remember XXI I'm Full Content ! ILLUSTRATIONS By the Author FULL-PAGE ENGRAVINGS Until the sob would reach her throat An' end her song Frontispiece • Filled his poor head with millions !— See ? He shall be rich as Gould 32 '^ "This thing yo'rn?" 40 His sperit was a show to see, — Riz up an down along with me 56 Out from his pew an' down the aisle He comes ! these other men meanwhile Just dumb surprised 78 She's calm an' sweet an' sperited, An' neither cried nor worrited 98 Asts will Perfessor an' his wife Stand by him, while he tries again To get in line with decent men 114 8 ILLUSTRATIO NS FULL PAGE "Once /was like some here today Down in the deeps 136 She calls in time to see we're trim Brushed an' spruced up ; for me an' him Was none too scrumptious 152 There, cased in glass, vi'lin an* bow Hangs mute an' still forever now 180 y ILLUSTRATIONS IN TEXT Cute-st little chap 15 Joe's grasshopper 18 Up in his lonely study room 28 Her grave was consecrated ground 47 How often have I scanned that line 59 We reap our sowin' 84 Now bless that woman ! 96 IL LUSTRA TIO NS 9 Poor Tom ! 103 Justice will be meted out 116 Courtly gracious 143 Forecasts the way That lies before us 150 The good old message i6g Satisfied 186 Let each man wheel with steady sway Round the task that rules the day. And do his best ! —Goethe. Moveover, what has been wro't out By past experiences, no doubt— Howsoever different these may be From what you'd figured out to see- Fits every man to fill to-day Some worthy place, in worthy way. An' in that place he'll surely find For work its wages— peace of mind, Contentment, happiness ;— what more Could come with power an' wealth galore? —Dad (p. 175). /(5 lyX.^^ JQ(^y JOE'S PLACE HIS MOTHER'S OWN ? Yes, if you'll set down right here, I'll tell you all you care to hear Concernin' Joe. Time an' again I tell it all, — sometimes to men That's been away off track awhile, Sometimes to men of wealth an' style An' learnin' (them indulgin' me My lack of schoolin', — seemin'ly Content to hear it all first hand, Told plain an' simple, understand). Joe, he was all the world to me From knickerbocker days, when we Poor helpless creatures was bereft Of her that made Hfe sweet, — him left Here motherless — a widower me. For both 'twas bad as bad could be. 'Thout Joe, I'd had no use for life, 14 JOE'S PLACE No sperit, sence I'd lost my wife. He was almost too young to know The awful meanin' of the blow, But not too young, of course, to feel; His tender heart was slow to heal. Took all my time to chirp him up An' plan for him. My bitter cup (An' bitter 't was!) was meller'd some By workin' for the days to come, — Workin' for him. His mother'd had Such great ambitions for the lad! An' at the last her one request Was, that I'd do my level best. To give him all the chance I could, An' teach him to be clean an' good. He'd find his place, she'd use to say, That he was meant to fill, someday. ''A large place" she was sure 'twould be, (So posatif!) — ''you'll see, you'll see!" Say, if you Hke, ''a mother's pride," It comforted her when she died. Just risin' seven he was, when he Clum for the first time on my knee. HIS MOTHER'S OWN 15 After we'd been an' put away The lovely, silent, precious clay. He'd question me, an' sob, an' cry. An', childlike, wish that he could die. Childlike! — he wa'n't nigh half so bad In that partic'lar as his dad. (For so he always called me — 'Dad,' Sence he was quite a tiny lad.) But I contrived to wear a smile, An' he got lightsome in a while. Cute'st little chap! I see him now, Purty an' healthy, curls on's brow. Lissome an' merry, an' his eyes His mother's, — O my heart, such eyest An' we was playmates: me and him Would walk together, fish an' swim, Play ball, an' what not. If my Joe Was glad, 'twas all I cared to know. l6 JOE'S PLACE It little mattered bein' poor; I never seemed to wish for more Till Joe was gettin' quite a lad. He threatened to outstrip his dad In no time, — ^growin' in a night Surprisin' tall; an' smart an' bright. You never see his equal. Sure He 'as not intended to be poor! O, often, often, in the night I've got me up an' made a light, An' went to where he laid in bed. An' pushed the curls back on his head, Just Hke I'd seen his mother do So frequent, seekin' somethin' new, — Some kind of sign mark in his face — To help me guide him to ''his place." 'T was foolish, mebbe, mebbe weak. But sobs, an' tearmarks on his cheek, An' little cries when he's in bed. An', in his sleep, odd things he said. Would often bring me up to see Was he in trouble, needin' me. Sometimes just bothered with his sums. Like other lads, an' other some The tellin' of his broken dream HIS MOTHER'S OWN 17 Would hint of what they was in him; An' I would ast myself if Joe Will prove a genus, don't you know. Genus he had, for he could see Things that would not appear to me. In fish, or bird, or growin' thing. He'd note the action of a wing, — Tell you just how a bird can fly, — Show how its tackle works, an' why; Explain on paper. He could draw When he'd the chubbiest baby paw. Books got between us some, 'cause he Was more incHned that way than me. Quite young he showed he's liter'y taste, An' read a heap, — no time to waste. (Me, when I was but eight or nine. Was sent to work, in rain or shine. Ten hours a day. Thank God, my Joe Di'nt have to buckle to it so.) But genus did not spoil the lad; Always he'd squarely mind his dad. An' when I could not help him thru With lessons (Grik to me), he knew My heart was in it, 'n he'd let on i8 JOE'S PLACE To've seen before I could have done. Consid'rate other ways, as well, Was Joe. It does me good to tell Of first machine he rigged for me, To do in one day work for three. -'Til'' — Joe's grasshopper, I named the thing,- Engeniousest clip an' spring! Joe said the insec showed him how! He'd take an idee from a cow. "Work," do you ast? — just this much use Three-doubled what I could perduce. Things had been draggin'. I was ill With worry (work don't often kill),— HIS MOTHER'S OWN 19 Mostly on Joe's account, you mind, It went right hard to be behind. An* gettin' worse an' worse, you see. But Joe had sense to care for me. "Dad, you aint strong; I'll take a hand. An' study nights." — You understand? What seems his duty he wont shirk : He'll waive his plans an' get to work. Tho both of us had set our hearts On college right away, he starts With hearty will an' buckles down To work all day with me in town. Times had been bad, — seemed all was wrong; An' me, as Joe said, I wa'n't strong, — An' broodin'. Well but, here was Joe Determined yet we'll have our show! That new contraption paid his way An' made mine easier day by day. Less 'n a year an' he was in His Versity. Just bound to win! II OUR CHRISTMASES Time flies, an' changes comes along. Things went some easier; I grew strong; An' Lord knows I was proud when Joe Clum up and made our dream a go, Made me quite young again with vim, 'S if / was twenty-one, Hke him! Christmas was Hke no other time For me an' Joe, — the only time We'd surely be together some. I always loved to see it come! Summer vacations he would work As tutor, farmer's hand, or clerk. Just as chance offered. That way he Inched his road through the Versity. OUR CHRISTMASES 21 That way he'd get a change of air An' scene an' so forth, to prepare His body an' his active brain To face his study work again. But Christmas he would surely come To spend the days with me at home, An', till he was a boy no more, He'd go, just like he'd used before His mother died, to Sunday School, An' play some part there, as a rule. As merry as the youngest one, — Made it a time of royal fun. Now, that was all of church we had Sence he was quite a little lad. Then, we had used to go, us three. Quite reg'lar, — wife an' Joe an' me. (Sung like a bird, she did, an' knew Hymn book an' bible thru and thru.) Sence then, it's all come back to me As plain as anythin' could be : One of the 'messages' she'd heard An' clinched there, was her fav'rite word About the great good place she knew Her little son was makin' to. 22 JOE'S PLACE Well do I mind, now, how we'd thought To name him Jabez — as we'd ought. Read, if you care to see why Joe Should been, an' why was not, named so. — But here, I'm ramblin'. Soon I quit Goin' to where we'd used to sit. An' dropped off, seemly unbeknown To folks or preacher; Joe alone Went to his school, as I have said; But churchtime we would go instead, Quite often, to the spot where she Seemed she's expectin' Joe an' me. Felt 's if the solemn quiet there Was tex an' sermon, hymn an' prayer. Seemed like her sperit stayed to see Was Joe quite well an' safe with me. Seemed Hke at last she said "I know My child will find his way; I'll go An' wait in peace for him an' you. God keep you all the journey thru!" Sweet benadiction! O my heart, The weariness an' bitter smart That was to come! OUR CHRISTMASES 23 Fault me who may, I've meant to lead her boy aright, As if we're always in her sight. But missed some things I'd ought have done. Done some I'd best have left undone, As bible has it. —Yes, oh yes, We'd ought have kep to church, I guess. Mebbe I was a lot to blame,— All my excuses weak an' lame, — But— well, I might as well be free An' frank : it always seemed to me That, if you wa'n't just up to style Nobody felt it worth their while To say ''how do?" An' then the talk Was mostly 'way above my chalk. I faulted nob'dy— 't was my loss, My ignorance,— mebbe my 'cross.' O well, I kep my cross at home, An', as a rule, when Sunday come, I'd call around at Ida Wills', An' always down by Cowpen Mills Where sister Ellen lived, an' Tom, Her son, an' Harry Penninton (Blind Harry); so it come to be 24 JOE'S PLACE They'd fear they's somethin' wrong with me If I should happen not to pay My usial visit on that day. Sister, she's sure to need my help Or some advice, for that young whelp My nefify, he'd be in a scrape More or less bad, in some new shape, 'Most every time; an' sister, she Would cry, an' tell it all to me. An' I would have to fix things up (Place of a father). Why, the pup 'Most wore me out, — his impidence. An' want of ordinary sense. My namesake too! — his mother blind To his worst failins, — always kind An' easy with him. I was glad My own was noway such a lad! Whoever'd thought I'd see the day My neffy Tom would preach an' pray! Blind Harry was a lift to me, — So cheery always; for you see He was a Chrisht'n thru an' thru. Odd, simple, made no big ado. OUR CHRISTMASES 25 But somehow seemed 's if what he said Got in an' filtered thru my head Into my heart an' did me good. Things that I had not understood, Or that was troubHn' me, we'll say, He'd see thru, 'n clear my fogs away. Chums ever sence we both was young, I'd known him when he 'as blithe an' strong, With perfect sight an' hmb, — even then The cheeriest an' best of men An' best of friends; but subsequent. It seemed as if his loss was meant T' enrich him! for you never knew One more contented thru an' thru. (Poor lad! — his loco jumped the track. An' threw him — driver — on his back Maimed, blinded; but I'm proud to say Showed up a hero, every way.) So, Sunday come an' Sunday go, I must look in on him, you know. Then Willses, — 'twould not do at all For me to happen not to call. Say, two three Sundays of an end. 26 JOE'S PLACE They reckoned me their nearest friend. Anyway, sence my old friend John Was dead, an' me the only one His widow looked to for advice, I did my best. An' they was nice To my lone little one, — her four. (Oldest was nine or little more When John Wills died.) So I felt bound As well as glad, to drop around. Weekdays was full with work ; an' then They's one or other of the men To see sometimes on Sunday too. (Tried to keep track of them, an' do The square thing, sick an' well.) An' so Sundays and weekdays come an' go — Till here it's Christmas time once more, As welcome as in years before. An' here's my boy again, an' me Tellin' him things, him tellin' me, Experiences we both had had Since last we met. An' now my lad Talks some of mother (she had died Just at that hour of Christmas tide). OUR CHRISTMASES 27 He fancied he had seen her face In this an' that an' t'other place, When he was lonesome, or poplext, Or hurt, or wantin' heart, or vexed, — An' how her glance would settle him. An' brighten up what had been dim. This was but fancy, or a dream; Such things is never what they seem. / see her when I see his face, 'S if she was settin' in his place. Next day or two sees Joe in town. Coat off an' sleeves up, buckled down As if he never'd left the place; — Hands black, an' sweaty, grimy face; Now rule an' pencil, — now unfixin' This an' that tackle, tryin', mixin,' — Same old Joe! — a bran new notion, Changin' power an' scope an' motion. "It works. Dad, — see!" My eyes was wet. His notion did work — does work yet! 'Twas quite a while before I knew How long 't had took to put that thru. While other lads was playin' ball Or idlin' other ways, or all 28 JOE'S PLACE Snug in their beds, he'd dremp an' writ, Measured an' reckoned, plannin' it, Up in his lonely study room. 'Twas almost done when he come home. His genus served the Versity, An' helped him farther on his way: Some micascope, I understand, Fixed for a livin' speciman. / can't explain; but I was told That thing was worth its weight in gold. So said Perfessors; an' my Joe Was treated han'some — that I know. Genus Hke he had, seems to me, Told plainly what his place should be. Ill FOR FORTUNE AN' A WIFE In little while I kind of see Some change in Joe that puzzled me. Not pride exactly, but I — Well, Different, in ways I could not tell. Just seemed to me hke somethin' said : 'The boy .you once had — Joe — he's dead." That's just the way it felt, you see. An' yet, the lad was kind to me. He never tripped a word I said, Nor laughed at me; but my dum head Fair spHt with sense of ignorance. You see / never 'd half a chance. An' Joe, — his words, his voice, his face. They all showed up a scholar's grace; Not Hke a rough mechanic's lad; While me — I blushed to own his dad! 30 JOE'S PLACE Poor fool I was! I'd ought have known My Joe was now a man full grown, An' filled with plans an' hopes an' things As fitted to him just like wings. Joe he was made to rise and soar! Me, — I was made for small an' poor. That summer Joe spent quite a time 'Way with a college chum named Lyme, Up New York State, — a rich man's son. He writ of times with rod an' gun, Horses an' dogs, an' lots of sport Of quite aristocratic sort. Stirred my vain heart a bit to know My son could take his pleasures so; Tho I 'as a little hurt, you guess, To feel the old ties growin' less. But he'd his "place" to find, you know. Seemed wrong to grudge to see him go. That Christmas passed without my lad! I never'd missed him half so bad; 'N his letters did not make quite plain The obsticle, nor ease my pain. Uneasy — not, I'd have you know, Because of any doubts of Joe. FOR FORTUNE AN' A WIFE 31 But never 'd felt so lost before In fourteen fifteen years or more; Had never yearned so for the lad; Yet his few letters made me glad. His mother would have scorned my tears An' rediculed me for my fears. But Christmas next we sits alone — Just me an' Joe, — an' one by one The old fermiliar things was said. We grudged to quit an' get to bed. I ast him did he ever see His mother's face now. "Yes," said he, "An', Dad, I hope I always will. She come," said he, "when I was ill." "When you was i//f" I says, "why, lad, You ill, an' did not send for dad? Tell me!" An' then he told me all About his illness, year last Fall. O, I could understand it, now; 'Twas worry broke him, — I know how. Worry it was! — say menengeetis Or what-on-earth its doctor name is, — Worry! — all sintoms plain to see; 32 JOE'S PLACE I know just how it is with me. Not work nor study. When he won His A an' B (or whatsomever 'Nitials used to stand for clever) He kep his grip. 'Twas different now; He 'as worried mad, not wore out, now. That was a tryin' time, 'cause he Planned soon to leave the Versity, An' what to do an' where to go When that time comes, was puzzlin' Joe. So, castin' out for future plans When study would be off his hands, — When he's the bustlin' world to face, An must begin to seek his place, — His old perclivities was shown. An', in the night, when he's alone. Some new contraption filled his head. With money in it, — as Lyme said. — For Joe, he's bound to tell his chum The whole thing, when he should been mum. An' Charlie — model of his dad! — Just takes possession of my lad. Totes him that summer up New York. Thru holidays he's hard at work About as usial, most the time. FOR FORTUNE AN' A WIFE 33 'Cause it just suited old man Lyme To work Joe's enginuity For his own benefit, you see. Drives him to town to see his mills; Dines him at club, with wine an' frills; Fills his poor head with millions, — see? He should be rich as Gould if he Could work clean out the scheme he said Was takin' shape now in his head. Talked fair an' fine enough, of course, An' — makin' matters ten times worse — Lets on to favor all the time Joe's makin' up to Annie Lyme. So he, as trustful as a child, Was worked an' easily beguiled. Into the effort of his life For fortune, — fortune an' a wife! O yes, the wrong stands out quite plain; Her father played the girl for gain! But mark you, genwine love was there, Right from first meetin' of the pair. An' love, I make no doubt, inspired The dream with which his soul was fired. Key'd up to fix that dream, an' bent 34 JOE'S PLACE On winnin' Annie, — too intent On that to think of rest or play — He works continious, — usial way. All this come to me afterwards, Patched out of various acts an' words, An' this an' that, as plain to me As if I had been by to see. I wisht he'd talked with me, poor lad; His secrets would been safe with dad. But — ^^there you are! my dunder head Could not respond to what he'd said: An' so a smarter man than me, Who'd make pertense of sympathy Could draw him out an' plum his head, An' mint out every word he said! / could not talk of influence Nor lay down cash to meet expense Of demonstratin', patentin', Incorporatin', marketin', An' so forth. But mebbe I could Have warned an' counselled for his good, If only I'd been made aware Of how they lived while he's up there. FOR FORTUNE AN' A WIFE 35 O weary heart! Who'd dremp to see Such troubles come to Joe and me! Back to his books, wore out, instead Of brown and brawny, his poor head Full of the work he'd yet to do To put that Lyme contraption thru. Now in his study room he struck At last what should have been his luck! — What was good luck to Richard Lyme, — Three-folds his wealth in two years' time. Specifacations was complete, All paten' drawins fixed up neat, His lessons — everythin' was done! That one night's rest was surely won, When Joe went, glad an' proud, to bed. — Next day at noon he's off his head! 'Tis but a simple tale to tell How Joe was ruined, — how he fell. Ah Joe, my lad! The years be long. But still that memory rises strong; — The cruelty, the wrong, the shame! Were 't not for her, I'd curse the name! — ^Forgive me, no! I lay no curse. 36 JOE'S PLACE He wronged you; my wrong would be worse. When Richard Lyme has had his day / don't apportion him his pay. Joe tried to think 't was all a dream, — Apiece with his dilerium, — Drawins an' writins; — anyway, They all had vanished that dark day; An' not a soul but Charlie Lyme Knew Joe's employments at the time. We'll say no evil of the dead; Mostly such things is best unsaid. The whole affair was plain to me : My lad was deep in love, you see, An' Charlie, on that fatal day (True, he's in liquor), dared to say The old man's favor was a blind; His daughter was for no such kind! He sort of paternized, an' said He'd hate to see Joe lose his head; He'd best not take too serously What might have passed 'tween her an' he. In fact she was to marry, soon. One of their own set, George Calhoun. FOR FORTUNE AN' A WIFE 37 This double blow, I make no doubt, Crushed an' completely knocked him out. Proud, sensatif,— his mother's own! Manly an' honest to the bone. Wretches an' fools! they'd ought to know He 'as worth a miUion Lymes, was Joe ! An' Cha But that is best unsaid. We'll say no evil of the dead. IV BLACKNESS AN' TROUBLE Oh, if the trouble'd ended there! — My Joe once more in his old chair, Talkin' with all his old-time vim To me — me proud to look at him! Just work, an' hope, an' daily bread, An' humble notions in his head; Just inchin' t'wards a compatence, An' readin' some -an' gainin' sense, — That would have been enough for me. In way of riches, don't you see? No Versity, no rich folks schemin'. To poison all his happy dreamin', No taste for liquor! — O my lad. My lad, my lost an' ruined lad! They aint a price I would not pay BLACKNESS AN' TROUBLE 39 To wash some memories away. I've ast myself a thousand times If I was more to blame than Lymes. Joe never 's seen me worse for drink, Nor enter a saloon, I think. But neither did I warn the lad, To save him, as behooved his dad. Sometimes I've wondered did the crime Lay upon me as much as Lyme! Blame be as may, my pride was gone. My hopes, my plans an' dreams was done. Blackness and trouble fronted me; No gleam of comfort could I see. His mother — she would have been brave. But me, — I envied her her grave! Thinkin' of her, I've wondered some If ever nowadays she come To seek our boy, — to show her face. An' help him in a tryin' place. Like she had used (or so he thought), — If she was near by when I sought In loathsome dens an' bars an' slums, Among the drunks an' beats an' bums. O mercy heaven! how foul an' low 40 JOE'S PLACE The devil drink had made our Joe! For tho I'd aged five years for one He looked too old to be my son. He 'as scarred an' battered, thin an' weak,. Deep-eyed, with seamed an' sunken cheek. What would a mother's eyes have read In that drawn face, in which, instead Of the old grace — ? Ah yes, I know: She would have seen just only Joe! So I would brace me up again. An' try to smother down the pain. Do my day's work as best I could (My business now was none too good). An' then, if Joe was not in sight, I'd make my rounds an' pa:s the night In quest of him. An' now an' then He'd seem he was a man a£*"ain. Would wrassle hard to beat his foe, But always, always lost his throw. Such times he'd come an' work with me^ Down to the shop, an' I would be Almost at peace, — as if old Lyme BLACKNESS AN' TROUBLE 41 An' all that black and weary time Had been a dream. But such relief Always forecasted deeper grief. Always, when my poor heart was high, The same old tale — my bird would fly! One mornin' when I reached the shop The door stood open, an' a cop, — Big brutal dog ! — ast "This thing yo'rn ?" Holdin' by 's waistband somethin' shorn Of every semblance of a man. 'Twas Joe! — imagine, if you can. 'This thing f — the hardest, meanest yet. Long as I live I can't forget. Shop stripped of almost every tool; They called my lad a thief, — a fool ! Day after he was called a 'thing' An' worse, again my bird took wing. No, — yes, — we'll let the figure be : Bird or what else you will; — to me He wa'n't so vile as you might think. As good as gold when not in drink. I've often laid him on my bed Thinkin' (an' almost wished) him dead; But now, as days an' weeks crep on, I yearned for my poor wayward one, 42 JOE'S PLACE Nights I would shake with awful dread Till I 'as too weak to leave my bed. Almost I craved the smell of rum To tell me that my lad was come. Days run to weeks an' months, an' still No Joe! — me goin' fast downhill; Sick, famished, nought but skin an' bone; More yet to suffer than I'd known, Or could have dreamed. But now I see Why all this trouble come to me! I see it now, as plain as day: Our schoolin' had to come that way: That way we had to seek his place For Joe, — thru pain and black disgrace! HOW OTHERS FARE When I was huntin' here and yon For traces of my wanderin' one, My road, I found, crossed many a track As devious, — cases quite as black. How true it is: we don't half know How one another lives. No no, — Nor how they die, you well might say. Some toil an' moil from day to day For just enough to crawl on, 'n then Spend weary nights in haunts where men Turn into brutes or worse, in quest Of them they care for more than rest; Seekin' where they most dread to find, In holes unlike for human kind, 44 JOE'S PLACE Only to die unblest! — unknown Their martyrdom, unheard their groan, Untold their griefs, as down they sink Into their graves. O \ do think It would be better did we care To see an' feel how others fare, — To be at greater pains to know Each other truer someways, so As when they's trouble, accident. An' what not, all our good intent (Of which we've most of us a share) Could bring its exercise to bear. Did seem to me, when I 'as around In dens of vice like underground, As if the very loathsome reek Was meant, in its own way, to speak! Seem 's if 'twere cryin' out again The question that was put to Cain, — As if 'twere bound to make you know How near to hell your kin does go. An' what a raft of people bear Great loads like yours of gnawin' care. My Sunday afternoons was come To see me trip from home to home HOW OTHERS FARE 45 Of Stricken souls I'd come to know In places where I looked for Joe. Men loaded down like me, — at times Like me uplifted too, — at times Fain to believe their troubles o'er, — • Their lads returned to stray no more; An' then, like me, in deeper gloom; No release from their awful doom. An' mothers, sisters, wives — O heart! That this should be a woman's part! Why do I harp on this? Because, When awful death had set its claws In me, an' I was almost gone I owed my life to such a one. Owed all to her that mine an' me Has been permitted sence to see : A woman I had come to know That had a lad to seek like Joe. (Like Joe he seemed to her, mebbe; He seemed a wastrel cur to me; No head like Joe's — but still her own.) I owed my life to her alone. Stricken (my memory fails) somehow. An' lyin' there among the low, — 46 JOE'S PLACE Among the lowest! — every breath More labored than my last, an' death Close by; my mind on Potter's field; One prayer for Joe before I'd yield; An' then — an' then this woman's voice Bids my old heart revive, rejoice! (Not just in words, — that's what she meant). She was an angel God had sent! * She slipped away, sometime ago. From all her weary hopeless woe, Unsatisfied, — but comforted By what a sim'lar sufferer said. In homely fashion, simple speech, — Some things he knew (been hard to teach) About the good Lord's will an' way. That He'll make plain an' clear, some day, — About His promise of release From care an' pain, — of perfect peace. An' t'wards the end she brightened so 'Twas plain she felt content to go. Joy shone where they'd been signs of pain. As if she'd found her boy again. All unbeknown to church for years, She'd been babtized in floods of tears. HOIV OTHERS FARE 47 Her grave was consecrated ground, No matter where it may be found. I like to think the good Lord knows An' writes an epitaft that shows Just how He classes her, up there, An' what He thinks of such as her. VI THREE COMFORTERS Now strangers come to wait on me, An' prove how Chrisht'n they could be. No sham nor cant in what they said. An' I was tended, housed an' fed — By Providence! That's all I knew Till I was fairly pullin' thru. Memory was dull. I rested me, Unknowin' where I chanced to be, Nor carin' — till I thought of Joe. Then, all my weary whirl of woe Come surgin' in! I would have lep From bed, but fell back limp, an' wep! THREE COMFORTERS 49 Too weak to fairly raise my head; Too sore to turn myself in bed. Soft hands and gentle bathed my face; Peacefullest quiet filled the place; White walls, with scripture tex an' things; Music sometimes, — when angels wings Would seem to beat the sunlit air (Almost I'd see them, bright an' fair); 'Twas heaven — until I thought of Joe. Then, I must up an' off, you know. Poor me! my trampin' days was done. But other eyes would seek my son, An' livelier wit an' suppler limb Would go about in quest of him. 'Twas all arranged by Providence! I've never quailed nor doubted sence. So wonderful! — up from the slum (I 'as goin' to say to Kindom-come) From where I'd almost quit my clay, This woman had me borne away To hospital. Here who'd I see But nefify Tom! — him easin' me. (Bruised, don't you know — an' awful wreck!) My neffy's arm about my neck! 50 JOE'S PLACE His voice I knew, his noble brow, My sister's lad — a reverend now! Tom's mother, she was gone, you see. Tom said he'd no one now but me; — Me! — that had always wigged him so! — Always contrastin' him with Joe! Give me the duty of a son, — All that my own boy should have done. Thanked me (I see him now), When I was lyin' dreadful low An' all expectin' me to die. Dear me, but how the man did cry! — Thanked me : I'd made him all he was (Redic'lous!) — I was all the cause Of whatsoever good he'd done An' whatsoever fights he'd won, An' so forth. — All sencere enough, But really only foolish stuff. Anyway, he was come to be From that time on, a son to me. My friend bHnd Harry Penninton Come, when he had a chance, for one. 'Twas his vi'lin brought angels round; When sense revived I knew the sound — THREE COMFORTERS 51 Knew what had swished the angel's wing. 'Twas his vi'Hn that used to sing! But gentler than his magic bow His whispered comfort, soft an' low. Strange knack he had of quotin' tex To simplify what might poplex; To soothe, to sta}^, to clear your sight, An' help you read experience right. At times quite merry, — ap to say 'T see, I see!" — his playful way. An' droll. He would diagonize A body's trouble, lookin' wise. As **worryalgy," an' perscribe With humor I can ill describe. Diagonized all right, for sure. An' did his best to work my cure. "Worry is woeful waste; it drains Your strenth, an' aggrevates your pains In brain an' body. When you're done You've made a loss — they's nothin' won. If this old book (he'd say) is true, It's full of good for me an' you. They prize it an' they prove it best That use it like a medicine chest. 52 JOE'S PLACE Equipped to heal, to soothe your pain, To strenthen, stimilate, sustain. An' so forth, — not to parrot out In churches, merely, — not to spout In high-falutin' sing-song way, Just when you meet to sing an' pray; But 'specially when you're worried — then It helps. I've tried it time again." Seemed loss of sight enlarged his view; Old things for him was changed to new. No preacher could have lived like one More true than Harry Penninton. One other — welcome as the day, — A fair young thing — would come an' stay An' read for me; an' once, I know, She prayed the Lord to send back Joe, "Clothed an' restored, in heart an' mind. Send home his son — Lord be so kind!" — Like that, you know. Her words took wing! They had the genwine honest ring! I liked to touch her purty head. Her face brought back to me my dead. Seemed like she knew what heartache was, THREE COMFORTERS 53 An' knew of mine, an' knew the cause. I growed to love the ground she trod. She learnt me how to rest in God. I shall not soon forget the time She told me she was Annie Lyme! VII NO JOE IN SIGHT Soon I was moved to my old home. I wished it so, lest Joe should come, An', missin' me, be gone for good (As come at last I felt he would), For all the while my heart kep sore, — Yearned for my own lad more an' more. Deft hands an' kindly set my bed Right in the parlor, so's my head Could easy turn to watch the street. An' so's my ears could tell the feet I waited for, if he should come. They furnished up the parlor some, (My neffy and Miss Annie Lyme Seemed they was fixin' all the time) NO JOE IN SIGHT 55 Till I 'as almost afraid if Joe Did happen in, he'd hardly know 'Twas our old home. — An' then they quit. Indeed, they changed it back a bit; — Anxious, like me, to see the lad. An' awful mindful of his dad! Them an' blind Harry tended me, One an' another constantly, — Doctor an' nurse as well. Did seem Sometimes as if 'twas all a dream! Sometimes I'd drift like, heedin' nought That happened near me, — all my thought An' fancy far an' far away. As if I never'd known a day Of care an' trouble, — like if me An' Joe was boys again, you see. Harry, he made his home here now (Widowed, Hke me); it seemed somehow The naturallest fittest plan, — He 'as such a brother sort of man. His sperit was a show to see: Riz up an' down along with me; Me better, he'd look bright an' fine; Me down again, he'd fret an' pine. 56 JOE'S PLACE When he's allowed, he'd sing an' play- Flute or vi'Hn; another day He'd mope round, silent, list'nin' out. Sharp ears he had, without a doubt. I happened more than once to see A queer look in his face when he Was list'nin' out. Before 'twas day One morn I heard him softly say ''Joe! — is that you, boy?" You may know I 'as up an' peerin' out for Joe In no time ! — Harry sore put out T' have waked me up, — to hear me shout What he'd spoke soft: "Is that my lad?" — Lights up! No Joe in sight! Poor dad! He 'as awful troubled, Harry was An' told the doctor he's the cause Of all my setbacks; — vowed he'd be More careful not to startle me With idle fancies in the night ; Pleads for excuse his want of sight. As well might pled his love for me! Not blameable at all, you see. That same thing happened once again, Exceptin' that, to spare him pain, NO JOE IN SIGHT 57 I held my silly tongue; but — sweat! I feel the smothered anguish yet! Once more a false alarm! He showed His pain, but did not guess I knowed. / fancied they's a smell of rum. — This time was sure my boy had come! Could not explain; I dare not speak; Fretted again till fevered, weak; Anxious an' puzzled some; — of course Such troubles bound to make me worse. Day long, I'd strain my eyes to see 'Way down the street, perchance they'd be Some sign of Joe, — nights list'nin' out Like Harry, — sure the lad 's about. But days run into weeks again. An' me, now quite relieved of pain, I start once more to cast about An' plan for gettin' up an' out. Felt like an old one now, but still Eager to check my run downhill; BeUevin' yet Fd see the day For which Fd learnt to hope an' pray. — Believin', tho' I had not heard For months of Joe a single word. 58 JOE'S PLACE — Hoped on, an' prayed that by the grace Of Heaven my lad would reach his place. Queer tho' it seem, I come to think He'd gained the upper hand of drink, An' would be heard of, some fine day. Just as this girl of ours would pray; "Clothed an' restored in heart an' mind;'^ I thought the Lord would ''be so kind." My reverend nefify Tom kep on The lookout for my wanderin' one. In likely an' unUkely place. He longed, like me, to see his face. Last time he'd seen him, all was well. Tom, he'd a pleasant tale to tell. An' cheery messages for me When he come home. He'd chanced to be One of a set of men that goes To represent his school at Joe's, In some contention. Anyway, He'd spent up there a pleasant day There — with my lad an' Annie Lyme An' CharHe, — 'd bad a pleasant time. My lad was lightsome as could be, NO JOE IN SIGHT 59 Full of the happy times that he An' Annie hoped so soon to share; No shade of fear, no trace of care ! Now, we must seek him high an' low As sayin' is — but mostly low. An' Sundays we would go where men Like Joe is helped to rise again, — Where they's a show of human care For common needs, as well as prayer. I 1 ■ 1 ^ Raw Sunday mornins, on the street You'll see a line of men, — some neat, Some otherwise, all down at heel. An' some that evidently feel Ashamed to be in such a strait — All waitin' for an iron gate To open to a buildin' where They's rest and warmth an' simple fare. (How often have I scanned that line In vain quest of this lad of mine!) 6o JOE'S PLACE I reckon that's the Master's way, For Sundays or for any day, — While lookin' t'wards the speritual To mind Hke men the physical. An' what if they is waste? You know The Lord of nature works just so; He scatters seed an' sends His rain Where He don't look to reap a grain. So we had better (seems to me) Use just such prodigality Than fail of service where they's one Among these men that may be won. For one may mean a family spared Untold distress; one's gain is shared Sometimes by hosts in after years; One saved means dryin' many's tears. An' if that one be yours — oh, then 'Twere cheap to feed a thousand men. Yours won from vicious errin' ways To good? — you can't compute! It pays. One such a place come soon to be Of special interest to me. VIII THE CHURCH OF THE PARABLER Just figure out an old time church; Pews, gallery, — regular big old church — Filled end to side with seedy men. Some lately loosed from prison pen, Some fresh from hospital, where they Have laid and suffered many a day Thru their own fault, we'll say, an' some More numerous than you'd think, that's come To trouble thru another's sin, — Flung off now, like an orange skin. (That other mebbe clum to wealth An' "name" an' "honor," by his stealth, — God knows!) — Scarred faces, weak an' strong, 62 JOE'S PLACE Old men an' middle-aged an' young; Good faces, intellectial, sad; Not all nor nearly all is bad; But seedy, pitiful an' poor. Humbugs an' frauds among 'em, sure; Hard cases, wicked, vicious, mean, — As various as you ever've seen; With here an' there, could you but know, A lad almost as rare as Joe, — Talented, schooled, an' meant to grace Good homes, an' happy useful place. They's every nationality; Some that was once fine quality, — Four-hundred style — high steppin' men; Some hopin' yet to rise again. Some zvill, in fact (God pity these!) Get back to lives of vicious ease. One here an' there will be restored To them whose blindin' tears has poured. Thru weary waitin' nights an' days, While he was treadin' devious ways Too vile to tell of. Here they'll come. These weepin' ones — from palace home. Rich folks an' high, as well as plain, — Anxious to find their lost again; THE CHURCH OF THE PARABLER 63 An' peerin' o'er this brown-hued throng, They'll seek the face for which they long. Strange tales you'll hear, how now an' then These find their lost among the men; But oftener these have tasks to learn, As well as them for whom they yearn. One gentle mother, sable-clad, Gracious, refined, an' awful sad. Come here upon the usial quest One Sunday night, when, sore distrest, She starts to see — no! not her son: Some other mother's wanderin' one. Sinks back, despairin' an' distraught, 'Cause here was not the lad she sought. An' then her mother heart would rise. An' tears fill up her sunken eyes; — *'Not mine, but whose? — God pity her I My lot is hers — God pity her!" So — she'd have learnt her lesson! — See? When next she sought her boy, mebbe She'd find him, such a one as this. Dirty an' ragged, but fit to kiss! Poor mother! likely her an' me Was needin' discipline, you see. 64 JOE'S PLACE First time I looked upon this host Of broken men, I 'as crushed, almost, An' bHndin' tears obscured my sight. I could not sleep a wink that night. My lad was all the world to me; But here before me, don't you see, Was hundreds — hundreds — wobegone ! How could I think of only one? All this intensified my woe; I prayed for these, an' looked for Joe. What could I do beside? Tom here Could offer words of help an' cheer, An' counsel them; — a preacher's part; But me — altho' it's in my heart To spend myself for them an' Joe — I'm powerless, 'n it hurt me so! They's call for special gift indeed To meet an' serve such various need. Tom, he's affective, 'cause he knew An' felt his message, thru an' thru, Account of Joe. An' I was glad To think our troubles made the lad A better preacher everyway. THE CHURCH OF THE PAR ABLER 65 I loved to hear him preach an' pray! He plainly felt the thing he said; They's heart-stuff in it — more than head. Here in my corner, unobserved, Sometime back, while the food was served, I questioned Mr. (whatchercall — The Super'ntendent) if these all Had come to want because of drink? "Not all," he said: ''you'd hardly think How many here is temp'rate men. Indeed we find one now an' then That never's known the taste of drink. Some worthier fellows than you'd think, Is only temporary down, — Spent up, an' not a friend in town To turn to. One right there has sent With cheery words his last red cent To wife an' children home, — his fight An' pinch nigh over, — work in sight. Some doubtless has done wrong, some way, An' will be sadly missed to-day In darkened homes — now home no more, — Their refuge mebbe never more! Hearts sore an' heavy; easy prey 66 JOE'S PLACE To crim'nal makers, we may say, Or liquor men. A friend indeed. In this their time of desprit need, May find these willin' to be led Back to an upward road, instead Of goin' on an' on downhill. Just now they feel they've had their fill Of heartache, sin, defeat, disgrace. Crime not yet graven in their face. Nor heart grown callous. Lost their grip An' made somehow one awful slip. Scale now will turn for up or down, — For good or bad, for land or — drown! — Accordin' as they're wrought upon By vicious or by goodly one. Tough cases we've a plenty too, That sneers at what we say an' do. Some that was nicely kep in youth An' learned in decent homes the truth They spurn now. Thread would held them then Now, ropes won't draw them back again. But mostly drink is cause; not all Excuseless, neither. Many a fall Dates from a time when business strain THE CHURCH OF THE PAR ABLER 67 Led to the druggin' of a brain That needed only rest, we'll say, But had to drive on, anyway. An' what the doctor would perscribe For special use, they would imbibe For frequent similar use, until They've lost fair names an' run downhill By quick or slow degrees to this. These have not meant to do amiss To family, self, or fellow men. An' only see their error when It was too late. Now here they sit. Just wrecks of men. By bit an' bit All that life held for them — fair fame An' self respect an' honored name, Good hopes, — all's gone; nought left to hold Their interest; now they're too old In wear if not in years, to rise; An' by an' by they'll close their eyes Among unknowin' strangers, known For what they was, to Heaven alone. Most sad among the tales we hear From self-accusin' men in here. Is of domestic discontent, 68 JOE'S PLACE That's ended in a fearful rent Of marriage lines, — quite often due To what is, in the common view, Their failure, — unsuccess in life. Home blighted with domestic strife. Vain struggle, endin' in dispair, With drink to drown it. Here an' there Is one success has ruined, — shorn Of manhood, home-love, overborne With pride an' greed, until at last Tide turns an' leaves him wreck, outcast. Tell me, what is success in Hfe? Down there's a man I know, whose wife Had plodded by her husband's side An' shared his lot for years with pride, Till she a-sudden come to see A neighbor, that she'd used to be On quite fermiliar terms with, now Bestows a condescendin' bow, — Whose husband's clum to wealth an' state, While her man goes the same old gait. Her man to blame, we'll say; but still They'd better kep their way downhill In peace together, fair content THE CHURCH OF THE PAR ABLER 69 With what of fortune God had sent, Instead, she grew morose, an' nagged. An' 'stead of quicker gait, he lagged. — Not built for social style, not he. An' like as not, no more was she! New schemes agreed on, all went wrong; Mishaps an' losses come along; Then they's recrimination, her Accusin' him, him blamin' her; No peace, no give, as once they could. Now, happiness aint in the wood When she's as firm an' sot as he. An' him as obstinit as she. They used to be a happy pair. But now, — well, see him now, down there! Bad tho her husband's failure is. Wife makes one quite as bad as his, When, castin' wifely grace, you mind. She grows unlovely, money-blind. They's quite a many cases where The double yoke's been hard to bear. But far away most frequent case. He's clum to some important place Or struck a splendid show of ile Only to lose again, — meanwhile 70 JOE'S PLACE Has lost his head, his moral grip, An' let both love an' mem'ry slip. This mammon fever, I should say, i Is second deadhest ill to-day. i All classes tainted — rich an' poor; ! Even richest craves a million more. An' puts their soul in balance. Oh The folly ! an' the price in woe ! I might run on an' on to show That here's a perfect sea of woe. Drink? Yes; but often back of drink They's causes to be found, I think. Here often you may find a case Of one that's come from lofty place In church. Mebbe base metal they, — Or still in crucible, we'll say. Here's one — dear soul! — that used to be A 'pillar' in his church, when he Was in his prime an' well-to-do, — Trustee an' what not; had his pew Nigh midways of the middle aisle, Among the choicest, — cost a pile (Plan in church vestible will show THE CHURCH OF THE PAR ABLER 71 ' The figures, if you care to know). Then, he's deferred to with respect. But ruin comes — an' then neglect. Pew had to slide; he could not face His old associates in the place. An' then, when he was let to go So coldly, he was wounded so His old attachments turned to hate. Hopes gone, he fell in desprit strait. "Now — come it how it may — he'll own He's happier as "a rough-hewn stone" He'll tell you, servin' here, than where He stood a pillar cold an' fair. Once more in church he bears a part With chassened sperit; but his heart Is wrap up in this work down here. — Faithful an' patient an' sencere. This man's a type. Time an' again We find here edicated men That has not wholly lost the air Of former eminence. One there — Man leanin' sideways, end of pew — Was once a banker; pillar, too. In church an' philanthrofic schemes. 72 JOE'S PLACE Let go his grip on all, it seems, When wealth took wing; grew cynical; Thinks all men hypocritical. Bit fond of m^usic, — face will light At that, as you may see tonight. Looks wore an' sad; has failed, I think, These few weeks. Yes sir, case of drink; Case almost hopeless, 'count of years An' broken health. I have my fears. They's many here whose heart's plowed deep With sorrow an' remorse, that keep Tryin' to catch a hold again An' walk in step with decent men; Some hearts that's fallow now for seed. If only you could know their need, — If only you've the knack to say The word that's born to win its way. Some you would find is sick at heart An' fain would play a manlier part, But sees no future, — past all black; Sees lions front an' lions back An' lions every way they turn. Folks that once honored them would spurn An' crush them now ; some they once knew THE CHURCH OF THE PAR ABLER 73 An' honored has been proved untrue. Their faith in humankind is gone; Of hope in heaven they've simply none. Age has crep over some, ill-health An' so forth; dreams of love and wealth Gone with the years; gloom's settled low; They yearn for home, yet cannot go! That httle year or two they'd planned To spend in winnin' back the stand They'd ought have kep in the old home, Has multiplied, an' still they roam. Forgot, or sore misjudged an' blamed (They know) they're desprit now, an' shamed. Some almost prays to be forgot, An' dum'ly bends them to their lot. — Some that was built for lofty place. Some's hardly merited disgrace. No need to tell how many come To grief with less excuse thru rum. But you would be surprised to know How many, that was once as low As you could figure — soaks an' beats Too vile to touch, low, downright cheats — Has been redeemed an' stand to-day 74 JOE'S PLACE As clean in heart an' hand, we'll say, As is the Judge here. I See that man I In northside aisle with coffee can? I They aint a happier Christ'n lives! I Sundays and weeknights here he gives '' His service gladly. Yes sir, he I Was vile as any you now see; — Reckless, rum-soaked, disowned, outcast; Got so offensive t'ward the last, We're urged to shove him out that door An' bid him show his face no more! Such men will help in various ways : Will watch sometimes for days an' days O'er desprit strugglin' wrecks of men They meet with here, an' time again Their faithful watchin' sees men thru. An' gets them started off anew. Of course they's many here that just Fills you with loathin' an' disgust, — That lives without the least excuse, — Aimless, an' not a mite of use So far's we see. But who can know? This one an' that, once looked just so I" THE CHURCH OF THE PARABLER 75 — But — they's no hint of such a case As Joe's, — of one that's missed the place Rare gifts befits him for, — of one At heart as good as gold, that's gone To bad thru others' wrongs. No no, They aint another case like Joe ! — Got thinkin' this way while he spoke, An' most forgot him! but was woke With sudden flash of fire in him. He faces me an' asts with vim : "Waste? What's a man in trade do, now?- Turns waste an' scrap to wealth, somehow, — Wastes nothin' ! Some of these here men Is meant to be worked up again. God don't waste, neither. Let me say These men aint all mere castaway." Lord bless the man! 'Twas not in me To hint of waste. He 'as moved, you see, By flippant speech too often heard, An' quotes to me the Master's word Anent the precious ointment, 'n then Makes out a reference to these men, — How "inasmuch," an' so forth. Oh I'as sure he'd help me find our Joe. M$^^ inimnfe h^d ill ihot men hmm ikmsete Kkespeare IX A SAD SURPRISE You ast why talk of these, this way? It goes with what I want to say Concernin' Joe. This raft of men Here gathered time an' time again, Is drawn or driv in here for food, — Few of them seekin' other good; While effort's made by word an' song To win them out of ways all wrong An' vicious. Neffy Tom would plead With them (with Joe in mind) 'n then lead Dear Annie to the front to sing. If Joe's in reach 'twould surely bring The poor lad home ! — her voice would thrill A calloused heart! I hear her still, A SAD SURPRISE 77 Lingerin' upon a tender note Until the sob would reach her throat An' end her song. It happened so One night blind Harry chanced to go Along with us, — proud to chip in Once in a while with his vi'Hn. That night dear Annie's at her best, Fair Hfted us Hke all possest! Had a new song, whose sweet refrain Begs wanderin' ones turn home again. O how it touched the men! — how still An' quite they kep, while her sweet trill Died off away away o'erhead. Seemed almost like her soul had fled When that was done. Last plaintif strain Of her "Come back, come home again!" — With th' old air ''Home, Sweet Home" wove in By Harry on his rare vi'lin, — Soft-blended with the usial air Of the refrain (just fitted there) — That kind of music you don't hear Once, I should say, in twenty year! — Broke Annie up! — surprised, you know. By that old ''Home" tune run in so. 78 JOE'S PLACE Brought up, no doubt, the home she'd left,- Heart-broke her, Uke she's new bereft. Been overstrainin,' don't you know, An' weary our long wait for Joe. How little these she's singin' to Would dream of what she's passin' thru! They'd little guess the grief an' pain An' longin' poured in that refrain. But one they was, back near the door (Here was six hundred men or more). Her sudden grief took hold of one, — Not him we sought for — not my son. Grimy an' scarred, yet someways trim. With bearin' that distinguished him. An' spite of grime an' scar, a trace Of what you call refinement, — grace; Thin, wore, with starin' eyes that told Of youth by vice an' sin made old. He sees what we was quick to hide, — Sees Tom an' me at Annie's side, Anxious an' sore poplext, v^hile she Swooned, an' could neither hear nor see. Out from his pew an' down the aisle A SAD SURPRISE 79 He comes! these other men meanwhile Just dumb surprised. Some thinks, no doubt, That here's a bad case breakin' out. Smiles here an' there, — expectant, some, An' speculatin' what's to come. He brushed aside what's in his way An' speakin' no one yea or nay. He mounts the steps an' follows where We bore her for a breath of air. I never shall forget his cry, ''Annie! — dear Annie!" till I die. ' Ri/fieflRC>BiJta)Dwiiifie(/e[i i X WE REAP OUR SOWIN' That Sunday night they gathered in A host of men, — sung out of sin, I make no doubt, by Annie's song; Some that had wandered far an' long, An' almost ceased to feel like men. Set out to try for home again! An' me, of course I'm truly glad But — where, I wondered, was my lad? He never showed his face in there, In reach of talk or song or prayer. While we was seekin' day by day For him, my lad was far away! An' here was one we'd never sought In all our seekin' — never'd thought IV£ REAP OUR SOW IN' 8i Of lookin' out for Charlie Lyme! Him Annie reckoned all the time Was living home his aimless life, With gay young butterfly for wife. She ha'nt seen Charlie's face for long. How comes he now to hear her song? Moreover, how's it come that so We'd get upon the track of Joe? All mystery far too deep to see. You can't explain it all to me. Lay it to Providence! — He knows We're ap to reckon all our woes As due to Him, an' ap to say Much that we'd ought not, anyway. About His leadins; 'spose we own His doins when they's favors shown. My store of grace was sorely tried. My feelins someways hard to hide, When I discovered who this was; — Of all men, Charlie Lyme! — the cause Of all our weary woeful lot, — Now down at heel himself, a sot! — Been drugged an' robbed an' mauled, he said; Two nights he had not seen a bed, — 82 JOE'S PLACE Had borne the 'banner' as they say, — An* could not guess until to-day - The name of his hotel, nor yet Quite figure how he come to get In here, with all this crowd of men, When Annie called him home again. This curous thing we learnt: he'd come To find and fetch his sister home! — Had vainly sought her all one day, An' then fell in a gambler's way. Coincidents, or what you will, 'Twas Providence, I reckon, still! I found that what was hard for me Was harder for the girl, for she Just dropped away. When she come to, An' see her brother there, an' knew Her song had found an' fetched him up, It seemed as if her bitter cup, Already full, was overflowed. But grace was presently bestowed To help her see the other side, — To see how, when she'd fairly tried To help up other fallen men JV£ REAP OUR SOW IN' 83 She'd called her brother home again! Marvelled to see how strange a way Comes answer when we reely pray. Now, Charlie's not a lad like Joe, — No moral fibre, don't you know, — No good at bottom. — Well, but hold! All this had best be left untold. His race is run. 'Twas plain to see He 'as near his end that night when he Skeer'd Annie so; — ^just like a ghost; — As grewsome an' as thin, almost. An' coughed an' coughed! — O it was plain He'll soon be carried home again. Took him to th' hospital, where I Was fain myself so long to lie. He'd rather die just there, he said. With Annie by him; when he's dead It's time enough to tell his wife She's free to live the sort of life She's fond of; as for him, you know, He's gone the pace; — his game's up now! That's what he said, "I've gone the pace. An' sinned away my day of grace." 84 JOE'S PLACE They was no hope; he shook his head, An' smiled at what his sister said. So here awhile he laid, this lad, Until speech left him. Good or bad, We reap our sowin'! — Soul an' day Seemed they could hardly break away But by degrees, like, an' with pain. I hope I'll never see again An' end like his. — Bewailed his sin; An' Annie's sure God took him in. ^5«y^-^-.-./- How strange that when this lad's about To slip his cable an' sail out On his last voy'ge, his sister's near, To comfort him an' quell his fear! IVB REAP OUR SOW IN' 85 If ever angel could do so, She'd make it easy-like to go; An' she's the likest one to be Unbosom'd to — on earth, — for he Had awful loads upon his mind An' conscience! — so you see how kind Was Providence, — how merciful An' infinitely pitiful. Even to him! Poor Annie said (The while she stroked his clammy head) That this was proof he's full forgiven. An' they would meet for sure in heaven. She knows he slipped away in peace. An' death, undreaded, sweet release. XI ANNIE'S QUEST Well, bit by bit we'd got to know All Charlie had. to tell of Joe, While he could speak. He wished, poor lad, To do some good for all his bad. An' tho 'twas clear he'd more to say, — An' tried to, — when he slipped away We seemed almost in touch with Joe, — Light streamin' thru our clouds of woe. My hopes riz high, an' plans was made. I blush to own, I'm half afraid That weary wreck could see my joy, I pitied him, — but oh, my boy! I had to pity Annie, tho' For, now she's freed, she fretted so. ANNIE'S QUEST 87 Her load had been too great to bear, Seemed 's if the Lord would call for her. Now, when poor Charlie's crep away. She sinks an' fades 'tween day an' day. Until you'd hardly reco'nized The face my Joe so dearly prized. — Not Joe alone: to Tom an' me, An' Harry (tho' he could not see). Her face an' voice an' soul was dear; An' we was filled with awful fear. Back now she goes to her old home, Bearin' the wanderer that's to roam On earth no more, — at least his clay; An' there I feared the girl might stay. For Joe, that's pledged his love to her, Seems gone for good — we know not where. He's quite as brother Charlie, now. Forfeit all right to claim her vow. 'Most broke my heart, for she had grown To feel to me so like my own. I borrowed trouble, don't you see! That's always been a fault with me. Just when they's every sign of day My faith an' hope was givin' way! 88 JOE'S PLACE I need not try to tell you how That brave young thing got busied now, — Followed the hints her brother'd dropped, In quest of Joe, nor never stopped Till she had made some inquiries That's bound to find out where he is, An' started wheels to run till we Are righted, — ^Joe an' her an' me. No matter who was hurt or crossed, Joe's to regain the rights he'd lost. She visited the Versity, An' sees Perfessor Verity. He proves to know enough about The fax to clear up any doubt Of how her father'd wronged my lad. Her trouble now was pretty bad! — 'Twas awful bad ; — to have to go To her own father, burdened so. With definit knowledge of the wrong She'd more than half suspected long. Been bad enough before, to know His scurvy treatment of my Joe. After the lad had won her love ANNIE'S QUEST 89 An' months an' months been hand an' glove With them, as equals every way, Like an' odd glove, he's cast away! That had been bad enough, — too bad. Once only had she seen my lad Sence then, an' then, with gentle speech He'd half explained to her the breach, But made no reference an' no claims To his invention, — called no names. Far more a gentleman than he That spurned him showed himself to be. Poof child! an awful time she 'd had, Twixt her own father an' my lad Her 'fianced husband. Tried to do Confliction duty; holdin' true To Joe, but good an' daughter-like An' patient, till she's forced to strike Against that father's will, an' choose 'Twixt him an' Joe, — an' to refuse For husband one he picked for her. Then, him or CharHe'd cast a slur On Joe, an' told her how my lad Had long been goin' to the bad. ''That's why he come no more ! — that's how His low-bred sort regards their vow!" 90 JOE'S PLACE — O'ershot their mark here, for she knew That if this awful tale was true They was not blameless. Instantly Her good heart told her it must be Her task to save him! Most bereft Of power to think or plan, she'd left At once her childhood's home, an' gone To Tom, my nefify, — likest one To help her in her search for Joe; An' then — why, all the rest you know. Old man, he's obstinit! — denied The whole thing! — said that Charlie'd lied. Broke in that way the slender thread That held his daughter; for the dead Had spent almost his latest breath In tellin* her; — had said that death Would come the easier now she knew That all 'twas claimed for Joe was true. At last she's back! for here, she said She felt her place was. She'd been led So strangely into useful ways. Seen glad as well as woeful days. ANNIE'S QUEST 91 Been guided providentially, Kep an' sustained so constantly, An' so forth. O, I'd ought have known How true she was! I'd ought have known. One dedicate to such a life Was fit to be a preacher's wife. O yes, I know! — an' this young thing Could soothe an' comfort, teach an' sing. Like Tom an' me, she'd got to know An underworld while seekin' Joe. An', prematurely sad an' grave An' wise, an' most uncommon brave. She'd set to make her life atone For wrongs we know of — not her own. But oh, my own lad! — she could grace His home, and yet have filled her place. That word of her's: — it touched me so! "Her place" — remindin me of Joe. But where was he, an' where his home? Had he, like Charlie, ceased to roam? While Annie's pickin' up again. Me, I was feelin' the old pain An' weariness; faith limpin' weak; Tears often stealin' down my cheek. 92 JOE'S PLACE Three lives so blighted! — Joe an' me I'd tell myself, was bad, but she. She showed herself so good, you know, Contrastin' awfully with Joe. Fit wife for better man than he Had long time proved himself to be. An' yet, who'd thought to learn one day, That Tom had driv my lad away! XII FOREGLEAMS The Willses that we used to know An* call on every week or so, Moved west some years back, an' I quite Lost track of them in time. To write Was always laborsome, an' then For one unhandy with your pen It's hard to talk like. So you see Of course they'd seldom write to me. An' now, her young ones all well grown Out there, with interests of their own, Why, Ida, she as like as not Has lots of friends, an' I'm forgot ! — Or so at least it seemed until I got — yes, here it is. — Until 94 JOE'S PLACE I got this letter: "Idyho Dear Tom, Mebbe you'll like to know That I an' mine are still afloat As we hope you are. You've not wrote A line sence — " (this I can't make out Jim somethin'— never mind!) ''about Our great surprise to see your son Out here, — the most unlikely one We ever'd thought of. All were glad To give a welcome to the lad! (Like you at his age. Will's hke John. You an' I must be gettin' on!) — Well, he come home one night with Jim, An', howso changed, I knew 'twas him. Soon as I sees him; — worn, it's true, An' sick, but just the cut of you! Has needed mother's care, — 's been down With somethin' bad, — 's just pullin' round. Ast me would I befriend him now! (What was he thinkin', anyhow?) — But then, he was too young, you see. To know how you befriended me When — (so forth). So he tells me all About his troubles an' his fall. FOREGLEAMS 95 Poor lad! he'd borne a heavy load, An' travelled o'er a weary road. My heart fair ached for him an' you; — Broke, almost, when he's nearly thru, — When he described you lyin' there Sick, in the parlor; in a chair Close by. you Harry Penninton, An' him, your own poor outcast son Takin' by stealth a goodbye look. Sobbed as he told me this, an' shook With grief 't was pitiful to see. — Felt easier after tellin' me. When you were well an' up he crep Away again, an' hardly slep Until he'd put a thousand mile Between you. — Told himself the while You're best without him, anyway; An' there was Tom — 'They's Tom," he'd say, ''Worth fifty hopeless wrecks like me; An' then they's her that's goin' to be Tom's wife — " Here Joe breaks down, you see„ An', in a fiasht, it comes to me! I've not forebore to counsel him To get his courage up, an' vim 96 JOE'S PLACE To claim an' take his own again, An' lift his head Hke other men. (That head of his!) I tell him this: Best kind of men have done amiss Someways, at sometime, an' that most — If truth be told — can hardly boast Of havin' always kep right on; — They 've lost in fights, as well as won. I tell him this, — an' this is true, — I've seen it often, — haven't you? — How many men have found their breakin', Hard tho it zvas to bear, their makin'-" (Now bless that woman! — how come Joe To get to her, in Idyho?) FOREGLEAMS 97 'Tm writin' this ahead of Joe. He's at it now, but men are slow! He's started twenty — well, I guess A half-a-dozen times, — no less. More'n once I've had to make him quit; Got worked up so he was not fit To use a pen! He's all right now; But I can beat him, anyhow! Feels awful guilty t'wards his Mad' ; Been weak an' foolish more than bad; An' now he's started life anew He aims to show respect that's due, An' love an' service, to atone For wrongs especially to his own. Been holdin' back fear lest he'd fall Again, an' have to give up all. But I can tell you /'ve no doubt He's made his final face-about. Last illness seems t'have ridded him Of his old en'my's grip; new vim, An' consciousness of his old skill, Are manifest, an' sturdier will. But brighter outlook upon life Brings longin' for his promised wife. 98 JOE'S PLACE He questions now if what he heard Is true. (/ don't believe a word!) — That she who's dearer than his Hfe Can't now, or will not, be his wife. If she is free yet, let me know As quick as you can write, an' so — " (So forth) '' — ^When Joe can claim his own You*ll see the happiest day you've known!" — So forth. Writ just like she would speak. Set tears a-runnin' down my cheek An' sobs a-heavin'! Don't you know, It seemed as if already Joe Was safe at home! I lost no time In makin' ofif to Annie Lyme With Ida's letter. (Lived close by.) Sure she would fool like me, an' cry, An' so I broke it gradial; Told her that Joe he's safe an' well. But some ways off; been sober long; 'S himself again. But I was wrong! She's calm an' sweet an' sperited. An' neither cried nor worrited. FOREGLEAMS 99 But shaped for goin' off to Joe, As if he's close at hand, you know. Got cryin' later on, when she Had writ to Joe for her an' me. An' answered Ida Wills. Poor girl, Her brain, like mine, was in a whirl. My feet scarce seemed to touch the ground, — Seemed everythin' was swimmin' round. 'Twas settled soon she'd have to wait; Not fit to travel, in her state. If he'd been near. Work's easier Than waitin'. You learn earlier To 'labor' than to 'wait.' But oh. We've got to learn: 'Be still an' know'! Well, darkest hour, they always say Comes just before the peep of day. They's no more harryin' tales to tell Concernin' Joe; — he's safe an' well. I tell you this to ease your mind; Good Lord at last has been 'so kind.' — Kep me up, an' restored my lad, L.ofC. lOO JOE'S PLACE An' made my old heart boundin' glad. Joe, he was sure to win at last, — Wrassle until the foe was cast! But this is steppin' on apace, — To tell the sequil out of place! (Mebbe I've half let on before, That Joe come back? — a hint or more?) O well, I'm bound to wander out. Sideways or back or roundabout. Or any ways but right ahead! For that's about the way I'm led! XIII HERE WAS JOE Annie, she picks up wonderful Next day or two, — more beautiful Than ever, spite of care an' wear, While me, (I'm just too odd to bear) I looked about the worst I'd been, — The drawnest face you ever seen, — From loss of sleep an' appetite. Nervous an' restless, day an' night. Felt quite ashamed in such a case To wear so wobegone a face; For now I'd not the slimmest fear But what my lad would soon be here. Face Hues had gotten fixed, you see. Takes time to meller one like me! I02 JOE'S PLACE We calcylated carefully How soon at soonest Joe could be Prepared to start — supposin' they Was no mishap an' no delay About our letters, an' we thought That in about ten days he'd ought To show his face. So we agreed At any rate they was no need To worrit, Hke; we better rest, So's Joe would find us at our best. (That's Annie's way to meller me; In that agreement she was 'Sve"!) Her tackfulness just kep a smile Upon my face, so's in a while — A day or two — my lookin' glass Tells me my face will fairly pass, An' Joe can come an' find his dad Not lookin' wobegone but glad. Some older, surely, — but O dear. Suppose I'd had no daughter here! An' here was Harry, never done Talkin' or singin', — full of fun! An' neffy Tom, that's been away (Prospectin' 1 say, many a day). Here he comes now to smile with us, HERE WAS JOE 103 An' find relief from weariness. — Poor Tom! — somehow got out of gear With church folks, an' has cause to fear That he'll be needin' soon a Call. (Me, I don't understand it all; — Don't hold the money'd sort, they say! I know he's genwine, anyway.) Quite blue he was. But now, you see, He thinks of only Joe an' me, — An' Annie! ('Taint so long ago You mind, I thought he'd outdone Joe!) One night, the fift from when we wrote To Mrs. Wills, they comes a note I04 JOE'S PLACE From Joe's Perfessor friend, to say He hopes to call on me next day. Well, me an' Tom an' Harry sat Around the fire for old-time chat, — Me talkative past all excuse. Too light for any sort of use. An' when I'm quite, why, Harry'll sing To make our little parlor ring. My lad was comin' home, you see! Our happiest days was soon to be! We're in the midst of such a tear, — Laughin', in which we'd all a share, — When they's a creaky sound, an' then Me an' these other noisy men Springs to our feet, — for here was Joe! — Here, comin' f wards me, was my Joe! Picture it, — see him, if you can! — No, not the thing, now, but the man! — Not limp an' loathsome, foot to head; That creature, sure enough, he's dead. My heart leaps madly, an' my eyes Was scalded blind with glad surprise. I riz my hands, an' then, they say. HERE WAS JOE I05 I reeled an' fainted dead away. I wa'nt yet strong; an' when my lad Come smilin' in to greet his dad, They rushed on me a sudden fear That this was not himself that's here, But just his sperit! — for you see We'd figured out so sure that he Could no way reach us yet for days. 'Twas bound to fill me with amaze. But no whit less was my surprise To see, when I could use my eyes, A face that I'd not seen for years, — A woman's face, all smiles an' tears : Here's Ida Wills of Idyho, Come on a visit east with Joe ! I reckon I was almost dumb. Now that my longed-for hour was come; — Now that my brightest dream's fell true What could I say? — what could I do? Just dumbly held my lad awhile, Till Ida chid me with a smile. Did I not think, now, it was time To pack him off to Annie Lyme? Well, so it was! an' off he goes io6 JOE'S PLACE To fetch the girl, for goodness knows I wanted her to share my joy! — I did want her to see my boy! An' here was Ida's daughter Ruth Yet to be welcomed! — for in truth My scare, my fearin' Joe's a ghost — Made me a sorry sort of host! 'Twas time I put my guests at ease — Harry an' neffy Tom with these. But they're indulgent, an' indeed Ida declared they was no need Of fuss an' feathers! — di'n't we know That Ruth had played with Tom an' Joe, Years back? — An' Harry Penninton ("Ha'n't changed a single hair, not one!") She'd known him anywheres they'd met. He laughed. ''Why no, / don't forget One that was once so good to me. Same cheery woman still, I see!" So, grippin' hands with hearty will. We sat around an' talked our fill, — Talked till the table had been spread. Then cleared, — then talked till time for bed. 'Twas nigh on midnight when my lad HERE WAS JOE 107 Brought Annie in; an' I was glad To see their faces all aglow With joy that humans only know In all its richness once a life, — In new-pledged man an' plighted wife. This made a picture in my brain That never can fade out again. XIV MOULDER All thru the night my busy brain Run o'er that days events again, An' then at dawn I slep! — the light Been carefully shut out, 'n all quite As midnight, causin' me to lay Till nearly noon the foUowin' day. My lad an' Annie 'n Tom an' Ruth Been stirrin' hours an' hours, for youth Don't mind a wakeful night or two So long 's they's pleasant things to do An' talk of; an' you know these four Was full of gladness — runnin' o'er! Even Tom (to tell you now a truth A ''MOULDER'' 109 Owned later), he's in love with Ruth. So, while I slep, they're far away, Sightseein', what not, light an' gay. Two couples satisfied an' glad, But no whit happier than old dad! While Harry, Mrs. Wills an' me Was comfortably drinkin' tea That afternoon, Perfessor came To see me — ('Fessor what's-his-name? Uncommon — often bothers me,) — O yes: Perfessor Verity, — An' he draws up another chair An' chips in, tea an' talk, his share. They aint a man I'd rather know. For he's been awful good to Joe An' me. (Yes, he's been here before A time or two — oh, three or four.) Fine head on him ! — not much for looks. But knows 'bout all they is in books. What fetches me, he's practicle, — Not stuck up or finaticle. — No, that aint just the word I mean, But — well, he's straight, that's easy seen. That's my lad's estimate: he's true; no JOE'S PLACE What's right, or what he says, he'll do. In times of stress he proved a friend Full up, on whom you could depend. First time he come he's seekin' Joe, Two years back, havin' come to know Somehow about his drinkin' ways. Sought for him high an' low for days. Next time he finds me sick in bed, An' I remember how he said 'I've hopes of hearing soon of Joe" — Real sympathetic, — not for show — For he kep up his inquiries, Bent upon knowin' where he is. When Joe's ill, him an' Mrs. V. Was just as nice as they could be, An' won him heart an' soul. 'Twas then He proved his skill in mouldin' men. — For he's a ''moulder" as he said One day to me. 'Taint just the head A teacher deals with, if he's true. Heart, conscience, — these he works on too. So it was pleasant now to see A friend Hke this drop in to tea. A ''MOULDER'' m He chatted half an hour or more, — Chipped in, as I remarked before. Like one of us; no starch or frills In speech or style ; so Mrs. Wills She's perfectly at ease with him, An' talked with all her old-time vim, An' showed up at about her best When 'Fessor drew her on the West, Partic'larly of Idyho. They's little that she does not know. I'as some surprised to find he knows That she'd been such a friend of Joe's When he was needin' mother care. Thanked her for nursin' him out there, As if he owed our debt, you see, For kindness showed to mine an' me. So they run on about the lad, — All on his good points, not his bad, — An' me, I got a wonderin' so How upon on earth he comes to know So perfectly Joe's Hfe out there, I lost my tongue, an' could but stare An' listen. Soon I got to see 112 JOE'S PLACE Thru some things that had puzzled me, — Things I'd set down to Providence, An' still do, in a certain sense. An' Harry, he's quite too, you see, An' plainly questionin', like me; Altho' he's all aglow with joy At what they say about our boy; An', as I found out subsequent. He's pretty soon upon the scent Of the whole story, — guessed how Joe Come to make tracks for Idyho. Soon Mrs. Wills begins to see Their talk is news to Harry 'n me. An' then Perfessor notices An' breaks short off just where he is, 'Midst of a sentence, an' a smile Spreads o'er his face, an' for a while He looks enquirin'-Hke at me. As if to say, 'T guess you see What's comin'?" 'n then he says "You know I wrote to you I'd news of Joe. I've come to share your happiness: In three four days now — mebbe less — Your son will be at home again! Yes, Joe, — he's comin' home again!" A ''MOULDER'* 113 — Explain? Before I could begin (Mebbe I'm slow) he'd started in Quite eagerly to tell me how He got this latest news; but now The young folks come! — the merriest four I'd seen in twenty years or more! — An' brings him beamin' to his feet. It did me good to see him greet My lad — his friend. But when he knew The fax, as known to me an' you, He 'as just' the most surprizedest man That ever was — to find his plan Of carefully preparin' me x\ day or so too late, you see. XV HIS LAST WRASSLE Well then, by tackin' this an' that Together — fax I've gotten at In odd ways — story runs like this: Joe, knowin' what a man he is — Practicle, genwine everyway. An' western born — went up one day To see Perfessor Verity, Foreminded just to do what he Advised as best; but made it plain He would not seek th' old home again. But be as one that's dead an' gone Until he's fought his foe, an' won. So here he come — braced up a bit. But weary lookin' an' unfit For any but a genwine friend HIS LAST IVRASSLE 115 To see. Said he's about to end, One way or other, his sad life; Asts will Perfessor an' his wife Stand by him while he tries again To get in line with decent men? He 'as deep in trouble; fears his grip Is clean gone; dreads some awful slip. Twice, three times, he's been sorely prest An' nigh to awful crime, — possest With opp'site passions, love an' hate Drivin' him at an awful rate, With alcohol for fire. O Lyme! You little knew how close your time Of reckonin' come! — Joe not to blame; But we'd have suffered just the same. I've riz in horror many a night Sence then, prespirin', limp with fright, At thought of what our peril was. (I don't mean Lyme's, but mine an' Joe's.) They'd been no two opinions then In pop'lar judgments of the men: One good an' prom'nent fallen, an' one A wretched reperbate! My son Ii6 JOE'S PLACE Would found no mercy upon earth. — So much is human justice worth! Lord knows how mighty small account Our judgment is! — it don't amount To much at best. But over all Supreme Judge sits, an' great an' small, Is surely squared with, soon or late. From highest court in land or state All cases pass to Him, no doubt. An' justice will be meted out. Here, we've our laws for guardin' life As best we can, an' vice an' strife An' various ills we check by law — I mean by common human law. HIS LAST WRASSLE 117 But they's a crime no calendar Of ours takes note of, tho they are No end of sample cases known To me an' you, that could be shown Most deadly vicious. To be plain, I mean where men, for pride or gain Or deviltry, lays foulin' hand On fair young souls, you understand. To maim or warp them. Such a crime God only gauges! Richard Lyme Went sailin' on his prosperous way, While Joe sunk lower day by day. Till now he'd lost his head again. I thank the Lord He kep him then. An' led him kindly off; n' I'm glad That Annie did not see the lad At that time. She'd have clung to Joe; An' it was better he should go As far as he could get away. They's surely danger in delay. His idee is of goin' West, Hates now to leave dad, but it's best. Her that he'd ought have married, she Goes now to one more fit than he — Il8 JOE'S PLACE His cousin Tom, that fills the place Himself has lost thru his disgrace. (Felt he was clean cut off, you see, — Tom like a true son now to me.) Yet begs Perfessor keep an eye On dad for him, till by an' by He wins out; but until that day No sign to make, no word to say. All this, you'll understand, I've heard Sence then; they never breathed a word Till Joe had made his promise good An' won out, as they knew he would. Upshot: he spends a day or so 'Fore Verity's would let him go; An' then, spruced up a bit, well fed. An' decent clad, with clearin' head. With risin hope, an' lightened load, He starts upon his Westerin' road. His plan was first to make his way T' a farm he knows in loway. Work there awhile (like years before); An' then, from 'Fessor's wife he bore Lines to her folks Nebraska way. HIS LAST WRASSLE 119 To use if he's inclined to stay. He'd cross Nebraska, anyhow, Seein' it was his purpose now To make his way to Idyho. (Mentioned his friends out there, you know, The Willses.) So away he went, An' that way all his summer's spent. Worked all the way, you understand; Joe aint a spongin' sort of man; Until near Lincoln, in the Fall, He makes (to please his friends) a call At Mrs. Verity's old home. An' there the lad's embarrassed some, — 'Most killed with kindness! Worst of all. Right now he makes another fall! Just when he's gettin' confidence. An' feelin' some his old-time sense Of power, — of genus / should say — A one time classmate crossed his way That he'd not seen for three four years. An' both was glad enough for tears. His genial friend would take no No I20 JOE'S PLACE For answer, but insists that Joe Pack up an' go with him an' stay His guest, some ninety mile away. Here, much to his surprise, he finds Books an' the like to suit such minds As theirs; snug home, an' all serene As Paradise. If 't had not been For just one thing — the serpent, say — 'T was just the place for Joe to stay. Kindness itself the man was. Oh He never dremp of hurtin' Joe. Proved it by conduct subsequent. When Joe's dilerious, weak an' spent, He nursed him like a brother might, Unrestin' watchful, day an' night. Until he got his grip again, An's fit to take his place with men. Best of it all (but with an oath). He made an end right there, for both, Of all the liquor in the place. An' vowed thenceforth to set his face Against the vile an' treacherous thing: — Knew, now, you see, the serpent's sting! Poor Joe! he had his fight to make, HIS LAST WRASSLE 121 An' awful gallin' chains to break; Cravins that made his life a hell Was roused by sense of sight or smell; An' he was grateful to the friend That helped him so, so near the end Of his last wrassle. But one day T'wards Idyho he takes his way, — More sure than ever that 'twas best To get to Willses home an' rest. He's give me, sence, a hint or so Of how he come to think he'd go To Willses — that he had not seen Sence he's a lad about thirteen. Felt like a child again when he Got thinkin' how 't had used to be When Willses' home was home to him, 'Most like it was to Ruth an' Jim ; — How Mrs. Wills's mother love Comforted him (for her above). Thru six or seven most tender years, — Pitied his troubles, dried his tears, — Till now his care-worn heart said "go To her again, with all your woe!" 122 JOE'S PLACE Smile if you will; tho they's a streak Of woman in him, Joe aint weak Or flabby. Tender, easy moved. Worthy an' yearnin' to be loved, But full a man, you understand. Sturdy as any in the land, But for the drink. An' he was right In thinkin' that, to make his fight. He needed just the help she'd give. Indeed 'twas doubtful would he live To win out, lackin' just the care He knew he would receive from her. Ida — God bless her! They's no need To say she proved the friend indeed. New grip on life, as Ida said, Starts the machinery in his head, — Keys up the genus cords again, So long time ravelled in his brain. Thoughts of his old home, an' the wife To be re-won, give zest to life. Some hint Perfessor'd written, seems T' have started one of his old dreams. An' 'twixt the two (for Verity HIS LAST WRASSLE 123 He's int'rested with Joe, you see, — No genus, — unmechanical, But business-like an' practicle), — 'Twixt them, I say, the hint an' dream Was soon a payin' patent scheme. Joe proved once more a genus rare, An' Hfe once more looked bright an' fair! XVI BRIGHTER DAYS AHEAD Well, here's my lad at home at last! — All his dark past forever past; Clothed an' restored, as Annie said,— With heaps of idees in his head, All ready to be worked to scale. They's now no fear that Joe would fail To find at last a worthy place An' fill it with becomin' grace. Been far afield for long, but still Was young enough to mount his hill An' reach his own large place at last. His day of grace was not yet past! If he'd his rights from Richard Lyme, His road was levelled, anytime. But Joe, he's notions of his own, — BRIGHTER DAYS AHEAD 125 Had, long before he 'as fairly grown, — Idees even Annie could not shake, — An' right or wrong, he would not take One step to make old man do right, Much less to go to law an' fight. Wheels Annie'd set agoin' stopped; La win' an' all that, it was dropped! ''What would you have, now?" he would say. "I've stole his treasure, any way!" An' treasure true she'd proved, for sure, Her heart as sound as it was pure. They's somethin' to her, don't you know; Noways top lofty — daft on show, — But trim an' sweet an' tastful craft She is. — But here, you'll think I'm daft As Joe, 'bout Annie! Well, hard life Had fitted her to be his wife. Like him, she'd been to school, you see An' learned her lines as well as he. Now, if you ast me what had been My plans for Joe, in years between His mother's death an' his disgrace, — What station, or what kind of place I'd hope to see him come into, — I'd little more idee than you! 126 JOE'S PLACE That's mainly due to ignorance On my part, for 'most ever sence He was a growin' lad, you see, He 'as fitter judge of things than me. Knew g'ography an' 'rithmatic, An' foreign language, French an' Grik, An' Scients, (he was up on that, — Had all his ologies down pat!) Drawin', mechanics (that's his lay, An' has been from an early day). He 'as past my power to shape an' plan Long years before he grew a man. An' then, as 'Fessor Verity Has said to me, your Versity Is just a sort of factory where They fashion men with skill an' care, To bring out every gift an' grace They have, to fit them for the place They'd ought to take and fill in life — Trade, brainwork, or politic strife. Perfessor's proud as man can be Of his high callin', you may see! But now sometimes I feel 'twas wrong Of me to let Joe run along BRIGHTER DAYS AHEAD 127 As I did, interferin' none, Until his mouldin' days was done. Blame sticks! — I own it! — tho my lad Lays no reproaches to his dad. If, with my help he'd kep his head. An' run his proper track, instead Of making that one bad misstep Thru Lyme's, he might have riz an' kep A-growin' t'ward the prom'nent place I'd sort of figured on, 'n his face Come to be known thru print as well As Edison's, say. Who can tell But what (as I believe) his name Would figured in your Hall of Fame? He 'as gifted in a high degree, An' I had hopes I'd live to see Some creature of his fertile brain Win for him fame an' ample gain; Enough of both to suit the place Marked for him — had he won his race. — I put it that way: if he'd won. An' pulled up where he'd ought have done — ! Oh, — if he'd won! Well, anyway He's home again; an' tho to-day They's lost an' wasted years behind, 128 JOE'S PLACE They's brighter ones ahead, you mind. Good Harry's satisfied. Said he : *The lad pulls in all right, you see. Did jump his track an' miss his way To City of Prosperity. But only to be run around To his own place, all safe an' sound!" Here, anyway he was, an' here His nat'ral mate; so 'twould appear They's "no just cause, impediment" — So forth — why two so plainly meant For partners needed longer wait. They're ready for the marriage state. She 'as faultless in his eyes, you know, An' equally to her was Joe. I reckoned they was just a pair Of well matched twins, was him an' her! — This way we bantered them, an' chaffed An' teased them; but they only laughed. An' made pertense of askin' leave, — The usial formial make-believe. (Don't have much hand here, parents don't. Some tries unduly, — wise men won't.) I sighed, an' said that, as for me. BRIGHTER DAYS AHEAD 129 I'd try to bear what had to be. Used all the Httle jokes I had, — Fairly intoxicated, — glad Beyond all tellin', don't you know. To look at Annie here, an' Joe, The purtiest picture! Do I dream? Thinks I, so heavenly did it seem! So' weddin' day was set. An' then, Between the women an' the men. Another plot was fully hatched : Here's Tom an' Ruth, already matched, They might as well be wedded too, Same time, same way, — no great ado. An' soon that's settled! So you see 'Twas quite a stirrin' time for me. After my long long loneHness, — 'Twas quite a change, you easy guess. 'Tween you an' me, I felt as gay An' eager for the weddin' day. As Tom or Joe! God bless my lads! Their weal an' happiness is dad's! XVII WHAT TO DO That Sunday night, or Sunday next, Joe, he was restless an' poplext Till somethin' put it in his head, — Some word or other Annie'd said, — To go to that old church where she Had often sung, — where her an' me An' Harry, seekin' Joe, you mind. Went once, not dreamin' we should find Poor Charlie. So here's Harry, 'n Joe, Me, an' the women — quite a show! — Set near the organ pew again. Where we can see the host of men From end to side. WHAT TO DO 131 Same old brown hue Pervadin'; every sort in view Among the faces — good an' bad An' so forth; but my own dear lad Not now the object of our quest. No face loomed out among the rest Or seemed to, as in days gone by. Our lost was found, our tears was dry! Well no, that aint quite acc'rate — no, They's tears enough, tho hid, when Joe Had looked around upon these men An' thought awhile on Now and Then. Too full for speech he was, an' he Would look at Annie, 'n then at me, Just thinkin' of our weary search Time an' again in this old church. His face was quite a picture — strained An' questionin', poplext an' pained. Felt (so he told me) great surprise At what was spread before his eyes, — With all the waste an' woe it meant, So varied, an' so vast extent. Seemed hke he faced an army there; 132 JOE'S PLACE Seemed like he's hemmed in everywhere, An* no way out! No, no way out! For one Hke Joe, they's no way out! Sees here an' there a face he knew, An' questions what he'd ought to do? They's some he'd met in darksome ways, An' one in earlier happier days. That lad I've called a wastrel cur, Whose mother — you remember? — her That found me lyin' in that den An' saved me, he 'as here again. Think of it! Mine safe here, while there Cowers that wretch, seemin' not to care, An' her that had so freely gave Her life for him, lies in her grave. I points him out to Joe, an' said A word or two about the dead; Not the whole story, — keepin' back About my appoplex attack. Told how she'd hoped when she's above She'll see the fruitin' of her love — This lad restored. (Poor show, thought I! But made it easier to die.) WHAT TO DO 133 Old man that's once a banker, he Is here again. Looks worse, I see, — His sunken eyes unnatural bright. I wonder was he here the night Poor CharHe come? He's fond, they say. Of music. He would hear that day Such singin' as you will not hear For love or gold in many a year. Told Joe his story, while the men Was gettin' served with food; an' then My friend the Super'ntendent come To set by Joe, an' chatted some (Not knowin' who he was) like he Talked once a long time back to me. An' Joe, he's deeply int'rested. An' took in every word he said. Shrewd Super'ntendent! did he know The instrument he played in Joe? I guess the poor lad hardly heard No more than once a while a word Of preacher's talk. This host of men Was preachin' sermons to him then. ^34 JOE'S PLACE No doubt a genwine man, sencere An' practical an' plain, can cheer An' help these men, — one that has known Just what it is to be o'erthrown, — That's tasted trouble Hke these men, — That's been 'way down an' riz again. He's ap to say the word most fit An' most affective, feelin' it. An' knowin' as no other can The heart an' need of such a man. But here was six seven hundred men For such a one to face ; an' then He needs to be prepared, an' know His line of argyment. Now Joe, As I've remarked, he's diffident, An' all his make-up clearly meant For more retirin' lines of work. But Joe, he's brave; he would not shirk A duty, once it's plainly seen; So now, right where the preacher'd been. There stood my son! quite pale an' tense, — Not to orate or make pertense Of zeal an' sympathy. — 'Twere crime To mouthe an' tone at such a time! An' Joe, he could not if he would, WHA T TO DO 135 Nor neither would he if he could. Tho when he's stirred, he ap to say What's in his heart, in plainest way An' strongest, — privately, you mind, — He's not your poplar speaker kind. But here's a duty, seeminly, Which spells command for such as he. Felt — so he told us when its o'er — Bound to confess his sin before This host of expert witnesses. Stood quite a while just where he is, 'S if he was dumb or dazed, but then With first few words he took these men An' held them silent as could be, Some seeminly as tense as he Himself was. "Fellow men" (he said), In prayer an' preachin' you've been led By one appointed; an' 'twould be Unseemly, anyway, for me. Were I disposed to try to add A word of preachin'; but Fm glad To seize this opportunity Your Super'ntendent offers me. 136 JOE'S PLACE With briefest plainest words to say: Once / was like some here to-day, Down in the deeps of sin an' shame. I brought disgrace upon a name I'd ought have honored; got so low They's not much lower left to go. Yes, been where some of you men are. Like you, I'm marked with many a scar, An' shall be till my dyin' day, — With stains I cannot wash away, — With dents and bruises. So I know From hard experiences, the woe An' suflferin' some of you endure. Our preacher's talked about a cure For that most deadly ailment, thirst For liquor, — told you how the worst Of human wrecks has been redeemed — So well (he'll pardon me!) it seemed As if experimentally. Like me, he knew what 'tis to be In thrall to drink. — Sir? "So I do," Chips in the preacher, ''So I do. As many here already know." Thank you, — that makes it plain (says Joe). K WHAT TO DO 137 This bothered him a bit, I guess; I thought he floundered more or less, But only for a minute, 'n then Starts off again more earnest. Men! (Says he) You surely won't decline To take our friend's advice, an' mine. Who've travelled, an' who point the road To freedom, riddance of your load, An' life worth livin' ! Wisht / could By word or work of mine, do good To such as you! Some here I know. An' if they will, I'd like (says Joe) To see them at this meetin's close, — With any other here that knows Or has known me. Some here I'm told Is crime-stained, but not yet so old In crime as to be dead to shame — Still mournin' a dishonored name. Take preacher's counsel! — turn again! Win back your place with honest men. At once, at once! O yes, I know 138 JOE'S PLACE How hard a thing it is to go That one step back. 'Twere worse to bear The stain, the chain you'll have to wear In after years unless you do. You need (what preacher says is true) — All need that truly constant Friend Who knows your life, from end to end. An' wills to lift an' free you. Some Has fairly steeped your souls in rum. An' given up all that makes a man. Can't save yourselves; but One who can Needs but the askin', preacher says. Best thing a friend can do for you Is, guide you to a Friend more true. More able, than the best of men. More willin'. Time an' time again, Like good Abe Lincoln said, you know, 'T felt I'd nowhere else to go!" — Like him, I've got upon my knees, An' found, like him, how clear one sees When eyes is closed for prayer, — then light Shines for you like the stars at night. While you an' me has wandered far WHAT TO DO 139 In blackest darkness, they's a star Been shinin' for us had we choose To lift our eyes, while goodness knows We've chased a phosperescent light, An' crawled like creatures of the night. World has small pity for the like Of most of us, — 's more ap to strike Than offer friendly hand, as here The pityin' hand is offered. No, The world don't greatly mind (says Joe). It lauds the Tit' ; the Tit' survives ; If one be fit to live, he thrives! How often you an' me has said, With sinkin' heart an' burnin' head, They's lure in every form an' shape Hell can devise, an' no escape For men that's down, while Chrisht'n church Just frowns an' leaves us in the lurch.' Yet from the church — His church, I mean, The Parabler's — a hand has been Extended here to you to-day. (Some here will measure what I say). Wherever true disciples stand I40 JOE'S PLACE An' offer in His name the hand Of uplift, there His church appears, An' there He speaks, an' there He hears. His church? — who gives it mete an' bound? How shall its height an' depth be found? Not men nor buildins, name nor place, Make up His church ; but where His grace Is manifest, an' loyal souls Combine to serve Him, there He holds Communion; there His church lives; there He works an' hears an' answers prayer. We stand in that great edafice! — On basement pavement say it is. Or lower still. The Founder deigns To loosen here your gallin' chains. To open eyes long bhnd with sin. To bid poor wanderin' souls come in! He, as you've heard the preacher say, Has followed us by night an' day More diligent than hell's black host; An' tho we've been in hell almost, He brings us here! Time an' again He's faced an' pled with us; — you men Know this is true! — an' here to-day WHAT TO DO 141 We come by many a devious way Once more to face Him, an' to choose, His hand to take, or — to refuse. — Shamed? — Yes, I know; too bad to burn! But they's no other place to turn. Like badly battered coin, it's true He'll see His image, even in you; Regrave th' inscription long abuse Has marred, — re-mint you for His use. If this be preachin', pardon me! My heart was full— you'll pardon me!'* — Wisht I could quote him accurate; But that's the gist at any rate. Of what he said. — I'd ought have shown How careful, too, he was, to own The helpers planted on his way From childhood up until to-day; — His mother first of all, an' then At various points along, the men That took a hand, includin' me An' Harry, good Perfessor V, An' Mrs. Wills, an' 'fessor's wife 142 JOE'S PLACE (These both had saved an' shaped his Hfe, Each in their turn), — an' Annie dear! He named no names, but it was clear To all of us. He seemed to show That we was church, like, don't you know! 'Taint just the words you use; the way They're backed counts more than what you say. They's understandin' back of Joe's, An' genwine feelin', — that's what goes! Talked longer than I'd thought he would; An' Super'ntendent called it good — His talk. "But do you know," said he, "This was a real surprise to me, 'Cause all along I thought your son Had died in hospital — the one That give our singer such a fright An' made her swoon, that Sunday night. Well, well! — Here Judge (presentin' Joe), Here's one the sort you like to know." Then in a whisper low to me: "Three of a kind there now," says he. Judge? — "Yes sir, he's a gradiate too; Helped many another gradiate thru." WHAT TO DO 143 Now come the tears to my old eyes, For Annie sprung us a surprise ; — Led Harry to the front, an' then Sung as aforetime for these men. While Harry played his rare vi'lin. An' deftly wove that old air in: ''Sweet Home — come wanderer ! — home, sweet home !" (Wisht I could whistle it, or hum The way it goes!) Old man down there— Once banker — seemed he could not bear Till meetin's over; then he come To speak to Annie. Smelt of rum, But courtly gracious. You could see 144 JOE'S PLACE He 'as deeply moved; 'twas plain to me He 'as full sencere. Gives Annie praise, She 'minds him so of happier days. An' then he showed a wish to know My lad — his talk had stirred him so. — In short, th' acquaintance here begun Continied, an' th' old cynic's won To kindher thoughts an' sweeter ways, An' Annie smoothed his last lone days, Erewhile, with her own tenderness. (I might as well state here all this.) Joe had his meetin' at the end With men he's anxious to befriend. XVIII WEDDING BELLS — AND TOLLING I reckon never ten days past For me so quick; an' here at last The blessed weddin' hour was come, An' joy an' gladness filled my home Past all describin'! — flowers galore Bloomed on the mantel, on the floor No end of plants as tall as me, — Palms, 'zaleas, ferns — nice as could be! Parlor was just a perfect bower, As fit that memorable hour. Teased Tom, — my second son, dear lad!- By pointin' out the chance he had To make an' save a weddin' fee. "Quite easy done," says I, — ''You see, 146 JOE'S PLACE You Splice this couple usial style, An' Ruth an' you chip in the while With "So say we' or 'So will I' "— Quite giddy I'd become! O my, I never'd hoped for such a day! D' you wonder I was vain an' gay? Howbeit we'd to change our plans For weddin' now. They's other hands To take a part sence Tom's to wed : We've all to go to church instead Of standin' in my parlor, now; Tom reckoned he would have to bow To what his people ast ; an' so In rippin' style to church we go! Comes back to me that scene, as plain As can be, an' my heart again Gets throbbin' throbbin', when I dwell On its bright mem'ries for a spell. 'Twas awful sweet an' gorgeous there! They's plants an' flowers set everywhere ; An' scores of people, finely drest. All smilin' in their Sunday best. An' all the while the organ plays, WEDDING BELLS— AND TOLLING 147 Now gay, now solemn, — various ways — Till at the end it rung like bells! — In mem'ry still it throbs an' swells As if 'twould fill all future time With soothin' melody, an' chime Forever an' forever more In these wed hearts, so's — ''rich or poor Or weal or woe, or sick or well" — They'll always hear that weddin' bell An' smile contented. Yes, I know I'm odd; but it did touch me so! But sweetest sight an' sound that hour — More sweet than organ strain or flower — Was forms an' voices all so dear 'Twas heavenly just to see an' hear. "For rich or poor, for weal or woe," These young wives promised Tom an' Joe To cling till death. An' so my lads Was happy! an' their joy was dad's! An' now we had a chance to see How dear our Annie'd come to be 148 JOE'S PLACE To scores an' scores that gathered there. Church weddin' had been planned for her More than for Tom. 'Twas plain my lad Was some surprised, but proud an' glad. Our weddin' feast was scarcely o'er When they's a message at the door For Annie, — telagram been round Two hours or more before she's found. Her father, lyin near his end, With no one higher than a friend — No kith or kin — begs now for her To come an' give him lovin' care. Poor child! — calm, like herself, you know, But awful pale, just looks at Joe A minute, scarce a word exchanged. Ten minutes later — dresses changed. An' plans too — off they rode away. An' reached home, — on her weddin' day! But late, — too late! The heart that turned Pride-broke an' sad, to her he'd spurned, With all her wealth of love, was still, — Poor, shrivelled, barren heart, 'twas still! WEDDING BELLS— AND TOLLING I49 Here (good as elsewhere) be it said Few mourners wep around the dead; But in the days an' years to come His moniment will stand, an' some Will innicently bless his name, While you an' me may mark his shame. Lyme Institute — equipped, endowed, Housed in a palace — is allowed To prove a blessin' for young men Of talent, as he willed; an' then Temperance, an' other causes, claimed A good man's bounty, an' was named With generous figures. But his child, — His daughter — Well, to draw it mild, He's worse than mean. His town cried shame! Years hence that wrong will cloud his name. But they're content — my lad an' her. You never see a happier pair! Soon Tom an' Ruth is off, their way. An' us that's left we end the day, In social comfortable chat; — Lyme, future, young folk, this an' that, — Until, when it was purty late, I50 JOE'S PLACE Blind Harry, pokin' in the grate Gets talkin' just the oddest way, As if among the embers lay A book for him to read. So free His language flowed, did seem to me Like he's inspired! — Forecasts the way That lies before us from this day Of days. — Tom in the far Nor-west A 'shepherd,' givin' of his best To guard a human flock, an' lead To pastures yieldin' what they need, — To satisfyin' streams — to plains Bestrewed with rich endurin' gains. WEDDING BELLS— AND TOLLING 151 — Ruth, like her namesake, choosin' well, Tom's faithful helpmeet where they dwell. Blest as her namesake was, to be Honored in her posterity. — An' Ida Wills is to be blest As she deserves: in east an' west Rich, with the love an' care returned For love an' care — true wealth well earned. — An' Verity's (for they was here) — Their future Harry made appear All sunshine! — him the president Of some new institution meant T' eclipse your eastern Versities! (Somewhere in middle west it is) Where he's to prosper, — Mrs. V Sharin' his great prosperity As she deserves, an' loved an' praised Along with him, by men they've raised. — Joe, he'll be honored far an' wide. With wife an' children at his side He'll take an' upward widenin' way. An' grow in power from day to day. Now — Gradiate in Adversity 152 JOE'S PLACE As well as learnin' — he should be Well kep from evil, an' the hand Of God be with him; he shall stand Contented in his lot; shall know His place in life an' fill it; grow In power with ever widenin' coast; Have benaficiaries a host; Bless an' be blest; each gift an' grace Contributin' to mark his ''place." — Me? Well, I'm to be satisfied! That suits me — to be satisfied! — An* now our wise blind wizard's thru, We question him: what then for you? Tell us, what shall your future be? He answered, laughin' "We shall see!" XIX A SWEETLY MEMORABLE DAY Young folks set up their home near me, Modest, but cosy as could be, — So's we was seldom long apart. An' Annie — bless her gentle heart! — First Sunday home insists we go To church, — to that where me an' Joe An' mother went when he was young. An' Harry, 'course he'll go along. She calls in time to see we're trim, Brushed an' spruced up; for me an' him Was none too scrumptious, nor was he More blind to fault in dress than me! 154 JOE'S PLACE Life seemed to take a different air; Seemed like all nature was at prayer That Sunday mornin', when us four Walked to'ards the old fermiliar door. Seemed like heaven's rest an' peace had come To us, — as if we're now at home! All felt it, but especially Joe, — His beamin' face was quite a show. Me ? Well, I had my feelins too. That moved an' thrilled me thru an' thru. Seemed like the voice I'd used to hear Riz at my side, as sweet an' clear As when my own young wife an' Joe Was settin' by me, years ago. An' now I'm old an' wore, you see. An' Joe sets now, in place of me. With his sweet singer. Time rolls on. An' soon his Dad, too, will be gone ! Sweet hymns, with old fermiHar airs, Nat'ral sencere upliftin' prayers, — These I could follow; an' the preach. For most part come within my reach. Experience, mebbe, 'd cleared for me Some things I would not once have see. A SWEETLY MEMORABLE DAY 155 Tex I forget, but this I know: The preacher did his best to show Just what the church was meant to be An' do for men; an' seemed to me He had his subjec well in hand, An' I could easy understand His zeal an' all that. But, d' you know, My mind run back to when my Joe Was in the deeps, an' me in quest, Unknowin' church's peace an' rest. An' it was in my heart to say 'The church aint true to plan to-day, — Her hand aint reachin' where it ought, — Aint workin' as the Founder taught !" But hush, my heart! I must not say So harsh a thing on such a day. Yet presently the preacher said Almost the things that's in my head. ''We must be in the world but still Not of it; we are to fulfil Thru kindly human touch an' word The purpose of our common Lord. This seems t' have been the Master's plan : Himself for all — thru man to man." —So forth, — right faithful. 156 JOE'S PLACE Yet I know (To illustrate), they's men like Joe Within arm's reach of some of these Here listenin,' — neighbors, if you please — That to companion an' uphold Would bring them gain beyond all gold; While, on the other hand, I've seen Some that for years has never been Inside a sacred place, nor known The peace these sing of, but has grown Old in a life like that Vve seen — Sundays more dark than days between; — Unselfish, lovin', kind, an' good. Yes yes, unchurched they are, but good! Nat'ral affection, do you say. Alone has moved them? Anyway, Instead of sayin\ here, *'I go," They make no sign but quitely go An' bear their load. The Lord alone Knows how to reco'nize His own. This way you see my mind run on, Till preachin', singin', all was done. An' most before I'm wide awake, Comes preacher! — 'n gives my hand a shake A SWEETLY MEMORABLE DAY 157 So hearty, I could hardly frame Reply! But when he ast my name, My, old rebellious heart spoke out : "You'll find it somewheres — blotted out — Among your members years ago. (O yes, before your time — that's so.)" But here I bit my tongue, for he Was not to blame that Joe an' me Slipped ofT unheeded ; more to blame Was No! I better name no name. But here was ten or twelve or more That knew us well, — some passed my door, — That ought have shown some little care To see us two no longer where We'd used so regularly to sit In mother's time. I 'as touched a bit When preacher spoke so kind to Joe An' Annie 'n Harry. Don't you know, They's a tremendis power an' reach In honest-hearted human speech! Preacher just fairly captured Joe; Seemed he could hardly let us go. That was a memorable day, Sweet an' delightful every way. 158 JOE'S PLACE Joe he was fairly full of talk With Harry on our homeward walk, While Annie close behind with me, Harped on the preacher's earnest plea For loyalty to church, an' then Asts me to lead these other men At once to where they'd ought to be. — She lost no time convertin' me! She's no skim-milk — she's genwine cream Is Annie ! Good as she may seem, You're safe to count her cent per cent In thought, word, doins or intent, — Just solid Chrisht'n. So when she Gets talkin' earnestly to me, I know she'll win her way, — altho She'll have to argy strong with Joe, An' show up reasons plain an' fair. For he's no easier budged than her. Feared Joe's idees might lead him wrong, Tho mostly sound. She argied strong For "church organic, militant" (Me hardly graspin' what she meant). Says she **No power, or book, or pen, — A SWEETLY BIEMORABLE DAY I59 No well-wro't scheme or work of men — Can fill the place of that designed By Him to keep us well in mind Of our own weakness an' His power; — The spoken Word, the place of prayer. Ought we (says she) 'cause faithless men,— Vain, worldly, weak or blind ones— men Who do not know the Master's heart — Bear oftentimes in church the part Of seemin' pillars, turn away From Him an' His own Order? Nay, Nay, rather we should seek His face Unheedin' theirs, in any place Where souls may gather in His name. An' try to spread His power an' fame. In ways of His appointin'. Joe Needs, an' can serve the church, I know." O Annie, Annie! how she pled! Wisht I could quote you all she said, So's you could quitely hear an' see The winsome way she talks to me. — Account of Joe, you mind; she pled That now the dear lad might be led To wait in church along with her, — "To serve (says she) The Parabler, i6o JOE'S PLACE As Joe would name Him; to display His gratitude in fittest way. For he's a 'precious stone,' you'll see, In that great edafice (says she). Be sure the church's Artchitect Drawed every shade an' line correct. What flaws you find is due to man Misreadin', — noway fault in plan. — Yes, most of Joe's idees was right: The Allybaster box, the Mite, The Caesar coin, the Whip of cords, An' various teachins, acts an' words. Church is, as Joe says, awful slow To square itself with. Even so (Says she), when all is done an' said, Our pattern is the church's Head." You'll guess I did not breathe a word Of how I'd pecked at what I'd heard, An' faulted members of the church For failin' people in the lurch Just when they'd ought have given a hand In Church's name. — You understand? I'd had to own as well, you see. A SWEETLY MEMORABLE DAY i6l That they's one cap that fitted me I — The miss I'd made in all these years Of heartache, loneliness an' tears. — Told her I'm noways loath to lead. But, bless your heart, they was no need! Next Sunday, next, an' next we went With equal pleasure — more content When we'd our own appointed pew (By Joe's contrivin', same old pew We'd occipied long years before) Way back, an' rather near the door. XX REMEMBER Then come Communion day, when we All signified our wish to be Enrolled disciples, an' to make Disciples' solemn vows, an' take The broken bread an' wine. But oh I never shall forget how Joe Turned his great eyes on me — his face Unearthly pale, — riz in his place, An' then dropt in his seat again With every sign of anguished pain. Poor Annie was not slow to see ; She guessed the cause, ahead of me, An' (wisely) she persuaded him. REMEMBER 163 Durin' the singin' of a hymn, To go right home with her, — 'twere best Not to remain an' be distrest As she could see he was, in there, By the wine-odor-laden air. An' so a sudden gloom o'erlay What was t' have been so fair a day. Joe could not, dare not, hold his tongue. 'Fore next Communion come along He'd talked with preacher an' his men, An' argied, time an' time again, For grapejuice unfermented — ^'wine That answers best the Lord's design." They^s one man putty hard to shake; Clung to the Veal thing'; — it would make (He thought) the service void, — Its truth to Scripture'd be destroyed — Were they to take an' use as wine Mere unprepared juice of the vine. — Man was sencere enough, you see, But sot in his beliefs, an' he An' one Hke-minded long opposed i64 JOE'S PLACE The change in wine my son proposed. But preacher gladly sides with Joe After he'd pled an' argied so. I loved to hear Joe's argyment, — Spoke from his heart, all truly meant, You understand, an' pressed for sake Of men that might come in his wake. Parts of that warm discussion stay — Especially Joe's — with me to-day, So clear an' strong that what I heard I could repeat 'most word for word. 'Twould range from commonsense to tex, An' scripture words that might poplex They'd each explain to prove his case, Until at last they 'd reach the place Joe started for, — this point of view: What would the Master likely do? Then they would talk about His life. His words, His work; an' so the strife Of these disciples come to be A means of union, don't you see? — All equally intent to know Their Master's wish an' will, for so You'll understand they was, each man. REMEMBER 165 I'll give you just as best I can, Joe's pleadins. He would first take up The whole wine question, 'n then 'the cup' Of the memorial feast, an' dwell On its deep meanin' for a spell. "Men do irreverence when they claim The sanction of the highest Name For use of that which blights an' kills, — The sum an' crown of nameless ills. Ferment betokens death (said he) The Cup' should symbol life to me, — Should symbol Hfe an' oneness too: ''You are in me an' I in you." Death an' the grave. He meant to show. Changed none that vital bond (says Joe). They is no ferment in the 'wine' He figures coursin' thru the vine, But life, Hke His — the Vine's — abounds, An', like our heart-blood, makes its rounds Thru Vine an' branch, thru branch an' Vine, Untouched, untainted, livin' wine. No influence from the outer air Can taint the blood that courses there. i66 JOE'S PLACE The thought is one I can't endure — That He, the blameless, perfect, pure, Whose every word an' impulse went To lift men up, — whose blood was spent In war with powers of death an' hell, — Would have fermented wine to tell Of His unchangin' love an' care. No no no no! I cannot bear To drag that holy Name so low As link it with the ills we know That cup to stand for. An' again His church ought not commerce with men Who trade in deadly liquor. No, That surely must be wrong (says Joe). I, who have drained that cup (says he). Know Him who drained a worse for me. Too well to think He wills that I Should find it peril to draw nigh To His memorial table — there To hear his final charge an' prayer. The odor fairly rives my brain! One taste would lay me low again ! O tell me, is He honored more By this than by the juice before It "moves itself aright an' gives REMEMBER 167 Its color in the cup"? He lives, An' hears an' answers; ask Him this: "Good Master, shall we do amiss If we reject the wine whereat x\ brother stumbles, choosin' that Which is not yet fermented, an' — With this an' broken bread in hand, — With equal zeal an' reverence, call Thee Master, Lord, our Life, our All?" I know the schoolmen's sophistries, N' I know their reverent purpose is To do His will. But here I stand: I cannot, dare not, let this hand Touch or present the cup you bear. I'm sure He would not bid me dare. Were men to seek a sign to-day To symbol sorrow, death, decay, Dishonor, shame, — all human woe, — They well might take this cup (says Joe) — This 'real thing' you insist upon. But now, (he asts) is this the one. Is not our 'real thing' His request That we remember? — His behest That in the symbol bread an' wine i68 JOE'S PLACE We'll read '*I am yours an' you are Mine, At one alway. Until I come, Drink, eat, remember — till I come"? Joe, he's no theologican, But just a simple honest man That tries to find the truest way An' straightest, rightest, day by day. Speaks out regardless what men think, 'Gainst all intoxicatin' drink. Not 'gainst the ord'nance, but the use, There, of what he calls ''devilled juice." Sometimes it seemed to me he's wrong, — His language just a trifle strong, — After I've heard some arguyin'. With Grik an' Heebra words run in; But then a whiff of that old smell Sufficed to send me back to — Well, No language is too strong to be Applied to that stuff, seems to me. Well, wine was changed, I'm glad to say. Joe brought these men to see his way. XXI I'M FULL CONTENT How time does fly! Five years skip o'er, An' now it's Christmas time once more! Snow lyin' crisp an' white all round; Up here on Outlook Nob no sound Except the sleighbells. lyo JOE'S PLACE Off rides Joe An' Annie, ceaseless on the go This Christmas eve; for him an' her Has joys to carry everywhere. Their sleighbells, be you sure, will ring The good old message, for they bring Sweet gifts that sing it. Over there (See?) 's little Tom an' Jabez, — here Is baby Annie, — n' here is 'i)\el All glad an' happy as can be. Snug in the ingle at my ease. Dog-like an' lazy as you please, An ap to while my time away In mem'ry's picture gallery. Here at the Nob I make my home Until (as Job says) ''my change come." Fast changes? — reckon they's a few Has cut their notch in me an' you! But we've been kep an' comforted. An' hitherto have we been led With good Lord's help, as bible says, — Tho we've not understood His ways. My 'Ebanezer' means for me PM FULL CONTENT 171 A power of gladness, as you see. Tho earthly ties be gettin' few, These few is precious sweet an' true. So, while I'd welcome final rest, Life is not yet devoid of zest. These young ones makes me young again, An' Christmas brings me joy again. Great plans afoot, you reco'nize, — Big Christmas-tree to feast your eyes. Big table set in dinin' room. They's twenty thirty folks to come For Christmas. — Here I see comes one, — Just now when Joe an' Annie's gone! "Set in the ingle. Sir, with me. An' we can while the time, mebbe, Till folks return (says I). Set there An' toast your feet, — pull up your chair ! Now we can talk." Just mark my ''we"! I'm garrilous as man can be If once you start me off on Joe! This visitor he found me so. But 's awful int'rested. I guess 172 JOE'S PLACE I gabbled on two hours — no less! — Much like I've gabbled here to you, — Him quite, like you are, till I'm thru. " — ^An' here (says I) I've never ast So much as what's your name! Time's passed Till now they must be comin' near. When they're within a mile you'll hear The sleighbells; then you'll quickly see The rig. You've younger eyes than me. 'An officer of Joe's' — ? Now, say! He must have mentioned you to-day. 'The Wastrel Cur'! No! — not the son Of — Bless my soul, are you the one? — But you'll forgive me, anyway, Some things I may have chanced to say. Shook hands again. O, bless your heart 'Twas past relief! He's bright an' smart, An' goodness now fair lights the face That's once so marred — that hopeless case! — Till, as I looked, I seemed to see The face that shone so bright for me In my dark'st hour. Four years an' more I'M FULL CONTENT 173 He's lived a man's life, — all before Was dog, or worse, he owned with shame. An' now he bears an honored name. An' praises Joe, an' blesses God For her that lies beneath the sod. Poor soul! I reckon, now, she see Acrost the years what's hid from me, — This fruitin' of her love, her boy Restored. That would explain her joy. We talked (should say / did!) of how Joe's life has took its course till now 'Twould seem he'd ought have found the place He's built for — if he's won his race. Tho, as for ''place," — what that may be In sight of Heaven, we may not see. We look for somethin' tangible. Some writins plainly legible. To certify success; — great fame. Great wealth, high office, vaunted name. O, mother figured somethin' large! An' had she lived, with him in charge, — My lot instead of hers to go, — Mebbe she'd found his place for Joe In time to 'scape the awful snare 174 JOE'S PLACE He 'as caught in 'fore I was aware. Just makes my old heart ache, sometimes, To think how, if he'd missed the Lymes-^! But there now! what about the wife God give him, dear to him as Hfe, An' not a whit less dear to me? Here's quite a puzzle, don't you see? Now, tho my lad has done right well, They's no great story yet to tell Of high achievement, world-wide fame. Nor milHons reckoned to his name. — Been five eventful years for Joe; Not free from care an' cross, altho They're full of work an' happiness. An', on the whole, of real success. Yet makes no figure; — no one knows Nor cares how when or where he goes, Like if he'd been a milHonaire With yachts an' houses here an' there. O, if it had not been for drink He'd cut a wider swath, I think ! An' yet — an' yet, it seems to me. You'd better be a man than be FM FULL CON TEN 7 175 A multimillionaire. I know They aint a manlier man than Joe. Anyway, here we are to-day; No 'count, mebbe; an' yet the way Our folly's took — thru pain, disgrace, May bring up at th' appointed "place." Whose is the plan? We only know We thought we'd otherwheres to go! Question is not what might have been. Nor what you'd ought have done or seen, Nor what you missed nor what you lost. What snares or snags you've come acrost, Nor yet what will to-morrow bring, But what, to-day, is wisest thing To do — so far as you can see. Thafs our one question, seems to me. Moreover, what has been wro't out By past experiences, no doubt, — Hows'ever different these may be From what you'd figured out to see, — Fits every man to fill to-day Some worthy place in worthy way. 176 JOE'S PLACE An', be he high or be he low, If genwinely he'll try, like Joe, To fill that place, he'll surely find For work its wages, — peace of mind, Contentment, happiness. What more Could come with power an' wealth galore! One's place is where he is, I guess, His stint, his level best — no less. My lad he smiles sometimes at me An' my ''confused philosophy"; An' nefify Tom an' him'll joke About my leaky logic, n' poke Fun at my doxy. Ignorance (Says I) aint want of common sense; An' I don't mind if them an' you Smile ever so, — I hold this true: They is no way or scale on earth To tell life's meanin', end, or worth. Someday, I reckon, we may know What has been hid from us below; But here the lamp we have for guide Lights but our feet; 'most all beside Is dark to us; we have to go One step, one task at once, you know. PM FULL CONTENT 177 "Best we can do is — just our best," As some'dy says, an' leave the rest To Him that knows, from end to end, Our whence an' whither, aim an' trend. I reckon Harry's prophecy Must not be took too serously. — Tho now you come to think of it, His forecast did not dwell a bit On wealth for Joe. So there you are! He 'as to be honored, near an' far, Bless an' be blest, with gifts an' grace An' growin' power for growin' place. All this I reckon may befall An' Joe not come to wealth at all! Harry, he'd great idees of Joe! Might been his own, he loved him so. "Survival of the flt'st?" (he'd say)— "Who's judge of fitness, any way? Fittest in brawn quite often lack In heft of heart or brain; an' back Of frailest human forms you'll find. Quite frequent, finest types of mind. An' vig'rous will an' generous heart — 178 JOE'S PLACE Men full-equipped to play a part Brawn makes no show in. Look at Joe: You'll seldom find the Lord bestow Fine brawn along with gifts like his. We need not question why it is. It aint for men — for you or me — To cipher out. Lord's plan may be To evolute an' evolute, Until he gets a strain to suit, / neither know nor care a bit, But this is plain : He knows the "fit." An' some that, in persumptious pride, Thinks tliey know, He may cast aside!" We'd use to talk of prom'nent men With fab'lous wealth, an' now an' then He'd make odd comments while I'd read About them, — such as "Run to seed! — Poor vegetable! — sad to see Rank useless growth spread like a tree, Green, gorgeous, unsubstantial, vain, Their golden flower more loss than gain." — Contrastin' Joe: "his soHd sense" He'd say to me, "is fine, immense! He's bearin' fruit an' makin' wood; Sound as an acorn, wise an' good. PBI FULL CONTENT I79 He's fairly full of sap, his roots Spread out by riverside, his shoots Green an' abundant, spite of brought; He's one the Lord has planted out!" Took that from bible, I should say. For always it was Harry's way To quote some tex. Years back, I know, He spoke like that concernin' Joe — 'S if he's a tree (to ease my pain) ; **They's hope a tree will sprout again When it's cut down, as Job says." Oh, How true it come in case of Joe! Good Harry! — partial, odd, mebbe He was, but dear to mine an' me. — Not down on wxalth; oh dear me, no! He would have had no fears for Joe On that score now. Indeed, like me, I know he looked for Joe to be A man of large estate someday. Not long before he passed away, Joe bought the Nob, an' Harry's glad; *.^' i8o JOE'S PLACE Had known it when he was a lad — From creek to wood, from pike to lane. Fair made him feel he's young again To come up here. Seemed he could see! Knew every turn an' every tree! There, cased in glass, vi'lin an' bow Hangs mute an' still forever, now. Played in the old time many a strain Of heartache music; time again In trouble they've uplifted me. An', happier times, sung merrily To make my glad heart gladder yet. (No, Harry, no, we don't forget!) Played their last strain last fall a year, When Joe fetched me an' him up here For Annie's birthday; — me to stay, While Harry took his lonely way On sudden but most welcome call ('Twas as he'd wished; not sick at all — No wearin' wait). Last word to me Was in his playful tone, — 'T see!" But now concernin' Joe: he thrives On work, — contented, tho he strives Continially for "larger coast," C,x- .: •-'_ fty:^ i ^H^P^, ; '.' f i" 5- :J ^^F^ ''^^ IS »M^ -^-^■i 1^"""" - ^--*3. 9^ ->f^ i ' ^^^ 1 m . FM FULL CONTENT l8l Has "benaficiaries a host" As Harry prophesied — some known To him alone, more unbeknown. Works (Uke a horse I nearly said, — Say like a dozen men, instead), 'Twixt business an' (we'll say) his fad — His biggest work. Indeed my lad 'In blessin' " has been ''blest," in this, Scarce understandin' how it is, — Not knowin' how it comes about, Nor carin' — seein' no way out, Nor seekin' chance to slight or shirk AYhat seems to come in his day's work. Down from that Sunday evenin' when He met his bunch of broken men (With vaguest notions what to say Or do for them), he's found some way To give a hand to scores of men, An' help them to their feet again. He's practicle, you see, — he knows From hard experience how it goes With men off track; as Harry said "A gradiate — G. A." — heart an' head Instructed. i82 JOE'S PLACE Scores of workers know The sturdy friend they have in Joe, To counsel an' to help their plans; So one or other keep his hands Well filled with cases worth his care. He'll come acrost one here an' there That stirs his soul, — one now an' then His own sort: genus-gifted men That's been ill wronged. For these he fights Tremendously, to gain their rights. (For they's a power of genus dreams Falls in the way of wicked schemes!) — Or now a lad gone wrong, we'll say, Some one or other turns his way. Joe wins him, new inspirits him, An' pleads with them he's wronged, for him To be restored. — Or case in court We'll say it is; he'll give support Where lack of it would mean despair An' further strayin'. Everywhere Men seem to reco'nize his worth. They aint a truer man on earth. Nor tackfuller. Once he's begun He clings until his point is won. PM FULL CONTENT 183 No fault of Joe's if case be lost! — Not easy phazed with work or cost. Works lawyer, merchant, railroad man, As one or other suits his plan; Them glad an' willin', 'cause they know They's no crass foolishness in Joe. He's never done contrivin' ways Of helpin' men, so far as lays In human power. They need (he'll say) A lift, — not tell'm' of the way They'd ought to go; — a touch of home; A sense of human-kinship; sight Of 'better things'; a gleam of light From heaven, reflected out of men; Riddance of rum-soak; fed again, An' clad, so's they can fairly start To face the world with steady heart An' try once more. — Or seventy times, As bible says, — ay seventy times! — Not one nor seven. So Joe, he leads Like-minded men to match these needs With time an' means, along with his. — To find their happiness in this. i84 JOE'S PLACE Public affairs an' church same way, — Full head of steam on, every day! Tom calls him 'broad.' I know he's true To his convictions, thru an' thru; But tol'rant as a man can be With men that may not chance to see Just eye to eye with him; quite clear In doctrine views; but they's no fear Of cant or cavil; reckons you Have your idees of doctrine too. No time for quibbles, — too intent On livin' as the Master meant. Mebbe a crank, as some would say. He tries to turn things, anyway. As some 'dy says of cranks; 'n I know The church will make a better show Of holdin' an' of mouldin' men In ways the Master figured, when Some crank idees of his prevail. Where now she's far too ap to fail. That's Joe, then! — all-around useful man, Just workin', helpin', best he can. Yet you'll observe he's little known; PM FULL CONTENT 185 His haud in things is seldom shown, An' voice more seldom heard. His friends Afar an' near must serve his ends; An' men like 'Wastrel' here is glad An' proud of service with my lad. /'d liked have been some help myself Before they laid me on the shelf, — T' have done some good; but chance, you see, Always somehow eluded me. Why, ev'n my quest for Joe — it brought No fruit; he was not where / sought! Joe twits me when I talk like this, — ■ Tells me ''one's place is where he is," — An' 's how I've always done my best — So forth, — an' I must "leave the rest"! . An' then he'll say quite serously "Your task has been to seek for me My place — not me; an' you had done Your full day's work when mine begun," — An' so forth, kind as he can be. An' bound to make life sweet for me Joe's path to-day is plain an' bright With wide an' ever-spreadin' light; An' Annie's heart an' soul with him, i86 JOE'S PLACE Fair match in goodness, tack, an' vim. She's proud of him, — he worships her! They're just a team, — the happiest pair! O, Annie's perfectly content; Quite sure she sees what mother meant. An' Joe, he says his mother's face Beams frequent now, an' Hghts "his place." I'm glad to think 'tis even so. They aint a busier man than Joe Nor yet a happier to be found Outside of heaven! — life full an' round. — This, Annie says, is proof for me That he is where he'd ought to be, — Right in the ''large place" mother meant. Like Annie dear, I'm full content! ^