i;i»i«W«e5{; i!',v ^ 9^ \\ "^0^ 0° .^.r;^ '%. <^° .\V^°.''.% <-^ .^ ^ -^ ^ ^ ^ a '=A "^ y^ ■^ c 5i '. ^»ib ' / . o S ^ -C?>^ . V : A MINSTREL IN FRANCE i Harry Lauder and His Son, Captain John Lauder A MINSTREL IN FRANCE BY HARRY LAUDER NEW YORK HEARST'S INTERNATIONAL LIBRARY CO. 1918 w\. A Copyright. 1918, by Hearst's International Library Co., Inc. All rights reserved, including the translation into foreign languages, including the Scandinavian APR 23 1918 4 0^'" ©Cl.A497i:j2 yi-o I TO The Memory of My Beloved Son CAPTAIN JOHN LAUDER First 8th, Argyle and Sutherland Highlanders rf Killed in France, December 28, 1916 Oh, there's sometimes I am lonely And I'm weary a' the day To see the face and clasp the hand Of him who is away. The only one God gave me. My one and only joy. My life and love were centered on My one and only boy. I saw him in his infant days Grow up from year to year. That he would some day be a man I never had a fear. His mother watched his every step, 'Twas our united joy To think that he might be one day My one and only boy. When war broke out he buckled on His sword, and said, " Good-bye, For I must do my duty, Dad; Tell Mother not to cry, Tell her that I'll come back again." What happiness and joy! But no, he died for Liberty, My one and only boy. The days are long, the nights are drear. The anguish breaks my heart. But oh! I'm proud my one and only Laddie played his part. For God knows best. His will be done. His grace does me employ. I do believe I'll meet again My one and only boy. Copyright 1918 by Harry Lauder. CONTENTS CHAPTBR PAGE I 1 II 11 III 25 IV 33 V 42 VI 52 VII 61 VIII 71 IX 80 X 91 XI 107 XII 118 XIII 131 XIV 146 XV 164 XVI 180 XVII 200 XVIII 217 XIX 236 XX 247 XXI . 261 XXII 274 XXIII 285 XXIV 293 XXV 304 XXVI 316 XXVII 323 XXVIII 330 LIST OF ILLUSTRATIONS Harry Lauder and His Son, Captain John Lauder Frontispiece FACINS PAOR * ' I did not stop at sending out my recruiting band. I went out myself" 30 " 'Carry On!' were the last words of my boy, Cap- tain John Lauder, to his men, but he would mean them for me, too" 56 "Bang! Went Sixpence" 98 Harry Lauder preserves the bonnet of his son, brought to him from where the lad fell. ' ' The memory of his boy, it is almost his religion." — A tatter of plaid of the Black Watch on a wire of a German entanglement barely sug- gests the hell the Scotch troops have gone through 130 Captain John Lauder and Comrades Before the Trenches in France 180 " 'Make us laugh again, Harry!' Though I re- member my son and want to join the ranks, I have obeyed" 232 Harry Lauder, "Laird of Dunoon" . . . 256 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE CHAPTER I YON days ! Yon palmy, peaceful days ! I go back to them, and they are as a dream. I go back to them again and again, and live them over. Yon days of another age, the age of peace, when no man dared even to dream of such times as have come upon us. It was in November of 1913, and I was setting forth upon a great journey, that was to take me to the other side of the world before I came back again to my wee hoose amang the heather at Dunoon. My wife was going with me, and my brother-in-law, Tom Vallance, for they go every- where with me. But my son John was coming with us only to Glasgow, and then, when we set out for Liverpool and the steamer that was to bring us to America he was to go back to Cam- bridge. He was near done there, the bonnie lad- die. He had taken his degree as Bachelor of Arts, and was to set out soon upon a trip around the world. Was that no a fine plan I had made for my son? That great voyage he was to have, to see the world and all its peoples! It was proud I was that I could give it to him. He was — ^but it may be I'll tell you more of John later in this book! A MINSTREL IN FRANCE My pen runs awa' with me, and my tongue, too, when I think of my boy John. We came to the pier at Dunoon, and there she lay, the little ferry steamer, the black smoke curl- ing from her stack straight up to God. Ah, the braw day it was ! There was a frosty sheen upon the heather, and the Clyde was calm as glass. The tops of the hills were coated with snow, and they stood out against the horizon like great big sugar loaves. We were a' happy that day! There was a crowd to see us off. They had come to bid me farewell and godspeed, all my friends and my relations, and I went among them, shaking them by the hand and thinking of the long whiles before I'd be seeing f em again. And then all my good- bys were sai'^, and we went aboard, and my voyage had bejun, I looked back at the hills and the heather, and I thought of all I was to do and see before I saw those hills again. I was going half way round the world and back again. I was going to won- derful places to see wonderful things and curious faces. But oftenest the thought came to me, as I looked at my son, that him I would see again before I saw the heather and the hills and all the friends and the relations I was leaving behind me. For on his trip around the world he was to meet us in Australia ! It was easier to leave him, easier to set out, knowing that, thinking of that! A MINSTREL IN FRANCE Wonderful places I went to, surely. And won- derful things I saw and heard. But the most wonderful thing of all that I was to see or hear upon that voyage I did not dream of nor foresee. How was a mortal man to foresee ? How was he to dream of it? Could I guess that the very next time I set out from Dunoon pier the peaceful Clyde would be dotted with patrol boats, dashing hither and thither! Could I guess that everywhere there would be boys in khaki, and women weeping, and that my boy, John ! Ah, but I'll not tell you of that now. Peaceful the Clyde had been, and peaceful was the Mersey when we sailed from Liverpool for New York. I look back on yon voyage — the last I took that way in days of peace. Next time ! Destroyers to guard us from the Hun and his sub- marines, and to lay us a safe course through the mines. And sailor boys, about their guns, watch- ing, sweeping the sea every minute for the flash of a sneaking pirate's periscope showing for a second above a wave ! But then! It was a quiet trip, with none but the ups and doons of every Atlantic crossing — more ups than doons, I'm telling you! I was glad to be in America again, glad to see once more the friends I 'd made. They turned out to meet me and to greet me in New York, and as I travelled across the continent to San Francisco A MINSTREL IN FRANCE it was the same. Everywhere I had friends; everywhere they came crowding to shake me by the hand with a ^'How are you the day, Harry?'' It was a long trip, but it was a happy one. How long ago it seems now, as I write, in this new day of war! How far away are all the common, kindly things that then I did not notice, and that now I would give the world and a' to have back again ! Then, everywhere I went, they pressed their dainties upon me whenever I sat down for a sup and a bite. The board groaned with plenty. I was in a rich country, a country where there was enough for all, and to spare. And now, as I am writing I am travelling again across America. And there is not enough. When I sit down at table there is a card of Herbert Hoover's, bidding me be careful how I eat and what I choose. Ay, but he has no need to warn me ! Well I know the truth, and how America is helping to feed her allies over there, and so must be sparing herself. To think of it ! In yon far day the world was all at peace. And now that great America, that gave so little thought to armies and to cannon, is fighting with my ain British against the Hun ! It was in March of 1914 that we sailed from San Francisco, on the tenth of the month. It was a glorious day as we stood on the deck of the old Pacific liner Sonoma. I was eager and glad to A MINSTREL IN FRANCE be off. To be sure, America had been kinder to me than ever, and I was loath, in a way, to be leaving her and all the friends of mine she held — old friends of years, and new ones made on that trip. But I was coming back. And then there was one great reason for my eagerness that few folk knew — that my son John was coming to meet me in Australia. I was missing him sore already. They came aboard the old tubby liner to see us off, friends by the score. They kept me busy shaking hands. "Good-by, Harry," they said. And "Good luck, Harry," they cried. And just before the bugles sounded all ashore I heard a few of them crooning an old Scots song: "Will ye no come back again?" "Aye, I'll come back again!" I told them when I heard them. "Good, Harry, good!" they cried back to me. "It's a promise! We'll be waiting for you — waiting to welcome you ! ' ' And so we sailed from San Francisco and from America, out through the Golden Gate, toward the sunset. Here was beauty for me, who loved it — a new beauty, such as I had not seen before. They were quiet days, happy days, peaceful days. I was tired after my long tour, and the days at sea rested me, with good talk when I craved it, and time to sleep, and no need to give thought to trains, or to think, when I went to bed, that in 6 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE the night they'd rouse me from my sleep by switching my car and giving me a bump. We came first to Hawaii, and I fell in love with the harbor of Honolulu as we sailed in. Here, at last, I began to see the strange sights and hear the strange sounds I had been looking forward to ever since I left my wee hoose at Dunoon. Here was something that was different from anything that I had ever seen before. We did not stay so long. On the way home I was to stay over and give a performance in Honolulu, but not now. Our time was given up to sight seeing, and to meeting some of the folk of the islands. They ken hospitality! We made many new friends there, short as the time was. And, man ! The lassies ! You want to cuddle the first lassie you meet when you step ashore at Honolulu. But you don't — if the wife is there! It was only because I knew that we were to stop longer on the way back that I was willing to leave Honolulu at all. So we sailed on, toward Aus- tralia. And now I knew that my boy was about setting out on his great voyage around the world. Day by day I would get out the map, and try to prick the spot where he'd be. And I'd think: ''Aye! When I'm here John '11 be there ! Will he be nearer to me than nowT' Thinking of the braw laddie, setting out, so proud and happy, made me think of my ain young days. My father couldna' give me such a chance A MINSTREL IN FRANCE as my boy was to have. I'd worked in the mines before I was John's age. There 'd been no Cam- bridge for me — no trip around the world as a part of my education. And I thanked God that he was letting me do so much for my boy. Aye, and he deserved it, did John ! He 'd done well at Cambridge; he had taken honors there. And soon he was to go up to London to read for the Bar. He was to be a barrister, in wig and gown, my son, John! It was of him, and of the meeting we were all to have in Australia, that I thought, more than anything else, in the long, long days upon the sea. We sailed on from Honolulu until we came to Paga-Paga. So it is spelled, but all the natives call it Panga-Panga. Here I saw more and yet more of the strange and wonderful things I had thought upon so long back, in Dunoon. Here I saw mankind, for the first time, in a natural state. I saw men who wore only the figleaf of old Father Adam, and a people who lived from day to day, and whom the kindly earth sustained. They lived entirely from vegetables and from clear crystal streams and upon marvelous fish from the sea. Ah, how I longed to stay in Paga- Paga and be a natural man. But I must go on. Work called me back to civilization and sorrow- fully I heeded its call and waved good-by to the natural folk of Paga-Paga ! A MINSTREL IN FRANCE It was before I came to Paga-Paga that I wrote a little verse inspired by Honolulu. Perhaps, if I had gone first to Paga-Paga — don't forget to put in the n and call it Panga-Panga when you say it to yourself! — I might have written it of that happy island of the natural folk. But I did not, so here is the verse : I love you, Honolulu, Honolulu I love you! You are the Queen of the Sea! Your valleys and mountains Your palais and fountains Forever and ever will be dear to me! I wedded a simple melody to those simple, heart- felt lines, and since then I have sung the song in pretty nearly every part of the world — and in Honolulu itself. Our journey was drawing to its end. We were coming to a strange land indeed. And yet I knew there were Scots folk there — where in the world are there not? I thought they would be glad to see me, but how could I be sure? It was a far, far cry from Dunoon and the Clyde and the frost upon the heather on the day I had set out. We were to land at Sydney. I was a wee bit impatient after we had made our landfall, while the old Sonoma poked her way along. But she would not be hurried by my impatience. And at last we came to the Sydney Heads — the famous Harbor Heads. If you have never seen it I do A MINSTREL IN FRANCE not know how better to tell you of it than to say that it makes me think of the entrance to a great cave that has no roof. In we went — and were within that great, nearly landlocked harbor. And what goings on there were! The harbor was full of craft, both great and sma '. And each had all her bunting flying. Oh, they were braw in the sunlight, with the gay colors and the bits of flags, all fluttering and waving in the breeze! And what a din there was, with the shrieking of the whistle and the foghorns and the sirens and the clamor of bells. It took my breath away, and I wondered what was afoot. And on the shore I could see that thousands of people waited, all crowded together by the water side. There were flags flying, too, from all the buildings. *'It must be that the King is coming in on a visit — and I never to have heard of it!" I thought. And then they made me understand that it was all for me ! If there were tears in my eyes when they made me believe that, will you blame me? There was that great harbor, all alive with the welcome they made for me. And on the shore, they told me, a hundred thousand were waiting to greet me and bid me: *' Welcome, Harry!" The tramways had stopped running until they had done \vith their welcome to me. And all over the city, as we drove to our hotel, they roared 10 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE their welcome, and there were flags along the way. That was the proudest day I had ever known. But one thing made me wistful and wishful. I wanted my boy to be there with us. I wished he had seen how they had greeted his Dad. Nothing pleased him more than an honor that came to me. And here was an honor indeed — a reception the like of which I had never seen. CHAPTER II IT was on the twenty-ninth day of March, in that year of 1914 that dawned in peace and happiness and set in blood and death and bitter sorrow, that we landed in Sydney. Soon I went to work. Everywhere my audiences showed me that that great and wonderful recep- tion that had been given to me on the day we landed had been only an earnest of what was to come. They greeted me everywhere with cheers and tears, and everywhere we made new friends, and sometimes found old ones of whom we had not heard for years. And I was thinking all the time, now, of my boy. He was on his way. He was on the Pacific. He was coming to me, across the ocean, and I could smile as I thought of how this thing and that would strike him, and of the smile that would light up his face now and the look of joy that would come into his eyes at the sudden sighting of some beautiful spot. Oh, aye — those were happy days when each one brought my boy nearer to me. One day, I mind, the newspapers were full of the tale of a crime in an odd spot in Europe that none of us had ever heard of before. You mind the place? Serajevo! Aye — we all mind it now ! 11 12 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE But then we read, and wondered how that out- landish name might be pronounced. A foreigner was murdered — what if he was a prince, the Arch- duke of Austria? Need we fash ourselves about him? And so we read, and were sorry, a little, for the puir lady who sat beside the Archduke and was killed with him. And then we forgot it. All Australia did. There was no more in the news- papers. And my son John was coming — coming. Each day he was so many hundred miles nearer to me. And at last he came. We were in Mel- bourne then, it was near to the end of July. We had much to talk about — son, and his mother and I. It was long months since we had seen him, and we had seen and done so much. The time flew by. Maybe we did not read the papers so carefully as we might have done. They tell me, they have told me, since then, that in Europe and even in America, there was some warning after Austria moved on Serbia. But I believe that down there in Australia they did not dream of danger ; that they were far from under- standing the meaning of the news the papers did print. They were so far away! And then, you ken, it came upon us like a clap of thunder. One night it began. There was war in Europe — real war. Germany had attacked France and Russia. She was moving troops through Belgium. And every Briton knew what A MINSTREL IN FRANCE that must mean. Would Britain be drawn in I There was the question that was on every man's tongue. ''What do you think, son?" I asked John. "I think we'll go in," he said. ''And if we do, you know, Dad — they'll send for me to come home at once. I'm on leave from the summer training camp now to make this trip." My boy, two years before, had joined the Ter- ritorial army. He was a second lieutenant in a Territorial battalion of the Argyle and Suther- land Highlanders. It was much as if he had been an officer in a National Guard regiment in the United States. The territorial army was not bound to serve abroad — but who could doubt that it would, and gladly. As it did — to a man, to a man. But it was a shock to me when John said that. I had not thought that war, even if it came, could come home to us so close — and so soon. Yet so it was. The next day was the fourth of August — my birthday. And it was that day that Britain declared war upon Germany. We sat at lunch in the hotel at Melbourne when the news- boys began to cry the extras. And we were still at lunch when the hall porter came in from outside. "Lef tenant Lauder!" he called, over and over. John beckoned to him, and he handed my laddie a cablegram. 14. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE Just two words there were, that had come sing- ing along the wires half way around the world. "Mobilize. Eeturn." John's eyes were bright. They were shining. He was looking at us, but he was not seeing us. Those eyes of his were seeing distant things. My heart was sore within me, but I was proud and happy that it was such a son I had to give my country. "What do you think, Dad!" he asked me, when I had read the order. I think I was gruff because I dared not let him see how I felt. His mother was very pale. "This is no time for thinking, son," I said. "It is the time for action. You know your duty." He rose from the table, quickly. "I'm off!" he said. "Where?" I asked him. "To the ticket office to see about changing my berth. There's a steamer this week — maybe I can still find room aboard her." He was not long gone. He and his chum went down together and he came back smiling tri- umphantly. "It's all right. Dad," he told me. "I go to Adelaide by train and get the steamer there. I'll have time to see you and mother off — yiour steamer goes two hours before my train." We were going to New Zealand, And my boy was going home to fight for his country. They A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 15 would call me too old, I knew — I was forty-four the day Britain declared war. What a turmoil there was about us! So fast were things moving that there seemed no time for thought. John's mother and I could not realize the full meaning of all that was happening. But we knew that John was snatched away from us just after he had come, and it was hard — it was cruelly hard. But such thoughts were drowned in the great, surging excitement that was all about us. In Melbourne, and I believe it must have been much the same elsewhere in Australia, folks didn't know what they were to do, how they were to take this war that had come so suddenly upon them. And rumors and questions flew in all directions. Suppose the Germans came to Australia? Was there a chance of that? They had islands, naval bases, not so far away. They were Australia's neighbors. What of the German navy? Was it out? Were there scattered ships, here and there, that might swoop down upon Australia's shores and bring death and destruction with them? But even before we sailed, next day, I could see that order was coming out of that chaos. Every- where recruiting offices were opening, and men were flocking to them. No one dreamed, really, of a long war — though John laughed, sadly, when someone said it would be over in four months. But these Australians took no chances; they 16 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE would offer themselves first, and let it be decided later whether they were needed. So we sailed away. And when I took John's hand, and kissed him good-by, I saw him for the last time in his civilian clothes. "Well, son," I said, "you're going home to be a soldier, a fighting soldier. You will soon be com- manding men. Kemember that you can never ask a man to do something you would no dare to do yourself!" And, oh, the braw look in the eyes of the bonnie laddie as he tilted his chin up to me ! * ' I will remember. Dad ! " he said. And so long as a bit of the dock was in sight we could see him waving to us. We were not to see him again until the next January, at Bedford, in England, where he was training the raw men of his company. Those were the first days of war. The British navy was on guard. From every quarter the whimpering wireless brought news of this Ger- man warship and that. They were scattered far and wide, over the Seven Seas, you ken, when the war broke out. There was no time for them to make a home port. They had their choice, most of them, between being interned in some neutral port and setting out to do as much mischief as they could to British commerce before they were caught. Caught they were sure to be. They must have known it. And some there were to brave the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 17 issue and match themselves against England's great naval power. Perhaps they knew that few ports would long be neutral ! Maybe they knew of the abominable war the Hun was to wage. But I think it was not such men as those who chose to take their one chance in a thousand who were sent out, later, in their submarines, to send women and babies to their deaths with their torpedoes ! Be that as it may, we sailed away from Mel- bourne. But it was in Sydney Harbor that we anchored next — not in Wellington, as we, on the ship, all thought it would be ! And the reason was that the navy, getting word that the German cruiser Emden was loose and raiding, had ordered our captain to hug the shore, and to put in at Sydney until he was told it was safe to proceed. We were not much delayed, and came to Well- ington safely. New Zealand was all ablaze with the war spirit. There was no hesitation there. The New Zealand troops were mobilizing when we arrived, and every recruiting office was be- sieged with men. Splendid laddies they were, who looked as if they Avould give a great account of themselves. As they did — as they did. Their deeds at Gallipoli speak for them and will forever speak for them — the men of Australia and New Zealand. There the word Anzac was made — ^made from the first letters of these words: Australian New 18 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE Zealand Army Corps. It is a word that will never die. Even in the midst of war they had time to give me a welcome that warmed my heart. And there were pipers with them, too, skirling a tune as I stepped ashore. There were tears in my eyes again, as there had been at Sydney. Every laddie in uniform made me think of my own boy, well off, by now, on his way home to Britain and the duty that had called him. They were gathering, all over the Empire, those of British blood. They were answering the call old Britain had sent across the seven seas to the far corners of the earth. Even as the Scottish clans gathered of old the greater British clans were gathering now. It was a great thing to see that in the beginning ; it has comforted me many a time since, in a black hour, when news was bad and the Hun was thundering at the line that was so thinly held in France. Here were free peoples, not held, not bound, free to choose their way. Britain could not make their sons come to her aid. If they came they must come freely, joyously, knowing that it was a right cause, a holy cause, a good cause, that called them. I think of the way they came — of the way I saw them rising to the summons, in New Zea- land, in Australia, later in Canada. Aye, and I saw more — I saw Americans slipping across the border, putting on Britain's khaki there in A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 19 Canada, because they knew that it was the fight of humanity, of freedom, that they were entering. And that, too, gave me comfort later in dark times, for it made me know that when the right time came America would take her place beside old Britain and brave France. New Zealand is a bonnie land. It made me think, sometimes, of the Hielands of Scotland. A bonnie land, and braw are its people. They made me happy there, and they made much of me. At Christchurch they did a strange thing. They were selling off, at auction, a Union Jack — the flag of Britain. Such a thing had never been done before, or thought of. But here was a reason and a good one. Money was needed for the laddies who were going — needed for all sorts of things. To buy them small comforts, and tobacco, and such things as the government might not be sup- plying them. And so they asked me to be their auctioneer. I played a fine trick upon them there in Christ- church. But I was not ashamed of myself, and I think they have forgi'en me — those good bodies at Christchurch! Here was the way of it. I w^as auctioneer, you ken — but that was not enough to keep me from bidding myself. And so I worked them up and on — and then I bid in the flag for myself for a hundred pounds — five hundred dollars of Ameri- can money. 20 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE I had my doots about how they'd be taking it to have a stranger carry their flag away. And so I bided a wee. I stayed that night in Christ- church, and was to stay longer. I could wait. Above yon town of Christchurch stretch the Merino Hills. On them graze sheep by the thou- sand — and it is from those sheep that the true Merino wool comes. And in the gutters of Christ- church there flows, all day long, a stream of water as clear and pure as ever you might hope to see. And it should be so, for it is from artesian wells that it is pumped. Aweel, I bided that night and by next day they were murmuring in the town, and their murmurs came to me. They thought it wasna richt for a Scotsman to be carrying off their flag — though he'd bought it and paid for it. And so at last they came to me, and wanted to be buying back the flag. And I was agreeable. "X Aye— I'll sell it back to ye!" I told them. "But at a price, ye ken — at a price! Pay me twice what I paid for it and it shall be yours ! ' ' There was a Scots bargain for you ! They must have thought me mean and grasping that day. But out they went. They worked for the money. It was but just a month after war had been de- clared, and money was still scarce and shy of peeping out and showing itself. But, bit by bit, they got the siller. A shilling at a time they A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 21 raised, by subscription. But they got it all, and brought it to me, smiling the while. "Here, Harry — here's your money!" they said. *'Now give us back our flag!" Back to them I gave it — and with it the money they had brought, to be added to the fund for the soldier boys. And so that one flag brought three hundred pounds sterling to the soldiers. I wonder did those folk at Christchurch think I would keep the money and make a profit on that flag? Had it been another time I'd have stayed in New Zealand gladly a long time. It was a friendly place, and it gave us many a new friend. But home was calling me. There was more than the homebound tour that had been planned and laid out for me. I did not know how soon my boy might be going to France. And his mother and I wanted to see him again before he went, and to be as near him as might be. So I was glad as well as sorry to sail away from New Zealand's friendly shores, to the strains of pipers softly skirling: ''Will ye no come back again?" We sailed for Sydney on the Minnehaha, a fast boat. We were glad of her speed a day or so out, for there was smoke on the horizon that gave some anxious hours to our officers. Some thought the German raider Emden was under that smoke. And it would not have been surprising had a raider turned up in our path. For just before we 22 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE sailed it had been discovered that the man in charge of the principal wireless station in New Zealand was a German, and he had been interned. Had he sent word to German warships of the plans and movements of British ships? No one could prove it, so he was only interned. Back we went to Sydney. A great change had come since our departure. The war ruled all deed and thought. Australia was bound now to do her part. No less faithfully and splendidly than New Zealand was she engaged upon the enterprise the Hun had thrust upon the world. Everyone was eager for news, but it was woefully scarce. Those were the black, early days, when the German rush upon Paris was being stayed, after the disasters of the first fortnight of the war, at the Marne. Everywhere, though there was no lack of de- termination to see the war through to a finish, no matter how remote that might be, the feeling was that this war was too huge, too vast, to last long. Exhaustion would end it. War upon the modern scale could not last. So they said — in Septem- ber, 1914! So many of us believed — and this is the spring of the fourth year of the war, and the end is not yet, is not in sight, I fear. Sydney turned out, almost as magnificently as when I had first landed upon Australian soil, to bid me farewell. And we embarked again upon that same old Sonoma that had brought us to Australia. Again I saw Paga-Paga and the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE gS natural folk, who had no need to toil nor spin to live upon the fat of the land and be arrayed in the garments that were always up to the minute in style. Again I saw Honolulu, and, this time, stayed longer, and gave a performance. But, though we were there longer, it was not long enough to make me yield to that temptation to cuddle one of the brown lassies! Aweel, I was not so young as I had been, and Mrs. Lauder — you ken that she was travelling with me ? In the harbor of Honolulu there was a German gunboat, the Geier, that had run there for shelter not long since, and had still left a day or two, under the orders from Washington, to decide whether she would let herself be interned or not. And outside, beyond the three mile limit that marked the end of American territorial waters, were two good reasons to make the German think well of being interned. They were two cruisers, squat and ugly and vicious in their gray war paint, that watched the entrance to the harbor as you have seen a cat watching a rat hole. It was not Britain's white ensign that they flew, those cruisers. It was the red sun flag of Japan, one of Britain's allies against the Hun. They had their vigil in vain, did those two cruisers. It was valor's better part, discretion, that the German captain chose. Aweel, you could no blame him I He and his ship would have been blown out of the 24 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE water so soon as she poked her nose beyond American waters, had he chosen to go out and fight. I was glad indeed when we came in sight of the Golden Gate once more, and when we were safe ashore in San Francisco. It had been a nerve- racking voyage in many ways. My wife and I were torn with anxiety about our boy. And there were German raiders loose; one or two had, so far, eluded the cordon the British fleet had flung about the world. One night, soon after we left Honolulu, we were stopped. We thought it was a British cruiser that stopped us, but she would only ask questions — answering those we asked was not for her ! But we were ashore at last. There remained only the trip across the United States to New York and the voyage across the Atlantic home. CHAPTER III NOW indeed we began to get real news of the war. We heard of how that little British army had flung itself into the maw of the Hun. I came to know something of the glories of the retreat from Mons, and of how French and British had turned together at the Marne and had saved Paris. But, alas, I heard too of how many brave men had died — had been sacrificed, many and many a man of them, to the failure of Britain to prepare. That was past and done. What had been wrong was being mended now. Better, indeed — ah, a thousand times better! — had Britain given heed to Lord Roberts, when he preached the gospel of readiness and prayed his countrymen to prepare for the war that he in his wisdom had foreseen. But it was easier now to look into the future. I could see, as all the world was beginning to see, that this war was not like other wars. Lord Kitchener had said that Britain must make ready for a three year war, and I, for one, believed him when others scoffed, and said he was talking so to make the recruits for his armies come faster- to the colors. I could see that this war might last 25 26 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE for years. And it was then, back in 1914, in the first winter of the war, that I began to warn my friends in America that they might well expect the Hnn to drag them into the war before its end. And I made up my mind that I must beg Ameri- cans who would listen to me to prepare. So, all the way across the continent, I spoke, in every town we visited, on that subject of prepar- edness. I had seen Britain, living in just such a blissful anticipation of eternal peace as America then dreamed of. I had heard, for years, every attempt that was made to induce Britain to in- crease her army met with the one, unvarying reply. **We have our fleet!" That was the answer that was made. And, be it remembered, that at sea, Britain was prepared! ''We have our fleet. We need no army. If there is a Continental war, we may not be drawn in at all. Even if we are, they can't reach us. The fleet is between us and invasion." ''But," said the advocates of preparedness, "we might have to send an expeditionary force. If France were attacked, we should have to help her on land as well as at sea. And we have sent armies to the continent before." "Yes," the other would reply. "We have an expeditionary force. We can send more than a hundred thousand men across the channel at short notice — the shortest. And we can train more men A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 27 here, at home, in case of need. The fleet makes that possible." Aye, the fleet made that possible. The world may well thank God for the British fleet. I do not know, and I do not like to think, what might have come about save for the British fleet. But I do know what came to that expeditionary force that we sent across the channel quickly, to the help of our sore stricken ally, France. How many of that old British army still survive? They gave themselves utterly. They were the pick and the flower of our trained manhood. They should have trained the millions who were to rise at Kitchener's call. But they could not be held back. They are gone. Others have risen up to take their places — ten for one — a hundred for one! But had they been ready at the start! The bonnie laddies who would be living now, in- stead of lying in an unmarked grave in France or Flanders! The women whose eyes would never have been reddened by their weeping as they mourned a son or a brother or a husband! So I was thinking as I set out to talk to my American friends and beg them to prepare — pre- pare! I did not want to see this country share the experience of Britain. If she needs must be drawn into the war — and so I believed, pro- foundly, from the time when I first learned the true measure of the Hun — I hoped that she might be ready when she drew her mighty sword. 28 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE They thought I was mad, at first, many of those to whom I talked. They were so far away from the war. And already the propaganda of the Ger- mans was at work. Aye, they thought I was rav- ing when I told them I'd stake my word on it. America would never be able to stay out until the end. They listened to me. They were willing to do that. But they listened, doubtingly. I think I convinced few of ought save that I believed myself what I was saying. I could tell them, do you ken, that I'd thought, at first, as they did! Why, over yon, in Aus- tralia, when I'd first heard that the Germans were attacking France, I was sorry, for France is a bonnie land. But the idea that Britain might go in I, even then, had laughed at. And then Britain had gone in ! My own boy had gone to the war. For all I knew I might be reading of him, any day, when I read of a charge or a fight over there in France ! Anything was possible — aye, probable ! I have never called myself a prophet. But then, I think, I had something of a prophet's vi- sion. And all the time I was struggling with my growing belief that this was to be a long war, and a merciless war. I did not want to believe some of the things I knew I must believe. But every day came news that made conviction sink in deeper and yet deeper. It was not a happy trip, that one across the United States. Our friends did all they could to A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 29 make it so, but we were consumed by too many anxieties and cares. How different was it from my journey westward — only nine months earlier ! The world had changed forever in those nine months. Everjrwhere I spoke for preparedness. I ad- dressed the Rotary Clubs, and great audiences turned out to listen to me. I am a Eotarian myself, and I am proud indeed that I may so pro- claim myself. It is a great organization. Those who came to hear me were cordial, nearly always. But once or twice I met hostility, veiled but not to be mistaken. And it was easy to trace it to its source. Germans, who loved the country they had left behind them to come to a New World that offered them a better home and a richer life than they could ever have aspired to at home, were often at the bottom of the opposition to Avhat I had to say. They did not want America to prepare, lest her weight be flung into the scale against Germany. And there were those who hated Britain. Some of these remembered old wars and grudges that sensible folk had forgotten long since; others, it may be, had other motives. But there was little real opposition to what I had to say. It was more a good natured scoffing, and a feeling that I was cracked a wee bit, perhaps, about the war. I was not sorry to see New York again. We stayed there but one day, and then sailed for home 30 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE on the Cunarder Orduna — which has since been sunk, like many another good ship, by the Hun submarines. But those were the days just before the Hun began his career of real frightfulness upon the sea — and under it. Even the Hun came gradually to the height of his powers in this war. It was not until some weeks later that he startled the world by proclaiming that every ship that dared to cross a certain zone of the sea would be sunk without warning. When we sailed upon the old Orduna we had anxieties, to be sure. The danger of striking a mine was never absent, once we neared the British coasts. There was always the chance, we knew, that some German raider might have slipped through the cordon in the North Sea. But the terrors that were to follow the crime of the Lusitania still lay in the future. They were among the things no man could foresee. The Orduna brought us safe to the Mersey and we landed at Liverpool. Even had there been no thought of danger to the ship, that voyage would have been a hard one for us to endure. We never ceased thinking of John, longing for him and news of him. It was near Christmas, but we had small hope that we should be able to see him on that day. All through the voyage we were shut away from all news. The wireless is silenced in time of war, A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 31 save for such work as the govenunent allows. There is none of the free sending, from shore to ship, and ship to ship, of all the news of the world, such as one grows to welcome in time of peace. And so, from New York until we neared the Brit- ish coast, we brooded, all of us. How fared it with Britain in the war? Had the Hun launched some new and terrible attack? But two days out from home we saw a sight to make us glad and end our brooding for a space. ''Eh, Harry — come and look yon!" someone called to me. It was early in the morning, and there was a mist about us. I went to the rail and looked in the direction I was told. And there, rising suddenly out of the mist, shattering it, I saw great, gray ships — war- ships — British battleships and cruisers. There they were, some of the great ships that are the steel wall around Britain that holds her safe. My heart leaped with joy and pride at the sight of them, those great, gray guardians of the British shores, bulwarks of steel that fend all foemen from the rugged coast and the fair land that lies behind it. Now we were safe, ourselves ! Who would not trust the British navy, after the great deeds it has done in this war? For there, mind you, is the one force that has never failed. The British navy has done what it set out to do. It has kept command of the seas. The submarines? The tin fish? S2 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE They do not command the sea ! Have they kept Canada's men, and America's, from reaching France? When we landed my first inquiry was for my son John. He was well, and he was still in Eng- land, in training at Bedford with his regiment, the Argyle and Sutherland Highlanders. But it was as we had feared. Our Christmas must be kept apart. And so the day before Christmas found us back in our wee hoose on the Clyde, at Dunoon. But we thought of little else but the laddie who was making ready to fight for us, and of the day, that was coming soon, when we should see him. CHAPTER IV; IT was a fitting place to train men for war, Bed- ford, where John was with his regiment, and where his mother and I went to see him so soon as we could after Christmas. It is in the Brit- ish midlands, but before the factory towns begin. It is a pleasant, smiling country, farming country, mostly, with good roads, and fields that gave the boys chances to learn the work of digging trenches — aye, and living in them afterward. Bedford is one of the great school towns of England. Low, rolling hills lie about it ; the river Ouse, a wee, quiet stream, runs through it. Schooling must be in the air of Bedford ! Three great schools for boys are there, and two for girls. And Liberty is in the air of Bedford, too, I think! John Bunyan was born two miles from Bedford, and his old house still stands in Elstow, a little village of old houses and great oaks. And it was in Bedford Jail that Bunyan was impris- oned because he would fight for the freedom of his own soul. John was waiting to greet us, and he looked great. He had two stars now where he had one before — ^he had been promoted to first lieutenant. There were curious changes in the laddie I re- 33 34 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE membered. He was bigger, I thought, and he looked older, and graver. But that I could not wonder at. He had a great responsibility. The lives of other men had been entrusted to him, and John was not the man to take a responsibility like that lightly. I saw him the first day I was at Bedford, lead- ing some of his men in a practice charge. Big, braw laddies they were — all in their kilts. He ran ahead of them, smiling as he saw me watching them, but turning back to cheer them on if he thought they were not fast enough. I could see as I watched him that he had caught the habit of command. He was going to be a good officer. It was a proud thought for me, and again I was re- joiced that it was such a son that I was able to offer to my country. They were kept busy at that training camp. Men were needed sore in France. Recruits were going over every day. What the retreat from Mons and the Battle of the Marne had left of that first heroic expeditionary force the first battle of Ypres had come close to wiping out. In the Ypres salient our men out there were hanging on like grim death. There was no time to spare at Bedford, where men were being made ready as quickly as might be to take their turn in the trenches. But there was a little time when John and I could talk. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 35 ^'Wliat do you need most, son!" I asked him. ''Men!" he cried. "Men, Dad, men! They're coming in quickly. Oh, Britain has answered nobly to the call. But they're not coming in fast enough. We must have more men — more men!" I had thought, when I asked my question, of something John might be needing for himself, or for his men, mayhap. But when he answered me so I said nothing. I only began to think. I wanted to go myself. But I knew they would not have me — yet awhile, at any rate. And still I felt that I must do something. I could not rest idle while all around me men were giving themselves and all they had and were. Everywhere I heard the same cry that John had raised : **Men! Give us men!'* It came from Lord Kitchener. It came from the men in command in France and Belgium — that little strip of Belgium the Hun had not been able to conquer. It came from every broken, maimed man who came back home to Britain to be patched up that he might go out again. There were scores of thousands of men in Britain who needed only the last quick shove to send them across the line of enlistment. And after I had thought a while I hit upon a plan. "What stirs a man's fighting spirit quicker or 36 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE better than the right sort of music!" I asked myself. " And what sort of music does it best of alll" There can be only one answer to that last ques- tion! And so I organized my recruiting band, that was to be famous all over Britain before so very long. I gathered fourteen of the best pipers and drummers I could find in all Scotland. I equipped them, gave them the Highland uniform, and sent them out, to travel over Britain skirling and drumming the wail of war through the length and breadth of the land. They were to go everywhere, carrying the shrieking of the pipes into the highways and the byways, and so they did. And I paid the bills. That was the first of many recruiting bands that toured Britain. Because it was the first, and because of the way the pipers skirled out the old hill melodies and songs of Scotland, enormous crowds followed my band. And it led them straight to the recruiting stations. There was a swing and a sway about those old tunes that the young fellows couldn't resist. The pipers would begin to skirl and the drums to beat in a square, maybe, or near the railway station. And every time the skirling of the pipes would bring the crowd. Then the pipers would march, when the crowd was big enough, and lead the way always to the recruiting place. And once they were there the young fellows who weren't A MINSTREL IN FRANCE S7 '■ ' quite ready to decide ' ' and the others who were just plain slackers, willing to let better men die for them, found it mighty hard to keep from going on the wee rest of the way that the pipers had left them to make alone ! It was wonderful work my band did, and when the returns came to me I felt like the Pied Piper ! Yes I did, indeed ! I did not travel with my band. That would have been a waste of effort. There was work for both of us to do, separately. I was booked for a tour of Britain, and everywhere I went I spoke, and urged the young men to enlist. I made as many speeches as I could, in every town and city that I visited, and I made special trips to many. I thought, and there were those who agreed with me, that I could, it might be, reach audiences another speaker, better trained than I, no doubt, in this sort of work, would not touch. So there was I, without official standing, going about, urging every man who could to don khaki. I talked Avherever and whenever I could get an audience together, and I began then the habit of making speeches in the theatres, after my per- formance, that I have not yet given up. I talked thus to the young men. **If you don't do your duty now," I told them, **you may live to be old men. But even if you do, you will regret it ! Yours will be a sorrowful 38 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE old age. In the years to come, mayhap, there'll be a wee grandchild nestling on your knee that'll circle its little arms about your neck and look into your wrinkled face, and ask you : ** 'How old are you, Grandpa? You're a very old man.' ''How will you answer that bairn's question!" So I asked the young men. And then I an- swered for them: "I don't know how old I am, but I am so old that I can remember the great war." *'And then" — I told them, the young men who were wavering — "and then will come the ques- tion that you will always have to dread — when you have won through to the old age that may be yours in safety if you shirk now ! For the bairn wiU ask you, straightaway: 'Did you fight in the great war, Grandpa ? "What did you do ? ' "God help the man," I told them, "who cannot hand it down as a heritage to his children and his children's children that he fought in the great war!" I must have impressed many a brave lad who wanted only a bit of resolution to make him do his duty. They tell me that I and my band together influenced more than twelve thousand men to join the colors ; they give me credit for that many, in one way and another. I am proud of that. But I am prouder still of the way the boys who en- listed upon my urging feel. Never a one has up- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 39 braided me ; never a one has told me he was sorry he had heard me and been led to go. It is far otherwise. The laddies who went be- cause of me called me their godfather, many of them ! Many 's the letter I have had from them ; many the one who has greeted me, as I was pass- ing through a hospital, or, long afterward, when I made my first tour in France, behind the front line trenches. Many letters, did I say? I have had hundreds — thousands! And not so much as a word of regret in any one of them. It was not only in Britain that I influenced enlistments. I preached the cause of the Empire in Canada, later. And here is a bit of verse that a Canadian sergeant sent to me. He dedicated it to me, indeed, and I am proud and glad that he did. ''ONE OF THE BOYS WHO WENT" Say, here now, Mate, Don't you figure it's great To think when this war is all over; When we're through with this mud, And spilling o' blood, And we're shipped back again to old Dover. When they've paid us our tin, And we've blown the lot in, And our last penny is spent ; ,We'll still have a thought — If it's all that we've got — I'm one of the boys who went! 40 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE And perhaps later on ^hen your wild days are gone, You'll be settling down for life. You've a girl in your eye Xou'll ask bye and bye To share up with you as your wife. When a few years have flown, And you've kids of your own, And you're feeling quite snug and content; It'll make your heart glad When they boast of their dad As one of the boys who went ! There was much work for me to do beside my share in the campaign to increase enlistments. Every day now the wards of the hospitals were filling up. Men suffering from frightful wounds came back to be mended and made as near whole as might be. And among them there was work for me, if ever the world held work for any man. I did not wait to begin my work in the hospitals. Every^vhere I went, where there were wounded men, I sang for those who were strong enough to be allowed to listen, and told them stories, and did all I could to cheer them up. It was heartrend- ing work, oftentimes. There were dour sights, dreadful sights in those hospitals. There were wounds the memory of which robbed me of sleep. There were men doomed to blindness for the rest of their lives. But over all there was a spirit that never lagged A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 41 or faltered, and that strengthened me when I thought some sight was more than I could bear. It was the spirit of the British soldier, triumphant over suffering and cruel disfigurement, with his inevitable answer to any question as to how he was getting on. I never heard that answer varied when a man could speak at all. Always it was the same. Two words were enough. ''AH right!" CHAPTER V AS I went about the country now, working hard to recruit men, to induce people to subscribe to the war loan, doing all the things in which I saw a chance to make myself useful, there was now an ever present thought. When would John go out? He must go soon. I knew that, so did his mother. We had learned that he would not be sent without a chance to bid us good-by. There we were better off than many a father and mother in the early days of the war. Many's the mother who learned first that her lad had gone to France when they told her he was dead. And many's the lassie who learned in the same way that her lover would never come home to be her husband. But by now Britain was settled down to war. It was as if war were the natural state of things, and everything was adjusted to war and those who must fight it. And many things were ordered better and more mercifully than they had been at first. It was in April that word came to us. We might see John again, his mother and I, if we hurried to Bedford. And so we did. For once I heeded no other call. It was a sad journey, but 42 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 43 I was proud and glad as well as sorry. John must do his share. There was no reason why my son should take fewer risks than another man's. That was something all Britain was learning in those days. We were one people. We must fight as one; one for all — all for one. John was sober when he met us. Sober, aye! But what a light there was in his eyes ! He was eager to be at the Huns. Tales of their doings were coming back to us now, faster and faster. They were tales to shock me. But they were tales, too, to whet the courage and sharpen the steel of every man who could fight and meant to go. It was John's turn to go. So it was he felt. And so it was his mother and I bid him farewell, there at Bedford. We did not know whether we would ever see him again, the bonnie laddie ! We had to bid him good-by, lest it be our last chance. For in Britain we knew, by then, what were the chances they took, those boys of ours who went out. ''Good-by, son — good luck!" ' ' Good-by, Dad. See you when I get leave ! ' ' That was all. We were not allowed to know more than that he was ordered to France. Whereabouts in the long trench line he would be sent we were not told. "Somewhere in France." That phrase, that had been dinned so often into our ears, had a meaning for us now. And now, indeed, our days and nights were 44? A MINSTREL IN FRANCE anxious ones. The war was in our house as it had never been before. I could think of nothing but my boy. And yet, all the time I had to go on. I had to carry on, as John was always bidding his men do. I had to appear daily before my audiences, and laugh and sing, that I might make them laugh, and so be better able to do their part. They had made me understand, my friends, by that time, that it was really right for me to carry on with my own work. I had not thought so at first. I had felt that it was wrong for me to be singing at such a time. But they showed me that I was influencing thousands to do their duty, in one way or another, and that I was helping to keep up the spirit of Britain, too. "Never forget the part that plays, Harry," my friends told me. "That's the thing the Hun can't understand. He thought the British would be poor fighters because they went into action mth a laugh. But that's the thing that makes them invincible. You 've your part to do in keeping up that spirit." So I went on but it was with a heavy heart, oftentimes. John's letters were not what made my heart heavy. There was good cheer in every- one of them. He told us as much as the censor's rules would let him of the front, and of conditions as he found them. They were still bad — cruelly bad. But there was no word of complaint from John. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 45 The Germans still had the best of us in guns in those days, although we were beginning to catch up with them. And they knew more about making themselves comfortable in the trenches than did our boys. No wonder ! They spent years of plan- ning and making ready for this war. And it has not taken us so long, all things considered, to catch up with them. John's letters were cheery and they came regu- larly, too, for a time. But I suppose it was be- cause they left out so much, because there was so great a part of my boy's life that was hidden from me, that I found myself thinking more and more of John as a wee bairn and as a lad growing up. He was a real boy. He had the real boy 's spirit of fun and mischief. There was a story I had often told of him that came to my mind now. We were living in Glasgow. One drizzly day, Mrs. Lauder kept John in the house, and he spent the time standing at the parlor window looking down on the street, apparently innocently interested in the passing traffic. In Glasgow it is the custom for the coal dealers to go along the streets with their lorries, crying their wares, much after the manner of a vegetable peddler in America. If a housewife wants any coal, she goes to the window when she hears the hail of the coal man, and holds up a finger, or two fingers, according to the number of sacks of coal she wants. 46 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE To Mrs. Lauder's surprise, and finally to her great vexation, coal men came tramping up our stairs every few minutes all afternoon, each one staggering under the weight of a hundredweight sack of coal. She had ordered no coal and she wanted no coal, but still the coal men came — a veritable pest of them. They kept coming, too, until she discovered that little John was the author of their grimy pil- grimages to our door. He was signalling every passing lorrie from the window in the Glasgow coal code ! I watched him from that window another day when he was quarreling with a number of play- mates in the street below. The quarrel finally ended in a fight. John was giving one lad a pretty good pegging, when the others decided that the battle was too much his way, and jumped on him. John promptly executed a strategic retreat. He retreated with considerable speed, too. I saw him running ; I heard the patter of his feet on our stairs, and a banging at our door. I opened it and admitted a flushed, disheveled little warrior, and I heard the other boys shouting up the stairs what they would do to him. By the time I got the door closed, and got back to our little parlor, John was standing at the window, giving a marvelous pantomime for the benefit of his enemies in the street. He was put- ting his small, clenched fist now to his nose, and A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 47 now to his jaw, to indicate to the youngsters what he was going to do to them later on. Those, and a hundred other little incidents, were as fresh in my memory as if they had only occurred yesterday. His mother and I recalled them over and over again. From the day John was born, it seems to me the only things that really interested me were the things in which he was concerned. I used to tuck him in his crib at night. The affairs of his babyhood were far more important to me than my own personal affairs. I watched him grow and develop with enormous pride, and he took great pride in me. That to me was far sweeter than praise from crowned heads. Soon he was my constant companion. He was my business confidant. More — he was my most inti- mate friend. There were no secrets between us. I think that John and I talked of things that few fathers and sons have the courage to discuss. He never feared to ask my advice on any subject, and I never feared to give it to him. I wish you could have known my son as he was to me. I wish all fathers could know their sons as I knew John. He was the most brilliant con- versationalist I have ever known. He was my ideal musician. He took up music only as an accomplishment, however. He did not want to be a performer, although he had amazing natural talent in that 48 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE direction. Music was bom in him. He could transpose a melody in any key. You could whistle an air for him, and he could turn it into a little opera at once. However, he was anxious to make for himself in some other line of endeavor, and while he was often my piano accompanist, he never had any intention of going on the stage. When he was fifteen years old, I was com- manded to appear before King Edward, who was a guest at Rufford Abbey, the seat of Lord and Lady Sayville, situated in a district called the Dukeries, and I took John as my accompanist. I gave my usual performance, and while I was making my changes, John played the piano. At the close. King Edward sent for me, and thanked me. It was a proud moment for me, but a prouder moment came when the King spoke of John's playing, and thanked him for his part in the enter- tainment. There were curious contradictions, it often seemed to me, in John. His uncle, Tom Vallance, was in his day, one of the very greatest football players in Scotland. But John never greatly liked the game. He thought it was too rough. He thought any game was a poor game in which players were likely to be hurt. And yet — he had been eager for the rough game of war! The roughest game of all ! Ah, but that was not a game to him! He was A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 49 not one of those who went to war with a light heart, as they might have entered upon a football match. All honor to those who went into the war 60 — they played a great part and a noble part! But there were more who went to war as my boy did — taking it upon themselves as a duty and a solemn obligation. They had no illusions. They did not love war. No ! John hated war, and the black ugly horrors of it. But there were things he hated more than he hated war. And one was a peace won through submission to in- justice. Have I told you how my boy looked? He was slender, but he was strong and wiry. He was about five feet five inches tall ; he topped his Dad by a handspan. And he was the neatest boy you might ever have hoped to see. Aye — but he did not inherit that from me ! Indeed, he used to re- proach me, oftentimes, for being careless about my clothes. My collar would be loose, perhaps, or my waistcoat would not fit just so. He 'd not like that, and he would tell me so ! When he did that I would tell him of times when he was a wee boy, and would come in from play with a dirty face; how his mother would order him to wash, and how he would painstakingly mop off just enough of his features to leave a dark ring abaft his cheeks, and above his eyes, and below his chin. **You wash your face, but never let on to your 60 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE neck," I would tell him when he was a wee laddie. He had a habit then of parting and brushing about an inch of his hair, leaving the rest all topsy-turvy. My recollection of that boyhood habit served me as a defense in later years when he would call my attention to my own disordered hair. I linger long, and I linger lovingly over these small details, because they are part of my daily thoughts. Every day some little incident comes up to remind me of my boy. A battered old hamper, in which I carry my different character make-ups, stands in my dressing room. It was John's favorite seat. Every time I look at it I have a vision of a tiny wide-eyed boy perched on the lid, watching me make ready for the stage. A lump rises, unbidden, in my throat. In all his life, I never had to admonish my son once. Not once. He was the most considerate lad I have ever known. He was always thinking of others. He was always doing for others. It was with such thoughts as these that John's mother and I filled in the time between his letters. They came as if by a schedule. "We knew what post should bring one. And once or twice a letter was a post late and our hearts were in our throats with fear. And then came a day when there should have been a letter, and none came. The whole day passed. I tried to comfort John's mother! I tried to believe myself that it was no A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 51 more than a mischance of the post. But it was not that. We could do nought but wait. Ah, but the folks at home in Britain know all too well those sinister breaks in the chains of letters from the front! Such a break may mean nothing or anything. For us, news came quickly. But it was not a letter from John that came to us. It was a tele- gram from the war office and it told us no more than that our boy was wounded and in hospital. CHAPTER VI WOUNDED and in hospital!'' That might have meant anything. And for a whole week that was all we knew. To hope for word more definite until — and unless — John himself could send us a message, appeared to be hopeless. Every effort we made ended in failure. And, indeed, at such a time, private in- quiries could not well be made. The messages that had to do with the war and with the business of the armies had to be dealt with first. But at last, after a week in which his mother and I almost went mad with anxiety, there came a note from our laddie himself. He told us not to fret — that all that ailed him was that his nose w^as split and his wrist bashed up a bit! His mother looked at me and I at her. It seemed bad enough to us ! But he made light of his wounds — aye, and he was right ! When I thought of men I'd seen in hospitals — men with wounds so fright- ful that they may not be told of — I rejoiced that John had fared so well. And I hoped, too, that his wounds would bring him home to us — to Blighty, as the Tommies were 52 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 68 beginning to call Britain. But his wounds were not serious enough for that and so soon as they were healed, he went back to the trenches. * * Don 't worry about me, ' ' he wrote to us. ' ' Lots of fellows out here have been wounded five and six times, and don't think anything of it. I'll be all right so long as I don't get knocked out." He didn't tell us then that it was the bursting of a shell that gave him his first wounded stripe. But he wrote to us regularly again, and there were scarcely any days in which a letter did not come either to me or to his mother. When one of those breaks did come it was doubly hard to bear now. For now we knew what it was to dread the sight of a telegraph messenger. Few homes in Britain there are that do not share that knowledge now. It is by telegraph, from the war office, that bad news comes first. And so, with the memory of that first telegram that we had had, matters were even worse, somehow, than they had been before. For me the days and nights dragged by as if they would never pass. There was more news in John's letters now. "We took some comfort from that. I remember one in which he told his mother how good a bed he had finally made for himself the night before. For some reason he was without quarters — either a billet or a dug-out. He had to skirmish around, 54> A MINSTREL IN FRANCE for he did not care to sleep simply in Flanders mud. But at last he found two handfuls of straw, and with them made his couch. ''I got a good two hours' sleep," he wrote to his mother. ''And I was perfectly comfortable. I can tell you one thing, too, Mother. If I ever get home after this experience, there'll be one in the house who'll never grumble! This business puts the grumbling out of your head. This is where the men are. This is where every man ought to be. ' ' In another letter he told us that nine of his men had been killed. ''We buried them last night," he wrote, "just as the sun went down. It was the first funeral I have ever attended. It was most impressive. We carried the boys to one huge grave. The padre said a prayer, and we lowered the boys into the ground, and we all sang a little hymn: 'Peace, Perfect Peace ! ' Then I called my men to atten- tion again, and we marched straight back into the trenches, each of us, I dare say, wondering who would be the next." John was promoted for the second time in Flanders, He was a captain, having got his step on the field of battle. Promotion came swiftly in those days to those who proved themselves worthy. And all of the few reports that came to us of John showed us that he was a good officer. His men liked him, and trusted him, and would follow A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 55 him anywhere. And little more than that can be said of any officer. While Captain John Lauder was playing his part across the Channel, I was still trying to do what I could at home. My band still travelled up and down, the length and width of the United Kingdom, skirling and drumming and drawing men by the score to the recruiting office. There was no more talk now of a short war. We knew what we were in for now. But there was no thought or talk of anything save victory. Let the war go on as long as it must — it could end only in one way. We had been forced into the fight — but we were in, and we were in to stay. John, writing from France, was no more determined than those at home. It was not very long before there came again a break in John's letters. We were used to the days — far apart — that brought no word. Not until the second day and the third day passed without a word, did Mrs. Lauder and I confess our terrors and our anxiety to ourselves and one another. This time our suspense was compara- tively short-lived. Word came that John was in hospital again — at the Duke of Westminster's hospital at Le Toquet, in France. This time he was not wounded; he was suffering from dysen- tery, fever and — a nervous breakdown. That was what staggered his mother and me. A nerv- ous breakdown ! We could not reconcile the John 56 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE we knew with the idea that the words conveyed to us. He had been high strung, to be sure, and sen- sitive. But never had he been the sort of boy of whom to expect a breakdown so severe as this must be if they had sent him to the hospital. We could only wait to hear from him, however. And it was several weeks before he was strong enough to be able to write to us. There was no hint of discouragement in what he wrote then. On the contrary, he kept on trying to reassure us, and if he ever grew downhearted, he made it his business to see that we did not suspect it. Here is one of his letters — like most of them it was not about himself. "I had a sad experience yesterday,'' he wrote to me. '^It was the first day I was able to be out of bed, and I went over to a piano in a cor- ner against the wall, sat down, and began playing very softly, more to myself than any- thing else. * ' One of the nurses came to me, and said a Cap- tain Webster, of the Gordon Highlanders, who lay on a bed in the same ward, wanted to speak to me. She said he had asked who was playing, and she had told him Captain Lauder — Harry Lauder's son. *0h,' he said, *I know Harry Lauder very well. Ask Captain Lauder to come here?' * ' This man had gone through ten operations in less than a week. I thought perhaps my playing " ' Carry On ! ' were the last words of my boy, Captain John Lauder, to his men, but he would mean them for me, too." A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 57 had disturbed Mm, but when I went to his bed- side, he grasped my hand, pressed it with what little strength he had left, and thanked me. He asked me if I could play a hymn. He said he would like to hear 'Lead, Kindly Light.' "So I went back to the piano and played it as softly and as gently as I could. It was his last request. He died an hour later. I was very glad I was able to soothe his last moments a little. I am very glad now I learned the hymn at Sunday School as a boy." Soon after we received that letter there came what we could not but think great news. John was ordered home ! He was invalided, to be sure, and I warned his mother that she must be pre- pared for a shock when she saw him. But no mat- ter how ill he was, we would have our lad with us for a space. And for that much British fathers and mothers had learned to be grateful. I had warned John's mother, but it was I who was shocked when I saw him first on the day he came back to our wee hoose at Dunoon. His cheeks were sunken, his eyes very bright, as a man's are who has a fever. He was weak and thin, and there was no blood in his cheeks. It was a sight to wring one's heart to see the laddie so brought down — ^him who had looked so braw and strong the last time we had seen him. That had been when he was setting out for the j^ars, you ken ! And now he was back, sae thin and 58 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE weak and pitiful as I had not seen him since he had been a bairn in his mother's arms. Aweel, it was for us, his mother and I, and all the folks at home, to mend him, and make him strong again. So he told us, for he had but one thing on his mind — to get back to his men. ''They'll be needing me, out there," he said. ''They're needing men. I must go back so soon as I can. Every man is needed there." "You'll be needing your strength back before you can be going back, son," I told him. "If you fash and fret it will take you but so much the longer to get back." He knew that. But he knew things I could not know, because I had not seen them. He had seen things that he saw over and over again when he tried to sleep. His nerves were shattered utterly. It grieved me sore not to spend all my time with him but he would not hear of it. He drove me back to my work. "You must work on. Dad, like every other Briton," he said. "Think of the part you're playing. Why you're more use than any of us out there — you're worth a brigade!" So I left him on the Clyde, and went on about my work. But I went back to Dunoon as often as I could, as I got a day or a night to make the journey. At first there was small change of prog- ress. John would come downstairs about the middle of the day, moving slowly and painfully. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 59 And lie was listless ; there was no life in him ; no resiliency or spring. ''How did you rest, son?" I would ask him. He always smiled when he answered. "Oh, fairly well," he'd tell me. "I fought three or four battles though, before I dropped off to sleep." He had come to the right place to be cured, though, and his mother was the nurse he needed. It was quiet in the hills of the Clyde, and there was rest and healing in the heather about Dunoon. Soon his sleep became better and less troubled by dreams. He could eat more, too, and they saw to it, at home, that he ate all they could stuff into him. So it was a surprisingly short time, considering how bad he had looked when he first came back to Dunoon, before he was in good health and spirits again. There was a bonnie, wee lassie who was to become Mrs. John Lauder ere so long — she helped our boy, too, to get back his strength. Soon he was ordered from home. For a time he had only light duties with the Home Reserve. Then he went to school. T laughed when he told me he had been ordered to school, but he didna crack a smile. "You needn't be laughing," he said. "It's a bombing school I'm going to now-a-days. If you're away from the front for a few weeks, you 60 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE find everything changed when you get back. Bombing is going to be important." John did so well in the bombing school that he was made an instructor and assigned, for a while, to teach others. But he was impatient to be back with his own men, and they were clamoring for him. And so, on September 16, 1916, his mother and I bade him good-by again, and he went back to France and the men his heart was wrapped up in. ''Yon's where the men are, Dad!" he said to me, just before he started. CHAPTER Vn JOHN'S mother, his sweetheart and I all saw him off at Glasgow. The fear was in all our hearts, and I think it must have been in all our eyes, as well — the fear that every father and mother and sweetheart in Britain shared with us in these days whenever they saw a boy off for France and the trenches. Was it for the last time? Were we seeing him now so strong and hale and hearty, only to have to go the rest of our lives with no more than a memory of him to keep 1 Aweel, we could not be telling that ! We could only hope and pray! And we had learned again to pray, long since. I have wondered, often, and Mrs. Lauder has wondered with me, what the fathers and mothers of Britain would do in these black days without prayer to guide them and sus- tain them. So we could but stand there, keeping back our tears and our fears, and hoping for the best. One thing was sure; we might not let the laddie see how close we were to greeting. It was for us to be so brave as God would let us be. It was hard for him. He was no boy, you ken, going blindly and gayly to a great adventure; he had need of the finest courage and devotion a man could muster that day. 61 62 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE For he knew fully now what it was that he was going back to. He knew the hell the Huns had made of war, which had been bad enough, in all conscience, before they did their part to make it worse. And he was high strung. He could live over, and I make no doubt he did, in those days after he had his orders to go back, every grim and dreadful thing that was waiting for him out there. He had been through it all, and he was going back. He had come out of the valley of the shadow, and now he was to ride down into it again. And it was with a smile he left us! I shall never forget that. His thought was all for us whom he was leaving behind. His care was for us, lest we should worry too greatly and think too much of him. "I'll be all right," he told us. ''You're not to fret about me, any of you. A man does take his chances out there — but they're the chances every man must take these days, if he's a man at all. I'd rather be taking them than be safe at home." We did our best to match the laddie's spirit and be worthy of him. But it was cruelly hard. We had lost him and found him again, and now he was being taken from us for the second time. It was harder, much harder, to see him go this second time than it had been at first, and it had been hard enough then- and bad enough. But A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 63 there was nothing else for it. So much we knew. It was a thing ordered and inevitable. And it was not many days before we had slipped back into the way things had been before John was invalided home. It is a strange thing about life, the way that one can become used to things. So it was with us. Strange things, ter- rible things, outrageous things, that, in time of peace, we would never have dared so much as to think possible, came to be the matters of every day for us. It was so with John. We came to think of it as natural that he should be away from us, and in peril of his life every minute of every hour. It was not easier for us. Indeed, it was harder than it had been before, just as it had been harder for us to say good-by the second time. But we thought less often of the strange- ness of it. We were really growing used to the war, and it was less the monstrous, strange thing than it had been in our daily lives. War had become our daily life and portion in Britain. All who were not slackers were doing their part — every one. Man and woman and child were in it, making sacrifices. Those happy days of peace lay far behind us, and we had lost our touch with them and our memory of them was growing dim. We were all in it. We had all to suffer alike, we were all in the same boat, we mothers and fathers and sweethearts of Britain. And so it was easier 64? A MINSTREL IN FRANCE for us not to think too much and too often of our own griefs and cares and anxieties. John's letters began to come again in a steady- stream. He was as careful as ever about writ- ing. There was scarcely a day that did not bring its letter to one of the three of us. And what bonnie, brave letters they were! They were as cheerful and as bright as his first letters had been. If John had bad hours and bad days out there he would not let us know it. He told us what news there was, and he was always cheerful and bright when he wrote. He let no hint of discouragement creep into anything he wrote to us. He thought of others first, always and all the time; of his men, and of us at home. He was quite cured and well, he told us, and going back had done him good instead of harm. He wrote to us that he felt as if he had come home. He felt, you ken, that it was there, in France and in the trenches, that men should feel at home in those days, and not safe in Britain by their ain firesides. It was not easy for me to be cheerful and com- fortable about him, though. I had my work to do. I tried to do it as w^ell as I could, for I knew that that would please him. My band still went up and down the country, getting recruits, and I was speaking, too, and urging men myself to go out and join the lads who were fighting and dying for them in France. They told me I was A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 65 doing good work; that I was a great force in the war. And I did, indeed, get many a word and many a handshake from men who told me I had induced them to enlist. ''I'm glad I heard you, Harry," man after man said to me. "You showed me what I should be doing and I've been easier in my mind ever since I put on the khaki!" I knew they'd never regret it, no matter what came to them. No man will, that 's done his duty. It's the slackers who couldn't or wouldn't see their duty men should feel sorry for! It's not the lads who gave everything and made the final sacrifice. It was hard for me to go on with my work of making folks laugh. It had been growing harder steadily ever since I had come home from Amer- ica and that long voyage of mine to Australia and had seen what war was and what it was doing to Britain. But I carried on, and did the best I could. That winter I was in the big revue at the Shaftesbury Theatre, in London, that was called ** Three Cheers." It was one of the gay shows that London liked because it gave some relief from the war and made the Zeppelin raids that the Huns were beginning to make so often now a little easier to bear. And it was a great place for the men who were back from France. It was partly because of them that I could go on as I 66 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE did. We owed them all we could give them. And when they came back from the mud and the grime and the dreariness of the trenches, they needed something to cheer them up — needed the sort of production we gave them. A man who has two days' leave in London does not want to see a serious play or a problem drama, as a rule. He wants something light, with lots of pretty girls and jolly tunes and people to make him laugh. And we gave him that. The house was full of officers and men, night after night. Soon word came from John that he was to have leave, just after Christmas, that would bring him home for the New Year's holidays. His mother went home to make things ready, for John was to be married when he got his leave. I had my plans all made. I meant to build a wee hoose for the two of them, near our own hoose at Dunoon, so that we might be all together, even though my laddie was in a home of his own. And I counted the hours and the days against the time when John would be home again. While we were playing at the Shaftesbury I lived at an hotel in Southampton Eow called the Bonnington. But it was lonely for me there. On New Year's Eve — it fell on a Sunday — Tom Val- lance, my brother-in-law, asked me to tea with him and his family in Clapham, where he lived. That is a pleasant place, a suburb of London on the southwest, and I was glad to go. And so I A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 67 drove out with a friend of mine, in a taxicab, and was glad to get out of the crowded part of the city for a time. I did not feel right that day. Holiday times were bad, hard times for me then. We had always made so much of Christmas, and here was the third Christmas that our boy had been away. And so I was depressed. And then, there had been no word for me from John for a day or two. I was not worried, for I thought it likely that his mother or his sweetheart had heard, and had not time yet to let me know. But, whatever the rea- son, I was depressed and blue, and I could not enter into the festive spirit that folk were trying to keep alive despite the war. I must have been poor company during that ride to Clapham in the taxicab. We scarcely ex- changed a word, my friend and I. I did not feel like talking, and he respected my mood, and kept quiet himself. I felt, at last, that I ought to apologize to him. ''I don't know what's the matter with me," I told him. "I simply don't want to talk. I feel sad and lonely. I wonder if my boy is all right T' * * Of course he is ! " my friend told me. ' ' Cheer up, Harry. This is a time when no news is good news. If anything were wrong with him they'd let you know." Well, I knew that, too. And I tried to cheer up, and feel better, so that I would not spoil the 68 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE pleasure of the others at Tom Vallance's house. I tried to picture John as I thought he must be — well, and happy, and smiling the old, familiar boyish smile I knew so well. I had sent him a box of cigars only a few days before, and he would be handing it around among his fellow officers. I knew that ! But it was no use. I could think of John, but it was only with sorrow and longing. And I wondered if this same time in a year would see him still out there, in the trenches. Would this war ever end? And so the shadows still hung about me when we reached Tom's house. They made me very welcome, did Tom and all his family. They tried to cheer me, and Tom did all he could to make me feel better, and to reas- sure me. But I was still depressed when we left the house and began the drive back to London. "It's the holiday — I'm out of gear with that, I'm thinking," I told my friend. He was going to join two other friends, and, with them, to see the New Year in in an old fashioned way, and he wanted me to join them. But I did not feel up to it ; I was not in the mood for anything of the sort. **No, no, I'll go home and turn in," I told him. **I'm too dull to-night to be good company." He hoped, as we all did, that this New Year that was coming would bring victory and peace. Peace could not come without victory; we were A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 69 all agreed on that. But we all hoped that the New Year would bring both — the new year of 1917. And so I left him at the corner of South- hampton Row, and went back to my hotel alone. It was about midnight, a little before, I think, when I got in, and one of the porters had a mes- sage for me. "Sir Thomas Lipton rang you up," he said, ''and wants you to speak with him when you come in." I rang him up at home directly. ' ' Happy New Year, when it comes, Harry ! " he said. He spoke in the same bluff, hearty way he always did. He fairly shouted in my ear. ''When did you hear from the boy? Are you and Mrs. Lauder well?" "Aye, fine," I told him. And I told him my last news of John. "Splendid!" he said. "Well, it was just to talk to you a minute that I rang you up, Harry. Good-night — Happy New Year again. ' ' I went to bed then. But I did not go to sleep for a long time. It was New Year's, and I lay thinking of my boy, and wondering what this year would bring him. It was early in the morn- ing before I slept. And it seemed to me that I had scarce been asleep at all when there came a pounding at the door, loud enough to rouse the heaviest sleeper there ever was. My heart almost stopped. There must be 70 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE something serious indeed for them to be rousing me so early. I rushed to the door, and there was a porter, holding out a telegram. I took it and tore it open. And I knew why I had felt as I had the day before. I shall never forget what I read : ''Captain John Lauder killed in action, Decem- ber 28. Official. War Office." It had gone to Mrs. Lauder at Dunoon first, and she had sent it on to me. That was all it said. I knew nothing of how my boy had died, or where — save that it was for his country. But later I learned that when Sir Thomas Lipton had rung me up he had intended to con- dole with me. He had heard on Saturday of my boy's death. But when he spoke to me, and understood at once, from the tone of my voice, that I did not know, he had not been able to go on. His heart was too tender to make it possible for him to be the one to give me that blow — the heaviest that ever befell me. CHAPTEB VIII IT was on Monday morning, January the first, 1917, that I learned of my boy's death. And he had been killed the Thursday before ! He had been dead four days before I knew it! And yet — I had known. Let no one ever tell me again that there is nothing in presentiment. Why else had I been so sad and uneasy in my mind? Why else, all through that Sunday, had it been so im- possible for me to take comfort in what was said to cheer me? Some warning had come to me, some sense that all was not well. Eealization came to me slowly. I sat and stared at that slip of paper, that had come to me like the breath of doom. Dead I Dead these four days! I was never to see the light of his eyes again. I was never to hear that laugh of his. I had looked on my boy for the last time. Could it be true f Ah, I knew it was ! And it was for this moment that I had been waiting, that we had all been waiting, ever since we had sent John away to fight for his country and do his part. I think we had all felt that it must come. We had all known that it was too much to hope that he should be one of those to be spared. 7J 72 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE The black despair that had been hovering over me for hours closed down now and enveloped all my senses. Everything was unreal. For a time I was quite numb. But then, as I began to realize and to visualize what it was to mean in my life that my boy was dead there came a great pain. The iron of realization slowly seared every word of that curt telegram upon my heart. I said it to myself, over and over again. And I whispered to myself, as my thoughts took form, over and over, the one terrible word: "Dead!" I felt that for me everything had come to an end with the reading of that dire message. It seemed to me that for me the board of life was black and blank. For me there was no past and there could be no future. Everything had been swept away, erased, by one sweep of the hand of a cruel fate. Oh, there was a past, though! And it was in that past that I began to delve. It was made up of every memory I had of my boy. I fell at once to remembering him. I clutched at every memory, as if I must grasp them and make sure of them, lest they be taken from me as well as the hope of seeing him again that the telegram had forever snatched away. I would have been destitute ir.deed then. It was as if I must iix in my mind the way he had been wont to look, and recall to my ears every tone of his voice, every trick of his speech. There was something left of him that I must keep, I A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 73 knew, even then, at all costs, if I was to be able to bear his loss at all. There was a vision of him before my eyes. My bonnie Highland laddie, brave and strong in his kilt and the uniform of his country, going out to his death with a smile on his face. And there was another vision that came up now, unbidden. It was a vision of him lying stark and cold upon the battlefield, the mud on his uniform. And when I saw that vision I was like a man gone mad and possessed of devils who had stolen away his faculties. I cursed war as I saw that vision, and the men who caused war. And when I thought of the Germans who had killed my boy a terrible and savage hatred swept me, and I longed to go out there and kill with my bare hands until I had avenged him or they had killed me too. But then I was a little softened. I thought of his mother back in our wee hoose at Dunoon. And the thought of her, bereft even as I was, sor- rowing, even as I was, and lost in her frightful loneliness, was pitiful, so that I had but the one desire and wish — to go to her, and join my tears with hers, that we who were left alone to bear our grief might bear it together and give one to the other such comfort as there might be in life for us. And so I fell upon my knees and prayed, there in my lonely room in the hotel. I prayed to God that he might give us both, John's mother and myself, strength to bear the blow that had 74 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE been dealt us and to endure the sacrifice that He and our country had demanded of us. My friends came to me. They came rushing to me. Never did man have better friends, and kindlier friends than mine proved themselves to me on that day of sorrow. They did all that good men and women could do. But there was no help for me in the ministration of friends. I was beyond the power of human words to comfort or solace. I was glad of their kindness, and the memory of it now is a precious one, and one I would not be without. But at such a time I could not gain from them what they were eager to give me. I could only bow my head and pray for strength. That night, that New Yearns night that I shall never forget, no matter how long God may let me live, I went north. I took train from London to Glasgow, and the next day I came to our wee hoose — a sad, lonely wee hoose it had become now! — on the Clyde at Dunoon, and was with John's mother. It was the place for me. It was there that I wanted to be, and it was with her, who must hereafter be all the world to me. And I was eager to be with her, too, who had given John to me. Sore as my grief was, stricken as I was, I could comfort her as no one else could hope to do, and she could do as much for me. We be- longed together. I can scarce remember, even for myself, what A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 75 happened there at Dunoon. I cannot tell you what I said or what I did, or what words and what thoughts passed between John's mother and myself. But there are some things that I do know and that I will tell you. Almighty God, to whom we prayed, was kind, and He was pitiful and merciful. For presently He brought us both a sort of sad composure. Presently He assuaged our grief a little, and gave us the strength that we must have to meet the needs of life and the thought of going on in a world that was darkened by the loss of the boy in whom all our thoughts and all our hopes had been centred. I thanked God then, and I thank God now, that I have never denied Him nor taken His name in vain. For God gave me great thoughts about my boy and about his death. Slowly, gradually, He made me to see things in their true light, and He took away the sharp agony of my first grief and sor- row, and gave me a sort of peace. John died in the most glorious cause, and he died the most glorious death, it may be given to a man to die. He died for humanity. He died for liberty, and that this world in which life must go on, no matter how many die, may be a better world to live in. He died in a struggle against the blackest force and the direst threat that has appeared against liberty and humanity within the memory of man. And were he alive now, and 76 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE were he called again to-day to go out for the same cause, knowing that he must meet death — as he did meet it — he would go as smilingly and as will- ingly as he went then. He would go as a British soldier and a British gentleman, to fight and die for his King and his country. And I would bid him go. I have lived through much since his death. They have not let me take a rifle or a sword and go into the trenches to avenge him. . . . But of that I shall tell you later. Ah, it was not at once that I felt so! In my heart, in those early days of grief and sorrow, there was rebellion, often and often. There were moments when in my anguish I cried out, aloud : *'Whyl Why? Why did they have to take John, my boy — ^my only child?" But God came to me, and slowly His peace entered my soul. And He made me see, as in a vision, that some things that I had said and that I had believed, were not so. He made me know, and I learned, straight from Him, that our boy had not been taken from us forever as I had paid to myself so often since that telegram had come. He is gone from this life, but he is waiting for us beyond this life. He is waiting beyond this life and this world of wicked war and wanton cruelty and slaughter. And we shall come, some day, his mother and I, to the place where he is A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 77 waiting for us, and we shall all be as happy there as we were on this earth in the happy days before the war. My eyes will rest again upon his face. I will hear his fresh young voice again as he sees me and cries out his greeting. I know what he will say. He will spy me, and his voice will ring out as it used to do. "Hello, Dad!" he will call, as he sees me. And I will feel the grip of his young, strong arms about me, just as in the happy days before that day that is of all the days of my life the most terrible and the most hateful in my memory — the day when they told me that he had been killed. That is my belief. That is the comfort that God has given me in my grief and my sorrow. There is a God. Ah, yes, there is a God! Times there are, I know, when some of those who look upon the horrid slaughter of this war, that is going on, hour by hour, feel that their faith is being shaken by doubts. They think of the sacrifices, of the blood that is being poured out, of the sufferings of women and children. And they see the cause that is wrong and foul prospering, for a little time, and they cannot understand. "If there is a God," they whisper to them- selves, "why does he permit a thing so wicked to go on!" But there is a God — there is ! I have seen the stark horror of war. I know, as none can know 78 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE until he has seen it at close quarters, what a thing war is as it is fought to-day. And I believe as I do believe, and as I shall believe until the end, because I know God's comfort and His grace, I know that my boy is surely waiting for me. In America, now, there are mothers and fathers by the scores of thousands who have bidden their sons good-by; who water their letters from France with their tears — who turn white at the sight of a telegram and tremble at the sudden clamor of a telephone. Ah, I know — I know! I suffered as they are suffering! And I have this to tell them and to beg them. They must believe as I believe — then shall they find the peace and the comfort that I have found. So it was that there, on the Clyde, John's mother and I came out of the blackness of our first grief. We began to be able to talk to one another. And every day we talked of John. We have never ceased to do that, his mother and I. We never shall. We may not have him with us bodily, but his spirit is never absent. And each day we remember some new thing about him that one of us can call to the other's mind. And it is as if, when we do that, we bring back some part of him out of the void. Little, trifling memories of when he was a baby, and when he was a boy, growing up ! And other memories, of later days. Often and often it was the days that were furthest away that we remem- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 79 bered best of all, and things connected with those days. But I had small wish to see others. John's mother was enough for me. She and the peace that was coming to me on the Clyde. I could not bear to think of London. I had no plans to make. All that was over. All that part of my life, I thought, had ended with the news of my boy's death. I wanted no more than to stay at home on the Clyde and think of him. My wife and I did not even talk about the future. And no thing was further from all my thoughts than that I should ever step upon a stage again. What ! Go out before an audience and seek to make it laugh? Sing my songs when my heart was broken! I did not decide not to do it. I did not so much as think of it as a thing I had to decide about. CHAPTER IX A ND then one thing and another brought the r\ thought into my mind, so that I had to face it and tell people how I felt about it. There were neighbors, wanting to know when I would be about my work again. That it was that first made me understand that others did not feel as I was feeling. ''They're thinking I'll be going back to work again," I told John's mother. "I canna'!" She felt as I did. We could not see, either one of us, in our grief, how anyone could think that I could begin again where I had left off. "I canna'! I will not try!" I told her, again and again. "How can I tak up again with tiiat old mummery? How can I laugh when my heart is breaking, and make others smile when the tears are in my eyes!" And she thought as I did, that I could not, and that no one should be asking me. The war had taken much of what I had earned, in one way or another. I was not so rich as I had been, but there was enough. There was no need for me to go back to work, so far as our living was con- cerned. And so it seemed to be settled between us. Planning we left for the future. It was no 80 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 81 time for us to be making plans. It mattered little enough to us what might be in store for us. We could take things as they might come. So we bided quiet in our home, and talked of John. And from every part of the earth and from people in all walks and conditions of life there began to pour in upon us letters and tele- grams of sympathy and sorrow. I think there were four thousand kindly folk who remembered us in our sorrow, and let us know that they could think of us in spite of all the other care and trouble that filled the world in those days. Many celebrated names were signed to those letters and telegrams, and there were many, too, from simple folk whose very names I did not know, who told me that I had given them cheer and courage from the stage, and so they felt that they were friends of mine, and must let me know that they were sorry for the blow that had be- fallen me. Then it came out that I meant to leave the stage. They sent word from London, at last, to ask when they might look for me to be back at the Shaftes- bury Theatre. And when they found what it was in my mind to do all my friends began to plead with me and argue with me. They said it was my duty to myself to go back. "You're too young a man to retire, Harry," they said. " What would you do ? How could you pass away your time if you had no work to do? 82 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE Men who retire at your age are always sorry. They wither away and die of dry rot." "There'll be plenty for me to be doing," I told them. ''I'U not be idle." But still they argued. I was not greatly moved. They were thinking of me, and their arguments appealed to my selfish interests and needs, and just then I was not thinking very much about myself. And then another sort of argument came to me. People wrote to me, men and women, who, like me, had lost their sons. Their letters brought the tears to my eyes anew. They were tender letters, and beautiful letters, most of them, and letters to make proud and glad, as well as sad, the heart of the man to whom they were written. I will not copy those letters down here, for they were writ- ten for my eyes, and for no others. But I can tell you the message that they all bore. ''Don't desert us now, Harry!" It was so that they put it, one after another, in those letters. ' ' Ah, Harry — there is so much woe and grief and pain in the world that you, who can, must do all that is in your power to make them easier to bear ! There are few forces enough in the world to-day to make us happy, even for a little space. Come back to us, Harry — make us laugh again ! ' ' It was when those letters came that, for the first time, I saw that I had others to consider beside myself, and that it was not only my own A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 83 wishes that I might take into account. I talked to my wife, and I told her of those letters, and there were tears in both our eyes as we thought about those folks who knew the sorrow that was in our hearts. ''You must think about them, Harry," she said. And so I did think about them. And then I began to find that there were others still about whom I must think. There were three hundred people in the cast of "Three Cheers," at the Shaftesbury Theatre, in London. And I began to hear now that unless I went back the show would be closed, and all of them would be out of work. At that season of the year, in the theatrical world, it would be hard for them to find other engagements, and they were not, most of them, like me, able to live without the salaries from the show. They wrote to me, many of them, and begged me to come back. And I knew that it was a desperate time for anyone to be without employ- ment. I had to think about those poor souls. And I could not bear the thought that I might be the means, however innocent, of bringing hardship and suffering upon others. It might not be my fault, and yet it would lie always upon my con- science. Yet, even with all such thoughts and prayers to move me, I did not see how I could yield to them and go back. Even after I had come to the point 84. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE of being willing to go back if I could, I did not think I could go through with it. I was afraid I would break down if I tried to play my part. I talked to Tom Vallance, my brother-in-law. 'at's very well to talk, Tom," I said. '' But they'd ring the curtain down on me ! I can never doit!" **You must!" he said. "Harry, you must go back! It's your duty! What would the boy be saying and having you do? Don't you remember, Harry? John's last words to his men were — 'Carry On!' That's what it is they're asking you to do, too, Harry, and it's what John would have wanted. It would be his wish." And I knew that he was right. Tom had found the one argument that could really move me and make me see my duty as the others did. So I gave in. I wired to the management that I would re- join the cast of ** Three Cheers," and I took the train to London. And as I rode in the train it seemed to me that the roar of the wheels made a refrain, and I could hear them pounding out those two words, in my boy's voice: ** Carry On!" But how hard it was to face the thought of going before an audience again ! And especially in such circumstances. There were to be gayety and life and light and sparkle all about me. There were to be lassies, in their gay dresses, and the mer- riest music in London. And my part was to be merry, too, and to make the great audience laugh A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 85 that I would see beyond the footlights. And I thought of the Merryman in The Yeomen of the Guard, and that I must be a little like him, though my cause for grief was different. But I had given my word, and though I longed, again and again, as I rode toward London, and as the time drew near for my performance, to back out, there was no way that I could do so. And Tom Vallance did his best^to cheer me and hearten me, and relieve my nervousness. I have never been so nervous before. Not since I made my first appearance before an audience have I been so near to stage fright. I would not see anyone that night, when I reached the theatre. I stayed in my dressing- room, and Tom Vallance stayed with me, and kept everyone who tried to speak with me away. There were good folk, and kindly folk, friends of mine in the company, who wanted to shake my hand and tell me how they felt for me, but he knew that it was better for them not to see me yet, and he was my bodyguard. ''It's no use, Tom," I said to him, again and again, after I was dressed and in my make up. I was cold first, and then hot. And I trembled in every limb. ''They'll have to ring the curtain down on me." "You'll be all right, Harry," he said. "So soon as you're out there! Remember, they're all your friends ! ' ' 86 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE But he could not comfort me. I felt sure that it was a foolish thing for me to try to do; that I could not go through with it. And I was sorry, for the thousandth time, that I had let them per- suade me to make the effort. A call boy came at last to warn me that it was nearly time for my first entrance. I went with Tom into the wings, and stood there, waiting. I was pale under my make up, and I was shaking and trembling like a baby. And even then I wanted to cry off. But I remembered my boy, and those last words of his — ' ' Carry On ! " I must not fail him without at least trying to do what he would have wanted me to do ! My entrance was with a lilting little song called ' ' I Love My Jean. ' ' And I knew that in a moment my cue would be given, and I would hear the music of that song beginning. I was as cold as if I had been in an icy street, although it was hot. I thought of the two thousand people who were waiting for me beyond the footlights — the house was a big one, and it was packed full that night. "I can't, Tom — I can't!" I cried. But he only smiled, and gave me a little push as my cue came and the music began. I could scarcely hear it ; it was like music a great distance off, coming very faintly to my ears. And I said a prayer, inside. I asked God to be good to me once more, and to give me strength, and to bear A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 87 me through this ordeal that I was facing, as he had borne me through before. And then I had to step into the full glare of the great lights. I felt as if I were in a dream. The people were unreal — stretching away from me in long, slop- ing rows, their white faces staring at me from the darkness beyond the great lights. And there was a little ripple that ran through them as I went out, as if a great many people, all at the same moment, had caught their breath. I stood and faced them, and the music sounded in my ears. For just a moment they were still. And then they were shaken by a mighty roar. They cheered and cheered and cheered. They stood up and waved to me. I could hear their voices rising, and cries coming to me, with my own name among them. ' ' Bravo, Harry ! " I heard them call. And then there were more cheers, and a great clapping of hands. And I have been told that everywhere in that great audience men and women were crying, and that the tears were rolling down their cheeks without ever an attempt by any of them to hide them or to check them. It was the most wonderful and the most beautiful demonstration I have ever seen, in all the years that I have been upon the stage. Many and many a time audiences have been good to me. They have clapped me and they have cheered me, but never has an audience treated me as that one did. I had to use every 88 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE bit of strength and courage that I had to keep from breaking down. To this day I do not know how I got through with that first song that night. I do not even know whether I really sang it. But I think that, somehow, blindly, without knowing what I was doing, I did get through ; I did sing it to the end. Habit, the way that I was used to it, I suppose, helped me to carry on. And when I left the stage the whole company, it seemed to me, was waiting for me. They were crying and laughing, hys- terically, and they crowded around me, and kissed me, and hugged me, and wrung my hand. It seemed that the worst of my ordeal was over. But in the last act I had to face another test. There was a song for me in that last act that was the great song in London that season. I have sung it all over America since then — "The Lad- dies Who Fought and Won." It has been suc- cessful everywhere — that song has been one of the most popular I have ever sung. But it was a cruel song for me to sing that night ! It was the climax of the last act and of the whole piece. In "Three Cheers" soldiers were brought on each night to be on the stage behind me when I sang that song. They were from the battalion of the Scots Guards in London, and they were real soldiers, in uniform. Different men were used each night, and the money that was paid to the Tommies for their work went into the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 89 company fund of the men who appeared, and helped to provide them with comforts and luxu- ries. And the war office was glad of the arrange- ment, too, for it was a great song to stimulate recruiting. There were two lines in the refrain that I shall never forget. And it was when I came to those two lines that night that I did, indeed, break down. Here they are : "When we all gather round the old fireside And the fond mother kisses her son — " Were they not cruel words for me to have to sing, who knew that his mother could never kiss my son again? They brought it all back to me! My son was gone — he would never come back with the laddies who had fought and won! For a moment I could not go on. I was chok- ing. The tears were in my eyes, and my throat was choked with sobs. But the music went on, and the chorus took up the song, and between the singers and the orchestra they covered the break my emotion had made. And in a little space I was able to go on with the next verse, and to carry on until my part in the show was done for the night. But I still wondered how it was that they had not had to ring down the curtain upon me, and that Tom Vallance and the others had been right and I the one that was wrong ! 90 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE Ah, weel, I learned that night what many and many another Briton had learned, both at home and in France — that you can never know what you can do until you have to find it out! Yon was the hardest task ever I had to undertake, but for my boy's sake, and because they had made me understand that it was what he would have wanted me to do, I got through with it. They rose to me again, and cheered and cheered, after I had finished singing "The Laddies Who Fought and Won." And there were those who called to me for a speech, but so much I had to deny them, good though they had been to me, and much as I loved them for the way they had re- ceived me. I had no words that night to thank them, and I could not have spoken from that stage had my life depended upon it. I could only get through, after my poor fashion, with my part in the show. But the next night I did pull myself together, and I was able to say a few words to the audience — thanks that were simply and badly put, it may be, but that came from the bottom of my over- flowing heart. CHAPTER X I HAD not believed it possible. But there I was, not only back at work, back upon the stage to which I thought I had said good-by forever, but successful as I had thought I could never be again. And so I decided that I would remain until the engagement of ''Three Cheers" closed. But my mind was made up to retire after that engagement. I felt that I had done all I could, and that it was time for me to retire, and to cease trying to make others laugh. There was no laughter in my heart, and often and often, that season, as I cracked my merriest jokes, my heart was sore and heavy and the tears were in my eyes. But slowly a new sort of courage came to me. I was able to meet my friends again, and to talk to them, of myself and of my boy. I met brother officers of his, and I heard tales of him that gave me a new and even greater pride in him than I had known before. And my friends begged me to carry on in every way. "You were doing a great work and a good work, Harry," they said. "The boy would want you to carry on. Do not drop all the good you were doing." 91 92 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE I knew that they were right. To sit alone and give way to my grief was a selfish thing to do at such a time. If there was work for me to do, still, it was my duty to try to do it, no matter how greatly I would have preferred to rest quiet. At this time there was great need of making the peo- ple of Britain understand the need of food con- servation, and so I began to go about London, making speeches on that subject wherever people could be gathered together to listen to me. They told me I did some good. And at least, I tried. And before long I was glad, indeed, that I had listened to the counsel of my friends and had not given way to my selfish desire to nurse my grief in solitude and silence. For I realized that there was a real work for me to do. Those folk who had begged me to do my part in lightening the gloom of Britain had been right. There was so much sorrow and grief in the land that it was the duty of all who could dispel it, if even for a little space, to do what they could. I remembered that poem of Ella Wheeler Wilcox — "Laugh and the World Laughs With You!" And so I tried to laugh, and to make the part of the world that I chanced to be in laugh with me. For I knew there was weeping and sorrowing enough. And all the time I felt that the spirit of my boy was with me, and that he knew what I was doing, and why, and was glad, and that he understood that if I laughed it was not because I thought less A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 93 often of him, or missed him less keenly and bit- terly than I had done from the very beginning. There was much praise for my work from high officials, and it made me proud and glad to know that the men who were at the head of Britain's effort in the war thought I was being of use. One time I spoke with Mr. Balfour, the former Prime Minister, at Drury Lane Theatre to one of the greatest war gatherings that was ever held in London. And always and everywhere there were the hospitals, full of the laddies who had been brought home from France. Ah, but they were pitiful, those laddies who had fought, and won, and been brought back to be nursed back to the life they had been so bravely willing to lay down for their country! But it was hard to look at them, and know how they were suffering, and to go through with the task I had set myself of cheering them and comforting them in my own way! There were times when it was all I could do to get through with my program. They never complained. They were always bright and cheerful, no matter how terrible their wounds might be; no matter what sacrifices they had made of eyes and limbs. There were men in those hospitals who knew that they were going out no more than half the men they had been. And yet they were as brave and careless of them- selves as if their wounds had been but trifles. I 94 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE think the greatest exhibition of courage and nerve the world has ever seen was to be found in those hospitals in London and, indeed, all over Britain, where those wonderful lads kept up their spirits always, though they knew they could never again be sound in body. Many and many of them there were who knew that they could never walk again the shady lanes of their hameland or the little streets of their hame towns! Many and many more there were who knew that, even after the bandages were taken from about their eyes, they would never gaze again upon the trees and the grass and the flowers growing upon their native hillsides; that never again could they look upon the faces of their loved ones. They knew that everlasting darkness was their portion upon this earth. But one and all they talked and laughed and sang ! And it was there among the hospitals, that I came to find true courage and good cheer. It was not there that I found talk of discouragement, and longing for any early peace, even though the final victory that could alone bring a real peace and a worthy peace had not been won. No — not in the hospitals could I find and hear such talk as that ! For that I had to listen to those who had not gone — who had not had the courage and the nerve to offer all they had and all they were and go through that hell of hells that is modern war ! I saw other hospitals besides the ones in Lon- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 95 don. After a time, when I was very tired, and far from well, I went to Scotland for a space to build myself up and get some rest. And in the far north I went fishing on the River Dee, which runs through the Durrie estate. And while I was there the Laird heard of it. And he sent word to tell me of a tiny hospital hard by where a guid lady named Mrs. Baird was helping to nurse disabled men back to health and strength. He asked me would I no call upon the men and try to give them a little cheer. And I was glad to hear of the chance to help. I laid down my rod forthwith, for here was bet- ter work than fishing — and in my ain country. They told me the way that I should go, and that this Mrs. Baird had turned a little school house into a convalescent home, and was doing a fine and wonderful work for the laddies she had taken in. So I set out to find it, and I walked along a country road to come to it. Soon I saw a man, strong and hale, as it seemed, pushing a wheel chair along the road toward me. And in the chair sat a man, and I could see at' once that he had lost the use of his legs — that he was paralyzed from the waist down. It was the way he called to him who was pushing him that made me tak notice. "Go to the right, mon!" he would call. Or, a moment later, "To the left now." And then they came near to the disaster. The 96 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE one who was pushing was heading straight for the side of the road, and the one in the chair bel- lowed out to him: * ' Whoa there ! " he called. * ' Mon — ^ye 're taking me into the ditch ! Where would ye be going with me, anyway?" And then I understood. The man who was pushing was blind! They had but the one pair of eyes and the one pair of legs between the two of them, and it was so that they contrived to go out together without taking help from anyone else ! And they were both as cheerful as wee lad- dies out for a lark. It was great sport for them. And it was they who gave me my directions to get to Mrs. Baird's. They disputed a little about the way. The blind man, puir laddie, thought he knew. And he did not — not quite. But he corrected the man who could see but could not walk. ^'It's the wrong road you're giving the gentle- man," he said. "It's the second turn he should be taking, not the first. ' ' And the other would not argue with him. It was a kindly thing, the way he kept quiet, and did but wink at me, that I might know the truth. He trusted me to understand and to know why he was acting as he was, and I blessed him in my heart for his thoughtfulness. And so I thanked them, and passed on, and reached Mrs. Baird's, and found a royal welcome there, and when they A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 97 asked me if I would sing for the soldiers, and I said it was for that that I had come, there were tears in Mrs. Baird's eyes. And so I gave a wee concert there, and sang my songs, and did my best to cheer up those boys. Ah, my puir, brave Scotland — my bonnie little Scotland ! No part of all the United Kingdom, and, for that matter, no part of the world, has played a greater part, in proportion to its size and its ability, than has Scotland in this war for human- ity against the black force that has attacked it. Nearly a million men has Scotland sent to the army — out of a total population of five million! One in five of all her people have gone. No coun- try in the world has ever matched that record. Ah, there were no slackers in Scotland ! And they are still going — they are still going! As fast as they are old enough, as fast as restrictions are removed, so that men are taken who were turned back at first by the recruiting officers, as fast as men see to it that some provision is made for those they must leave behind them, they are put- ting on the King's uniform and going out against the Hun. My country, my ain Scotland, is not great in area. It is not a rich country in worldly goods or money. But it is big with a bigness be- yond measurement, it is rich beyond the wildest dreams of avarice, in patriotism, in love of coun- try, and in bravery. 98 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE We have few young men left in Scotland. It is rarely indeed that in a Scottish village, in a glen, even in a city, you see a young man in these days. Only the very old are left, and the men of middle age. And you know why the young men you see are there. They cannot go, because, although their spirit is willing their flesh is too weak to let them go, for one reason or another. Factory and field and forge — all have been stripped to fill the Scottish regiments and keep them at their full strength. And in Scotland, as in England, women have stepped in to fill the places their men have left vacant. This war is not to be fought by men alone. Women have their part to play, and they are playing it nobly, day after day. The women of Scotland have seen their duty; they have heard their country's call, and they have an- swered it. You will find it hard to discover anyone in domestic service to-day in Scotland. The folk who used to keep servants sent them packing long since, to work where they would be of more use to their country. The women of each household are doing the work about the house, little though they may have been accustomed to such tasks in the days of peace. And they glory and take pride in the knowledge that they are helping to fill a place in the munitions factories or in some other necessary war work. Do not look along the Scottish roads for folk a, be s A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 99 riding in motor cars for pleasure. Indeed, you will waste your time if you look for pleasure- making of any sort in Scotland to-day. Scotland lias gone back to her ancient business of war, and she is carrying it on in the most businesslike way, sternly and relentlessly. But that is true all over the United Kingdom ; I do not claim that Scotland takes the war more seriously than the rest of Britain. But I do think that she has set an exam- ple by the way she has flung herself, tooth and nail, into the mighty task that confronts us all — all of us allies who are leagued against the Hun and his plan to conquer the world and make it bow its neck in submission under his iron heel. Let me tell you how Scotland takes this war. Let me show you the homecoming of a Scottish soldier, back from the trenches on leave. Why, he is received with no more ceremony than if he were coming home from his day's work! Donald — or Jock might be his name, or Andy ! — steps from the train at his old hame town. He is fresh from the mud of the Flanders trenches, and all his possessions and his kit are on his back, so that he is more like a beast of burden than the natty creature old tradition taught us to think a soldier must always be. On his boots there are still dried blobs of mud from some hole in France that is like a crater in hell. His uniform will be pretty sure to be dirty, too, and torn, and perhaps, if you looked closely at it, you would see stains 100 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE upon it that you might not be far wrong in guess- ing to be blood. Leave long enough to let him come home to Scotland — a long road it is from France to Scot- land these days ! — has been a rare thing for Jock. He will have been campaigning a long time to earn it — months certainly, and maybe even years. Perhaps he was one of these who went out first. He may have been mentioned in dispatches ; there may be a distinguished conduct medal hidden about him somewhere — worth all the iron crosses the Kaiser ever gave ! He has seen many a bloody field, be sure of that. He has heard the sounding of the gas alarm, and maybe got a whiff of the dirty poison gas the Huns turned loose against our boys. He has looked Death in the face so often that he has grown used to him. But now he is back in Scotland, safe and sound, free from battle and the work of the trenches for a space, home to gain new strength for his next bout with Fritz across the water. When he gets off the train Jock looks about him, from force of habit. But no one has come to the station to meet him, and he looks as if that gave him neither surprise nor concern. For a minute, perhaps, he will look around him, wonder- ing, I think, that things are so much as they were, fixing in his mind the old familiar scenes that have brought him cheer so often in black, deadly nights in the trenches or in lonely billets out there A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 101 in France. And then, quietly, and as if he were indeed just home from some short trip, he shifts his pack, so that it lies comfortably across his back, and trudges off. There would be cabs around the station, but it would not come into Jock's mind to hail one of the drivers. He has been used to using Shank's Mare in France when he wanted to go anywhere, and so now he sets off quietly, with his long, swinging soldier's stride. As he walks along he is among scenes familiar to him since his boyhood. Yon house, yon barn, yon wooded rise against the sky are landmarks for him. And he is pretty sure to meet old friends. They nod to him, pleasantly, and with a smile, but there is no excitement, no strangeness, in their greeting. For all the emotion they show, these folk to whom he has come back, as from the grave, they might have seen him yesterday, and the day before that, and the war never have been at all. And Jock thinks nothing of it that they are not more excited about him. You and I may be thinking of Jock as a hero, but that is not his idea about himself. He is just a Tommy, home on leave from France — one of a hundred thou- sand, maybe. And if he thought at all about the way his home folk greeted him it would be just so — that he could not expect them to be making a fuss about one soldier out of so many. And, since he, Jock, is not much excited, not much worked up, because he is seeing these good folk again, he 102 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE does not think it strange that they are not more excited about the sight of him. It would be if they did make a fuss over him, and welcome him loudly, that he would think it strange ! And at last he comes to his own old home. He will stop and look around a bit. Maybe he has seen that old house a thousand times out there, tried to remember every line and corner of it. And maybe, as he looks down the quiet village street, he is thinking of how different France was. And, deep down in his heart, Jock is glad that everything is as it was, and that nothing has been changed. He could not tell you why ; he could not put his feeling into words. But it is there, deep down, and the truer and the keener because it is so deep. Ah, Jock may take it quietly, and there may be no way for him to show his heart, but he is glad to be home ! And at his gate will come, as a rule, Jock's first real greeting. A dog, grown old since his depar- ture, will come out, wagging his tail, and licking the soldier's hand. And Jock will lean down, and give his old dog a pat. If the dog had not come he would have been surprised and disappointed. And so, glad with every fibre of his being, Jock goes in, and finds father and mother and sisters within. They look up at his coming, and their happiness shines for a moment in their eyes. But they are not the sort of people to show their emo- tions or make a fuss. Mother and girls will rise A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 103 and kiss him, and begin to take his gear, and his father will shake him by the hand. ''Well," the father will ask, *'how are you get- ting along, lad?" And — " All right," he will answer. That is the British soldier's answer to that question, always and everywhere. Then he sits down, happy and at rest, and lights his pipe, maybe, and looks about the old room which holds so many memories for him. And sup- per will be ready, you may be sure. They will not have much to say, these folk of Jock's, but if you look at his face as dish after dish is set before him, you will understand that this is a feast that has been prepared for him. They may have been going without sorts of good things themselves, but they have contrived, in some fashion, to have them all for Jock. All Scotland has tightened its belt, and done its part, in that fashion, as in every other, toward the winning of the war. But for the soldiers the best is none too good. And Jock's folk would rather make him welcome so, by proof that takes no words, than by demonstrations of delight and of affection. As he eats, they gather round him at the board, and they tell him all the gossip of the neighbor- hood. He does not talk about the war, and, if they are curious — probably they are not ! — they do not ask him questions. They think that he wants to forget about the war and the trenches and the 104? A MINSTREL IN FRANCE mud, and they are right. And so, after he has eaten his fill, he lights his pipe again, and sits about. And maybe, as it grows dark, he takes a bit walk into town. He walks slowly, as if he is glad that for once he need not be in a hurry, and he stops to look into shop windows as if he had never seen their stocks before, though you may be sure that, in a Scottish village, he has seen every- thing they have to offer hundreds of times. He will meet friends, maybe, and they will stop and nod to him. And perhaps one of six will stop longer. **How are you getting on, Jock?" will be the question. "All right!" Jock will say. And he will think the question rather fatuous, maybe. If he were not all right, how should he be there ? But if Jock had lost both legs, or an arm, or if he had been blinded, that would still be his answer. Those words have become a sort of slogan for the Brit- ish army, that typify its spirit. Jock's walk is soon over, and he goes home, by an old path that is known to him, every foot of it, and goes to bed in his own old bed. He has not broken into the routine of the household, and he sees no reason why he should. And the next day it is much the same for him. He gets up as early as he ever did, and he is likely to do a few odd bits of work that his father has not had time to come to. He talks with his mother and the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 105 girls of all sorts of little, commonplace things, and with his father he discusses the affairs of the community. And in the evening he strolls down town again, and exchanges a few words with friends, and learns, perhaps, of boys who haven't been lucky enough to get home on leave — of boys with whom he grew up, who have gone west. So it goes on for several days, each day the same. Jock is quietly happy. It is no task to entertain him ; he does not want to be entertained. The peace and quiet of home are enough for him ; they are change enough from the turmoil of the front and the ceaseless grind of the life in the army in France. And then Jock's leave nears its end, and it is time for him to go back. He tells them, and he makes his few small preparations. They will have cleaned his kit for him, and mended some of his things that needed mending. And when it is time for him to go they help him on with his pack and he kisses his mother and the girls good-by, and shakes hands with his father. ''Well, good-by," Jock says. He might be going to work in a factory a few miles off. ''I'll be all right. Good-by, now. Don't you cry, now, mother, and you, Jeannie and Maggie. Don't you fash yourselves about me. I'll be back again. And if I shouldn't come back — ^why, I'll be all right." So he goes, and they stand looking after him, 106 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE and his old dog wonders why he is going, and where, and makes a move to follow him, maybe. But he marches off down the street, alone, never looking back, and is waiting when the train comes. It will be full of other Jocks and Andrews and Tarns, on their way back to France, like him, and he will nod to some he knows as he settles down in the carriage. And in just two days Jock will have traveled the length of England, and crossed the channel, and ridden up to the front. He will have re- ported himself, and have been ordered, with his company, into the trenches. And on the third night, had you followed him, you might see him peering over the parapet at the lines of the Hun, across No Man's Land, and listening to the whine of bullets and the shriek of shells over his head, with a star shell, maybe, to throw a green light upon him for a moment. So it is that a warrior comes and that a war- rior goes in a land where war is war; in a land where war has become the business of all every day, and has settled down into a matter of routine. CHAPTER XI I COULD not, much as I should in many ways have liked to do so, prolong my stay in Scot- land. The peace and the restfulness of the Highlands, the charm of the heather and the hills, the long, lazy days with my rod, whipping some favorite stream — ah, they made me happy for a moment, but they could not make me forget ! My duty called me back, and the thought of war, and suffering, and there were moments when it seemed to me that nothing could keep me from plung- ing again into the work I had set out to do. In those days I was far too restless to be taking my ease at home, in my wee hoose at Dunoon. A thousand activities called me. The rest had been necessary; I had had to admit that, and to obey my doctor, for I had been feeling the strain of my long continued activity, piled up, as it was, on top of my grief and care. And yet I was eager to be off and about my work again. I did not want to go back to the same work I had been doing. No! I was still a young man. I was younger than men and officers who were taking their turn in the trenches. I was but forty- six years old, and there was a lot of life and snap in the old dog yet! My life had been rightly 107 108 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE lived. As a young man I had worked in a pit, ye ken, and that had given me a strength in my back and my legs that would have served me well in the trenches. War, these days, means hard work as well as fighting — more, indeed. War is a busi- ness, a great industry, now. There is all manner of work that must be done at the front and right behind it. Aye, and I was eager to be there and to be doing my share of it — and not for the first time. Many a time, and often, I had broached my idea of being allowed to enlist, e'en before the Huns killed my boy. But they would no listen to me. They told me, each time, that there was more and better work for me to do at hame in Britain, spur- ring others on, cheering them when they came back maimed and broken, getting the country to put its shoulder to the wheel when it came to sub- scribing to the war loans and all the rest of it. And it seemed to me that it was not for me to decide ; that I must obey those who were better in a position to judge than I could be. I went down south to England, and I talked again of enlisting and trying to get a crack at those who had killed my boy. And again my friends refused to listen to me. **Why, Harry," they said to me — and not my own friends, only, but men highly placed enough to make me know that I must pay heed to what they said — *'you must not think of it! If you en- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 109 listed, or if we got you a commission, you 'd be but one man out there. Here you're worth many men — a brigade, or a division, maybe. You are more use to us than many men who go out there to fight. You do great things toward winning the war every day. No, Harry, there is work for every man in Britain to do, and you have found yours and are doing it." I was not content, though, even when I seemed to agree with them. I did try to argue, but it was no use. And still I felt that it was no time for a man to be playing and to be giving so much of his time to making others gay. It was well for folk to laugh, and to get their minds oif the horror of war for a little time. Well I knew! Aye, and I believed that I was doing good, some good at least, and giving cheer to some puir laddies who needed it sorely. But — weel, it was no what I wanted to be doing when my country was fighting for her life ! I made up my mind, slowly, what it was that I wanted to do that would fit in with the ideas and wishes of those whose word I was bound to heed and that would still come closer than what I was doing to meet my own desires. Every day, nearly, then, I was getting letters from the front. They came from laddies whom I'd helped to make up their minds that they be- longed over yon, where the men were. Some were from boys who came from aboot Dunoon. I'd known those laddies since they were bits o ' bairns, 110 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE most of them. And then there were letters — and they touched me as much and came as close home as any of them — from boys who were utter strangers to me, but who told me they felt they knew me because they'd seen me on the stage, or because their phonograph, maybe, played some of my records, and because they'd read that my boy had shared their dangers and given his life, as they were ready, one and all, to do. And those letters, nearly all, had the same re- frain. They wanted me. They wanted me to come to them, since they couldn't be coming to me. ' ' Come on out here and see us and sing for us, Harry," they'd write to me. "It'd be a fair treat to see your mug and hear you singing about the wee hoose amang the heather or the bonnie, bon- nie lassie!" How could a man get such a plea as that and not want to do what those laddies asked? How could he think of the great deal they were doing and not want to do the little bit they asked of him? But it was no a simple matter, ye '11 ken ! I could not pack a bag and start for France from Charing Cross or Victoria as I might have done — and often did — ^before the war. No one might go to France unless he had passports and leave from the war office, and many another sort of arrangement there was to make. But I set wheels in motion. Just to go to France to sing for the boys would A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 111 have been easy enough. They told me that at once. "What? Harry Lauder wants to go to France to sing for the soldiers? He shall — whenever he pleases ! Tell him we '11 be glad to send him ! ' ' So said the war office. But I knew what they meant. They meant for me to go to one or more of the British bases and give concerts. There were troops moving in and out of the bases all the time; men who'd been in the trenches or in action in an offensive and were back in rest billets, or even further back, were there in their thousands. But it was the real front I was eager to reach. I wanted to be where my boy had been, and to see his grave. I wanted to sing for the laddies who were bearing the brunt of the big job over there — while they were bearing it. And that no one had done. Many of our lead- ing actors and singers and other entertainers were going back and forth to France all the time. Never a week went by but they were helping to cheer up the boys at the bases. It was a grand work they were doing, and the boys were grateful to them, and all Britain should share that grati- tude. But it was a wee bit more that I wanted to be doing, and there was the rub. I wanted to go up to the battle lines themselves and to sing for the boys who were in the thick of the struggle with the Hun. I wanted to give a concert in a front-line trench where the Huns 112 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE could hear me, if they cared to listen. I wanted them to learn once more the lesson we could never teach them often enough — the lesson of the spirit of the British army, that could go into battle with a laugh on its lips. But at iSrst I got no encouragement at all when I told what it was in my mind to do. My friends who had influence shook their heads. **I'm afraid it can't be managed, Harry," they told me. *' It's never been done." I told them what I believed myself, and what I have often thought of when things looked hard and prospects were dark. I told them everything had to be done for the first time sometime, and I begged them not to give up the effort to win my way for me. And so I knew that when they told me no one had done it before it wasn't reason enough why I shouldn't do it. And I made up my mind that I would be the pioneer in giving con- certs under fire if that should turn out to be a part of the contract. But I could not argue. I could only say what it was that I wanted to do, and wait the pleasure of those whose duty it was to decide. I couldn't tell the military authorities where they must send me. It was for me to obey when they gave their orders, and to go wherever they thought I would do the most good. I would not have you thinking that I was naming conditions, and saying I would go where I pleased or bide at hame ! That was not A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 113 my way. All I could do was to hope that in the end they would see matters as I did and so decide to let me have my way. But I was ready for my orders, whatever they might be. There was one thing I wanted, above all others, to do when I got to France, and so much I said. I wanted to meet the Highland Brigade, and see the bonnie laddies in their kilts as the Huns saw them — the Huns, who called them the Ladies from Hell, and hated them worse than they hated any troops in the whole British army. Ha' ye heard the tale of the Scotsman and the Jew? Sandy and Ikey they were, and they were having a disputatious argument together. Each said he could name more great men of his race who were famous in history than the other could. And they argued, and nearly came to blows, and were no further along until they thought of mak- ing a bet. An odd bet it was. For each great name that Sandy named of a Scot whom history had honored he was to pull out one of Ikey's hairs, and Ikey was to have the same privilege. ''Do ye begin!" said Sandy. ''Moses!" said Ikey, and pulled. "Bobbie Burns!" cried Sandy, and returned the compliment. "Abraham!" said Ikey, and pulled again. ' ' Ouch — Duggie Haig ! ' ' said Sandy. And then Ikey grabbed a handful of hairs at once. 114. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE *' Joseph and his brethren!" he said, gloating a bit as he watched the tears starting from Sandy's eyes at the pain of losing so many good hairs at once. **So it's pulling them out in bunches ye are!" said Sandy. ''Ah, well, man " And he reached with both his hands for Ikey's thatch. "The Hieland Brigade!" he roared, and pulled all the hairs his two hands would hold ! Ah, weel, there are sad thoughts that come to me, as well as proud and happy ones, when I think of the bonnie kilted laddies who fought and died so nobly out there against the Hun ! They were my own laddies, those, and it was with them and amang them that my boy went to his death. It was amang them I would find, I thought, those who could tell me more than I knew of how he had died, and of how he had lived before he died. And I thought the boys of the brigade would be glad to see me and to hear my songs — songs of their hames and their ain land, auld Scotland. And so I used what influence I had, and did not think it wrong to employ at such a time, and in such a cause. For I knew that if they sent me to the Hieland Brigade they would be sending me to the front of the front line — for that was where I would have to go seeking the Hieland laddies ! I waited as patiently as I could. And then one day I got my orders! I was delighted, for the thing they had told me could not be done had A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 115 actually been arranged for me. I was asked to get ready to go to France to entertain the soldiers, and it was the happiest day I had known since I had heard of my boy's death. There was not much for me to do in the way of making ready. The whole trip, of course, would be a military one. I might be setting out as a minstrel for France, but every detail of my ar- rangements had to be made in accordance with military rules, and once I reached France I would be under the orders of the army in every move- ment I might make. All that was carefully ex- plained to me. But still there were things for me to think about and to arrange. I wanted some sort of accom- paniment for my songs, and how to get it puzzled me for a time. But there was a firm in London that made pianos that heard of my coming trip, and solved that problem for me. They built, and they presented to me, the weest piano ever you saw — a piano so wee that it could be carried in an ordinary motor car. Only five octaves it had, but it Was big enough, and sma' enough at once. I was delighted with it, and so were all who saw it. It weighed only about a hundred and fifty pounds — less than even a middling stout man! And it was cunningly built, so that no space at all was wasted. Mrs. Lauder, when she saw it, called it cute, and so did every other woman who laid eyes upon it. It was designed to be carried on the 116 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE grid of a motor car — and so it was, for many miles of shell-torn roads ! When I was sure of my piano I thought of another thing it would be well for me to take with me. And so I spent a hundred pounds — a thou- sand American dollars — for cigarettes. I knew they would be welcome everywhere I went. It makes no matter how many cigarettes we send to France, there will never be enough. My friends thought I was making a mistake in taking so many ; they were afraid they would make matters hard when it came to transportation, and re- minded me that I faced difficulties in that respect in France it was nearly impossible for us at home in Britain to visualize at all. But I had my mind and my heart set on getting those fags — a ciga- rette is a fag to every British soldier — to my des- tination with me. Indeed, I thought they would mean more to the laddies out there than I could hope to do myself! I was not to travel alone. My tour was to in- clude two traveling companions of distinction and fame. One was James Hogge, M.P., member from East Edinburgh, who was eager, as so many mem- bers of Parliament were, to see for himself how things were at the front. James Hogge was one of the members most liked by the soldiers. He had worked hard for them, and gained — and well earned — ^much fame by the way he struggled with the matter of getting the right sort of pensions A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 117 for the laddies who were offering their lives. The other distinguished companion I was to have was an old and good friend of mine, the Reverend George Adam, then a secretary to the Minister of Munitions. He lived in Ilford, a suburb of London, then, but is now in Montreal, Canada. I was glad of the opportunity to travel with both these men, for I knew that one's trav- eling companions, on such a tour, were of the utmost importance in determining its success or failure, and I could not have chosen a better pair, had the choice been left to me — which, of course, it was not. There we were, you see — the Reverend George Adaan, Harry Lauder and James Hogge, M.P. And no sooner did the soldiers hear of the com- bination than our tour was named ** The Rev- erend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour" was what we were called! And that absurd name stuck to us through our whole journey, in France, up and down the battle line, and until we came home to England and broke up ! CHAPTER XII UP to that time I had thought I knew a good deal about the war. I had had much news from my boy. I had talked, I think, to as many returned soldiers as any man in Britain. I had seen much of the backwash and the wretched aftermath of war. Ah, yes, I thought I knew more than most folk did of what war meant ! But until my tour began, as I see now, easily enough, I knew nothing — literally nothing at all! There are towns and ports in Britain that are military areas. One may not enter them except upon business, the urgency of which has been established to the satisfaction of the military authorities. One must have a permit to live in them, even if they be one's home town. These towns are vital to the war and its successful prosecution. Until one has seen a British port of embarka- tion in this war one has no real beginning, even, of a conception of the task the war has imposed upon Britain. It was so with me, I know, and since then other men have told me the same thing. There the army begins to pour into the funnel, so to speak, that leads to France and the front. There all sorts of lines are brought together, all 118 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 119 sorts of scattered activities come to a focus. There is incessant activity, day and night. It was from Folkestone, on the southeast coast, that the Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P. Tour was to embark. And we reached Folkestone on June 7, 1917. Folkestone, in time of peace, was one of the greatest of the Southern watering places. It is a lovely spot. Great hotels line the Leas, a glorious promenade, along the top of chalk cliffs, that looks out over the Channel. In the distance one fancies one may see the coast of France, beyond the blue water. There is green grass everywhere behind the beach. Folkestone has a miniature harbor, that in time of peace gave shelter to the fishing fleet and to the channel steamers that plied to and from Boulogne, in France. The harbor is guarded by stone jetties. It has been greatly enlarged now — so has all Folkestone, for that matter. But I am remembering the town as it was in peace ! There was no pleasanter and kindlier resort along that coast. The beach was wonderful, and all summer long it attracted bathers and children at play. Bathing machines lined the beach, of course, within the limits of the town ; those queer, old, clumsy looking wagons, with a dressing cabin on wheels, that were drawn up and down accord- ing to the tide, so that bathers might enter the water from them directly. There, as in most Brit- 120 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE ish towns, women bathed at one part of the beach, men at the other, and all in the most decorous and modest of costumes. But at Folkestone, in the old days of peace, about a mile from the town limits, there was another stretch of beach where all the gay folk bathed — men and women together. And there the costumes were such as might be seen at Deauville or Ostend, Etretat or Trouville. Highly they scandalized the good folk of Folkestone, to be sure — but little was said, and nothing was done, for, after all those were the folk who spent the money ! They dressed in white tents that gleamed against the sea, and a pretty splash of color they made on a bright day for the soberer folk to go and watch, as they sat on the low chalk cliffs above them! Gone — gone ! Such days have passed for Folke- stone! They will no doubt come again — but when! When? June the seventh ! Folkestone should have been gay for the beginning of the onset of summer visitors. Sea bathing should just have been be- ginning to be attractive, as the sun warmed the sea and the beach. But when we reached the town war was over all. Men in uniform were every- where. Warships lay outside the harbor. Khaki and guns, men trudging along, bearing the bur- dens of war, motor trucks, rushing ponderously along, carrying ammunition and food, messengers A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 121 on motorcycles, sounding to all traffic that might be in the way the clamorous summons to clear the path — those were the sights we saw ! How hopelessly confused it all seemed ! I could not believe that there was order in the chaos that I saw. But that was because the key to all that bewildering activity was not in my possession. Every man had his appointed task. He was a cog in the greatest machine the world has ever seen. He knew just what he was to do, and how much time had been allowed for the performance of his task. It was assumed he would not fail. The British army makes that assumption, and it is warranted. I hear praise, even from men who hate the Hun as I hate him, for the superb military organiza- tion of the German army. They say the Kaiser's people may well take pride in that. But I say that I am prouder of what Britain and the new British army that has come into being since this war be- gan have done than any German has a right to be ! They spent forty-four years in making ready for a war they knew they meant, some day, to fight. We had not had, that day that I first saw our machine really functioning, as many months for preparation as they had had years. And yet we were doing our part. We had had to build and prepare while we helped our ally, France, to hold off that gray horde that had swept down so treacherously 122 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE through Belgium from the north and east. It was as if we had organized and trained and equipped a fire brigade while the fire was burning, and while our first devoted fighters sought to keep it in check with water buckets. And they did! They did! The water buckets served while the hose was made, and the mains were laid, and the hydrants set in place, and the trained firemen were made ready to take up the task. And, now that I had come to Folkestone, now that I was seeing the results of all the labor that had been performed, the effect of all the prodigies of organization, I began to know what Lord Kitchener and those who had worked with him had done. System ruled everything at Folke- stone. Nothing, it seeemd to me, as officers ex- plained as much as they properly could, had been left to chance. Here was order indeed. In the air above us airplanes flew to and fro. They circled about like great, watchful hawks. They looped and whirled around, cutting this way and that, circling always. And I knew that, as they flew about outside the harbor the men in them were never off their guard; that they were peer- ing down, watching every moment for the first trace of a submarine that might have crept through the more remote defenses of the Channel. Let a submarine appear — its shrift would be short indeed ! There, above, waited the airplanes. And on the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 123 surface of the sea sinister destroyers darted about as watchful as the jSyers above, ready for any emergency that might arise. I have no doubt that submarines of our own lurked below, waiting, too, to do their part. But those, if any there were, I did not see. And one asks no questions at a place like Folkestone. I was glad of any in- formation an officer might voluntarily give me. But it was not for me or any other loyal Briton to put him in the position of having to refuse to an- swer. Soon a great transport was pointed out to me, lying beside the jetty. Gangplanks were down, and up them streams of men in khaki moved end- lessly. Up they went, in an endless brown river, to disappear into the ship. The whole ship was a very hive of activity. Not only men were going aboard, but supplies of every sort; boxes of am- munition, stores, food. And I understood, and was presently to see, that beyond her sides there was the same ordered scene as prevailed on shore. Every man knew his task; the stowing away of everything that was being carried aboard was be- ing carried out systematically and with the utmost possible economy of time and effort. *' That's the ship you will cross the Channel on, " I was told. And I regarded her with a new interest. I do not know what part she had been wont to play in time of peace ; what useful, pleas- ant journeys it had been her part to complete. I 124 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE only knew that she was to carry me to France, and to the place where my heart was and for a long time had been. Me — and two thousand men who were to be of real use over there ! We were nearly the last to go on board. We found the decks swarming with men. Ah, the braw laddies ! They smoked and they laughed as they settled themselves for the trip. Never a one looked as though he might be sorry to be there. They were leaving behind them all the good things, all the pleasant things, of life as, in time of peace, every one of them had learned to live it and to know it. Long, long since had the last illusion faded of the old days when war had seemed a thing of pomp and circumstance and glory. They knew well, those boys, what it was they faced. Hard, grinding work they could look for- ward to doing ; such work as few of them had ever known in the old days. Death and wounds they could reckon upon as the portion of just about so many of them. There would be bitter cold, later, in the trenches, and mud, and standing for hours in icy mud and water. There would be hard fare, and scanty, sometimes, when things went wrong. There would be gas attacks, and the bursting of shells about them with all sorts of poisons in them. Always there would be the deadliest perils of these perilous days. But they sang as they set out upon the great A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 125 adventure of their lives. They smiled and laughed. They cheered me, so that the tears started from my eyes, when they saw me, and they called the gayest of gay greetings, though they knew that I was going only for a little while, and that many of them had set foot on British soil for the last time. The steady babble of their voices came to our ears, and they swarmed below us like ants as they disposed themselves about the decks, and made the most of the scanty space that was allowed for them. The trip was to be short, of course ; there were too few ships, and the prob- lems of convoy were too great, to make it possible to make the voyage a comfortable one. It was a case of getting them over as might best be ar- ranged. A word of command rang out and was passed around by officers and non coms. "Life belts must be put on before the ship sails ! ' ' That simple order brought home the grim facts of war at that moment as scarcely anything else could have done. Here was a grim warning of the peril that lurked outside. Everywhere men were scurrying to obey — I among the rest. The order applied as much to us civilians as it did to any of the soldiers. And my belt did not fit, and was hard, extremely hard, for me to don. I could no manage it at all by myself, but Adam and Hogge had had an easier time with theirs, and 126 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE they came to my help. Among us we got mine on, and Hogge stood off, and looked at me, and smiled. "An extraordinary effect, Harry!" he said, with a smile. ''I declare — it gives you the most charming embonpoint!" I had my doubts about his use of the word charming. I know that I should not have cared to have anyone judge of my looks from a picture taken as I looked then, had one been taken. But it was not a time for such thoughts. For a civilian, especially, and one not used to journeys in such times as these, there is a thrill and a solem- nity about the donning of a life preserver. I felt that I was indeed, it might be, taking a risk in making this journey, and it was an awesome thought that I, too, might have seen my native land for the last time, and said a real good-by to those whom I had left behind me. Now we cast off, and begun to move, and a thrill ran through me such as I had never known before in all my life. I went to the rail as we turned our nose toward the open sea. A destroyer was ahead, another was beside us, others rode steadily along on either side. It was the most reassuring of sights to see them. They looked so business like, so capable. I could not imagine a Hun sub- marine as able to evade their watchfulness. And moreover, there were the watchful man birds above us, the circling airplanes, that could make A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 127 out, so much better than could any lookout on a ship, the first trace of the presence of a tin fish. No — I was not afraid! I trusted in the British navy, which had guarded the sea lane so well that not a man had lost his life as the result of a Hun attack, although many millions had gone back and forth to France since the beginning of the war. I did not stay with my own party. I preferred to move about among the Soldiers. I was deeply interested in them, as I have always been. And I wanted to make friends among them, and see how they felt. *'Lor' lumme — its old 'Arry Lauder!" said one cockney. *'God bless you, 'Arry — many's the time I've sung with you in the 'alls. It's good to see you with us ! " And so I was greeted everywhere. Man after man crowded around me to shake hands. It brought a lump into my throat to be greeted so, and it made me more than ever glad that the mili- tary authorities had been able to see their way to grant my request. It confirmed my belief that I was going where I might be really useful to the men who were ready and willing to make the greatest of all sacrifices in the cause so close to all our hearts. When I first went aboard the transport I picked up a little gold stripe. It was one of those men wear who have been wounded, as a badge of 128 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE honor. I hoped I might be able to find the man who had lost it, and return it to him. But none of them claimed it, and I have kept it, to this day, as a souvenir of that voyage. It was easy for them to know me. I wore my kilt and my cap, and my knife in my stocking, as I have always done, on the stage, and nearly al- ways off it as well. And so they recognized me without difficulty. And never a one called me any- thing but Harry — except when it was 'Arry! I think I would be much affronted if ever a British soldier called me Mr. Lauder. I don't know — ^be- cause not one of them ever did, and I hope none ever will ! They told me that there were men from the Highlands on board, and I went looking for them, and found them after a time, though going about that ship, so crowded she was, was no easy mat- ter. They were Gordon Highlanders, mostly, I found, and they were glad to see me, and made me welcome, and I had a pipe with them, and a good talk. Many of them were going back, after having been at home, recuperating from wounds. And they and the new men too were all eager and anxious to be put there and at work. "Gie us a chance at the Huns — it's all we're asking," said one of a new draft. ** They 're tell- ing us they don't like the sight of our kilts, Harry, and that a Hun's got less stomach for the cold A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 129 steel of a bayonet than for anything else on earth. Weel — we're carrying a dose of it for them!" And the men who had been out before, and were taking back with them the scars they had earned, were just as anxious as the rest. That was the spirit of every man on board. They did not like war as war, but they knew that this was a war that must be fought to the finish, and never a man of them wanted peace to come until Fritz had learned his lesson to the bottom of the last grim page. I never heard a word of the danger of meeting a submarine. The idea that one might send a tor- pedo after us popped into my mind once or twice, but when it did I looked out at the destroyers, guarding us, and the airplanes above, and I felt as safe as if I had been in bed in my wee hoose at Dunoon. It was a true highway of war that those whippets of the sea had made the Channel cross- ing. Ahm, but I was proud that day of the British navy! It is a great task that it has performed, and nobly it has done it. And it was proud and glad I was again when we sighted land, as we soon did, and I knew that I was gazing, for the first time since war had been declared, upon the shores of our great ally, France. It was the great day and the proud day and the happy day for me ! I was near the realizing of an old dream I had often had. I was with the soldiers who had my 130 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE love and my devotion, and I was coming to France — the France that every Scotchman learns to love at his mother's breast. A stir ran through the men. Orders began to fly, and I went back to my place and my party. Soon we would be ashore, and I would be in the way of beginning the work I had come to do. A tatter of plaid of the Black Watch .m a wire of a German entanglement barely suggests the hell the Scotch troops have gone through. CHAPTER Xni BOULOGNE ! Like Folkestone, Boulogne, in happier times, had been a watering place, less fash- ionable than some on the French coast, but the pleasant resort of many in search of health and pleasure. And like Folkestone it had suffered the blight of war. The war had laid its heavy hand upon the port. It ruled everything; it was omni- present. From the moment when we came into full view of the harbor it was impossible to think of anything else. Folkestone had made me think of the mouth of a great funnel, into which all broad Britain had been pouring men and guns and all the manifold supplies and stores of modern war. And the trip across the narrow, well guarded lane in the Chan- nel had been like the pouring of water through the neck of that same funnel. Here in Boulogne was the opening. Here the stream of men and sup- plies spread out to begin its orderly, irresistible flow to the front. All of northern France and Belgium lay before that stream; it had to cover all the great length of the British front. Not from Boulogne alone, of course; I knew of Dun- 131 132 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE kirk and Calais, and guessed at other ports. There were other funnels, and into all of them, day after day, Britain was pouring her tribute; through all of them she was offering her sacrifice, to be laid upon the altar of strife. Here, much more than at Folkestone, as it chanced, I saw at once another thing. There was a double funnel. The stream ran both ways. For, as we steamed into Boulogne, a ship was coming out — a ship with a grim and tragic burden. She was one of our hospital ships. But she was guarded as carefully by destroyers and aircraft as our transport had been. The Red Cross meant nothing to the Hun — except, perhaps, a shining target. Ship after ship that bore that symbol of mercy and of pain had been sunk. No longer did our navy dare to trust the Red Cross. It took every precaution it could take to protect the poor fellows who were going home to Blighty. As we made our way slowly in, through the crowded harbor, full of transports, of ammunition ships, of food carriers, of destroyers and small naval craft of all sorts, I began to be able to see more and more of what was afoot ashore. It was near noon; the day that had been chosen for my arrival in France was one of brilliant sunshine and a cloudless sky. And my eyes were drawn to other hospital ships that were waiting at the docks. Motor ambulances came dashing up, one after the other, in what seemed to me to be an end- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 133 less stream. The pity of that sight ! It was as if I could peer through the intervening space and see the bandaged heads, the places where limbs had been, the steadfast gaze of the boys who were being carried up in stretchers. They had done their task, a great number of them ; they had given all that God would let them give to King and country. Life was left to them, to be sure; most of these boys were sure to live. But to what maimed and incomplete lives were they doomed ! The thousands who would be crip- ples always — blind, some of them, and helpless, dependent upon what others might choose or be able to do for them. It was then, in that moment, that an idea was born, vaguely, in my mind, of which I shall have much more to say later. There was beauty in that harbor of Boulogne. The sun gleamed against the chalk cliffs. It caught the wings of airplanes, flying high above us. But there was little of beauty in my mind's eye. That could see through the surface beauty of the scene and of the day to the grim, stark ugli- ness of war that lay beneath. I saw the ordered piles of boxes and supplies, the bright guns, mth the sun reflected from their barrels, dulled though these were to prevent that very thing. And I thought of the waste that was involved — of how all this vast product of industry was destined to be destroyed, as swiftly as might be, bringing no useful accomplishment with its 134. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE destruction — save, of course, that accomplishment which must be completed before any useful thing may be done again in this world. Then we went ashore, and I could scarcely be- lieve that we were indeed in France, that land which, friends though our nations are, is at heart and in spirit so different from my own country. Boulogne had ceased to be French, indeed. The port was like a bit of Britain picked up, carried across the Channel and transplanted successfully to a new resting-place. English was spoken everywhere — and much of it was the English of the cockney, innocent of the aitch, and redolent of that strange tongue. But it is no for me, a Scot, to speak of how any other man uses the King's English ! Well I ken it ! It was good to hear it — had there been a thought in my mind of being homesick, it would quickly have been dispelled. The streets rang to the tread of British soldiers; our uniform was everywhere. There were Frenchmen, too ; they were attached, many of them, for one reason and another, to the British forces. But most of them spoke English too. I had most care about the unloading of my cigarettes. It was a point of honor with me, by now, after the way my friends had joked me about them, to see that every last one of the *'fags" I had brought with me reached a British Tommy. So to them I gave my first care. Then I saw to the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 135 unloading of my wee piano, and, having done so, was free to go with the other members of the Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour to the small hotel that was to be headquarters for all of us in Boulogne. Arrangements had to be made for my debut in France, and I can tell you that no professional en- gagement I have ever filled ever gave me half so much concern as this one! I have sung before many strange audiences, in all parts of the world, or nearly all. I have sung for folk who had no idea of what to expect from me, and have known that I must be at work from the moment of my first appearance on the stage to win them. But these audiences that I was to face here in France gave me more thought than any of them. I had so great a reason for wanting to suceed with them! And here, ye ken, I faced conditions that were harder than had ever fallen to my lot. I was not to have, most of the time, even the military thea- ters that had, in some cases, been built for the men behind the lines, where many actors and, in- deed, whole companies, from home had been ap- pearing. I could make no changes of costume. I would have no orchestra. Part of the time I would have my wee piano, but I reckoned on going to places where even that sma' thing could no fol- low me. But I had a good manager — the British army, 136 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE no less ! It was the army that had arranged my booking. We were not left alone, not for a min- ute. I would not have you think that we were left to go around on our own, and as we pleased. Far from it! No sooner had we landed than Captain Roberts, D.S.O., told me, in a brief, sol- dierly way, that was also extremely businesslike, what sort of plans had been made for us. *'We have a number of big hospitals here," he said. ^'This is one of the important British bases, as you know, and it is one of those where many of our men are treated before they are sent home. So, since you are here, we thought you would want to give your first concerts to the wounded men here." So I learned that the opening of what you might call my engagement in the trenches was to be in hospitals. That was not new to me, and yet I was to find that there was a difference between a base hospital in France and the sort of hospitals I had seen so often at home. Nothing, indeed, was left to us. After Captain Roberts had explained matters, we met Captain Godfrey, who was to travel with us, and be our guide, our military mentor and our ruler. We understood that we must place ourselves under him, and under military discipline. No Tommy, indeed, was more under discipline than we had to be. But we did not chafe, civilians though we were. When you see the British army at work A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 137 nothing is further from your thoughts than to criticize or to offer any suggestions. It knows its business, and does it, quietly and without fuss. But even Fritz has learned to be chary of getting in the way when the British army has made up its mind — and that is what he is there for, though I've no doubt that Fritz himself would give a pretty penny to be at home again, with peace de- clared. Captain Godfrey, absolute though his power over us was — he could have ordered us all home at a moment's notice — turned out to be a delight- ful young officer, who did everything in his power to make our way smooth and pleasant, and who was certainly as good a manager as I ever had or ever expect to have. He entered into the spirit of our tour, and it was plain to see that it would be a success from start to finish if it were within his power to make it so. He liked to call himself my manager, and took a great delight, indeed, in the whole experience. Well, it was a change for him, no doubt! I had brought a piano with me, but no accom- panist. That was not an oversight ; it was a mat- ter of deliberate choice. I had been told, before I left home, that I would have no difficulty in finding some one among the soldiers to accompany me. And that was true, as I soon found. In fact, as I was to learn later, I could have recruited a full orchestra among the Tommies, and I would have 138 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE had in my band, too, musicians of fame and great ability, far above the average theater orchestra. Oh, you must go to France to learn how every art and craft in Britain has done its part ! Aye, every sort of artist and artisan, men of every profession and trade, can be found in the British army. It has taken them all, like some great melting pot, and made them soldiers. I think, indeed, there is no calling that you could name that would not yield you a master hand from the ranks of the British army. And I am not talking of the officers alone, but of the great mass of Tommies. And so when I told Captain God- frey I would be needing a good pianist to play my accompaniments, he just smiled. ** Right you are!" he said. ".We'll turn one up for you in no time!" He had no doubts at all, and he was right. They found a lad called Johnson, a Yorkshireman, in a convalescent ward of one of the big hospitals. He was recovering from an illness he had incurred in the trenches, and was not quite ready to go back to active duty. But he was well enough to play for me, and delighted when he heard he might get the assignment. He was nervous lest he should not please me, and feared I might ask for another man. But when I ran over with him the songs I meant to sing I found he played the piano very well indeed, and had a knack for accompany- ing, too. There are good pianists, soloists, who A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 139 are not good accompanists; it takes more than just the ability to play the piano to work with a singer, and especially with a singer like me. It is no straight ahead singing I do always, as you ken, perhaps. But I saw at once that Johnson and I would get along fine together, so everyone was pleased, and I went on and made my preparations with him for my first concert. That was to be in the Bou- logne Casino — center of the gayety of the resort in the old days, but now, for a long time, turned into a base hospital. They had played for high stakes there in the old days before the war. Thousands of dollars had changed hands in an hour there. But they were playing for higher stakes now ! They were playing for the lives and the health of men, and the hearts of the women at home in Britain who were bound up with them. In the old days men had staked their money against the turn of a card or the roll of the wheel. But now it was with Death they staked — and it was a mightier game than those old walls had ever seen before. The largest ward of the hospital was in what had been the Baccarat room, and it was there I held my first concert of the trench engagement. "When I appeared it was packed full. There were men on cots, lying still and helpless, bandaged to their very eyes. Some came limping in on their crutches; some were rolled in in chairs. It was 140 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE a sad scene and an impressive one, and it went to my heart when I thought that my own poor laddie must have lain in just such a room — in this very one, perhaps. He had suffered as these men were suffering, and he had died — as some of these men for whom I was to sing would die. For there were men here w^ho would be patched up, pres- ently, and would go back. And for them there might be a next time — a next time when they would need no hospital. There was one thing about the place I liked. It was so clean and white and spotless. All the garish display, the paint and tawdry finery, of the old gambling days, had gone. It was restful, now, and though there was the hospital smell, it was a clean smell. And the men looked as though they had wonderful care. Indeed, I knew they had that; I knew that everything that could be done to ease their state was being done. And every face I saw was brave and cheerful, though the skin of many and many a lad was stretched tight over his bones with the pain he had known, and there was a look in their eyes, a look with no repining in it, or complaint, but with the evi- dences of a terrible pain, bravely suffered, that sent the tears starting to my eyes more than once. It was much as it had been in the many hospi- tals I had visited in Britain, and yet it was differ- ent^ too. I felt that I was really at the front. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 14.1 Later I came to realize how far from the real front I actually was at Boulogne, but then I knew no better. I had chosen my programme carefully. It was made up of songs altogether. I had had enough experience in hospitals and camps by now to have learned what soldiers liked best, and I had no doubt at all that it was just songs. And best of all they liked the old love songs, and the old songs of Scotland — tender, crooning melodies, that would help to carry them back, in memory, to their hames and, if they had them, to the lassies of their dreams. It was no sad, lugubrious songs they wanted. But a note of wistful tenderness they liked. That was true of sick and wounded, and of the hale and hearty too — and it showed that, though they were soldiers, they were just humans like the rest of us, for all the great and super- human things they ha' done out there in France. Not every actor and artist who has tried to help in the hospitals has fully understood the men he or she wanted to please. They meant well, every one, but some were a wee bit unfortunate in the way they went to work. There is a story that is told of one of our really great serious actors. He is serious minded, always, on the stage and off, and very, very dignified. But some folk went to him and asked him would he no do his bit to cheer up the puir laddies in a hospital I 142 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE He never thought of refusing — and I would no have you think I am sneering at the man ! His in- tentions were of the best. *'0f course, I do not sing or dance," he said, drawing down his lip. And the look in his eyes showed what he thought of such of us as had de- scended to such low ways of pleasing the public that paid to see us and to hear us : * ' But I shall very gladly do something to bring a little diver- sion into the sad lives of the poor boys in the hos- pitals." It was a stretcher audience that he had. That means a lot of boys who had to lie in bed to hear him. They needed cheering. And that great actor, with all his good intentions could think of nothing more fitting than to stand up before them and begin to recite, in a sad, elocu- tionary tone, Longfellow's **The Wreck of the Hesperus!" He went on, and his voice gained power. He had come to the third stanza, or the fourth, maybe, when a command rang out through the ward. It was one that had been heard many and many a time in France, along the trenches. It came from one of the beds. ''To cover, men!" came the order. It rang out through the ward, in a hoarse voice. And on the word every man's head popped under the bedclothes! And the great actor, astonished beyond measure, was left there, reciting away to A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 143 shaking mounds of bedclothes that entrenched his hearers from the sound of his voice ! Well, I had heard yon tale. I do no think I should ever have risked a similar fate by making the same sort of mistake, but I profited by hearing it, and I always remembered it. And there was another thing. I never thought, when I was go- ing to sing for soldiers, that I was doing some- thing for them that should make them glad to listen to me, no matter what I chose to sing for them. I always thought, instead, that here was an au- dience that had paid to hear me in the dearest coin in all the world — their legs and arms, their health and happiness. Oh, they had paid! They had not come in on free passes! Their tickets had cost them dear — dearer than tickets for the thea- ter had ever cost before. I owed them more than I could ever pay — my own future, and my free- dom, and the right and the chance to go on living in my own country free from the threat and the menace of the Hun. It was for me to please those boys when I sang for them, and to make such an effort as no ordinary audience had ever heard from me. They had made a little platform to serve as a stage for me. There was room for me and for Johnson, and for the wee piano. And so I sang for them, and they showed me from the start that j;hey were pleased. Those who could, clapped, 144 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE and all cheered, and after each song there was a great pounding of crutches on the floor. It was an inspiring sound and a great sight, sad though it was to see and to hear. When I had done I went aboot amang the men, shaking hands with such as could gie me their hands, and saying a word or two to all of them. Directly in front of the platform there lay a wounded Scots soldier, and all through my concert he watched me most intently; he never took his eyes off me. When I had sung my last song he beckoned to me feebly, and I went to him, and bent over to listen to him. **Eh, Harry, man," he said, "will ye be doin' me a favor?" "Aye, that I will, if I can," I told him. "It's to ask the doctor will I no be gettin' better soon. Because, Harry, mon, I've but the one de- sire left — and that's to be in at the finish of yon fight!" I was to give one more concert in Boulogne, that night. That was more cheerful, and it was differ- ent, again, from anything I had done or known be- fore. There was a convalescent camp, about two miles from town, high up on the chalk cliffs. And this time my theater was a Y.M.C.A. hut. But do not let the name hut deceive ye! I had an audience of two thousand men that nicht ! It was all the "hut" would hold, with tight squeezing. And what a roaring, wild crowd that was, to be A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 145 sure ! They sang with me, and they cheered and clapped until I thought that hut would be needing a new roof! I had to give over at last, for I was tired, and needed sleep. We had our orders. The Rever- end Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour was to start for Vimy Ridge at six o'clock next morning! CHAPTER XIY WE were up next morning before daybreak. But I did not feel as if I were getting up early. Indeed, it was quite the re- verse. All about us was a scene of such activity that I felt as if I had been lying in bed uncon- sciously long — as if I were the laziest man in all that busy town. Troops were setting out, board- ing military trains. Cheery, jovial fellows they were — the same lads, some of them, who had crossed the Channel with me, and many others who had come in later. Oh, it is a steady stream of men and supplies, indeed, that goes across the narrow sea to France ! Motor trucks — they were calling them camions, after the French fashion, because it was a shorter and a simpler word — fairly swarmed in the streets. Guns rolled ponderously along. It was not military pomp we saw. Indeed, I saw little enough of that in France. It was only the uni- forms and the guns that made me realize that this was war. The activity was more that of a busy, bustling factory town. It was not English, and it was not French. I think it made me think more of an American city. War, I cannot tell you often enough, is a great business, a vast industry, 146 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 147 in these days. Someone said, and he was right, that they did not win victories any more — that they manufactured them, as all sorts of goods are manufactured. Digging, and building — that is the great work of modern war. Our preparations, being in the hands of Captain Godfrey and the British army, were few and easily made. Two great, fast army motor cars had been put at the disposal of the Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour, and when we went out to get into them and make our start it was just a problem of stowing away all we had to carry with us. The first car was a passenger car. Each motor had a soldier as chauffeur. I and the Reverend George Adam rode in the tonneau of the leading car, and Captain Godfrey, our manager and guide, sat with the driver, in front. That was where he belonged, and where, being a British officer, he naturally wanted to be. They have called our officers reckless, and said that they risked their lives too freely. "Weel — I dinna ken! I am no soldier. But I know what a glorious tradition the British officer has — and I know, too, how his men follow him. They know, do the laddies in the ranks, that their officers will never ask them to go anywhere or do anything they would shirk themselves — and that makes for a spirit that you could not esteem too highly. It was the second car that was our problem. 148 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE We put Johnson, my accompanist, in the tonneau first, and then we covered him with cigarettes. It was a problem to get them stowed away, and when we had accomplished the task, finally, there was not much of Johnson to be seen! He was covered and surrounded with cigarettes, but he was snug, and he looked happy and comfortable, as he grinned at us — his face was about all of him that we could see. Hogge rode in front with the driver of that car, and had more room, so, than he would have had in the tonneau, where, as a passenger and a guest, he really belonged. The wee bit piano was lashed to the grid of the second car. And I give you my word it looked like a gypsy's wagon more than like one of the neat cars of the British army! Weel, all was ready in due time, and it was just six o'clock when we set off. There was a thing I noted again and again. The army did things on time in France. If we were to start at a cer- tain time we always did. Nothing ever happened to make us unpunctual. It was a glorious morning! We went roaring out of Boulogne on a road that was as hard and smooth as a paved street in London despite all the terrific traffic it had borne since the war made Boulogne a British base. And there were no speed limits here. So soon as the cars were tuned up we went along at the highest speed of which the cars were capable. Our soldier drivers knew A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 149 their business ; only the picked men were assigned to the driving of these cars, and speed was one of the things that was wanted of them. Much may hang on the speed of a motor car in France. But, fast as we traveled, we did not go too fast for me to enjoy the drive and the sights and sounds that were all about us. They were oddly mixed. Some were homely and familiar, and some were so strange that I could not give over wondering at them. The motors made a great noise, but it was not too loud for me to hear larks singing in the early morning. All the world was green with the early sun upon it, lighting up every detail of a strange countryside. There was a soft wind, a gentle, caressing wind, that stirred the leaves of the trees along the road. But not for long could we escape the touch of war. That grim etcher was at work upon the road and the whole countryside. As we went on we were bound to move more slowly, because of the congestion of the traffic. Never was Piccadilly or Fifth Avenue more crowded with motors at the busiest hour of the day than was that road. As we passed through villages or came to cross roads we saw military police, directing traffic, precisely as they do at busy intersections of crowded streets in London or New York. But the traffic along that road was not the traffic of the cities. Here were no ladies, gor- geously clad, reclining in their luxurious, deeply 150 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE upholstered cars. Here were no footmen and chauffeurs in livery. Ah, they wore a livery — aye! But it was the livery of glory — the khaki of the King! Generals and high officers passed us, bowling along, lolling in their cars, taking their few brief minutes or half hours of ease, smoking and talking. They corresponded to the limousines and landaulets of the cities. And there were wagons from the shops — great trucks, carrying supplies, going along at a pace that racked their engines and their bodies, and that boded disaster to whoever got in their way. But no one did — there was no real confusion here, despite the seeming madness of the welter of traffic that we saw. What a traffic that was! And it was all the traffic of the carnage we were nearing. It was a marvelous and an impressive panorama of force and of destruction that we saw — it was being con- stantly unrolled before my wondering eyes as we traveled along the road out of old Boulogne. At first all the traffic was going our way. Some- times there came a warning shriek from behind, and everything drew to one side to make room for a dispatch rider on a motor cycle. These had the right of way. Sir Douglas Haig himself, were he driving along, would see his driver turn out to make way for one of those shrieking motor bikes ! The rule is absolute — everything makes way for them. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 151 But it was not long before a tide of traffic began to meet us, flowing back toward Boulogne. There was a double stream then, and I wondered how collisions and traffic jams of all sorts could be avoided. I do not know yet; I only know that there is no trouble. Here were empty trucks, speeding back for new loads. And some there were that carried all sorts of wreckage — the flot- sam and jetsam cast up on the safe shores behind the front by the red tide of war. Nothing is thrown away out there ; nothing is wasted. Great piles of discarded shoes are brought back to be made over. They are as good as new when they come back from the factories where they are worked over. Indeed, the men told me they were better than new, because they were less trying to their feet, and did not need so much breaking in. Men go about, behind the front, and after a bat- tle, picking up everything that has been thrown away. Everything is sorted and gone over with the utmost care. Rifles that have been thrown away or dropped when men were wounded or killed, bits of uniforms, bayonets — everything is saved. Reclamation is the order of the day. There is waste enough in war that cannot be avoided; the British army sees to it that there is none that is avoidable. But it was not only that sort of wreckage, that sort of driftwood that was being carried back to be made over. Presently we began to see great 152 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE motor ambulances coming along, each with a Red Cross painted glaringly on its side — though that paint was wasted or worse, for there is no target the Hun loves better, it would seem, than the great red cross of mercy. And in them, as we knew, there was the most pitiful wreckage of all — the human wreckage of the war. In the wee sma' hours of the morn they bear the men back who have been hit the day before and during the night. They go back to the field dressing stations and the hospitals just behind the front, to be sorted like the other wreckage. Some there are who cannot be moved further, at first, but must be cared for under fire, lest they die on the way. But all whose wounds are such that they can safely be moved go back in the ambulances, first to the great base hospitals, and then, when possible, on the hospital ships to England. Sometimes, but not often, we passed troops marching along the road. They swung along. They marched easily, with the stride that could carry them furthest with the least effort. They did not look much like the troops I used to see in London. They did not have the snap of the Cold- stream Guards, marching through Green Park in the old days. But they looked like business and like war. They looked like men who had a job of work to do and meant to see it through. They had discipline, those laddies, but it was not the old, stiff discipline of the old army. That A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 153 is a thing of a day that is dead and gone. Now, as we passed along the side of the road that marching troops always leave clear, there was always a series of hails for me. "Hello, Harry!" I would hear. And I would look back, and see grinning Tom- mies waving their hands to me. It was a flatter- ing experience, I can tell you, to be recognized like that along that road. It was like running into old friends in a strange town where you have come thinking you know no one at all. We were about thirty miles out of Boulogne when there was a sudden explosion underneath the car, followed by a sibilant sound that I knew only too well. * ' Hello — a puncture ! ' ' said Godfrey, and smiled as he turned around. We drew up to the side of the road, and both chauffeurs jumped out and went to work on the recalcitrant tire. The rest of us sat still, and gazed around us at the fields. I was glad to have a chance to look quietly about. The fields stretched out, all emerald green, in all directions to the distant horizon, sapphire blue that glorious morning. And in the fields, here and there, were the bent, stooped figures of old men and women. They were carrying on, quietly. Husbands and sons and brothers had gone to war ; all the young men of France had gone. These were left, and they were seeing to the perform- ance of the endless cycle of duty. France would 154* A MINSTREL IN FRANCE survive ; the Hun could not crush her. Here was a spirit made manifest — a spirit different in degree but not in kind from the spirit of my ain Britain. It brought a lump into my throat to see them, the old men and the women, going so pa-' tiently and quietly about their tasks. It was very quiet. Faint sounds came to us; there was a distant rumbling, like the muttering of thunder on a summer's night, when the day has been hot and there are low, black clouds lying against the horizon, with the flashes of the light- ning playing through them. But that I had come already not to heed, though I knew full well, by now, what it was and what it meant. For a little space the busy road had become clear; there was a long break in the traffic. I turned to Adam and to Captain Godfrey. "I'm thinking here's a fine chance for a bit of a rehearsal in the open air," I said. "I'm not used to singing so — mayhap it would be well to try my voice and see will it carry as it should." "Right oh!" said Godfrey. And so we dug Johnson out from his snug bar- ricade of cigarettes, that hid him as an emplace- ment hides a gun, and we unstrapped my wee piano, and set it up in the road. Johnson tried the piano, and then we began. I think I never sang with less restraint in all my life than I did that quiet morning on the Boulogne road. I raised my voice and let it have its will. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 156 And I felt my spirits rising with the lilt of the melody. My voice rang out, full and free, and it must have carried far and wide across the fields. My audience was small at first — Captain God- frey, Hogge, Adam, and the two chauffeurs, work- ing away, and having more trouble with the tire than they had thought at first they would — which is the way of tires, as every man knows who owns a car. But as they heard my songs the old men and women in the fields straightened up to listen. They stood wondering, at first, and then, slowly, they gave over their work for a space, and came to gather round me and to listen. It must have seemed strange to them ! Indeed, it must have seemed strange to anyone had they seen and heard me ! There I was, with Johnson at my piano, like some wayside tinker setting up his cart and working at his trade ! But I did not care for appearances — not a whit. For the mo- ment I was care free, a wandering minstrel, like some troubadour of old, care free and happy in my song. I forgot the black shadow under which we all lay in that smiling land, the black shadow of war in which I sang. It delighted me to see those old peasants and to study their faces, and to try to win them with my song. They could not understand a word I sang, and yet I saw the smiles breaking out over their wrinkled faces, and it made me proud and 156 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE happy. For it was plain that I was reaching them — that I was able to throw a bridge over the gap of a strange tongue and an alien race. When I had done and it was plain I meant to sing no more they clapped me. ** There's a hand for yon, Harry," said Adam, ''Aye — and I'm proud of it!" I told him for reply. I was almost sorry when I saw that the two chauffeurs had finished their repairs and were ready to go on. But I told them to lash the piano back in its place, and Johnson prepared to climb gingerly back among his cigarettes. But just then something happened that I had not expected. There was a turn in the road just beyond us that hid its continuation from us. And around the bend now there came a company of soldiers. Not neat and well-appointed soldiers these. Ah, no! They were fresh from the trenches, on their way back to rest. The mud and grime of the trenches were upon them. They were tired and weary, and they carried all their accoutrements and packs with them. Their boots were heavy with mud. And they looked bad, and many of them shaky. Most of these men, Godfrey told me after a glance at them, had been ordered back to hospital for minor ailments. They were able to march, but not much more. They were the first men I had seen in such a case. They looked bad enough, but Godfrey said A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 157 they were happy enough. Some of them would get leave for Blighty, and be home, in a few days, to see their families and their girls. And they eame swinging along in fine style, sick and tired as they were, for the thought of where they were going cheered them and helped to keep them going. A British soldier, equipped for the trenches, on his way in or out, has quite a load to carry. He has his pack, and his emergency ration, and his entrenching tools, and extra clothing that he needs in bad weather in the trenches, to say nothing of his ever-present rifle. And the sight of them made me realize for the first time the truth that lay behind the jest in a story that is one of Tommy's favorites. A child saw a soldier in heavy marching order. She gazed at him in wide-eyed wonder. He was not her idea of what a soldier should look like. ''Mother," she asked, '' what is a soldier for?" The mother gazed at the man. And then she smiled. ''A soldier," she answered, ''is to hang things on." They eyed me very curiously as they came along, those sick laddies. They couldn't seem to understand what I was doing there, but their dis- cipline held them. They were in charge of a young lieutenant with one star — a second lieu- tenant. I learned later that he was a long way 158 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE from being a well man himself. So I stopped him. ''Would your men like to hear a few songs, lieutenant?" I asked him. He hesitated. He didn't quite understand, and he wasn't a bit sure what his duty was in the cir- cumstances. He glanced at Godfrey, and Godfrey smiled at him as if in encouragement. **It's very good of you, I'm sure," he said, slowly. "Fallout!" So the men fell out, and squatted there, along the wayside. At once discipline was relaxed. Their faces were a study as the wee piano was set up again, and Johnson, in uniform, of course sat down and trued a chord or two. And then suddenly something happened that broke the ice. Just as I stood up to sing a loud voice broke the silence. *'Lor' love us!" one of the men cried, *'if it ain't old 'Arry Lauder!" There was a stir of interest at once. I spotted the owner of the voice. It was a shriveled up lit- tle chap, with a weazened face that looked like a sun-dried apple. He was showing all his teeth in a grin at me, and he was a typical little cockney of the sort all Londoners know well. *'Go it, 'Arry!" he shouted, shrilly. **Many*s the time h' I've 'eard you at the old Shoreditch!" So I went it as well as I could, and I never did have a more appreciative audience. My little cockney friend seemed to take a particular per- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 159 sonal pride in me. I think he thought he had found me, and that he was, in an odd way, respon- sible for my success with his mates. And so he was especially glad when they cheered me and thanked me as they did. My concert didn't last long, for we had to be getting on, and the company of sick men had just so much time, too, to reach their destination — Boulogne, whence we had set out. When it was over I said good-by to the men, and shook hands with particular warmth with the little cockney. It wasn't every day I was likely to meet a man who had often heard me at the old Shoreditch! After we had stowed Johnson and the piano away again, with a few less cigarettes, now, to get in Johnson's way, we started, and as long as we were in sight the little cockney and I were wav- ing to one another. I took some of the cigarettes into the car I was in now. And as we sped along we were again in the thick of the great British war machine. Motor trucks and ambulances were more frequent than ever, and it was a common occurrence now to pass soldiers, marching in both directions — to the front and away from it. There was always some- one to recognize me and start a volley of *^ Hello, Harrys" coming my way, and I answered every greeting, you may be sure, and threw cigarettes to go with my ''Helios." Aye, I was glad I had brought the cigarettes ! 160 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE They seemed to be even more welcome than I had hoped they would be, and I only wondered how long the supply would hold out, and if I would be able to get more if it did not. So Johnson, little by little, was getting more room, as I called for more and more of the cigarettes that walled him in in his tonneau. About noon, as we drove through a little town, I saw, for the first time, a whole flock of airplanes riding the sky. They were swooping about like lazy hawks, and a bonnie sight they were. I drew a long breath when I saw them, and turned to my friend Adam. ''Well," I said, *'I think we're coming to it, now!" I meant the front — the real, British front. Suddenly, at a sharp order from Captain God- frey, our cars stopped. He turned around to us, and grinned, very cheerfully. "Gentlemen," he said, very calmly, "we'll stop here long enough to put on our steel helmets. ' ' He said it just as he might have said: "Well, here's where we will stop for tea." It meant no more than that to him. But for me it meant many things. It meant that at last I was really to be under fire; that I was going into danger. I was not really frightened yet ; you have to see danger, and know just what it is, and appre- ciate exactly its character, before you can be frightened. But I had imagination enough to A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 161' know what that order meant, and to have a queer feeling as I donned the steel helmet. It was less uncomfortable than I had expected it to be — lighter, and easier to wear. The British trench helmets are beautifully made, now; as in every other phase of the war and its work they repre- sent a constant study for improvement, lightening. But, even had it not been for the warning that was implied in Captain Godfrey's order, I should soon have understood that we had come into a new region. For a long time now the noise of the guns had been different. Instead of being like distant thunder it was a much nearer and louder sound. It was a steady, throbbing roar now. And, at intervals, there came a different sound; a sound more individual, that stood out from the steady roar. It was as if the air were being cracked apart by the blow of some giant hammer. I knew what it was. Aye, I knew. You need no man to tell you what it is — the explosion of a great shell not so far from you ! Nor was it our ears alone that told us what was going on. Ever and anon, now, ahead of us, as we looked at the fields, we saw a cloud of dirt rise up. That was where a shell struck. And in the fields about us, now, we could see holes, full of water, as a rule, and mounds of dirt that did not look as if shovels and picks had raised them. It surprised me to see that the peasants were still at work, I spoke to Godfrey about that. 162 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE ''The Frencli peasants don't seem to know what it is to be afraid of shell-fire," he said. "They go only when we make them. It is the same on the French front. They will cling to a farm- house in the zone of fire until they are ordered out, no matter how heavily it may be shelled. They are splendid folk ! The Germans can never beat a race that has such folk as that behind its battle line." I could well believe him. I have seen no sight along the whole front more quietly impressive than the calm, impassive courage of those French peasants. They know they are right! It is no Kaiser, no war lord, who gives them courage. It is the knowledge and the consciousness that they are suffering in a holy cause, and that, in the end, the right and the truth must prevail. Their own fate, whatever may befall them, does not matter. France must go on and shall, and they do their humble part to see that she does and shall. Solemn thoughts moved me as we drove on. Here there had been real war and fighting. Now I saw a country blasted by shell-fire and wrecked by the contention of great armies. And I knew that I was coming to soil watered by British blood; to rows of British graves; to soil that shall be forever sacred to the memory of the Britons, from Britain and from over the seas, who died and fought upon it to redeem it from the Hun. I had no mind to talk, to ask questions. For A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 163 the time I was content to be with my own thoughts, that were evoked by the historic ground through which we passed. My heart was heavy with grief and with the memories of my boy that came flood- ing it, but it was lightened, too, by other thoughts. And always, as we sped on, there was the thunder of the guns. Always there were the bursting shells, and the old bent peasants paying no heed to them. Always there were the circling airplanes, far above us, like hawks against the deep blue of the sky. And always we came nearer and nearer to Vimy Ridge — that deathless name in the history of Britain. CHAPTER XV NOW Captain Godfrey leaned back and smiled at us. "There's Vimy Ridge,*' he said. And he pointed. "Yon?" I asked, in astonishment. I was almost disappointed. We had heard so much, in Britain and in Scotland, of Vimy Ridge. The name of that famous hill had been written im- perishably in history. But to look at it first, to see it as I saw it, it was no hill at all ! My eyes were used to the mountains of my ain Scotland, and this great ridge was but a tiny thing beside them. But then I began to picture the scene as it had been the day the Canadians stormed it and won for themselves the glory of all the ages. I pictured it blotted from sight by the hell of shells bursting over it, and raking its slopes as the Cana- dians charged upward. I pictured it crowned by defenses and lined by such of the Huns as had sur- vived the artillery battering, spitting death and destruction from their machine guns. And then I saw it as I should, and I breathed deep at the thought of the men who had faced death and hell to win that height and plant the flag of Britain upon it. Aye, and the Stars and Stripes of America, too ! 164 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 165 Ye ken that tale! There was an American who had enlisted, like so many of his fellow countrymen before America was in the war, in the Canadian forces. The British army was full of men who had told a white lie to don the King's uniform. Men there are in the British army who winked as they enlisted and were told: ''You'll be a Cana- dian?" "Aye, aye, I'm a Canadian," they'd say. * ' From what province ? " "The province of Kentucky — or New York — or California!" Well, there was a lad, one of them, was in the first wave at Vimy Ridge that April day in 1917. 'Twas but a few days before that a wave of the wildest cheering ever heard had run along the whole Western front, so that Fritz in his trenches wondered what was up the noo. Well, he has learned, since then! He has learned, despite his Kaiser and his officers, and his lying newspapers, that that cheer went up when the news came that America had declared war upon Germany. And so, it was a few days after that cheer was heard that the Canadians leaped over the top and went for Vimy Ridge, and this young fellow from America had a wee silken flag. He spoke to his officer. "Now that my own country's in the war, sir," he said, "I'd like to carry her flag with me when we go over the top. Wrapped around me, sir " 166 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE ''Go it!" said the officer. And so he did. And he was one of those who won through and reached the top. There he was wounded, but he had carried the Stars and Stripes with him to the crest. Vimy Ridge ! I could see it. And above it, and beyond it, now, for the front had been carried on, far beyond, within what used to be the lines of the Hun, the airplanes circled. Very quiet and lazy they seemed, for all I knew of their endless activ- ity and the precious work that they were doing. I could see how the Huns were shelling them. You would see an airplane hovering, and then, close by, suddenly, a ball of cottony white smoke. Shrapnel that was, bursting, as Fritz tried to get the range with an anti-aircraft gun — an Archie, as the Tommies call them. But the plane would pay no heed, except, maybe, to dip a bit or climb a little higher to make it harder for the Hun. It made me think of a man shrugging his shoulders, calmly and imperturbably, in the face of some great peril, and I wanted to cheer. I had some wild idea that maybe he would hear me, and know that someone saw him, and appreciated what he was doing — someone to whom it was not an old story ! But then I smiled at my own thought. Now it was time for us to leave the cars and get some exercise. Our steel helmets were on, and glad we were of them, for shrapnel was bursting nearby sometimes, although most of the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 167 shells were big fellows, that buried themselves in the ground and then exploded. Fritz wasn't doing much casual shelling the noo, though. He was saving his fire until his observers gave him a real target to aim at. But that was no so often, for our airplanes were in command of the air then, and his flyers got precious little chance to guide his shooting. Most of his hits were due to luck. "Spread out a bit as you go along here," said Captain Godfrey. " If a crump lands close by there 's no need of all of us going ! If we 're spread out a bit, you see, a shell might get one and leave the rest of us." It sounded cold blooded, but it was not. To men who have lived at the front everything comes to be taken as a matter of course. Men can get used to anything — this war has proved that again, if there was need of proving it. And I came to understand that, and to listen to things I heard with different ears. But those are things no one can tell you of; you must have been at the front yourself to understand all that goes on there, both in action and in the minds of men. We obeyed Captain Godfrey readily enough, as you can guess. And so I was alone as I walked toward Vimy Ridge. It looked just like a lumpy excrescence on the landscape; at hame we would not even think of it as a foothill. But as I neared it, and as I rememered all it stood for, I thought 168 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE that in the atlas of history it would loom higher than the highest peak of the great Himalaya range. Beyond the ridge, beyond the actual line of the trenches, miles away, indeed, were the German batteries from which the shells we heard and saw as they burst were coming. I was glad of my hel- met, and of the cool assurance of Captain God- frey. I felt that we were as safe, in his hands, as men could be in such a spot. It was not more than a mile we had to cover, but it was rough going, bad going. Here war had had its grim way without interruption. The face of the earth had been cut to pieces. Its surface had been smashed to a pulpy mass. The ground had been plowed, over and over, by a rain of shells — German and British. What a planting there had been that spring, and what a plowing! A harvest of death it had been that had been sown — and the reaper had not waited for summer to come, and the Harvest moon. He had passed that way with his scythe, and where we passed now he had taken his terrible, his horrid, toll. At the foot of the ridge I saw men fighting for the first time — actually fighting, seeking to hurt an enemy. It was a Canadian battery we saw, and it was firing, steadily and methodically, at the Huns. Up to now I had seen only the vast indus- trial side of war, its business and its labor. Now I was, for the first time, in touch with actual fight- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 169 ing. I saw the guns belching death and destruc- tion, destined for men miles away. It was high angle fire, of course, directed by observers in the air. But even that seemed part of the sheer, factory- like industry of war. There was no passion, no coming to grips in hot blood, here. Orders were given by the battery commander and the other officers as the foreman in a machine shop might give them. And the busy artillerymen worked like laborers, too, clearing their guns after a salvo, loading them, bringing up fresh supplies of am- munition. It was all methodical, all a matter of routine. ' ' Good artillery work is like that, ' ' said Captain Godfrey, when I spoke to him about it. ''It's a science. It's all a matter of the higher mathe- matics. Everything is worked out to half a dozen places of decimals. We've eliminated chance and guesswork just as far as possible from modern artillery actions." But there was something about it all that wac disappointing, at first sight. It let you down a bit. Only the guns themselves kept up the tradition. Only they were acting as they should, and show- ing a proper passion and excitement. I could hear them growling ominously, like dogs locked in their kennel when they would be loose and about, and hunting. And then they would spit, angrily. They inflamed my imagination, did those guns; they 170 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE satisfied me and my old-fashioned conception of war and fighting, more than anything else that I had seen had done. And it seemed to me that after they had spit out their deadly charge they wiped their muzzles with red tongues of flame, satisfied beyond all words or measure with what they had done. We were rising now, as we walked, and getting a better view of the country that lay beyond. And so I came to understand a little better the value of a height even so low and insignificant as Vimy Ridge in that flat country. While the Ger- mans held it they could overlook all our positions, and all the advantage of natural placing had been to them. Now, thanks to the Canadians, it was our turn, and we were looking down. Weel, I was under fire. There was no doubt about it. There was a droning over us now, like the noise bees make, or many flies in a small room on a hot summer's day. That was the drone of the German shells. There was a little freshening of the artillery activity on both sides, Captain Godfrey said, as if in my honor. When one side increased its fire the other always answered — played copy cat. There was no telling, ye ken, when such an increase of fire might not be the first sign of an attack. And neither side took more chances than it must. I had known, before I left Britain, that I would come under fire. And I had wondered what it A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 171 would be like. I had expected to be afraid, nerv- ous. Brave men had told me, one after another, that every man is afraid when he first comes under fire. And so I had wondered how I would be, and I had expected to be badly scared and extremely nervous. Now I could hear that constant dron- ing of shells, and, in the distance, I could see, very often, powdery squirts of smoke and dirt along the ground, where our shells were striking, so that I knew I had the Hun lines in sight. And I can truthfully say that, that day, at least, I felt no great fear or nervousness. Later I did, as I shall tell you, but that day one overpowering emotion mastered every other. It was a desire for vengeance! Yon were the Huns — the men who had killed my boy. They were almost within my reach. And as I looked at them there in their lines a savage desire possessed me, almost over- whelmed me, indeed, that made me want to rush to those guns and turn them to my own mad pur- pose of vengeance. It was all I could do, I tell you, to restrain myself — to check that wild, almost ungovernable impulse to rush to the guns and grapple with them myself — myself fire them at the men who had killed my boy. I wanted to fight ! I wanted to fight with my two hands — to tear and rend, and have the consciousness that I flash back, like a telegraph message from my satiated hands to my eager brain that was spurring me on. 172 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE But that was not to be. I knew it, and I grew calmer, presently. The roughness of the going helped me to do that, for it took all a man's wits and faculties to grope his way along the path we were following now. Indeed, it was no path at all that led us to the Pimple — the topmost point of Vimy Ridge, which changed hands half a dozen times in the few minutes of bloody fighting that had gone on here during the great attack. The ground was absolutely riddled with shell holes here. There must have been a mine of metal underneath us. What path there was zigzagged around. It had been worn to such smoothness as it possessed since the battle, and it evaded the worst craters by going around them. My mad- ness was passed now, and a great sadness had taken its place. For here, where I was walking, men had stumbled up with bullets and shells rain- ing about them. At every step I trod ground that must have been the last resting-place of some Canadian soldier, who had died that I might climb this ridge in a safety so immeasurably greater than his had been. If it was hard for us to make this climb, if we stumbled as we walked, what had it been for them? Our breath came hard and fast — how had it been with them? Yet they had done it! They had stormed the ridge the Huns had proudly called impregnable. They had taken, in a swift rush, that nothing could stay, a position the Kaiser '^ A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 173 generals had assured him would never be lost — could never be reached by mortal troops. The Pimple, for which we were heading now, was an observation post at that time. There there was a detachment of soldiers, for it was an impor- tant post, covering much of the Hun territory beyond. A major of infantry was in command; his headquarters were a large hole in the ground, dug for him by a German shell — fired by German gunners who had no thought further from their minds than to do a favor for a British officer. And he was sitting calmly in front of his head- quarters, smoking a pipe, when we reached the crest and came to the Pimple. He was a very calm man, that major, given, I should say, to the greatest repression. I think nothing would have moved him from that phleg- matic calm of his ! He watched us coming, climb- ing and making hard going of it. If he was amused he gave no sign, as he puffed at his pipe. I, for one, was puffing, too — I was panting like a grampus. I had thought myself in good condition, but I found out at Vimy Ridge that I was soft and flabby. Not a sign did that major give until we reached him. And then, as we stood looking at him, and beyond him at the panorama of the trenches, he took his pipe from his mouth. ** Welcome to Vimy Ridge !" he said, in the man- 114f A MINSTREL IN FRANCE ner of a host greeting a party bidden for the week- end. I was determined that that major should not outdo me. I had precious little wind left to breathe with, much less to talk, but I called for the last of it. ** Thank you, major," I said. *'May I join you in a smoke?'* *'0f course you can!" he said, unsmiling. "That is, if you've brought your pipe with you." "Aye, I've my pipe," I told him. "I may for- get to pay my debt, but I'll never forget my pipe." And no more I will. So I sat down beside him, and drew out my pipe, and made a long business of filling it, and pushing the tobacco down just so, since that gave me a chance to get my wind. And when I was ready to light up I felt better, and I was breathing right, so that I could talk as I pleased without fighting for breath. My friend the major proved an entertaining jhap, and a talkative one, too, for all his seeming brusqueness. He pointed out the spots that had been made famous in the battle, and explained to me what it was the Canadians had done. And I saw and understood better than ever before what a great feat that had been, and how heavily it had counted. He lent me his binoculars, too, and with them I swept the whole valley toward Lens, where the great French coal mines are, and where the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 175 Germans have been under steady fire so long, and have been hanging on by their eyelashes. It was not the place I should choose, ordinarily, to do a bit of sight-seeing. The German shells were still humming through the air above us, though not quite so often as they had. But there were enough of them, and they seemed to me close enough for me to feel the wind they raised as they passed. I thought for sure one of them would come along, presently, and clip my ears right off. And sometimes I felt myself ducking my head — as if that would do me any good ! But I did not think about it ; I would feel myself doing it, with- out having intended to do anything of the sort. I was a bit nervous, I suppose, but no one could be really scared or alarmed in the unplumbable depths of calm in which that British major was plunged ! It was a grand view I had of the valley, but it was not the sort of thing I had expected to see. I knew there were thousands of men there, and I think I had expected to see men really fighting. But there was nothing of the sort. Not a man could I see in all the valley. They were under cover, of course. When I stopped to think about it, that was what I should have expected, of course. If I could have seen our laddies there below, why, the Huns could have seen them too. And that would never have done. I could hear our guns, too, now, very well. 176 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE They were giving voice all around me, but never a gun could I see, for all my peering and search- ing around. Even the battery we had passed be- low was out of sight now. And it was a weird thing, and an uncanny thing to think of all that riot of sound around, and not a sight to be had of the batteries that were making it ! Hogge came up while I was talking to the major. *' Hello!" he said. "What have you done to your knee, Lauder?" I looked down and saw a trickle of blood run- ning down, below my knee. It was bare, of course, because I wore my kilt. *'0h, that's nothing," I said. I knew at once what it was. I remembered that, as I stumbled up the hill, I had tripped over a bit of barbed wire and scratched my leg. And so I explained. ''And I fell into a shell-hole, too," I said. ''A wee one, as they go around here. ' ' But I laughed. ** Still, I'll be able to say I was wounded on Vimy Ridge." I glanced at the major as I said that, and was half sorry I had made the poor jest. And I saw him smile, in one corner of his mouth, as I said I had been ''wounded." It was the corner furthest from me, but I saw it. And it was a dry smile, a withered smile. I could guess his thought. "Wounded!" he must have said to himself, scornfully. And he must have remembered the A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 177 real wounds the Canadians had received on that hillside. Aye, I could guess his thought. And I shared it, although I did not tell him so. But I think he understood. He was still sitting there, puffing away at his old pipe, as quiet and calm and imperturbable as ever, when Captain Godfrey gathered us together to go on. He gazed out over the valley. He was a man to be remembered for a long time, that major. I can see him now, in my mind's eye, sitting there, brooding, staring out toward Lens and the German lines. And I think that if I were choosing a figure for some great sculptor to immortalize, to typify and represent the superb, the majestic imperturbability of the British Em- pire in time of stress and storm, his would be the one. I could think of no finer figure than his for such a statue. You would see him, if the sculptor followed my thought, sitting in front of his shell- hole on Vimy Ridge, calm, dispassionate, devoted to his duty and the day's work, quietly giving the directions that guided the British guns in their work of blasting the Hun out of the refuge he had chosen when the Canadians had driven him from the spot where the major sat. It was easier going down Vimy Ridge than it had been coming up, but it was hard going still. We had to skirt great, gaping holes torn by mon- strous shells — shells that had torn the very guts out of the little hill. 178 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE ''We're going to visit another battery," said Captain Godfrey. ''I'll tell you I think it's the best hidden battery on the whole British front! And that's saying a good deal, for we've learned a thing or two about hiding our whereabouts from Fritz. He's a curious one, Fritz is, but we try not to gratify his curiosity any more than we must." "I'll be glad to see more of the guns," I said. "Well, here you'll see more than guns. The major in command at this battery we're heading for has a decoration that was given to him just for the way he hid his guns. There 's much more than fighting that a man has to do in this war if he's to make good." As we went along I kept my eyes open, trying to get a peep at the guns before Godfrey should point them out to me. I could hear firing going on all around me, but there was so much noise that my ears were not a guide. I was not a trained observer, of course ; I would not know a gun posi- tion at sight, as some soldier trained to the work would be sure to do. And yet I thought I could tell when I was coming to a great battery. I thought so, I say! Again, though I had that feeling of something weird and uncanny. For now, as we walked along, I did hear the guns, and I was sure, from the nature of the sound, that we were coming close to them. But, as I looked straight toward the spot where my ears told me that they must be, I could A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 179 see nothing at all. I thought that per-haps God- frey had lost his way, and that we were wander- ing along the wrong path. It did not seem likely, but it was possible. And then, suddenly, when I was least expecting it, we stopped. "Well — here we are!" said the captain, and grinned at our amazement. And there we were indeed! We were right among the guns of a Canadian battery, and the artillerymen were shouting their welcome, for they had heard that I was coming, and recognized me as soon as they saw me. But — ^how had we got here? I looked around me, in utter amaze- ment. Even now that I had come to the battery I could not understand how it was that I had been deceived — ^how that battery had been so marvel- ously concealed that, if one did not know of its existence and of its exact location, one might liter- ally stumble over it in broad daylight ! CHAPTER XVI IT had turned very hot, now, at the full of the day. Indeed, it was grilling weather, and there in the battery, in a hollow, close down beside a little run or stream, it was even hotter than on the shell-swept bare top of the ridge. So the Canadian gunners had stripped down for comfort. Not a man had more than his under- shirt on above his trousers, and many of them were naked to the waist, with their hide tanned to the color of old saddles. These laddies reminded me of those in the first battery I had seen. They were just as calm, and just as dispassionate as they worked in their mill — it might well have been a mill in which I saw them working. Only they were no grinding corn, but death — death for the Huns, who had brought death to so many of their mates. But there was no excitement, there were no cries of hatred and anger. They were hard at work. Their work, it seemed, never came to an end or even to a pause. The orders rang out, in a sort of sing-song voice. After each shot a man who sat with a telephone strapped about his head called out corrections of the range, in figures that were just a meaningless 180 s u H Eh O fa < o O Q BS a % (U u u ^ o 1— ( a; ^ bO rt O -Q o ^ 1— ( H ^ VI *. ^ — • a >> c3 W +2 fee C3 bC 03 H Q 5 pq en Oh O o w H H 5 P Q A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 233 at once. But the other would have none of such a summary plan. ''No, no, Jimmy," he said, pleadingly, holding the chicken protectingly. ''Let's keep her until morning, and may be we will ha ' an egg as well ! ' ' The other British soldiers call the Scots Jock, invariably. The Englishman, or a soldier from Wales or Ireland, as a rule, is called Tommy — after the well-known M. Thomas Atkins. Some- times, an Irishman will be Paddy and a Welsh- man Taffy. But the Scot is always Jock. Jock gave us a grand welcome at Aubigny. We were all pretty tired, but when they told me I could have an audience of seven thousand Scots soldiers I forgot my weariness, and Hogge, Adam and I, to say nothing of Johnson and the wee piano, cleared for action, as you might say. The concert was given in the picturesque grounds of the chateau, which had been less harshly treated by the war than many such beautiful old places. It was a great experience to sing to so many men ; it was far and away the largest house we had had since we had landed at Boulogne. After we left Aubigny, the chateau and that great audience, we drove on as quickly as we could, since it was now late, to the headquarters of Gen- eral Mac , commanding the Fifteenth Division — to which, of course, the men whom we had just been entertaining belonged. I was to meet the general upon my arrival. 234 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE That was a strange ride. It was pitch dark, and we had some distance to go. There were mighty few lights in evidence ; you do not advertise a road to Fritz's airplanes when you are traveling roads anywhere near the front, for he has guns of long range, that can at times manage to strafe a road that is supposed to be beyond the zone of fire with a good deal of effect I have seldom seen a blacker night than that. Objects along the side of the road were nothing but shapeless lumps, and I did not see how our drivers could manage at all to find their way. They seemed to have no difficulty, however, but got along swimmingly. Indeed, they traveled faster than they had in daylight. Perhaps that was because we were not meeting troops to hold us up along this road; I believe that, if we had, we should have stopped and given them a concert, even though Johnson could not have seen the keys of his piano ! It was just as well, however. I was delighted at the reception that had been given to the Rever- end Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour all through our first day in France. But I was also extremely tired, and the dinner and bed that loomed up ahead of us, at the end of our long ride through the dark, took on an aspect of enchantment as we neared them. My voice, used as I was to doing a great deal of singing, was fagged, and Hogge and Dr. Adam were so hoarse that they could scarcely A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 235 speak at all. Even Jolmson was pretty well done up ; he was still, theoretically, at least, on the sick list, of course. And I ha' no doot that the wee piano felt it was entitled to its rest, too ! So we were all mighty glad when the cars stopped at last. "Well, here w^e are!" said Ca:ptain Godfrey, who was the freshest of us all. ' * This is Trame- court — General Headquarters for the Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour while you are in France, gentlemen. They have special facilities for visitors here, and unless one of Fritz's air- planes feels disposed to drop a bomb or two, you won't be under fire, at night at least. Of course, in the daytime " He shrugged his shoulders. For our plans did not involve a search for safe places. Still, it was pleasant to know that we might sleep in fair com- fort. General Mac was waiting to welcome us, and told us that dinner was ready and waiting, which we were all glad to hear. It had been a long, hard day, although the most interesting one, by far, that I had ever spent. We made short w^ork of dinner, and soon after- ward they took us to our rooms. I don't know what Hogge and Dr. Adam did, but I know I looked happily at the comfortable bed that was in my room. And I slept easily and without being rocked to sleep that nicht ! CHAPTER XIX THOUGH we were out of the zone of fire — except for stray activities in which Boche airplanes might indulge themselves, as our hosts were frequently likely to remind us, lest we fancy ourselves too secure, I suppose — we were by no means out of hearing of the grim work that was going on a few miles away. The big guns, of course, are placed well behind the front line trenches, and we could hear their sullen, constant quarreling with Fritz and his artillery. The rumble of the Hun guns came to us, too. But that is a sound to which you soon get used, out there in France. You pay no more heed to it than you do to the noise the 'buses make in Lon- don or the trams in Glasgow. In the morning I got my first chance really to see Tramecourt. The chateau is a lovely one, a fine example of such places. It had not been knocked about at all, and it looked much as it must have done in times of peace. Practically all the old furniture was still in the rooms, and there were some fine old pictures on the walls that it gave me great delight to see. Indeed, the rare old atmos- phere of the chateau was restful and delightful in a way that surprised me. 236 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 237 I had been in the presence of real war for just one day. And yet I took pleasure in seeing again the comforts and some of the luxuries of peace! That gave me an idea of what this sort of place must mean to men from the trenches. It must seem like a bit of heaven to them to come back to Aubigny or Tramecourt! Think of the contrast. The chateau, which had been taken over by the British army, belonged to the Comte de Chabot, or, rather, to his wife, who had been Marquise de Tramecourt, one of the French families of the old regime. Although the old nobility of France has ceased to have any legal existence under the Re- public the old titles are still used as a matter of courtesy, and they have a real meaning and value. This was a pleasant place, this chateau of Trame- court ; I should like to see it again in days of peace, for then it must be even more delightful than it was when I came to know it so well. Tramecourt was to be our home, the headquar- ters of the Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour, during the rest of our stay at the front. We were to start out each morning, in the cars, to cover the ground appointed for that day, and to return' at night. But it was understood that there would be days when we would get too far away to return at night, and other sleeping quarters would be provided on such occasions. I grew very fond of the place while I was there. The steady pounding of the guns did not disturb 238 A ]\riNSTREL IN FRANCE my peace of nights, as a rule. But there was one night Avhen I did lie awake for hours, listening. Even to my unpracticed ear there w^as a different quality in the sound of the cannon that night. It had a fury, an intensity, that went beyond any- thing I had heard. And later I learned that I had made no mistake in thinking that there was something unusual and portentous about the fire that night. What I had listened to was the pre- liminary drum fire and bombardment that pre- pared the way for the great attack at Messines, near Ypres — the most terrific bombardment re- corded in all history, up to that time. The fire that night was like a guttural chant. It had a real rhythm ; the beat of the guns could almost be counted. And at dawn there came the terrific explosion of the great mine that had been prepared, which was the signal for the charge. Mr. Lloyd-George, I am told, knowing the exact moment at which the mine was to be exploded, was awake, at home in England, and heard it, across the channel, and so did many folk who did not have his exceptional sources of information. I was one of them ! And I wondered greatly until I was told what had been done. That was one of the most brilliantly and successfully executed attacks of the whole war, and vastly important in its results, although it was, compared to the great battles on the Somme and up north, near Arras, only a small and minor operation. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 239 We settled down, very quickly indeed, into a regular routine. Captain Godfrey was, for all the world, like the manager of a traveling company in America. He mapped out our routes, and he took care of all the details. No troupe, covering a long route of one night stands in the Western or South- ern United States, ever worked harder than did Hogge, Adam and I — to say nothing of Godfrey and our soldier chauffeurs. We did not lie abed late in the mornings, but were up soon after day- light. Breakfast out of the way, we would find the cars waiting and be off. We had, always, a definite route mapped out for the day, but we never adhered to it exactly. I was still particularly pleased with the idea of giving a roadside concert whenever an audience ap- peared, and there was no lack of willing listeners. Soon after we had set out from Tramecourt, no matter in which direction we happened to be going, we were sure to run into some body of soldiers. There was no longer any need of orders. As soon as the chauffeur of the leading car spied a blotch of khaki against the road, on went his brakes, and we would come sliding into the midst of the troops and stop. Johnson would be out before his car had fairly stopped, and at work upon the lashings of the little piano, with me to help him. And Hogge would already be clearing his throat to begin his speech. ^ 24<0 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE The Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour, em- ployed no press agent, and it could not boast of a bill poster. No boardings were covered with great colored sheets advertising its coming. And yet the whole front seemed to know that we were about. The soldiers we met along the roads wel- comed us gladly, but they were no longer, after the first day or two, surprised to see us. They acted, rather, as if they had been expecting us. Our advent was like that of a circus, coming to a country town for a long heralded and advertised engagement. Yet all the puffing that we got was by word of mouth. There were some wonderful choruses along those war-worn roads wo traveled. "Eoamin' in the Gloamin' " was still my featured song, and all the soldiers seemed to know the tune and the words, and to take a particular delight in coming in mth me as I swung into the chorus. We never passed a detachment of soldiers without stopping to give them a concert, no matter how it disar- ranged Captain Godfrey's plans. But he was en- tirely willing. It was these men, on their way to the trenches, or on the way out of them, bound for rest billets, whom, of course, I was most anxious to reach, since I felt that they were the ones I was most likely to be able to help and cheer up. The scheduled concerts were practically all at the various rest billets we visited. These were, A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 241 in the main, at chateaux. Always, at such a place, I had a double audience. The soldiers would make a great ring, as close to me as they could get, and around them, again, in a sort of outer circle, were French villagers and peasants, vastly puzzled and mystified, but eager to be pleased, and very ready with their applause. It must have been hard for them to make up their minds about me, if they gave me much thought. My kilt confused them; most of them thought I Avas a soldier from some regiment they had not yet seen, wearing a new and strange uniform. For my kilt, I need not say, was not military, nor was the rest of my garb warlike ! I gave, during that time, as many as seven con- certs in a day. I have sung as often as thirty-five times in one day, and on such occasions I was thankful that I had a strong and durable voice, not easily worn out, as well as a stout physique. Hogge and Dr. Adam appeared as often as I did, but they didn't have to sing! Nearly all the songs I gave them were ditties they had known for a long time. The one excep- tion was the tune that had been so popular in ** Three Cheers" — the one called "The Laddies Who Fought and Won." Few of the boys had been home since I had been singing that song, but it has a catching lilt, and they were soon able to join in the chorus and send it thundering along. 242 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE They took to it, too — and well they might ! It was of such as they that it was written. We covered perhaps a hundred miles a day during this period. That does not sound like a great distance for high-powered motor cars, but we did a good deal of stopping, you see, here and there and everywhere. We were roaming around in the backwater of war, you might say. We were out of the main stream of carnage, but it was not out of our minds and our hearts. Evidences of it in plenty came to us each day. And each day we were a little nearer to the front line trenches than we had come the day before. We were working gradually toward that climax that I had been promised. I was always eager to talk to officers and men, and I found many chances to do so. It seemed to me that I could never learn enough about the sol- diers. I listened avidly to every story that was told to me, and was always asking for more. The younger officers, especially, it interested me to talk with. One day I was talking to such a lieu- tenant. ''How is the spirit of your men?" I asked him. I am going to teU you his answer, just as he made it. ' * Their spirit ? " he said, musingly. ' ' Well, just before we came to this billet to rest we were in a tightish corner on the Somme. One of my youngest men was hit — a shell came near to tak- A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 243 ing his arm clean off, so that it was left just hanging to his shoulders. He was only about eighteen years old, poor chap. It was a bad wound, but, as sometimes happens, it didn't make him unconscious — then. And when he realized what had happened to him, and saw his arm hang- ing limp, so that he could know he was bound to lose it, he began to cry. '' 'What's the trouble T I asked him, hurrying over to him. I was sorry enough for him, but you've got to keep up the morale of your men. * Soldiers don't cry when they're wounded, my lad.' '* 'I'm not crying because I'm wounded, sir!' he fired back at me. And I won't say he was quite as respectful as a private is supposed to be when he's talking to an officer! 'Just take a look at that, sir!' And he pointed to his wound. And then he cried out : " 'And I haven't killed a German yet!' he said, bitterly. 'Isn't that hard lines, sir?' "That is the spirit of my men!" I made many good friends while I was roaming around the country just behind the front. I won- der how many of them I shall keep — how many of them death will spare to shake my hand again when peace is restored! There was a Gordon Highlander, a fine young officer, of whom I be- came particularly fond while I was at Trame- court. I had a very long talk with him, and I 244 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE thought of him often, afterward, because he made me think of John. He was just such a fine young type of Briton as my boy had been. Months later, when I was back in Britain, and giving a performance at Manchester, there was a knock at the door of my dressing-room. ''Come in!" I called. The door was pushed open and a man came in with great blue glasses covering his eyes. He had a stick, and he groped his way toward me. I did not know him at all at first — and then, suddenly, with a shock, I recognized him as my fine young Gordon Highlander of the rest billet near Trame- court. "My God — it's you, Mac!" I said, deeply shocked. "Yes," he said, quietly. His voice had changed, greatly. "Yes, it's I, Harry." He was almost totally blind, and he did not knoAV whether his eyes would get better or worse. "Do you remember all the lads you met at the billet where you came to sing for us the first time I met you, Harry T' he asked me. "Well, they're all gone — I'm the only one who's left — the only one ! ' ' There was grief in his voice. But there was nothing like complaint, nor was there, nor self- pity, either, when he told me about his eyes and his doubts as to whether he would ever really see again. He passed his own troubles off lightly, as A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 245 if they did not matter at all. He preferred to tell me about those of his friends whom I had met, and to give me the story of how this one and that one had gone. And he is like many another. I know a great many men who have been maimed in the war, but I have still to hear one of them complain. They were brave enough, God knows, in battle, but I think they are far braver when thej^ come home, shattered and smashed, and do naught but smile at their troubles. The only sort of complaining you hear from British soldiers is over minor discomforts in the field. Tommy and Jock will grouse when they are so disposed. They will grow^l about the food and about this trivial trouble and that. But it is never about a really serious matter that you hear them talking ! I have never yet met a man who had been per- manently disabled who was not grieving because he could not go back. And it is strange but true that men on leave get homesick for the trenches sometimes. They miss the companionships they have had in the trenches. I think it must be be- cause all the best men in the world are in France that they feel so. But it is true, I know, because I have not heard it once, but a dozen times. Men will dream of home and Blighty for weeks and months. They will grouse because they can- not get leave — though, half the time, they have not even asked for it, because they feel that their 246 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE place is where the fighting is! And then, when they do get that longed-for leave, they are half sorry to go — and they come back like boys coming home from school ! A great reward awaits the men who fight through this war and emerge alive and triumphant at its end. They will dictate the conduct of the world for many a year. The men who stayed at home when they should have gone may as well prepare to drop.their voices to a very low whisper in the affairs of mankind. For the men who will be heard, who will make themselves heard, are out there in France. CHAPTER XX IT was seven o 'clock in the morning of a Godly and a beautiful day when we set out from Tramecourt for Arras. Arras, that town so famous now in British history and in the annals of this war, had been one of our principal objec- tives from the outset, but we had not known when we were to see it. Arras had been the pivot of the great northern drive in the spring — the drive that Hindenburg had fondly supposed he had spoiled by his ''strategic" retreat in the region of the Somme, begun just before the British and the French were ready to attack. What a bonnie morning that was, to be sure I The sun was out, after some rainy days, and glad we all were to see it. The land waL sprayed with silver light ; the air was as sweet and as soft and as warm as a baby's breath. And the cars seemed to leap forward, as if they, too, loved the day and the air. They ate up the road. They seemed to take hold of its long, smooth surface — they are grand roads, over yon, in France — and reel it up in underneath their wheels as if it were a tape. This time we did little stopping, no matter how good the reason looked. We went hurtling through villages and towns we had not seen before. Our 247 248 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE horn and our siren shrieked a warning as we shot through. And it seemed wrong. They looked so peaceful and so quiet, did those French towns, on that summer's morning! Peaceful, aye, and lan- guorous, after all the bustle and haste we had been seeing. The houses were set in pretty en- casements of bright foliage and they looked as though they had been painted against the back- ground of the landscape with water colors. It was hard to believe that war had passed that way. It had ; there were traces everywhere of its grim visitation. But here its heavy hand had been laid lightly upon town and village. It was as if a wave of poison gas of the sort the Germans brought into war had been turned aside by a friendly breeze, arising in the very nick of time. Little harm had been done along the road we trav- eled. But the thunder of the guns was always in our ears; we could hear the steady, throbbing rhythm of the cannon, muttering away to the north and east. It was very warm, and so, after a time, as we passed through a village, someone — Hogge, I think — suggested that a bottle of ginger beer all around would not be amiss. The idea seemed to be regarded as an excellent one, so Godfrey spoke to the chauffeur beside him, and we stopped. We had not known, at first, that there were troops in town. But there were — Highlanders. And they came swarming out. I was recognized at once. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 249 *'Well, here's old Harry Lauder!" cried one braw laddie. ''Come on, Harry — gie us a song!" they shouted. "Let's have 'Roamin' in the Gloamin', Harry! Gie us the Bonnie Lassie! We ha' na' heard 'The Laddies Who Fought and Won,' Harry. They tell us that's a braw song!" We were not really supposed to give any road- side concerts that day, but how was I to resist them! So we pulled up into a tiny side street, just off the market square, and I sang several songs for them. We saved time by not unlimber- ing the wee piano, and I sang, without accompani- ment, standing up in the car. But they seemed to be as well pleased as though I had had the orchestra of a big theater to support me, and all the accompaniments and trappings of the stage. They were very loath to let me go, and I don't know how much time we really saved by not giv- ing our full and regular programme. For, before I had done, they had me telling stories, too. Captain Godfrey was smiling, but he was glanc- ing at his watch too, and he nudged me, at last, and made me realize that it was time for us to go on, no matter how interesting it might be to stay. "I'll be good," I promised, with a grin, as we drove on. "We shall go straight on to Arras now ! ' ' But we did not. We met a bunch of engineers 250 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE on the road, after a space, and they looked so wistful when we told them we maun be getting right along, without stopping to sing for them, that I had not the heart to disappoint them. So we got out the wee piano and I sang them a few songs. It seemed to mean so much to those boys along the roads! I think they enjoyed the con- certs even more than did the great gatherings that were assembled for me at the rest camps. A concert was more of a surprise for them, more of a treat. The other laddies liked them, too — aye, they liked them fine. But they would have been prepared, sometimes ; they would have been looking forward to the fun. And the laddies along the roads took them as a man takes a grand bit of scenery, coming before his eyes, suddenly, as he turns a bend in a road he does not ken. As for myself, I felt that I was becoming quite a proficient open-air performer by now. My voice was standing the strain of singing under such novel and difficult conditions much better than I had thought it could. And I saw that I must be at heart and by nature a minstrel! I know I got more pleasure from those concerts I gave as a minstrel wandering in France than did the soldiers or any of those who heard me ! I have been before the public for many years. Applause has always been sweet to me. It is to any artist, and when one tells you it is not you may set it down in your hearts that he or she is A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 251 telling less than the truth. It is the breath of life to us to know that folks are pleased by what we do for them. Why else would we go on about our tasks? I have had much applause. I have had many honors. I have told you about that great and overwhelming reception that greeted me when I sailed into Sydney Harbor. In Britain, in America, I have had greetings that have brought tears into my eye and such a lump into my throat that until it had gone down I could not sing or say a word of thanks. But never has applause sounded so sweet to me as it did along those dusty roads in France, with the poppies gleaming red and the corn- flowers blue through the yellow fields of grain beside the roads! They cheered me, do you ken — those tired and dusty heroes of Britain along the French roads ! They cheered as they squatted down in a circle about us, me in my kilt, and Johnson tinkling away as if his very life depended upon it, at his wee piano! Ah, those wonderful, wonderful soldiers! The tears come into my eyes, and my heart is sore and heavy within me when I think that mine was the last voice many of them ever heard lifted in song ! They were on their way to the trenches, so many of those lad- dies who stopped for a song along the road. And when men are going into the trenches they know, and all who see them passing know, that some there are who will never come out. 252 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE Despite all the interruptions, though, it was not much after noon when we reached Blangy, Here, in that suburb of Arras, were the headquarters of the Ninth Division, and as I stepped out of the car I thrilled to the knowledge that I was tread- ing ground forever to be famous as the starting- point of the Highland Brigade in the attack of April 9, 1917. And now I saw Arras, and, for the first time, a town that had been systematically and ruth- lessly shelled. There are no words in any tongue I know to give you a fitting picture of the devasta- tion of Arras. ''Awful" is a puny word, a thin one, a feeble one. I pick impotently at the cover- lid of my imagination when I try to frame lan- guage to make you understand what it was I saw when I came to Arras on that bright June day. I think the old city of Arras should never be rebuilt. I doubt if it can be rebuilt, indeed. But I think that, whether or no, a golden fence should be built around it, and it should forever and for all time be preserved as a monument to the wan- ton wickedness of the Hun. It should serve and stand, in its stark desolation, as a tribute, dedi- cated to the Kultur of Germany. No painter could depict the frightfulness of that city of the dead. No camera could make you see as it is. Only your eyes can do that for you. And even then you cannot realize it all at once. Your eyes are more merciful than the truth and the Hun. A MINSTREL IN FRANCE 253 The Germans shelled Arras long after there was any military reason for doing so. The sheer, wanton love of destruction must have moved them. They had destroyed its military useful- ness, but still they poured shot and shell into the town. I went through its streets — the Germans had been pushed back so far by then that the city was no longer under steady fire. But they had done their work ! Nobody was living in Arras. No one could have lived there. The houses had been smashed to pieces. The pavements were dust and rubble. But there was life in the city. Through the ruins our men moved as ceaselessly and as restlessly as the tenants of an ant hill suddenly upturned by a plowshare. Soldiers were every^vhere, and guns — guns, guns ! For Arras had a new impor- tance now. It was a center for many roads. Some of the most important supply roads of this sector of the front converged in Arras. Trains of ammunition trucks, supply carts and wagons of all sorts, great trucks laden with jam and meat and flour, all were passing every mo- ment. There was an incessant din of horses ' feet and the steady crunch — crunch of heavy boots as the soldiers marched through the rubble and the brickdust. And I knew that all this had gone on while the town was still under fire. Indeed, even now, an occasional shell from some huge gun came crashing into the to^vn, and there would be a new 254 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE cloud of dust arising to mark its landing, a new collapse of some weakened wall. Warning signs were everywhere about, bidding all who saw them to beware of the imminent collapse of some heap of masonry. I saw what the Germans had left of the stately old Cathedral, and of the famous Cloth Hall — one of the very finest examples of the guild halls of medieval times. Goths — Vandals — no, it is unfair to seek such names for the Germans. They have established themselves as the masters of all time in brutality and in destruction. There is no need to call them anything but Germans. The Cloth Hall was almost human in its pitiful appeal to the senses and the imagination. The German fire had picked it to pieces, so that it stood in a stark outline, like some carcase picked bare by a vulture. Our soldiers who were quartered nearby lived outside the town in huts. They were the men of the Highland Brigade, and the ones I had hoped and wished, above all others, to meet when I came to France. They received our party with the greatest enthusiasm, and they were especially flattering when they greeted me. One of the Highland officers took me in hand immediately, to show me the battlefield. The ground over which we moved had literally been churned by shell-fire. It was neither dirt nor mud that we walked upon; it was a sort of A MINSTREL IN FRANCE S55 powder. The very soil had been decomposed into a fine dust by the terrific pounding it had re- ceived. The dust rose and got into our eyes and mouths and nostrils. There was a lot of sneez- ing among the members of the Reverend Harry Lauder, M.P., Tour that day at Arras ! And the wire! It was strewn in every direction, with seeming aimlessness. Heavily barbed it was, and bad stuff to get caught in. One of the great reasons for the preliminary bombardment that usually precedes an attack is to cut this wire. If charging men are caught in a bad tangle of wire they can be wiped out by machine gun-fire before they can get clear. I asked a Highlander, one day, how long he thought the war would last. "Forty years," he said, never batting an eye- lid. "We'll be fighting another year, and then it'll tak us thirty-nine years more to wind up all the wire!" Off to my right there was a network of steel strands, and as I gazed at it I saAv a small dark object hanging from it and fluttering in the breeze. I was curious enough to go over, and I picked my way carefully through the maze-like network of wire to see wiiat it might be. When I came close I saw it was a bit of cloth, and imme- diately I recognized the tartan of the Black Watch — the famous Forty-second. Mud and blood held that bit of cloth fastened to the wire, as if 256 A MINSTREL IN FRANCE by a cement. Plainly, it had been torn from a kilt. I stood for a moment, looking do^vn at that bit of tartan, flapping in the soft summer breeze. And as I stood I could look out and over the landscape, dotted with a very forest of little wooden crosses, that marked the last resting-place of the men who had charged across this maze of wire and died within it. They rose, did those rough crosses, like sheathed swords out of the wild, luxurious jungle of grass that had grown up in that blood-drenched soil. I wondered if the owner of the bit of tartan were still safe or if he lay under one of the crosses that I saw. There was room for sad speculation here! "Who had he been ? Had he swept on, leaving that bit of his kilt as evidence of his passing? Had he been one of those who had come through the attack, gloriously, to victory, so that he could look back upon that day so long as he lived? Or was he dead — ^perhaps within a hundred yards of where I stood and gazed down at that relic of him? Had he folks at hame in Scotland who had gone through days of anguish on his account — such days of anguish as I had known? I asked a soldier for some wire clippers, and I cut the wire on either side of that bit of tartan, and took it, just as it was. And as I put the wee bit of a brave man's kilt away I kissed the blood- u\ :;'^