APn t-' 107 0 BX 7795 .G87 A4 1856 Gurney, Priscilla, 1785- 1821 . Memoir of Priscilla Gurney Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2015 https://archive.org/details/memoirofpriscillOOgurn MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. « LONDON : PRINTED FOB WILLIAM AND FREDERICK G. CASH, BISHOPSOATE STREf.T WITHOUT. MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. EDITED BY SUSANNA CORDER. LONDON: WILLIAM AND FREDERICK G. CASH, 5, BISHOPSGATE STEEET WITHOUT, 1856. PREFACE. Some selections from the correspondence of Priscilla Gurney having appeared in a periodical, and excited much interest, the Editor of the following brief " Memoir " has been requested to prepare, for the press, a Biographical Sketch of her character, and of the incidents of her life. The experiences recorded in the following extracts from her Journal and Letters, — her sound reflections on Divine things, — the weighty impressions made upon her mind, through the teachings of the Holy Spirit, and the many striking lessons of instruction which are intermingled yriih illustrations of these workings of the spiritual life in her own soul, are calculated to serve as waymarks to the christian traveller as he journeys onward to the heavenly Canaan ; and he may be encouraged to " run with patience the race set before " him, by tracing the footsteps of this dedicated sei-vant of Christ, whose course on earth, though short, afforded a remarkable evidence of the sanctifying and preserving efficacy of Divine grace, and of its suffi- vi PREFACE. ciency to enable those who unreservedly yield to its power, to bring forth "much fruit" to the praise and glory of God ; and proving, in no common degree, that " honourable age is not that which standeth in length of time, nor that is measured by number of years; but wisdom is the gray hair to man, and an unspotted life is old age." S. C. Chelmsford, Fifth Month, 1856. CONTENTS. CHAPTER I. 1809-1817. Pages. Youthful days of Priscilla Gurney — Death of a Sister-in-law — Of her Father — Correspondence — lUness of a Brother — Winter at Clifton — Speaks as a Minister amongst Friends — Death of Henry Gurney — Of her Brother John Gumey — Journey to Kice with Invahds — Residence at Nice .... 1 to 74 CHAPTER II. 1817-1818. Priscilla Guraey quits Nice — Visits the Friends at Congenies, &c.— Returns to England — Attends the Yearly Meeting in London— Returns to Earlham — Death of Rachel Gurney — Correspondence — Marriage of Joseph John Gumey — Bene- volent Occupations at Home— Religious Engagements in Cambridgeshire and Huntingdonshire — General Visit to the Meetings of Friends in Ireland — Yearly Meeting in Dublin — In London — Returns Home . . . . . 75 „ 114 Religious and Pliilanthropic Engagements in Norfolk — Compiles Volume of Hymns — Correspondence — Health fails — Much Ex- ertion in Schools, Prisons, &c. — Attends the Yearly Meeting in London — A Continuance of Declining Health — Visits Upton — Serious attack of Illness there — Removes to the Isle of Wight — Winter there — Correspondence . . . . 115 „ 153 Priscilla Gurney returns fi-om the Isle of Wight to Earlham — Recurrence of Alarming Indisposition — Is removed to the Coast— Settles at Cromer Hall— Last Illness and Death . 154 „ 19(1 CHAPTER III. 1818-1819. CHAPTER IV. 1820-1821. MEMOIR OP PRISCILLA GURT^EY. CHAPTER I. 1809-1817. YOUTHFUL DATS OF PRISCILLA GURNET— DEATH OF A SISTEE-IN-UAW — OF HER FATHER — CORRESPONDENCE — ILLNESS OF A BROTHER — WINTEB AT CLIFTON — SPEAKS AS A MINISTER AMONGST FRIENDS — DEATH OF HENRY GURNET — OF HER BROTHER JOHN GURNEY — JOURNEY TO NICE WITH INVALIDS — RESIDENCE AT NICE. From a variety of circumstances, the large family of Gurney of Earlham lias become generally known, as con- sisting of persons who, from conspicuous piety and benevolence, have been interesting to the christian world. Placed in a prominent position through the advantages attendant on wealth, talent, and education, they exercised no common degree of influence on the extensive circle in which they moved ; and, from the example of their father, John Gurney, who evinced through life much nobility of mind and a generous nature, they imbibed, from their earliest years, a disinterestedness of character, which, as it became directed by the sanctifying influence of religious principle, induced these young persons largely to diflfuse B 2 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1808. ai'ouud them the channels of blessing which were so richly placed under their control. Two of their number — the late Elizabeth Fry and her brother Joseph John Gurney — were conspicuously devoted to the cause of christian philanthropy, and their memory is cherished with reverential esteem and love by many, among the varied classes of society, who witnessed their untiring efforts to promote the glory of God, and the well-being of His rational creation. In the published memoirs of these two excellent persons, sketches of the domestic circle at Earlham have been so fully drawn, and so extensively read with lively interest, that any minute recapitulation of them will not be requisite in introducing to the notice of the christian reader the circumstances which marked the brief, but remarkable, earthly course of Priscilla Gurney, the youngest of the seven sisters, who, with four brothers, were, at an early age, bereft of maternal care and in- struction. Their mother, who was characterized by pecu- liar loveliness of mind and person, and by a pious and well-directed solicitude for the true happiness of her children, was removed by death from her important sphere of usefulness, when the eldest of her flock was only seventeen years of age ; leaving to her sorrowing hus- band the responsibilities that now so weightily devolved upon him. He was an indulgent and affectionate parent, greatly beloved by his immediate family; his mind was vigorous and intelligent, his manners kind and courteous, securing the high esteem of his fellow-citizens of Norwich. His eldest daughter, Catherine, was, in an unusual degree, qualified to watch over and to promote the right education of the younger members of the motherless group, and her influence was greatly blessed to them. For many years Earlham was a peculiarly favoured and cheerful abode ; its 1808.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 3 inmates enjoyed mucli liberty; — some amusements of fashionable life were indulged in ; yet the pursuits of literature and refined taste, united to careful and diligent attention to the duties of benevolence and charity, uni- formly occupied the greater portion of their time. As they became matured in age, the love of pleasure was gradually tempered, and their minds were impressed with a deep conviction of the vanity and unsatisfying nature of all merely temporal gratifications. Their bright sunshine of unalloyed prosperity became overshadowed by some dark clouds of affliction, and their youthful hearts, subdued under the chastening hand of a gracious Almighty Father, felt the need of a solace which earthly delights can never permanently supply : they sought the blessings of the redemption that is in Christ ; and, although derived to them through somewhat diverse channels, they became partakers of the peace and love of God. When, in 1793, John Gurney was deprived of his tenderly beloved wife, the loss, which to himself was well nigh overwhelming, could be but very inadequately ap- preciated by his children. The three elder ones, Catherine, Rachel, and Elizabeth, could, however, in some measure, estimate it ; but a profound experience of sorrow, and of the awfulness of witnessing a summons from the endear- ments of domestic life and from the possessions of wealth and luxury, appears to have been, for the first time, abidingly made on the minds of these young persons, by the death of Elizabeth Gurney, the fondly beloved wife of their brother, J ohn. She was a near relative of the Earlham family ; and, from their infancy, a strong attachment had bound them to each other. She was united to her afiPectionate husband but little more than a year, when, in the Fifth Month, 1808, she was removed from the circle of which she was the B 2 4 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1809. ornament and delight. "Tliis/' says J. J. Gurney, in his autobiography, "was our first grand draught of family affliction since my mother's death ; a draught which, in the bitterness and dismay of our spirits, we all drank together to the very dregs Never shall I forget the overwhelming woe of our beloved brother. His bodily health was dangerously aflfected by his long watching and nursing ; but, thanks be to the Author of all good, the affliction was blessed to his soul, and was the means of bringing him, in repentance and humiliation of spirit, to the Saviour's feet." During the brief period in which the cup of temporal enjoyment appeared to overflow, the residence of John Gurney, jun., was at Lynn; but, after his bereavement, he was tenderly cherished by his father and sisters under the paternal roof ; and it is in the endearing character of a sympathiser in his afiiiction, and an acute sharer in the deep sorrow that was again soon afterwards dispensed to the family, that we first become intimately acquainted with the subject of this memoir. Priscilla Gurney had hitlierto been occupied in a comparatively inconspicuous pursuit of diligent, though quiet duty : she had, from her childhood, been inclined to commiserate the sorrows and sufl^erings of the poor; she had been accustomed regularly to visit those of her own district, to relieve their wants, to inspect the instruction of their children, and especially to help and comfort the sick and aged. But additional interests of a most weighty character now claimed the solicitudes of the Earlham household, and called forth the energies of Priscilla's mind. Scarcely a year had elapsed after the decease of Elizabeth Gurney, when the health of the beloved and honoured head of that large family began to sink under the pressure of internal disease. 1809.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNKY. 5 His symptoms did not, in the view of those around him, assume a serious aspect, but he was, himself, strongly impressed with a belief that they would terminate fatally. In a letter to his sister Buxton, written in the Fourth Month, 1809, Joseph John Gurney thus alludes to the indisposition of his father : — " He is certainly better, and much more comfortable, though I believe him to be still persuaded that he is in great danger. This idea is most groundless, according to all the best opinions, but it is impossible to root it out of his mind.'' That the appre- hension of his very critical state was graciously designed to stimulate the dear invalid to a diligent use of the few fleeting months that were yet to be added to his earthly course, appears evident from the visitation of divine love that was, in a striking manner, mercifully vouchsafed to him. Early in the ensuing autumn, when, from deep mental conflict and increased bodily suffering, Jolm Gurney was becoming an object of most painful interest to his affectionate children, another source of anxiety claimed their attention. Several of the family were attacked by scarlet fever. Priscilla appears to have been the first who was affected by this disorder, then Daniel, and after- wards Joseph ; each of them being favoured to surmount the disorder ; but their faithful and excellent attendant, who had, for more than thirty years, been the careful nurse of the whole circle, and justly held by them in high esteem, was, whilst engaged in her assiduous efforts to promote their recovery, seized with the fever in its most alai*ming form, and soon removed from them by death. This distressing event was quickly followed by a dis- pensation of a most affiicting and solemn character. Their beloved father's state of health became rapidly 6 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNET. [1809. worse^ his sufferings were great, and his spirit was sorely agonized under a sense of " his past errors and infirmi- ties;" but, says his daughter Rachel, "he wrestled Avith God in prayer, and grace and help were given him." He repeatedly addressed his family in a very instructive manner. He " spoke of the purity of the law laid down by our Saviour, extending even to the thoughts and desires and, ere the hand of death was laid upon him, and the mortal anguish for ever closed, his soul was favoured "to rise out of the fiery furnace, purified by the Great Refiner." " He frequently expressed that he feared no evil, but believed that, through the mercy of God in Christ, he should be received in glory," " He continued in the possession of joy and peace" until, as we may reverently believe, he was permitted to unite with the ransomed above, in the endless song of praise to the Lord God and the Lamb. Priscilla Gurney had sufficiently recovered from the effects of the fever to admit of her devoting herself, with most affectionate tenderness, to the duties of her afflicted parent's chamber ; and she " left him almost less than any one." Six weeks after this solemn event she writes, in a letter to her beloved sister Fry : — "We have so many objects to interest and engage us that we seldom can feel any painful vacancy ; but this does not, I believe, prevent us from moiu-ning, as we ought to mourn, for the loss of such a father as ours was. The recollection of him is dearer to me than I can weU describe ; and the separation from him, and from dear nurse too, is often most truly alfecting to my feehngs : but it is a sorrow so mercifuUy united with hope and comfort, that we ought rather to rejoice in their removal to a better state. 1809.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 7 In the altered situation of the bereaved family, various circumstances concurred to bring the members of it under a serious consideration of the religious course which they believed to be most likely to conduce to their right settle- ment in christian truth. At a time when their hearts were rendered peculiarly impressible by heavy affliction, and acutely alive to the soothing effect of sympathy and to the consolations of the gospel, they became intimately acquainted with a pious and zealous clergyman of the "EstabHshed Church," Edward Edwards, of Lynn. He evinced a deep interest in the spiritual condition of these young persons, and was instrumental in imbuing their minds with a clearer comprehension of the fundamental principles of New Testament doctrine. This naturally induced a strong mutual attachment, which at length resulted in the union of several of the family with that section of professors with which their kind instructor was connected. But whilst some of them were attracted in that direction, others soon afterwards yielded to an influ- ence of a different character. The example of their beloved sister Elizabeth Fry, who had become a decided Friend, and who had, in a remarkable manner, been enabled to uphold, in great brightness, the standard of christian exceUence, operated powerfully, yet almost imperceptibly, on several of the family circle ; and this, together with a consequent increase of acquaintance, not only with the principles, but also with many devoted members, of the religious Society in which they had been nominally educated, was, under the Divine blessing, the means of strengthening their attachment to the worship and views of "Friends," and they eventually became firmly esta- blished in their christian profession. Notwithstanding this diversity in the external mani- 8 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1810. festation of their conscientious impressions, there was much of the true " unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace" preserved amongst them, and the fruits of gospel love, and of submission to the cross of Christ, were evidenced in life and conduct. Some letters from Priscilla Gurney to her sister Fry, written in the year 1810, describe the serious considera- tions into which her mind was introduced, whilst yet somewhat undecided as to her own future course, as well as her earnest desire to be guided by the Holy Spirit. The style of expression will show that she had not been accustomed to adhere to the correct grammatical language used by "Friends." Mt dearest Betsy, — I have been wishing to answer thy letter ever since I received it It is always interesting to hear at aU intimately from thee. I am sure I can feel for thee in what thee must have had to go through lately ;* but I am never inclined to feel much anxiety about thee. There is so much cause for hope that thee will be carried through every trial, as thee has hitherto been. Thee wishes me to send thee a particular account of myself ; but I really hardly know what to say. When I think of thee I feel so ashamed of myself. I do not know how to communicate all my great weakness and deficiencies, and this, I believe, is one reason why I do not write oftener to thee ; but I may truly say that I often think of thee, and feel very near to thee in heart. Thy sympathy, even at a distance, is very valuable and helpful to me. I have sometimes suffered painful discouragements, chiefly from finding my heart still so attached to the world ; but more often, lately, I have been hopeful and comfortable ; indeed, I have no cause to be wncomfortable, except from my own want of faith and • In reference to E. J. F.'s early engagements as a gospel minister. 1810.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA 6URNEY. 9 continued deficiencies. Some pains that I feared so much seem so unexpectedly removed. I felt so much anxiety lest we should be any source of pain to dear Catherine,* but nothing can well have exceeded her conduct towards us. She gives us the most entire liberty to pursue that path which is the most for our good and happiness : I do not mean only in judgment, but m. feeling ; for she has fully expressed to us that, let us be what we may, if we act from conscience, she does not think it would give her any pain I think I never felt more truly united to her, or more happy and easy with her, than I do now. Her cheerfulness, calmness and steadiness, is the greatest support to us all ; and what a blessing it is after all we have suffered. A few montlis later, to the same sister she writes : — I felt thy kindness in writing to me with all thy numerous engagements. I am glad thee wrote to me what was on thy mind, and I now beg of thee always to say to me, with perfect freedom, anything that thee thinks it right to say. I had rather know all thy fears and anxieties about us, and I really dread shutting my eyes against the truth, from whatever quarter it may come The last two months have, in many resjjects, been very sweet and peaceful ones to me ; though my spirits have been frequently depressed, yet I have internally been generally calm and at rest I believe, my dear Betsy, thee art mistaken if thee thinks that I am puzzling and perplexing myself with different doctrines and opinions : I never, that I remember, felt less inclined to do this, or less able to bear it ; and the reading that I have had has not been of that sort. I have read lately Walker's " Christian," and his " Christ the Pui-ifier," which are only on general principles in which I think all Christians must and do agree. Such books * Catherine Gurney had returned from a lengthened stay at Lynn, where she had become united to the "Established Church." c 3 10 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY, [1810. as these are only enlightening and strengthening to me, and I believe really do comfort and do me good. I have also been reading some chapters in the Testament, with Scott's Com- mentary, which has been a real assistance to me. It has con- vinced me of two things ; first, how very little I know the Bible, and also that some assistance in reading it is, to some people, very beneficial, though all may not require it ; for, though I firmly believe that we ought not to be guided by any man or anything short of the Divine direction, yet I have no doubt we may be assistants to one another. I must now say a little on our communication with the Edwardses, at least tell thee, as far as I can, my feelings on the subject Our union with them has certainly been no indiflerent matter to any of us, and it is my firm belief that we may consider our connexion with them as a great blessing I think nothing in life can be sweeter than to feel union in spiritual things with those that are dear to us, and to be stimulated by it to press forward in the way to eternal life and happiness : this has very often been the efiect of their influence upon my mind ; it has made me more hopeful, has given me more faith in the efficacy of our Saviour's sufferings and death for our sins, and seems to have taken oflT that miserable sense of my sinfulness and weakness which often so heavily oppressed my heart : but I am sure they have not destroyed or lessened my belief in the absolute necessity of obedience to the will of Grod. I hope I am enabled to desire that I may not choose my own way, but that I may be more and more willing to commit myself entirely to Him who can and will direct us, if we come unto Him in sincerity of heart ; but I must confess to thee that these desires are too often very faint, and my weakness and inability are very great. During the summer of this year (1810), Elizabeth J. Fry visited her endeared connexions at Earlham. She mentions in her journal having much conversation with some of them 1810.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 11 upon their religious views, and says, " I felt very fully strengthened to express my mind, and not to shrink ; and I believe I did no hurt." On her return home she records, " abundant cause to be grateful that, on leaving Earl- ham, and my tenderly -beloved brothers and sisters, my mind felt very clear, trusting that I had been enabled to accomplish that which came to hand to do amongst them : and I hope without hurting the great cause." The intercourse, which was thus intimately renewed with her sister Priscilla, tended much to strengthen, in the mind of the latter, a conviction which had evidently become more clearly impressed, that the path designed for her by Infinite Wisdom was in the line of dedication to the service of Christ, as a consistent Friend. When this course was opened before her, in the light of Truth, she was firm and decided in her endeavour to yield her whole heart to follow those manifestations of the Divine will which were graciously vouchsafed to her. She, however, felt the loneliness of her spiritual allotment ; and, about three weeks after her sister's departure, thus addresses her : — I have, indeed, very much felt thy loss, my dear Betsy, and have thought of thee since we parted with a deep and tender interest and affection. Indeed it has, at times, been discou- raging to me to find how much I have missed thee. I cannot help sometimes longing for thy encouraging and supporting influence ; hut I do not doubt that it is for my good to stand as much alone in my present path as I do, for it is too much my disposition to lean upon others ; and I firmly beheve that, if my dependence were more solely placed on Him whose help is all- sufficient, I should not be hable to the painful discouragements I now and then experience. My weakness is very great, and it seems at times almost impossible to keep fast hold of what appears to me as right for myself. I fear to give way to any- 13 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNET. [1810. thing like a spirit of complaining, knowing what abundant cause I have for thankfulness. But thou so well knowest the present state of our fiimily, that I believe thou canst understand my difficulties, and I have no doubt canst sympathize with me in them. In some respects it is a harder trial of faith to be amongst those who seem diligently, and in sincerity of heart, to be seek- ing the one thing needful in a different way from ourselves, than with those whose hearts are in the world. It does bring every- thing so to the test, which is often a humiliatmg, though I doubt not useful trial to us. . . . It would, perhaps, be too sweet and too easy were we entirely united in one path : as it is, how delight- ful it is to feel as much unity as we all do in the most important 'concerns. I do not think I ever felt a more uninteiTupted harmony and affection to reign amongst us thau at this time. I have very often thought of thy dear Joseph's advice to me when he was here, not to be discouraged at feeling in some respects walking alone. This is what I must expect to do, though it is sometimes painful to my feelings. ... I feel it often an inestimable privilege that my mind has not been more unsettled from Priends, for I do believe it to be so remarkably safe a path, that I increasingly feel the value of it Dear John went to Lynn this morning, where he expects to stay about ten days. He has been so very comfortably settled at home that we are all sorry to part with him again. Dear Joseph has been in one of his very sweet minds lately ; it is most encouraging to see him going on as he is. We cannot but long for him not to flinch from the cross of Christ, in whatever way it may be presented to him I have rather set my mind on Quarterly Meeting next week : I wish it may prove a stimulus to me. I look forward to the return of the Grrove family* with pleasure and comfort. Their influence, I think, wiU be helpful to me. We had a nice visit from Hannah and Elizabeth.f I thought dear Hannah in a remai'kably sweet and open mind, though I * Her uncle Joseph Gurney's. + The daughters of her uncle Joseph, afterwards the wives of Jonathan Backhouse and Robert Barclay. 1810.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 13 did not feel any ability to be intimate with her. She seems really very happy iu her prospects. Jonathan, I think, must be a valuable young man. To a beloved Friend, who had been made willing to devote herself to the service of Christy P. G. writes : — Second Month 25th, 1810. I cannot doubt thou hast done the right thing, and what was required of thee ; and in doing this we experience_ peace and serenity, which the gratification of our own wills and desires can never give. And though, indeed, we have cause to acknow- ledge that we are unprofitable servants, yet obedience gives us confidence to cast ourselves upon God, through Jesus Christ our Saxdour. May we endeavour, imder all circumstances, and in all situations, to cleave imto the Lord, who alone can uphold us, and renew our strength daily. ... A stedfast adherence to what we know to be our duty, though it may sometimes bring us into apparent difiiculties, is, I have no doubt, a help and a strength to us in our dealings with others. But if thou art sensible of failings and weakness in this respect, I know how to sympathize with thee. It is no easy, no light work, to maintain the watch ; but though we may be frequently falling short, so as to feel much discouragement, let us still endeavour to watch and pray, that we enter not into temptation. If we are enabled to see the Truth, and at least at those times when we are alive to it, we must see and feel that, of ourselves, we are wretched and miserable and poor and blind ; and this ought to make us humble and meek and lowly in heart ; and the fruit of this spirit should appear towards others, by rendering us patient, gentle, &c., though steady and firm in aU we believe to be right. Soon afterwards she penned the following instructive remarks : — It is consoling, under the sense and burden of our manifold infirmities, to find that others have had the same trials — the same • 14 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GUKNEY. [1810. pilgrimage to pass through. At times the present state of pro- bation, and the prospect of what is at the end of the race, wears a more serious aspect than at others, and seems to come more home to the heart ; and yet, how much more cause we have to wonder that this shovdd have so little effect upon us, than that it should impress us awfully. Oh, how important it is that we should, at all times, be found watching ! But how far am I from this desirable state. Almost every day proves my unwatchful- uess and want of faith. This makes me feel the necessity of going on quietly, and professing little ; in short, of showing our faith more by our works than by our words. A few weeks later, she addressed the following letter to her friend and cousin, Anna Buxton (afterwards the wife of William Forster) . The similarity of their course, and the manner in which both of them were brought by experimental religion, to an implicit faith in the immediate power and teaching of the Spirit of Truth, united them very closely in the life and love of the Gospel. Earlham, Ninth Month 29th, 1810. I beUeve I never felt for thee such love and sympathy as at this time. . . . It is frequently a support and refreshment to me to turn my thoughts towards thee, and it is an encouragement to me to remember how thou hast hitherto been mercifully led and supported in that path which I have also entered. It is often the earnest desire of my heart that we may, every one of us, whether Friends or not, be enabled to " run with patience the race that is set before us," and labour to enter into that rest which is prepared for the people of Grod. I do, indeed, increasingly feel the infinite importance of it, though the work is sometimes very hard to our weak and frail nature, and we hai'dly know how to hold on our way amidst the temptations and discouragements which we are liable to in our pilgrimage here ; yet we know there is an Almighty power which can pre- serve us through them all, and make our way clear before us ; 1810.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 15 and to this may we, at all times, and under aU circumstances, look for strength. I feel very deeply interested in Joseph's state of mind at this time, which, indeed, seems to be a serious one. Whatever path he may in future think best to pursue, it is my belief that there is something in him that draws near to Friends. But I desire to leave all these things, for I really fear to have any selfish considerations ; though being in some things so much left to walk alone is, now and then, very distressing to my spirits. Tet I have hardly ever felt any essential discourage- ment, or any misgivings as to the steps I have myself taken, for which I ought to be thankful. I do believe that nothing short of very much giving up, in heart, all things in this life will do ; and this we must diligently labour after, whatever it may cost us. About this time she addressed the following letter to her beloved cousin, M. B.,* who, like herself, had yielded to convictions, which led to the full adoption of the christian views and practices of the Society of Friends : — " It is impossible but that our having come to the same con- clusion should be a fresh bond of union between us. I confess I feel it so, though I never felt more inclined to love and to be united to all who are endeavouring to serve Grod to the best of their ability. It is so hard valiantly to maintain the christian warfare, that whatever we find is an assistance to us is too valuable to be rejected. If we have thought it right to adopt a stricter appearance externally, may it indeed be an incitement and a stimulus to keep our watch more diligently, that " we may lay aside every weight, and the sins that most easily beset us, and run with patience the race that is set before us." The adopting our religious garb is like a more open profession to others, that we desire to forsake the world, or at least the evils * Maria Barclay, afterwards the wife of Robert Were Fox. 16 MEMOIll OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1810. of it ; and ia this way it appears to me a very serious thing, and no light matter. I have cause, indeed, to be humbled at my little progress in the best things — my lukewarmness, un watchfulness, and manifold deficiencies and infirmities. One thing I am sure of, — that the more we are devoted to a religious life, the happier we are, even here. The winter of 1810 was passed by Priscilla Gurney in the quiet pursuit of her usual avocations — administering to the necessities of those around her who were suffering from penury or sickness, and in the supervision of the schools in the vicinity of Earlham Hall, which had been established through the active benevolence of its inmates. We have, from the pen of her brother-in-law, Sir T. F. Buxton, a lively reference to the assiduous attentions devoted by Priscilla to the relief of the indigent, and to the several " days in every week" in which she was ex- clusively employed in visiting them : "I can," he says, " speak of the manner in which she was prepared, as soon as breakfast was over, to proceed to her task ; her basket in readiness, filled with such little presents as she thought might be useful or acceptable to those who were suffering from disease." The comparatively inconspicuous course of duty, which thus occupied much of her time, was pecu- liarly favourable to that spiritual communion with her Redeemer, by which the experience of his love and power prepared her to show forth the riches of his grace ; and, through the effectual operation of his Holy Spirit, the principles of christian truth professed by Friends were increasingly precious in her view, and she was enabled to dedicate her whole heart to the service of her Lord. Her example in the domestic circle operated powerfully, and evidenced that the one great object of her life was to 1811.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 17 " press toward the mark for the prize of" her " high calling of God in Christ Jesus." Priscilla Gvirney attended the Yearly Meeting in London in the Fifth Month of tlie following year^ and three weeks a,fterwards she writes to her sister, E. J. Fry, a report of the Quarterly Meeting in Norwich. Earlham, Sixth Month 28th, 1811. Mt dearest Betsy, I think it will be a satisfaction to thee to hear that the Quarterly Meeting has passed off very smoothly and comfortably, as far as we are all concerned. I returned from Hunston on Second-day, after paying a pleasant visit there. I found (on reaching home) Richard and Nancy Alexander here ; they had made the effort to come to see us, which I thought really kind of them, and I think it was pleasant to both parties. It is such a pity that Friends should absent themselves from Earlham, where there is such a willingness to receive them. I met Henry HuU before meeting on Third-day, and was very glad to see him again. The first meeting, and indeed both, were interesting. H. Hull seemed to give general satisfaction. Rachel was much pleased with him, and was not, I believe, at all overset by the meetings. Ann Burgess and Elizabeth Eobson are pleasing, and I have no doubt valuable Friends. We had our Yearly Meeting dinner as usual ; and in the evening Amia* and I went to the Grove to see H. Hull and the other Friends, which was quite a refreshment and treat to us both. Dear H. HuU was very affectionate to us, and seemed pleased to be with us again. He and Joseph had had a warm meeting in the morning. Catherine is most kindly disposed about him, and seems really to wish to see him here, and he intends to pay us a visit the next time he comes to Norwich. The next morning Anna and I again breakfasted at the Grove, and went to Tasboroughf with aU the Friends, as I wished • Anna Buxton. + At Tasborough a small meeting of Friends is held. 18 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1811. to be as much with them as I could : the morning was very comfortable to me. "We returned to dinner to meet Samuel Alexander and Lucy Maw, and their visit was very, pleasant, and I hope easy to them. Nothing can well exceed dear Catherine's kindness and sweet disposition of mind towards all the Friends, she seems so anxious to do her part rightly. John behaved very kindly to them. As for dear Catherine, she is quite an example in her conduct : it has been a real satisfaction to me to be with her again, and for us to be living again together. I may truly say she is an encouragement, and in many things a help to me on my way. . . . I hardly know what to say about Joseph : I think thou wouldst be encouraged about him, if thou couldst see his most sweet and amiable conduct at home : he seems to me to have been reaUy stimulated and encouraged by the Tearly Meeting, strengthened and confirmed in many of the principles of Friends. I never saw him appear so earnest in the search for truth and in the pursuit of his duties. I fully believe he is anxious to apply for the iest direction, with a willing heart and a humble spirit : indeed, this appears to be the case in a remarkable degree ; therefore I feel how desirable it is to commit him to a better care than ours, earnestly desiring that nothing may frustrate the work that seems going forward in his mind. I must now, before I conclude this account of us, teU thee that I have been very comfortable : I have more than usually enjoyed settling again at home. Though often oppressed by my own infirmities and discouraged by weakness, yet I feel in the main happy and cheerful. My home is a truly happy one to me. Our blessings are indeed abundant, and I am sure I have cause to acknowledge that the way of the cross, as far as I have been willing to follow it, has been to me a path of pleasantness and peace, and that when I draw back, it produces dissatisfaction and uneasiness. Dear Anna's company has been very sweet and valuable to me : I think we were never so united. I feel a near interest indeed in thee, my dearest Betsy, and value not a little the time that 1811.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 19 we have lately passed together. And now, hoping to have rather an intimate and full letter from thee, I must bid thee farewell, and remain, with near and dear love, Thy very affectionate sister, P. G. Priscilla Gurney had, from religious conviction, declined the amusements and pursuits of fashionable life, and had adopted, in her external appearance and deportment, the sober habits of Friends : and knowing by experience how greatly such a course of conduct tended to preserve from the evils of the world and from the power of temptation, she was anxious that her beloved brothers and near connexions might be induced to resist all those allurements to pleasure and vanity which are inconsistent with the christian life ; and she felt assured, from the peace which she found in this path of self-denial, that the smile of Heaven rested upon it. She addressed, at this time, the following excellent letter to her youngest brother, Daniel Gurney, then twenty-one years of age : — Sixth Month 6th, 1811. I believe there is so much that is positively wrong and contrary to a christian spirit in public places, that they have such a pernicious tendency to lead so many into dangerous temptations and even sins, that I rejoice when any one I love is brought to the conclusion of giving them up. Aiid if thy mind be brought to this conclusion from the dictates of conscience, I wish to encourage thee to stand firm, and not be afraid to avow thy sentiments on the subject to others ; for I believe a degree of boldness in such things may be strengthen- ing to ourselves, and may be helpful and encouraging to our companions. It is well for us in all our occupations and engagements to walk cautiously, to examine the motives by so MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1811. which we are actuated, aud to attend to the voice of conscience, which surely is no less than the Light of Christ manifested in our hearts. We are too apt to engage in things that are wrong, because we will not consider and will not open our eyes to this light. I often think that young men are exposed to many more temptations and difficulties than women, and if they are enabled, by Divine assistance, to stand against them with courage and humble dependence, that they may do much more by example than women can do. My first and earnest desire for all my dear brothers is, that you may become as shining lights in the world, not hiding joxn candles under a bushel ; that you may not be afraid of shewing to the world that you have espoused the cause of religion aud prefer it before all things, and that you are willing to suffer shame for the sake of it. How very far had I rather this should be the case with you, than to see you in possession of all the honours and riches that this world can afford. About four weeks later than the above date she penned the following to an intimate friend : — Seventh Month, 1811. I have such a belief that if the heart be willing and our desires sincere, though tve know them to he weak and faint, that a way is mercifully made for us, and hard things are rendered comparatively easy beyond what we could look for or expect. I can sometimes long that we may every one of us more and more commit our way unto the Lord, casting all our care upon Him who careth for us, and then I believe indeed we should find Him to be an all-sufficient helper in time of need, and an all-wise director in the midst of darhness and difficulties. We are too fearful (at least I am sure I am) of thus committing oui'selves to Him, and of casting ourselves without reserve on his mercy, forgetting that He will impose no burthen upon us which we are unable, through his assistance, to bear, and though He may even call upon us as it were to forsake father, mother, 1811.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEV. 21 houses, lands, &c. for his sake, or at least to prefer Him before all, yet are not his strength and his love sufficient for us ? And is not the reward sure, and greatly beyond all we may have to suli'er here ? Do read in Isaiah xl. 27, to the end, xli. 10-17, xliii. 1-3. They are deeply instructive passages, containing striking encouragement to the christian traveller. In such cases (as that of pursuing a more decided path), we must all ajrree in thinking that it is most desirable not to be precipitate or hasty ; but on the other hand it requires care, if the time be clearly manifested to vis, not to let it pass by us, as there is no doubt danger of our imaginations being at work and too active ; we had need more continually have our hearts fixed on Him, who alone can lead us surely and safely, and who enables us, I believe, to distinguish necessary from imaginary duties I believe the most eflectual way of serving others is to be faithful ourselves ; for when can we with so much confidence and hope apply to the throne of grace for those we love, as when we are endeavouring humbly (though in ever so much weakness) to serve God acceptably ourselves ? Does not the Lord hear the prayer of his dependent children ? I have almost universally found that, when my own will has been opposed to what I have believed the Divine will concerning me, the power for prayer and drawing near to God have been taken from me ; and on the contrary, when I have given up to what He has required of me, I have at times, I believe, felt his presence (which only gives peace and comfort) to be near me, and also an increased ability to receive Christ as a Saviour and Eedeemer." Near the close of the year she wrote to another beloved friend : — In such a shifting scene as this, we want more than natural afifection to keep us together ; we must cultivate that love which is still more precious, which may be lasting among all the changes and chances of this life, and which, it is delightful 22 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1812. to hope, may be perfected in another world. The very imper- fectiou of all our enjoyments here has sometimes a confirming effect on my mind, it is so like the seed being sown of the fruit which we expect to reap hereafter. I have no doubt there is nothing to be compared to the enjoyment of walking in the paths of the Lord, and we experience this truth as much from the pain- ful experience of wandering from them, as from the blessedness of ever being enabled in some measure to walk in them. , . . Oh that we may become increasingly fixed on that rock which remains firm, however the winds and the waves may beat against it ; but the attainment of this is no ligM, no sTiort work, and we have deeply and painfully to experience our own weakness and infirmities before we learn where our true strength is to be found. I think I may say, that I am increasingly convinced that in ourselves we are and have nothing. Fifth Month 14th, 1812. Most fully do I unite with thee in the blessedness of obedience to the Divine wOl. In the Christian life we see there is such a variety of means for the attainment of the same great end, that it has always appeared to me, that we are not sufiicient of ourselves to choose those means which are best for us, and that the more we commit our way unto the Lord, the more we are likely to prosper in that spiritual life which is light and peace ; and I think that the scriptures authorize us to believe that the Light or Holy Spirit which is given to every man to profit withal, is all-sufficient to lead us in the way in which we shoidd go, that it reproves us for every evil thought and word, and that it instructs us in our duties ; and does it not also open our minds to understand the important doctrines of Christianity ? Surely obedience, which is so enforced by Friends, does not lessen but iucrease our faith in the redeeming power of Christ. At those times when we the most endeavour to do right, have we not sufiicient proofs of our gi-eat infirmity, and of the corruptions of human nature, to teach us that of 1812.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 23 ourselves we are blind and poor, and miserable and naked, until clothed with the righteousness of Christ ? In the Seventh Monthj 1812, Priscilla Gurney writes to her sister Fry : — I could not easily say how sweet and how comforting I feel my union with thee, perhaps never more so than it has been of late. It is delightful to have one sister with whom I so fully unite. Many things have interested me much since we parted (on returning home from the Tearly Meeting) . I was well repaid by attending the Essex and Suffolk Quarterly Meetings. It has been a privilege indeed to me to have been so much with Stephen Grellet : I think I have hardly ever been so impressed by the influence and example of any individual as by his. He does truly appear to be deeply experienced in the christian life. He paid us an interesting visit. I could not help feeling pain at parting with him ; but I hope the good effect of having been with him may be lasting. Margaret Bragg and Sarah Hustler's visit to Norwich has also been particularly acceptable. I have felt very much united to them : their meeting with us was truly sweet ; we all felt it to be so ; evincing so much love and sym- pathy, and entering with so much tenderness and consideration into our present situation. They and dear Catherine have felt very affectionately towards each other. Joseph and I were, at different times, a good deal with them, which we much enjoyed. It is often very striking to me to be so much alone, and I can- not but feel the weight of it, though it does not make me feel uncomfortable, and I truly desire it may be a means of drawing me more closely to Him, who can make a way for us where there seems n» way, and from whom, I fully believe, we receive all-sufficient light, strength and comfort, even when external means of help are withdrawn from us. I do indeed feel the necessity of cleaving to the Divine principle within us ; for how little are we fitted to choose a way for ourselves, or to be our own directors. Those words of our Saviour have lately been 24 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURXEY. [1813. an encouragement to me ; when Peter said to Him, " And what shall this man do ?" Jesus saith to him, " If I will that he tarry till I come, what is that to thee ? Follow thou me." This appears to be our individual concern, and I do at times long to do this with more faith and simplicity, and with a more devoted heart. I have felt much encouraged about dear Joseph ; his conduct is truly exemplary, he seems to be more established, and we have all felt him to be a strength and comfort to us. It has been very satisfactory to have dear John taking his place amongst us ; yet it has brought home, rather forcibly, that our sentiments and views do not accord with his, and this, now that we have each to act for ourselves, calls for the exercise of mutual forbearance, patience, and the subjection of our own wilh. The beloved brother to whom reference is made in the last portion of this extract, was now becoming an object of tender and anxious solicitude to his sister Priscilla, who observed a visible, though very gradiial, decay of his phy- sical strength. He had never siu'mounted the shock which his nerves had sustained from the death of his lovely wife ; and, for many months, his affectionate family watched his declining health with serious apprehension of the probable result. Priscilla's attentions to him were seldom remitted. She however left home for a short time in 1813, for the purpose of visiting her beloved cousins at Darlington, taking the opportunity of spending a little time at Ack- worth, where her constant interest in the welfare of youth led her to feel a peculiar pleasure in witnessing the education of the children, and an earnest desire that they might receive solid and scriptural instruction in the great truths of revealed religion. About this time she first spoke in the religious meetings of Friends. She was greatly abased under a conviction of the 1813.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 25 solemnity of this most weighty engagement. In a letter to a serious person of her acquaintance, she says, (in referring to a judicious remark which he had made to her upon the sub- ject of the ministry,) " I trust thou wilt still continue to feel a care over me, and mayst thou be enabled to desire my preservation from the dangers and temptations wliich may attend me in this awful service ; and that I only may con- tinue in it if it be really according to the will of my Lord and Master, whom I desire to serve ; deeply sensible, as I am, that He alone is sufficient to direct and uphold me, and to give me strength and ability to perform his will." Of her offerings in the ministry, the members of her own Monthly Meeting, in their testimony respecting her, give the following account : — Her preaching was clear, sound, and convincing ; well adapted, we believe, to the states of her hearers, and accompanied with " the demonstration of the Spirit and of power ;" and it was the more edifying because she was so generally led to insist on the most important doctrines of the Christian religion, espe- cially on the influence of the Holy Spirit, and on the promise of salvation through faith in Christ, the Mediator with the Father, and the Redeemer of the world. She was also fre- quently clothed, both in public and in private, with the spirit of supplication ; and her prayers, being offered up in great abasement of mind, were attended with precious solemnity. The impression which was made by her ministrations, on the minds of general hearers, was very strong, as may be perceived by the following remarks from the pen of the late Sir T. F. Buxton. After describing the loveliness of her person and manners, he adds : — No less remarkable were the powers of her mind. I have c 26 MEMOIR OF PRTSCILLA GURNEY. [1813. seldom Ituown a person of such sterling ability ; and it is im- possible to mention these mental powers without adverting to that great, and, in my estimation, that astonishing display of them, which was afforded by her ministry. I have listened to many eminent preachers, and many speakers also, but I deem her as perfect a speaker as I ever heard. The tone of her voice, her beauty, the singular clearness of her conceptions, and, above all, her own strong conviction that she was urging the truth, and truth of the utmost importance — the whole consti- tuted a species of ministry which no one could hear, and which I am persuaded no one ever did hear, without a deep im- pression. Before the winter of 1813 set in, Priscilla Gurney accom- pauied her brother J olin to Clifton, where they remained until the return of mild and genial weather : but the hope which had been entertained, that a residence there might tend to restore his health, was disappointed ; and he continued to sink until the Ninth Month, 1814, when, in much peace, his spirit, which had, in the simplicity of a little child, yielded itself to the visitations of heavenly love, departed from its enfeebled tenement, to enter, as there was good ground to believe, into one of the many mansions of the "Father's house." Priscilla Gurney had com- menced the practice of making entries (by way of journal) of her experiences and impressions. In reference to this deceased brother, she says : — In watching the progress of dear John's complaints, a few things have particularly impressed me, with respect to ourselves and others who have been interested for him. First ; the im- portance of making a right use of all the talents committed to our charge as long as they are continued to us, that when our Lord and Master calleth for all, or any of them, we may be prepared to give an account thereof, that we may obtain the 1813.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 27 blessing promised by our Saviour to the faithful : " "Well done good and faithful servant, &c." Secondly ; the importance of working lohile it is day, of doing that work which the Lord hath appointed for each of us to do, because we see the night Cometh q\nckly, when no man can work. Thirdly ; the import- ance of cultivating good habits in the time of health and strength, such as patience, the subjection of our will and temper, temperance, and those habits which belong more immediately to the outward conduct of life, as the regulation and employ- ment of time, our deportment towards others, propriety and caution in all our words and actions. In our attendance on dear John, during this illness, we have had to feel the ines- timable advantages of every good habit acquired in the time of health. We may say that with him these have been many, and that the effects of them have been very observable — consoling and encouraging to those around him, and to himself an incalcu- lable advantage and help under the pressure of infirmity. The solemn monition referred to in the foregoing extract, " Work, while it is day/' was specially addressed to the mind of this disciple of Jesus. The principle of piety — of holy love to God — which from her early youth had been implanted in her spirit, had become deep and strong : and He, whose thoughts are not as our thoughts, nor his ways as our ways, who seeth the end from the beginning, had apportioned to her brief hour of life the work which He had appointed for her to perform ; and, from one time to another, He saw meet to open in her soul the spring of gospel ministry ; and He graciously prepared and smoothed the channels through which its living streams should flow, for the refreshment of many a faint and weary pilgrim in the pathway to the Heavenly Jerusalem. For more than a year previous to her brother John's decease, she had occasionally given utterance to the feelings of fervent c 2 28 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNET. [1813. solicitude for the spiritual well-being of those amongst whom her lot was cast. She was humbled as in the dust before her God, and in awful reverence she entered on this most solemn but blessed service. In allusion to it she writes : — Though, in the having to minister to others, and in having publicly and before others to call upon the name of the Lord, I have had to experience many fears and doubts, have known many humbling and low times, yet I esteem it an inestimable privilege to be in any way engaged in the service of the Lord ; and as I have found and experienced it to be a means of drawing me nearer to himself, of opening to my mind the truth, the reality, and the blessedness of religion, I may well reckon it one of the greatest blessings of my life, one that has beeu ivell worth sulFering for. It is an engagement that particularly calls for the subjection of the will, to sit as at the feet of Jesus, to hear his word ; but, indeed, this is a most desirable attainment, whatever be ovu" situation or calling temporally and spiritually. I am increasingly persuaded that the Spirit is, through iiifinite mercy, manifested in our hearts, and the more we follow it in faith and simplicity, the more we know of its excellence and beauty, and we experience that it is the power within us which overcomes sin and the power of the world. Of the character of her ministry, Joseph John Gurney writes in his autobiography : — Of all the ministry I was accustomed to hear, none was, perhaps, so beneficial to me as that of my beloved sister Priscilla. It was generally in good authority, well expressed, lucid and scriptural, and to me rendered much the more efiectual by her life and conversation, which afibrded me a pattern of no mean value. The language of her whole con- duct to her younger brother in the truth, was, " FoUow me as I foUow Christ." 1814.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 29 Ou the 18th of Ninth Month, 1813, the following is entered in her Journal : — On this day last year I first opened my month in the ministry. Surely, in reviewing the past, I can make this acknowledgment with Job Scott: "Lord, thou hast held my hand and covered my headia many battles." Grrant, I beseech thee, a continuance of thy preserving care and tender mercy over me, and such a renewal of thy strength and of thy grace, that I may be enabled in this mysterious and awful engagement to " walk by faith and not by sight," that I may run and not be weary, and walk and not faint ; for without thee, O Lord, I can do nothing. Ninth Month 22nd, 1813.— Oh, for a closer walk with God ! It is sometimes my desire to walk humbly with my God ; but, alas ! He only knows my wanderings, my reluctance to serve him with full purpose of heart, and to " commit the keeping of my sold to him as unto a faithful Creator." Nevertheless, I am persuaded that practical religion chiefly consists in the subjection of our own will, and in submission to the will of God : — enable me, O Lord, to pray that thy wdl and not mine may be done. UleventJi Month, 1814. — In reviewing the last year of my life, a period which has been important, and in some respects deeply interesting to me, I have thought that the language comes home to my experience : " My soul doth magnify the Lord, and my spirit doth rejoice in God my Saviour." At least there have been seasons, when I have seen what abundant cause we have for the abasement of self, to magnify the Lord ; though I have often had to pass as through the deeps, though I have often greatly feared through the weakness of faith, though I know that I have inex- pressible cause for repentance and humiliation before my God, yet I may acknowledge that there have been times when my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour. The glory, the beauty, the excellency of his salvation, through Jesus Christ our Lord, have been increasingly opened before me : I have seen more clearly that Christ is God our Saviour, and I have believed tint 30 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1814. to know experimentally the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom He hath sent, is life eternal, and that this knowledge ia a joy unspeakable and fuU of glory. Utterly unwortliy as I am, I have been permitted to hold communion with my Saviour, and through Him to draw near unto my God. I have known what it is, not only to sit at his feet, but to hear his word, and that word has spoken life and peace to my soul. Under the burden of sin and the weight of many infirmities, my spirit has ofben been comforted in believing that Christ, who has borne our infirmities and carried our sorrows, who was tempted like as we are, yet without sin, is our High Priest in heaven ; that he ever liveth to make intercession for us, and is the propitiation for our sins. "Lord I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear, but now mine eye hath seen thee, therefore do I desire to abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes." For I have assuredly felt, that, through Jesus Christ our Lord, there is forgiveness with thee, that thou mayst be feared, under the apprehension of death and present suffering. I have often been comforted in the hope, that a new and living way has been opened for me into the kingdom of heaven, into a state of everlasting peace and rest. The Lord has been mercifully pleased to " anoint my eyes with eye-salve," so that I have seen at times, though it may be very dimly, that Christ is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, that he is the chiefest amongst ten thousand ; and how do I desire that he may be, now and evermore, the beloved of my soul. I humbly hope tliat I know him better than I did a year ago in his various characters. First, as our Physician, as having all-sufficient power to heal the sick and to cure all manner of diseases ; as having power to make us clean, to bind up the broken-hearted, to give light to the blind, hearing to the deaf, as making the lamo to walk. O Lord, let me not blindly feel myself as amongst the lohole, but, as I am truly, amongst the sick who need the healing power of this great Physician. Enable me, gracious Father, to come unto him with faith, that I may be healed, that I may be cured of every disease sptri- 1814.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 31 tually ; may the Sun of E/ighteousness arise coutinually in my soul with healing in his wings. Secondly, as our Sheplierd, the good Shepherd who gave his life for tlie sheep, hy whose care we want nothing ; who maketh us to lie down in green pastures ; who leadeth us beside the still waters, even the everlasting fountains of life ; who restoreth our souls ; who leadeth us into the paths of righteousness for his name's sake; who, though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, yet preventeth all fear of evil, because He is with us, because his rod and his staff continually comfort us. O Lord, grant, I humbly pray thee, that Jesus Christ, thy beloved Son, may be my Shepherd, leading me whilst here in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake, and through the valley of the shadow of death unto thine ever- lasting kingdom. Suffer me not to wander from the paths and from the guidance of the heavenly Shepherd, lest I should become a prey to the ravenous wolves, to our devouring adversary. Keep me where thou makest thy flocks to rest at noon, that I may be one amongst the little flock of Christ to whom thou hast promised to give thy kingdom. Thirdly, our JSxample. His life should be our pattern — as it concerns our God, our neighbour, and our- selves. Like our blessed Lord, we should humbly and earnestly endeavour to glorify God upon the earth, and to accomplish the work which he hath given each of us to do. As He went about doing good, so our lives should be devoted to doing good for others ; and in relieving, according to our ability, the temporal and spiritual wants of our neighbours. " If I, then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet, ye ought also to wash one another's feet." We should learn of Christ to be meek and lowly of heart, humble in prosperity, patient in adversity ; for He suffered for us, leaving us an example that we should follow his steps : when reviled or persecuted, let us not revile again ; when oppressed or afflicted, let us not open our mouths to murmur. May I not, for the remainder of my life, look so much to my fellow-creatures for an example, but tinto Christ, who was a perfect pattern in his life and conversation, looking stedfastly 33 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1815. unto Christ, by wboiu aloue we can draw nigh unto thee, who art our Heavenly Father, the Lord Almighty God, aud the King of Saints : may I be enabled to love thee more and more with all my heart, and my neighbour as myself; may I learn much more than I have yet learned, through the assistance of tby Holy Spii'it, to be like my blessed Eedeemer, meek and lowly in heart, humble and thankful in prosperity, patient in every tribulation : may I learn to suffer more willingly witb Christ ; so that when time to me here shall be no more, I may humbly hope that, through his merits, through thy tender mercy and unmerited loving-kindness, I may come to reign with him in glory for ever." In the First Month, 1815, she visited the families of Friends of Norwich Meeting, her uncle and aunt Joseph aud Jane Gui'ney being her companions ; and her sympathy was shortly afterwards painfully excited on behalf of these dear relatives in the illness and death of their son Henry: — On Sixth-day, Second Month 10th, 1815, we received the intelligence that they were in much distress at the Grove, dear H. having been extremely ill in the night, which having ended in a fit of apoplexy, they could not expect him to survive long. Joseph and I immediately went to the Grove, and soon joined them in the room where dear H. was lying on the poiut of death. The scene was awful and deeply affecting. My beloved uncle and airnt were sitting over liim, much distressed and bowed down under the heavy and unexpected stroke. We sat in solemn silence ; but, as our beloved cousin seemed on the point of departing out of this world, I could not forbear from supplicating that the Lord Jesus would, in that awfid hour, come quickly — that the Lord, in taking him hence, would be mercifidly and graciously pleased to take him to himself into his everlasting kingdom, " where the wicked cease from troubling, and the weary are at rest." We seemed also called upon to 1815.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 33 render thanksgiving unto Him -vrho had preserved this beloved child from the evils and pollutions of this world, and humbly to pray that every transgression might be blotted out and every sin covered—that he might be clothed with the garments of righteousness — that he might be admitted into the presence of the Almighty — that the Lamb might lead him unto living foun- tains of water. He quietly departed on the day of this interview. Pris- cilla Guruey remained for a time with the bereaved parents ; and on Second Month 20thj she writes : — I have been staying here since the event happened, and I have felt it quite a privilege to be with them. The true and Christian resignation with which my beloved uncle and aunt have been able to meet this close trial, has been encouraging and strengthening to those about them : to the feelings of nature it is indeed a bitter cup, but my hope and belief is, that it may be sanctified to them all. What an inexpressible blessing it is to see those we love fortified by faith and submission at such a time as this ! I have seldom felt it more than on this occasion. How very solemn are these repeated warnings to those who remain! Surely, we have had to experience, within the last few years, that in the midst of life we are in death. There is hardly anything to me more overwhelming in these events, than the loud call to us who remain to watch and be sober : it is easier to say they are warnings, than to listen to and obey the warning voice. How have I longed during this time, and from our late ex- perience, that our hearts might be more and more weaned from the world, and that our conversation might be more in heaven ! where indeed we seem to have much treasure. This is my feeling about those who have gone before us, who have escaped from the troubles and conflicts of this life, and are anchored on the Eock of Ages, in a state of everlasting rest and peace. I some- c 3 34 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GUENEY. [1815. times think, if, through a grain of faith, we are permitted now and then to have a glimpse of this eternal state, it compensates for aU our troubles and conflicts here. I do not at all approve of taking a gloomy view of life, where we have so much to make us thankful and happy, at least with a better hope beyond it ; and with such a hope, how can we be thankful enough for the unmerited and marvellous blessings bestowed upon us ? TO HEE SISTER, ELIZABETH GXTEITET, Earlham, Fourth Month 9th, 1815. You have been brought very near to me of late. I have renewedly longed for you, unitedly and separately, that you may increasingly surrender yourselves to the service of our blessed Master. I have thought that the sacrifices which have been, and may yet be required of you, may be in some of the little things (at least what may be termed little by others) ; but I am increasingly persuaded that some of these little things are often our stumbling-blocks, and also, that nothing is little which pro- motes our own spiritual advancement, or serves that most holy cause, which I humbly trust we have in some measure at heart. May you both, under a sense of the manifold benefits and mer- cies bestowed upon you, be more and more willing to surrender whatever may be called for at your hands ! I believe thou art hardly aware, my beloved Elizabeth, how, inasmuch as thou hast been faithful to the Cross, thou hast been a strength and a comfort to me. Many and many a time have I secretly felt the influence of it ; and a renewed and earnest desire has of late attended me, that thou mayest be encouraged, not only to be an helpmate to thy dear husband, but more and more of a true and faithful and self-denying labourer in the vineyard. Early in 1815, Priscilla Gurney was engaged in the very weighty service of paying a religious visit to the families of Friends throughout the limits of her own Quarterly 1816.] MEMOIR OP PRISCILLA GURNEV. 35 Meeting. She was accompanied by her beloved cousin Anna Buxton, who, like herself, had been enabled, by yielding to the constraining love of Christ, to forsake all that, to the human soul unregenerated by the Spirit of Truth, appears to promise a life of pleasure and self-indul- gence. These two devoted messengers of the gospel were closely cemented in the fellowship and communion of their Redeemer ; and there were not a feWj who, by their chris- tian labours and pious example, were stimulated and en- couraged to take the Saviour's yoke upon them, and humbly to learn of Him who was " meek and lowly iu heart." After the accomplishment of this important visit, Pi'iscilla Gurney was, dui'ing most of the remaining months of the year, and also for several of those in the spring of 1816, permitted to remain at her comfortable home, and to pursue, in comparative retirement, those occupations which remarkably promoted the welfare of the surrounding district. Her beloved sister Richenda had married Francis Cunningham; and, referring to this circumstance, she writes, Second Month 26th, 1816 :— I have of late felt much bound to home, and it is very com- fortable not to have any particular call from it. It is rather remarkable to feel my own allotment so very difterent from that of my three sisters,* with whom I was brought up in the closest union ; my religious path so distinct from theirs, and prospects in life so different. Sow these things are we knoiv not. Sis ways are not as our ways .... I confess that, since Eichenda went, I have sometimes felt a little lonely and solitary in my path ; but I earnestly desire to be thankful for the many blessings which are bestowed upon me. How comfort- ing it is sometimes really to believe that, whatever be our aUot- • Hannah having several years earliei- being married to T. P. Buxton, and Louisa to Samuel Hoare. 36 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. ment, whetlier we rejoice or whether we mourn, however varied may appear our portion here, yet that every dit3pen.sation is , sent in wisdom and mercy, and that each has that which is best for us. I do so desire to rest in this belief, and in what- ever state I am therewith to be content. To another friend she addressed the following, dated Fourth Month 4.th :— I have longed to tell thee, during the last few weeks, how sweetly in my inmost heart my love has flowed towards thee, indeed towards all your beloved circle, though under an inex- pressible sense of my own weakness and nothingness, which has been especially brought home to me of late ; yet I can desire for others that they may go on from strength to strength, and come forth valiantly for the cause of truth amongst and before others : this is the prayer of my heart for you, that whilst health and strength and life are granted you, you may dedicate these talents to the service of your blessed Master — that you may not limit the power of the Lord, saying in your hearts, " Thus far will Ave go and no farther." Some important family claims required Priscilla Gurney's attention during the time of the Yearly Meeting of 1816. She felt the privation, consequent on being necessarily absent from it, to be no small trial ; but, with the spirit of cheerful acquiescence with every circumstance permitted or dispensed by the providence of her heavenly Father, which so uniformly prevailed in her heart, she was per- fectly willing to forego the enjoyment of a privilege which she greatly valued. She says : — It has been quite a sacrifice to me to give up the Yearly Meeting. I had longed for such a refreshment, and to be a little more amongst Friends, as we have not much of this kind of help in our situation here : but I do not doubt it is for our 181G.] MEMOIR OF PUISCILLA GURNEY. 37 benefit to be, for a time, deprived of much outward belp and consolation. This has been remarkably my case for many months past. My dear uncle and aunt's loug absence from home has been one thing that has given this feeling : but I am sure that these things are ordered in wisdom and mercy, and ought to lead us, vrith more faith, trust and dependence, to the Source of all good. As the autumn approached, it brought mth it, to some of her near connexions, accumulated solicitudes and sorrows. Her uncle Joseph's family had, as we have seen in the record of the previous year, been suddenly bereft of a young and interesting member : this heavy affliction was quickly followed by another, not less deeply felt, and attended by circumstances of peculiar trial. Their daughter Rachel was seriously affected by symptoms of pulmonary disorder ; and, by the urgent advice of some attendant physicians, it was concluded that she should pass the ensuing winter in the milder climate of Savoy. Some painful anxieties respecting others of their beloved circle prevented Joseph and Jane Gui'ney from accom- panying their dear child to a foreign land; and they confided this important charge to their affectionate niece, of whose skilful and assiduous attentions to such as were sinking under disease they had repeatedly had ample proof. Priscilla Gurney felt weightily the responsible undertaking; but meekly surrendered herself to perform the arduous duties which it involved. Her tenderly sympathising, yet lively spirit, her deep and solid piety, her constant faith and trust, rendered her a most valuable companion to the sick and to the mourner, particularly to those in early life, whose future appeared to be no longer irradiated by the sunshine of youthful anticipations. Rarely could one be found whose experience could better 38 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. qualify to administer to the failing tabernacle ; or, in seasons of extreme weakness and discouragement, when the spirit might sink at the prospect of the awful gloom that enveloped the dark " valley of the shadow of death," few could be more prepared to point the sufferer to those rays of " the Sun of Righteousness " which illumine the Christian's pathway to the tomb. The invalid was also accompanied by her sister Jane. This little, but very inte- resting party, commenced their journey on the 27th of Ninth Month, at which date Priscilla writes : — Our parting at Earlham was under a most sweet and comforting impression of gospel love. We had a solemn reading. I felt engaged in prayer that we might be esta- bhshed, strengthened, and settled in the Truth as it is in Jesus ; and I was enabled to commend myself, and those most dear to me, as well absent as present, to the Lord, and to his grace under every dispensation. The warm expression of christian love, unity, and sympathy, from so many of my near and dear friends, was consolatory on leaving my most beloved home. Our departure from the Grove was very affecting ; but quietness and even peace prevailed. A low ride to Harleston. The feebng of most tender love and union of spirit with those I had left (united, I humbly trust, in Him who is the Light of the World,) was powerful through this day and night. 29^^. — We began to read with dear Eachel, in the carriage, the Grospel of John. We had some interesting conversation, in which I fully expressed my desire that we might be unmoved under every dispensation, having our hearts withdrawn from the things of this world. Never did I much more earnestly desire that they may be uplifted above its cares and its enjoy- ments, and whoUy fixed on our heavenly treasure. I felt my absence from my beloved famUy this morning ; but was per- mitted to hold sweet communion with them in Him, and through Him, who is our advocate with the Father. 1816.] MEMOIR OF PEISCILLA GURNEY. 39 At Witham, one of their resting-places, she addressed the following to her beloved cousin, Anna Buxton, then about to be united in marriage with William Forster :■ — Nintli Month ^Oth. — I believe I shall be much with you in mind, and in a little of that spirit which we may humbly hope still unites us together, under the varied events of life. Various and unexpected indeed they are, and such I must say is my present undertaking to accompany dear Eachel on such an expedition as this : I cannot but feel it serious on many accounts. I have deeply felt leaving home. I believe we shall sometimes have your sympathy, may we not hope your prayers for our preservation. Though the pain of leaving home has been great, yet a feeling of sweet peace has, I think, been per- mitted to attend us, and I have been, on the whole, quiet and comfortable. And now, my beloved friends, I may from my heart say. Farewell. May we more and more seek that Spirit which can enable us to mourn and rejoice together, and which may lead us continually to commend ourselves and one another unto that grace which can alone build us up, sustain, and comfort us. The travellers reached Bury Hill on the evening of the last date. Here, another cousin, Elizabeth Barclay, whose health was in a very critical state, had been directed by her physicians to spend the winter at Nice. She was accompanied by a brother and sister, and by her cousin, A. R. Barclay. It was arranged that the two parties should proceed together. On the 1st of Tenth Month, Priscilla Gurney writes : — It was interesting to meet the party here. Joseph and Elizabeth Fry came with their baby in the evening. E. F. visited both our patients in their different apartments, and 40 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. earnestly supplicated for each of us : for dear Eachel — that, whether her time here might be loug or short, every dispensation might tend to her refinemeut and preparation for another state of being — that she might be increasingly established on that rock against which the gates of hell can never prevail — that, through our Redeemer, she might obtain the victory over sin, death, and the grave. This was very solemn. She prayed also for dear Jane's preservation and consolation, and for her establish- ment in the Truth ; and for me, that during our separation the Lord might be a shelter from the storm, a shadow from the heat, when the blast of the terrible one may be as a storm against the wall. I believe our hearts were united and refreshed together. Tenth Month, 3rd. — A little withdrawing of that holy and heavenly presence which has mercifully attended me, was my experience during this day ; I believe through my own unwatch- fulness. 5th. — We were anxious about dear Rachel; she appeared to me very iU. "We read together Cowper's hymn on prayer, " Jesus where'er thy people meet," &c. Oh, that we may aU be delivered from temptation, and kept from all evil ! First-day, the 6th. — At Dorking Meeting. This text much im- pressed me, " The time is short," &c., conveying warning to the careless, and consolation to the alflicted — on the shortness of time, and preparation for an eternal world — on examining our- selves, whether we be in the faith — on that knowledge of God and of Christ which is life eternal, &c In the evening D. B. read John vi. and Psalm ciii. to the family and servants ; after which we had a solemn pause : I could not separate, and indeed it seemed that we could not part, without supplicating for mercy, and the blessing of Grod upon us, that He would grant to each of us what we need in things temporal and spiritual. We seemed afresh called upon to connnend our beloved patients to the Lord, that his presence might be with them, that they might partake of the bread of life, and so come 1816.] MEMOIR OF PllISCILLA GURNEY. 41 unto Christ that they may never hunger, and believe in Hiin that they may never thirst. 7 t?i. — Departure from Bury Hill — bustling arrival at Brighton. Sth. — Very interesting and memorable departure in our boat to the packet. Before quitting the English shores she addressed her dear sisters and brothers. She says : — A hope prevails that I am in my right place — that this separation from many things so dear to us may be a means of establishing us more in the knowledge and experience of the blessed Truth as it is in Jesus. For myself, I think I hardly ever was more sensible than since I left you, of the breadth and length and height and depth of the love of Christ that passeth knowledge. Without some sense of this most precious knowledge my heart would have sunk more in leaving you all. Night — on board the packet — very comfortless. Patients and nurses all ill. Beautiful morning. We brought the invalids on to the deck. The approach to the French coast very inte- resting. Landed at Dieppe. Our patients were carried into the inn amongst a crowd of people. After a short stay the party proceeded to Rouen. Stop- ping at a village on their way, Priscilla distributed a few tracts. One little girl brought me her father's Bible and read to me in it — (she said) " Voulez-vous venir dans notre Jardin ? " It was a pretty scene — little rooms round it, with their beds — a crucifix in one of them. Many of the children could read, but no other Bible could I hear of. Gave a Testament to the landlady. One man would have disputed with me for being a Protestant : " Oh, vous n'etes pas Catholique — vous ne croyez pas a la A^icrgc." I could not speak French enough to justify 42 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. my creed. Our two maids had gone forward (to Rouen) in the diligence. We found a comfortable inn and things nicely prepared, but so different from England. Everybody full of life, dirty, but obliging. Pleasing femme de chambre. — I gave her a tract, and she promised to read it " au dimanche." Houen is a fine old city — the Seine wdth its numerous islands, and the old city, a striking scene. I felt in some degree the emptiness of all worldly sights. \2th. — Had enjoyed some time by myself the two pre- ceding evenings, and again felt the privilege of having those absent from me brought, in a lively manner, to my remem- brance. " Still in spirit we may meet, And in sweet communion join." A fatiguing day's journey to Verdun. Stopped at Louvier, — an interesting time there amongst the people — gave some tracts. A lovely young woman entered into conversation with me, and expressed some serious feeling — said very sweetly, " Nous devons aimer 1' Etemel de tout notre coeur — oui, de toutlnotre force." Tenth Month \^th, Mrst-day. — ^Went forward to Mantz. I longed for the privileges of an English "Sabbath." The people were assembling for mass ; but there was not much appearance of seriousness. I earnestly desire that our present mode of life may not scatter the seed of the kingdom in our hearts. A very sweet reading in the evening. I felt the separating effect of worldly things, but was enabled to supplicate the Divine blessing stiO. to rest upon us, and, for our dear patients, that the Lord would atisfy them with the bread of life, and fUl the hungry soul with His goodness. A covering of love seemed at last, at the close of the day, cast over us, and we separated peacefully. lUh.—To " St." Germains. 15th. — To Paris. Many objects of interest. The house 1816.] MEMOIR OP PRISCILLA GURNEY. 43 of tlie Empress Josephine, Malmaison, water-works at Marli ; entrance to the city, grand, unlike anything I have seen before. Had a comfortable retirement by myself in my comfortless little dressing-room at our hotel. 19th. — "Walked to the Agent's of the Bible Society, — agreed to communicate, should any opening occur where we settle for spreading the Scriptures. How much I desire that this may be the case. Leo caUed in the evening and engaged to send us some of his Testaments. It is cheering to me to have any prospect of a little good ojiening before us. 20th, First-day. — At home all day. With our two invalids had a little reading, and quiet time together, which was better than nothing. ^I was much, in miud, with our beloved friends in England ; and, under the sense of our privation, I thought of and felt the words of this Psalm, — " Tea, we wept when we remembered Zion. How shall we sing the Lord's song in a strange land ? " 21s^.— Preparations for leaving Paris. "We were not sorry to leave it, as it is not calculated to make the happiest impression on the mind. Many French about us, amongst the rest our Mantua-maker, to whom I gave a Testament, with which she was much delighted, and said she should often read it with her little girl. Came forward to Melun. Dear Rachel more easy than usual, and we enjoyed our reading in the Bible and the first chapter of Baxter's "Dying Thoughts." Pleasant evening at Villeneuve : we read together the " Crook in the Lot." — I read hymns to dear Rachel, &c., ^dth much comfort, especially this, — "How are thy servants blest, O Lord," &c. They reached Sens on the 24th. Rachel very poorly, which rendered the ride hence to Auxerre a painful one ; but we went on -v^dth our reading. The vineyards on the sides of the hills much more luxuriant than any I had seen. Auxerre is a fine town. I walked over the 44 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. bridge ; it was a beautiful clear afternoon — enjoyed the loveli- ness of the scene, the view of the town, the islands in the river— groups of figures coming down the hill with their baskets of grapes. 27^/*.— Autun, Another Eirst-daj. Eead the Epistle to Titus. Whilst thus separated from the Church, I have felt an earnest desire that we may be increasingly united to Him who is the Head of the Church, and more and more know Him for ourselves ; and also, that whilst separated \n person from those who are the members of the Church, we may be permitted to enjoy spiritual communion and fellowship in Christ. "We thought there was more appearance of the " Sabbath" being kept here than ui Normandy, or near Paris, — more of seriousness among the people. We read this afternoon, with real comfort, and some unity of spirit, the 40th of Isaiah, 1st Peter, and the two last chapters of the Revelation ; and I trust our hearts were a little raised above the cares and troubles of life. 2Sth. — The views of Autun and the surrounding countrj', highly interesting. We think the difference of the chmate begins to be evident. 22th. — Chalon, not a striking place. Preparations for our voyage down the Saone. Our patients were carried through a thick fog from the diligence into our boat. I sat on the deck and enjoyed my morning's reading, thoiigh a little interrupted by passengers. I have found many opportunities, during this journey, for retreat and entire inward retirement, which have been particularly comfortable to me. As it regards my service to others, my present life is a humbling one. ZOth. — This whole day peciiliarly comfortless. Crowds of low passengers. The country more beautiful — especially near Lyons, the approach to which place is very striking ; nor is it less so to one's muid to be at a place so often read and heard of. The air is very warm. The remembrance of the Martyrs interesting to me : Perpetua and Felicitas, and the history of the Church at this place. We ascended the hill behind the 1810.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 45 Cathedral, from whence we had a fine view of the Alps, which was highly iuterestiiig : Mount Blanc, Mount Cenis, &c., &c. Slst. — We set off for our second voyage in a large boat, and soon left the Saone for the lihone, which is a much nobler river, but the water is muddy. We reached Vienne, where we had but comfortless accommodation. Tlie chambermaids zealous in our service ; one very lively girl waited on us with great alacrity. I gave her a Testament. Eleventli Month 2nd. — One of the pleasantest days we have had during our journey. The country in parts was highly beautiful, the mountains clothed with vines, very luxuriant. Our dinner was a cheerful one, in our boat. Drawing was to-day a pleasant occupation to us all. Elizabeth and I have, during these two days, thoroughly enjoyed the epistles to Timothy ; and I have seldom felt more sensibly the superiority of spiritual good to every oilier gratification whatever : we feel that the one soon passes away, but the other nourishes the soul to life eternal. We stopped in the evening at Cerier. Two little girls in the inn, dressed like old women, interested me, and I promised them a Testament. Walked by the river by moonlight. Eleventh Month 3rd. — I ran before breakfast to visit the mother of the two little girls (just mentioned), to whom I gave the Testament with some satisfaction, and a hope that a blessing might attend it to these dear children. We breakfasted in our boat. The wind being against us, we were obliged to stop at "St." Valiere. 4th, First-day. — I have felt the want of more retirement for the last few days, from having risen late. Pauline read to me a chapter in the Testament, and I questioned her upon it with interest and satisfaction. I cannot help longing to take some part with, the dear children. Pauline had been with her sick nncle to mass. Let us not judge others, though we may feel for one another, and prize the privileges uw possess. We have been having our meeting together. I had to remind my companions of a text which has frequently been on my mind during our journey, — " Examine yourselves, prove your own selves, whether ye be in the faith, &c." — Of the importance, (especially) under our present circumstances, of self-examina- tion whether we be in the faith, whether Christ be in us by his Spirit, whether we are so abiding in Him as to bring forth fruit. We read the fourth and fifth chapters of second Corinthians. Visited the Hospital, where the nuns of "the 1816.] MEMOIK OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 47 order of St. Joseph " attend the sick, — an interesting scene. Had some conversation with the patients, also with the nims." In a letter to her beloved brother Samuel, she says : — Avignon, Eleventh Month 13th. I spent some time on First-day at a large hospital, where the sick people are attended by an order of nuns from an adjoin- ing convent. I was interested much by the scene, both by the invalids and their attendants, and in my very poor way had some communication ^vith several of tliem, and wished much to see the convent ; but could not then obtain leave. The sick people seemed to benefit much by the kind care of the nuns ; I could not help wishing for some such attendance in our hospitals. I took a Catholic edition of the Testament \vith me ; but they would not accept it. The nuns were very kind tome, though addressed by the title of " Heretique." Since this visit we obtained a letter from the Bishop, with leave to visit the convent, and we have been there this morning and spent about an hour with the nuns. A most curious visit we paid. I wish I could describe it to you ; it was a great favour to be admitted, and I believe it was owing to my having the appearance of a " Eeligieuse Anglaise' ' (English nun) that obtained the permission for us. They are only eighteen in number. I should think, by the appearance of the house, reduced — so many of their chambers appeared unoccupied. To be sure, we were never so addressed before ; such invectives and denunciations against the Protestants, such entreaties to return to the " only true Church," such warm invitations to join their members, such expressions of horror at our heresy, as I really could not have believed had I not heard them. They all being about us, we could only answer their lectures and exhortations by a few broken defences of our faith. I was not in the least inclined to enter into discussion, but rather to gather what there was to be gathered of the sweet and good 48 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. spirit amongst them, and to unite in those simple truths in which we could unite. On this account, I believe, and from my appearance, they had more hopes of me, and were, in con- sequence, more earnest in their entreaties and invitations. After they had showed us through the house, chapel, &c., many of them feU upon their knees, which they said was to pray for us, that we might be converted and saved, and during the time we were there they were continually falling on their knees before some saint, or the Virgin, &c. There really appeared much devotion to their duties ; but so much delusion, such narrow boundaries, that it vras impossible not to be painfuUy impressed ; and I could not help feeling and thinking how little was to be felt of the glorious liberty of the children of Grod. I said, I hoped we should part in christian love, to which they assented ; and they really were very kind and affectionate in manner. It seems as if I were to be introduced to a variety in the christian world. I must confess that the experience of this journey has led me increasingly to value that religion which is spiritual and inward, and to desire to be more and more guided (seeing the delusions of men) by that Spirit and holy anointing which can really change the heart, and lead into all truth : at the same time, when we can, we ought to take example from the good we see in others, and I think we may gain some lessons from the Catholics. We must still remember that we are not to judge one another ; there is One that judgeth. I have given away one Bible and several Testaments here, which have been thankfully received. The other day I had quite a long visit to a respectable man and his wife, and had a good deal of communication with them. "When I am alone, I can manage to convey my mind tolerably, though in a very poor stumbling manner. The Superieure of the nuns who attend the sick in the hos- pital refused to accept a Testament which I offered to her. Pauline has been with us aU day — visit to her uncle and aunt, to whom I gave a Testament with satisfaction and hope. "We 1816.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 49 talked of the influence and instruction of the Holy Spirit, as superior to that of man. I long to see this more understood, particularly in France. ISth. — With Pauline to the Libraire and renewed my stock of Testaments. I felt low to-day : less access to the only Source of substantial comfort and consolation. 14#7j. — Farewell to the family of our landlady — rather inte- resting. Reached Port Eoyal in the evening. The mountains grand, summits covered with snow, colouring most beautiful. 15th. — Entrance into Aix, very fine : four rows of trees in the principal streets, fountains of hot and cold water, striking in their effect. The weather very cold, owing to the Bise (their north-east wind). 17th. — To Luc: country most luxuriant, with olive trees &c. Felt thankfulness in having been thus far carried through difficulties, and helped on our' way, and for the various deliverances we have experienced. l%th. — From Luc to Frejus. The sight of the Mediterranean interesting. Walked to the Eoman Amphitheatre. Sketched the scene. 19^^. — A bitterly cold walk before breakfast to see the remains of the Roman Lighthouse. Wonderfully fine ride from Frejus to Cannes. At Frejus Bonaparte landed from Egypt and also embarked for Elba : at Cannes he landed from Elba. Writing at this date to her sister Rachel^ Priscilla Gurney says : — We have to-day crossed over a very high hUl, which took up most of the morning ; I quite enjoyed my solitary walk, or rather ascent, up the mountain — my own contemplations, and the wonderful works of nature. I walked alone, until I over- took a hermit going on a pilgrimage to the Pope at Rome ; and, feeling something like a pilgrim myself, we joined company, 50 MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNET. [1816. and entered into conversation and a little sj-mpathy on our way. He lived in a hermitage near Boiirdeaux, and had travelled several hundred miles, taking with him no money, having only his staff, and (as he said) protected by several crucifixes and relics of "the order of St. Jaques." He wore a most curious large leathern garment, the sign of his order, covered vrith. shells, relics and crucifixes. I asked him whether he had any companion. He said, none other than the one he wore — pointing to the image of our Saviour. I said, I hoped that his Spirit dwelt in his heart, as well as his image on his garment. He assented, and, after giving him a few sous, we parted. 20f7i. — G-ave Testaments to our landlady and one of her neighbours. From Cannes to ^ice, the entrance into which place was, I believe, deeply felt by us all : the remembrance of our long pilgrimage, the uncertainty of the event, especially to the dear invalids, excited much thought. May they so love the Lord that aU things may " work together for good." Mrst-day. — Comfortable. Our meeting in the morning. This day I had to say a few words on the text, " Him that Cometh unto me I will in no wise cast out." I had to sup- plicate that the presence of the Lord might be with us. These meetings I find occasion more conflict of mind than more public ones. Eleventh Month 26th. — TTe took possession of our new- abode ; a house pleasantly situated, just out of the town. That the Divine blessing may rest upon us in it, was my desii-e. 27th. — My birth-day — thirty-one. I seem far advanced in my pilgrimage. A poor account from the Grrove of their dear Joseph, which was trj-ing and depressing. "We began to read together in the evening Jones's " History of the "Waldenses." We talked of the necessity of our simple and entire reliance on Providence, committing ourselves and those most dear to us 1816.] MEMOIR OF PRISCILLA GURNEY. 51 to his mercy and protection. Oh, tliat we may be enabled to do this ! 28^^. — I felt and expressed the desire that, in all our words and actions and deportment, we might be strengthened to confess Christ before men, and so guarded that in nothing we may deny Him. They that confess Him shall be confessed. 29th. — Rachel and I read the two first chapters of Revela- tions. We dwelt with comfort and, I trust, with some encou- ragement, on the promises to those who overcome. Very anxious about dear Eachel. We read with much interest, and I trust not without some profit, that wonderfid chapter the third of Eevelations. First-day, Eleventh Month 30<7*. — I enjoy my quiet retreat before breakfast. Our meeting after breakfast comfortable. I was enabled, under a peculiar sense of my own weakness, to express a few words on this text, — " He that cometh unto God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him," and my desire that we might all come imto Him in this spirit of faith. To her sister Rachel she wrote : — I think often of those words of David, — " I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my Grod than to dwell in the tents of wickedness." Oh, it is infinitely better to be a doorkeeper in his house than to possess all that this world can give ! In this country we cannot but lamentingly feel that, though the harvest is great, the labourers are few. The blind worship of the Virgin, the images, and pictures of the Redeemer, gives me a melancholy feeling. Surely these things must tend to obscure his holy presence in the heart ; and they appear to me obviously to have their deadening and darkening eff"ect. Twelfth Month 6th. — Poor account of dear Joseph. A low evening : solemn time at the end of it. 7th, First-day. — A solemn meeting together, at least it was D 2 53 MEMOIR or PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. SO to me, ending in prayer that, whatever may be the trials permitted, or sacrifices required, our faith may not fail. Qth. — A cloud seems to hang over us on account of dear Josejih's illness. \Oth. — I much enjoyed reading with Elizabeth the third chapter of Corinthians, — " Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?" Twelfth MotitJi \lth. — Eead to Eachel Bishop Taylor on humility ; some excellent instructions ; may we take them home. I long for the growth of this christian grace in our hearts. \4itk. — The suspense and deep feeling of anxiety about Joseph have been trying. \5th, First-day. — Assembled as usual for our little meeting. Afterwards she wrote to lier brother and sister Hoare: — Withdrawn, as I have been, from my (usual course of) life, it has sometimes led to a serious review of myself, in which I have had humblingly to feel my many and various deficiencies in every way ; but the mercy and redeeming love which blots out, and which covers our transgressions, has often, I think I may say, been afresh and powerfully manifested to me, and I have at times been permitted to feel the unspeakable consolations of the Gospel dispensation, and the love of God through Jesus Christ. IQth. — Visit from a. young Countess. Not so comfortable a morning as usual. We talked of other people, which is seldom without dissatisfaction to me. How I do long that every thing in our hearts may be brought under the influence of christian love. llth. — Visit from the Coiintess Cesole. She gave us an interesting history of the sufferings of her family during the Revolution, and in a pleasing manner, with much feeling. The Abbe, her son, a priest, was afterwards introduced to us : the most humble and pleasing priest, in appearance, that we have seen. 1816.J MEMOIR OF PKISCILLA GURNEY. 53 18^A. — The letters brought the sad and deeply affecting intelligence of dear Joseph's death. A solemn and suffering day. For many months this beloved youth, the eldest and only surviving son of Joseph and Jane Gurney, had been in declining health. He had been remarkably preserved from the evils of the world, and his mind imbued with religious principle. Fully aware of his danger, he was favoured with great quietness and peace in his transit from time. 19i5^.— A low night. P. G. wrote to her deeply afflicted uncle and aunt "with feelings not to be described." After this the sorrowing little company met together for a time of worship ; "at the conclusion of which," she says — I believe we were drawn unitedly to the throne of grace, humbly supplicating for those absent, as well as for ourselves, that the blessing of the Lord might be with us, sanctifying this deep affiction to many hearts, that our faith and patience may not fail. More quietness and composure prevailed to-day. 2lst. — There is a peace, and sometimes even a joy, in this time of trial, in the belief which has been permitted to ua that our beloved Joseph is at rest, and that the sustaining Arm is yet imdemeath those who remain in this state of probation. "We read comfortably in the Bible before we separated, and were, I trust, enabled to commend ourselves and those far away to the preserving care, love and mercy, of the Shepherd of Israel. Thus ends this solemn week, one not soon to be forgotten ; and the effects of which on our hearts will, I hope, never be done away. First-day, 22nd. — I had to express my desire that we might attend to our Savioiu-'s injunction, " Take no thought for the 54 MEMOIR OP PRISCILLA GURNEY. [1816. morrow," &c., and also to allude to the importance of doing the day's work in the day time ; for " the night cometh" soon, "when no man can work." In refei'ence to the decease of their dear cousin^ she writes to her brother J. J. G., Twelfth Month 26th : — There are few passages in Scripture that have been more animating or comforting to me than the promises in the Revela- tions to those who overcome : I have dwelt on them with a peculiar interest, and I believe with a renewed desire for us who remain, that we may with more faith, more humility, and more entire and simple obedience, enlist under the banner of the Captain of our salvation, that we may follow Him whither- soever He leadeth us, that we may trust in Him with our whole hearts, until we know the victory to be obtained through Sim over sin and the world, and over death. " The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death." It is indeed the prayer of my heart, my dearest J oseph, that thou mayest be encouraged and enabled yet to go on, yet to press forward in every reUgious, domestic, and public duty, in quietness and humility, " not slothful in business, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord." When the curtain drops and the scene closes here, how is then every sacrifice in the cause of religion, how is every act of faith and obedience to be prized ; how inestimable do they become as evidences of that grace by which alone we are saved ! Whilst thus separated from the world and withdrawn from service, and feeling my own poverty and littleness in every way, the desire is stiU lively for the faithful servants of the Lord, that they may be stedfast and immoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord ; and for none do I feel this more earnestly than for you, my dearest brothers, that in your respective allotments you may so hold fast that no man may take your crown : and may you be more and more willing to bear the cross of our blessed Lord ; may it in nothing, little or great, be 1816.] MBMOIB OF PRISOILLA GURNEY. 55 a stumbling-block to you. May you, in all things, suffer his holy will, becoming as little children, " learning of Him who was meek and lowly of heart ;" thus you will become (and indeed it is my most comforting hope and belief for you) as valiants in his army, as faithful servants in his most holy church, and you will finally find in Him " eternal rest unto your souls." In a letter to a Friend in England, about this time, she says : — I have felt an earnest desire that thou mayest not be dis- couraged in the important duty of attending meetings. It appears to me most desirable that we should ever bear in mind for what we go to meeting, — not to seek man nor the help of man, but to seek the Lord and the Tielp of the Lord ; and I can truly say, I am increasingly persuaded of the truth of these words, — " The Lord is good to those that wait for Him, to the soul that seeketh Him." How does every fresh experience of life make me desire for those in early life, that they may remember their Creator in the days of their youth ! I feel so very sure that they wiU never have cause to regret any sacrifice made in his service, or for his sake. Twelfth Month 23rd. — It was with some effort that we began the occupations of the week. Elizabeth and I resumed our Bible reading. In the evening we continued the " History of the Waldenses." 24