OUlN 38? A3 Kt.0LM /^ ^/d- CORNELL UNIVERSITY LIBRARY 627 366 Cornell University Library The original of tliis bool< is in tine Cornell University Library. There are no known copyright restrictions in the United States on the use of the text. http://www.archive.org/details/cu31924051627366 so. BEING SOME FURTHER THOUGHTS AND EXPERIENCES OP CLASS OF 1848 IN THE NEW YORK ANNUAL CONFERENCE OF THE METHODIST EPISCOPAL CHURCH AUTHOR OP "GRACE MAGNIFIED," "FIFTY YEARS A MINISTER,' ,"A FEW MORE WORDS." ifjiiratpli TO ALL WHO MAY BE INTERESTED ENOUGH TO READ CAREFULLY, DISMISSING PREJUDICES PRINTED AND BOUND FOR THE AUTHOR PRESS OF THE A. V. HAIGHT COMPANY POUGHKEEPSIE, N. T. 1905 NO RIGHTS RESERVED. CONTENTS. CHAPTER I. WHAT IT MEANS. Not Expected; b ut no Vow Broken— Does God want it? — He Makes no Mistakes — Can write some things better than say them, pp. 1-6. CHAPTER II. WHAT WILL IT AMOUNT TO ? Honest Doubts — Some Encouragement— Old Books sometimes valued — Good Seed will Bring Forth some Fruit — ''Duty is ours, Results are God's" — Limited Sphere— No Copyright, pp. 7-12. CHAPTER III. FEESH EXPERIENCES. All within Three Short Eventful Years— Flying Shafts — A Disturbed Church — A Mild Criticism, pp. 13-17. Sixtieth "Wedding Anniversary— An Impressive, Interest- ing and Touching Poetic Production — Sorrows soon follow joys, pp. 17-19. Other Deaths — Rev. B. M. Adams— Another House of Sorrow, pp. 19-23. Wife Departed— Her Creed— lascription oa Tombstone — Some Thoughts on Marriage, pp. 23-29. iv CONTENTS. Conference Session of 1903 — Brought to author in Pough- keepsie, N. Y.— Bishop Charles C. McCabe — A good time- Kindly recognition, pp. 29-31. A Teip West Once Again— Visited in Denver, Colo.— Heard Bishop Warren — Colorado Annual Conference — Preachers' Meetings — Holiness Association — Special means — Wearing jewelry — The altitude — How affected by it — Return trip — pp. 31-39. Another Son-in-law Gone — Kind and Obliging Disposition- Followed by Deadly Enemy — A Message and its Delivery — Body laid carefully away — Visions, pp. 39-45. A Remarkable Boy— Simple and Devout Christian— Wonder- fully Endowed — Taken Seriously 111— Died — Lessons, pp. 45-49. Conference of 1904— Nicely Entertained— Pleasant Session — Bishop E. G. Andrews — What Next — Musings, pp. 49-52. Stockport Once Again— Visited June 15, 1904— Preached there 56 Years since — Delightful Ramble — Looked into Old Home — Columbia Springs, pp. 52-54. Cornwall Jubilee — Pastor there 28 Years since— Jubilee, June 20, 1904, pp. 54-55. Commencement at Yale — Baccalaureate Address June 26, 1904 — Religious Spirit Prevails — Eventful Week, pp. 55-57. Ocean Grove Once Again— Went July 27, 1904— Family Wor- ship — St. Paul's M. E. Church — A Rich Experience — Bro. Franklin's Class — Other Meetings — Principles of Associa- tion — Children Noticed — Wonderful Scenes — Meeting friends — The Camp-meeting — Closing Exercises— Not all like Heaven — Don't Misunderstand, pp. 57-74. CONIENTS. V A Delightful Visit— Among Mother's Kindred— A Pretty Ride — Felt at Home — Religious Privileges — A Plucky In- cident — Returned, pp. 74-80. POUGHKEEPSIE ONCE AG A.IN—Ep worth League— Christian Fraternity — A Banquet — Sixty-second Wedding Anniversa- ry — Rev. Geo. Hughes — A Unique Missionary Meeting — A Triamphaut Death— Independent Parish — Mother Mor- gan, pp. 80-97. A Bunch OF Experiences- W. F. M. S. Once Again— Anniver- saries and Reunions — Washington Heights Once Again — Pine Plains Once Again— New Haven Once Again —Perora- tion, pp. 97-111. CHAPTER IV. HOBBIES. Websterian Definition — Holiness — Second Coming— Resurrec- tion — Sibbath— Return of the Jews — Divine Healing — Practices — Drinking — Smoking, pp. 112-121. CHAPTER V. HUMAN PROBATION. Of Stupendous Interest — Power of Choice— Another Gospel — Not so Jesus — "Sinners' Hell Here " — Psalmists' Perplexi- ties — Job's case — Some Important Passages — No Chance — Our Duty, pp. 122-135. CHAPTER VI. THE SACRED SCRIPTURES. Articles V and VI of Methodist Episcopal Church— Principles of study— Man's Relation to Sin— Promises and Threaten- ings Conditional— God Always Right— True History— The Scarlet Thread— Modern Quibbles— Two Questions Consid- ered— "The Lord's Prayer"— What Good is Prayer? pp. 136-150. vi CONTHNTS. CHAPTER VII. JESUS ONLY. Key to Real Christian Union — "Bible Society Record" — Bible Society — Our Real Desire, pp. 151-156. CHAPTER VIII. TEMPERANCE. Term ought to be obsolete as formerly used — Drinking Habits — Change in Notice of Evil — Hopeful — Dr. Swallow and Rev. L. A. Banks in Poughkeepsie — Indifference of Many — • Presidential Campaign of 1904 — Roosevelfi and What can be Expected of Him — Ex-Gov. St. John — Ocean Grove Sen- timent — Some QuotatioQS— Is this Too Radical? — General Conference of 1904 — Bishop Potter — A Widening Theme, pp. 157-175. CHAPTER IX. [no breakfast plan. Explanation and Confession — Difficulties — Convictions — Two Meals Enough — No Supper Plan — Use Reason — The Fasting Cure, pp. 176-182. CHAPTER X. last days. May Provoke a Smile — Have been Greatly Favored — Great Changes in the World, and in our Own Country — More Im- pressive Changes — The Board of Bishops — General Confer- ence Action — New York Conference Changes — Class of 1848 Once Again — Final Reflections, pp. 183-198. ONCE AGAIN. CHAPTER 1. WHAT IT MEANS. Into whosesoever hands this book may come, who has has read the former volumes of the author, — and especi- ally the one published in 1902 entitled A Fexo More Woixh — there may be a remembrance that on page 170 of said latter book it was stated: " I can scarce think it possible that I make another attempt to put in book form any more of the experiences that may yet be before me." The writer was then seventy -seven years old, and feeling some of the infirmities that naturally accom- pany that period of earthly life. It was a surprise to him then that the "three-score and ten" had been reached and past; and he was almost confidently ex- pecting a speedy departure to be with Jesus and the blood-washed throng before the throne. But time has run on and with it an improved physi- cal and mental condition; — especially in the months immediately preceding the writing of this opening chapter. Had the resolution been positively formed to make no further ^attempt at book making, it would needs 2 ONCE AGAIN. have been kept; but no such position was assumed; and so no vow is broken in this work, 0')ice Again, being undertaken. There has been some strange and peculiar exercises of mind in connection with the purpose to write this book. It has been suggested: " If you put in print some of the thoughts running through your mind, you may get some very unenviable notoriety, but you will not popularize yourself." " And then you may give offense to some whose friendship, and even love, you now have." Well, I surely have no desire, much less purpose, of offending; and it is not to be coveted to be judged as putting forth disagreeable and unpopular sentiments. The only questions, however, that can be considered here and now are: Is it in accordance with the will of God that this work should be done ? And: Is this proceeding in His order ? The purpose is all control- ling to seek Divine guidance at every step, and in the writing of every word. The prayer for the spirit of Christ that goes out in love to Him and to all men, shall go ujvfrom day to day, and at all times in the day, that nothing harmful or misleading shall find a place in these pages. To say that there is no expectation that any one will disagree with anything that shall ap- pear is virtually to admit that there exists no reason for the expenditure of time and energy and money to simply repeat what everybody knows and believes. But how shall we know what is the will of God in such an undertaking as this ? How better than to fully sink our will in His; and commit our way unto Him ? So, it is resolved, to go forward believing that if this work is pleasing to Him whom we serve, that He will give grace to keep and wisdom to guide until the task WHAT IT MEANS. 3 is accomplished. If He decides, at any point of the procedure, that "It is enough," He will so indicate, either by incapacitating for further doing by taking away the ability, or taking away the earthly life thus engaged. Many a Christian worker has lain down his plans, as well as ceased to speak on earth, just when it seemed to men that he, or she, was in the midst of most profitable work. God knows hest, amd He never Tnahes mistakes! It may be claimed that there is, and must be, some qualification to this way of reasoning. The declaration that: " Man is immortal until his work is done," is a strong way of saying that God directs as to the length of every faithful Christian's life; and that he, or she, shall surely live out all the allotted days." Well who of us would be justified in disputing this l The Bible says: " The years of the wicked shall be shortened." (See Proverbs x: 27. ) And again: " Bloody and de- ceitful men shall not live out half their days. " ( See Psalm Lv: 23.) But of the godly it is said: " With long life will I satisfy him." (See Psalm xoi: 16.) Nevertheless, it would be pure fanaticism to argue, that all good men live to be old, or, that there is no ob- ligation to care carefully for the health of our bodies, and for the length of our days. So, with the hearty be- lief that we are in the Lord's hands, and subjecting our- self willingly to His control, we set about this unex- pected work of publishing once again a volume of ex- periences and opinions, with the purpose of husbanding our strength by proper rest and other means that are appointed by the the Great Physician of both body and soul. We ea/rnestly hope that this will not he labor in vain ! No one has been consulted as to the subject matter of 4 ONCE AGAIN. this book, and no one has been asked to give it indorse- ment by way of introduction. We act thus indepen- dently. First : Becausej as already iotimated it is not believed that anyone could be found who wouldf ully agree with all that may find its way herein. And Secondly: Because if a friend might be found willing to be asso- ciated, the Author does not care to involve anyone in the responsibilities of some utterances that may appear in print in this effort. It is enough to say, that the several members of this volume have been conceived during the Summer of the year 190i ; and their struggle for birth has resulted in the body of whatever form, or feature, it may bear when it appears for public inspection. No Money In It. Possibly some may think that this writing of books pays. So it does, or it would not be attempted Oiice Agaii) . How it pays will appear further on. But, there is no money in it — i. e ; In our book writing. When Grace Magnified was issued, it was said in the Introductory chapter: "It was far from my thought in entering upon this work, that any financial profit could come of it." We did have some hope then, that enough money might be realized from sales to re-imburse the outlay. So far from this being the case, the "outcome" showed a balimce on the debit side of Eight hundred and eighty three dollars, after drawing largely for help from a special fund that we felt authorized to employ to some extent in this way. Saying nothing about some smaller publications, the publishing and distributing of five hundred copies of A Few More Words, as a supplement to its larger companion, caused an outlay of two hun- WHAT IT MEANS. 5 dred and sixty-two dollars and twenty-six cents. Only about twenty dollars of this was met by sales. Somehow, the idea of selling books of my own writing has become more and more distasteful, and, after spend- ing: considerable money in the usual and legitimate ef- forts in that line, I sometime ago abandoned these efforts. I do not purpose to resume any such metJiods now. Let it be understood then that this book will not be put on sale nor is any price put upon it. Nevertheless, as all the money I handle is only as a steward and for the Great Proprietor, and I must not waste my Lord's substance, this statement is made, viz: If the desire is present with any to whom this volume comes unsolicited to contribute any sum to aid in the expense of publishing, said amount will be gratefully received and sacredly appropriated. And, as we do not propose to distribute this book so promiscuously as we have sometimes done as to others, it is decreed that any person desiring a copy may order it by mail, addressed to the Author; and, in order to show a real desire to carefully read, such will be expected to accompany the request by any sum they may incline to forward, by which to reimburse the Lord's treasury. If the Author passes to the heavenly home before these books are all disposed of, he assures all concerned that any money returns received after he has gone will be sacredly regarded as belonging to the missionary treasury of the Methodist Episcopal Church. And the further request is here recorded that instead of sending more than the necessary postage in such case, the re- cipient of the book will give direct to said named society any sum, in appreciation of the contents, that may meet the mind of the reader and giver. 6 ONCE AGAIN. So with these things projected, the work of book- roaking is once again entered upon with a kind of ambi- tion (I trust a lawful ambition) that I may celebrate the arrival of my Eightieth Birthday Anniversary with a souvenier to the members of my immediate family and tried and trusted friends. All of these I believe will be charitable in their judgments, both of the writer and of what is written. Meanwhile, even if in God's order the work here begun is not finished, the writer is furnished with some congenial employment for awhile; and that is no small boon to one who feels that he is regarded as an old man, and " left out " frequently when his heart is yearning to do something. Beside this there is a growing con- viction that I can often better write thoughts in the quiet of a study than I can utter them before an audi- ence, where the surroundings sometimes prove a diver- sion and embarrassment. It may also be that some of these things that ■ find expression in writing would not be proper in public speech. CHAPTER II. WHAT WILL IT AMOUNT TO ? Honest Doubts. It may very likely be that some reader ( perhaps many readers ) of the first chapter of this book will say; "what after all, will it amount to?" "The world is full of books, and many of them never get farther than the shelves on which they are placed." "Besides, many books are more captivating than autobiographies." And, again it may be said that only when writers have some reputation are their books valued or sought after. All of these statements are true, and many more might be added just as true ; and it is certain that the question raised is worthy of candid consideration. It is not sufficient to say: "The writer is pleased with this kind of employment, and we ought to consent to let him please himself." This would be a very narrow way of answering the question set at the head of this chapter. Not an Untried Field. ^A'hen entering this arena some years since, it was an unexplored region ; and no one was more astonished than the writer that he should venture in such a field. Our experiences have 'however been of great value. They have not all been discouraging. First, we have cer- tainly learned that the proportion of those reached by gift books are no more demonstrative than the lepers healed by the Master when he told them to go and show 8 ONCE AGAIN. themselves to the priests. (See Luke xvii: 12-18.) Out of the ten only one returned to acknowledge what had been done for him. About this ratio of those to whom the writer has sent his former books have ever written of their reception. This has been true of all classes to whom they have gone. It has been especially true of my brethren in the ministry. About one in ten have let it be known that they came to hand. In a less degree has this been true of the Editors to whom these books have been sent. Sometimes to he entirely ignored has heen quite a chagrin to the sender. Of all this there is probably no good reason to com- plain. It is as might be expected. These brethren and editors have many reasons for not noticing all that comes to them unsolicited. There have been encouragements, however, some most marked and manifest exceptions that have compensated for all that have seemed neglects. Some communica- tions have been not only most brotherly, but have been so full of kind expressions and opinions, that it has seemed that the writers ought to weigh their words most carefully, lest they convey more than they intended. One of the most prominent members of the New York Conference wrote to the author in a loving spirit after he had read the books. He also sent double the money that would have been named as a price, if the transac- tion had been in the form of a sale and purchase. More- over he positively refused to have this money returned when solicited to receive it back. This is Not an Isolated Case. Another quite as prominent member of the same con- ference did just about the same thing several years WHAT WILL IT AMOUNT TO f 9 since; and the same is true, in modified forms, of several others of the dear brethren who hare thus been binding us together as the years of our Conference fellowship have been running on. In closing out the remaining copies of both books that have gone before this Once Again volume, the author made bold to mail them to each member of the Board of Bishops of the Methodist Episcopal Church, so far as he could command their addresses. From two of them he received most kind and encouraging letters in response. But quite beyond letters of acknowledgment have been the many expressions that have been personally made from time to time. Some have even told of having received benefit not only intellectually, but also spirit- ually. T/u's is convpensation indeed. To be told of deeper Christian experience resulting from convictions attending the reading of any of these books; and of souls brought to- a knowledge of Christ through this instrumentality, is to be valued more than all silver and gold. Watclied Over. To trace some of the means by which this has been brought about is wonderful. Some years since a for- mer parishioner was found reading Grace Magnified, and deeply interested. Being somewhat curious to know how this book came to be in his possession the in- quiry was made. The fact was learned that it had been picked up from a cheap book stand for a few cents. It had probably found its way there after being read and left in the library by hands that were mouldering back to dust, while the earthly possessions passed under the auctioneer's hammer, or to "the second hand dealer." 10 ONCJE AGAIN. There is nothing discouraging, or disgraceful in such incidents. Some of the most valuable and profitable reading, and some of the books that have been most cherished, come to us because the days of sale for them have passed, and the remaining stock is closed out at nominal prices. The fact that these books were written twenty, thirty, or more years since, only give them greater interest and value to those who thus learn of past events that general history may not have noticed. Some of the most flat- tering commendations of Grace Magnified, have been recently made because of its references to past events in the city of New York in earlier days, and in many parts of the land ; and particularly within the bounds of the author's travels as an itinerant. Sometimes it may seem like waste in spending time and money to get books written and circulated, but if the seed is good, some of it will catch in good soil and pro- duce a harvest in after years and in eternity. I remember once standing and witnessing a kin of mine sow his wheat. It was good wheat that might have been ground into flour and made into bread for family supplies ; but here he was throwing it away by the handfuls, and he did it liberally. He was a good and thoughtful farmer, and his crops brought him riches ; and those who came after him enjoyed the bene- fit of his toils and sacrifices. When the Lord put forth the parable of the sower he admitted that even much good seed would be lost and fall by the wayside, or where there was not much deep- ness of earth, or among thorns and briers; but the encour- agement to sow was that some seed would fall upon good •iTOund and bring forth abundantly. So books treating of God's gracious dealings, and wit- WHAT WILL IT AMOUNT TO f 11 nessing to His wondrous saving power must do some good. The enemy is still abroad sowing tares, but the time of sorting will come and the good wheat will be gathered in the heavenly garner. It is a privilege to have any part in this seed sowing! The thing for us to look out for is that the seed is good and pure, and then to scatter it lavishly by what- ever means in our power. Some can use one means, and some another. We are differently endowed. Let us find out what we can do best and do that. It has often been said: "Results belong to God, — duty is ours. " This thought may be abused and lead to carelessness or indifference; but rightly received it is of great value. Montgomery has beautifully written: ' ' Sow in the morn thy seed ; At eve hold not thy hand : To doubt or fear give thou no heed, Broad cast it o'er the land. Thou knowest not which shall thrive The late or early sown." The condition of the soil into which the seed falls is the great consideration, and so as this writer has said over and over, so O/ice Again he repeats that the im- portant work is the doing what we can to lead to the enrichment of the hearts of those who listen to the gospel message in whatever way it can be brought to them. When the desires of the heart are purified, and it is open to the truth, it wiU seek after and find it in every effort to bring it to notice. Limited Sphere. It may yet be said: "This writing is largely the history of one individual, and he is thus made more 12 ONCE AGAIN. prominent than will interest others. " Well the Bible is to a considerable extent, history and biography, and some of it autobiography, and if what we put forth has any measure of the inspiration that came to the patriarchs and prophets and apostles, some of the same results and help that come to us from them may also come to others as we relate our experiences and tell of our relation to this world, and preach the gospel as brought out in our knowledge of it during our passage through this mortal and transitory life. The fathers and the prophets, where are they ? They live in their writings and what has been written about them. So shall we, if we lire as we ought, and leave something behind us that will make this world better because we, in our turn, passed through it. As the reading of this book will naturally be confined to a considerable extent to the immediate circle of friends and acquaintances of the author and those to whom they may introduce it; and, as this company is growing smaller all the time, the edition will be quite limited. No money will be spent for stereotype plates. When the first edition is exhausted there will be no other. If anything is found thought worthy of more ex- tended circulation it is free for use. No one can claim a copyright. If anything ought to be antagonized and refuted, the opportunity is open and welcomed, if thereby good may come. CHAPTER m. FRESH EXPERIENCES. Only three short years have passed since the volume entitled A Few More Words went through the press. They have indeed been eventful years. None have been more so in the experiences of the author. This it is be- lieved will be the verdict of all who have their attention called to them, and who are prepared to judge. Flying Shafts. The early spring months of 1902 witnessed sorrow in many households more or less intimately connected with the writer of these pages. During the month of March the family of the only remaining full brother, and youngest child of our mother, who was the little prat- tler when she left her nine children on the earth, was visited in a sad and impressive way. His oldest and dearly beloved son was, as it would seem to us, ruth- lessly taken from him on March 7th. This bereavment was the more difficult to bear because the father was seriously ill himself at the time. On the 16th of the same month, this father passed out of sight, andleft his widow to mourn his loss, with only one daughter re- maining out of the family of two sons and two daughters who had been cherished and trained through childhood and youth into manhood and womanhood. Three of these were called to lie down and die at periods when the greatest hopes of hfe seemed just opening before them. About this same time, and soon after, some dear 13 14 O^CE AOAIJS. Christian friends in the city of Poughkeepsie and else- where bid adieu to their weeping families, and their bodies were carried to their resting places, and other widows and fatherless ones were increased to bear testi- mony to the fleeting nature of all earthly ties. During the Conference session of April, 1902, the writer was most generously entertained in a family that has become particularly dear because of loving asso- ciations for more than thirty years. There he had gone in and out as one of them, and as their changes had been met in the passing years. Children had come and gone during that time; and their dear mother, who had been one of my most cherished parishoners for almost all of this time, had also been called away. Her funeral services and obituary notice gave this writer some of his sad and yet profitable experiences. Of her it might well be said: " The memory of the just is blessed!" And so the years have run on, all the time reminding us that: " Here we have no continuing city or abiding place." A Disturbed Church. It seems that a peculiar condition of church relation- ship should have some place in this chapter. With the close of the Conference session in April, 1902, and the reading of the appointments, there came to one of the churches in Poughkeepsie, N. Y., to which the writer has held a semi-official relation for several years, a sur- prise that was rpally full of doubtful results. This church is, in some respects, of youthful exist- ence. It was organized many years ago; but of recent years has assumed great responsibilities in a new and expensive building and changed location. Somehow the working of the itinerancy has been un- FRESH EXPEBIENCES. 15 usual with this people and congregation. Their heavy debt and many young people of late — especially since a glorious revival of ten years since — have n:ade them feel that extraordinary care must be exercised in the se- lection of their pastors. After some experiences that Thad severly tested the loyalty of the officers and member- ship in years past, the spring of 1 903 opened very aus- piciously with them. Both pastor and people were in harmony as to their relations, and it was fully expected that these pleasant conditions were to run on for at least two or three or more years. Especially was this antici- pated as the present pastor had only served since the former annual Conference. It was believed that both the financial and religious prosperity largely depended upon a continuance of this harmony. "What was the surprise and excitement when it was announced that a change was made by Episcopal author- ity without consultation with the parties so deeply inter- ested and immediately affected. Erroneous and hasty conclusions were formed and had a baneful effect. It was indeed a serious question: What will be the result ? Sojne blamed only the Bishop, and said that he was antagonistic to the welfare of this particular church. These cited in support of their opinion, that the same Bishop had done virtually the same thing a few years be- fore, resulting in the withdrawal of some of the strong- est financial supporters. Of course this judgment could not be agreed with by the more knowing and more charitable. It was just one of these cases that will sometimes occur in the difficult duty of fixing ih.& i/enrly appointments of thousands of ministers to thousands of churches. One of the best preachers in the Conference, and most 16 ONCE AGAIN. gentlemanly of men, was announced as the successor of his younger ministerial brother who was removed to fill the place in a stronger church that had not readily been content with any other arrangement, but had agreed harmoniously on this. For a time everything was squally. The new ap- pointee came and by his manner and talents soon made many friends. But there were some who refused to be reconciled, and the pastor was handicapped during his entire administration. When the question of removal had to be considered again there were many perplexing things about it. Suffice it that after two years of ser- vice under" these conditions, another change was decided upon ; but there was much of friction about it, and a disposition upon the part of some to make the most of the circulated statements that this pastor had been meanly used. But God is tender and loves the church. The offi- ciary refused to unite on any man, or to extend the unmethodistic custom of "a call." They resolved to leave the matter to the regularly appointed power — which is the presiding elder — as the adviser of the bishop. This they did, with some modificatio'ns. When the appointments of 1904 were read off it was found that one of the most to be desired, indefatigable and successful of pastors was to be in charge of this dis- turbed church. To say that this was at once a solution and settlement of all the trouble would be to say too much. It can be said in truth that it soon became evident that the church had no ground of complaint as to Episcopal prerogative in this case; and the zealous and self-sacrificing efforts of the new pastor began at once to gain him friends and co-operation. Now, with the prayer, that so it may be FBESH EXPEBIENCIIS. 17 more and more ; at and this writing, before the first year of the new pastor has ended, to express a most profound desire that a great work of God iiiiiy break out as the only effectual means of bringing real brotherly love and Christian unity, this statement may be allowed to go in print. It ought to be said, however, in justice to all earnest messengers of Christ, that if all hearers would, after listening to the word preached, go and practice the les- sons of instruction and earnest appeal, instead of con- tenting themselves with comments favorable or other- wise upon the ability of the preacher, much better re- sults would continually appear ivhoever is t/iepa.^fo/: A Mild Criticism. Before leaving the above recital it may not be amiss to take advantage of the opportunity and repeat, once again, what is by no means said or written for the first time: That nothing so prejudices the operation of our itinerant system as anything that looks like an arbitrary exercise of the appointing power of the Bishops. When- ever a sudden and unexpected and undesired change of pastors is determined upon, all parties interested ought to be consulted as fully as possible, and shown the nature of the emergency that calls for what was not premedi- tated. Sixtieth Wedding Anniversary. Without attempting to pick up so many of our ex- periences as to make it tiresome, both for writer and reader, let us come to an event that has a peculiar inter- est because of its rarity. On October 6th, 1902, the writer was permitted to celebrate the Sixtieth Yearly Anniversary of his mar- 18 ONCE AGAIN. riage union with her to whom we were so solemnly united when we were both in our youth. On page 169 of J. I^ew More Words was printed the following, viz: "On page 479 of Grace Magnified 1 wrote : Wife and I are nearing our fiftieth wedding anniversary. Shall we reach it ? Only God knows." And continued : " We did reach it, and are now within a very brief time of the sixtieth anniversary. Again I may ask : Shall we reach it ? And answer again. Only God knows." Few who are joined in holy wedlock have been favored as we in its continuance. The sixtieth anni- versary did come, and we quietly observed it. Only two of our living children were with us to take part in the very simple [ceremonies that were indulged. With one of these children we were spending what we believed to be our closing earthly days. The other came, with the wife of his choice, to add to our pleasures on this occasion. One of the great surprises and gratifications of all our lives was that this married son and our daugh- ter-in-law brought us an original poetic production en- titled: Sixty Years. This work of theirs contained a complete history of our married life in rhyme. The sixty verses^ each be- ginning with the year specified, from that of " Eighteen hundred and forty-two " up to and including that of " Nineteen hundred and two, " brought out about all the the facts of births, deaths, and marriages of all our children and grandchildren. These verses also traced our wanderings from place to place, through all our itinerant life and up to the time of this " Sixtieth Anni- versary." The matter thus contained in these sixty verses is too personal and sacred to be put in this book. But, the FBE8H EXPERIENCES. 19 closing lines are so impi'essive, tender, and touching, that they are here produced for the entertainment of the reader: " And so the course of years has run With trials met and duties done, With joys that sorrows could not foil, With leisure after years of toil ; A checkered course, not dark, but fair. Since two were always present there In joys and sorrows to unite, And point each other to the light. God g:rant their children's earnest prayer, And long these faithful servants spare ; And when at length their goal is won, Grant them the victor's crown — ' Well done.' " The reading to us of these verses, with all they con- tain, was fairly overwhelming in a delightful way; and this evidence of thoughtfulness and love will always be among our most cherished remembrances. ********* But now comes the exclamation " Once Again!" O how our joys and sorrows intermingle! I do not think it well to indulge in the pessimistic words of the poet when he writes: " We should suspect some danger nigh when we possess delight;" but it must be recorded that just four months and twenty- two days from this Oct. 6, 1902, the death angel came for this wife. More of this further on in this chapter of experience. Other Deaths. In this world, where sin has made such havoc with human hopes, and where the almost universal rule is : "Death passes upon all men, " our sorrows often tread very closely upon the heels of our joys. The year 1902 closed with the shadows falling in other 20 ONCE AGAIN. places and on those to whom the bonds of friendship and kindred held us. Right at the Christmas time when the expressions of good cheer are the rule, the notice came to others: "Arise ye and depart; for this is not your rest." Eev. B. il. Adams. On Wednesday morning, Dec. 2ith, 1902, the papers heralded the intelligence that the Rev. Benjamin Mer- win Adams, a brother in the ministry greatly beloved by multitudes, had been called to change worlds and had passed to his heavenly home at ten o'clock the previous morning. This dear brother was of the same Conference class with the writer, and had for more than fifty years been regarded with great affection. He had seemed strong in body as well as mind, and I had confidently expected that he would live and labor in the ranks of efficient ministers long after the hand that writes this had ceased to move. There had been an agreement be- tween us, of some years standing, that he would attend my funeral. It had hardly entered my thoughts that I might be called to attend his. Soon after the an- nouncement of his death had been noted, a kind missive came to hand which was in effect an invitation to be at his funeral in the church where he had so acceptably and usefully preached the gospel for the five years last past at Bethel, Conn. I learned afterward that this was in accordance with his own directions, given near the close of his stay to his attendants. The distance being considerable, and for want of perfect information, it seemed almost im- possible to reach the regular funeral services in time. Further intelligence received later informed us that the precious remains were to be brought through Pough- FRESH EXPERIENCES. 21 kee})sie on Saturday, Dec. 27th, in care of a delegation of his devoted officials. This gave the opportunity to volunteer to meet the company and accompany them to the place of burial in the same pretty cemetery where we had both held plots in readiness for use when needed. The arrangement met with the approval of all concerned and was carried out. On the afternoon of the day pre- ceeding his first Sabbath in heaven, we laid the sleeping form he had so recently occupied in the prepared plaf.e. A last look upon his placid features brought the sweet assurance that he slept the sleep, not only that " would not wake to weep, " but that he was numbered with those who sleep in Jesus, to come with hvii ui the day of find and glorious triumph. Just as we committed "dust to dust " the sun broke forth from the clouds that had somewhat obscured it, and caused the snow mantled sur- roundings to sparkle as with diamonds of the purest water. A memorial service was held in New York, at the Preachers' meeting, on Monday morning, Jan. 5th, 1903, at which the writer was permitted to read a paper setting forth almost exclusively his personal relations to this dear brother during our long and somewhat intimate acquaintance; and giving what, to us, was the manifest reason of his great influence as a minister of the Lord Jesus Christ. At the sessions of the New York and New York East Conferences that followed in April, obituary notices of Bro. Adams were inserted in the minutes of both. He belonged to the former for seventeen years of his earlier ministry before becoming connected with the latter. His greater distinction in the New York East Confer- ence as Presiding Elder, General Conference delegate and Conference participant, grew until his removal. 22 ONCE AGAIN. His highest distinction, however, was as a man of God. A man of almost constant prayer. A successful and faithful pastor; a preacher of the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ in its fullness under the Holy Ghost dis- pensation. Ever emphasizing the importance of the pentacostal baptism. Another Souse of Sorrow. While we were in the very midst of the services con- nected with the transfer of this valued member of the class of 1848 of the New York Conference, the death messenger was busy in another family, quite intimately related to me and mine. A young man and woman, who were almost as our older children, had been joined in marriage by us nearly forty years prior to the events of which we are now writing. One of their precious daughters had fallen, in the flower of her youth, fifteen years since. Then the mother had been made a victim of disease, and removed from the care of the remain- ing daughter. Now the deeply bereaved husband and loving father was struggling in the unequal contest. Having taken our part in the memorial exercises of Monday, Jan. 5th, I hastened to obey a summons else- where. Upon reaching that " house of mourning " we learned that on Sunday, Jan. 4th, 1903, at 10.15 p. m. the end of earthly toils and trials had come to another pilgrim and he had entered into rest. On Wednesday, Jan. 7th, the plot in Greenwood had another occupant, and the grave closed over the form of another who had suffered and endured much and only fairly reached the " three-score " without the addi- tion of the "ten." He had stood and borne his trials manfully, and died FRESH JEXPEBIENCE8. 23 with the testimony of all who knew him, that an honest man had lived and labored unfalteringly, and had gone to the approval of Him who judges only righteous judg- ment. Wife Departed. Now comes an account of the bereavement that most nearly affected the chronicler of these "Fresh Experi- ences," aad leads us Once Again, to go over the old story of death's doings. On Feb. 2'7th, 1903, the companion of so much of my life was in about her usual health, and present in the family all day. She sat with us at the social board at the morning, noon and evening meals, and was engaged during the day, even more fully than usual for her in making plans for continued life among us. After we bowed together at the family altar, as we had been wont to do, both morning and evening, through almost the en- tire period of our wedded union, she went upstairs to her room to prepare for the night's rest. Suddenly a noise was heard as of something falling. This precious wife was found about helpless on the floor. She was calm and referred to her condition as evidencing that " something was the matter, " but manifesting none of the uneasiness that had been characteristic of her when anything serious was encountered. Such attention as was possible was quickly given and she was removed to her bed. With the inquiry made of her physician, " Doctor what is the matter ? " and a word or two ex- pressive of some conscious suffering, she passed into ob- liviousness as one falling into a heavy slumber. God's decision had been made, and the messenger had come for her departure. She knew no more of her surroundings, and breathed her life away during the twenty following 24 ONCE AGAIN. hours. Then the deserted tenement was left for our care. Her absent living children were summoned, and all reached the scene of this dispensation in time to par- ticipate in the preparation of the body for its resting place and in the interesting services that occurred on Wed- nesday afternoon, March, ith in the home where her last earthly years had been spent. These services were con- ducted by our pastor, the Rev. Wm. N. Seai'les, D.D., as- sisted by others. They had a special feature in the reading of a simple, impressive and comprehensive creed that had been inscribed by the now motionless hand in a little book found among her effects. So much notice was then taken of this part of the ceremonies, and so many have referred to it since, that it is thought well to put it in here for more permanent preservation. It runs thus : " Whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him and he in God. I DO." "Whosoever belie veth that Jesus is the Christ is born of God. I DO." " For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved. I DO." "If thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thy heart that God hath raised Him from the dead thou shalt be saved. I DO." It will readily be seen that this is no "man made . creed, " but consists simply in a few quotations from the New Testament scriptures, with the ready and hearty assent of the transcriber. (See Romans x: 9 and 13, and I John iv: 16, and v: 1. ) There were many more entries of scripture texts that FRESH EXPERIENCES. 25 had been specially valued; and of coiuQients some- times from the other authors but often original, found in the scrap books of the now missing one. On the margins of her well used and freely marked Bible were many things, to attract attention. There were enough of these to have formed a considerable "booklet." The disposition to produce something of this kind quite possessed the mind of the bereaved husband; but knowing so well that if she could be consulted, she would not sanction such a work, we refrained from what would have been a pleasant service. Her body was plainly and neatly dressed, and laid away in the place long since set apart near the village of Rhinebeck, Dutchess Co. , N. Y. There a plot had been purchased many years since and put in order. And there the dust and ashes of our five darling infants, and young children, had been put to rest so that "Father" and "Mother'' could have these between them as we sleep together awaiting the resurrection. Simple but not fulsome inscriptions are on the stones that mark these pkces; so that generations to come may not altogether forget whose bodies lie there. On wife's stone there is chiseled as husband's personal testimony: A VIRTUOUS WOMAN. A FAITHFUL WIFE AND MOTHER. A HUMBLE CHRISTIAN. Some Thoughts on Marriage. Perhaps my mind has not been so startled since the event just related, as when a bi'other said to me in sub- stance, during the summer of 1904: '■ Why don't you get another wife ? " Before 1 hardly thought what 1 26 ONCE AGAIN. was saying, 1 held up the finger on which is the badge of married union that my wife wore for five years before the "Sixtieth Anniversary" already noted, and that was transferred to my hand when she left for the heavenly home, and expressed myself as not being able to entertain such a thought. It may be some one will say : ' ' Do you think it wrong to marry again after death has separated man and wife ? " Of course I must answer : No, it is not wrong if there is sufficient reasons for such a remarriage ! The mar- riage ceremony does not recognize the binding obliga- tion of the vows then taken beyond the earthly life of either of the parties joined. Paul, with all his doubtful advocacy of marriage at all, says in Eomans vii: 2: " If the husband be dead, she" (i. e. the wife) "is loosed from the law of her husband." Undoubtedly the law that applies to the wife also applies to the husband. We are not however just here and now arguing a question of law, but of expediency. — What is right and best to do in a given case. So I may allow myself to say: That 1 do not believe it would be right for me, situated as I am, to remarry. 1 can easily conceive of reasons that may not only justify, but even make it a duty for a bereaved husband to marry again. This may be especially so if he have small children to care for. He may feel called to seek another wife who would mother his children; but this is often a perilous and frequently an unsuccessful under- taking. There are other reasons that may be urged. Some- times a first marriage proves not to be a union of hearts; and a second, or even a third may really be the true marriage. Thon there is the argument, that the lonely one seeks, FRESH EXPERIENCES. 27 with perfect propriety, a companion to cheer and com- fort, and be as far as possible in the place of the tem- porarily absent and, for the time, lost one. This last reasoning might have some force if it would be right to discuss it, but even this has in it much more to be con- sidered than what may readily appear. If the idea of companionship — company and comfort — be the only plea it should demand a consideration in its application to hotk parties, or become a merely selfish element and in- volve a happiness that would be too one sided to be in keeping with the spirit of Christianity. I write from a Christian stamJpoin t. I really doubt whether the pure love that brings to- gether two young hearts (or older if the passion does not develop in youth ) can ever be duplicated in after years, or transferred from one to another. I do however believe that sometimes the youthful, or early devotement of two hearts may fail of its gratification through some of the strange and to be condemmed agencies, that are, like satan, protruding where they have no business; and whose interference allies them to the destroyer of all happiness. And so sometimes marriage alliances are formed that are not of God. Sometimes after years of heavy trials, and dark and unexplained dispensations, these hearts are brought together. It may be in this world — perhaps oftener in the next. An inquiry may be injected here into this kind of so- liloquy. Some one may say: "Do you not know that our Saviour overset ail this kind of reasoning in his answer to the Sadducees as noticed by the evangelists, Matthew, Mark and Luke ? " I answer unhesitatingly: No, I do not know or believe that ! The Master's teach- ings did settle that there will be no marriage engage- ments, ov va&VTi&ge, ceremonies in heaven; and really only 28 ONCE AGAIN. interests "those who shall be accounted worthy to ob- tain that world." (See particularly Luke xx: 35 and 36. ) But how does this interfere with the cherished be- lief that hearts that have been united here, shall be re- united there, to spend an eternity of bliss in such em- ployment as shall be assigned them when all the hind- rances to the most perfect union of earthly married life shall be swallowed up in the glory of the heavenly con- dition ? Another delightful truth, taught by the interview of Jesus with the quibbling Sadducees, is that in the heavenly state all jealousies and animosities, that so often curse us here and break into the harmony of the dearest relations, will be removed. We may be permitted to say: Blessed shall forever be the man or woman who having had more than one wife, or husband, shall meet them all again in the heavenly hereafter to find that nothing but love controls all and every part of society in the new Jerusalem ! ( See again and study more carefully with delight, the 36th verse of Luke xx; and look at Matthew xxii: 29 and 30 ; and Mark xii: 25.) O the joyous prospect of all who love God supremely on earth meeting by and by, in an atmosphere of per- fect harmony, to enjoy the greater felicities of the re- unions that await those who have been joined mutually to God and each other in loving bonds here! Perhaps I ought to ask pardon of the reader for writing so much on this delicate subject, but my answer is: This is one of the themes that took root in my thoughts, and led me to write this Once Again. My own sincere prayer is: That I may never drift, or be drifted into any act that would lessen my influence for good on the genei'ation in which T live, or on any FBESH EXPERIENCES. 29 that may follow. This earnest prayer makes me some- times more afraid to live than to die. Perhaps the most sensible and virtuous thing recorded of King David in his old age, in his relation to women, is found in the statement contained I Kings i: 1-4. But what was not challenged 3,000 years since and passed current then would be a scandal in this twentieth cen- tury. Even in David's time it led to jealousies and serious family troubles a little later on. ( See I Kings ii: 13-25. It hardly comes in naturally here, and yet it may be added to this section that: Some marriages seem to be nothing more than gaining the sanction of human laws to flagrantly break God's commands. While some of the thoughts just expressed were in the mind of the writer, an account was noticed in one of our leading journals of some proposed legislation that would make the marriage vows refer only to a limited period of the lives of the contracting parties, and then cease of their obligation. It cannot be that so vile a suggestion can gain favor even in this corrupt age. Conference Session of April ^ 1903. The physical and mental strain of the months that marked the beginning of the year 1903 made it quite a question whether I could attend the Conference session that spring. The place for the session that year remained unsettled until at a very late period. At last it was decided to be in Poughkeepsie in accordance with an invitation from the officiary of the Washington Street Methodist Episcopal Church. So the Conference was brought to me much to my delight. On Wednesday morning, April 1st, the session \\;is 30 ONCE AGAIN. regularly opened. Bishop Chas. C. McCabe was in the chair as the appointed President. We were naturally gratified at this arrangement. Bishop McCabe had been of us for many years before his election in 1896 to the high and responsible office he now held; and this was his first Episcopal visit to this Conference. He had been familiarly known because of his wonderful relation to the war of 1860-4 as " Chaplain McCabe, " and this appellation had held to him through all his great services as Secretary of the Church Exten- tion Society, and afterward in the Missionary Society. We, who had been so closely joined to him in these Con- ference relatives, knew of his devout spirit, and unsur- passed, if at all equalled, energy and enthusiasm. We did not yet know what kind of a bishop he could or would make. One of the oldest living members may be allowed to bear testimony that the Conference opened richly ! In his belief, a better or more profitable session of the New York Conference was never held during all its long his- tory of one hundred and four years. The brethren, who arrived at the Conference room to be on hand at its opening, had but little time to give to handshaking outside. Personal greeting, however pleasant, often consumes too much of the valuable hours that can be even more profitably employed. Before the time for opening had fully arrived the Bishop was in his place, and the voice of praise and prayer was being lifted up. All who love the really best things were incited to hasten inside and have a part in these exercises. So from the start, the coming together of those who were among the highly privileged, had a "good time." And there was no break in this "good time" until the FBE8H EXPEBIENGES. 31 very close, and the appointments were read out and the body scattered again to preach the gospel on the hills and in the valleys of this old region, as well as in the great cities and large villages of the territory now known as "The old New York Conference." Praise the Lord for brotherly love, and the religion of of Him who came into our world to redeem a fallen race, and to send men forth to preach the glad tidings near and far! A Kindly Recognition. Among the very kindly considerations that came to me personally during this Conference, was a desire ex- pressed upon the part of some of the brethern ( in which I have no reason to doubt the body generally shared and would have joined ) to insert in the minutes a no- tice of my recently departed wife. For the same reasons I have mentioned in connection with my thought of a " booklet, " and for others that I named, I made decided objection to this action, and it was abandoned. Such recognition in the way of obituary notices of faithful wives who have shared in the trials, and some- times very great trials, of the itinerant life, is certainly grateful to those whose hearts are sore; but some of these dear women would not be in favor of such notice. Then to do this, establishes a precedent that sometimes might become embarrassing. However I do not want to be reckoned as objecting to this being done by conferences that so elect as some do; and perhaps, in the future many others may do so also. A Trip West Once Again. When my dear wife rested in the sleep that knows no waking until the resurrection, my thoughts turned to 32 OUaCE AGAIN. the fact that I was a wanderer on the earth as never be- fore. The inquiry arose: How shall I spend the time still allotted me to the best advantage ? There is nothing more natural than that I should desire to be with our children all I could. Their mother was a poor traveler and had made her last long journey in visiting those who were separated from us by considerable distances. I quickly decided that, as soon as sxich a trip could be arranged for, 1 would go once again to the west, and spend more time there than I had ever done before. Two daughters were in the city of Denver in the state of Colorado, and that city had, for many years, had charms for me beyond the power of gratification in the several short stays I had made there at intervals, in the more than thirty years since part of our family had be- come permanent residents out there Some business matters, and an engagement to per- form the marriage ceremony on June 10th, 1903, for one of my wife's kindred whose parents I united in holy bonds on December Yth, 1875, caused a few months of delay. The intervening time I improved at home, and in some short runs in different directions. Having completed preliminaries and gone, once again, to look at the " sleeping place " in Rhinebeck, on Tues- day, July 28th, I took a train on the New York Central Railroad on the evening of that day. A through ticket to Denver, Col. , and also berths in "Pullman " all the way, had been secured. The trip was a very pleasant one, and specially favored as to comfortable weather. With only one change at Chicago, I sped on; and on Friday morning was in the midst of the several members of my family dwelling in Denver. FBUSH EXPEBIENCES. 33 Upon arriving at the end of this charming trip, I was so gratified that it seemed as though I would stay there as long as my way was open so to do. My former visita- tions had made me quite familiar with the city and with its immediate surroundings. I could go about without a guide and find readily the places I sought. Privileges. The first Sabbath morning found me, after a long walk, a delighted listener to Bishop Warren in the Capi- tal Hill Methodist Episcopal Church. In the evening the same tiay I worshipped in Christ's Methodist Epis- copal Church, which was only a short distance from my very comfortable abode in the home of one of the daughters I had come so far to see. So my privileges began; and they continued during all the nearly five months of my stay in these enchanting surroundings. I had the great gratification of attending the session of the Colorado Annual Conference, presided over by Bishop Cranston. This was held, from August 26th- 31st, in the church already indicated as being so near my temporary home. I found a very instructive resort on Monday mornings by attending the Preachers' meetings of the Methodist ministers, and monthly of all evangelical ministers in a a union gathering. " Holiness Meetings.^'' I found an orginized "Holiness Association " that held meetings in a hall at sjmdry times during the week and on Sunday afternoons. While I confess to regret that our brethren ever feel themselves called to form such "as- sociations, " as distinct from the regular means of grace in the churches, yet I know that they sometimes believe 34 ONCE AGAIN. themselves constrained so to do, and I am not among- those who condemn them. Suffice it, that the exercises of all suo/i gatherings have a charm for me; and I was not slow to put in an appearance among the attendants of these Sunday afternoon meetings. On the very last days of August and some of the first days of September, a camp meeting was held in the out- skirts of Denver, under the auspices of the "Holiness Association, " that was a most earnest and profitable oc- casion. I was in attendance upon that meeting as much of the time as other duties and obligations would allow. When visiting Denver some years previously, I was honored with the acquaintance of an elect lady who was one of the prominent members of the Trinity Methodist Episcopal Church of that city. This lady was specially interested in the doctrine and experience of Christian or Bible Holiness. Her residence was in the charming University Park, where the " University " itself is lo- cated, and where Bishop Warren has his beautiful home. I was permitted, in former visits, to meet with others at this Christian sister's house for the consideration and promotion of what lay so near her heart, and was con- sidered as demanding more attention than it often re- ceives. I called again upon this beloved of the Lord, and found her ready to welcome another attempt at a special meeting for the same worthy and most impor- tant object. Accordingly, and without delay, a "Friday meeting " was instituted, and continued with gracious results. This meeting did not cease upon my return to the East, and did the work of the Lord as an agency in the entire sanctification of believers, and the rescue of perishing souls. I had the honor of an invitation to preach before the FBESH EXPERIENCES. 35 Sunday afternoon meetinp; of the "Holiness Associa- tion " already referred to. This invitation was gladly accepted and a sermon prepared upon a text in I Peter i: 15-17, which reads in the Revised version: "But like as He which called you is holy, be ye yourselves also holy in all manner of living; because it is written, ye shall be holy, for I am holy." This sermon was delivered on Sunday afternoon Oct. 11th, 1903, and the Lord gave perfect liberty. An Interlude. There was an incident connected with this service that is related here just to show how conscientious and care- ful the members -of that organization were; and, for the opportunity of saying that my spirit of love for them was rather intensified than disturbed by what I give my readers. Just before the time for preaching had arrived, the leader of the meeting, who was also the President of the association — a dear good man, who was then in very feeble health, and has since gone to heaven — came from his place within the altar rail, where I had not yet been in- vited, and putting his arm tenderly about me said: "If our people notice that Ting on your finger, they Mill not listen to you." I was so assured of what the Lord would have me do in this situation, that I said in the best of humor: " Tou leave that to me and I will get along with it.'''' He hesi- tated, and went again to confer with his official associ- ates. I was allowed directly to take the place of preacher and I began at the proper time. I told the audience { a very good one ) that I was compelled to do what I had never done before, and that was to make a prelude to my sermon. I then related the kind words 36 ONCE AGAIN. and brotherly spirit of the president, and went on to state how the objectionable ring came to be on my finger. All listened attentively and none left. 1 did not j ustify the wearing of jewelry, and told how averse both my- self and my departed wife had always been to anything like display in that line since we became identified with the disciples of the meek and lowly Jesus. I then ex- plained the impulse that had led me to appropriate this outward sign of our marriage. I told that when it had pleased the Lord to remove her and leave me to finish the earthly pilgrimage alone without her assistance, I had been moved to place this ring on my finger as a daily remembrance of solemn vows that must still have their influence over me. That I wore it much as many of my audience had on their badges of their relation to friends whose honor and standing they revered. This was the substance of my ^'prelude.'''' I do not think my explanation quite satisfied the more exacting of my congregation, but it seemed to put at rest all their opposition to me, and I do not think the ring was in the way of the operations of the Holy Spirit, as 1 set forth, with earnest words and warm heart, the obligations inculcated in the text. The wearing of this ring is rather an embarrassment than otherwise, and 1 sometimes lay it ofl: when I think it may oilend the minds of some who do not understand the facts. The human hand is not adorned or beautified by rings, no more than other parts of these divinely formed bodies are by ornaments. But sometimes a badge may be worn, not only innocently, but with helpful sig- nificance. I believe the godly admonitions of the script- ures may be used out of place sometimes and not give their intended meaning. Peter exhorts, concerning the FRESH EXPERIENCES. 37 women of his day, and by way of bringing out the im- portant fact, that character^ and not tinsel, or fashion, is precious in the sight of God. "Whose adorning, let it not be that outward of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; but let it be the hidden man of the heart, .... a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price." ( See I Pet. Ill : 3^. ) So in Paul's letter to Timothy: "That women adorn themselves .... not with braided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array; .... i)ut with good works." (Seel Tim. ii : 9-10. ) These script- ures, and all like them, are admonitions that God looks at the heart and knows them that are His. He sees them and recognizes their obedience to Him, and not as they make a show before men. The folly of both men and women shows itself in various ways. Sometimes in fussing with the hair as to how it must be fixed. Then again with the cut and style of the outward garments as the prevailing fashion demands, and then in " foolish adornments. " But, when the heart is right, these outward things will have little influence, though they may have smne importance, rightly and modestly considered. The Altitude. As in former times, the altitude of Denver did not fully agree with me. The blood pressure was a little too much for my physical condition. A kind of dazed feeling was upon me much of the time. My tendency to brain trouble was evidently increased. At different times I had a partial loss of memory and inability to get about without some appearance of being slightly intoxicated. Then a form of eczema attacked me upon almost all parts of my body, more especially 38 ONCE AGAIN. on my lower limbs. This was of a very stubborn nature and refused to yield to ordinary treatment. This con- dition of things led my kind and skillful medical adviser to express himself as convinced that I ought to return to my home in the East; and I came to entertain the thought of doing so at an earlier date than I had in- tended. There were also some other reasons that may be noted further on; but these of themselves were sufficient and led me to the conclusion when some of the chief objects of my mission seemed to be accomplished as well as they could be, to arrange to get in the lower altitude again. When the arrangements were about completed they were brought to a temporary stand still; and I was threatened with an attack of pneumonia. My kind physi- cian almost decided that I must defer the thought of starting on the long journey, lest I should fail to ac- complish it. However, this opinion was held in obey- ance and I looked to the Great Physician for healing, if He naight be pleased to so order. On Thursday, Dec. 17th, the doctor pronounced both temperature and pulse normal, and gave his consent with some caution, to my plans. The Seturning Trip. On Monday evening, Dec 31st, 1903, I took train for my trip from the state of Colorado to the state of New York, where I had begun this mortal life and where I expect now to end it. This return trip was also marked with much of Divine favor and protection. The Lord seemed to hold in check the severe weather that had re- cently prevailed — the evidence of which appeared in frozen streams and enormous icicles as we came toward FREHH EXPEBIENCES. 39 the Atlantic coast. On Thursday noon — one day before Christmas — almost on schedule time, our train rolled into the depot at Poughkeepsie, and I had the pleasure of meeting other parts of my dear family who had taken pains to be on hand to strengthen the joy of a safe, re- turn, and to welcome me back. Another Son-in-law Oone. On page 13-14 of ^ Feio More Words, a brief account was given of the sad fact that our eldest son was called unexpectedly out of time into eternity on Wednesday night, Oct. 3rd, 1900. In same volume, just before this statement, it was noticed that our eldest son-in-law was taken, even more suddenly, from his earthly surround- ings in exactly one month, viz. , on Saturday morning Nov. 3rd, 1900. So two families, both being branches of our own, were bereft in much the same way of the husliand and father. Now, upon my return from Colo- rado, I found my youngest son-in-law very poorly and giving evidence that the day of his stay here was rapidly coming to a close, before advancing years had made any impression upon his strength, or weakened his facili- ties. One of my reasons for coming back from Colorado, just at this time, was the knowledge that this son-in-law was running down. I felt a great desire to be of any possible service I might. It was not neces.sary for me to return for this purpose, but my heart moved me so to do; and 1 followed these inclinations and impulses, rather than avoid duties that seemed to me important. Upon my arrival this son-in-law was quite as strong as I had anticipated finding him. He was able not only to be about the house, but he was going out more or less, 40 ONCE AGAIN. each day. He was a remarkable lover of the noble horse, and had a faculty and ability of horsemanship that but few possess to such a degree. So, almost every day, he went to ride. He had persisted, up to about this time in going to business often, and had not given up the purpose and expectation of resuming his place as an active and efficient partner in a large dry goods establishment. It was evident, however, that the "destroyer "was creeping on, and getting much nearer than this victim anticipated. He never went to the store again after Christmas day. But he took part in that festive oc- casion at home, and was well represented in presents dis- tributed. He was of a generous nature and was a kind and obliging friend. In his relation to his father-in law he had given numerous evidences of affection, and rendered real service at different times, in the several changes we had made from Poughkeepsie to Brooklyn and elsewhere and back again to Poughkeepsie. He had not only consented, but had made some sacrifices in his own home comforts, to provide a place for his wife's parents. We had possessed a close family relation in his house for the last eight years of our married life. After the event that left me so lonely, he assured me that my home was secure while my life on the earth lasted, and when I went west my "domicile" was not disturbed. The room, more sacred than any other place on this globe, was re-occupied upon my return from the few months absence. There were many things about this son-in-law to make him " friends " and he had many of them. Some of these were worthy of his friendship, and some others were not. FBJESH EXPEBIENCES. 41 A Deadly Enemy. He had been followed, unrelentingly, from his early manhood, by the most subtle, persistent and merciless demon that is allowed to prowl this earth. This deceiver was introduced to him, through mistaken medical ad- vise, in the guise of a helper; but began, from the first, to reach after his vitals, and continued this until the noble, physical man, and the good mind and judgment were at last all a wreck. An Ef-ort at Rescue. Ever since his introduction into our family, and especially after he became a member thereof, this writer can testifiy, without any expectation of contradiction, that our heart went out in regard and solicitude to this young man, in about the same way as toward other sons. Both precept and example were exerted to do him good. At times plain and urgent entreaty was used to show and lead him in the right way. He never in any rude manner repelled these advances. When I reached home in Dec, 1903, and saw the in- roads being made upon this member of our group, my prayer went up, even more earnestly than ever, for a message to him and an opportunity to deliver it. With the opening of the year 1904 I ventured on a trip, in the severest of the Winter weather, to New Haven, Conn., to accompany our granddaughter back to her school privileges, which had been suspended during the holiday vacation. This my son-in-law greatly ap- preciated, of which he gave substantial evidence. The weather was so severe that heavy overcoat and large shawl were necessary to protect the still tender lung from the sharp air that aiiected it. 42 ONCE AGAIN. Upon the return to Poughkeepsie my son-in-law was no better, but evidently failing. On Sunday night, Jan. 24:th, there came a crisis and he was much worse. This seemed the opportunity given in marked answer to prayer. He was approached with kind words, and in the same tender spirit in which the Mas- ter inquired of the poor fellow who had suffered with an infirmity, "thirty and eight years, " when he asked: " Wouldest thou be whole ? " ( See John v : 5-6. ) His attention was called to the Isrealites in the wilderness, when so many of them had been bitten by the fiery ser- pents, and were dying from the poison that had entered their veins. Also, to God's order to Moses to make a serpent of brass and to put it on a pole; and to His de- cree that whoever of the bitten victims would look upon the serpent of brass should be healed and live. Then his mind was drawn to the words of Jesus; "As Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up: that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have eternallife." (See Num- bers XXI : 6-9 and John ni : 14-15. ) He listened atten- tively and seemed really interested. He also gave some remarkable and unmistakably evidence of appreciation. On the Tuesday morning following this special inter- view, at his particular request, when there were present, besides the regular family, his own mother and his busi- ness partner, we were gathered to read the Bible and have prayer. This we did with a sense of the Holy Spirits' gracious influence attending. On Thursday evening following, as we returned from the regular midweek prayer meeting, he welcomed us at his bedside, and although a little delirious, said emphatic- ally: "I want you to come in, and come in often ! " He was then exhorted, in a subdued voice, to look to the FRESH EXPERIENCES. 43 Great Physician. The familiar words: "The Great Physi- cian now is near, the' sympathizing Jesus, " were quoted in his ear, and he was assured that none could sympa- thize with him as the loving Jesus who died for him. JVo Further Oj>j)ortunlty. The following morning he was removed into the room from which his mother-in-law took her heavenward flight a few months previous. This was in accordance with his inclination to be in that room where he had been accustomed to go somewhat frequently, and to company with the now absent one. He seemed to think much of her since she was there no more. From that time, during the twelve days he remained with lis, he had but little consciousness of his surround- ings. He tried at times to struggle against the inevit- able, and often endeavored to help himself beyond the possibility of his being able to do. He did not want to die, but the hour drew rajudly on. The decision was made, and God had ordered the close of his earthly career. On Thursday morning, Feb. 11th, 190-1, at 1.30 o'clock, his heart ceased to beat, his chest ceased to heave, and his spirit returned to God who gave it. Thus passed away a man, who, from our stand-point, ought to have lived and blessed the world for many years. His emaciated body was, with great care for its preservation and safety, lain quite near that of his wife's mother, on Monday, Feb. 15th. This was believed to be his wish from some expressions he had made when visiting her resting place. Her taking away, during his absence from home, was a great shock and affliction to him, from which he never recovered. It may be only a vison of my mind and have no real 44 ONCE AGAIN. existence, but somehow I have, ever since that Sunday night, some two weeks before this soul was called away, seen a little pure gospel seed finding its place in his open mind and heart and germinating beyond our ken. Per- haps when he left the earthly tabernacle, the eye of his faith may have been, though only obscurely and feebly, upon the cross and the crucified. Oh the tenderness of that love, [that responded so quickly to the penitent at his side, when a simple request for remembrance was uttered in his ear ! And that too while himself in the agonies of a violent death ! Another Vision. It was the influence of this case upon my mind; as well as the fullness of love being poured into my soul, that led, a few months afterward, to another vision in the night, that made so deep an impression that it led to the printing of an invitation card with the words on one side: "Him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out >) John VI, 37- (see other side) And on the " other side, " in very large letters : COME FBESH SX PEBIE N CES- 45 These cards have been circulated by the hundreds, and from them we believe there will be some good fruit. Let this section be closed with the exclamations : Oh the terrible nature, danger and consequence of sin ! Let all these be trumpeted everywhere, as among the warnings we are commissioned to convey to men, while we continue to " cry aloud, " and labor zealously for the rescue of the sinner ! A RemarTtable Boy. Soon after the tragedy, only hinted at in the former section of this chapter, another experience occurred that was different in many of its features, and yet also had its sad side. But the cloud in this case, had a distinctly marked silver lining. A little boy, only six years old, was brought from the far "West by his doting mother to visit relatives, and for a special purpose as will appear in the narration. This little boy was, in years, only a child. He was beautiful in person and endowed in a remarkable way, with a power of voice and faculty of imitating the sweetest notes of the songsters that so entrance the lovers of music. He was also a simple and devout Christian child, and seemed not to have lost the initial justification that comes to all children under the broad cover of the atone- ment. The endowments of this child, naturally led his parents to desire to give him special and expert advan- tages for the cultivation of the gifts put upon him. So in the month of January, 1904, the excusably proud mother started with her boy on the long journey of 3,000 miles from Tacoma, in the state of Washington, to the city of Poughkeepsie, in the state of New York. 46 ONCE AGAIN. It was an unusally severe Winter in the East ; and the great change of climate was too much for the boy with the delicacies of childhood upon him. He soon began to droop. With skillful medical treatment and careful nursing, he rallied so that the mother felt she could pro- ceed with her cherished mission. Early in March the trip was made to Greater New York ; and this remarka- ble boy introduced to the attention of prominent and pro- fessional parties who became at once greatly interested in his exhibited powers. An arrangement was made to bring him more fully into notice in the St. Thomas Protestant Episcopal Church in the Borough of Man- hattan. But alas, before this plan could be carried out, the little boy gave evidence of more alarming illness, and the backward journey to Poughkeepsie was decided up- on. It was at once evident, in the mature and learned judgment of the same skillful physician who had treated him so successfully before, that he was marked for an early death. There is really nothing in the statement : " Such children always die young." They do not, or the re- markable men and women, who were remarkable from their childhood, would never have had their later lives written for the benefit of others. Sometimes these remarkable children are removed from the trials and temptations of this life, before these come upon them, as they would have to be met in later years. Let us be careful that we do not impugn the Divine wisdom that orders and over-rules ; and sometimes sets aside all our plans that we part with so reluctantly. Well so it was in this case. Physicians were summoned and nurses employed, and no pains, or expense, spared FBESH EXPERIENCEti. 47 to combat disease and lengthen out the life of this re- markiible boy. The father came on in haste, from the troubled home, and arrived in time to give such personal attention as he could to the little sufferer. The mother felt that her prayers for the recovery of her boy must be answered. But, despite all these means and influences, the inroads of firmly rooted disease refused to yield, and it was daily observant that this child was soon to leave this world . When he was brought back from New York, and his anxious mother hovered over him in her desire to retain him, he calmly told her that he was " going home to Jesus." What gives this case a peculiar interest to the writer, as placed among our experiences, is that this child came into the world on exactly the same date in June ( the 29th ) as marked the birthday of the companion of so much of my earthly life ; and his departure was on the exact date in March (the 20th) that marks my own birthday. These of course are only what we call " co- incidents, " but co-incidents are sometimes impressive, and fix in our minds many things more fully than they would otherwise be fastened. On Sunday, March 20th, 1904, just before the mid- night hour, as the '79th Anniversary of my birth { which was also on Sunday ) was closing, the pure spirit of this little Chi'istian boy escaped from his distressed body, and went to the arms of Him who has said : " Suffer the little children to come unto me, and forbid them not, for of such is the kingdom of heaven." In company with the pastor, with whom the writer had been associated in visiting this afflicted family, we had the privilege of attending a service on Monday 48 ONCE AGAIN. evening, March 21st, and looking upon the features, calm in death, of this greatly beloved onh/ child whose body had been carefully prepared for the long journey westward to be lain among his kindred. The next morn- ing the sad, and almost disconsolate parents were on their way with this sacred charge, and in due time they arrived with it. On March 29th, the prepared grave took to its embrace this lovely form. Another co-incidence may be noted here, viz : Both the father and mother of this prodigy were themselves only children of their parents. Some Lessons. Does unbelief or skepticism say: "This was a hard and unkind dispensation ? " We answer ; not so ! Think of the honor put upon these parents in having such a child. Then think of the eternal delight which ■ is before them as they submit to the decision of infinite wisdom and love and say : "The will of the Lord be done ! " Somehow there has been pictured before my mind this remarkable boy placed in the heavenly choir for the entertainment of the innumerable company about the Throne. Forever free from the temptations and snares that would most certainly have been his if he had been subjected to the flatteries and adulations that would have come to him if his singing had been confined to the praises of fallible and enthusiastic audiences, that often do not measure the influence of their expressions. Then, let it be remembered that the advantages coveted for that child here will be without doubt infinitely outmeasured by the schooling and drill of the redeemed in the palace of Angels and of God. These thoughts are put in print in hopes that they FBEISH EXPERIENCES. 49 may do something to assuage the grief of the immediately bereaved ones ; and in farther hopes that they may minister something to others, who in their turn, have measured out to them what they find it so difficult, at times, to recognize as coming to them from a hand more loving than that of any earthly friend — even from Him who is "Too wise to err, and too good to be unkind." Conference of 190 If.. Now another meeting of our beloved brethren of the New York Conference was at hand, and I had the ines- timable satisfaction of another invitation to be the guest in my former parishioner's home where I had been a kind of member of the family for so many years. I was most comfortably entertained and real handy to the means of conveyance, in the use of which I could go to and come from the Conference room for the small sum of five cents a trip ; and with such expedition that I could be in time for the morning devotions, as well as get the entire benefit of the business matters from the beginning to the end. The session was a very pleasant and profitable one, under the presidency of Bishop Edward G. Andrews, who was especially dear to New Yorkers. He ^vas our "resident Bishop " and greatly beloved for his urbanity and wisdom. Many other excellencies endeared him to all who came within his influence. If i mistake not, this was the last Annual Conference assigned Bishop Andrews in the exercise of his office, as an active "General Superintendent." I doubt whether he himself, or many of his intimate friends, then thought that he would be so soon reckoned among the " Superannuates." Well, there is work enough yet for him ; and it may be that his release from the exact- 50 ONCE AGAIN. ing duties of traveling throughout the connection, and taking charge of the Conferences, as the appointing power, with all its great responsibilities, may make him more efficient during his remaining years, than he could otherwise have been. What Next ? When the Conference session of 1904 closed, there came to me almost a conviction, that " the time of my departure was at hand. " I had experienced many of the same mental exercises that Paul, the great Apostle to the Grentiles had given vent to in his day. I know I have need of care in comparing myself with that wonder- ful Evangelist, yet, I had felt much of late : "A desire to depart and be with Christ." This desire however, had not been gratified ; and I had been kept from im- patience at the delay. But now, as I returned to my uncertain home, with all the facts of my surroundings before me it seemed to me that the time for me to go to the higher and larger sphere was at hand. I had at- tended the Conference for the 56th time, and was on the superannuated list, and evidently being looked upon, by many, , as "worn out "and so put aside often when it seemed to me that I might perform some service. This was and is all right so far as the brethren are concerned. I felt that I could say in a modified way : "I have fought a good fight, " — The fighting had never been very hard, and I felt that I might have been a better soldier, but the warfare had been in the ranks of noble men, and under a Divine leadership of which 1 felt I might justly boast; and put the defects and failures "under the blood." I felt also that I might say, with some degree of comfort; "I have kept the faith." I had not been switched off on any of the side tracks, that lie alongside FBESH EXPERIENCES. 51 the straight and plain highway that leads steadily up- Avard and onward to the glory life. I had continued to call sinners to repentance, and believers to full salvation. Bat I was getting old in the estimation of others, and my later convictions of the future life, in its employments, seemed to be opening to me a more to be desired field than a further stay in the church militant. These reflections may all have been wrong, and I did not seek to cherish them unduly, so as to fall into con- demnation, or feel that my Heavenly Father was dis- pleased. My prayer was then, and is still : O Father, when my death will be of more value to others, and to the cause of Christ, in this world, than my continued earthly life, please let me depart hence and be with Thee and the loved ones who are already there ! The immediate future of my remaining days had to be considered ; and while I wanted to be careful in any dis- cisions I should make, I could not see how some prob- lems could be solved so well as by my departure. Helped. I was aroused from this reverie by the kind counsel and companionship of my pastor. He insisted that I could be of service to him ; and extended to me a very brotherly and cordial recognition as an associate. This did much for me ; and all the more when I found that the pastor did not propose to over -load me with duties for his own relief ; but that he intended to go to work most diligently himself, and only asked me to help where he saw I could with the careful use of what powers 1 had. Some Mental 3Iusings. My children were largely where I could expect to see but little of them ; and yet I had a desire to be with them 52 ONCE AGAIN. what and when I could. My temporary home was with one of them ; but she had her plans, and I must not be a hindrance rather than a help. My only son was settled in his beautiful new home in New Haven, Conn. , and fully occupied with the pressing duties in fulfillment of his office as Assistant Professor of Chemistry in the Kent Laboratory connected with the Yale University. To think of a home with him was to consider severance of all the ties that bound me to Poughkeepsie and go among strangers at my advanced period of life, outside the bounds of my own cherished Conference. Stockport Once Again. One of the desires of my mind had been to visit once agnin the scene of my earliest labors in the itinerancy. On June 15th, 1904, I awoke with a rather sudden im- pression as of a voice speaking to me and saying : "Now is the opportunity to do what you have so long desired." I acted upon the impression thus made, and started for Stockport, where, 56 years since, I went as a young minister and probationer in the ranks of the remembered and revered brethren, the most of whom had now passed away. The trip was a very impressive one, as by train and trolley I rode to a point quite near the site of the old church, that I called to mind so clearly. A young man', whom I did not learn, until after we set out for a long walk together, was a member of the Methodist Episcopal Church, volunteered to become my guide. Together we climbed the hill into the old burying-ground where the bodies of many of my former parishioners lie moil Idering back to dust. The church building was there no more. It had been removed to a more eligible place, and greatly improved in appearance. With my companion, I looked the ground over and FRESH EXPERIENCEIS. 53 Avas much interested. Then we strolled toward the home of my little family, so peculiar in some of its features and experiences when we occupied it in the Conference years 1848 and 1849. It was some two and a half miles fi'om the church towards the city of Hudson. On the way we met with much kind attention. The Protestant Episcopal Church was opened for us that we might look at the tablet in memory of a gentleman who was one of the most respected men in this community in the days when I was serving my first pastorate. He was par- ticularly remembered as a kind and generous friend of the Methodist Church in his life. So we walked on and conversed freely of the by-gones. After parting with the young man, who had contri- buted so much to make my visit to these former scenes so enjoyable, and getting an assurance from him that we would meet in heaven, I pursued the walk alone. Just then I saw an old gentleman approaching in his wagon, and I mentally said : "If this man invites me to ride, I will regard it as of the Lord, and will accept. " Sure enough, when opposite me, the rider held up and asked me to join him. When I had taken my seat, I inquired whither the traveler was going, and was informed that he was on the way to the exact house that I desired to visit. We entered into a conversation and I referred to the former days when I had lived for two years in a part of that house with a farmer, giving the name of my land- lord. The gentleman said he "remembered a young minister used to live there by the name of Browning." So I had been directed to the only man I met that day who could enter, to any degree, into my experiences of the 56 years since. The house, toward which we were thus going is a large one. It had been a hotel before being owned and occupied by the farmer who so kindly 54 ONCE AGAIN. rented me some rooms in my emergency, as related in the book Grace Magnified on pages 5^57. Since then, a sad change had come over the premises. The fences were down ; the unkept door-yard but poorly brought to mind the pretty lawn with its knoll of flowers ; and the house was again, " A public house. " However we drove to the door and I entered the room that was, in our day one of the nicest we had, and that was rendered memorable as the birth-place of one of our daughters. This room was now the "Bar-room, " and the proprietor was there engaged in serving those who called for drinks and cigars. This gentleman received me kindly and of- fered to treat. The latter favor of course I declined, and took occasion to drop some tenderly expressed words, as I related my former experiences in this neigh- borhood, and in this house. All was accepted courte- ously, and I was granted freedom to look over the rooms where, with my young wife and babies, I had dwelt so long ago. After leaving these associations, I started to walk to " Columbia Springs " where I used to go often and get the sulphur water for my father-in-law when he was our visitor. This walk seemed much longer now than it used to ; and, after some religious conversation with those I met on the way, finding my time expiring, I stopped a Kttle short of ' ' the Springs " and took the trolley back to Hudson and returned to Poughkeepsie with a grateful heart that I had accomplished a wish that I had long entertained. Cormwall Jubilee. Just a few days after the experiences as to Stockport, 1 had the great pleasure of participating in a " Jubilee " at Cornwall, N. Y. Twenty-eight years ago I had the honor of being a pastor in this place among the " High- FliESH EXPEBIENOES. 55 lands." It was very delightful to me to have a cordial invitation to take part in sonae elaborated services ar- ranged to celebrate the fiftieth year of the founding of the church there. It is to be noted that the years that had passed since my pastorate here were just half of those that had elapsed since my first pastorate ; and so I was twenty-eight years older when preaching the gos- pel at Cornwall than when serving at Stockport. The "Jubilee" was a very happy occasion. After an early sail upon the morning of Monday, June 20th, 1904, I was in time for the social gathering of many old, and younger friends at the noon meal most sumptuously pre- pared for the guests. After this we had some very in- teresting exercises in the church with other former pas- tors. I returned to Poughkeepsie rather late that Sum- mer evening, but with a feeling that the day had been well and profitably spent. Commencement at Yale. Closely following these experiences, was a visit to my son at New Haven ; and an attendance upon the " Com- mencement Exercises " of the University with which he is identified. My son's position, and especially because he was assigned duties in connection with the seating of audiences during the "Commencement" week, gave me some desirable advantages. This led me to set out upon this expedition on Saturday, June 25th, 1904. Although I had been honored with the graduation of two sons at this Institution of learning, I had enjoyed but few of the many entertainments furnished from time to time, and from year to year. Now, there was opened to me an unusual privilege. The Baccalaureate address of President Hadley was on Sabbath morning, June 26th. The day was one of 56 ONCE AGAIN. the hottest of the Summer of 1904. This was in great contrast to my former visit in New Haven amidst the severities of the Winter preceding. My son, knowing my practice and feelings, did not propose a trolley ride for the two miles that separated us from " Woolsey Hall, " but, most kindly, accompanied me on a delight- ful walk down and back, to the heart of the city to at- tend the large gathering of Alumni Graduates, distin- guished guests and friends, that filled all the accommo- dations of this new auditorium. The exercises were very interesting. I had a seat from which they could all be seen, heard and enjoyed. I will not attempt to report the President's discourse on that occasion, nor his apt and appropriete remarks, when he conferred the numerous degrees, that honored their various recipients on "Commencement Day" which was on the Wednesday following. I will only say : That the religious spirit, and sentiment, running through the whole led me to feel most grateful for the tone, that could not fail to impress all, that this institu- tion is under the influence of our Holy Christianity ; and, if its thousands of students will yield themselves to the best impressions that come to them during the years of study, and ceremonies of graduation, the world will be constantly made better by the large classes that annually go forth to life's realities from these educa- tional halls. We went back and forth to the varied gatherings, and even some of the sports that occurred in their ar- ranged order. The weather moderated and the convenient modes of conveyance, at hand, were freely patronized. This was indeed one of the eventful weeks of my Ufe. On Thursday, the last day of June, I was conveyed FBESH EXPERIENCEtS. 57 safely and rapidly back to Poughkeepsie, N. Y. , with a feeling that I had been highly favored, and had much added to my stock of information that could be used along the remaining period of earthly stay; and, I trust, be in some way helpful through eternity. Ocean Grove Once Again. When returning from New Haven, after the Com- mencement Exercises, it was my purpose and expecta- tion to return there again about Aug. 1st. But, "We know not what a day may bring forth ; " and often our plans do not come to pass in accordance with our thoughts. A train of circumstances changed what had seemed the right thing to do ; and, with a short trip away, and the spending of Sunday, July 10th with some relatives in a quiet retreat back of New- burgh, Orange Co. , N. Y. , I was led to the conclusion that.it was in the Lord's order, that 1 should spend another season at Ocean Grove, New Jersey. There in days past, I had been wont to put in whole Summers in close relation to the great attractions and privileges of that wonderful place. Accordingly preparations were made and quarters en- gaged. On Wednesday morning, July 27th, in company with my kind and loving son, who had taken pains to accompany me part of the way, a sail was enjoyed on the fine steamer Mary Powell down the magnificent Hudson River to the great city of New York. From thence I crossed to Jersey City and took passage on the train of the Pennsylvania Railroad, and long before evening, I was comfortably settled in a nice room, with all neces- sary conveniences in one of the most eligibly situated and well kept hotels by the sea-shore, for a stay if it might so be, of several weeks. 58 01>!GI1 AGAIN. Fa/mily Worship. One of the things that is often neglected, or omitted, by Summer tourists, or visitors to places of resort, is the special and helpful religious gatherings for worship at the family altar. In former years it had been my office and pleasure to be identified with a morning service of family worship at this same hotel. So I was not slow to confer with the proprietor as to the possibility of such an arrangment once again. He most cheerfully and readily sanctioned this sug- gestion and gave his co-operation. A neat notice was prepared and placed conspicuously at the entrance to the parlor, reading thus : SPECIAL NOTICE. THERE WILL BE A BRIEF SERVICE OF FAMILY WORSHIP EACH MORNING AT 8.15 O' CLOCK IN THE PARLOR. ALL MOST CORDIALLY INVITED. The consequence was that, without an omission, the voice of song, scripture reading and prayer, was heard, for 15 minutes each morning, from July 28th to Sept. 6th. The attendance upon these exercises was never very large, and never what it seemed it might have been if all the guests had appreciated the arrangement. But the seasons were always profitable. Some of them bore im- mediate fruit ; and it is believed that the results were far-reaching. Of course the attendants were constantly changing, as the comers and goers mingled and com- mingled, — welcoming each other upon arrival, and saying " good bye " upon parting. FRESH EXPERIENCES. 59 Some very helpful assistants were found in the con- duct of these exercises, both among ministers and lay- men who were among us from time to time. Also among the lady guests we found helpers, particularly as leaders of the music. One little girl ought to be specially re- membered who was always ready, even, if her breakfast must be deferred, or passed altogether. It was indeed a means of grace highly esteemed by some ; and gracious influences, no doubt, followed many to their homes when they left. It is hoped that some- thing was done to repair family altars, that had fallen into partial decay ; and possibly to lead to the erection of some that ought to have been established before. St. PauVs M. E. Church. The visitors at Ocean Grove should always be informed that it is not only a " Summer Resort, " but also a place of residence for an increasing number of families who have their homes there, and who enjoy, at all times, the privileges of a settled community. It is a regular appointment in the list of the New Jersey Conference and is always supplied with a faith- ful and zealous pastor, and a flourishing membership. The exercises of the church established there, are some- what modified when the " season" opens under the di- rection of the "Association, " which begins each year at about, or a little before, July 1st, and runs into the early days of September. But the services identified with " St. Paul's" are not altogether suspended at any time. It is well for all who are seeking the best things when they spend some time at Ocean Grove, to know that, both before and after the "special days, " they may find regular and profitable meetings to which they are invited. 60 ONCE AGAIN. The writer of this learned these things in the years when spending much time as a cottage holder in Ocean Grove. Upon the evening of our first day's stay in the year lyoJr — it being Wednesday evening — we went to the regular ''mid-week prayer meeting" in St. Paul's church. The meeting was an excellent one and I was brought into a more intimate acquaintance with the then present pastor. This, and other fellowships with this devout and dili- gent man of God, led him to ask me a few days later if I " liked to preach sometimes?" My ready answer was : 1 like to preach all the time, but am restrained by the advice of 'my kind physicians. This, I thought, would preclude any further advances in that direction by my questioner. On the following Wednesday even- ing I was at the prayer-meeting again ; and then learn- ed that on the approaching Sunday the sacrament of the liOrd's Supper would be observed. I was asked, if I "could safely make some remarks in the way of a short address on that occasion ? " I thought I could do that, and so engaged to. This brought a wonderful rev- elation and inspiration that was as unexpected as it was comforting. The advice I had received, and the knowledge I had of my own physical condition, had led me to much care as to my public exercises ; and begot- ten the purpose not to put myself in the way of invita- tions to preach, although the self-denial was often great. But now my " Great Physician " had an oppor- tunity to display His skill in a way I had not anticipated, as 1 resolved, shall I say, to be more fully in His hands. A Wonderful Experience. When the notices of the approaching Sunday services appeared in the Saturday papers, I discovered myself FBE8H EXPERIENCES. 61 advertised to preach. The thought came to me, that as I had had nothing to do with this announcement, I ought to regard it as an over-ruling not to be unheeded. A text came to me and a line of thought that I hastily put in the best order of arrangement I could in the short time to be thus used. I set myself to consider this outline and mentally to enlarge upon it. While engaged in so doing on Saturday evening, as I sat outside on the porch, to get the benefit of the pure atmosphere prevailing, suddenly my head became op- pressed and my thoughts confused . The impression came to me that I was transgressing and that I ought to find the pas or and notify him that I probably would not be in a condition to serve him, in any way on the Sabbath so near at hand. With this thought in mind I put on my hat to go to the parson- age. When, as if spoken to me, came the suggestion : "This is hasty and distrustful ; go to bed and get rested." It was still early but I acted at once, upon this that seemed such good and reasonable advice. / had a sweet nigMs sleep and awohe refreshed. After conducting the family worship in the parlor on Sabbath morning I went as usual to the 9 o'clock " holi- ness meeting" in the tabernacle. Quite to my sur- prise, the good bishop in charge accosted me, upon my entrance, and invited me to give the opening scripture lesson. As this was not of my seeking, and a lesson was on my mind, I gladly complied ; and enjoyed much lib- erty while so engaged in reading and exposition. At the close of this meeting, I repaired to St. Paul's to fill my engagement there. The congregation was good and expectant, and I took my part under the direction of the pastor. When the time came for preaching, 1 learned that 62 ONCE AGAIN. twenty minutes only could be spared for that part of the service. My mind and heart were both full. I was enabled to crowd a forty minute discourse into half that time (a task quite difficult to perform as every preacher will testify). I was permitted to set forth, with little opportunity to enlarge, several regards in which the " Lord's Supper" may and ought to be cele- brated as a "memorial" arranged by the Master him- self before leaving his disciples. The recent obser- vance of the Annual "memorial services" under the direction of the Association, on Sunday, July 31st, in the tabernacle, when kind words of remembrance had been spoken of so many who had " gone away " dur- ing the past year, afforded an appropriate illustration to help this discourse. The sermon, such as it was, being over, I had the privilege of assisting in the distribution of the elements representing the broken body and shed blood of our Risen Saviour. Usually on sacramental occasions in this church there is no lack for helpers from among the several retired ministers who are making a mecca of their residence in Ocean Grove : but on this Sunday, as it is likely to be M'hen there are services in the Great Auditorium, they were all elsewhere. These sacramental exercises being ended, I repaired to my place at the hotel with a question : Whether I had over done ? Dinner being through I felt so far from being entirely exhausted that I decided to go to the Bible Class in the Auditorium. 1 always feel quite at home there from having held the position of "Vice President" in some former years. To my surprise again, the leader came directly to me, upon his entrance, with an invitation to offer the opening prayer. This 1 FBESH EXPEBIENCE8. 63 did with no apparent harm to my vocal organs, filling in the great house. This day was in the interest of the Womans' Foreign Missionary Society. Doctor Leonard, the well known Missionary Secretary, had discoursed to the multitude in the morning. After the Bible Class, this official orginization held another meeting, to which I had the privilege of re- maining and listening to the instructive and encouraging addresses — especially one by Bishop Warne. The inclination to go to the " Beach Meeting " was not yielded to ; but I assembled with the large congregation in the evening to enjoy the rare treat of a full discourse by the same Bishop who spoke so helpfully in the after- noon. I retired to my room that night most thankful to God for His support, and with the conviction, more fully up- on me, that I was not yet quite worn out, and praising the name of my Keeper. JBro. Franklin^ s Class. The reference to St. Paul's church, as among the in- stitutions and attractions of Ocean Grove, ought not to be closed without calling attention to one of the most re- markable and profitable of all the means associated with that place of worship. There has been held, for many years, a Monday evening class under the leadership of Eev. William Franklin, that has been doing a great work of salvation, and is the resort of the knowing from all parts of the world, as they have opportunity to meet with the faithful and regularly attending membership. The writer learned about this class some years since, and always rejoices in being permitted to go there. This we did upon our visit to Ocean Grove in the Summer of 64 ONCE AGAIN. 1904. The spirit was as in former years, and the crowds found it difficult to get into the room assigned for this meeting. Bro. Franklin is a retired minister, but of the number that never rust out. He has been in feeble health for a long time, and during the Summer now being noticed, it seemed that he could not remain on the earth until the close of "the season." He did however ; and, at this writing is still active and useful. This class knows no suspension, except for the two Monday nights embraced in the " Camp-meeting days " when Bro. Franklin is more busy than ever in the " Helping hand" meeting of which he has long been the recognized leader. Whether this dear brother will be among men when these references to him are read can- not now be predicted. But if he is not, he will be with God. Oiher Meetings. My arrival at Ocean Grove, on July 27th, 190i, was in the "height of the season." The daily meetings, in the Temple and Tabernacle, at 9 o'clock each morning were in progress. The Sunday services were in the great Auditorium where there was preaching both morning and evening. The " Union Sunday School " was organized and doing its work, in the different de- partments, in all the several buildings used for these purposes. The "Beach Meeting" at the shore, was being held regularly at 6 p.m. on each Sunday evening. Those who have not been to this wonderful place can scarcely gather a proper idea of these meetings by what may be said, or written, of them. It needs a looker-on and a participant, to get the facts imprinted on the mind and memory. To give direction to all these meetings, and see that FBESH EXPEBIENCES. 65 they are properly conducted, is no small matter and in- volves great wisdom and responsibility. Pr'iiKiiples of Association. "The Ocean Grove Association " has been regarded as standing for the highest possible attainments in re- ligious life, and for the consistent and scriptural expo- sition and illustration of the doctrine and experience of "Christian Perfection." Consequently all who become members of this Association are justly expected to ex- emplify in life, conversation and example, the true spirit of Christ, or otherwise the avowed purpose of the organization is not only marred, but harmful re- sults must follow. It has been a perplexing problem, what to allow, and what not to allow. The unprejudiced observer must admit that there has been no hasty consideration of these questions. In the passing 35 years, many changes in the senti- ments of many people have taken place ; but it will not do to admit that Christianity in its best exhibition to the world, admits of changes. Of course the minds of honest, and thoroughly con- secrated, men will be influenced in some degrees by the changes that take place in society. The best means of reaching the best results in the effort to save all classes of this society must always be an important question. Every change in method should be of such a charac- ter that it can be advocated as intending to accomplish more good ; and bring more of this world's inhabitants under the influence of the glorious gospel of salvation. The fact that the authorities have introduced enter- tainments of different kmds into the attractions of Ocean Grove ; and that they have lessened to some ex- 66 ONCJS AGAIN. tent, the rigid rules and requirements that used to be en- forced, is a matter for criticism at times. It must be said however that "Outsiders" cannot judge of these things as those upon whom the direct responsibility- rests. There is nothing easier than to find fault ; and there is often nothing harder than to suggest improve- ments upon what we do not exactly like. Let all the lovers of good things, and especially those who really desire the fullest success of this wonderfully developing spot, see to it that in all they think, and particularly in all they say, they not only have the approval of their own consciences, but that they do not call in question the good judgment and honest intentions of those who are responsible for the entire program. The thirteenth chapter of Paul's first letter to the Corinthians is inval- uable to all who want to be just right. The great agency in saving this world and establishing the King- dom of the Redeemer, is the exhibition of the New Testament standard of piety upon the part of those who openly profess faith in Jesus. Those among men who live in these days, although not members of the churches, know all about the fundamentals of Christianity and are ever looking for evidence as to its saving power in the lives and actions of those who have joined themselves to the churches. They read them more carefully than they read other things ; and they are often good judges of what is, and what is not the spirit of the Master. For these reasons, I have long felt that the mission of Christ's Ambassadors in this day, and where the gospel has been long preached, is to the members of our churches. When Jesus was upon the earth His most energetic and positive denun- ciations were to the chief men among the Pharisees who boasted of their goodness but were really stumbling FBESH EXPERIENOES. 67 blocks in the way of the progress of the salvation He preached to others. Children Noticed. One of the most effective means used at Ocean Grove to accomplish the spiritual interests of the multitudes who gather there, is addresses by those who are specially endowed in this line to win the young. Too much pains cannot be taken here. Let the chil- dren be properly instructed as to their normal relation to Him who said ' ' suffer the little children to come un- to me," and the time will rapidly roll on when "all shall know the Lord." There needs a great revival of family religion ; and the institution of the "family altar" and all public re- ligious instruction, in all places, should partake largely in the enforcement of this truth. Wonderful Scenes. As I have sat, from time to time, and looked over the immense audiences assembled in the several places of worship at Ocean Grove, — "The Holiness Meeting" in the Tabernacle ; "the Young People's Meeting" in the Temple, led for so many years by Rev. Mr. Yatman ; and the worshippers in the Auditorium sometimes num- bering as high as 10,000, and even more — it has seemed to me that I got a view of part of the " multitude " who are already crowding about the Throne on high, and adoring the King of Kings. Meeting Friends. One of the very pleasant things in being at Ocean Grove, for one who has had a long experience in the Christian ministry, is in connection with meeting former 68 ONCE AGAIN. associates who gather there from so many places. Some are former parishioners. Some are children of such parishioners who recall a childhood remembrance of "father's" or "mother's pastor." Some are kindred, or children of kindred, who are interested in meeting again, or for the first time, one of whom their dear ones have spoken and kindled the desire to meet. Several such meetings, some of which were great surprises, could well be written out in this chapter on "Fresh Ex- periences." We are all making history and it would be well often to note more carefully the passing events. The Camp-Jfeeting. It is not too much to say that the hopes and expecta- tions of those who most deeply love Ocean Grove, center in the annual "Camp-meeting" that occurs each year in the ten days included in the close of August. During this most sacred time, all diversions, so far as possible, are put aside ; and no entertainments other than those connected with these continuous exercises that have the one object of leading souls to immediate decisions, and high spiritual results, are allowed. Some remarkable leaders have been identified with the Camp-meeting at Ocean Grove for years past ; and these were promptly on hand for this season 1904. With Rev. Joseph H. Smith ; Mrs. Lizzie Smith ; Miss Lizzie Sharp ; and a host of active evangelists, and prominent preachers, from all over the world ; and with meetings from 5:45 in the morning until bed time, with only short inter- missions, there is no lost time to those who are inter- ested in the establishment of the kingdom of Christ in the souls of men. The entire season of 1904, and particularly the ' ' Camp- meeting, " was admitted to be at least one of the best in FBESH EXPEBIENCE8. 69 the history of Ocean Grove. The numbers in attend- ance could at no former time been greater ; and the crowds often could not be accommodated with comfort- able places ; and only found room by standing in the doorways ; and even then could not always get within hearing distance. The preaching was always good, and some of the mes- sengers seemed to be specially inspired to deliver words accompanied with gracious influences that could not fail of permanent results. Lest mistakes might be made in giving names it will only be recorded here that the lines between denomina- tions were very dim. Baptists, Congregationalists, Pro- testant Episcopalians, and others, heartily fraternized ; and some of the most impressive discourses fell from lips other than Methodists. There was no instance, as in the judgment here expressed, when there seemed to be an attempt at "great sermonizing." When the Love Feast of Sunday morning, Aug. 28th, came, the enthusiasm was unbounded ; and from the main floor, and also the galleries of the great Auditorium, the testimonies rolled in in such numbers that often several would be speaking at the same time to only heighten the interest and the real spirit of devout joy. The ' ' closing exercises " of a Camp-meeting at Ocean Grove must be witnessed to be at all appreciated. We had the privilege of being in the great gathering on Monday morning, Aug. 29th, 1904. Infant baptism was administered to a large number of children as per cus- tom. The reports of the many branches of the work performed during the season now ending, were given by the representatives of these several departments. Spe- cial and effective music, both instrumental and vocal, was rendered by individuals and also by the choir. Then 70 ONCE AGAIN. the wonderful march, headed by the leaders of singing and the Bishop, and forming a long procession, took its way out and around about; through the various buildings made sacred by their associations, and the adjacent grounds, and back again to the place of starting. Now comes the most impressive and solemn of all the services. The bell is tolled, three successive times, "in the name of the Father ; and of the Son ; and of the Holy Ghost," and the Camp-meeting is pronounced CLOSED. O, how the tolls of that bell go through the hearts of the truly devout ! They not only tell of the end of pre- sent privileges so dear, but they seem as the death knell of some who have been called, hut have refused. May God grant another chance to all such I is the prayer here recorded. But who knows how many have resisted for the last time ? ****** * It is almost incredible how soon the crowds melt away when the ' ' Camp-meeting " is closed. A few days find Ocean Grove deserted, and left almost entirely to those who are permanent residents. lifot Altogether Like Heaven. It is a remark frequently heard by the enthusiastic lovers of Ocean Grove : " It is the nearest like heaven of any place on earth. " The writer of these things is not disposed to discount this assertion more than it ought to be, and has made it himself many more times than once; and inclines to make it "once again." Yet, it must be admitted that the regular inhabitants of this place sometimes give evidence that a familiarity with so much earnest work during the Summer months along spiritual lines becomfs a FRESH EXPERIENCES. 71 hardening influence to many who do not enter into the religious movements ; but rather regard them in the light of " business opportunities." But it was not for the purpose of emphasizing th-is thought that the heading was given this section. There are some respects however in which this mar- velous place, even during the season of " the meetings," is not like heaven. Some which always stamp it quite unlike the abode of the blessed on high. First : It must be admitted that among the thousands who go thither every year there are many who do not go for the religious privileges. To these the restraints, that are so to be commended, and because of which it is believed the special favor of God has always rested up- on Ocean Grove, are irksome. These spend much of their time promenading on "the board walk" even when the most successful of the religious meetings are in progress. They go fishing, sailing and bathing more than is conducive to health, and because that is what they are here for. On Sabbaths these slip over the boundry lines and get their coveted Sunday papers, and grumble that the cars do not stop here on Sundays and the gates remain open the seven days of the week. They come and go on Sundays, although this involves a passage through the streets with traveling bags and other "carriages" that show their disregard for God's law as contained in the fourth command of the Decalogue. These also get up, at every opportunity, diverting entertainments that have in them no religious or intel- lectual profit. Now all this is not like heaven. There all is harmony and love ; and all engage in ascriptions of praise to Him that sitteth upon the Throne. 72 ONCE AGAIN. Secondly : The going away as well as the coming, is another respect in which Ocean Grove is not like heaven. There "they go out no more," but are "forever with the Lord." To all possessed with genuine Christian af- fection, and who reckon among the evidences that they have "passed from death unto life," their love for each other, the constant partings have in them a measure of pain and regret. Especially is this true as the end of "the season" draws near, and day by day witnesses the loaded trains carrying away those who have mingled so delightfully for short weeks. It may be only days. True the conpensation is the hope and expectation of meeting again where partings never come. How tender are the ties of those who have been brought to a knowledge of Christ for the first time, or brought out into the boundless ocean of perfect love, towards those who have been, in any way or degree, instrumental in helping into such glorious experiences. All these hope to meet again ; but the temptations and dangers of this life are not yet passed, and much solicitation must be expressed as the struggles and vi- cissitudes of earthly existence are to be faced again without the wonderful helps that have been at hand during the tarry at Ocean Grove. Thirdly : There is another particular in which Ocean Grove is not like heaven. Of this we mtlst write most tenderly and in the spirit of the most abounding char- ity. It has often been said that : " Order is heaven's first law. " Sometimes the really boisterous and obstreper- ous try to take control of the exercises so necessary to the spirit of devotion in religious assemblies. FRESH JEXPHRIENCES. 13 It ought not to be intimated that this spirit is a serious obstacle to the best interests of Ocean Grove. The classes indicated are not very much in evidence. Nor would we have it hastily concluded that the writ- er is opposed to such a condition as might consistently be likened to " the noise of many waters" that greeted John's ears in the visions of the Apocalypse. (See Kev. 1 : 15 and xiv : 3 and 3. ) This was delightfully subduing ; and neither confusing nor diverting. Only the determined purpose to have our own way, in spite of loving appeals, are here referred to. The few instances in which this occurs at Ocean Grove, may seem to make this reference to it here as out of place. But the spirit that sometimes crops out is so harmful that a tender word of caution in this con- nection may be useful. It ought to be said in passing that perhaps leaders, as well as led, have something to learn here. In heaven all outbreaks of indiscretion will forever have passed, and have no place. The great and many voices that will there be lifted up will be to ascribe praise to our Lord and Christ, as King forever and ever. (See Rev. xi : 15.) DmiH Misunderstand. Lest some of these things be misunderstood and thought to be written in the spirit of a critic or fault- finder, let it be added : The need for self -suppression and self-denial that often presented itself in the crowd- ed meetings for testimony during the season of 1904, acted as a means of grace to this writer and led him more and more to think less and less of himself. I learned more clearly the value of Paul's exhortation 74 ONCE AGAIN. to the Philippians: "Let nothing be done through strife or vain glory ; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves." (Phil. ii:3) I grew stronger, in body and mind and soul, during my stay "once again" at this wonderful place. It was while there that most of the members of this book, and of its chapters, were conceived in times of meditation when the opportunity for expression was not at hand. A Delightful Visit. Many who spend " the season " at Ocean Grove plan to go elsewhere awhile before returning to their homes for the Fall and Winter. It is admitted that September and October are very pleasant months by the ocean. Some visitors remain, or come for these months, but the great mass cannot be induced to stay, and are soon on their way elsewhere. It was in the plan of the writer, to take advantage of the situation, and a standing invitation of some years past, to spend a few days in a section that had special charms because it numbers, among its settlers and pres- ent inhabitants, some of the blood-kindred of his mother, whose precious memory lingers, although sixty five years have elapsed since I stood by her bed-side and saw the death struggles of her long and terribly afflicted body. My proposed hostess was of the number of these kin- dred ; and there is no other word that suits so well to designate the character of the visit, as the one used at the head of this section. Others of my "fresh expe- riences " had been sad and sorrowful ; pleasant and joy- ful ; instructive and profitable ; but those now related, were simply "delightful." On Wednesday morning, Sept. Tth, 1904, 1 was ready FBESH JEXP:EBIENCSS. 75 to leave the spot that had brought me much that I shall never forget, and go to look upon other scenes away from the sea. My route was selected, and some special providences had favored the preparation. A Pretty Bide. For two hours, and more, I sped by rail on through a fertile country studded with neat and attractive vil- At the place appointed, the faithful and trusted man, who had been dispatched on this errand, met me with substantial conveyance for the completion of this charm- ing journey. Partly over a road new to me, and partly through familiar scenes of by-gone days, we came to the prettily located house erected some years since as the family home of one of the best farmers that ever tilled the soil. That father has passed away ; so also has the mother, and the beloved adopted sister. The present owner and occupant is there alone. Much of the time she has no sufficient help for the unnumbered duties that are in- volved in "running a farm." But this did not interfere with her spirit of hospitality, nor the heartiness of her welcome. Made at Home. We were soon most comfortably quartered in the best accommodations to be afforded, and that gave us, at once, a very homelike feeling. The well spread, and most amply supplied table, was soon ready, and we had to begin, and practice all the time, a rein on an always good appetite, to keep from going too far in its indulgence, and thus fail to be as abstemious as we had fully learned of late years, is es- sential to the best of health. 76 ONCE AGAIN. This visit grew more and more delightful. The time we had for its enjoyment went away sooner than we felt willing to have it. It was in the country with no city conveniences at hand ; but, how wonderfully can inconveniences be overcome where there is wisdom and tact coupled with the disposition. The post-office was one mile away; but that was turned into a real pleasure as from day to day the horse and buggy was ready for an invigorating ride to get "the New York daily" and whatever other mail was there for delivery. There was no lack of writing material furnished freely to keep up corespondence with friends from whom we were thus temporarily separated. Kind neighbors were on hand with expressions of friendship, and to emphasize and increase the spirit of good cheer. Then there was no loss of religious privileges. Not only did we ask our blessing upon the luxuries before us when the meal time came three times a day, but also there was time set apart for the morning and eve- ning gathering at the family altar. So we had our sea- sons of spiritual as well as material feasts. The books at hand were, of a character to be used as companions for the blessed Bible as its sacred and well marked pages were before our eyes to inspire and warm our hearts. No pains were spared to improve any possible oppor- tunity to ride out and call upon families where a " wel- come" added to the enjoyment of this delightful visit. On the Sabbath, that was included, we had the privi- lege of going to the house of God, as represented by the church where many of the ancestors of the present con- gregation had worshipped. FBESH JEXPEBIENCES. 77 With attractive scenery both going and coming, and an opportunity to visit the resting place of the bodies of a number of those whom we so well remembered, the well prepared and impressive sermon was "taken in" and I trust properly digested to our best of growth. A Plucky Incident. It would not do to hasten over the account of this de- lightful visit without making particular reference to an incident that it may well be doubted whether it can easily be matched. There was a neighborhood prayer meeting to be held at a farm-house between one and two miles from the place of our rustification. A proposition was made of attendance, and most gladly acceded to. When the time came for starting, as the evening shades drew on, the faithful horse was harnessed and we got ready, It would be dark as there was no moon and the clouds covered the stars. I was honored as being the bearer of the light. This was that the road might be kept suffi- ciently in sight to avoid disasters. We started on with my hostess as driver. The route was all strange to me. We went on at a moderate pace, and were perhaps half the way, when suddenly an impassible obstruction loomed before us. A bridge had been torn away for the pur- pose of reconstruction. What is to be done ? My sup- posed wise and prompt counsel was : ' ' Let us turn back ! " In a shorter time than it takes to write out this state- ment, my companion was on the ground, with lantern in hand, and confiding horse by the head. We were led through the dry ditch on one side, and around the de- bris, and through the ditch on the other side, and out in the road again. We were in good time at the prayer 78 ONCE AGAIN. meeting and had the privilege of devotions in company with a goodly number of others who had obeyed the ■summons and congregated for this profitable service. Upon our return the same course was pursued to over- come what was really a formidable hindrance, and we reached our starting place, not only none the worse for these experiences, but very thankful that we had been so highly privileged : and all the better prepared to re- tire in comfort with the cherished recollection of having been to another prayer meeting. This incident may be commended to the thoughtful study of many church members who do not go to their mid-week meetings as often as they might when there is really nothing to hinder, but everything to invite. Nowdon't let anybody spoil this story by saying: " O yes that was a rough country girl, used to all kinds of adventure !" It was not "a rough country girl" at all. It was an educated and refined lady capable of any so- ciety, who is not a farmer by choice, but is bravely filling out the providentially assigned place that has come to her when her dear father passed away, and her dear mother did not want to let this beautiful farm, that had been gotten in exceptional order fall into the hands of strangers who would not appreciate the labor and expense that had been put upon it to make it what it was. God knows all about these things, and, in the great day when He makes up his jewels, the wrong judgment of so many erring mortals will be set right, and the misfits of this world find their true places. All EartKki TJiings Must End. My delightful visit had to come to a close. On Mon- day morning, Sept. 12th, the noble horses that are re- garded with all the tenderness of children, were gotten FBESH EXPEBIENCES. 79 ready. With the same careful driver who met me at the railroad station a few days- before, we are off for a much longer ride to meet another train to speed on the way back to end the ''outing " that began on July 27th, as before related. This ride had been anticipated with great expecta- tions, as over a route taken many years since, when as a little boy in company with my next younger brother, 1 had been brought over it in a big covered farm wagon to visit the long since departed grand-parents of my present entertainer. The day was fine. The horses were all right. The carriage was very comfortable and the companionship all that could be desired. There was one factor, however, that we had nothing to do with creating, and we could not regulate. The breeze, that was considerable, was not adjusted to our exact liking. We were not presumptuous enough to attempt to alter it, and there seemed no sufficient ground to warrant even a prayer for its changing. It persisted in following us much of the way, and we were compelled to take on board more of the dust from the well supplied roads, than was to our comfort. We arrived at the city to which we were going with more of a cargo on board than when we set out from the farm ; and it was not of a sort that was marketable. Nevertheless we arrived in safety. With rather a re- luctant adieu, I had to end this delightful visit with the hope of renewing it at some future time. If not here, "where they never say good-bye." Returning. A rapid ride to the ferry and a crossing, and I was in the great city of New York once again. A sail, uf the river this time, was on my way homeward. The sail 80 ONCE A9AIN. however, on that particular afternoon, was rather tedious with wind and tide against us. Just as we were entering "the Highlands " a fierce storm of lightning, thunder, wind and rain was encountered that drove all the pas- sengers under cover and swept the outer decks of every- thing movable. This was soon over and might have been readily forgotten but for the sad fact that we learned from different sources, that what passed over us so quickly and with no noticable harm, inflicted serious trials and losses upon others. In one instance, in which we deeply sympathized, a well filled barn, with the hard earned and recently gathered harvest, was smitten by the lightning and con sumed. So our earthly treasures are not only subject to "thieves," "moth," "and rust;" but also to de- struction by the elements when they are permitted to break loose upon us. How important that we lay up treasure where no harm can reach it ! Poughkeepsie " Once Again.''' On Monday evening, Sept. 12th, 1904, we were back to the comforts of the most sacred room left us on the earth, with the inclination begotten within us to write out some of the experiences that had so rapidly chased each other during the three eventful years of the so re- cently past. Poughkeepsie is by no means a dull place. There is not only something going on there all the time, but it is a place of privileges of the best kind, to those who have the disposition to improve them. One of the things that attracted our attention, at once, was a Convention of "The Epworth League " be- ing held in the Washington St. Methodist Episcopal Church on Sept. 13th and lith. This gathering was FBHSB EXPEBIENCES. 81 largely attended by the ministers and members from " the Poughkeepsie district, " who were delegates to this body. The exercises were not only interesting, but very profitable ; and made it manifest that this organization was being used to promote the well being of the churches, and to bring into active co-operation with the pastors the young people, from whom the expectation for real success remains, and upon whom such success depends. Then, the fact that this year 1904 was found to be "the Centennial '■ of Methodism in Poughkeepsie gave additional interest to every movement connected with this denomination, and also awoke the spirit of Chris- tain fraternity and brotherly love in the hearts of all who were ready to rejoice in every evidence that Christ's Kingdom was being established in this city. One of the pleasant characteristics of this "Queen City on the Hud- son " is the disposition upon the different churches, to rejoice in each others prosperity and to join forces, when an opportunity presents itself, to show their regard one for the other. Among the methods adopted by the zealous pastor of the Trinity Methodist Episcopal Church to fill his place in this community, was a movement to celebrate this "Centennial" and to invite all possible participation in every movement that could legitimately be employed. He arranged for a series of Sunday evening sermons to the various civic and benevolent societies which abound somewhat largely here, and, as a very attractive opening of this, and other methods to follow, there was arranged A Banquet. On Wednesday evening, Sept. 28th, 1904, there was assembled as choice a company of men, numbering nearly 82 ONCS AGAIN. 200, as probably ever sat down together at such a feast, and for such a purpose. Of this number there was a full proportion of the stationed ministers of the Metho- dist Episcopal Church of the city and vicinity headed by the Presiding Elder of the district. There were also the prominent pastors of several of the other denominations. Also official laymen of many of these churches ; and civil officers, including the Mayor of the city. The editors were well represented and the best of humor prevailed among all. The occasion was by no means a mere jollification. The ceremonies were introduced by an "invocation," asking the blessing of Grod upon all and everything to be said or done. This was followed by a form of grace in song, coming down from the early days of John Wesley as follows : " Be present at our table, Lord ; Be here as everywhere adored ; These creatures bless and grant that we May feast in Paradise with Thee." The "Menu" was not extravagant, and evidently not intended to be. It consisted rather of substantials than in a great array of delicacies. Beginning with the usual "oysters on half -shell" it was of about the ordi- nary number of courses. All of them rather plain, than but of the line with which all good livers are familiar. The "fancy ice cream" put in an appearance as a pleasant top-off. The whole was kept free from any kind of drinks but pure cold water, with the slight ex- ception of a very modest cup of coffee at the end of the supper. The meal being over, the grace of "thanks" was heartily sung : FBE8H EXPEBIENCES. 83 " We thank Thee, Lord, for this our food ; But thank Thee more for Jesus' blood ; Let manna to our souls be given — The Bread of Life sent down from heav'n." Then came speeches, introduced by an original poem on " Poughlieepsie Methodism — Its Growth," by the honored pastor who was regarded by all as the master of ceremonies. A large number of addresses were given. First, by one of the strong laymen of the New York Conference, who had accepted an invitation to be present and favor the assembly with some very practical and freely crit- ical remarks upon Methodist polity and its workings. This gentleman was followed by a beloved minister of the same Conference whose address set forth the line of true loyalty to the church as the way to pro- mote the best, and especially the spiritual, interests of the Kingdom of God. About every phase of Methodism was ventilated, from the doings of the General Conference to the most simple and constantly occurring efforts of the most humble Christian to spread the glorious truths of rev- elation as understood and cherished by all true lovers of the Lord Jesus Christ. No part of the exercises were more enjoyable than the several short speeches of the pastors of other churches ; and of the gentlemen in civil office and of the press They represented the relation of all these religious movements to society and the welfare of the people generally. The most fraternal and kindly spirit pre- vailed. When all was over, it seemed to be heartily believed that the time and money had been well spent to bring 84 ONCE AGAIN. about such a banquet. That not only the cause of Methodism had been benefited, but that Christianity, in its best exhibition had been substantially set forward. Sixty- Second Wedding Anniversary. In passing towards a close of this chapter, we may be allowed to say that Oct. 6th, 1904, brought to us the 62nd Anniversary of the union so fully referred to else- where. This occasion was used for another trip to " the resting place. " In this we were joined by all the present members of our family and visitors, making a goodly company. We found all the surroundings being nicely kept ; and witnessed also the substantial stone that had been set up to keep in memory the departed son-in-law, whose illness and sad taking away have been minuted. Sev. George Hughes. An opportunity being in hand, we improve it to put on record a few things with reference to a dear man of God with whom we have had some intimate experiences ; and who was recently called to' exchange his suffering life here for the companionships found in the realms of glory. Rev. George Hughes was one of our most intimate friends and associates, in these later years of our life. He was our publisher and adviser when the book, entitled Grace Magnified was given to the public. We do not so much desire to make an obituary notice of this brother, as to note some things that will not be so likely to get into the church periodicals and confer- ence minutes. He was about two years the senior of this Author, and was one of the most decided and radical advocates FBESH EXPEBIENCES. 85 of Christian holiness. It is not necessary for us to write particularly of his birth and parentage. In the cour.se of his early life he was converted and afterwards became a minister. He was not in his earlier ministry noted for advanced pietv. In God's good providence, he attended some meetings held in England by those successful evangelists, Doctor and Mrs. Phoebe Palmer. There the Spirit of God took hold upon him and he was constrained to make a full surrender of all his powers of body, soul and spirit ; and of all his time and talents to be an uncompromis- ing, and wholly consecrated, disciple of Jesus. He entered upon the experience of full salvation and be- came one of its most zealous preachers. He was so strict and decided in his views and teaching that he might easily have been judged as rather extreme on these lines. He became particularly interested in the kind of liter- ature that is specially devoted to this advanced state of grace. He was identified with Doctor Walter and both the Mrs. Palmer in editing and publishing the "Guide to Holiness " and books of a kindred character. He was also, for a time, editor of the Christian Standard, pub- lished in Philadelphia, Pa. Of late he had been an associate editor of "The Con- secrated Life " which is indeed the regular successor of the Guide to Holiness. He has been an evangelist of the most pronounced type for many years. Even since passing the "four-score, " his zeal has been by no means diminished. He preached from time to time with all his former vigor. He was one of the original members of the " Ocean Grove As- sociation, " and also of the "National Holiness Associa- 86 ONCE AGAIN. tion ; " and no one of those noble men stood more staunchly for the faithful application of the principles and purposes avowed in the beginning of those move- ments. When this brother was engaged in the business of a publisher, it was our experience sometimes to be in his office when he arrived in the morning to enter upon the duties of the day. It was well understood by all the employees, that when he came in, everything was to be immediately put aside, and a gathering at once be had for prayer for the guidance and blessing of God. We may be ready to say : " Such a man ought not to be taken from the earth for there are so few like him. " But He who knows when the measure of our days on the earth have accomplished their design, decided to sign his release ; and on Saturday, Oct. 8th, 1904, he was not for God had taken him. Influence is the great factor of our lives ; and the character of that influence determines the value of those lives. When influence is what it ought to be, it will live on for all time, and do its work perhaps even more ef- fectually after we are gone. Let us all pray that we may " So number our days, as to apply our hearts unto wis- dom ! " Then we shall live to some good purpose ; and when our bodily powers fail, we shall be remembered kindly, and our failures and weaknesses be judged char- itably. The writer did not have the privilege of getting to the funeral services held in the M. E. Church of South Orange, New Jersey on Wednesday, Oct. 12th. Instead thereof we were permitted to be in " the Tuesday meet- ing" in New York City on the day preceding. With this wonderful meeting our departed brother was closely identified for about all the many years it has existed. FBESH EXPEBIENCES. 87 We had, on the occasion referred to, an impromptu me- morial service ; and many excellent things were spoken as indicative of Bro. Hnghes' great influence during his life. — '"'' His works follow him.'''' One principle purpose in making this minute of this departed brother is to have an opportunity to say that, he and some of his experiences are in confirmation of the evident fact that there needs be a future life to adjust the inequalities of this. Bro. Hughes, although so fully given up to God, had for many years, an almost continued series of bodily and family afflictions. His children did him honor in their acceptance of his Saviour, and became very active Christians in the ministry and in missionary work, at home and in foreign fields. But sickness and death came often, and the trials of life were very great. A UrtHjue Jllssioiiafi/ Jfeetmg. On Sunday, October 23rd, 1904, there was held a Missionary meeting in the city of Poughkeepsie that is deserving of more than a passing notice because of its unusual and deeply impressive features. This meeting was held under the direction of the Reformed Dutch Churches of the city, and represented some of the mis- sionary operations of that denomination. The Reformed Dutch Church was the church of my mother, in which I was brought up in childhood. Per- haps this had something to do with my inclination to go to the meeting here noticed. But I do not think I would have been less attracted to this Missionary meeting, had it been under the auspices of any other Christian denomination. The thing that led me to esteem it such a privilege to be in the audience on that Sunday afternoon, was the 88 ONCH AGAIN. announcement that some of the evident fruit of the mis- sion among the aborigines of our Country were to be on hand, and take part in the exercises. The sins of this nation against the former occupants of " our fair heritage " have been so terrible and I have so often heard the expression that : " The only kind of a good Indian is a dead one, " that I was eager to look upon and listen to one of these "red-men" who had really been brought under the influence of the Gospel and been regenerated by the power of the Holy Ghost. There was no argument of the truth of Christianity in the days of the Apostles, that could compare with what it did for the individual. . When the Scribes and Phari- sees and rulers desired to stop the mission of Peter and John, they could overcome other diflBculties more easily than to close the eyes of the people to the facts before them. We read in Acts iv : 14 : "And behold- ing the man which was healed standing with them, they could say nothing against it. " We do not propose to intimate that this was the first time we had the opportunity of looking upon the regen- erating fruits of the Holy Spirit upon formerly sinful and even heathen men. We have, thank God, wit- nes.fed these scenes many a time, and rejoiced with many who have become new creatures in Christ Jesus. What we are seeking now to do, is to emphasise this kind of testimony, and to incite the desire, and purpose, to bring forth more of it to help unbelievers to embrace this same gospel. Together with the pastors of the churches represented, there were upon the pulpit platform two Chiefs of the Comanche nation. These men had not yet given up their old garb and did not present an attractive outward appearance to a well dressed audience of a refined city. FBESH EXPEBIENCE8. 89 They still clung to their blankets and had their hair in the old Indian style. But they seemed very sedate, and deeply interested in the scene before them. Their names were "Periconic" and "Nahwatz." With some information from the lady secretary of the Women's Domestic Missionary Society of the Reformed Dutch Church, as to the introduction and progress of this work among the Indians, these "Chiefs" were in- troduced as speakers. It would have been even more interesting if they could have spoken in English ; but this they conld not do, and so an interpreter was neces- sary. Perhaps we can do no better now than to quote freely from the Poughkeepsie. Eagle of Monday, Oct. 24th, as follows : "Nahwatz was the first to speak. He said that he wished to tell about himself and how he came to adopt the Christian religion. For many years the Comanches did not know about the true God, but worshipped others, chief of whom was Mescal ; and Nahwatz himself did as his forefathers did. He went with the other Indians to the place of worship and soon learned to be a leader among them. "When the time came for him to send his adopted daughter to the mission school, he told her she must learn all she could, but to always remember how she had been taught to worship. Nahwatz told her that at school she would learn about the Holy Book of the white man, but if the missionary should talk to her about Jesus she was not to promise anything before consulting him. The girl made up her mind after talldng to one of the ladies of the mission that she was without hope unless she embraced Christianity and consequently was bap- tised. When she returned to her home Nahwatz asked her why she had not consulted him, and the girl said that 90 ONCE AGAIN. she knew he was not right in his belief. She said we were traveling different roads which always drew apart and that my road led to eternal punishment. She said as long as we were on earth everything was all right, but the time was coming when we must separate and that she loved me so much that she didn't want me to be lost forever. " Nahwatz was much disturbed in mind, but finally de- cided to give up the worship of Mescal and follow the true God. He was beset by many temptations, and had a hard fight but finally overcame them. He said that now he was doing his best to live a good life, and that he wanted to send his children to school that they might be better men and women. "Periconic then arose. In a few words he told how he, the son of a great chief, had also learned to be a great leader among his peeple in their religion. One day he saw Nahwatz, his son, and a missionary, and though at fii'st he did not care to hear them talk, he finally went to the missionary and said he was ready to turn away from his wicked life. About two years ago he was converted, and now many Indians are giving their hearts to God." A few such meetings will do more to answer the question, so often asked : " "What is the good of mis- sions ? " than all the arguments and statistics that can be produced. A Triumphant Death. Nothing comes more welcome to the Christian Min- ister than to be permitted, at least occasionally, to wit- ness a real triumphant departure, from this world of sorrow, of one who has been brought to Christ from a life of sin, and given evidence of the power of Divine Grace under unusual circumstances and trials. FBESR EXPERIENCES. 91 Of such a case we desire to record a few things to the glory of God, in connection with the variety of inci- dents that have gone to make up this chapter on "Fresh Experiences." About four years, or more, before the date of this writing, a woman who had already passed through more experience of pain and surgical treatment than often comes to mortals quite beyond her years, without yield- ing her heart to God so as to find rest in Him, was kindly taken to- the city of New York under the care of the members of the Salvation Army to be nursed in hopes of physical benefit. While being treated the Holy Spirit attended the /v- ligi(ms instruction she received, and she was delivered out of the snare of the devil and brought into the fold and family of the Good Shepherd. She returned to her home a saved woman and ex- pected to enter upon the duties of a wife, although strangers would have hardly regarded it as possible for her to accomplish what she so cheerfully intended. Almost immediately, disease in other forms, came up- on her, and in much suffering she seemed likely to go down to death, just as she had taken a look with great courage and expectation into the resumption of life. About this time the writer was informed of her case and began a system of visitation that continued with little intermission until her release on Monday, Oct. 31st, 1904. This woman possessed the greatest amount of bravery and willingness to suffer, if she might be useful espec- ially to her husband, of almost anyone known in a long experience. She got out into the fullness of salvation and was always most submissive to the will of God. She endured patiently a measure of physical pain that 92 ONOE AGAIN. it seems impossible to associate with months and years of lingering. Yet her days ran on as she lay much of the time, almost entirely helpless upon her bed, and yet giving direction to the minutest affairs of her limited domestic life. So the weary days multiplied into weeks and the weeks into months and the months into years. She was the most omnivorous reader I ever knew. She delighted in the Word and in good books and papers. She read and retained the matter so as to converse free- ly about it all. She became the distributer of a large amount of the best literature, and her contributions will be greatly missed by those whom she so delighted to serve with what she knew was good. Keligious conversation and exercises were greatly ap- preciated by her ; and when it would not seem that her feeble condition would admit of it, she had her Chris- tian friends assemble in her room and took part with them in the songs and testimonies indulged. Her intelligence was remarkable ; and her appre- hension of the teachings of the Bible fitted her for an instructor. So she glided along the narrow way that leads to life, always brighting up at the idea of getting near the heavenly home About the middle of October a greater degree of feebleness indicated the approach of the glad hour. She sent for the writer to help her rejoice, and to speak of some desires in connection with the close of our inti- mate Christian association for these recent years. As we conversed of the Loving Savior, she said He seemed to be putting His arms about her. The inspired ex- pressions of the Bible were repeated by her as her own. On Sunday, Oct. 30th, in company with some of her kindred and friends, we gathered at her bed-side and FBESE EXPEBIENCES. 93 read a considerable selection of scripture passages in- dicative of " victory over death. " These Interested her much and her expressions of approval were constant. Then we sang as well as we could : " My heavenly home is bright and fair ; Nor pain nor death can enter there ; Its glittering tovcers the sun outshine ; That heavenly mansion shall be mine." The chorus was : "I'm going home to die no more." As we sang the five full verses of the hymn, each fol- lowed with the chorus in all its members, our sister's countenance beamed with delight, and her eyes sparkled with the radiance of heavenly health. It did not seem like a chamber of death, and, I trust that genuine sincerity and real joy had possession of all our hearts as we bowed in prayer committing the departing spirit and ourselves to the Lover of our souls. The next day, soon after noon, as a babe closes its eyes to sleep on its mother's breast, this redeemed and sanc- tified one passed into the glorious realities she had so longed for ; and her sorrows were over. On Wednesday, Nov. 2nd, a large gathering of neigh- bors and friends assembled with the few relatives who could be there, in the rooms that had witnessed the suf- ferings and triumphs of this humble subject of a Saviour's love ; and, under the special direction of the Salvation Army officers, we indulged in song and prayer and address, not in the spirit of sadness, but rather of joyful triumph over death and the grave. Independent Parish. This seems a very appropriate place to insert some mention of a feature of my residence in the City of 94 ONGE AGAIN. Poughkeepsie that has been helpful to me and, I trust, has not failed of some good to others. It need scarcely be a matter of surprise that during my tabernacling for more than twenty years in this city, there has sprung up about me a kind of parish. I can not say, that I have sought this. It has rather came in the order of Divine providence. It could not have been otherwise without a resistance in which I would not have been justified. I have always endeavored not to infringe upon the prerogatives of any of the regular pastors with whom I have been so happily associated. I have rather desired to be an assistant, if I might, and thus help a little in doing just the work they all are set to engage in. To be employed in this way seems legitimate to any and every Christian man or woman who has a love for Christ's Kingdom. ^hf parishioners have come from different sources. Sometimes they have been in whole families who have became residents of Poughkeepsie after I have held the ofiice of pastor to them in other places and it was na- tural to renew my calling upon them. Sometimes indi- viduals of such families have particularly attracted my attention elsewhere, and it was a pleasure to meet them again. Sometimes I have been specially invited to call upon some sickmember of a household who perhaps was not being visited by any messenger of the great sal- vation. I would thus become acquainted and feel called to include such an one in my independent parish. Some- times a member of one of the evangelical churches, to whom I had formed an attachment in some of the be- nevolent' or reformatory societies in which we were mutually interested in the days of their activity, would get old and sick and shut in, and would welcome an oc- casional call for conversation and prayer. And of tener. FBESH EXPERIENCES. 95 perhaps, than from other causes, my parish would be re- cruited by an attendance upon the " Friday -meeting " that we held first at our house and afterward elsewhere, off and on, during a succession of years. Of this " Fri- day-meeting " I have written freely in the past. The way for its unbroken continuance has not always been open, and is not just now. For some weeks, within the late months, it was held on Friday evenings at the "Rescue Mission" in this city through the kind and urgent invitation of the Superintendent of that work ; and not without some good fruit. In this way I have found some profitable employment for myself ; and, in some cases, it has constituted a kind of pastoral over-sight that it did not come in the way of others to perform. It is not my intention to enter into an extended history of this delightful work for the possession of which I have been thankful. I am now writing of "Fresh Ex- periences" and I desire to confine myself to these. ^Yhat has led me to introduce this section at all is the impressive fact that this "independent parish" of mine has so nearly died out. When absent in the west during part of the months of Summer, Fall, and Winter of 1903, some of my sick parishioners passed away ; and one at least, whom I reckoned in the Kst, and who was well when I saw her last, was called, quite suddenly, to depart while abroad visiting friends in other lands. There were two in particular, from whom I expected all the time to learn that they had gone hence to the prepared mansion. I took pains to learn, by cor- respondence, from these frequently. Both of them continued in the body until my return, and one of the great privileges upon such return was to get in and see them as soon as I could. Of one of these I have written 96 ONVE AGAIN. in the 'section "A triumphant death. " The othej- was a dear " Mother in Israel " who lived on to the advanced age of nearly 92 years. She was during her active life, one of Ihe most diligent in ministering to the "shut ins." She had a long list of these, and took her way among tbem with frequent visits and tokens of her love. This work she prosecuted until her own physical con- dition put a stop to it and she became a " shut in " her- self. During her long confinement, she delighted in busying herself in some expressions of regard for those she could no more get to see. When her eyes had so failed that her vision was almost gone, her well trained fingers enabled her to knit useful articles to distribute among those t^he loved. Nothing afforded her greater pleasure than the expressions of appreciation and re- gard that came so often from these noticed friends. The word of God was her constant stay, and to quote the passages that were so strong in her support was her frequent practice in connection with our interviews. This "Mother in Israel" was a faithful member of the Washington Street Methodist Church, and dearly did she love the church of her choice. During our ac- quaintance her beloved pastors came and went as the changes of the itinerancy took a^ay one and brought another. Like us all she had her especial regard for some of thetsc, and for others of her visiting ministers ; but one after another of her " favorites " preceded her to the future life. Several years since her beloved hus- band was removed by death, and their only son at an earlier date. So this maturing saint was a lone widow for a long time. On Tuesday, Nov. 15th, 1904, her loving and adored Father decided to take her to Himself, and she fell asleep so quietly that her attendants could scarcely realize that FBE8H EXPERIENCES. 97 she was here no more. On the following Thursday, I was honored by an association with her faithful pastor, Rev. B. C. Warren, D.D., in the conduct of her simple funeral services, and went from them with a feeling that another chapter in my own life had closed. With the death of each of those who have become dear to me as traveling with me in the road that leads to life everlasting, I seem to be accumulating treasure in Heaven. My Independent Parish has not ended ; for just while writing this, I have had some new accessions. O that I may respond to every call, that the Master makes upon me, that I may not be confounded and confused when my account must be rendered ! A Bunch of Experiences. Now it seems that this chapter ought to be brought to a close, but the subject will last while our earthly days continue. We may all say with reference to " ex- periences '": They are new every morning and fresh every evening. What they shall be as the days and years roll rapidly by we know not. Sometimes the form of approaching changes seems to cast shadows across my path and, for the time, I am in gloom. But I appropri- ate the unfailing promises of God — especially these — " My grace is sufficient for thee " and "as thy days so shall thy strength be, " and I am sustained. The latter part of November, in the year 1904 was very fruitful in "experiences" with me. With some of these I propose to make a formal closing of this chap- ter and leave it there. W. F. M. S. Once Again. On the same afternoon that the funeral services of Mother Morgan occurred, a convention of " The Wom- 98 ONCE AGAIN. an's Foreign Missionary Society of the Poughkeepsie district" was held in the chapel of the Trinity Metho- dist Episcopal Church, and 1 had been invited to offer some words of welcome to the delegates. This was a pleasant duty because it enlisted my heart warm with great consideration for this important and useful organ- ization. The funeral services made me a little late, but I still had the opportunity to take my part. Some fit- ting points came to my mind to mention in my very brief address. First, I welcomed these delegates for the simple reason that we were glad to see and greet them. It is always a joy to meet with those who are working with us in the Master's Kingdom, and traveling with us in the same narrow way that leads to life everlasting Such meetings have always the features of Christian pilgrims coming together to rejoice and gladden each other. Secondly, I welcomed these sisters because of the special work in which they are engaged. I have an enthusiasm for the Woman's Foreign Missionary So- ciety because to me it seems as the strong right arm of the whole foreign missionary movement without which it would be comparatively weak. Although heathen women are degraded, and not honored as Christian wo- men are, yet they are the wives and mothers, and it is difficult to withstand their influence upon husbands and children while they remain in superstition and idolatry find oppose the gospel of Christ. It is to reach these that this society is organized and exists. Thirdly, I welcomed this convention on the day and evening of our "mid-week service" from a spirit of sanctified selfishness. I believed that the influence they brought us would be helpful to the spirit of re- vival tliat our zealous pastor was endeavoring to pro- FBESR EXPERIENCES. 99 mote by multiplied means of grace. An important factor in these "means" was the regular prayer meet- ing that came upon this evening. We expected great things from the address of Miss Jennie Hughes, the daughter of my dear brother in Christ who had so re- cently left for the heavenlies and who was herself wait- ing joyously to embark as a missionary to China. This is the outline of my few remarks, and I trust they meant much more than the words could convey. The Convention was I believe, in all respects, a success. Anniversaries and Reunions. A number of invitations came almost together about this time to attend and take part in special gatherings in different places where 1 had in earlier years been as- sociated in the great gospel field. I desire to record, with much thankfulness, that I was able to accept all these with one exception. The " ex- ception " was in the case of the locality nearest me. If I had the attribute of being present in two places at the same time I would have gone there also. I was pastor at Highland, directly opposite Pough- keepsie, only temporarily, about 21 years since. The program for the celebration of the 35th Anni- versary of the rebuilding and dedication of the church was a very elaborate one, lasting from the 23rd to the 27th of Nov., 1904. It would have been my delight to have met and min- gled with so many brethren in the ministry who were announced to take part in the exercises ; and to have met again any of the people who could have entered in- to the experiences of my brief pastorate ; and to have enjoyed the many good things provided ; but as 1 could not get there, I had to content myself with the expres- 100 ONCE AGAIN. sion of best wishes, and the satisfaction of reading ahout the doings afterwards. Washington Heights Once Again. One of the invitations I was able to accept came from my tried friend and brother at Washington Heights, New York City, and included a cordial expression of desire to have me in the home, once again, where I had been so often since the early days of the church enter- prise there. Although suffering with a considerable cold, I concluded to do what I could to protect myself and goto this "Jubilee." The occasion was the 37th Anniversary of the church organization and the com- memoration of the fuU payment of the mortgaee debt of $15,000 that had been an incubus upon the prosper- ity of the society since its beginning. In Grace Mag- nified I made the mistake of stating that the mortgage debt was $17,000. This error is here corrected. On Saturday afternoon, Nov. 19th, I took rapid train and by close connection with the trolley in 126th street, I was carried speedily to my destination and installed in my frequently occupied comfortable room. My stay in "Washington Heights was well and fully occupied with an almost continued series of meetings and commingling with friends. On Saturday evening I had the pleasure of looking in upon the preparations making at the church for the doing of the morrow, and of calling upon the popular pastor in the neat parsonage that did not exist in the days of my service. I was pas- tor of this church during a part of the Conference year 1868 and the whole of the Conference year 1870. So, as my experience went back 36 of the 37 years of the history, I was supposed to know something of the facts. 1 was undoubtedly regarded with some curiosity by the FRESH EXPEBIENCES. 101 large number of young people, from children up to middle nanhood and womanhood who had come into ex- istence since my pastorate. On Sabbath I had the privilege of attending class meeting before the public service. Bishop Edward G. Andrews was the preacher for the morning. He gave us a most excellent expository sermon upon the text found in I Timothy i : 5 : " Now the end of the Com- mandment is charity out of a pure heart, and of a good conscience and of faith unfeigned." The discourse was a very careful unfolding of the meaning of this wonder- ful scripture, accompanied b_y a most practical applica- tion of all the points made. The Blessed Spirit caused the truth to be appreciated, and I am sure we all felt like saying, as 1 made free to say : Thank God for the glorious Go.'pel, and for this profitable expository preach- ing! The afternoon was devoted to the Sabbath school of- ficert^, teachers and scholars. Effective addresses were made by the Rev. Doctors Ezra S. Tipple and F. M. Norih. The writer was very unexpectedly called upon for some remarks, and indulged in a few words by way of petting forth some of the impressions on his mind of the changes that 36 years had brought about. In the evening we had a sermon by Rev. R. J. Cooke D. D. It was a most faithful and impressive presenta- tion of the case of the young man who came with the important inquiry to Jesus : ' ' Good Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life ? " It was shown that in failing to respond to the instructions given, when in- formed of his one essential lack, this young man lost his chance and went out to be heard of no more, when he might have been a flaming herald of the cross and the instrument of the salvation of multitudes. 102 ONCi: AGAIN. The one thing lacking was brought to the consideration of the neglectful hearts. The congregation listened at- tentively and it is hoped that the sterling truth found its way to more than one heart and conscience to bring forth fruit at no distant day. (Just here I may add, by way of parenthesis, that I had the privilege of hearing this same minister, at the New York Preachers' meeting the next morning, read a paper which was a masterly advocacy of the supreme Divinity of our Lord Jesus Christ — The God Man. This paper was highly com- mended by the large body present. It was in opposition to the defective and harmful teaching of this day that so often fails to place the Saviour of men where he can hear and answer our prayers and deliver our souls from the burden and bondage of sin.) After the sermon on Sunday evening a "Historical Statement" was made by Bro. E. B. Treat, who has been closely identified with the church at Washington Heights from its inception. The remarkable fact came out that the interest paid upon the indebtness during the many years of its existence, had amounted to double the amount of the principal. So that it had taken $45,000 to get this burden out of the way. Due credit was given to the New York City church extension and missionary society for their timely and generous aid in lifting this crushing weight during the years of their friendship. After the statements of past history and struggles, the whole officiary were called to the platform, and Bro. Chas. A. Briggs, President of the board of Trustees, produced the paper representing the cancelled mortgage and proceeded to cremate it in a wire cage that had im- prisoned many such documents and witnessed their de- struction when many thousands of troublesome debts had been extinguished. FBESH EXPEBIENGE8. 103 While the flames of this bon-fire ascended, the choir and congregation lustly sang : ' ' Praise God from whom all blessings flow ! " So ended this noted Anniversary occasion. May it be just the beginning of a most gracious work of the Lord in this beautiful part of Manhattan Island that bounds, on the north, the Great City of New York, with all its serious obstacles to the success of evangel- ical Christianity. Amen ! Pine Plains Once Again. The next engagement I had made was to be at Pine Plains, Dutchess Co., N. Y., to attend "The One hun- dreth Anniversary of the first Methodist preaching in Pine Plains. Also the Sixty-seventh Anniversary of the dedication of the first Church, and Thirty -third Anniversary of the dedication of the present church edifice." Pine Plains is about 30 miles north east of Pough- keepsie. To reach there in time I had to return from New York on Monday after a ride from Washing- ton Heights down town in the rapidly becoming famous, but recently opened "subway." All this I was enabled to do. Some of my readers may remember what has been published in Grace Magnified as to my appointment in the Spring of 1854 and so I must not repeat what is there stated. In that day there were no rail-roads to Pine PI ains from any direction. Now there are three that have stations there. On one of these I took passage, and was met by the genial pastor and conducted to most comfortable and hospitable quarters in the center of the village and near the church. Some parts of this village have been built up since I was so familiar with 104 ONCE AGAIN. it, but the main street has changed but little. A walk through it seemed very like a half century since. I had but little time for calling, but improved what I had. In the evening a congregation assembled to listen to some reminiscences from former pastors. I was much the older of these pastors and was assigned the first place in the list of speakers, and occupied all the time it was proper I should in a narration of " the good old times." It would be out of place to fill these pages with anything like a full account of the statements I was led to make. O, how vividly before my mind came the scenes and persons of the 50 years since ! I could see myself with my family, consisting then of wife and two little girls and two little boys. We had been fortunate enough to bring with us our servant from New York, but did not keep her long. So we were brought over the hills from Mil- lerton, a comparatively new station on the "Harlem Kailroad." The scenery was fine and I was delighted to get out in the country again. When we were introduced into the little parsonage we found a goodly supply of eatables in the " Buttry " (as the pcmtryv/sis then called ) which the kind and thought- ful ladies had placed there as a capital on which we could enter upon house-keeping in this new place. This was an out-crop of a habit then indulged in by our par- ishioners. A habit that extended to and affected the farmers as well as the villagers. I was happy to learn, from the present pastor, that the descendents of these noble men and women had not forgotten to follow the example of their fathers and mothers. It was this prac- tice that used to make many country appointments of greater value, with their small salaries (where these gifts were not reckoned into the quarterage, ) than some FBESE EXPEBIENCE8. 105 of the city appointments with their larger salaries and heavier expenses. As I stood on the platform in the church on that eve- ning of the Anniversary, I could see Stewards, Trustees, Class Leaders and other officials with many others of their families and members of the congregation in 1854r- 56, who were not there, except as represented by a few who were children then. Now men and women in middle and later life. There were two present who might be called notable exceptions. One of these was the brother who I have always remembered as my kind and obliging companion, so often, when I rode from Pine Plains to Jackson's Corner and Ancram on the Sabbath afternoons to fill the appointments in those places, as the work was then constituted. The other was an active young man fifty years since, and was ever ready to show me attention. He has passed through many of life's ex- periences as the years have come and gone. He rode in some miles from his farm home on the evening of the re-union to be present on that interesting occasion. It was very refreshing to meet these dear brethren again. TJie Remembered Revival. Of all the scenes before my mind at this Anniversary time, nothing impressed me more deeply than a remem- brance of the great revival with which we were blessed in this community in the Fall and Winter of 1855. I could see the faces of many as they appeared then. Some of these were business men not accustomed to attend church. Under the awakening influence of the Holy Spirit they came into the congregation and listened to the mes- sage of salvation. Some of them yielded their hearts to God and became the openly avowed disciples of Jesus. I sincerely trust to have some of these for companions 106 onc:e again. through the ages of eternity. But alas ! how sad 1 was made to feel as I thought of others who refused to sub- mit, and rej ected the overtures of love and mercy. These went on in their lives of sin and the revival season passed. "Wheke Are These Now ? The Parsonage. After the exercises in the church we were all most generously invited into the new parsonage to continue the sociabilities and to be served with evidences of the pains and expense incurred to make this gathering memorable. The completion of this much needed build- ing was one of the causes for the present Anniversary. The new parsonage has grown out of the kindness, con- sideration and liberality of all the friends who have contributed to make Pine Plains a more to be desired place than ever. It was a pleasure to congregate with the attendants, and look over the appointments of this hence to be the commodious home of the pastors who are so fortunate as to be sent to this part of the vine- yard. The Old Parsonage. I may as well confess that the place of greatest at- traction to me in getting to this scene of former labors, was, The old parsonage. I was so glad to learn that it had not been destroyed. It has been moved back and turned in behind the church. It will make a good chapel, Sunday school room, Class rooms and place for assemblies that may not need the accommodations of the church audience room. It will be very useful thus. During the afternoon of Tuesday, I found the door unlocked and entered this old building with a feeling of reverence. It seemed that I was visiting a " Home- FRESH EXPERIENCES. 107 stead " after years of absence. I can scarcely describe the sensations as I roamed through almost every part of my old home. I looked into the "living room" and kitchen where my dear wife in her more youthful days worked so hard by way 'of caring faithfully for her family and entertaining the many visitors that used to be with us there. I passed up the broad stairway be- tween the side walls with no railing to hold to. I peer- ed into the small room where our whole family found the best sleeping facilities the house could aflford us. I entered the little room at the end of the hall from whence the spirit of our dear Sammy took its departure on Nov. 15th, 1855. Then there was pictured before me the night, when in the early hours of the approach- ing morning, I reached his bedside, having been sum- moned from New York because of his serious illness. I could almost hear again the words of the suffering child when he saw and recognized me. The long and lonely journey I took with the precious body to New York and to New Jersey to place it in the old family vault was all before me. Then I went down stairs again and passed into what was our best room and was called our "front parlor. " Here I saw the sweet little babe ( not so very " little " either ) who came to us on Feb. 21st, 1856, and who was so welcomed as taking the place of her brother who had so recently gone away. I can see just how she looked then. This daughter has remained among the living and has had her full share of life's trials as well as experiences. She has been a worker in the Lord's vineyard since her girlhood, and has gathered some jewels for the Redeemer's Crown. She is still seeking to know that she may do the Father's will. I trust she may always be led safely, and at last, give a joyful ac- 108 ONCE AGAIN. count of the use made of the full measure of talents intrusted to her. New Haven Once Again. Having accomplished my mission in Pine Plains, and being under engagement to spend "Thanksgiving" with my son, I took my departure for New Haven, Conn. Rail road facilities have so multiplied that I learned there was a way for me to travel without returning to Poughkeepsie and thence to New York as I had in- tended. On Wednesday afternoon, Nov. 23rd, I bid good bye to friends and neighborhood and rode over to the depot of the Central New England Rail Road (now under the control of the New York and New Haven corpor- ation) and got a through ticket. I went north and east and south by way of "Boston Corners," and through my former charge in Salisbury Conn., to Canaan in the same state. Changing at that point I embarked for Bridgeport, and then, by close connection, reached New Haven in better time than if I had left Pine Plains in the early morning and taken the route I had in mind before getting the information that guided me. My visit in New Haven was a very pleasant one. On the morning of "Thanksgiving" I had the pleasure and the privilege of listening to an interesting and orignal discourse in the Center. ( Congregational ) Church de- livered by Rev. Mr. Haynes the comparatively new and popular pastor of another church of the same denomi- nation on "the Green." The congregation was really large for the occasion. The sermon was based upon the text found in John's gospel, chapter 12 and verse 29. It may be remembered that our Lord had lifted FRESH EXPERIENCES. 109 up his voice and prayed : " Father, glorify thy name." And the answer had been returned : "I have both glorified it, and will glorify it again." Then came the words chosen for a text : "The people therefore that stood by, and heard it, said that it thundered ; others said, an angel spake to him. " This very expressive and remarkable statement was profitably used by the preach- er to show that. We interpret the voice and providences of God according to our own state of mind. This thought was made to apply to all the events of life. Also to our family relations and individual visi- tations. And to our civil and national affairs. It was a helpful sermon and ought to lead all who heard it to look carefully into all their surroundings and associations to discover their meaning and the les- sons they bring. It was shown that we may thus be- come optimistic in the best sense. On Sunday, Nov. 27th, 1 attended the same church with those I was visiting. This is the place of their regular worship and membership. That morning I heard a suggestive sermon from the pastor, Dr. New- man Smyth. He chose for his text the impulsive and eager words of Peter as found in John xiii : 37 , " Peter said unto him, Lord, why cannot 1 follow thee now ? " This question, in its connection shows that Jesus was talking with the disciples about his approaching depar- ture from them when Simon broke in upon the dis- course with the declaration of his own purpose to cleave to him under all circumstances. Dr. Smyth's preaching style is as in a soliloquy. Bible Study. After the sermon we repaired to the "Chapel" on