fyxmll Uttlrmitg pilrmg THE GIFT OF .C3.onr4t. ...'S.cryvl,day of the week, which was probably the 8th of the month, Francis Howgill and Anthony Pearson attended 1654.J EDWARD BURROUGH. 33 the meeting of the newly convinced people, which was held at the house of Robert Dring. Edward Burrough the same day was at a meeting of those called Separates, which name was given them, because they had withdrawn themselves from other religious societies. They do not seem to have settled upon any common ground of relig- ious belief; and allowed great liberty in their assemblies to strangers and others, both in preaching and exhortation. Anthony Pearson, above mentioned, had been ajustice of the peace in the north of England, and an opposer of Friends, but was convinced of their principles about 1653. In that year he wrote the following letter, which unfolds the exercises of his mind, and exhibits the thor- ough work which the religion he had embraced produces in the heart. He shortly afterwards came forth as a minister among Friends. " Deae Friend : — I have long professed to serve and worship the true God, and as I thought — above many sects — attained to a high pitch in religion ; but now, alas, I find my work will not abide the fire. " My notions were swelling vanities without power or life ; what it was to love enemies, to bless them that curse, to render good for evil, to use the world as using it not, to lay down life for the brethren, I never understood ; what purity and perfection meant, I never tasted ; all my religion was but the hearing of the ear, the believing and talking of a God and Christ in heaven or a place at a distance, I knew not where. " Oh ! how gracious was the Lord to me in carrying me to Judge Fell's, to see the wonders of his power and wis- dom — a family walking in the fear of the Lord, convers- 34 MEMOIR OF [1654. ing daily with Him, crucified to the world, and living only to God. I was so confounded, all my knowledge and wisdom became folly ; my mouth was stopped, my con- science convinced, and the secrets of my heart were made manifest, and the Lord was discovered to be near, whom I ignorantly worshipped. I could have talked of Christ in the saints the hope of glory, but it was a riddle to me. And truly, dear friend, I must tell thee I have lost all my religion, and am in such distress I have no hope nor foun- dation left. My justification and assurance have forsaken me, and I am even like a poor shattered vessel tossed to and fro, without a pilot or rudder ; as blind, dead, and helpless as thou canst imagine. I never felt corruption so strong, and temptation so prevailing as now ; I have a proud, hard, flinty heart, that cannot be sensible of my misery. When I deeply consider how much precious time I have wasted, and how unprofitably I have lived, my spirit feels a sudden fear ; but then I am still flying to my old refuge, and there my thoughts are diverted. What it means to wait upon God I cannot apprehend ; and the confusions in my own spirit, together with the continual temptations from without, are so great, I cannot under- stand or perceive the small still voice of the Lord. " What thou told me of George Fox, I found true ; when thou seest him or James Naylor — ^they both know my condition better than myself — move them — if neither of them be drawn this way — to help me with their coun- sel by letter ; they are full of pity and compassion ; and though I was their enemy, they are my friends ; and so is Francis Howgill, from whom I received a letter full of tenderness and wholesome advice. Oh ! how welcome would the faces of any of them be to me ; truly I think I could scorn the world, to have fellowship with them. But 1654.J EDWARD BURROUGH. 35 I find my heart is full of deceit, and I exceedingly fear to be beguiled — as I have been — and to be seduced into a form without power, into a profession before I possess the Truth; which will multiply my misery, and deprive me both of God and the world. Dear friend, there is a car- rier comes from Kendal within a mile of my house every fortnight, and he shall call at Peter Huggins' to bring any letter that shall be there left for me ; it will much refresh me to receive any lines from thee ; but be thou faithful. Thou mayest per