CORNELL UNIVERSITY LIBRARY BOUGHT WITH THE INCOME OF THE SAGE ENDOWMENT FUND GIVEN IN 1891 BY HENRY WILLIAMS SAGE Cornell University Library PS 3529.B845N5 New men for old. 3 1924 021 651 678 The original of tliis book is in tlie Cornell University Library. There are no known copyright restrictions in the United States on the use of the text. http://www.archive.org/details/cu31924021651678 NEW MEN FOR OLD NEW MEN FOR OLD BY HOWARD VINCENT O'BRIEN NEW YORK MITCHELL KENNERLEY IQ14 Copyright, 1914, by Howard Vincent O'Brien Copyright, 1914, by Mitchell Kennerley Printed in America THIS BOOK IS DEDICATED TO Mr WIFE THAT TRIUNE GRACE, fTHOSE FAITH, HOPE AND CHARITY MADE IT POSSIBLE And only the Master shall praise us, and only the Master shall blame; And no one shall work for money, and no one shall work for fame. But each for the joy of the working, and each, in his separate star, Shall draw the Thing as he sees it for the God of Things as They Are ! — Kipling CONTENTS Chapteb Page I — ^Penniless n II — ^An Old Picture Restored 32 III — ^Bondage 48 IV— I Give Up Cigarettes 66 V — Near-Bohemia 87 VI— Ten Strike 119 VII — "Working People" — and a Surprise 129 VIII— Fired 153 IX— The Egoist 165 X — More Poetry Than Poets Dream of 184 XI — Promotion — and a Sentimental SpHt 194 XII— The Oldest Trade in the World 218 XIII — Left in Command 237 XrV— The Dragon Lifts His Head 246 XV — Don Quixote 262 XVT — The Artistic Temperament 278 XVII— Two Corks— and a Clean Slate 296 XVIII— The Old Order Changeth 315 The Joy of the Working CHAPTER I PENNILESS YOUR name is . . . ?" "Haxlaa Chandos." • "Oh . , . just a moment, please." The giri took my card and disappeared into an ofSce marked "Private." I wondered what caused the curious inflection ia hervoiceatmyname. Presently she returned. "Mr.Dever- eaux will see you directly," she said, eyeing me with what I felt was unnatural curiosity. I thanked her and sat down. I could still feel her gaze fastened upon me. It annoyed me. Still, I suppose I must have looked rather exotic. Direct from Paris, as I was, I was attired, with my stick and gaiters and lemon-colored gloves, and my waxe^ moustache, more for the boulevards than for a Chicago lawyer's office. A sleepless night and all the circumstances of my trip conspired to make me very nervous, and presently I fell to wandering around the office, idly studying the prints and photographs that hung upon the walls. That explaiw II THE JOY OF THE WORKING how I happened to be near the private office, which was a little ajar, and to hear my name spoken by someone within. Wrongly — ^but very naturally — I dallied with the picture I was examining. "This is no time for joking," I heard the same voice say. "It's a . . . damned disagreeable business!" it finished almost explosively. "Well, then — " there was a suggestion of a chuckle in the reply — "as the senior partner . . . 'twould seem as if it were up to you." A short pause followed. Then I heard the first speaker again. "Confound it, Deakin . . . give me some help. How am I to go about it?" "It would be easier if I knew something about the lad," the other replied. "But I don't." "That's it ... I don't know much myself. Grad- uated from Yale several years ago — and then gorgeous idleness abroad. Too much rich man's son, y'know." I felt my ears redden guiltily and I wondered angrily if the office girl noticed them. "Never earned a cent in his life," thevoice continued. "I tell you, Deakin, I loathe this job." "It's not going to get any easier," said the other dryly. "The poor devil's waiting out there now." A mingling of shame and fear of detection made me move quickly on to a safer position. A few moments later the young lady held open the door to the private office for me to enter. 12 PENNILESS I found myself in a fairly large room, plainly but richly furnished. It was not a chamber in which frivolity could flourish. As I had surmised, there were two occupants. One, tall, thin and serious of mien, I assumed to be Dever- eaox. Tfie other, rotund, with something of a jocund twinkle in his eye, must therefore be Deakin. Devereaux held my card in his long fingers and twisted it nervously. For several seconds he stared at me without speaking. Deakin bit his lip in an embarrassed annoyance that was almost comic. "My name is Chandos," I said presently, to end the uncomfortable situation. My words seemed to recall Devereaux to himself, and he held out his hand. "I must ask your pardon, sir," he said, very gravely, "for the rudeness of our reception. Its explanation and its excuse must lie in the great curiosity we have felt to know you as well personally as we have er — indirectly, as it were. My name is Devereaux," he added, "and this is Mr. Deakin." I bowed without knowing just what reply to make. I was relieved when Deakin, after shaking my hand warmly, suggested that I sit down. I took the only available chair, facing Devereaux, who sat at his desk. As the desk was placed in the center of the room, my face was thrown full into the light, while his remained in shadow. It was, of course, quite a fortuitous arrangement, but it gave me an uncomfortable feeling of being analyzed. 13 THE JOY OF THE WORKING For a inoment or two Devereaux toyed with the inkwell ©n his desk, while Deakin looked out of the window, whistling softly to himself. Then the senior partner coughed. "You — er — ^received a cable from us . . ." "Concerning my father's death." I completed his sentence for him. Apparently he was not cognizant of the relations between me and my father, and he was endeavoring to treat the situation delicately. I was fateful for his kindness, of course, but a little impatient at his slowness. He coughed again, but somewhat less constrainedly. "You doubtless understand," he said, "that we were your father's attorneys — ^that we — er — are his executors?" I nodded my head, and he went on more easily. "I wish to assure you, Mr. Chandos, before going into any details of the sad matter that has brought you here, that should you — er — ever find yourself in any difficulties, you will find us both ready with every assistance in our power. We were friends of your father, first, you know, and lawyers afterward." The gravity with which he uttered these generalities was incomprehensible to me, and I wished that he would proceed at once to a lucid exposition of what I was to expect and what was expected of me. I was more than a little anxious to be on my way back to France, and there was an intimation of possible detention in the lawyer's 14 PENNILESS words that disturbed me. I nodded non-committally, however, and waited for him to proceed. There was another long pause. He cleared his throat, and tightened his necktie carefully. "The fact is, my boy — er — ^your father's estate was not quite as large as we — as you — ah — ^might have expected. And I— er— " "That is frequently the case, isn't it?" said I, in an effort to encourage his progress. "But just what was . . . the estate?" "Well — er — ^it was rather . , ." In my effort to fathom the senior partner's curious demeanor, I had almost forgotten Deakin, sitting silent in the half light. Suddenly like a pot boiling over, he stood up, and waving aside Devereaux's timorously detaining hand, addressed me impetuously. "Young man," he said almost excitedly. "If Dever- eaux can't teU you the truth ... I will!" Then he looked inquiringly at his partner, as if a little ashamed at the temerity of his outburst. "Shall I?" he seemed to ask, and when the older man nodded his head, he turned to me again. "You must forgive me if I speak brutally, but it seems to me that when one has a blow to give, he should give it outright." "I qtiite agree with you, Mr. Deakin," I said, though not in the least comprehending what he meant. IS THE JOY OF THE WORKING "Mr. Chandos, your father's estate is — ^absolutely nil. He left not one penny!" Looking back on it now it seems strange that I should not have anticipated something of the sort. But I did not. Money had always come to me with such regular certainty and plenitude that the thought of any other possibility had never even occurred to me. Deakin's words shocked me beyond expression. It was as if the bottom of my world had suddenly fallen away, leaving me suspended in a curious, emotionless fog of complete incomprehension. It was through no natural stoicism that the ruin of my fortunes was accomplished with an utter absence of histrionics, but because I did not know what ruin meant. My reply was commonplace almost to ludicrousness, and Deakin, who I felt detested "scenes," showed his gratitude plainly. Devereaux, with an in- stinct for the dramatic, seemed vaguely disappointed. "So — ^gentlemen — ^I am busted?" Those were my exact words. Thus do we meet our crises. We do our weeping and our ranting in anticipation or retrospect. Great mental shocks, like physical ones, are painless at the moment. For a minute or two we sat in silence. My gaze was fastened on the window, and I was wondering less about my immediate difficulties than about those of a blue- bottle who was endeavoring to dive through the decep- tively transparent glass to freedom. His futile efforts to i6 PENNILESS penetrate the walls of a prison that he could not tinder- stand was a prison, presented a ctuious analogy to the futile efforts of humanity to escape the shackles of Fate. But my meditations were ended by Deakin, who put his hand on my shoulder, speaking to me in a voice that was strangely tender. "My boy," he said softly, "you might as well know the facts entire. I don't think you're the kind of man to voluntarily delude yourself, and I don't want to create false hopes. Your father's death — er — occurred at a very- unfortunate time. He was spread out rather thin. Had he lived — er — all would have been well. But — well — without going into a maze of detail that would only con- fuse you, suffice it that — ^that — ever}rthing — absolutely everjrthing — ^went." "Then I am not merely legally penniless — ^but actu- aUy so?" Deakin smiled faintly at the distinction, but instantly resumed his gentle gravity. "Yes. That is so. You haven't one penny in the world — save what you may have saved." I laughed outright at the implication. But the lawyer went on without noticing the interruption. "Nor can I honestly hold forth any hope that you will ever secure anything as your father's heir." I smiled again. Both men must have thought that I quite failed to realize the gravity of the situation. And 17 THE JOY OF THE WORKING in a way they were right. I could not realize poverty any more than the average man can realize a theological hell. Some understanding of the fact seemed to run through Devereaux's mind; for he came over and stood beside his partner. "My offer of assistance was meant most sincerely," he said, a little huskily. "You must look upon us as your friends. We really want to help you, for your father's sake . . ." Deakin expressed the same thought more concretely. Abruptly he sat down and seized a pad of paper. "What you've got to find, Mr. Chandos — or what we've got to find for you, if you'll let us — is a substitute for your allowance. Now let's get down to cases." "You mean, I suppose, that I ought to get a job?" "Precisely. Now for what sort of work are you best fitted?" "None." "Well, what appeals to you?" "Nothing." Deakin looked at me narrowly. I suppose my words, for all their candor, struck him as extraordinarily churlish. "Oh, come now," he cried, "a young man with your edu- cation and health, talking like that . . . you'll pardon me — ^but it's preposterous!" "My dear sir," I said patiently, "my education has been i8 PENNILESS excellent — ^but I have been educated for spending money- s—not for earning it." "You have studied art, I believe?" asked Devereaux presently, charitably overlooking what he must have considered an extremely jejune cynicism. I nodded my head affirmatively, and Deakin's pencil began to move. "Good," he cried; "we'll boost you as thp dernier cri from gay Paree. We'll have you paint our portraits to begin with, eh, Devereaux? The thing to do, young man, is to get a studio, and arrange to execute your commissions. Why, we'll have . . ." "I'm sorry," I broke in ruefully, "but I'm not a painter — ^I'm only an amateur." Never before had the diflEerence between work and play been brought home more clearly tome. But Deakin was undismayed. "Well, then — ^how about doing critical work? I'm sure we could get you a place on one of the papers. You wouldn't make a fortune, of course, but it would be a start. How does that strike you?" "I have a better suggestion than that," interrupted Devereaux. "The director of the Art Institute is a very dear friend of mine, and I am sure that he could find a place for such a man as you." I murmured some sort of a reply, but I dared not voice the thoughts that sprang up in my mind. I had more 19 THE JOY OP THE WORKING than my share of pride, and where I should have been grateful, I was bitter. "How about the Institute . . . does that appeal to you?" Devereaux was amiably insistent. For reply I picked up my gloves and stick, and rose to my feet. "You are both very kind — exceedingly kind." I tried to make my voice express the sincere appreciation I felt. "But if you don't mind— I— er— don't think I'll make any decisions immediately. I have to adjust my- self to the new order of things. You understand, don't you?" Devereaiuc's tone was a trifle dubious, but he was a gentleman to the point of hypocrisy, and he hastened to agree with me. "Yes, of course — ^but — er . . ." "But beggars shouldn't be choosers, eh?" I finished for him rather churlishly. "You're quite right, of course. But I don't think you in the least understand my position. To you I face merely the necessity of earning a living. I can't tell you how much more than a living I have to get. I have to acquire an entire new philosophy of life. I came into this ofiSce with the expectation of securing a fortune and going back to idleness. I leave it with all my past wiped out — I've been stood on my head — I've got to begin all over again. Why, Mr. Devereaux, I'm going through childbirth again. I'm thirty-two years old — and my eyes aren't quite open yet." There were a few more words, in which I learned the 20 PENNILESS drcumstances of my father's sudden death, and his pathet- ically lonely burial from the Chicago Club. Then I bowed my thanks, and turned to leave. But as I put my hand on the door-knob, Devereaux caught my arm. "Here," he said quickly; "this may be of use to you — please take it." I recoiled, and I suppose my face must have hardened slightly; for Deakin blvirted out explosively, "Young man, so far you've displayed rather tmusual com- mon sense. Don't destroy the illusion. That isn't charity — ^it's a grub-stake. Don't be an ass!" Devereaux's almost feminine kindliness was very appealing, but Deakin's bltmt masculinity pleased me even more. It made me feel less like a dependent. With- out further hesitation I held out my hand for the money. "For men of financial acumen, it strikes me you are taking an extraordinary risk," I said smilingly. "That isn't the risk I'm taking," said Deakin with an answering smile. "I'm gambling on my judgment. If I lose I'll sustain — ^well . . . you simply aren't going to let me lose, are you?" Devereaux, kind but conventional, seized my hands and murmured a fervent "God bless you," and Deakin followed me with an equally characteristic "Go to it, young chap!" Then the door closed on me, and I faced the world. On the street I stood to one side of the hurrying morning crowds and pondered my next move. How different I 21 THE JOY OP THE WORKING was from all the restless millions that surged about me — all, seemingly, with a purpose and a destination. But I could not go on thus musing on a street comer. The questionings of my mind were silenced by the vague but imperious damorings of my stomach. Thus does phi- losophy resolve itself into physiology. I turned my steps northward, along Michigan Avenue, toward the University Club. My contempt, my almost nauseous aversion for this sprawling city of the plains was in no sense mere pose, and consequently I made no effort to deny to myself that I felt a very real thrill as I strode along what has been called "the finest mile in the world." However unwill- ingly, I had to admit at least a basis of reason in the boast. The broad highways, polished by the hurrying motor cars, flanked on one side by the closely massed splendor of the monolithic office buildings, and balanced on the other by the cold gray expanse of the Lake, offered a com- position that found me candidly, if a little reluctantly, appreciative. I recalled the remark of someone that "the genius of the mediaeval cathedral builders finds its modem expression in the sky-scrapers of America." The words of Arnold Beimett came to me, too — "There's a certain sort of poetry in men who can make a city like this. They have a vision of their own. Such achieve- ments are impossible without the vision." So strongly did this unexpected feeling of admiration 22 PENNILESS possess me that I forgot the behests of hunger and crossed over to that bare strip of turf between the Avenue and the raihroad tracks, known euphemistically as Grant Park. There I stood in more or less bewildered contemplation of the city's magnificent sky-line. Then, as I grew more conscious of the dreary desolation of the "park," I fell, disdainfully, to contrasting its ugliness with the municipal gardens of Europe. My momentary glimpse of beauty seemed to vanish, like lightning in a fog, and in its place I could see nothing but smoke, smell nothing but sul- phurous fumes, taste nothing but soot, hear nothing but bells and whistles and an indivisible crash of noises that could not be named. With an involuntary shudder I turned to cross the street again. The door-man stopped me at the club, which was not strange, for although I had been a member since leaving college, I had never before been in the building. I stopped in the foyer, frankly amazed. Oblivious to the curious glances of the passers-by, I stood lost in admira- tion. Delightedly I took in the treatment of mass, the use of light, all the large effects. < Then, with the eye of a craftsman, I walked curiously about, studying detail. Sympathetically I noted the harmonious delicacies of decoration, the profusion of rich, substantial wood carving, the old world and old-fashioned massivity of construction everywhere displayed. I had heard, vaguely, in the ateliers, that this edifice 23 THE JOY OF THE WORKING was something of a labor of love, that architects and de- signers had conspired to make it a monument to their genius, and that no cathedral builder of the twelfth cen- tury had ever labored more zealously, more unselfishly — or more adequately — ^than these imsung poets of a sordid age had labored for their art. I had discounted these tales as springing from the untutored egotism of a Philis- tine community. But as I went upstairs and stood drink- ing in the vast, spacious dignity of the Reading Room, enjoying it as any man might, but at the same time ap- preciating it as only an artist could, I was baffled, bewil- dered at the gigantic paradoxicality of it all. Such ugli- ness without . . . such beauty within. On one side of the Avenue a "park" that the meanest village in the old world would not tolerate, and on the other, edifices that would have done honor to the hand of a Phidias. "It's rather a remarkable room, isn't it ... for a crude young town like this?" I heard a voice beside me say — ^that of a complete stranger. But I timied, my natural reserve quite melted away in the camaraderie of the artist. "It is superb!" I cried with real enthusiasm. "But will you please explain — I am a stranger here, you know — ^how a city that can produce a building like this will endtu-e such a waste as that so-called 'park' across the way?" The stranger looked at me in astonishment for a moment, 24 PENNILESS an astonishment that seemed curiously tinged with a personal resentment. Then he smiled suddenly "Oh — ^that's not a park, exactly. It's a ball field. The young fellows from the stores and offices get out there and play ball in the noon hour and on holidays. I suppose it might be more beautiful with flowers and grass and nice gravel walks, with a fence arotmd it . . . but then — ^it wouldn't be what it is now!" What an explanation! Slight, inconclusive in itself, but pregnant with so much significance. A play-ground for the children of a larger growth. And yet this was a city of more than two million people ... in many waj^ America's truest metropolis — ^but in essence still a village. I was to learn and forget many other lessons, but never that of Grant ' 'Park." It was to stay with me always, removing incomprehensibilities, explaining incon- sistencies, a guiding light through the gloom of bewilder- ment that was to fill much of my life thereafter. As I sat smoking, after lunch, an imcomfortable sense of loneliness assailed me. Of the stream of faces that passed before me, none was familiar, and in no eye did I catch a gleam of recognition for myself. That was in no way strange, of course, but it made me feel painfully alien. I had been bom in Chicago, but I had lived there very little, and now, when I was called upon to pay the inevi- table price of cosmopolitanism, it hurt. There were very few in this great city, I reflected, who 25 THE JOY OF THE WORKING knew me as anything but the vaguest of recollections. My father had been a well-knovra figure in the business world, but he and I had not even had our friends in com- mon. Even his intimates were probably acquainted with little more than the fact of my existence. As I mused on my isolation, I fell to conning over those I had known at all intimately in my boyhood. They were all women, and with one exception, every vestige save their names had vanished from my memory. I had been very fond of the exception. I smiled as I recalled how my adolescent fency had pictured her, and what dreams I had had of the future. Nothing, I sup- pose, can be more sweetly painful than this dallying with the gentle, lovable ghosts of our youth: all regret at their death is tempered with gladness that they were spared the reality of life. Dorothy Gresham had been a slight little thing, and it amused me to picture the dianges that time mtist have efiEected in her. I saw her, in my mind's eye, rotund and contented, with another name, and a family. And when we tried to resume the old friendship, we would find that advancing years had led us on diverg- ing paths. Presently it would become merely a cordial bow, an occasional meeting at someone's dinner table and . . . heigho— the way o' the world! As the great room began to empty, with the toilers returning to their work, my loneliness grew more acute. I alone had no place to go. For a little while I dallied 26 PENNILESS with the magazines, but that soon palled. I fancied that I caught the club servants, unused to a leisure class, eyeing me with incomprehension if not with disfavor, and I waxed uncomfortable under their ftirtive scrutiny. The more I ruminated the more uncomfortable my situation became, and it was not long before I found my- self again on the Avenue, headed north. For a time the influence of the Club was upon me, but as I passed the Public Library, leaving almost at a step the magnificence of Michigan Avenue, and plunged into the unadulterated ugliness of cobble-stone paved, ware- house bordered Rush Street, the wings of my soul crum- pled, and my spirit sank deep into a Slough of Despond. Here and there Chicago presented manifestations of beauty. But they were but incidents, mere adornment to the real edifice, springing not from within, but brought by expatriated outlanders from elsewhere. This, I told myself, was the real city — a thing of blood and iron and smoke and dollars, devoted utterly to the getting of bread and the eating thereof. The spirit of the city was the spirit of the day-laborer — to be bom, unasked — ^to labor necessitously — ^to toil with his body, a mindless slave to Mammon, until he is a slave no longer to Mammon — but a slave to his toil. Hoarding his gold for those who come after — and then, to die. Working always in the gloom, because he will not lift his eyes to the light — and 27 THE JOY OF THE WORKING finally, because he cannot. It was a city all body and no souL Bitter and contemptuous were my thoughts as I stood on the bridge, gazing disdainfully up and down the River, flowing turbidly between banks of ineffable ugliness. My contempt was that of the artist, mingled with the bitter- ness of the slave at the master that has bought him. So this was to be my home! I thought of the Seine, the Thames, the Rhine, the Nevsky, the Po . . . I closed my eyes and saw the Pont Neuf , the Henri Quatre, the Concorde . . . and then I opened them to the dilapi- dated reality beneath me. With a shudder that was very real I hurried on. Ten minutes later I stood at the entrance to the Lake Shore Drive, that unsurpassed highway which b^ins at Chicago Avenue, and extends far out to the north, imtil it merges itself in Sheridan Road, and then proceeds, through tmle after mile of macadam, almost to Milwaukee — ^ninety miles away. I gasped as I stood at the old Water Tower, the city's only "ruin," which, as the guide books say, has stood for the fabulous period of forty years. As far as my eye could reach, stretched a perfect pavement, lined on one side by magnificent residences; and on the other by dose-cropped sward, a stone quay — and the Lake. Trees and shrubs were in profuse evidence, too. No Parisian boulevard, I reflected, amazed, was ever cleaner than this. 28 PENNILESS Perplexedly I strolled over to a bench near the water's edge, in an effort to bring my bewilderment to some con- clusion. I seemed curiously unable to make up my mind about things. Just as I would attain an attitude that bore the marks of permanence — ^lo, a new vista would burst upon my eyes, and I would have it all to do over again. The words of a distinguished Frenchman came to me with renewed meaning. "I cannot," he had said, when asked by an interviewer to give his impressions of Chicago, "do what you ask. I could not give my impres- sions until I had lived here at least ten years, and I could not interpret them if I hved here for a hundred. Your city is too contradictory. I think one would have to work here — ^for a lifetime — ^to understand your city at all." The great city found me baffled, too. Subconsciously the figure of the day-laborer returned to me, and as my delighted gaze wandered up the Drive, I thought of a toiler whose blind effort has brought him sudden, tmlooked- for prosperity. I had a picture of an untutored man, plebeian by ancestry — almost from conviction — wearing a tattered cap, his face unshaven, dirty overalls covering his body . . . but with a flawless ruby in his soiled shirt, exquisite diamonds on his gnarled fingers, and golden slippers on his clumsy feet. Leisurely I proceeded up the Drive, scanning the few houses I remembered, and studying the many that were new. Every step broi^ht fresh astonishments, and I found it hard to believe that 29 THE JOY OF THE WORKING so few years cotild have effected such a tremendous metamorphosis. On the vacant lots where I had played as a little boy, stood magnificent mansions, already old. And it gave me a sharp pang to see a towering apartment building on the spot where the house in which I was bom had been. Even the old sea-wall, whose scaling had rep- resented the acme of childhood daring, had given place to a broad levee and promenade. Everjrthing was differ- ent, and these inarticulate changes affected me just as unpleasantly as had the strange faces at the Club. It was about half past four when I stood before the gray stone house on the comer, that I had once known so well. Who inhabited it now? Could it be possible that it alone, of all its surroundings, had undergone no changes of occupancy? Or even more remarkable, was it con- ceivable that those who dwelt within were still the same? It was some time before I coidd muster sufficient cotirage to mount the steps and ring the bell. When the servant appeared, my resolution almost failed me. I realized how much this tie with the old life meant to me, and I feared to learn that it no longer existed. It was in a voice that trembled a little that I inquired if "this was Mr. Francis Gresham's residence." My heart leaped at her affirmative nod. Hope was resurrected, and I put my second question eagerly: "Is . . . Miss Gresham . . . does . . . er — Miss Gresham live here?" 30 PENNILESS , "Yes, sir." "Is she — er — at home?" "Yes, sir— I think so." My heart sang as I handed her my card. I was not entirely cut off from the past after all. I followed the servant into the house with the first real sensation of any- thing like elation that I had experienced since arriving in Chicago. 31 CHAPTER II AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED AS I stood waiting in the reception room my thoughts were strangely mingled. On the one hand there was relief that I was not a total stranger after all. On the other, I felt something akin to regret that I had thus voluntarily courted disappointment, I conjured up a picture of the patrician loveliness that had been Dorothy Gresham as a young girl — the girl who had been my adolescent ideal. I comprehended for the first time what a painful shock reality might give me. Uncomfortably distraught, I wandered around the room, waking old memories with the things I saw. Most of the furnishings, of course, were new, but there was enough to turn back the hands of time and cause a queer tightening in my throat. Presently I stood before a portrait that held me fascinated. A pair of cold, steel-blue eyes stared down at me from the canvas, and seemed to appraise me. Francis Gresham had been only a faint shadow in my life, but always an ominous one. I had always felt uncomfortable under the taciturn scrutiny of Dorothy's father, and I squirmed a little even before his portrait. But -there was something in the old man's face that made one look again. The 32 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED painter had caught the expression of the mouth splendidly. Above a firm, almost protruding jaw it lay, forbidding in its strength. At first it seemed entirely cruel and relentless, but as I studied it, the lips seemed to move sUghtly and almost smUe. It was a queer conceit, but it made me feel much better. The picture had welcomed me to its abode. It was as if the grim spirit of the toiling city was trying to let me penetrate its rough exterior. In many ways Gresham typified the city. He had come to it as a penniless boy, and in the sweat of his brow had helped to hew it from a frontier post to one of the metropolises of the world. He had been a hard man, as I remembered him, but his were hard times, and for all his crimes, one could not deny him respect for the things he had triumphed over. My musings were suddenly interrrupted by the swish of silk, and I turned sharply, my heart pounding against my ribs. A girl — an amazingly young girl — stood in the doorway. "Harlan," she said simply. "Dorothy!" My voice was a little husky. For a long time we stood staring at each other, apprais- ing, resurrecting old hopes, downing new suspicions. She was the first to regain her composure, and her voice was even. "I'm glad — so glad — ^to see you again, Harlan. It's been a long time. You have changed — a little." 33 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I heaved a great sigh of relief, and there was nothing forced about the smile that covered my face. I seized her hand and held it until she drew it away. "Oh — Dorothy — Dorothy — ^but it's good to see you! You haven't an idea . . . what I feared. But you haven't — ^not one little bit. And you've got the same sweet smile. And the same little stray eyebrow." I laughed happily. "Oh — ^it's certainly good!" The last particle of restraint between us seemed to vanish, and she laughed with me. "You haven't changed so much either," she cried. "The same observing boy you always were." "I've spent some time observing you, my lady," I said smiUngly. "Haven't I?" Her soft, throaty chuckle was the sweetest music I had heard in a long time . . . and I said so. "I'm afraid you've become a flatterer!" she cried. I thought her little trick of lifting her delicate eyebrows was adorable. And I told her that, too. "But, come," she said, after we had studied each other a little longer. "Let's not stand here forever. Shall we go into the Hbrary and have some tea by the fire?" I followed her, taking in every detail of her exquisite figure with admiring eyes. It was wonderful. Out- wardly at least, she had not changed at all. The reaction from my dismal fears was so great that I could have shouted for joy. 34 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED When we were seated in the great leather chairs before the smouldering logs in the fireplace I remembered so well, she crossed her hands and leaned back, so that her face was tantalizingly half in shadow. "And now . . . tell me all about yourself." "You answer a question first." "Well—?" "You're not — er — married — or going to be?" She laughed merrily. "Goodness, no. What a ques- tion." "Don't say 'Goodness, no'," I objected. "It's not such a remote possibility, you know." Her face was partially obscured, but not enough to entirely conceal the slight hardening of her face at my question. There was an uncomfortable pause. "Well," she said finally, "with that interesting topic disposed of — please go on and tell me about yourself." "There's not a great deal to tell. You know, I suppose, about my father's death?" "Yes . , . I'm so sorry." Her tone was sym- pathetic, but I laughed shortly. "You don't need to be . . . that is, not if you're sorry for me, I mean." "Why Harlan . . . . " "Sounds a bit shocking, doesn't it? Well, why dodge facts? , My father wds a prominent factor in my origin, and he kept me alive ever since. For which, if you'll 35 THE JOY OF THE WORKING let me speak frankly, I'm about as grateful as I am for the air I breathe. It all came from a source I knew noth- ing whatever about." "I think I understand," she said thoughtfully, even a little sadly, it seemed to me. "Do you?" I was grateful that she should seem to sympathize so completely. "So few people would, you know." "So few people have ever had anjrthing that would make them understand . . . fortunate, aren't they?" "Yes, and so few people are honest, even with them- selves. Many of them fed just as I do, but they won't admit it. For one thing, they don't like to shock their friends. I'm better off. I haven't any friends to shock. I can say what I think." "You're an iconoclast," she mttrmured. But I plunged on, rejoicing in the opportunity to talk to an understand- ing listener. "My father was much more interested in his life than he was in mine. He never was much concerned with my childish interests, and he never made any effort to seem interested. As I grew older my concerns grew more remote, and in time we had absolutely nothing in common, save our name. He was httle more to me than the source of my income, and to be quite candid, his death affects me only like the failure of a bank. That's a brutal thing to say, isn't it?" 36 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED "More pitiful than brutal, I think," she said gently. "I know how you feel . . . I've been there myself. But — " her tone changed imperceptibly — "If you felt as you did, why did you come back to America — Chicago?" For a moment I was silent. Then I laughed ironically. "I came back because — ^because — ^this is to be my home henceforth." "Harlan — ^is it so?" She leaned forward, and I fancied that I caught a faint gleam in her eyes. "You are not going away from us any more — ^you are going to live here — ^in Chicago?" "I am going to live — ^here — ^in Chicago." "Oh — ^I am so glad. But why, Harlan — ^why — ^what makes you forsake your beloved Paris?" Ilit a cigarette and flicked the match carefully into the fireplace before I dared reply. "It was — er — a provision of my father's will," I said rather hesitantly. "That you should Hve in Chicago?" "Not exactly — ^but that I should not return to Europe." "Why— how odd." "Yes — ^wasn't it?" I laughed rather bitterly, I suppose; for she scrutinized me careftilly, without speaking. Then, rather coldly — "Harlan — ^you aren't telling me the whole truth, are you?" What are you trying to conceal?" I looked at her, frankly astonished. Her face was in 37 THE JOY OF THE WORKING shadow, but her voice plainly bespoke her displeasure. Then I laughed — ^not very pleasantly. "You're quite right, of course, Dorothy. I did equivo- cate. You shouldn't be forced to entertain a beggar unawares. I spoke a moment ago of regarding my father in the light of a bank. Well, when the bank dosed up — ^we found it empty. I came to Chicago at the summons of my solicitors, expecting, if the truth be told, to secure my inheritance, and hasten back again. That is why I came here. I shall stay for the very excellent reason that I haven't the price of a ticket back. I did not pick Chi- cago as a home — ^it picked me. I look upon myself as a much-to-be-pitied football of Fate." "Oh!" Astonishment, relief, disappointment, pity — I read a thousand and one emotions into her little exclama- tion . . . which was probably as purely reflex as a sneeze. "Now I face the immediate necessity of securing my daily bread — ^without in the least knowing how to go about the task. If you persist in demanding further sordid revelation, I shall confess that the only money I have in the world right now — is borrowed." "You poor boy." "That description must go unchallenged. Admitting its truth, the next thing to do is to find some means of appeasing the unreasonable demands of the stomach. The soul may subsist on memories and anticipations, but 38 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED the flesh has no imagination. Dorothy — I crave your assistance." "But haven't you any money?" she asked with an incredvility that made me laugh in spite of myself. "Dorothy," I said with mock seriousness. "I am not 'temporarily embarrassed.' Nor am I merely 'hard up,' as plutocrats delight to describe themselves when the market falls off a quarter of a point. Believe me, it is not a faqon de parler when I say that my financial ther- mometer is at mathematical zero. It is absolutely so. In my pocket now I have a few dollars that old Devereaux gave me. They should keep me for a few days. Then — it's either beg more — or earn something — or steal. I should, of course, prefer to earn it. But how?" Dorothy pursed her lips meditatively. Several times she essayed to speak, but thought better of it. Finally she asked — "What can you do?" I laughed. "The same query that my lawyers put. And to it I must make the same embarrassing reply — nothing." "But you were always a clever boy. And I can't believe that you have changed so completely as to be stupid. You haven't spent all your time playing, have you?" "On the contrary. Advancing years have only found me more studious. But of what value — or rather, of what pecuniary value — ^is a student of philosophy in a great 39 THE JOY OF THE WORKING commercial city like this? Is an intimate acquaintance with the muses going to bring gold — or even fame — in this grossly utilitarian atmosphere? Hardly." "But we do appreciate painters here, my dear boy." I sensed a tinge of resentment in her voice. "Doubtless — ^but I can't paint." "Then wherein would you be better off, financially, in Paris than you are right here?" "Ah," I cried, "that is where you put your finger on the very crux of my misery. I am an unhappy wretch, not because I have something that would be tmappreciated here, but because I have nothing that would be appreciated anywhere. I am not complaining at my present, but at my past. You see, I was brought up to use money, not to make it. As a dilettante I flatter myself that I am second to none. I can love the arts but ■produce? . . ." My gesture was eloquent in its negation. "But you can paint — a little, can't you?" I laughed tolerantly. "One 'can', my dear girl, do any- thing — ^but the word has different meanings. Like most girls of your class, you play the piano. You 'can' play. But you couldn't get on a platform and have people buy tickets to hear you play. I 'can' paint — ^in an excellently amateurish way. But I cannot conceive of anyone part- ing with real money for the results of my handiwork. See the difference?" 40 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED She nodded, and was silent for a moment. But when she spoke again, her voice was dogged, "But you can paint — ^if only a little. And you can't do anything else. That's trae, isn't it?" "Painfully so." "Well, half a talent is better than no talent at all. I should think you would go ahead on the road you have at least begun to tread." "And starve, I suppose? Thank you, dear lady, I prefer a more physically comfortable journey to the pot o' gold. Can't you give me a better suggestion than that? Tell me something about business . . . I'm blissfully ignorant in that direction. Your father's' daughter ought to know something about that." "Very possibly." Her voice was cold, and for a moment she sat staring into the embers. Then, suddenly, she straightened up. "I have an idea!" she cried almost enthusiastically. "I am all attention," said I, but my irony was quite lost on her. "I expect him here any minute." "How interesting — ^but who might 'he' be?" "BiUy narrower." "Identification incomplete — ^go on." "Well, he's not much older than you, but he's already a very successful business man, and ..." "I see. He is to wave his magic wand over me, and 41 THE JOY OF THE WORKING presto! I too will at once become a successful business man. I am overjoyed." "Please don't be flippant. It strikes me that you need a lift—" "Granted — O most wise!" "And if anybody can give it, Billy can." "Then I shall most certainly pay close attention to Billy's lightest word." There was a pause. "I opine," said Dorothy slowly, ' 'that the time is not far distant when you are going to lose some of this debonair flipness." "I have no doubt of it," said I, most humbly. There was another pause. "Oh — I beg your pardon, Dorothy — I didn't ..." I wheeled sharply at the crisp voice. A young man stood somewhat confusedly in the doorway. He was about my own age, but darker, smooth shaven, quicker of movement, and with an indefinable air of aggressiveness about him. I experienced a slight sense of repulsion, due rather to what I felt instinctively were essential differ- ences between us, than to any lack of attractiveness on his part. On the contrary, I had to confess that the in- truder presented a decidedly pleasing exterior. My cool inspection was ended by Dorothy's voice. "Hello, Billy — ^no harm done. This is Mr. Chandos — a very old friend. Harlan — I don't think you know Mr. Harrower." 42 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED The other man took my hand with a firm grasp, and showed his teeth in a smile that I found undeniably charming. My momentary dislike vanished, and I told myself that I had met a man whom I wotlld like, albeit we might find ourselves in frequent opposition. "Then you're not a Chicagoan, Mr. Chandos?" nar- rower asked pleasantly. "Oh, yes — ^but — consule Planco," I replied, a httle wickedly. I felt amdous to test the other man before he could test me. It was a petty way of exhibiting superior- ity, of course, but I could not refrain from employing it. narrower smiled even more pleasantly, but I realized, with a faint sense of elation, that it was a smile of uncom- prehension. Dorothy realized it too, for she translated my remark. "Mr. Chandos is a member of one of oiu- oldest families, Billy. He played here as a boy, but he's been away ever since. "I see," said Harrower, smiling. I respected him for his obviously complete absence of resentment. "Then you're not a Chicagoan, Mr. Harrower?" I asked. "He likes to think he is," laughed Dorothy. "I certainly do. And in a way, I am. Been here five years. Came from New England originally — Glaston- bury. Five years must seem little enough to you, Mr. Chandos." "Five years here — ^yes. But five years away . . . is eternity!" 43 THE JOY OP THE WORKING "Harlan!" Dorothy was indignant. ''You know you detest the place." I bowed. "I did . . . but that was before I knew any Chicago people. I'm beginning to change my mind. I am beginrung to regret the arid waste of years spent away from it. I ... " "What business are you in?" Harrower interrupted suddenly. It was a question that I was doomed to hear with disagreeable frequency. My answer was abrupt. "None." "Oh." I fancied that Harrower's expression betokened some disfavor. There was a pause — embarrassing, tmtil Dorothy came to the rescue. "Mr. Chandos is a painter, BUly; that is, he has been studying art. Now he wants to get into business. We thought you coidd give some good advice about it. He comes of good business stock, you know. His father was John Chandos." "John Chandos." Harrower's eyes opened wide. His expression seemed divided between admiration and be- wilderment. "John Chandos — you don't tell me." I could follow the train of his thought. He was won- dering in amazement why the only son of such a million- aire as John Chandos should be looking for a business opening. I would have felt very differently had I known exactly what his thoughts were. There was another curious pause. There was nothing 44 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED for me to say, and Harrower seemed to have lost all desire for speech. Again it was Dorothy who ended the silence. "Well, Billy, haven't you any suggestion to offer?" Harrower looked uncomfortable, and lit a cigarette. It was only too obvious that if Jie had anything to say he did not intend to say it. His behavior was strange, to put it mildly, but as he very plainly had no intention of explaining it, there was only one course of action open to me. I uttered a few commonplaces about the weather, and in a few moments rose. "Au 'voir, Dorothy," I said with as much nonchalance as I could muster. She was relieved at my departure, I think. My thoughts were painfully confused as I turned my steps southward along the Drive. Dorothy herself was a perplexing factor. She had not changed — and yet, in some indefinable way she had. As I strode along I realized how little my visit had taught me about her. Of a sudden it came to me that I had done almost all the talking, and I flushed at the recollection. Then it seemed that she had not been unwilling to have me hurry away. Harrower's name struck me with a vague unpleasantness. Thus I pondered. But although my eyes were for the most part turned inward, I was not entirely oblivious to the passing show. And so, when I was again on the bridge that had disgusted me so completely in the afternoon, I stopped in wonderment. 45 THE JOY OF THE WORKING It was the same tottering relic of bygone days. The same crash and rumble filled my ears. The same host of nauseous gases filled my nostrils. I shuddered at the ugliness of it aU, and my soul sickened within me, just as it had before. And then . . . my glance rested on the clouds, the smoke, the steam from the ships. I forgot my first aversion in a burst of enthusiasm for the loveli- ness I had missed. The setting sun had spilled all the colors from heaven's palette, and the gaunt masts, the dingy walls, had been transformed as if by magic into minarets of silver and battlements of gold. Then, over it all, the slowly purpling mantle of night fell. It was a scene set on high to bear testament that the God of Beauty was still in his heaven. Kindly darkness obliterated all that I had thought crude and harsh and ugly, and as the twinkling lights sparkled hither and yon, bringing on the second picture, my fingers itched for a brush. Here was a task for a Whistler, surely. The ponderous mass of the warehouses, faintly limned against an almost starless sky, presented a backgroimd I had not even suspected was there. A slight mist began to rise from the River, and through it the red and green lights of the shipping gleamed very softly. Even the yellow garishness of the illuminated advertisements was subdued in the haze, throwing a mysterious, exquisitely evanescent reflection on the slow- moving water. Why, I asked myself in a flood of compre- 46 AN OLD PICTURE RESTORED hension, did painters busy themselves with mouldy ruins, when they had such material at their hands? Why did they waste time in an effort to catch the spirit of a day that was gone, when the significance of the Present offered such opportunities? And as I studied the scene, the answer came. I realized that no ordinary man could put such things on canvas . . . that more than mere craftsmanship was necessary to catch it. No man could ever paint Chicago — ^America — TODAY — until he knew it. And such imderstanding was not to be gained in the schools . . . the genius of the Future was not to come from Julian's. He must spring from the same loins as had the hideous bridge, the jangling street cars, the clattering trucks, the cobblestones, the warehouses . . he must be not merely the transcriber of the Song of Life — but the Singer. 47 CHAPTER III BONDAGE IT was with mingled feelings of anticipation and dismay that I rose next morning and stood staring out over the Lake. The sun gleamed mistily, painting every- thing in white and gold that yesterday had been all din- giness; and the breeze that blew in my open window was fresh and cool, filling me with something approaching exhilaration. It was almost ten o'clock when I sauntered down for breakfast, and I observed the waiters eyeing me with the same lack of favor that I had noted on the previous afternoon. I realized, as I looked about, that I was almost alone in the great haU, but any self-consciousness I might have felt at that was lost in my awe at the splendor of the room. It reminded me of some graceful Gothic minster, with its delicately towering arches, its gray stone walls, and its stained glass windows, through which the sunlight filtered softly. Here was old world architecture at its best, in the very vitals of the new world at its newest. At first I gloried in the spaciousness, the grandeur, the satisf jring proportions of this perfect replica. Then an odd feeling of resentment crept over me. After all, why did it have 48 BONDAGE to be a replica? Why did these latter-day builders have to go to their forbears for inspiration in things of beauty when they went to no one for things of use? I had to shrug my shoulders with a helpless sigh — only another of the paradoxes that go to make America: on the one hand, the most original nation in the world; on the other, the most slavish of imitators. And then a Voice gxjke within me. And what it said sounded something like — "Rome was not built in a day!" Breakfast over, I went down to the lounge to think over the more pressing realities of life. I had passed the day when the metaphysics of art constituted my most pressing concern. I had to live. I had to devise ways and means. It was a novel sensation. I knew, rather vaguely, that when men were in need of help, they advertised. So I secured a copy of the Tribune, and turned to the classified section. I began at the begin- ning of "WANTED— MALE HELP." I cherished no illusions. I, the son of a millionaire, with several univer- sity degrees, was "help." It was humiliating, but it was true. I studied the "Stores and Offices" column first, but there was nothing there. There was too much technical training required. For all my elaborate education, I did not even know what a bill-extender was, to say nothing of applying for his job. The notion of book-keeping terri- fied me. It meant figures and a high stool. I hurried 49 THE JOY OF THE WORKING on to the next classification, "Trades and Professions." But that was even more specialized. The only trade under which I could qualify was that of chauffeur, and I aimed at something higher. I told myself that it was because I was ambitious, but of course, that was not the reason. "Salesmen," I passed over with scarcely more than a glance. I had never sold anything in my life, and it never occurred to me to begin. Then, imder "Mis- cellaneous," I stopped — WANTED— Artist, black and white. Speed and ability to produce essential. Bring samples. 780148 S. Dearborn. I read the rest of the miscellaneous offerings, but noth- ing else appealed to me.. I returned to the first adver- tisement. I read it over several times. I was an artist. True, I had done nothing in black and white since my school days, but surely it would not be difficult to renew my acquaintance with that medium. As to speed, I had never considered that a virtue, but if speed was the desidera- tum I was ready to change my views. As to "ability to produce," I had not the remotest idea of what that meant' so I dismissed it from my mind. I pondered over the matter. I had to get work, and here was work offered to me. Curiously enough, it never occurred to me that there might be other applicants for the same position. It seemed to be offered directly to me. I actually had a feeling that the advertiser would SO BONDAGE be keenly disappointed if I failed to appear. The upshot of my consideration was that I decided to accept the proffered opportunity. I experienced an uncomfortable hollowness of the stomach as I entered the dingy building specified in the advertisement. At first disdainfully, and then, as I realized my position, hopelessly, I surveyed the iU-kept lobby, and took in every detail of its ugliness. My destination seemed to be on the cheapest floor, in the cheapest location, of an exceedingly cheap building — self-evident facts that brought home the more strongly the ludicrous incongruity of the elaborate lettering, in three colors, on the imposing double doors that admitted to Nvmiber 780. The sign read — "The Keppy Company, Advertising." I addressed myself to a statuesque blonde at the infor- mation desk, and told her the purpose of my visit. With- out looking up, she told me to see a Mr. Brega, and when, after a polite pause, I asked to see Mr. Brega, she told me that he was busy. So I seated myself on a large couch, covered with imitation leather, to wait for him. That gave me an opportunity to study what I felt, with a sinking of the heart, were to be my surroundings. As if to compensate for the unmitigated dinginess of the building, an extreme effort had been made to have the office itself strike the casual visitor with its elegance and importance. But the piupose was no less apparent than SI THE JOY OF THE WORKING the niggardliness of the means taken to its attainment. The space had been divided oflE into tiny rooms, separated from one another by flimsy partitions covered with burlap. Each door bore two, and in some cases, three names, giving one an idea, at once, of the size of the organization. But as the door to one of these wretched compartments opened, I caught a glimpse of the crowded interior, blue with tobacco smoke, and I shuddered. People were constantly passing and boys scurrying noisily about, while the intermittent jangle of telephone bells punctuated the constant chatter of humanity. I marvelled how any work requiring thought could be accomplished in such a din, and I expressed my amaze- ment to a shabby old man who had come in after me. His reply was succinct, but illuminating — "They don't do any work requiring thought." But any further conversation with my acid companion was ended by the approach of a thin, round-shouldered man, with sparse, neutral tinted hair, and thick round spectacles, emphasizing an equally round, expressionless face. "This is Mr. . . . ?" he said interrogatively. "Chandos." I held out my hand, and the other ac- cepted it limply. "How do you do," he drawled color- lessly, "I am Mr. Brega. Come in here, will you?" he added, leading the way to one of the offices, slightly larger than the others. As he held open the door for me to 52 BONDAGE enter, I noted that there was only one name on the glass — Mr. Keppy. The single occupant of the room was telephoning as we came in, apparently without the satisfaction that he had anticipated; for his language was far from delicate. I stood waiting, partly from courtesy, and partly because there was only one other chair. Presently the man at the telephone — a stocky individual with a round, bullet-shaped head — swimg round, a frown on his face. "Well?" he gritted through his teeth. "Excuse me, Mr. Keppy," said Brega timidly. "But this is Mr. Chandos — an artist, you know." The unpleasant expression faded from Mr. Keppy"3 face, and he smiled. I thought the smile was scarcely less desirable than the frown. It seemed "out of char- acter," so to speak. Keppy's face did not seem made for smiles — ^the jaw was too square, the lips too close, the eyes too cold. "Oh, yes," he said affably. "Sit down, Mr. Chandos, sit down." I hesitated, reluctant to take the single chair, but a gentle pressure from Brega forced me down. "Well, Mr. Chandos," began Keppy, "I understand that you would like to make a connection with this organ- ization?" I smiled to myself as I thought of the amazement I could evoke by telling the actual truth. But my face S3 THE JOY OP THE WORKING was grave and properly humble, as I answered in the aflBrmative. "I'm told that there's no organization in Chicago like it," I added daringly. The look of smug complacency that spread over Keppy's face was delightful. "Oh, I'd hardly go so far as to say that," he murmured deprecatingly. "Still, we have got a good one — ^haven't we, Brega?" That worthy, thus appealed to, nodded his head like an automaton, and Keppy proceeded, emphasizing his words with sharp raps of his pencil on the desk. "I cer- tainly have worked hard to build up this business. . . . I've worked hard because my heart's been in it. No man can work hard without his heart's in it — can he, Mr. Chandos?" I opened my mouth to acquiesce dutifuUy, but Keppy went on without waiting. "Those are the kind of men I want to get in here." He leaned forward and slapped his thigh almost belligerently. "Chaps with their heart in the work. Men I can rely on — men who — who — share the business with me, understand? And when I get a man like that I treat him right, I do. No man ever worked for me, Chandos, and had cause to complain that he wasn't given a square deal. Now has he, Brega?" The thin man, again appealed to, again nodded in the same expressionless fashion. I smiled pleasantly, but I wondered, with a mental yawn, how long these pre- liminaries were to last. Keppy must have detected my 54 BONDAGE thought; for in his next words he came to the matter in hand. "Well, Mr. Chandos — what's your experience?" he asked abruptly. "Yale Art School, Julian's . , . and I've been in Paris for several years." It seemed to me that Brega's face exhibited the first sign of interest I had seen upon it. Keppy nodded his head sagely. "That's fine," he said. "You've had a splendid edu- cation — splendid. I wish I'd had as good. But of course you understand, Mr. Chandos, that — er . . . well, what business experience have you had . . . that is, what experience have you had in real practical work — commercial work, you know?" It was on the tip of my tongue to lie; but I had not been "in business" long enough to have acquired much facility in that art, so I answered shortly — "None." Keppy and Brega exchanged glances at this, and the former looked out of the window for a moment. "Um — you understand, of course, Mr, Chandos, that that puts a rather difiEerent face upon the matter. What we need here, and what we're ready to pay for — and pay well — ^is a business artist. I haven't a doubt but what you can draw well enough — but we've got to have a man that can draw commercially. Y'tmderstand?" Oddly, his Philistine doubts concerning my ability — for all their justice — stiuig my pride. It was my inclination 55 THE JOY OF THE WOREING to rise, gather that pride about me, and sweep cxmtemptu- ously from Keppy's presence. But reflecticm fcdlowed dose upon inclination. Remembrance of Devereaux's loan, with my mounting score at the Univeraty Club, smote me, and my tone was humble enou^ when I spoke again. "If youH give me the material I'd be ^d to show jrou what I can do." It was bitteriy humiliating, but I had no choice. The bonds of drcnmstance were ^ust about me. Keppy drew a piece of paper from his desk and handed me a pen- "All right," he said, "Tliaf s fair enough. Make me a sketch c£ a — wdl — ^a guy looking at a can of tobacco. Bring out the can . . . put a grin on the man's face. Your picture's got to help sell the stuS, you know. And remember — few lines — fdenty of black. Try it." Obediently I did as I was told. For some time there was sQence, broken only by the occasional scratdb of the pen in my embarrassed fingers. At length I leaned back and pushed the sketch toward Keppy. He scrutinized it for a few moments, biting his lip. "TJm — yes," he said finally. His tone was ncm-CDm- mittaL "What do you think of this, Brega?" Br^a's moon-like countenance dianged not a particle at his listless — "Not so bad." Then he stifled a yawn, and shifting his weight from one foot to the other, looked out of the window. For a while there was another alence. S6 BONDAGE Then Keppy brought the tips of his rather stubby fingers together. "Well, Mr. Chandos, I'll tell you. Your work is good. Understand me, I think it's first rate. But it ain't quite up to our standard, y'understand? I don't mean it isn't all right — ^it simply ain't just quite all right accordin' to our particular requirements. But you've got talent — there isn't any doubt about that. And I like to assist yotmg men. I like to give 'em a helping hand. So I tell you what I'll do. I'll take you on here and let you see what you can do. If you can develop, and learn from Brega here — ^he's one of the best artists in the business, let me tell you — ain't you, Brega?" He poked the artist playfully, but the latter merely shifted tmsmilingly back to his original foot. "As I say, young fellow," Keppy went on, "if you can deliver the goods — ^why, there'E be a place for you here, all right. And, by G€orge, you couldn't find a better one in the city — ^if I do say it myself. How'd you like to try it?" I forced myself not to betray by any expression the emotions that surged in my soul. "I'd like to very much," I said resolutely. "Good — ^you'll never regret it. Now as to salary. Of course as a beginner, you can't hope for much. It's like when you was in school — you had to pay tuition, didn't you? Well, this is a good deal the same. You're sort of going to study art with Mr. Brega. I can't afford to 57 THE JOY OP THE WORKING give you much, but I'm no tight-wad, and I'll give you a lot more than most men woiild. That's because I believe in you. Of course, now, you might stay here until you thought you'd learned all you could — ^and then skip. And then I'd be out all I'd paid you. But if I'm any judge of character, you ain't that sort of a fellow. Well, Mr. Chandos, as I say, I'll give you really more than you're worth ... I'll give you seventy-five dollars a month." Somehow, in all my consideration of the necessity for earning money, I had never given much thought to the amoimt. I merely realized that I must work at some gainful pvusuit, and that the fruits thereof must certainly equal — ^possibly surpass — ^the allowance I had received from my father. I had never looked upon my earning power in the light of what I could get, but of what I must have. Now, for the first time, my future was expressed in definite figures. I sat stunned. Seventy-five dollars a month! How often had I spent that on a single suit of clothes — on a single evening's pleasure. It was utterly preposterous! The man must be joking with me. I suppose my consternation showed on my face, for Keppy hastened to add — "It isn't much, Mr. Chandos, of course. But then, as you'll have to adnait yourself, you ain't worth much. I don't offer it because I expect to get returns out of it right off. I look on it as an investment. Some day I expect 58 BONDAGE you to pay big — and then you won't have any cause to kick about salary. I never hesitate to pay a man what he's worth. That ain't the way I do business." For a moment I sat in silence, resolutely forcing down regrets and repugnances that my reason told me I could no longer afford. Itwas not for paupers to pick and choose. My necessities were too immediate for me to haggle over wages. And besides, after all, I had to admit it — I wasn't worth much. When I finally spoke, therefore, my voice and manner were quite resigned. "The salary is quite satisfactory, Mr. Keppy." Keppy was surprised, and almost showed it. He was unused to such prompt acquiescence in his offers, and for , a moment he was unable to speak. Then he caught him- self. "Fine. I know you'll never regret it. This organiza- tion is growing every day, and you'll find yourself in a mighty fine berth before you know it. The salary '11 match it, too. Now — ^when can you start?" "Immediately," I said, without enthusiasm. "That's the stuff. How about Monday morning?" "Perfectly satisfactory." "All right then, Mr. Brega. Mr. Chahdos will report to you on Monday morning." I rose, trying not to see Keppy's extended hand. But my new employer's cordiality was too obvious to be over- looked. I found my hand smothered in a warm soft grasp 59 THE JOY OF THE WORKING that almost made me shudder. Brega merely nodded, and disappeared toward his own compartment. Keppy followed me to the outer door, patting me on the shoulder, and laughing jovially. "Oh — by the way," he said, his voice sinking to a confi- dential undertone, but still with a smile on his lips. "We — er — like to have the men down at eight, Mr. Chandos. Punctuality is one of my little hobbies. I'm not a nagger, and I never keep after a man who won't fall in with my wishes — ^but — oh, well — I know you ain't a shirker. One wouldn't have to look at you twice to see that. Well — so-long . . . until Monday ... at eight, re- member, S'long — see ye then." It was all I could do to keep from racing down the hall to the elevator. And once on the street I drew a long breath of relief. For the first time the shackles of neces- sity really hurt. It was after one o'clock, so I made for the dub. I had been seated at luncheon only a few minutes when I felt a hand on my shoulder, and looked up to confront a vaguely familiar figure. "Don't remember me, do you?" said the other smiling. "My name's Harrower ... we met at Dorothy Gresham's yesterday." "Oh yes — of course," I cried. The healthy cheerfulness on Harrower's face was an efficient antidote for my un- pleasant introspection, and I shook his hand warmly. 60 BONDAGE "K you don't mind, I think I'll sit down here with you," he said. ' "I'd be de%hted," I answered sincerely. I really was. The prospect of a chat with one so obviously contented with life cheered me greatly. But I was a little surprised at his cordial interest in me. I suppose Dorothy had quieted his suspicions concerning me. At any rate he behaved very differently than at our first encotmter. We chatted about various topics of general interest — or rather he did; I knew nothing of politics or baseball or theatres, and they seemed to be his principal interests. Finally he turned to the subject of business, discussing a bit of economic legislation that appeared to be of close concern. I listened silently, partly because he interested me, and partly because there was nothing for me to say. But a pause gave me an opportunity to interrupt — "Harrower," I said, "Pardon a strangely direct ques- tion, but are — do you — ^that is, are you — ex— fond of your business? Do you actually enjoy it? Does it really interest you — ^in itself? Do you work because you like to — ^because you really want to ... or because you have to?" Harrower was frankly amazed. His mouth hung open, and he stared at me for a moment in bewildered silence. "Do I work because I want to — or because I have to . . . I'm afraid I don't quite catch your drift." "I mean simply this — do you work — ^is your occupation 6i THE JOY OF THE WORKING — a matter of necessity or inclination? If you could stop tomorrow, would you do it?" "Oh — I see." Harrower's face cleared a little, and he laughed aloud. "Why my dear man, of course I work because I have to. It's a very simple case of bread and butter . . . but I like it, too. I really do. It's a lot of fun." "Would you quit if you could?" He was thoughtful a moment. "I doubt it. I wouldn't know what to do with myself. But here — ^why all this interest?" "I'm wondering if I'll ever feel like you do. I haven't begun to work — and I loathe it!" I said bitterly. "That's the point. Wait till you've been at it a bit. Have you gotten hold of anything?" "I am now an artist in the employ of the Keppy Com- pany — ^Advertising," I said with mock importance. "My wage is an insult — ^poor worm, I'm ground under the iron heel of capital." "Doesn't the job appeal to you?" "No job appeals to me." narrower looked puzzled, but he was too polite to say anything. I felt ashamed for equivocating. "narrower," I said humbly. "Please forgive me. I'm a puzzle to you — just as you are to me. You can't under- stand why I should be so revolted at the idea of earning my daily bread; and I can't see why you should be so con- 62 BONDAGE foundedly cheerful about it. It makes me feel queer. Why, I . . . " "Hold on," said Harrower. "You mean to say that the idea of work is objectionable to you?" "Hideously!" "Btrai steer!" he said, leaning back and lighting a cigar. "If you'll pardon me, you're talking through your hat. You don't object to work — ^you just object to the kind of work that happens to be set before you. Why man, don't you call the painting you've been doing, work? I'll bet it is, and hard work, too. It strikes me that you're making too big a distinction between work and play. Why, great Scot, you're no diflEerent from the rest of us. You've got to work. You'd go nutty if you didn't." "Twaddle!" I said succinctly. "I've never worked — and I'm not crazy — ^that is, I don't think I am." "I repeat." Harrower was tolerant. "I repeat, my dear friend, that you don't know how to distinguish be- tween work and play." Looking back on that conversation in the light of sub- sequent events, I am by no means sure that Harrower knew what he was talking about. In fact I am reasonably sure that he did not. But the fact remains that he ex- pressed a most tremendous truth — a truth that required a good many years for me to learn, and a truth so profound, so amazingly useful, that I am writing this book to help others to find it out for themselves. 63 THE JOY OF THE WORKING But at the moment I was irritated at Harrower's flat contradiction of my firm convictions, and his generally patronizing attitude toward me. "Don't bother about liking work or not," he went on. "Just do the best you've got in you, and before you know it you'll have a real job. And then there won't be any doubt about liking work. You can't help but like it. AH the hoUer we hear about industrial slavery comes from the chaps who can't make good. You don't find the men in big places yelling for more vacations. What they want is more time. Take my advice and buckle down to the job in hand. You won't be kicking about work when you're getting ten thousand a year." And in those words Harrower unconsciously taught me another lesson. It was the spirit of competition that kept men bound to the wheel. Then and there I became filled with a vast desire to succeed in business, for the solitary reason that I might give this complacent young man ad- vice. That was trtdy an amazing conversation, viewed in retrospect. When we separated, I went down to the Reading Room. I sat down and pondered over my conversation with nar- rower. And presently, by an easy process of association, I came to a reflection of Dorothy Gresham . . . and there I stopped. I whistled softly. Abruptly I threw myself back in the chair, biting my lip nervously, overwhelmed by this new idea that had 64 BONDAGE smitten me so tmawares. For a long time I sat twisting it, ridiculing it, inspecting it from every side. Then I stood up, and laughed mirthlessly. "Nonsense!" I cried. "It never comes that way. Why — ^it's preposterous." But the thoughts that teemed in my mind, old memories suddenly awakened — and the more lively for their long sleep — ^and new desires, galvanized by a sudden touch into terrible activity, would not down. Impatiently I tried to quiet them by reading a newspaper. But they would not go. I felt myself in the grip of an insane obsession. Blindly I cursed Harrower as the agent of my misery. Finally, I threw the paper down, and went to the east windows to stare wretchedly at the sky and the Lake. Then presently, I went arotmd to the other side of the room, to turn my gaze on the grimly forbidding mass of smoke-obscured buildings. "This is where I must keep my eyes," I muttered sav- agely. "I'm through with Romance . . . it's Real- ity from now on. The primrose path is not for me!" Finally, in abyssmal disgust at my own weakness, I went down to the swimming pool, hoping that with physi- cal weariness I might shake off the shadow that had fastened itself to my soul. 6S CHAPTER IV I GIVE rP CIGARETTES IT was half past six when I arose on Monday morning, and as I dressed I reflected dismally that all previous eflEorts at early rising had been due to duck shooting, or riding to hounds, or painting the dawn, or some simi- larly inutile pursuit. Now — ^how different! I shivered a little as I peered out of the window. It was a sunless, mid-November day, cold and bleak, with a touch of rain in the atmosphere. Even the buildings, slightly obscured by the clinging early-morning mist from the Lake, seemed particularly grim and austere. The desolation of my surroundings was mirrored in my spirit. The day had brightened considerably when I reached the Keppy offices, and the snap in the air had set my blood to moving more healthily. But the street life, the vague animation of a city's early hours, which had always at- tracted me when I was a mere detached spectator, now, when I myself was a spoke in the wheel, filled me with an inescapable depression. It had often pleased me, in Paris, to rise betimes and betake myself to one of the bridges near the Cit6, there to watch the toilers swarming to their daily bread. The idea of necessitous toil had had its interest for me, but it 66 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES was an impersonal interest, and I enjoyed my rolls and chocolate later more thoroughly because it was so imper- sonal. The hurrjdng throngs had never meant a collec- tion of individuals, each bent upon business of the utmost seriousness to himself; but a succession of puppets, the whole thing an animated picture, a part of the interesting and valuable chiaroscuro of the River. But now, I reflected sardonically, as I forced myself into the elevator, the unmoved spectator had become a very grimly integral part of the "play." Only it was not a play, after all, but the most serious thing that Hfe could offer. I studied the faces of those packed into the elevator with me, and I realized, almost instinctively, that I was in the midst of the democracy of Toil. For the world of the toilers has its classes and its subdivisions, just as the world at large has them, in which a man's status is fixed by his salary, and indicated by his hours. Before eight o'clock comes the "submerged tenth" of labor — ^the workers for other workers, the elevator men, the sweepers, the scullions, the firemen, the postmen, and — ^humblest of all — ^the children, the poor little camp followers of the industrial army. Then, at' eight, comes the vast flood of the bourgeoisie — ^the clerks, the stenographers, the strug- gling horde of the young, the in^cient — or the merely mediocre. At half past eight the cars are not so crowded ; for it is then that aristocracy travels — department heads, 67 THE JOY OP THE WORKING superior men generally, men who receive salaries instead of wages, who have positions instead of jobs, and who punch no time clocks. Then, at nine o'clock, comes royalty — ^the presidents, the directors — ^the Names. And with their arrival the Day has really begun. The gradations of toil, and the gradations of the toilers are replete with paradox. The one who must begin the earliest is forced to live the farthest away — ^the six o'clock charwoman must rise near four; while her ten o'clock employer spends ten minutes In his motor. And the under-nourished office-boy, almost helpless in his fight with the world, as yet but half armored against it, must work ten hours a day, while the man at the president's desk . . . well, that is simply one of the paradoxes that cannot be argued; for it can be dismissed so readily by merely discussing the meaning of the word "work." Do long hours of labor with the hands, in a struggle to secure the essentials of bread and shelter, balance against short hem's of "responsibility" in a struggle to change the orchestra circle into a box? Who shall answer? Is our happiness to be measured by what we have — or by what we want? That is a question that has never been answered by any man for any man but himself. And it never will be answered until every man has what every other man has . . . when, it is ' reasonable to suppose, there will be no one to ask the question. Almost with disgust, I studied the faces of those about 68 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES me. They were unlovely, for the most part, and their obvious sleepiness increased their ugliness. It came upon me with a shudder that this was the product of the mill I was on the way to enter. The muddied complexions, bom of indoors and poor food, the facial lines all sagging, the hollow cheeks, the shabby clothing ... I had to hold myself with a strong effort not to turn and run away. It was several minutes before eight when I reached the office, and the door was locked. But I welcomed the respite, because it gave me a few moments in which to coordinate the ideas that were confusing me with their rapid growth. I went back and sat down on the stairs to think. It sounds odd, but the ugliness in the elevator made me think of Murillo. Art, in all the vast and little-understood meaning of the word, had been the chief interest of my life; and in some form or other it had been the key to un- lock the doors of many of my problems. It was not strange, therefore, that I should look to art to explain what now loomed before me as the greatest problem of my life. In my younger days, on my first trip to Spain, I had visited the Academy of San Fernando, at Madrid. There I saw Murillo's el Tifioso. I had realized the technical skiU of the painter, of course, but his purpose had been incomprehensible. Why had that great master chosen to depict such horrors, when there was so much beauty 69 THE JOY OF THE WORKING calling for his brush? I remembered now, as I sat on the stairs, the illuminating remark of an older friend who had been with me — "You must not judge a work of art by its subject," he had said, "nor by its execution. You must judge it by its purpose." Until you grasp the idea that inspired it, you cannot truly appreciate it." That explanation had been true — and in consequence, many great works of art — ^not alone paintings — ^had remained inexpUcable to me. My education had made me a connoisseur of technique, and my temperament made me naturally sympathetic for the beautiful. But the ugly in art had been quite beyond me — ^and I was honest enough to admit it. I did not fully realize it as yet, of course, but there were flashes now and then of an awakening imderstanding, presaging a deeper and wider knowledge — of art, yes, but of life, too; for I was to learn that to know art is to know life — and vice versa. I was beginning to grasp the great truth that art — in whatever form — is the great interpreter of life. It began to dawn upon me, with painful certainty, that the reason I had never understood the presence of the ugly in art was because I had never re- motely comprehended the ugly in life. I almost laughed aloud at the queer course my thoughts were taking. By losing my worldly goods I bade fair to enter the kingdom of the. cognoscenti, and to win my artistic salvation. By 70 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES becoming a sordid money-grubber in a very desolation of ugliness, I was to leam what all the galleries, all the ateliers, all the books of Europe had not even suggested. By becoming a beggar I was to leam why MuriUo had painted one. But my philosophic introspection was efEectually ter- minated by the entrance of reality in the form of a diminu- tive voice in trousers, connected by a cord to a sack of mail that seemed to loom up and overwhelm the small figiire beside it. "You the new artist?" the voice asked, and I felt oddly embarrassed at this first official cognizance of my status. I smiled ingratiatingly as I replied to the query, but the urchin still surveyed me with a critical eye. "Been here long?" he asked. And when I answered him, he spat knowingly on the floor. "You don't need to git here at eight on Mondays. Th' boss never gits here on time. And Miss Stromberg — she takes th' time — she don't git here neither." "Everybody arrives at eight — ^usually — don't they?" I asked humbly. But the lad surveyed me dubiously, as if striving to estimate what manner of man his new co- worker might be. Finally, with a slight gesture of weari- ness, he picked up the sack. "They gits here w'en Strombie does — an' that's about eight. That is, they all do 'cept Markham — ^he's a copy- writer, an' he oughter be, but he's sweet on Strombie, an' 71 THE JOY OF THE WORKING she puts Tiim down on time no matter w'en he blows in." I offered to help my new friend with the sack, but my assistance was curtly disdained. "I suppose that's mail you have in there?" I asked, following him into the office. The lad shook his burden viciously. "Ye'uh. It's light this momin'." I grinned at what I thought was an ironic jest. "Do you mean to tell me that you carry that all the way from the Post Office — ^yourself — alone?" I asked incredulously. "Sure I do." The bojr's disgust at my stupidity showed on his sharp face. "Who d'ye spose 'd fetch it? It's little Morris every momin' at 7:30 . . . Say, ain't them hours hell? Wouldn't you strike fer a raise if you was me?" I felt a lump rise in my throat as I surveyed the lad's puny frame, which contrasted so pathetically with the independence of his words. "I certainly would," I said. "How much do you get now — and how old are you?" 'Tour bucks, and " his eyes narrowed wisely "I'm just sixteen." The change in the boy's expression was pitiful for what it indicated — a successful effort to evade and nullify the very laws designed for his own protection. As I watched him I fell to wondering who suffers most in the end — ^the child himself — or the community — or posterity? I would 72 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES have questioned Morris further, but the door opened behind us, and a trio of girls entered noisily. I had seen their like on the streets a million times the world over, sallow sldimed, dressed in tawdry modishness; but here, in this intimate environment, they took on a new interest for me. I studied every detail of their cos- tumes and manner so diligently that I quite failed to observe their scrutiny of me. But presently they dis- appeared to their various posts, Morris fell busily to work opening the mail, and I was left alone with my thoughts. The workers were coming in rapidly now, and I had opportunity for survey of merely a ciu-sory nature. Their apparent cheerfulness rather surprised me, because it contrasted so painfully with my own depression. It was not long before the silent offices became thoroughly alive. Typewriters were rattling, telephone bells ringing, con- versation flying, just as if a day's work lay behind instead of before. And it was only a few minutes after eight. It was marvellous! Presently a tall blonde, with cold blue eyes and firm chin, and a very high collar, came over to me. "You're Mr. Chandos, aren't you?" she asked. And at my reply she smiled faintly. "I'm Miss Stromberg," she said. "Mr. Keppy won't be in till late — after nine, probably. But Mr. Brega's late now. He'll be here any minute. Will you wait here or in his office?" I thanked her, and because I had a better opportunity 73 THE JOY OF THE WORKING to see things from my bench in the hall, I expressed myself as willing to remain there. She merely nodded and returned to her desk, over which htmg a flamboyantly decorated sign with the word "Information" engrossed upon it. I settled back to play the spectator and wait for Brega. He was not long in coming. I rose to greet him, and unsmiling, he held out his hand, taking mine in the limp grasp that epitomized the man. "Good morning, Mr. Chandos,^' he said uninterestedly, as if the effort at speech tired him. "Will you come into my ofl&ce?" I followed him, for the first time acutely aware of the stares that followed me. I had been so interested in studying my surroimdings that I had not given a thought to the fact that my surroundings might be just as inter- estedly studying me — ^with possibly the same unflattering result! Brega's ofi&ce, formed by one of the burlap partitions, was in a comer, in an effort to secure the most light pos- sible. But as one window opened on the court, with some ten stories of blank wall between it and the sky, and the other faced on a narrow alley, it seemed that the end desired had only been partially achieved. The room was about twelve feet square. It was furnished with a couple of drawing tables, a long desk at which a round-shouldered 74 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES girl was poring over some account books, and an adding machine. The girl did not look up until Brega spoke to her, introducing me. Then she merely glanced at me, nodded imsnulingly, and quickly returned to her work. "We're a little crowded in here, Mr. Chandos," said Brega, almost apologetically. "But you'U soon get used to it, I'm sure. We've grown faster than our space, you see. This is to be your desk," he continued apathetically. "It may seem a trifle dark, but you'll find electricity a satisfactory substitute for daylight on dark days. I noted dismally that most of the daylight that would reach me would have to come from the aUey window. But I forced myself to reflect that this was a particularly dark morning. Perhaps it would not be so bad ordinarily. "Now, I suppose I'd better take you around and intro- duce you to the oflSce," said Brega, after permitting me a moment in which to accustom myself to my surround- ings. I nodded silently and followed him into the adjoin- ing compartment. There were about twenty people, of both sexes, employed by the Keppy Company, and none of those I met made any particular impression upon me. Their reception of me varied all the way from effusive cordiality and jovial expressions of hope that I would like my new place, to coldly disdainful nods. But friendliness affected me as little as suspicion, because there stiU clung to me vestiges of the conviction that after all these people had no vital 75 THE JOY OF THE WORKING connection with my life. They were but actors in a some- what unpleasant play that I was obliged to sit through, and their liking or antipathy could in no way affect me for better or for worse. I had much to learn. The girl was operating the adding machine when we returned to our "studio," and Brega answered my query before it was uttered. "It does make a racket, doesn't it," he said with a half smile. "But you'll get used to it. It used to be in the copy-writers' room, but they kicked so hard we had to take it out. They claimed they couldn't write in such a noise ..." "But you could draw?" I asked sarcastically. "Well, I tried to tell Mr. Keppy that it would be just as bad in here, but he couldn't see it that way. But really — I don't mind it at all now." A series of violent shocks will produce a species of anaesthesia. The ultimate shock of death is painless. My sensibilities had received so many lacerations that new ones could affect me not at alL Thus I was able to survey the adding machine calmly, and raise my voice over its clatter without even a frown on my face. "WeU," said Brega, at length. "I suppose you are anxious to get to work, eh?" I answered, very truthfully, in the afiBrmative. I was amdous to give my hands something to do, so that my overworked brain might have time to rest and collate its 76 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES multifarious and scattered impressions. My reply, there- fore, was almost eager. "Well, for a starter, you might try this. Here's the copy. My idea is to have a man — ^middle-aged — pros- peroxis — seated at his desk, looking at a letter. Make it reduce two columns." "Two col ?" My face was blank. "Yes — ^that's four and an eighth, with another eighth for border rule. And be careful of your lines. Use just as few as possible — and black blot when you can. Con- trast is what we want. Understand? Try it." Without another word Brega left me and went to his own table. Almost instantly, it seemed, he was buried in his own work. The adding machine had ceased its clatter, and the girl had returned to her books. In perfect silence, therefore, I stared out of the window, lost in reflection — of more things than middle-aged gentlemen looking at letters. Presently I became aware that Brega had lighted a pipe, so I took out my cigarette case. I had scarcely drawn three puffs, however, before Brega was at my side. "I'm sorry, Mr. Chandos — ^but, er — ^that isn't — er — allowed here. Mr. Keppy — you know — er — " I tossed the cigarette away. "I beg your pardon," I said idly. "I had no desire to assume any privileges not mine. But I saw you, and I . . ." Brega's expression of pain changed to a relieved smile. 77 THE JOY OF THE WORKING "Oh, I see," he said. "But that's a different matter. You see, I smoke a pipe. There's no objection to that. But Mr. Keppy doesn't Uke the boys to smoke cigarettes, I'm sure you'll be a good citizen." He smiled, half interrogatively, and went back to his work. For a while I sat in shame-faced idleness. In the first place I really felt the deprivation rather keenly. But more than that was the sense of petty tyranny, the tre- mendous jar to my amour propre. I looked at Brega, con- tentedly puffing at his noxious pipe — and I shuddered. Cigars appealed to me somewhat; but I would not smoke poor ones, and — I reflected dismally — I could not very well buy any other kind. It was a trifling matter, of course, this forced abnegation from a pet vice; but it seemed to sum up and symbolize all the manifold discomforts of my new life. To be de- prived of aU the material luxuries that had in the past come so plentifully, was simply to be a victim of Fate, a circumstance at which no thinking man could possibly rail. But for a free citizen, of age, in full possession of his faculties, to be deprived of his own free will and action, by a mere man, was almost too much to endure. For a fraction of an instant I contemplated lighting another cigarette, and stalking in disdainful dignity from this slave-galley. But it was only for a fraction of an instant. My next thought was of where to stalk to . , , and with a muttered imprecation against man and the devil 78 I GIVE UP CIGARETXES and their unholy alliance in the Keppy Company, I set savagely to work on my drawing of a middle-aged-man-at- a-desk-looking-at-a-letter . • . with plenty of contrast. Contrast . . . could there possibly be more than between what I was doing and what I was thinking! The morning wore slowly away in a silence broken only by the intermittent operations of the adding machine, to which, in spite of Brega's optimistic prediction, I could not grow accustomed. Occasionally the Head of the Art Department would come over and give me what he called "assistance." But his assistance consisted merely of stereotyped and luke-warm commendation — ^neither con- structive nor destructive, and more irritating than all the disparagement in the vocabulary. Finally, when it seemed to me that I had been working at least eight hours, Brega looked at his watch. "Oh, Chandos," he called over to me.* "I forgot to teU you — ^your lunch hour is twelve thirty. Twelve thirty to one thirty, you know. It's almost that now." I smiled as I reached for my hat. The spectacle of laborers dropping everything and running at the first blast of the noon whistle had always amused me, and I had been wont to reflect that their haste was due to their lack of intelligent interest in their work. But I realized now, with C3mical certainty, that I had not really known very much about the matter. As I went out I heard someone call to me, and I was 79 THE JOY OF THE WORKING joined by one of the men in the office, a yoting fellow about my age, whose name I failed to recall. "You grub at twelve and a half, too?" he asked, "Whither away?" "Blessed if I know," I replied, shrugging my shoulders. "I'm a stranger here — practically. Know a good place?" "Well — I don't know how tony you are — ^but / usually stoke up at a little beanery around the comer. No ban- quet fare, of course — ^but it certainly is cheap. Come with me — or do you prefer Rector's?" The young man laughed at what he evidently considered a great pleasantry. But my answering smile sprang from a different source. It struck me, with ironic force, that the only restaurants with which I was in the least familiar were just such as my companion's smile had put beyond the realm of possi- bility. "By all means let us hie us to the beanery!" I cried cheerfully. Our frugal meal was eaten almost in silence. I ordered in imitation of my companion, and then, after eating all I could, gave myself up to a study of the crowd. Limch coimters were a novelty to me — and a far from pleasing one. But it amused me to compare the way these people ate, with the way to which I had been accustomed. A man would rush in, slide into a seat, give his order, swallow the pie and coffee, and be picking his teeth before the go I GIVE UP CIGARETTES cashier's desk in less time than it had taken me, in the old days, to decide between white wine and red. But my reflections were soon ended by my companion, who seized his check and hurried off. I followed, noting with horrified fascination, how quickly the places we had vacated were filled. On the street my friend stood for a moment chewing a toothpick. Presently he tossed it away, and drew a couple of cigars from his pocket, one of which he offered to me. "Smoke?" he asked affably. Unwilling to offend him, I accepted his offering, and Ughted it. To my amazement he returned the other cigar to his pocket, and in its place brought forth a much worn pipe, which he carefully filled and lighted. "What's the matter?" I asked, almost suspiciously, "Don't you like cigars?" "Oh, yes," he replied with a grin. "I like 'em right enough. But on a salary like mine you can't do all the tilings you'd like to." Mingled feelings surged within me — ^gratitude for the other's obvious generosity . . . and then, as I smoked, nausea at its expression! I tried to finish what I had begun, but a taste carefully nurtured on the cream of the Vuelta Abajo was not to be thus quickly overcome, even by an act of will. I was forced to let the weed die out . . . which, alas, was noticed by my companion, 8i THE JOY OF THE WORKING with the immediate and solicitous proffer of a match. There was nothing to do but accept it, and relight the dgar, this time to smoke it viciously down to a point where I could decently drop it in the gutter. It left my fingers with a gesture of relief that I trust my friend did not see. "The food you get in these hash-houses may not be the best in the world," observed my friend, as we walked along. "But you can't eat much of it — ^and that's an advantage. If you eat a lot for lunch you're dopey for hours afterward. In some ways us poor guys is better off than the millionaires. Then your lunch don't take but a minute, and you can get in a bit of a walk after- ward." "You're a philosopher," I said. "Gee — I gotta be!" he chuckled. "I gotta have some- thin' t' take the place of the dollars I don't get." We were silent for a time. Then he waved his arm. "There are a lot of us, ain't there — ^what couldn't we do if we'd only get t'gether?" I curled my lip in disdain at the crowds that surged about us on the street. Men, like my companion — "us" — strolling along in pairs and threes, smoking, observing the life about them with a placid — ^almost bovine — con- tent. Girls, more animated, giggling, hurrying — always hurrying — ^no one could guess whither or whence, formed a colorful backgroimd. And little groups of boys, hoarse 82 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES of voice, indescribably clumsy of movement, gambolled about like puppies let out for an airing. Everywhere was movement, and everywhere, it seemed, a mysterious faith that after all, life really was worth the living. But there was no such faith in my soul. Life in the abstract, life in the mass, had never appealed to me. My friends had been few; my aversions many. Humanity, as I saw it, humanity — though I did not realize it — on the surface, bored me tremendously. I shuddered to think of the loneliness that might be mine in the midst of this vast pulsating mob. I realized dimly that during all these reflections my companion was chatting garrulously. But as his conversation seemed to proceed satisfactorily without re- gard for response, I made no effort to speak myself. But I was rudely recalled from recondite speculation to grim reality by the sight of my friend's suddenly extracted watch. "Lord!" he cried, with real consternation on his. face. "We've only got four minutes to get back to the office." "What," I asked, idly curious at this novel respect for time, "would happen to you — ^to us — ^if we were late?" "Hell from Keppy," replied the young man succinctly. "And if it happened too often, so much hell that you'd have to resign to save your face." "Would he discharge you — I mean us?" "Not a chance! He's too damned kind hearted. He'd THE JOY OF THE WORKING labor with you — and tell everybody what a fine young man you were, but — and finally he'd just have to let you go. Regretfully, you know ... or, very regretfully. In the meantime everybody in the business would have your number as a Lazy Larry — and jobs at best aren't as plentifiil as they might be. Oh, it's a great game. I've seen it puUed off lots o' times. Let's hustle." Further conversation was ended by our separation in the crowded elevator, and almost before I realized it, I was back at my desk, ready to complete my man-with-a- letter. As I sat down, Morris, the ofiice boy, came up to me. "Th' ol' man wants t' see ye, Mr, Chandos," he whis- pered with what seemed a malevolent grin. With an odd pounding of the heart I followed the young Mercury into my employer's office. "Sit down, Mr. Chandos," said Keppy, unsmiling, and not offering his hand. "Sorry I wasn't here to see you, this morning. But Brega got you started all right, didn't he?" I murmured an assent, wondering what was coming. "Good. Glad to hear of it. Good man — ^Brega. It'll pay you to follow him. One of the best in the business, he is. He'U help you a lot." A recollection of Brega's "help" rose in my mind, but I said nothing, and Keppy went on, the tone of his voice changing ever so slightly. 84 I GIVE UP CIGARETTES "By the way, Chandos, I just called you in here to give you a tip. You were a little late getting in this noon. Bad start, Mr. Chandos, bad start! I noticed that you were out with Traxler. Let me give you a tip. Don't pattern after Traxler. He's a nice young fellow, but . . . " Keppy leaned forward, and his voice grew confidential. "This stays under your hat . . . but I'll tell you, seein' it's for your good . . . I'm afraid I may have to let Traxler go. He's a mighty nice young chap, and I'd like to keep him — but he simply won't pay any attention to hours. I can't afford to let him go on like this. He'll ruin the whole office. See what he's done to you already ... I'd hate to have you fall into his ways, Chandos," he added meaningly. The interview seemed to be over, so I rose and bowed stiffly. Keppy said no more, but turned to his desk abruptly, and began writing. I opened the door and went out. My face burned, and I felt like a whipped puppy. I was certain that I detected smiles on the faces of some of the stenographers, and Miss Stromberg, whose desk was nearest Keppy's office, eyed me curiously. Never in my life had I felt more humiliated. And when I passed Traxler's compartment, and saw the poor fellow, all uncon- scious of his impending fate, buried in his work, coat off, hair tousled, my humiHation gave way to rage. He and I were "us" in being both so utterly at the mercy of those above us. 8S THE JOY OF THE WORKING As I sat down at my table, my spirit was filled with revolt not alone at my own situation, but at all the machinery of life that made it possible. AU sorts of mad resolutions to escape swarmed in my brain, and I cursed my employer fervently tmder my breath. I was grateful, therefore, even though it brought home the more clearly my impotence, when Brega came to me with more work. "And don't put so much time on it," he said with a hint of irritability in his voice. "Speed and volume are what we want more than elaborate workmanship, Mr. Chandos. You ought to finish this by four o'clock at the outside." "I dipped my pen in the ink, viciously. Foiir o'clock — ^hell . . . you'll have it by three!" 86 M' CHAPTER V NEAR-BOHEMIA Y FIRST STEP, after getting somewhat established in the routine of my work, was to seek an abode that would make less of a drain upon my re- sources than the University Club did. I did not in the least know how to go about it, but Traxler recommended his own boarding place so highly that I went out with him one evening to look it over. With the irony that so often characterizes the neigh- borhoods of great cities, it proved to be on Dearborn Avenue, not a gun shot from some of the most palatial residences the town possessed. The building itself had once been the home of wealth, when Dearborn Avenue had been an aristocratic thoroughfare; but the interior, soaked in the ineradicable odor of years of cooking, shabby and in need of the most fimdamental repairs, was aU too plainly proletarian. Traxler showed his own room with something akin to pride, but I found it difficult to conceal my disgust. I realized, however, that I was not likely to do better, so a week later, in response to Trader's sug- gestion, inspired partly by economy, and partly by real generosity, my few belongings were installed in his room; and I became a dtdy accredited representative of the 87 THE JOY OF THE WORKING "hall-room-within-seven-minutes-of-the-ioop" class that constitutes the bulk of a metropolitan population between the ages of twenty and thirty-five. I paid six dollars and a half a week for my room and board. Fifteen cents a day for my luiicheons added a dollar more. Then I had purchased a pipe, which I dili- gently but somewhat unsuccessfully sought to enjoy, and its maintenance cost me a quarter a week. Car fare, laundry, and vaudeville every Saturday, completed my budget. My only real "luxury" was my membership in the Club, which I persuaded myself I ought to keep, because it maintained the only bond between me and what I persisted in believing was my own class. For the little that remained after all expenses were met, I followed Traxler's suggestion, and secured a savings-bank; and in this, with a bitter laugh every time I did it, I deposited a very occasional nickel. Day after day I resolved to call again on Dorothy Gresham. But day after day my resolution failed me. Then one night, when Traxler happened to be away, I sat down with my pipe and endeavored to reason matters out. To begin with, it had to be admitted that in my younger days I had been in love with her — or had thought I was . . . which, after all, amounts to the same thing. Separation had cooled my ardor, and my fancy had imperceptibly faded into a sweet memory — ^nothing else. But it seemed now as if all the picture had suddenly 88 NEAR-BOHEMIA sprung into color again. What I had thought banished, was merely faded. Indeed, now, it was even clearer than it had been in the beginning. Well then . . . admitting that she was a great deal more than I had ever dreamt she could be . . . what about it? The matter must be faced practically. With a grimace I emptied my pipe and sat back with my eyes closed. Suppose I did . . . love her; yes, that was the word. I might just as well be honest with myself and face it. Suppose I did . . . what was I going to do about it? I opened my eyes and surveyed the shabby aspect of my abode. My jaw set grimly. If — ^what a tremendous word — if things were different . . . but, well — ^it was not for me to dream. My income did not permit of such luxiuies as dreams. And love — matrimony — ^all that sort of thing was of such stuff as dreams are made of. I opened my mouth and whistled blithdy — more or less. And then, exemplif3^g my spirit of martj^dom, I refilled and lighted my odious pipe. When Traxler came in later he foimd me asleep in the morris chair, with a library copy of the "Reveries of a Bachelor" in my lap . . . open at the second Revery. But my new found decision was not destined to very long life. Just a week after I had ruthlessly slaughtered all my hopes and buried them deep in forgetfulness, they sprang to life . . . and through no effort of mine. 89 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I came home late one night to find Traxler rejoicing in the receipt of a letter, which he waved at me hilariously. "For the worthy Chandos," he cried gleefully. "Your sins have found you out. I thought you knew no ladies. You're a smooth one, you are!" With a sinking heart I took the missive, and held it for a moment. And then while Traxler eyed me curiously, I tore it open. "Dear Harlan," it read, "You have treated me abomi- nably, and I am throwing maidenly pride to the winds in thus writing you. Why have you never let me hear from you? Have I changed as much as that? Do you think it fair — even decently well-mannered — to treat me this way? However, I'll forgive you if you will make up for your bad behavior by dining with me on Tuesday next — at half after seven. Will you?" I stood silently studsnng the note, biting my lip, and quite oblivious to Traxler's frankly curious stare. Then I looked at the epistle again. There was a post-script attached. "P.-S. You needn't fear being bored with me — ^there will be several really interesting people here — ^and some women that I am sure you will find worth while." I sank into a chair, staring into vacancy. My room- mate was the first to break the silence. "For goodness sake," he cried in a voice that betrayed his real concern. ' 'What's up? Anything very wrong?" 90 NEAR-BOHEMIA My reply was nothing if not enigmatic. Very care- fully I tore the note into minute bits, and deposited them in the waste-basket. Then I heaved a long sigh. "Don't, my dear Traxler," I said finally, "ever make up your mind to anjrthing. Because . . . sooner or later, you'll have to change it. And that's painful!" It was otir night for relaxation at the vaudeville, and further conversation was made impossible by the necessity for haste. Once or twice Traxler made openings for further confidences, but I repulsed hirn almost rudely each time. He must have found me hopelessly tadtum; for he finally gave me up to my own reflections, whatever they might be, while he himself devoted his entire attention to securing full value from the investment he had made in entertainment. Tuesday evening found me arrayed in attire that had become almost foreign to me. When I was all prepared, my silk hat carefully brushed — as well as it cotdd be brushed — ^my clothes nearly free from dust, with the trousers let down lower than was quite correct, so as to conceal the regrettable fact that my hosiery was not silk but cotton, Traxler summoned a few of the elect to view the Beau Brummel of the house. But their raillery was good-humored, and their essential friendliness too obvious for question. I fotmd myself, as I went out, marvelling at the undeniable fact that the interest of these people actually pleased me. To them I was making a Great 91 THE JOY OP THE WORKING Adventure, into a totally tmknown world. How the call came, they neither knew — ^nor cared greatly. It was sufficient that I was going, for them to wish me all God- speed. But as I waved my good-byes, I wondered what they would think if they knew all that lay beneath my starched shirt-bosom. . . . what a tremendously Great Adventure it really was, I laughed gaily back at the noisy crowd on the steps, but my heart was timorous. More than once before I reached the Gresham residence did I pause to reflect, and more than once did a mad impulse to flight seize me. But I resolutely forced m3rself on, and presently found myself in Dorothy's drawing room, .shaking hands with the hostess in the most matter of fact manner imaginable, quite as if I did it every day in the year. My imagination had woven such a scene about this meeting that its undramatic reality almost bewildered me. I realized, vaguely, that Dorothy was rebuking me pleasantly for my treatment of her, and I answered her mechanically. Then, of a sudden, like a bit of drift-wood, cast up by the waves, I found mjraelf quite alone, high and dry gainst the wall, while the hostess was welcoming another guest. I found the respite a gratifying one, partly because it gave me time to collect my scattered thoughts, and partly because it aflEorded me an opportunity to study the gathaing. 92 NEAR-BOHEMIA And as I stood there, in contemplative silence, a half- smile broke over my face. It surely was a gathering worth studjnng. The women, almost without exception, were badly dressed, a characteristic that lent a certain uniformity to them. But the men were sharply differ- entiated — different in size, manner, voice, language — everything. At first it seemed to me that all were talking, but I soon realized that they merely talked in different ways. Some used words, but some told all they wished in gesture, and some even were satisfied with their shoiil- ders ... or their eyes. But further consideration of the amusing spectacle was cut short by Dorothy herself, who caught my arm and drew me toward one of the voluble groups. "Forgive me, Harlan," she cried, "I forgot that you knew none of these people. Miss Hardinge-Jones," she turned to a tall, severe looking female of indeterminate age, "allow me to present Mr. Chandos." I bowed my acknowledgments, but the lady abated none of her frigidity until Dorothy mentioned casually that I was fresh from Paris. Then she smiled quite affably. Rapidly my hostess piloted me from group to group, introducing me to each one, and permitting but a word of acknowledgment before I was hurried on to the next. "Of course you won't remember their names from this," she explained, "But I'll have you next to me at dinner, and I can point them out to you." 93 THE JOY OF THE WORKING 'Tardon me, Dorothy/' I asked, "but is this — er — Chicago's Bohemia?" She looked at me quizzically for a moment, as if trying to see whether I was disposed to jeer or not. Then she smiled a little defiantly, I thought. "Everyone here is famous for something," she said "Oh, pardon me a moment, Harlan. Billy will be lost in this crowd." She hurried to greet a new-comer who had just entered. I lecognized him as Harrower. But my momentary feeling of surprise was lost in my interested comparison of the young man with the other guests, as Dorothy intro- duced him to them. He was conspicuously of better phj^aque, and his clothes fitted him infinitely better. There was a clear, out-door look to his eyes and skin, too, that none of the other men had; and his dean shaven mouth gave an appearance of candor that contrasted well with the beards and moustaches of the others. "Here's someone you know, BiUy," I heard Dorothy say, and I saw Harrower hold out his hand. But the momentary flash of relief on his face was succeeded by a slight reserve, and his greeting was not warm. I was grateful for the annotmcement of dinner. At diimer I found myself seated between Dorothy and a Miss Bennett, a tall, thin woman with a curiously sharp- featured face that told me nothing of her temperament. She was dressed like all the other women, though, if possible, in a little worse taste. Her voice was metallic 54 NEAR-BOHEMIA and her method of speaking, abrupt, conves^ing an im- pression of perpetual impatience. We had been seated only a moment when Dorothy leaned over to me. "You won't be angry if I don't talk to you, will you Harlan?" she whispered. "I've simply got to devote myself to Billy here. You talk to Muriel Bennett . . . she'll tell you all about these people, if you ask her." She would have been surprised had she knoWn how grateful I was for her words. They absolved me from a conversation that I feared, and although I realized that it was at best temporary, I yet welcomed any reprieve. So I turned to Miss Bennett. "Tell me, please," I said, "who these difiEerent people are . . . and what?" She laughed, showing her large teeth prominently. "Introductions don't do you much good, apparently, Mr. Chandos." "What's a name without a description?" I repUed. "Tell me something about this gathering." "Well, beginning with Dorothy, there's Mr. Harrower, He's the only one I don't know." "He's the only one I do," I laughed, "So proceed." "Next to him is Miss Hardinge- Jones. She's a sculp- tress of considerable note . . , locally, at least." "Whence the — er — ^hard look in her face?" "The same reason that I look hard. Because she gave up life for a 'career.' " 95 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I looked at Miss Bennett critically. But if there was any seriousness underlying her strange words she con- cealed it by hurrying on, "The next exhibit is Albert Winston. His books are on every news-stand, and his income is positively indecent. You look like an intelligent young man, so I assume that you have read none of his work. But Albert himself is the very antithesis of his books. He writes for the gum chewers and buys Corots with the proceeds. Profes- sionally I detest him. Personally I enjoy him intensely. "On his left is HUda Carew . . . the fluffy little thing. She does interior decoration . . . that looks just like she does. Lots of color, florid, bizarre, and — " "In atrocious taste?" I supplemented interrogatively. Miss Bennett looked at me for a moment. Then she leaned over to Dorothy. "How far may I go with this young man?" she whispered. "Knock to your heart's content, Muriel," Dorothy responded cheerfully. "The others will do the same by you later on." Miss Bennett showed her teeth in a smile that was not entirely pleasant. "I guess that's true," she murmured, "so I shall proceed to demolish every reputation at the board." "Do your worst," said I. "I'll discount your profes- sional criticisms, and swallow only the personal." 96 NEAR-BOHEMIA "I see you have lived long enough in Paris to know something of Bohemia," she said quizzically. "I have been an interested observer of the essential folly in Ruskin's belief that a great work always sprang from a great man. But don't let's wander into the general. Please go on with the specific." "Well, next to Miss Carew is Douglas Roget. He's a dilettante and dabbler who writes delightful little essays on topics in which no one could possibly be interested. He's an entertaining chap. Talks brilliantly — ^and says nothing. Quite an art, it must be. Puerility in epigram, you know. "At his left sits Mrs. Wodehouse. Bluest of the blue- stocking University crowd, and general impressario for her husband, who teaches English and writes stories to keep in touch with life. It was quite an accompUshment for Dorothy to get them here tonight. Personally I find Mrs. W. very dull, but her presence never fails to put an intellectual O. K. on any gathering." "What does she talk about?" I asked. "She doesn't talk," replied Miss Bennett. "She criti- cizes. She's like me. Her forte is to catch other people up in their errors. She's a perfect genius at maintaining accuracy. "Beside her, the youngish man with the mournful, ethereal expression, and the magnificent appetite, is Bartolo*. He's a violin in the Orchestra for a living, and 97 THE JOY OF THE WORKING a musical genius for fun. To hear him talk at a gather- ing like this you'd never suspect what a gross little hog he really is. Aside from music he's an utter ignoramus, but emotional women simply idolize him. Rather good looking, though, isn't he?" I laughed. "Well, now that you have them all dock- eted, please finish off with Miss Bennett." "Miss Bennett is an add person of a great many more years than she admits, who writes for newspapers or anyone who will employ her, on art and painting. That sounds like a tautology — but isn't. She has an amiable strain in her but up to date no one has been able to dis- cover it. She is courted by those aspiring to fame, and heartily disliked by those who think they have it. Really, my yotmg friend, she is an exceedingly disagreeable creature. But now . . . in return for all my slanders . . , tell me about Mr. Chandos. What is his tnMier?" I laughed almost bitterly. "I cannot tell you his mitier, for the very excellent reason that he has none." "That is the usual reply of those who amount to some- thing," said Miss Bennett with a severity that belied the flattery of her words. "But it proves that w^tever your interests are, they lie outside the artistic world. Unblushing egotism seems the necessary concomitant of art. , Now describe yourself without further parley." "Very well," said I, rather enjoying the dismal task of 98 NEAR BOHEMIA recotinting my woes. "I was bom rich, and now am poor. I was educated for art, acquired a taste for books, pictures, music — and now I'm in business." "Sort of an expatriated Bohemian, dwelling lonely in the country of the Philistines, eh?" "Precisely." "What brought you to Chicago? . . . Dorothy told me she had a man fresh from the Boulevards." "Stem necessity," I said shortly, unwilling to go into the painful details of my emigration. "I was bom here, you see, and I thought I'd like to die here too." "So you're in business, eh? What?" "Advertising." "Write?" "No— draw." "So— who with?" "Keppy Company." Miss Bennett looked at me curiously — almost pityii^ly, I fancied. "So you're with Keppy are you. Well, he's arrived ... by the dollar test." "You know something of his business, then? Tell me about it — please." "Heavens — I don't know anything about his business. But I know htm. It's my business to know everybody. I'm a professional gossip. That's why I wanted to know all about you. That is also why . . . whisper it 99 THE JOY OF THE WORKING . . . people are nice to me, even when they're anything but nice about me!" "Well, then, tell me about Keppy." "Oh, nothing much to tell. He's a very ordinary man. Conscientiously dishonest, with the 'all's fair in business' doctrine firmly fixed in his mind. He's very conventional — particularly in his dishonesties. Very generous . • . in conventional charities, but a slave-driver otherwise. He has a genius for getting others to make money for him. But if he drives others, his wife drives him. She started him in business, and she never lets him forget it. She's society-mad . . . It's through her that I came to know about him. But here, Mr. Chandos, you've made me behave very badly. I've absolutely monopolized your conversation. Now talk to Dorothy for a while." I could not very well protest, particularly as Dorothy turned to me at that very minute. But I experienced a slight sinking of the heart, and Harrower's baleful eye across the table did not increase my comfort. However, there was nothing for it but to plunge bravely in. "What did I say that so offended you?" said Dorothy softly, without looking at me. "I don't quite understand," I replied mendaciously, sparring for time. "You were sorry that I asked you here tonight." Her tone was half interrogative. 100 NEAR-BOHEMIA "Dorothy!" I did my best to convey an impression of shock. I failed completely, and I knew it. "Do you want me to tell you what went on in your mind?" "Pray do," I said humbly. "Nothing could interest me more." But my sarcasm was lost on her. "You think I don't know," she said in the same tone, tojdng thoughtfully with her wine-glass. "But I do. When you came back to Chicago, you were lonely. You cast about for something . . . someone . . . that would coimect you with the city. And I proved to be . . . . the nearest. You . . ." "Really, Dorothy," I cried, "this is . . ." "Please don't interrupt. You came to see me — to find out what I was like. And you — ^well . . . you found that 'the flower that once is blown forever dies.' I didn't offend you by anything I said. I simply disap- pointed you by what I was — or what I was not. You were hurt because I hadn't remained the same . . . and because you hadn't. Isn't that all so?" There was some- thing almost wistful in her voice, as if she hoped against hope that I would tell her she vras mistaken. The appalling way in which feminine intuition some- times goes astray often leads me to wonder why it main- tains its hold upon the human mind as one of the indis- putable things of life. In the present case I was too stunned for speech at the thorough-going way in which lOI THE JOY OF THE WORKING Dorothy had let intuition entangle her. Had she tried she covdd not have hit farther from the mark. And the thought made me snule, involimtarily. She caught the effect, without, of course, realizing the cause, and she stiffened instantly. "It is siUy of me, isn't it, to make such a fuss over the fact that I don't particularly interest you?" she said frigidly. "It seems to be my fate to throw myself at your reluctant head." "My dear girl ..." It was all I could do to refrain from seizing her hand, lying so tantalizingly close to mine. "If you only knew what unutterable nonsense you are saying!" "Are you trying to see how much you can hurt me?" Her voice trembled ever so slightly. "If I tried with all my might to hurt you, I could not inflict a thousandth part of the misery on you that you have already inflicted upon me," I said in a voice that for all my efforts I could not keep quite steady. She turned and looked quite sharply at me for several moments. When she finally spoke her tone was severely even. Plainly she did not in the least understand the turn our conversation was taking. It irritated her . . . as it always irritates a woman to feel the mastery of a situation slipping from her. She had suddenly sensed an aggressor in me, and all her wistfulness vanished in a sudden effort to don her armor. 102 NEAR-BOHEMIA "Just exactly what do you mean?" Her lips were a little more compressed than usual, as she studied me. I tried to be flippant, because I felt that in persiflage lay my salvation. "Ah, dear lady, if I told you the truth, you would convict me of flattery. And nothing so hurts the sincere as the charge of insincerity." "If you prefer not to explain, that is of course your privilege," said Dorothy very coldly, but with just the faintest suspicion of a droop at the comers of her mouth. Whether that droop was conscious or not, makes little difference. It was none the less the final shot that demol- ished all my slow-buUt resolution. Slowly, almost regret- fully, I ran up the white flag. "I have staid out of the garden," I said very softly, with a tenderness as natural as my voice itself, "because the flower was not for me. There is your answer!" "It wasn't the flower, then?" "No . . . it wasn't the flower." "And . . . you're not . . . entirely disappointed?" She lifted those glorious eyes of her's the veriest trifle, and glimpsed me from under lashes that proved the Creator a man . . . no feminine deity would ever have armed her sex with such weapons! "Disappointed ... I ..." It wiU avail nothing to wonder what I almost said. The only fact that is of interest is the fact that I did not say it! Some anonymous savior from down the table called Dorothy's 103 THE JOY OF THE WORKING name, and thus effectually recalled me to myself. I sat back, trembling uncontrollably. I felt as if there must be cold sweat on my forehead. My emotions were similar, I think, to those of a man sliding down a steep roof, who gives himself up for lost . . . and then, just as his feet go over the brink, a friendly spike catches his coat collar and brings him up with a jerk. But just as a coat may tear, I cherished no illusions as to the per- manence of my present safety. Feverishly I tried to secure once more the conversational attention of Miss Bennett. As I turned, I caught the gaze of Harrower fixed upon me. There was a look in his eyes that seemed positively malevolent. But further thought of Harrower or my sudden escape, was ended by the rising of the ladies, and the consequent gathering of the men for that curiously barbaric function known as "smoking." The custom of ladies leaving the gentlemen, after dinner, to their cigars and coffee, originated, I suppose, in the fact that the ladies did not smoke. The gentle crea- tures repaired to the drawing rooms, there to discuss babies, clothes, scandal, and the multitudinous nonsense with v,-hich their dependent lives were filled. But nowa- days, though the form is unchanged, the substance is vastly different. The feminine horizon has broadened trranendously, and women have few interests that they hold beneath or above them. They repair to the drawing rooms, as before, but they smoke themselves. They still 104 NEAR-BOHEMIA talk of babies and scandal — ^but civics and politics — even business — as well. I rather welcomed the respite from lovely woman, if the truth be told; and I wanted to see what manner of men were these about me. With the single exception of narrower, who sat gloomily by himself, chewing a large black cigar, they all seemed to know one another. The discussion was general, and I set myself to listen. But I was not sorry when we rejoined the ladies, though I cannot truthfully say that the remainder of the evening filled me with unalloyed delight. The quality of the conversation changed completely, it is true; but it changed too much. From stupid pettiness it leaped at one bound to the most magnificent pedanticism. I think it was Macaulay who observed that "there cannot be a conversa- tion between more than two persons." Dorothy's gathering would have justified him. Everybody talked, but so far as I could tell, nobody listened. Each one spouted upon his chosen milier, and each one endeavored not so much to add to the general knowledge about his subject, as to say something that would call for a little applause. It was really comic the way they went through their verbal capers. Someone, in a moment of awful carelessness, had applied to them the dangerous word "clever;" and each one was exerting himself to the utnlost to justify it. They were an adjectivial lot, if I may use the term. Their lives were verbally superlative. Ego- THE JOY OF THE WORKING tism was the key-note of them all, and the constant reitera- tion of "I" was like an obligato running through their punditical song. It must sound strange for me, a confessed exponent of "culture," to thus decry the efforts of these people. But the culture I had known seemed at the time like a vastly different thing. As I look back on it now I realize that cant is cant, whether it be uttered in French or English, whether its siUy little com^y be played in Chicago or Paris. But as I stood then in Dorothy's drawing room, listening to little Bartolo mournfully descanting upon the marginal consciousness of Debussy, to Miss Carew vaguely but industriously expressing her views on the philosophy of color, to the intermittent popping of Douglas Roget's witticisms, with their coordinate smoke of applause, I felt supremely bored, though precisely the same sort of nonsense uttered in a Parisian salon would have impressed me vastly. I see the absurdity of my position clearly enough now, but at the time I was too wearied, I suppose, to think of anything but my own ennui. The fortunes of conversation brought me at last to the side of the aspersive Miss Bennett. She smiled cheerfully at my approach, and promptly turned her back on the gentleman with whom she had been talking, an insult that I laid, rightly, less to my own charms than to her indifference to him. 1 06 NEAR-BOHEMIA "Well," she said, "and how are you getting on in our exotic ranks?" "Come over here." I led the way to a lounge near a large palm where we would be out of the main channels of verbiage, and might talk without getting swamped in the wash of pseudo proftmdity that swirled about the centre of the room. "Tell me what's the trouble with me," I said. "I'm bored . . . horribly." "Who've you been talking with ... or rather, who's been talking to you?" I gave her a smile for the cleverness of the distinction. "It isn't specific — ^it's general. And it isn't objective — it's subjective." She looked at me narrowly for a moment. "How many painters do you know — painters that can really paint — who wear pancake hats and flowing ties and velvet jackets and flufEy brown beards?" And when I looked a little puzzled, she went oh: "These people aren't cultured . . . they're only the whipping boys of ciilture. They keep the people off, entertain them while the real show goes on inside the tent. Dorothy Gresham's a nice girl, but she couldn't get the men and women who actually do big things inside her house with a halter. They're too busy worldng to talk. These people here . . . oh, I might as well be perfectly frank , . . work is a side issue. Talk is the main thing in life for them. Look on all this as a farce. Forget the tragedy of puny man 107 THE JOY OF THE WORKING gambolling before his mirror. Don't take them seriously • . . only seem to. And talk some twaddle yourself." "But I never used to feel this way!" I cried, like a child who has been hurt through no fault of its own. "You never used to work for a living," she said seriously. "Let me tell you something, young man, and let me assure you that it comes from one who knows. You can't toil for your daily bread at unpleasant tasks and maintain many illusions about yourself. You lose illusions about your work, and presently the stripping process reaches yourself. In your old days, I suppose, you were all wrapped up in illusions. You're losing them. You're beginning to get acquainted with yourself . . . you're learning what you really are." "But you ... do you take them seriously?" "I? Heavens! ... I don't take anybody seri- ously. I've dallied with newspapers so long that I'm fairly saturated with the Commie Humaine. There isn't any tragedy in life for me . . . and so nothing saddens me. And there's nothing serious ... so nothing irritates me. I am the perfect incarnation of detachment. Try it, my friend. Be an observer of life, and nothing will trouble you. Of cotu-se you'll never accomplish anything," she added cynically, "but — well .... read the immortal Guy's 'Gargon — Un Bock.' Learn the philosophy of stagnation!" I suppose I must have looked my bewilderment at her 1 08 NEAR-BOHEMIA rapid staccato conversation; for her face softened notice- ably, and her voice sank lower. She was silent for a moment, and then a tired, wistful expression came into her eyes. "I said there was no tragedy in life. Why, I'm a tragedy myself. I've practiced talking euphemistic metaphysical nonsense for so long that I can't seem to talk any other way. But I'm not trying to glitter for you ... I paid for my dinner long ago. I know your trouble, though . . . because I had something similar to it myself — once. I could tell you the cure, too . . . only it never is a cure until we find it out for ourselves. And besides — ^the quicker you find it, the quicker you'll lose all the little interest you have now, in me. You and I could be good friends — ^mighty good friends," she said a trifle sadly, "If you staid where you are. But you won't . . . you won't. And it's better so . . . "She certainly is a beauty," said Miss Bennett without rancor, after a pause. I almost jumped. I was perfectly unconscious of it, but women commonly see some things that a man does not even suspect are there. It was as if she had followed my eyes and brought back the same message that they brought to me. As I say, I had not even been aware that Dorothy was in my line of vision. It was uncanny, and Miss Bennett's next words did little to quiet my nerves. "But if you fall in love with her . . . you'll have 109 THE JOY OF THE WORKING a tussle," she mimnured with complete dispasaon, almost as if she was talking to herself. "You might much better marry me. It would be easier." Recalling that curious speech now, I am amazed that I had not the least thought of an tmworthy motive behind her words. She could not possibly have been so indiscreet had she been in the slightest degree malicious. My lanhostile reception of that remark was the greatest com- pliment I could have accorded her. The remainder of the evening wore away like a dream, in which my figure was the most wraith-like. I listened, and I suppose I talked — somewhat. I saw Dorothy only once again, and that was in the flutter incident to the breaking up of the party. It was a queer trick of Fate that I should find myself on the sidewalk beside Harrower. He made some remark that I did not catch, and strode on as if my presence was unworthy of further note. "Queer lot there tonight, weren't they?" I said anaicably. His only reply was a noncommittal nod. "They bored me," I went on, refusing to submit to his disdain. "How did they strike you?" He merely shrugged his shoulders. I affected not to notice his indifference, and went on talking in a strain which was not only a true expression of my own thoughts, but must, I felt, find him in complete accord. no NEAR-BOHEMIA "I'd rather watch a lot of trained seals!" I declared vindictively. "I dislike to witness man, made in the image of his Maker, demonstrating the foUy of creation. It hurts my vanity. And did you ever see an odder crew of females? That glacial sculptress . . . what was her name? . . ." "Hardinge-Jones." Harrower's tone seemed very slightly warmer. "Right. Hard . . , forgive the pun . . . but she was like reinforced concrete!" I cried. "No wonder she cuts marble. It must be like butter In her hands. And the nonsense she talks . . . the bigger the words the smaller the sense." narrower turned and stared at me curiously. "I thought you were one of those artist chaps yourself," he said, almost suspiciously. So that was it. I might have guessed as much. "Dear no," I dismissed the canard. "I draw for a living, that's all. I'm no artist." "But I thought . . . Dorothy told me, you know . . . that you had been in Paris • . . sort of, well, forgive me . . . she didn't say it, but that's the impression I got . . . idling your time away with art . . . and all that sort of stuff. You're not offended?" I snuled pleasantly, and I tried to put a note of proper humility into my voice. "You're quite right. I was III THE JOY OF THE WORKING idling. The trouble with me was too much money. But I'm all over that now. I want to get into a man's world, and associate with men. I'm tired of the rotten twaddle like they served up to us tonight. I . . ." "Say," narrower interrupted me with the universal American title of sentences. "Say — ^this is my comer. If j'ou aren't sleepy, I , I'd — er — ^like to have you come up to the rooms for a little chat. I've got some good Bourbon and smokes." There was an entirely new note in his voice. I was delighted, and I said so. My little ruse, if you covild call it that, had worked splendidly. Harrower had apparently capitulated, and he seemed positively anxious to talk to me further along the lines I had indicated. His invitation was very welcome. I followed him into the apartment house in which he made his home. His rooms were just what I expected. A piano, with the latest popular hits piled on top. "Art," represented by Whistler's "Mother," Reynold's "Age of Innocence," Hals' "Laughing Cavalier," Rembrandt's "Anatomy," — and similarly worthy, but painfully trite subjects. Each one was surrounded by a respectful retinue of photographs — mostly of men, be it said to his credit — ^and the usual gathering of "heads" by Harrison Fisher, Christie, and the rest of the journeymen illustrators. There was a refresh- ing absence of the "art gems" commonly supposed to adorn iia NEAR-BOHEMIA bachelor apartments; and no signed photographs of wickedly lovely coryphSes. My impression of Harrower as a clean cut, if slightly dull young man, was borne out by a brief inspection of the books on his table. It has always been a notion of mine that a man is much better judged by the books he keeps, than by the friends; for in books there is an absence of the motives that play so large a part in all human relation- ships. Let me see a man's library, and I feel that I can attain a rather accurate estimate of what he is. Harrower's books were a demonstration of his total freedom from pose. The average library table is an indi- cation of the reverse. People who buy books because they are talked about, and to "keep up," inevitably place their heaviest ordnance where it wiU command the widest sweep. Their boudoirs may be littered with Bertha Clay and that paper-covered fraternity which some one has said should bear the sign of the olden inns — "Entertainment within for man and beast"; but down- stairs Bergson and James will dispute with Maeterlinck in vicarious maintenance of sham, while Dickens and Thackeray repose in impressive desuetude behind their dignified half-morocco. Harrower's books told his story frankly. E. Phillips Oppenheim, open and face down, lay candidly beside a well worn copy of Hadley's "Economics." A small volttme entitled "Orchestral Instruments" disputed place "3 THE JOY OF THE WORKING with a large pile of popular magazines; while in a rack on the other side were "A History of Railroading," "The Rise of the French Nation," "Reconstruction and the Constitution," "The Three Musketeers," "A Dictionary of Poetical Quotations," "The Song of Songs," "Practical Accounting," "Famous Indian Chiefs," "Efficient Sales- manship," and "The Enjoyment of Art," by Carleton Noyes. It was a curiously purposeless jumble, but entirely characteristic of any man. A library table that is otherwise than purposeless is apt to indicate either a narrow mind, or the mind of a careful poseur. Harrower's tastes, if perhaps untutored, were certainly not devoid of catholicity. I picked up the little book on art. "This is a good thing: don't you find it so?" I asked. I had read it casually, and found it an excellent exposition of aesthetic fundamentals. I was rather curious to know why Harrower was reading it, and what there was in it for him. His reply was almost apologetic. "It has a lot of good stuff in it," he said, "but it didn't answer the questions I hoped it would. Noyes doesn't talk a bit like that crowd tonight. You see . . ." He dropped into a chair and fell to opening the whiskey bottle. "Dorothy — she seems to find something in those sort of people, and I wanted to find out what it was. She used to treat me . . . good Lord! she does now . . . as a rather nice, stupid little boy, whenever the subject of art came up. And it made me sore. I thought 114 NEAR-BOHEMIA I'd find out what all this art stuff was about. But I gUess I'll have to get some more books," he finished dismally. "I couldn't make head or tail out of that twaddle tonight. Here — ^the soda's in that cupboard beside you." It was rather curious. Here was Harrower coming to me for advice on precisely the same terms as I had gone to Miss Bennett. So I felt justified in plagiarizing quite shamelessly. "Your books on art won't enable you to talk the lan- guage of those people. You don't need to know much about art . , . What you've got to learn is how to talk. Art's just the excuse for conversation. Contem- plate yourself more . . . acquire a temperament, if you can . . . memorize some good bits . . . and you'll be ready to vie with the best of them !" But my suggestions failed to satisfy him, that was plain. And his next words showed me why. His diffi- culty was not an abstract one ... it was very keenly personal. I could have screamed at the irony of the situation. "I wish I could get Dorothy Gresham away from that outfit," he sighed with ill-concealed bitterness. "She's simply hipped on the subject of culture . . , and I bore her to death! I've gone to the Thomas Concerts regularly, and tried my damnedest to learn the difference between a fugue and a cantata, and I've almost memorized those miserable program notes, so that I could at least "5 THE JOY OF THE WORKING , look as if I had a brain beside that water-spined pup Bartolo. But it's no use. She's got me catalogued as hopelessly without culture . . . and I guess she's right. I've worn my shoes out chasing through the Art Institute, and I've wasted all kinds of time trying to leam to talk intelligently about what I see. But every time I get nervy and throw a bouquet at something I've doped out is about O. K., I get the lifted eye-brow, and a pained look as much as to say, 'Well, never mind, little boy, you'll learn.' Hang it all, Chandos, I can't seem to get the system! If I put as much effort into playing the gee-gees I'd be a millionaire. But I can't put over this art stuff ... I get the double cross every deal!" I tried to lead him on in the direction he had taken, but he switched back, with galling perversity, to the very subject I was most anxious to avoid. "You know Dorothy well . . . what a ripping fine girl she is. What do you think of her chumming with these long haired men and short haired women? I'm not thinking only of myself — (what a stupendous falsehood!) Think what would happen if she was to run off and marry one of 'em — Bartolo, for example. Why in thimder can't she stay with her own kind, instead of playing with a lot of human phonographs? I hope you won't mind my say- ing it, but, well — ^the fact is — I — er — ^had a sort of notion you were a bird of the same feather yourself. I'm mighty glad to find out you aren't. Between us we ought to be ii6 NEAR-BOHEMIA able to caie Dorothy of this fad of her's, don't you think? It's nothing more than a fad . . . I'm sure of that." I nodded my head in complete acquiescence, the while I marvdled at Harrower's amazing revelation of self. I suppose he felt that I could not ^thorn the personal interest that lay behind his laudable desire to rescue Dorothy from the enervating atmosphere of sham that surrounded her; but it made me feel very uncomfortable. I seemed to be receiving confidences under the falsest of false pretenses, but for the life of me I saw no way to check the flow of his conversation- Finally I managed to divert hrm a trifle by picking up the "Economics" on the table, and making some observation concerning it. "Oh, that," Harrower's voice was bitter. "I thought a chap in business ought to know something about general business fundamentals, so I thought I'd brush up in my economics." But I could not keep his mind from its first channel. "Dorothy kicks at my never having anything to say for mjreelf," he sighed wearily. "But when I talk about the only things I know, I bore her. She calls me sordid . . . in a nice way, you know . . . but she means it just the same. I sometimes think it's her very niceness that gets my goat so. She seems to have such a forbearing Christian tolerance for the mere filthy business of getting money. But here . . . I'm ^aid I'm ending up by borii^ you, too. That seems to be my fate!" 117 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I protested . . . and with perfect sincerity . . . that such was far from the case. But my self-respect would permit of my staying no longer to hear his unguarded confessions, and so, after a few desultory remarks on things in general, I bade him good-night. His assurances of regard, as I left, were meant cordially, I have no doubt, but somehow or other, they rather hurt. I had a pre- science of the pain I was to be the involvmtary means of inflicting upon him. I tried to salve my conscience by assuring myself that he and Dorothy were essentially unsuited to each other; but I realized perfectly that all such assurances were casuistry, pure and simple. My arguments, however, resulted satisfactorily enough, and for the remainder of the journey home I was able to whistle quite jauntily. It was not until I stood in the hall-way of my boarding house, surrounded by the mocking ghosts of coimtless cabbages, my shadow wavering dimly in the dismal gas- Hght, that gloom clutched at my heart like the hand of a grim, relentless giant. ii8 CHAPTER VI TEN STRIKE I SUPPOSE habit is the least valued blesang we have . . . but how ghastly would life be without it. Every man, I think, beginning work, experiences more or less suffering. But in most cases, work has always been in the most natural sequence of events. It does not present itself as an inconceivable catastrophe, to be under- gone, with a fierce sense of injustice, as one imdergoes a cataclysm of nature. It is simply a matter of getting used to the yoke . . . and then a more or less equable straining at the load, until death presents discharge papers. Each novice into the fraternity of toil has the experi- ence of his father and brothers, his friends and intimates, to draw upon. He has behind him the collective inspira- tion of his community, the commendation of his women folk. Even in his darkest hours he can look about him, and see the initiate in satisfactory enjoyment of their faculties. Life, if not quite rosy, is certainly not the unrelieved indigo of his own. When his heart grows faint with its burden these things give him courage to struggle onward. And then, almost without realizing it, he becomes accustomed to it all . . . work becomes 119 THE JOY OF THE WORKING a habit . . . and he cannot go back to irresponsibility if he would. My own case had no such compensations. Working for one's daily bread had always appeared to me as thor- oughly reasonable and right for those that had to; but in no way applicable to myself. The necessity for toil came, therefore, as a shock whose extent I cannot hope to express. "Getting on" had never struck me as other than an academically slang phrase. Developing a conception of the cosmos had appeared as my prime function in life . , . and intelligent pursuit of happiness. Even now, when I may call m3rself a toiler among toilers, when my notions of life are as earthly as close contact with reality can make them, I am not prepared to reverse that early faith. What was vague and instinctive, then, is firm and concrete now — a matter of the head rather than the heart. A man's chief . . . yes, his sole purpose in life, is the pursuit of happiness. The only change in my philosophy is in the method of attaining its end. But in those early days as a toiler for hire, I had room for few thoughts that were not of bitter revolt. That I, the pure, ethereal flower of culture, the supremely edu- cated, the philosophic, should be forced into the indignities of an utter dependency upon my inferiors, kept my blood boiling in never ending resentment. It was the monotony of it all that hurt the most. After the novelty of my surroimdings had vanished . . . I20 TEX STRIKE which came quiddy, becaiise I was content with super- fidalitks, and did not seek, as I have since learned to seek, for the things that make the machinery go ... I became supremely bored. The unrelieved tedium of wretched drawing; the constant strife with clients, dis- satisfied with what they were given, and totally incapable of indicating what they wanted to be given; the petty quaxrels and jealousies of those about me, into which I was drawn as a cork in a whirlpool; the myriad unpleasant- nesses with my employer ... I thought I should go mad with the drudgery of it alL I felt as if I was held fast in a net, that all my struggles only bound me faster. Not a ray of hope came to me. Traxler was a great source of wonderment to me in those days. Completely without what we rather incor- rectly call "education," he had somehow or other acquired a philosophy of Kf e that was my constant envy. Nothing — at least nothing that I ever knew of — could disturb his mental equilibrium. "Call downs" from Keppy that would have incited me to murder, seemed to affect him no more than a breeze in spring. He had a coating of philosophic grease that rendered him perfectly impervious to any rain of denunciation whatsoever. It was not that he lacked spirit, either. "Let him holler," he would say comfortably when I remonstrated with htm for his indifference to insult. "It shows him up more than it does me. I've got a good job, and he 121 THE JOY OF THE WORKING won't fire me as long as I let him bawl me out. What's the use of getting sore?" And then he wovild proceed to a discursive elaboration upon the virtues of resignation for salaried men. These discussions invariably termi- nated in the same way. Traxler would point out the manifest errors in my rebellious attitude, and I would reply resentfully with the charge that he had no ambition . . . which was true. Whereat he, knowiag it was true, would relapse into offended silence, and presently turn to his never-absent book. Of readers I have known many in my life, but for catholicity of taste I have never known anyone remotely to compare with Traxler. His range was due, however, not so much to elasticity of interest, as to an unconquerable weakness for second- hand book-stores. The only thing that surpasses my marvel at the extent of his reading, is the amount that he managed to forget. A fact, which when pointed out in a moment of irritation, was disposed of in his own uniquely philosophic way by the remark that "the head is like a store-room. You can only get so much into it, and if you can't forget, you'd pretty soon have to quit reading." A conviction in which he remained unargumentatively impregnable. My status in the world had not changed in the slightest after six months of aflSliation with the Keppy Company, in spite of my optimistic calculations. And as far as I could see, there was no prospect of a change for years 122 TEN STRIKE to come. And then, quite without warning, as if to con- found my dismal augury, came the change. I was sitting at my table, one morning, gazing stupidly at the hideous blankness of the wall facing our windows, when Keppy, in his usual masterful manner, entered our "studio." Ordinarily, mindful of the insecurity of salaried lives, I would have endeavored to present an appearance of tremendous industry; for Keppy was one of those ignorant slave-drivers who feel that an artist may be handled precisely as one might handle track-layers, and that any time wasted by staring out of windows, was, all sophistry to the contrary, stealing the good money he paid out for salaries. But on this particular morning, having had a particularly tmsavory breakfast, and suffer- ing from a species of mental dyspepsia in addition, I was frankly rebellious. I went on calmly staring out of the window. But to my great surprise, Keppy seemed not to notice my naisbehavior. "Say," he breathed hurriedly, "Can you write?" Acknowledgment of an inability of any sort is tem- peramentally abhorrent to me. It conveys an admission of inferiority. And furthermore, I had been in the busi- ness world long enough to realize its inexpediency. So I admitted that I could write. "Well," he said, "All the copy men are busy on that Manning-Steele campaign, and it has to get off tonight. 123 THE JOY OF THE WORKING And now that damned Gresham concern calls up for a booklet they say has got to get to the printer by this after- noon. What their rush is God only knows, but they swear they've got to have it. And we're not strong enough over there to give them a chance to tie a can to us . . . they'd be only too glad of an excuse. And I can't do it because I've got a conference with Marvin on for this afternoon," he rattled on incoherently. I stopped him with a wave of my hand. The thought had suddenly "Jashed through my mind that if I could handle this task efficiently it might result in increased remuneration for my services. "Just what do they want?" I asked casually, as if the task was the simplest one in the world. Keppy looked at me narrowly. "You're sure you can get away with it?" he asked, a trifle dubiously, "They're a damned particular lot — ^you can't put over much bunk, you know!" I denied the implication with another wave of the hand. "I can't do more than try," I said bravely. And Keppy, without further parley, sat down to explain what was wanted. I could have laughed as he unfolded the matter. With what coincidences the gods delight to amuse themselves! As he talked of the Gresham Company's sudden plan to forestall an intimated competition in Champagnated Grape Juice, by putting their product at once on the 124 TEN STRIKE market, my thoughts were busy recalling two weeks that I had spent, during the previous summer, in the vicinity of Rheims. While his tongue rattled rapidly over distri- bution and dealer-influence and what not jargon, I was thinking vividly of the warm beauty of the fields of Cham- pagne. Finally he got up. "Got the dope, do you think?" he asked. And I, with my memory wandering in those blessed, care-free days in France, merely smiled. But that seemed to satisfy him and he left me, with what was doubtless intended as an encouraging slap on the shoulder. Had almost any other task of a similar nature been given me, I am sure that I would have made a dismal failure of it. But as if to compensate for my normal inefficiency, Providence had generously selected me for work that no one else in the office could possibly do as welL It was with a light heart that I filled my fountain pen and set about the task. "Why don't you dictate it?" asked Brega, who had overheard Keppy's conversation. It was on the tip of my tongue to explain that none of the stenographers would be able to write the words I intended to use — ^what a snob I was! — ^but I changed my resolution. . . . Without another word I put by my pen and pushed the button that would summon a stenographer. She came promptly, her note-book in her hand. Then a thought struck me. "Let's go into Mr. Keppy's office," 125 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I said. "This is going to be a long job, and we'll need quiet." Silently she followed me, and there was no conversation between us, other than concerning the work in hand. Simply dressed, but with uncommon neatness, she pre- sented a figure of competency that was a stimulus to me. I felt that she looked upon me with a certain tolerance, and it spurred me on to prove my own ability. In the particular matter before us, I felt that I had the oppor- tunity. All through the day, with only a short pause for luncheon, we worked steadily. The Gresham Company I forgot. I forgot that I was working for the Keppy Company. I forgot that what I was doing was mere advertising. With my eyes closed, I talked, as one would recount an adventure to a friend. Simply, graphically, without being in the least conscious of effort, I told the story of champagne, of the days of unalloyed delight that I had spent strolling with a friend through the vineyards about Rheims. Occasionally the stenographer called for the repetition of a word, but for the most part her pencil moved unflaggingly after my thought. Finally, about three o'clock, I left her to type the completed work. In the reaction after the concentration of the task, I went back to my table, and fell idly to sketching. My thoughts naturally remained on what I had been doing, and without quite realizing it, I drew simple little pen and inks of scenes in Champagne — ^the Cathedral of Rheims, 126 TEN STRIKE Lavoissier and I wandering in the vineyards, a sentry sunning himself by the roadside, an interior of a cham- pagne cave . . . extremely careless little bits that served to pass the time until the stenographer could bring me the final draft of the brochure itself. She came in presently, but I had become so engrossed in my idling that I failed to recognize her presence until she spoke. "Those are splendid, Mr. Chandos," she said. "You're going to use them for marginal decorations, I suppose?" Such a thought had never so much as entered my head. But without the slightest hesitation I admitted that such was my intention . . , How inglorious do we males become in the presence of feminine superiority! Any further discussion of the sketches was interrupted by the entrance of Keppy himself, with loud-voiced inquiry as to the state of the work, and with very obvious aston- ishment at learning that it was completed. With a characteristic rudeness that, never failed to irritate me, though I should long since have become accustomed to it, he snatched the manuscript from the stenographer, and glanced over it. His perusal was punctuated by an unintelligible running fire of comment — ^whether of praise or otherwise, I was unable to determine. Finally he threw the sheets down, so that several fell on the floor. "Well . . . that's damned fuimy stuff, but I guess itil have to do now. They haven't any right to 127 THE JOY OF THE WORKING expect an3rthing better. Ought to have known better than to call for such stuff without any notice. I hope we can get away with it. Give it to the kid and get it right over to Gresham. The old duffer's waiting for it." And with that he stalked grimly out of the little room, leaving me to face the stenographer. My face must have exhibited the chagrin and humilia- tion I felt; for she gave way to an instantly repressed smile. "I beg your pardon, Mr. Chandos — but — " "Miss Westcott," I said very severely, "you started to laugh because I looked like a whipped puppy. I don't blame you for laughing at me . . . but I do blame you for being so cruel as to see anything funny in the whipping of puppies!" She was all contrition. "Really, Mr. Chandos . . . I'm awfully sorry. Truly I am. But . . ." she giggled tmcontrollably, "you did look such a queer com- bination of . . ." she laughed again as she went out. 128 CHAPTER VII "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE I WAS sitting, one morning, some days later, in placid contemplation of the view from my window, when little Morris appeared, and with his usual contemp- tuous brevity announced that the boss wanted me. These peremptory summonses to the throne — ^usually for censure of some sort — ^irritated me immensely. They were a constant evidence of my subordination. Perhaps that is what they were designed for . . . "Sit down, Mr. Chandos," said Keppy curtly, when I entered his ofiSce. "I want to talk to you. It's about that booklet you wrote up for the Gresham people." I ' nodded, wondering what was coming. "Well, I just got a call from old Gresham himself. He said he wanted to see the chap that wrote the stuff. Damn it, Chandos — I oughtn't to have let you monkey with it !" He surveyed me balefully for a moment, and I endeavored to recipro- cate the disfavor. "I tried to make him let me come over and talk to him," he went on, "but he insisted on you. Now you'll have a ticldish job getting things smoothed over, and I want to tell you what to do." It was characteristic of Keppy never to let his subor- dinates feel that they did — or could do — anything on their 129 THE JOY OF THE WORKING own initiative. And when, as was inevitable in the majority of instances, they did do things satirfactorily without assistance from him, he managed to convey the impression that he was really the inspiration. I never ceased to marvel at the success with which the man per- suaded his underlings of his all-importance. It was only when things went wrong tihat he completely disclaimed all responsibility, and caused the author of the catastrophe to fed a deep and abiding sense of shame. This attitude was indeed ingenious; it was very helpful when a raise in salary was demanded, to be able to recount with sorrow, almost with indignation, the blunders of which the appli- cant had been the impimished author. The poor creature was likely to leave the august presence not only without the wished-for "raise," but actually rejoicing that his poor wages had not been reduced. I realized perfectly well, therefore, Keppy's purpose in putting the aitire responsibility for the Gresham brochure on my shoulders. lAy blood simmered as he went on. "Don't let on that you're not a copy writer. You might tell him that you're the $io,cxx) man I was speaking to him about." He grinned unpleasantly. I had heard before of Keppy's mendacity r^arding the salaries he paid, but this unblushing avowal disgusted me. "Tell hitn that we've been giving a lot of consideration in our con- ferences to his business." (This "conference" falsehood was one of Keppy's successful tricks with gullible dients. 130 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE Each one was made to feel that his particular afiEairs were the constant study of a gathering of "experts.") "Admit, of course," Keppy went on, "that the booklet you got up was something new, but make him think that you've been lyin' awake nights thinking about it." He grinned ^ain. "You've simply got to keep that account, Chan- dos. We can't afford to lose it. Make all the promises you want, and don't be afraid of using your imagination. You can't be squeamish in this business, you know. Gresham bilks the public, and we bilk him. That's busi- ness. You understand what I mean, I guess. Do any- thing you like, but keep that account. You've simply got to do it. Understand?" His meaning was unmis- takable. "I understand perfectly, Mr. Keppy," I said with a coldness that was quite lost upon him. And as I went out my heart was filled with unutterable disgust. Keppy was a tangible defense for all my aversion to "business." Sincerity is the soul of art, and I had dallied with the arts long enough to become sincere. The apparent lack of honor or candor or sincerity of any sort in the ways of commerce filled me, therefore, with righteous hatred. But it was an aesthetic, intellectual anger, not in the least a matter of morality. It was the artist in me that revolted at the devious practices of Keppy and his ilk. No one follows art, in any true sense, save for the art itself; but everyone that I knew in business was following business, 131 THE JOY OF THE WORKING frankly, as a means, not an end. They strove with might and main at one thing — ^to get money for other things; and however accustomed they might become to the yoke of circumstance, labor, in itself, never ceased to be essen- tiaJly a chore. In the lower classes, exploited In a hope- less, monotonous grind, toil was a means of sustenance, solely. Their hate was imderstandable. But with the so-called upper classes work was but a means to the pur- chase of luxury and pleasures quite removed from the sphere in which their wealth arose. In this attitude toward the accumulation of wealth seems to lie the ex- planation of the at-times incomprehensible differences between a man's private life and morality, and the life he leads in business. It explains why Keppy was a de- voted husband and father, the patron of numerous charities, the generous friend — ^when at the same time he was utterly unscrupulous in his dealings with his equals, and remorselessly tyrannical over the weak and helpless who had been forced by conditions beyond their control to subjugate themselves to his will. The crudest stealing, under the plea of "business," and the noblest rectitude in private life were quite within the inconsistencies of his tuiformulated philosophy. My mind was filled with this bewildering paradox on the long ride out to the factory of the Gresham Food Products Company. But as I sat waiting for an oppor- tunity to enter the office of its president, my thoughts 132 ■'WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE reverted to the strange trick that fortune was playing. I wondered if Mr. Gresham would guess that he was talking to John Chandos' son. And I wondered if Dorothy had mentioned me to him. The only thing I did not think about at all was my mission. I stopped, momentarily tongue-tied, when I first faced Mr. Gresham. I did not know then that most men were thus affected. He merely looked at me, not so much coldly as impersonally. Not a muscle of his face moved. Recovering, I stated my name and my business. An almost imperceptible movement of his hand indicated a chair, and I seated myself. "I see," he said, after a momentary pause. "You're the man, then, who wrote this booklet." He fell to drum- ming thoughtfully on the desk with his pencil, whUe I studied him. He had a curious face — ^not easily classified. My glance began at his chiti — square, aggressive, firm — and then went to the mouth. Its lips were neither thick nor thin, but the little droop at the comers gave an impression of grimness that was borne out by the dose- cropped gray mustache above. The nose was large, sharply cut, and yet not aquiline. Then I reached his eyes . . . and stopped. They were deep set and bright, tmder a broad forehead, marked only by a little vertical furrow in the centre. I could not tell whether the glint in his eyes betokened mere hardness, or the twinkle of potential humor, but I knew that equivocation 133 THE JOY OF THE WORKING was hopeless with them upon me. Then, suddenly the whole character of his expression changed, and he smiled very pleasantly. "It is different from an3rthing that we have ever had . . • but quite the best thing, too. We are going to issue it in a de luxe edition for high dass consumer dis- tribution. It is a really splendid piece of work, Mr. Chandos . . , remarkably priginal. I asked Mr. Keppy to have you come out here because I wished to compliment you personally." "Thank you very much," I said stupidly. My botUe- versement was too complete for words. "Thank you," I murmured again for want of anything better to say. A faint smile played over his face, like a flare of summer lightning, and vanished. Abruptly he proceeded. "Next to the text, the illustrations impressed me greatly. They are vastly removed from the general run of advertisement illustration. Really artistic. Who did them?" I. think I must have blushed. I never felt more utterly at a loss for poise than I did at that moment. "I did," I managed to stammer, faintly. There was just a sugges- tion of surprise in his eyes, and he hesitated a moment before speaking again. "Is that so? Well ... I must congratulate you doubly, then, Mr. Chandos." "I happen to have spent some time in Champagne 134 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE . . . and so — you see — I can draw a little . . . and so ..." I was trying hard to bear out Keppy's instructions. But I must have made a woeful botch of it. "Been with the Keppy people long?" Gresham asked suddenly. "Nearly a year," I confessed with a dreariness that I could not wholly conceal. He noted it, too. "Not entirely satisfied, eh?" And without waiting for my reply, he added, half inaudibly, "None of us ever is!" There seemed nothing more to be said, so I rose to leave. Mr. Gresham shook hands with me pleasantly, assured me again of his satisfaction with the work I had done for him, and we parted. I left feeling very well satisfied with the report that I would be able to give my employer. Keppy would of course assume all the credit, but he could not, I reflected exultantly, take away my own personal satisfaction. I was in no hurry to retimi to the office, so I dallied in the vicinity of the Gresham Company's factory. I never had outings, save on Sundays, and I scarcely knew what the city looked like on working days. The plant of the Gresham Company sprawled aim- lessly over an entire block, as if part after part had been added, with no definite plan of arrangement. The only uniformity apparent was in the dismal, weather-beaten red of the buildings. I sat down on a near-by fence to 135 THE JOY OF THE WORKING enjoy the unaccustomed Ivtxury of a cigarette, and to survey the equally unaccustomed scene. It was a scene of unadulterated ugliness. There was not a growing thing visible, and the very atmosphere seemed to be swimming in soot. The streets were im- paved, the sidewalks little more than ditches filled with cinders. To one side a locomotive stood belching smoke, and coughing intermittently at the indignity of its posi- tion. There was scarcely a human being to be seen, except a steady stream of men pushing trucks into a freight car beside a loading platform. Near where I sat a couple of unspeakably filthy infants were playing apathetically; but otherwise the streets were empty. Painted, the scene would give an impression of absolute quiet. But actually, the air was filled with noise — the raucous scream of machinery, the sudden sharp crashes, the hissing and occasional expostulation of the switch-engine, the rumble of the constantly toiling trucks — all the cacophony of industry. It was a picture that made me almost rejoice at my own position. I was at least surrounded by noble architecture — "down-town." There was life about me . . . and life not whoUy given over to the sole purpose of winning bread. Pleasure — even joyous vice — ^was on all sides of me. But here . . . what a dismal, hopeless spectacle it was. I looked again at the two Uttle lu-chins crawling in the sun — alone — their parents doubtless shut up in one of 136 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE the grim buildings about me, wearing out youth and hope and beauty — life itself — ^for what? To bring more imwished-for children into the world . . . just to live. Never before had I realized with such force the power of the simple wiU-to-live. As I sat there in reflec- tion, I wondered what there was in life to make those miserable toilers struggle on to keep it. No enjoyment of the present ... no hope for the future . . . and yet they did struggle. Once more I looked at the little creatures who would some day carry on the burden. Little proletarians in the making. Dirty they were now, but still sharing in' the inalienable birthright of all babies. Some day they would be bent and broken, ugly in mind and body. That would be when they had felt man's touch; but now, before they were quite out of God's hands, they stiU bore something of divinity. What a pity that we should aUow the beautiful gift of life that comes to us all to flicker and die out. Why must the piUng years be allowed to dull the edge of joy, until existence becomes something merely endurable . . . and finally death is the only thing to be looked for? Is it the plan of things to so arrange life that by the time we reach the curtain fall, we yawn, and are glad? Perhaps. But I never look into the faces of the little children of the poor without wondering at the Purpose that has made them yawn before the overture is ended. Life is long 137 THE JOY OF THE WORKING enough for most of us, but why should little eyes be dimmed with pain so early? These were strange thoughts that filled my mind as I sat idly dangling my legs upon a fence before the plant of the Gresham Food Products Company. Never before had the thought of altruism entered my mind. Poverty had been a vague Something, designed by the Creator when he designed' Hell and Heaven and Hunger and Death, and aU the other immutables, for inscrutable pur- poses of His own. The Scriptural assurances of the per- manence of poverty I had accepted without question. It was necessary that some people be poor, precisely as it was necessary that some people have red hair. Why, is no concern of ours. And it had seemed well-nigh blas- phemous to venture to change the express arrangements of God himself. If He had not wanted poverty, He would not have made it possible. That was my comfortable reflection . . . when I gave the subject any con- sideration whatsoever. It was my own poverty, I suppose, that really first brought home to me the significance of poverty . . . the reality of it, the horror of it. I did not know what it was to be hungry . . . but I had been near enough to the brink to be able to shiver without affectation at the possibility. Poverty, as seen through clearer eyes, took on less of the aspect of divine carelessness, and more of human cruelty. I came rapidly from merely regretting 138 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE it, to bitterly resenting it. I who had once looked sin- cerely upon "Socialists," and all critics of the established order of things, as "dangerous" people, now began to look upon them with equal sincerity, as brothers in a common cause. As I looked at those miserable children, grubbing dirtily in the road, I felt my fists clench at the hideous wrong, the pitiful injustice of any system, however long established, that would enable man legally thus to ex- ploit his fellows. Then, as if to put an exclamation point to the rising pitch of my thoughts, there came the long wail of the noon whistle, and presently, like an ant hill that has been stepped upon, the Gresham Company dis- gorged its human contents. I staid to watch them as they streamed by. The largest proportion of them was of girls . . . young, most of them. The masculine contingent seemed of all ages, from the bent old men in overalls, to boys in knicker- bockers. The spirits of the crowd, too, seemed at vastly different levels. The older ones — and some of the younger who had perhaps lived faster than their contemporaries — ^walked slowly and listlessly. But many of the others were like hounds imleashed. In a twinkling, ball games and quoits had sprung up in every vacant spot; and little knots of girls had gathered for lunch, gossip and giggles . . . much as their sisters in more elevated sections of the commtmity would gather. The scene was animated — even joyous — and for a little while the thoughts of the 139 THE JOY OF THE WORKING moments before were banished. Then it came upon me with a rush, that all this apparent happiness was but a conscious effort . . . a glossing-over of grim realities. Humanity wants to laugh — ^it has to laugh — ^and it will laugh, no matter what the odds against it. But the laughter of the wretched is the most tragic thing on earth. I sat there and studied the faces as they passed. Even the eyes that lit in smiles were dull at best. Flat-breasted, sallow-cheeked women; round-shouldered, gaunt-featured men. The similarity between the men and the women impressed me strongly. It was as if their toil had unsexed them both, bringing them ultimately to a hermaphroditic stage where they were neither one thing nor the other . . . just "working people." Harrower and Dorothy and Keppy and Gresham, and I myself, won our varying stipends in apparently different ways, but really, at bot- tom, they came from the same source — ^humanity. These wretched, feeble, Ignorant creatures, unhappy carica- tures of Nature's intent . . . these were the Atlases that bore the whole world on their bent shoulders. And as I watched them trooping by, gay in spite of themselves, and doubly pathetic for that reason, I fell to wondering with Jules Gu&de — "How long, O Lord, will Thy children suffer in silence?" Strange thoughts, these, for the aimless son of a multimillionaire, were they not? But it is neither tem- 140 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE perament nor birth that makes a conservative — ^it is what he has. And I had nothing at all! "Well, young man, you certainly are a picture of innoc- uous desuetude!" laughed a pleasant voice near me. I turned quickly to confront a young woman smiling at me. For a fraction of an instant, the sun being in my eyes, I failed to recognize her . . . then I saw that it was Dorothy Gresham. "Hello," I said, not knowing anything better. "Been out to see your father?" "Yes and no. I came out with one of the girls who visits the poor, and after I left her I went over to see father for a moment." "So you've been visiting the poor, have you?" I said thoughtfully, with my mind still on the thoughts that had filled it before Dorothy came. "Well, how do you like it?" "Loathe it, of course," she replied cheerfully. "What do you come out here for, then?" There was thinly-veiled sarcasm in my tone. "Something to do," she said wearily. "High-minded motives may actuate some of our female philanthropists — but I doubt it. Sheer boredom is the cause of most of the charity I know — ^that is, charity of the social service type." "You mean these women read Scripture and bring guava jelly to the poor instead of playing bridge?" "I certainly do. Why picture to yourself the lives we 141 THE JOY OP THE WORKING women lead. We're actually not as happy as the wretched people we try to comfort. They at least have something to do. They aren't condemned to fret their lives away in idleness. They . . ." I was dtimbfounded. This was a phase of Dorothy's character that I had not even suspected. She sensed my amazement, for her tone changed. "I see I shock you. Let's change the subject. If you're not too busy, I'd be glad to take you back to town. Or are you waiting here for something momentotis to turn up?" "Far from it," I said, as I fell in beside her. "I've merely been enjoying the sunshine. I'm on my way back to the office now. But come now, Dorothy, I don't want you to change the subject. I never dreamed you had these ideas in you. You always struck me as an unusu- ally well satisfied person. You — " "Satisfied — and with what, pray?" she interrupted truculently. " 'Society,' I suppose. Well, 'Society' is a very necessary institution. It is the best matrimonial exchange in the world. Beyond that . . . my intel- lect may not be large, but it is far too large for any more 'Society,' thank you. I scurried about^with the best of them, from luncheons to teas to balls and back again around the circle for two dreary years after I came out. Then I cut it for good. Some of my set stuck it out until they married, and were allowed to stop. But most of 143 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE them, even, have gone back — ^they found marriage wasn't the jumping off place they thought it was. They still had time to kill!" "And those who don't indulge in society indulge in altruism, eh?" "Brutally put — ^yes. How much better off you men are than we," she added thoughtfully. "And why?" "Work. You've got something to do. You don't know what it is to be really bored." "Well— why not work?" "Can't. I can't write or paint or do fancy work, and my ambitions to be a stenographer never received much encouragement. And I was shipped off to Eiu^ope once because I had expressed a violent determination to be a trained ntirse. Men are so inconsistent," she added irrelevantly. I begged her to explain the charge. "Well, look at father. He seems perfectly willing to have me waste my time playing at life until some properly eligible young man can marry me. He doesn't seem to see that I'm no longer the little girl he used to dandle on his knee. And he forgets, too, that he's forever con- demning the men who dance with me and take tea with me, and call on me Sunday afternoons — ^the very men I've got to get a husband from — ^because they don't work as hard as he did. He's forever talking about the beauties of work, but he can't seem to see that what's good for men 143 THE JOY OF THE WORKING ought to be at least as good for women. He says the two sexes are fundamentally different. I say they're not. What do you think about it?" "Making the best of necessity," said I, "I quite agree that men should work. But women . . . frankly, I don't know just what I think about that. If you had asked me a year ago I could have told you readily enough, I idealized women, then. I'm afraid I don't so much, now!" "That's just it," she cried vehemently. "We don't want to be idealized . . . put away in cotton wool, to be taken out and played with in leisure moments. But what are we going to do? I remember once, in school, we had a man chemistry teacher. For a while he treated me like a boy, and I just loved him for it. He wasn't a bit polite to me. He didn't say please, and aU that, and now and then he was right rude. It was fine! Then someone called his attention to his carelessness, and he became polite and sweet to me . . . and I hated him ever after! You men can't seem to understand that we want to be treated as equals — not chattels or divinities, because we aren't either one — ^but equals. But you go blundering stupidly on, firmly convinced that you know what we want, and what we ought to want. And in the meantime we are condemned to misery without in the least knowing how to get rid of it." 144 "'WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE "You're a fine one to talk of misery," I said, thinking of the wretched girls I had seen at noon time. "Because I have an automobile and a fine home and servants to wait upon me, I suppose? Well, wouldn't you rather be a chimney swallow, able to fly wherever you wanted to, than a canary in a lovely brass cage . . . even if you didn't know where your next meal was coming from? Well, I would. I tell you, Harlan, it's a wonder to me that women in our class are as good as they are . . . and they're not very good, either! They haven't much else than mischief to busy themselves with. What's the end of it all going to be? What is going to be done with us daughters of the rich? Some of us are miserable and know the cause, and some are miser- able without knowing it. I, for one, know I'm miserable, and I know why I'm niiserable. It's because I haven't got a blessed thing to do but wait for the next day!" I stopped and stared at her. "For the love of Heaven, Dorothy, do I know you, or do I not? Are you the girl I dined with on the edge of Parnassus, the female Mae- cenas, the worshipper of the little gods of culture? What in the world has come over you?" "Did you ever get drunk?" she asked shortly. My face must have expressed my astonishment at the ques- tion, for she laughed and went on to explain. "Well, that's the way I get drunk. When I can't stand the monotony and emptiaess of my own life any longer, I gather I4S THE JOY OF THE WORKING some people with brains — ^with tongues at least — ^and intoxicate myself into a temporary forgetfulness of my ennui. You don't suppose that that sort of thing could fill anyone's life, do you?" I was silent — absolutely nonplussed. I had thought that I knew Dorothy Gresham, and I no more knew her than one knows the butterfly from its cocoon. "Well," I said finally, after a long pause. "How about this social work? Surely that ought to occupy you — and it is worthy enough." Her face hardened. "Social work — empt3ang bathtubs with a colander. It's so — ^how shall I put it? — &i footless. It seems to me to be working at the wrong end of things. We can make a few unhappy people moderately comfort- able. But when they die we have to do it all over again. You wouldn't like to paint if the whole thing faded away with the last stroke. Social workers may feel that they are doing a great deal of good, but it doesn't seem to me that they are any better than the doctor who shoots morphine into a patient he doesn't know how to cure. The patient suffers: his comfort may cost him his life. Social workers . . . Harlan — " her voice rose shghtly, "I'll lose my temper if I talk any more about them. I begin to think of concrete examples . . . Besides, here's the car." For some time we rode in complete silence. Dorothy seemed to have become suddenly reticent — ^and I was 146 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE quite unable to speak. No human being had ever sur- prised me as thoroughly as she had. My thoughts were chaos. She was the first to speak. "Harlan," she said thoughtfully. You used to be a dilettante by temperament and conviction. It seemed to me — ^that night you came to dinner — ^that there were signs of a change. Are you still? Would you return to idleness if you could?" There being no possibility of the sincerity of my reply being called into question, I could answer quite promptly in the negative. "Do you really mean that?" "Absolutely." "I wonder," she said musingly. "I wonder very much. But tell me, what were you doing when I found you— that is, if it's not a secret?" "I was calling on your father. We handle his adver- tising, as you may know." "I didn't — because I never hear about business at home. Dad doesn't believe in it. I couldn't understand, and all that. But tell me — ^was he nice to you?" "Very." "He's rather fine, you know, Dad is — ^for all his obsti- nate ways. But he can be nasty. I'm glad he wasn't to you. But I'll bet you didn't stay long!" "No, I didn't. But I should have liked to. I should have liked to talk to him." 147 THE JOY OF THE WORKING "Dad doesn't waste many words, except when he's home, with his pipe and his slippers. Then he's a dear. Some night I'll have you up to dinner enfamUle and you can see for yourself what father really is like. With his shoes off he's an entirely different man." The sudden stoppage of the motor, in obedience to a traffic policeman's uplifted hand, recalled me to the fact that this delightful ride, like all things delightful, must have an end. "If you'll let me oflE at the next comer, please," I mur- mured regretfully. She rapped on the window, the car slowed up and stopped, and presently I was on the sidewalk. "I have enjoyed this tremendously," I said as I left her. "Come up and see me occasionally, won't you?" she called after me. "It will help me a lot." I could only smile my assent. I felt rather well content with myself as I came back to the office, and even the dinginess of my surroundings was not sufficient entirely to dampen my spirits. They fell somewhat, of course, because the place inevitably affected me as death always affects life. It was to me a sort of morgue of dead hopes, not merely my own, but of numer- ous predecessors. Nevertheless I was unwontedly cheer- ful, so much so that even old Brega, who was customarily monosyllabic, expressed some astonishment . . . His 148 "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE exact words were unintelligible, but I assume it was astonishment. Summer was in the air and in my heart. I could no more apply myself to work than I could fly. In calm defiance of Brega's curious glances, I lit my pipe, put my feet on a chair and abandoned myself to pleasant if some- what bewildered cogitation upon the day. And then, like a bomb, a fragrant of my conversation with Dorothy shattered my peace. "Would I return to idleness if I could?" she had asked. And I had denied the imputation. The reflection smote me that her question was actually the first thing that had put my changing self to the test of investigation. With- out ever thinking much about it, I had made myself con- tent in my misery, looking upon it as permanent and irremediable. But was it? I put the question squarely before myself. Suppose I could chuck it aU, and go back to the old life in Paris — be again the dilettante, the joy of the ateliers. Suppose some beneficent deity made my return possible. Would I go? What I had told Dorothy half in jest, was the truth. Work had mastered me. I was committed to the path that Fate had started me upon. There was no tumiag back. I felt an actual, poignant sense of loss over the days, the character, that was no more. The future was dark, perhaps — ^but the past was closed; and I had no 149 THE JOY OF THE WORKING choice left. It was with an acute sense of subjection, as if I had actually put a heavy yoke about my neck, pad- locked it with my own hands . . . and then thrown away the key . . . that I answered Keppy's sum- mons. "Well," he said, when I entered his office, "What's the big word?" "I beg your pardon?" I understood his meaning well enough, but it pleased me to feign ignorance of slang. "What happened? . . . How did you come out with Gresham?" he snapped impatiently. I restrained my ever-present wrath, and spoke quietly. "Oh ... he congratulated — us on the booklet, said it was fine — and they're going to put it out in a de luxe edition." There must have been an expression of triumph on my face, but if there was, Keppy apparently failed to notice it. "The devil you say!" he exploded, quite as if the good news disappointed him keenly. "Stu'e he wasn't kidding you? He's a queer card, that Gresham." "No. He said it was very different from anything they had ever done before, but he liked it none the less. I think the account is perfectly safe. A year should have accustomed me to lightning changes of base on Keppy's part. But a feather would have bowled me over at his next words. A slow smile melted his harsh features. "I knew that booklet was good stuff, ISO "WORKING PEOPLE"— AND A SURPRISE but I was afraid he wouldn't have the sense to see it. He's pretty conservative — and that was so original." And then, as a concession to the disgust on my face, which I made no efEort to conceal, he added, "I didn't tell you how good I thought it was, because I didn't want you to get a swelled head. You young fellows are apt to do some- thing good by accident, and then you think you're all get-out. Besides I was afraid you might tell the other copy men, and they'd get jealous. They're such a tem- peramental lot, anyhow, you know. Well, by Jove, I certainly am glad Gresham saw how good it was . . . It certarnly was too good for him. Enthusiastic, was he, eh? Wouldn't kick at a pretty fair bill, d'ye think?" "I haven't the slightest idea," I said coldly, though my blood was boiling. "Well, if he thought enough of it to call you out there to tell you about it, he must have been pretty pleased, all right, all right. He ought to be willing to pay for what he likes. Oh — ^by the way — ^he didn't say anything about your signatvire, did he?" "Signatiure? Why — ^what do you mean?" "Oh, I stuck your name on the thing. Thought it'd be a nice ad for you, y'know." "I could have hit him for his lies. He had put the agnature on because he had thought that it was poor stuff, and that by so doing he could shift all responsi- bility onto my shoulders. I hastened to get out of THE JOY OF THE WORKING his ofiBce. I was trembling all over when I left him. I returned to the noisy cupboard that served for a studio, with my mind a jiunble of conflicting thoughts — anger at Keppy, di^ust at my supine %'assalage to him, irritation at my surroundings — ^all acting as a sort of discordant background to the soft psean of satisfaction that Gresh- am's words had set playing on my heart-strings. I tried to do a little work, but the long afternoon drew to its close with nothing accomplished. Brega toiled awaj', quite as oblivious to indolence as he was to industry. After dinner I was whisked off by the cheerful Traxler to the vaudeville. I went more for his sake than my own ; for the eternal sameness of the miscalled "variety" shows had long since ceased to interest me. All through the evening, and tmtil I finally dropped aS to sleep, to the endless observations of my room-mate, my thoughts lingered with perverse concentration upon . . . Dorothy Gresham. I found myself recalling, with curious accuracy, little tricks of manner, little turns of speech, and I realized, with something approaching shock, that I was approaching perilously dose to a condi- tion that a man in my circumstances has no right to occupy . I think it was one of the Apostles who first declared flight the best method of conquering temptation. But flight was quite as impracticable as any oth^ course of action. 152 CHAPTER VIII FIRED I CAME into the office one morning, about a week after my visit to the Gresham factory, to meet an indefinable sense of impending catastrophe. Miss Westcott, who was passing as I entered, returned my greeting with a wan and miserable smile, saying nothing. Even little Morris stared at me, it seemed, almost pityingly. Brega looked up as I came into the "studio," and then hastily resumed his work, as if fearful of my speaking to him. A curious hush seemed to pervade the place. The storm was not long in breaking. I had been seated at my desk scarcely five minutes, when Morris came in, looking very scared and subdued, to tell me that my presence was desired in Mr. Keppy's ofiice. I obeyed the summons promptly, wondering, with an uncontrollable contraction of the stomach, what in the world was the matter. That something was the matter was all too plain. The atmosphere seemed almost to reek of tuberoses. Keppy was ominously calm as I entered his sanctum. His heavy face was set in lines of unusual grimness, and he failed to acknowledge my greeting. Then, tmwonted thing for him, he rose and closed the door. 153 THE JOY OF THE WORKING "Now," he said, drawing a folded paper from his desk, "perhaps you can tell me the meaning of this . . ." Wondering all the more, I opened the document. At the top was the familiar emblem of the Gresham Food Products Company, and in red, underneath it — "Office of the President." My face fell. Here is the letter — THE GRESHAM FOOD PRODUCTS COMPANY OfiBce of the President. Chicago, Jtdy zy. Keppy Advertising Co., Chicago. Gentlemen: — We regret to inform you that our contract for service with you, running out on the 1 5th of August next, will not be renewed. Would suggest that you prepare your representatives a little more carefully, so that their statements may coincide with your bills. Would suggest further that you either pay more attention to the intelligence of your clients, or to the bills themselves, in such cases as the chaige for "special art work," cheque for which we hand you herewith. Very truly yours, Francis Gheshah, President. "Now will you tell me what in hell that all means?" roared Keppy, almost purple in the face. "Will you tell me how in hell I am to guess what it means? I roared back. I tried to give him as good as he sent. But he was in too much of a rage to note — or to care if he had — ^my disrespect to his august self. "Well, damn it all, you ought to know! Unless I'm mighty much mistaken, it's your damned dtmderheaded- n^s that's brought us into this mess." 1 54 FIRED "Will you be good enough to explain?" I said, trying my utmost to keep calm in the face of his insults. "Explain, explain . , . you idiot!" he screamed, "there ain't anything to explain. Can't you see what a bloody mess you've made of things? What in hell did ye tell Greshara? • . . damn his soul, anyhow! What in God's name did you say to him? You're the one that's done the trick . . . Now I want to know what you did. You can't get away with anything raw with me, either, by God! I'm not the fool you think I am!" He rattled on in incoherent wrath. I let hirn finish before I tried to answer, though my fingers ached for his vulgar throat. "Say what ... to whom . . . when?" I could scarcely speak, for my own anger. "Don't try that innocent dodge," he cried. "I've got you with the goods on, an' you might as well admit it. It'll be better for you in the end." "If you don't intend to explain your behavior, Mr. Keppy," I said coldly, "I think I had better leave you until you can at least behave like a gentleman." "You won't leave till I'm ready," he snarled, banging his gross fist on the desk. "And cut out this top-lofty stuff. I tell you I've got you right. You're a sneak, that's what you are . . . a damned sneak!" I made a threatening movement toward him, but he was too blind with rage to notice it. "Now tell me," he went on, in a THE JOY OF THE WORKING voice that must have been heard on the street, "what did you tell Gresham about those drawings?" "What drawings?" My exasperation was so great that I almost laughed at the absurdity of the purposeless quarreL "What drawings — what drawings? . . . Why, damn it, man, those pretty pictures you stuck into your booklet. What did you say about them?" "Oh!" In a dash I realized the dtuation, and I laughed aloud. Keppy, mistaking the meaning of my amusement, grew poatively frenzied. "Laugh . . . you damned swindler! Ill make you lau^ on the other side of your face before I'm through with you. Read that second paragraph." He pointed it out with a fat, trembling finger. "What's he mean by that?" It was my turn to be filled with a just wratii. "Now you shut that mouth of yours, Keppy," I said in a voice as violent as his own, "and listen to me for a minute ... or 111 throw you out of the window!" An inex- cusably vulgar threat, no doubt, but I was far too angry mjrself to stop to consider manner or verbiage. All my pent up dislike and contempt for the man was behind my hot words. "I see your dirty game now. You thought I was the same sort of a slippery trickster you are yourself . . . and accidentally, I fooled you . . ." 156 FIRED "Accident . . . my neck!" sneered Keppy, bitii^ his lips. "Yes — accident. I see your pretty game now. Gresh- am asked me who had done those drawings, and I told him the truth. I haven't gotten to the point yet where I'll steal for you by instinct , . . not by a jugful. I suppose when I told you he liked the stuff you thought you saw a chance to stick him. Well, by thunder, I'm damned glad he was too wise for you. 'Special art work' . . . lord — ^you are a crude scamp!" A wave of disgust for the whole situation, for my own part in it, for my vulgar, jejune words, flared up in me. I turned to leave. Keppy shook his fist in my face. "You know what this means, you tin foil saint," he gritted between his teeth. "You're out of a job, by God ! You get out of here just as quick as your feet can carry you." "They can't carry me half fast enough," I retorted, in a vain effort to be crushing. I had made myself ridiculous — as ridiculous as my adversary — and the knowledge of that fact angered me into further absurdities. "Yes . . . and this isn't ended yet," he jeered after me. "I know what you are, and I'll see that every man in this town knows it, too. You won't find a whole lot of people waiting to take on a scut like you, by God!" I left him then, and with my face bttming, keenly con- scious of the scared glances of the stenographers and 157 THE JOY OF THE WORKING clerks, I walked, with a strong effort at nonchalance, back to my compartment. Brega exhibited the first signs of emotion I had ever seen in him. He came over to me, as I was proceeding to pack up my instruments, and put his arm on my shoul- der. For a moment he stood there silent, nervously biting at his pipe. "Never mind . . . never mind . . . ." he stammered. "He's this way often. All right in the morning. Don't let it bother you. Doesn't mean what he says. Really. Don't go . . ." "Brega," I said, with a great assumption of dignity, "I wouldn't stay here another hour if he got down on his knees and kissed my feet." Brega only looked pained. The idea of being "fired" was altogether a more painful one to him than it was to me. He continued to stammer deprecatingly — "Often does it. All right in the morning. All right — really. Don't go. All right in the morning." But I went on with my packing, and presently he retreated to his desk to observe me in half frightened admiration. I suppose my apparent nonchalance was little short of mag- nificent to his poor broken spirit. But I could not maintain any such pose with Miss Westoott. She flitted in a moment later, and held out her hand. "I just heard," she whispered, and I fancied that the tears glistened in her eyes. "I'm so sorry . . . it's a shame . . ." IS8 FIRED "Better not be seen with the condemned," I said with a smile. I tried to be jaunty, but a little lump persisted in rising in my throat. "Look at the rest of them. They're afraid to look in on me even." It was true. Everyone seemed to be making a studious efiEort to dis- regard my existence. Even Traxler went on with his work as if nothing had happened. It hurt a little, of course, but then — ^the poor creatures had to be careful. Even their sympathies were not their own . . . cer- tainly not in business hours. I turned to Miss Westcott, and though I tried bravely to smile, I was not very successful. "I hate to leave . . . some of you ..." I faltered. She looked at me intensely. Then her eyes dropped. She seized my hand. "Good luck . . ." Then she choked and fled precipitately. I made a round of the office, shaking hands very gravely and formally with my co-workers, each one of whom ex- pressed the same regrets at my going . . . and, I have no doubt, promptly forgot about me. Then I dis- missed a base temptation to fling a parting sarcasm at Mr. Keppy, and went, without further ado, out of the ghastly hole that had absorbed my sweat for a long, weary year. I went out with a light heart, and there was little sorrow in me as I cast my last look upon the dinginess of the building, and smelt for the last time the hideous odors 159 THE JOY OF THE WORKING of age and corruption that seemed to cling to it. I was positively jovial when I stood on the street, blinking in the sunshine! After .taking my bundle home, I bethought me that this was an excellent opportunity to collect my thoughts and enjoy the unwonted luxtu-y of out-of-doors, so I set out for a stroll in the Park. It was a novel sensation of freedom that filled my breast, and I wanted to join the birds in their caroling. But I wisely reflected that what was expected of birds would doubtless land me in greater durance than I had just escaped, so I went along sedately enough. I was so busy in contemplation of my own curious con- tent that I failed to hear my name called, and only stopped when an electric brougham drew up at the curb beside me, and a familiar face smiled down at me. "Ah, Miss Gresham." I bowed gallantly. "You are in the picture. You are the very incarnation of siunmer." "Harlan . . . such language in the daytime 1 It's like evening dress? — it's indecent." "A thousand pardons, lady. But this is Arcadia . . and when the heart sings, there's music on the tongue." She laughed merrily. "I think the sunshine has gone to your head. Better put your hat on, or you'll get worse and I'll have to leave you." Then her voice changed, and she added with mock severity, "And what, pray, are you doing out here at this hour of the afternoon?" i6o FIRED 'I am improvising poetry, and rejoicing silently in liber- ation." "In other words, what does that signify?'* "In other words, it signifies that I . . . am . . . fired . . . f-i-r-e-d . . , fired!" I smiled quite happily, but her iace exhibited consternation. "Do you mean . . . that you have stopped work- ing?" "Put with predsion and accuracy! That is exactly what I mean." "Why . . . whatever in the world happened?" ''^Ir. Keppy and I had a slight difference of opinion, and as he held the deck, and refused to deal any more cards, why I . . . just quit playing. You see before you the only representative of Chicago's leisure class!" "Wdl ... for goodness* sakel You are a queer one! But if you haven't anything else to do, you might jump in here and come home to tea with me. Will you?" "The first charity for the down-and-outer," I cried. "But I have no pride, and I accept your hand-out, kind lady. Lead on." And I forthwith got in beside her. The Gresham home was in pleasang contrast to most of the Chicago houses with which I was familiar. There was very little of the meaningless "junk" that with people of wealth seems to take the place of the portrait album, the wax-flowers, and the "catch-alls" of their grandfathers. The walls were in quiet tones, with but few pictures, the i6i THE JOY OF THE WORKING furniture, massive, but simple. I looked about for the almost inevitable pink and gilt Louis Quinze, the rococo mirrors, the purposeless keramics, and was delighted to find them all absent. There was a profusion of books, but all of them apparently for use. The large table before the fireplace bore no assortment of knicknacks, expensive, conceivably beautiful, but quite useless. There were a few photographs, but very few, and very simply framed. It was essentially a "living room" in what was obviously a house that had cost a great deal of money to equip. It was an exceedingly "artistic" house, too, but it was of the art that conceals art, and it was the art of per- sonal expression. So many homes are academically beau- tiful, but totally lacking in individuality. The decoration and furnishing has been turned over to undeniably com- petent people, but the result of their work is "out of character," as the dramatic critics say. In the present case, the surroimdings seemed to be a real part of my hostess, not a mere ornamental adjunct. The furniture, the decorations — everything — seemed an integral part of her personal design, springing naturally and inevitably from her, not added as a species of afterthought. The house seemed very diflEerent than on my previous visits — ^just as its mistress seemed different. Its beauty was all the more remarkable because I was aware of the fact that Gresham had not been bom to money and taste, but had acquired it all himself. To 162 FIRED find refinement and restraint in the surroundings of a "self-made-man" is sufficiently unique to call for comment. Dorothy and I ensconced ourselves in two very large and comfortable chairs, and over the teacups I proceeded to recount the details of my afternoon's dibacle. She listened sympathetically, occasionally interrupting with vivid anathema of my former employer, but for the most part in silence. When I had finished, and had lighted a cigarette, she stood up and clenched her hands. "Well," she said, determinedly, "ance you've gotten into this mess through my father, I think he ought to know about it. And he will." "My dear lady," I protested, "your father didn't have anything to do with it. The affair simply happened to have him as its pivot. For heaven's sake, don't drag him into it." Her face exhibited unsuspected lines of obstinacy — or should I be more gallant, and call it "determination?" She waved her hand as if the matter was quite settled. "You will stay to dinner, and we will talk it over. There will be just us three. Don't argue. My mind's made up." "But — " I was carried away by her masterfulness, "I really— " "You really haven't ansrthing to say about it. I want you and Dad to know each other, anyway. Besides, he 163 THE JOY OF THE WORKING probably thinks you're the same sort of a man that Keppy is, and you've got to show him you aren't." I capitulated, partly because there seemed to be nothing else to do, and partly because I really welcomed the opportuiuty to become acquainted with Mr, Gresham, "with his slippers on," as his daughter had picturesquely expressed it. He was a tjrpe of American life with which I was not very well acquainted, a "captain of industry;" and I was more than a little anxious to gain some insight into his personality, an insight that, naturally, I would find diflScult, if not impossible, to secure in the ordinary run of business association. "Thank you," I said, "I shall be delighted to stay." 164 CHAPTER IX THE EGOIST WHEN Mr. Gresham came in he greeted me very pleasantly, but qtiite indifferently. But when his daughter identified me as the son of John Chandos, his manner changed completely. Just what the change indicated was hard to say. "So you are John Chandos' son," he said again and again. "Come back to make your start in the same place your father made his. But you aren't going to trade on his name, are you?" I denied the imputation, and he looked at me search- ingly from those deep-set eyes of his. "I'm glad qf that, young man," he said cryptically. "It wouldn't be wise — ^it wouldn't be wise." There was more meaning in his words than appeared on the surface, that was plain, but just what it was I did not know, and any further attempt to discover it was ended by the annoimcement of dinner. Dinner proved most enjoyable. The meal itself was not elaborate, and there was a complete absence of the ostentation and formality with which the newly-wealthy — and those to whom wealth is not quite comprehensible — surround themselves. Natturally I said nothing at each new evidence of refine- 165 THE JOY OF THE WORKING ment and simplicity, but I was filled with wonderment. A combination of circumstances had made possible for me a semi-entree into the homes of the Faubourg St. Germain, that tmique society, which without brains, money, or physical strength, yet remains the most exclusive in the world; and I consequently superimposed upon my intel- lectual snobbishness the more common and the more understandable vice of social condescension. I had, furthermore, looked upon America — certainly its western portions — ^as rather barbaric and crude, and I had made no exception in favor of Chicago. I con- sidered it essentially bourgeois. Its aesthetic and intel- lectual elements bore too many hall-marks of novelty. The great sprawling metropolis was like a painting that has not had time to "set" — ^haxd, garish, the hi^ lights too prominent, the shadows too deep, with an utter absence of atmosphere. And the people who had painted the picture seemed to be attempting a task of which Time alone is capable. They appeared to believe that they could mellow just as rapidly as they had built. And I despised them for it. Unconsciously, in my conversation, I gave expression to some of these thoughts. Gresham's response was illuminating — ' 'We — that is, my kind, my age, of men — are just what you say," he said. "We knew how to get the money . . . but we haven't the faintest idea how to spend it. i66 THE EGOIST The wise ones — like myself — ^have educated their children for that job. Look at this house. Do you suppose / could accomplish anything like this? Never in the world. This is all Dorothy's work. Our generation furnishes the sinews, and the next one uses them. The only thing I fear is that the younger generation, in its regard for the end, will lose all consideration for the means. I suppose it'll take a few more generations to strike a balance between the two." "Well, Mr. Gresham," I persisted, "here is another thing I don't quite understand. I know something about the 'Chicago Plan' — the scheme to make the city useful the city beautiful. But I don't at all comprehend the men who are behind the Plan. Why will a lot of hard- headed, cold-blooded — and more or less ignorant — ^busi- ness men give their time and their money for a project so thoroughly aesthetic and altruistic?" "Purely selfish, Mr. Chandos. We want to make this a beautiful dty, because that will bring more people here. We want to make this a show place. That's why we have military tournaments and motor-boat races and aeroplane meets in the summer. It's advertising. It gets people to come. And they bring their dollars. It means busi- ness for us — ^the men who put up. That's the secret of the whole affair." "Then that is why all this effort at beautification is to 167 THE JOY OF THE WORKING be put where it will show . . . the Lake front, the parks, the boulevards? . . ." "Surely. We're going to fit up the city's reception room, that's about the size of it . . . it's a business proposition, pure and simple." I was silent for a little while. Here was perfectly candid, consistently selfish Business emplojang Beauty for pturely utilitarian purposes. Building, planting, beautifying for the sake of creative work . . . there was nothing whatever of that. Concealed beneath a, shell of apparent nobility was the same spirit of sordid purpose . . . doing things, not for their own sake, but for what they naight bring. But what, rose the never answered question in my mind, what was this end that all the men about me seemed to be seeking? A little timidly, I put the question to my host. "Granted that business come to you from all this cre- ative work — granted that it means money in your pockets . . . what then?" He looked at me, plainly puzzled. "What then? . . I don't think I quite understand . . ." "Well, I do," broke in his daughter, who had been a silent attendant upon our conversation. "I see what Harlan means. What are you going to do with all this money when you get it?" Mr. Gresham smiled in tolerant fashion at her serious face. i68 THE EGOIST "My dear little girl . . . what do you suppose keeps the roof over your head . . . and puts auto- mobiles at your disposal . . . and gives you dancing parties at the Blackstone . . . and . . .?" "Oh, I understand all that," she cried. "But after those bills are paid . . . what do you want more money for?" Gresham's jaw settled into lines of grimness, and for several moments he was thoughtfully silent. "What else?" he said finally. "Well . . . your soda! posi- tion in this town is second to none, my daughter. You have no superior in that respect. Do you know what put you there?" "Oh, yes, I see that, of course — ^but . . ." "My dear, you don't see it at all. It isn't in the least what you think it is. You're a sweet, attractive girl, you're educated, refined — ^all that . . . but you'd be in outer darkness today if it wasn't for my money. Not the money that buys you clothes and opera boxes and automobiles, either, but the money that means . . . power! You dined at the Mackenzies' the other night. Do you know that I pretty nearly had to break Mackenzie before his wife would open her doors to you? My dear child, there is a tremendous lot of bunk talked in this town about birth and lineage . . . when there's scarcely a family tree that runs back over three generations without striking a man who worked with his 169 THE JOY OF THE WORKING hcinds. Social position in a new place like this is based on just one thing . . . and that one thing is money. A few more generations may change things, perhaps . . . though it hasn't changed them any place on the globe. But right now, when you're starting the race, you've got to have it. Money means power. It always has, and it always will. It . . . ." Something in his daughter's expression seemed to disturb him, and he coughed a little nervously. "Don't worry, my dear," he said, apparently answering a suspected objection on her part. "Mr. Chandos knows perfectly well that what I say is the truth. His father didn't have any more social position than I did. And I won't insvilt the young man's intelligence by assuming that he cherishes any delusions as to his being congenitally of the elect. He may be an aiistocrat now, but it will be a bad day for him when he forgets who made hm one . . . and what!" "Let's have our coffee in the Ubrary," said Dorothy abruptly. Apparently she wished to create a diversion. I thanked her for it, silently. I welcomed the oppor- ttmity to adjust myself to Mr. Gresham's heterodox opinions. I am afraid I had cherished a good many delusions about myself and my position in the community. I had chosen, being htiman and young, to look upon my undis- puted social distinction as being due to intrinsically supe- rior qualities. I had never given much thought as to what 170 THE EGOIST had produced those qtialities. I had fallen into a firm belief in aristocracy, per se, very readily, because that belief is exceedingly easy for those who can afford it. The theory of aristocracy, the superiority of one man to his fellows, due to birth and blood, is of course not substan- tiated by history, or biology — or simple, common sense. But great and rare is the man, who, given the opportunity, does not thus blind himself to the ignominious truth. The aristocracy cult, the theory of inherent superiorities, is, I think, the most pitiful of the weaknesses that man is heir to. Against snobbishness, as against love, intellect seems a feeble barrier. But how it must make the gods laugh! When we were seated in the library, Dorothy turned the conversation toward my experience with Keppy. She seemed unwilling to permit further discussion of social distinctions, much as I would have liked to hear more of her father's opinions concerning them. Mr. Gresham heard her story in silence, a sardonic smile curling his lips. When she had finished, he laughed outright. "That illustrates the man. If he was big, he could take getting caught as part of the game. He's a poor loser. But this particular incident wasn't the thing that settled Keppy. I've suspected him for quite a while. I just wanted to catch him in something particularly raw. I did, all right. Why, Mr. Chandos, that scamp put in a 171 THE JOY OP THE WORKING bill for 'special art work' — 'seven drawings by an expen- sive artist' ... at $30 apiece! I suppose he figured that because the book pleased me, he could soak us to a fare-thee-well. But I'm sorry that you've gotten into such a mess. It will be a simple matter for me to explain that you had nothing to do with it, you know." "My dear Mr. Gresham," I said earnestly, "you will oblige me by forgetting that I ever had an5rthing to do with the Keppy Company. I wouldn't think of going back there again." "But he can make it pretty difficult for you to land another place. A rogue like that wouldn't hesitate to give you a beautiful black eye around the town." "I'd sooner run a street-car than go back and eat humble pie before that feUow," I declared youthfully. "I'm through with him . . . and if need be, I'm through with the whole advertising business!" There was a short pause in the conversation. Finally Mr. Gresham set his coffee cup down, and leaned forward. "Well, Mr. Chandos . . . what do you propose to do?" I laughed. "Heavens! Mr. Gresham, it's only a few hours since I lost my job. I haven't gotten to a con- sideration of ways and means, yet." "Then you have nothing definite in view?" "Absolutely nothing." 172 THE EGOIST "Um . . . You wrote that booklet of ours entirely yourself, of course?" "Oh, yes." "And did the drawings, too?" "Yes." "Um." There was another and longer pause. My host seemed to be deep in consideration of something. When he spoke, it was with the crisp abruptness that I associated with his business self. "How'd you like to move the Keppy Company out to our shop?" he said sharply. "Do what?" "Move the part that concerns us. I'll explain. The thought has come to me that we would do better by doing our advertising ourselves. I'm tired of agencies. Tried a lot of them . . . Either crooked or incompetent. And I'm tired of doing the work myself. Besides, I'm no artist. I can't get up labels and that sort of thing. How wotdd it strike you? Can't offer you a bed of roses. Hard work, and lots of it, you know. But there's plenty of opportunity for a young man." I suppose the bewilderment in my face must have made him sense some reluctance; for he did not wait for any answer. "Don't decide it now. Think it over. Come in and see me at the office when you're ready. We'll talk it over." 173 THE JOY OP THE WORKING I stammered my thaxiks, which he waved away, and Dorothy alternately blushed and giggled, and all three of us had a very silly, irrational, embarrassing, but alto- gether pleasant time. The rest of the evening passed all too quickly. We talked upon a multitude of subjects, and always with the greatest candor. It was quite impossible to conceal or evade with Mr. Gresham. He possessed the faculty of forcing those about him to reveal themselves thoroughly . . . the result being that he and I managed to dis- agree, though with perfect good himior, and I think, mutual respect, on practically every topic that came up. His daughter acted as a sort of impressario, taking but little part in the conversation, herself, and devoting all her faculties to keeping us off shoals that seemed to hold pos- sibilities of conversational shipwreck. I found Gresham to be a man of the widest reading, and, what does not necessarily follow, of considerable and deep thought. He was constantly in search of funda- mentals, and there was scarcely an act of his life that was not the result of logical and preconceived analysis. I think he was one of the most thoroughly rational human beings that I have ever known. He was a perfect, absolutely consistent egoist. Through all his words, and the life that they revealed, ran a scarlet thread of individualism. He had ssmipathized with Nietzche, and had made the doctrine of the superman his 174 THE EGOIST own. Though he denied the rationality of social aristoc- racy, he maintained spiritual aristocracy with the utmost vigor and conviction. The principles of Darwinism had, naturally, appealed to him strongly, and he had taken them from the animal, material world, and put them into practice in his own. He believed in the survival of the fittest, not merely physically but morally and socially. This resulted in a distrust of altruism, as a spiritual im- pulse; and operating negatively, made him conscientiously and sincerely tmscrupulous. His equipment of thought and reading, superimposed as it was on a naturally gifted mind, made me look upon him as a highly dangerous sophist — ^far more dangerous to the commtmity and to posterity than a less intelligent man perhaps more dan- gerous in practice. I felt, from the bottom of my heart, that he was headed in the wrong direction. But though I tried my utmost, I was tmable to teU him why. He defeated me at every point, and our discussion only served to show me that before I could consider my character in the least degree fixed, I must discover the reason for the faiths that were in me. I realized, quite clearly, that had I met Gresham a year or two previous, I would have found myself in more or less complete accord with his egoistic philosophy. But I saw now, with equal clarity, that my own soul had been undergoing a great, if unsuspected, and perhaps not yet quite defined, metamorphosis. I7S THE JOY OF THE WORKING I resolved then and there that I would accept Gresham's offer, if for no other reason than to learn what had made him and his doctrines; and by confounding them — learn my own. When I finally rose to take my leave, it was with the feeling that I was beginning another epoch in my career. The sense of relief at having shaken off all the sordidness inseparable from Keppy and his works, was intensified by a faith that I was in the dawn of bigger, if not neces- sarily better, things. But Dorothy's outstretched hand recalled me from the abstract to the specific, and I was able to express, though inadequately, the very deep sense of gratitude that I felt toward her. When I left her, it was with the assurance and the purpose of seeing her again in the very near future. I whistled jovially all the way back to the boarding- house and tossed my bundle of instruments in the air for pure satisfaction. I found a small gathering in my room, of both sexes, indulging in a supper of sandwiches and beer. They all manifested obvious surprise at my joyous demeanor; for, of course, the news of my discharge had percolated through every nook and comer of the building. But Traxler, in a generous effort to keep the conversation off impleasant topics, waved a beer bottle at me — "Just in time, Chandos. We've been having a dis- cussion about you. Miss Westcott says you're a snob!" 176 THE EGOIST There was a loud laugh at my dismay on receiving these tidings; but Miss Westcott herself, blushing furiously, protested — "It isn't so at all, Mr. Chandos — ^really it isn't. They twisted my words to make a joke out of them." "Don't let her kid you, Chandos . . . she said it all right!" laughed Traxler through the remains of a sand- wich. "What do you want me to do?" I asked, considerably nettled and disappointed, though I tried to conceal it. "Defend myself?" "Hooray!" yelled one of the party. "The prisoner's at the bar!" And forthwith they all began to march around Miss Wescott and me, chanting absurdly — "They're hangin' Harlan Chandos in the momin'." I had to laugh in spite of myself, but Miss Westcott was serious. "I didn't say you were a snob," she said earnestly. "I simply said you were different from the rest of us, and all the chatter about democracy, and all your niceness wouldn't make it otherwise." "Well, what's that but calling him a snob?" cried Traxler, hugely delighted at having succeeded in evoking what he would call a "rise." "Snobbishness," I propotmded oracularly, "is . . . absurd in this great and glorious democracy!" "Hear! Hear!" Traxler poimded on the wash-stand with his beer bottle. "The prisoner is acquitted!" he 177 THE JOY OP THE WORKING shouted. "Let us rejoice with music and song." And forthwith he began to play "America" on his harmonica. All joined hands and circled about us, chanting madly, imtil someone managed to change the tune to "Dixie." Then pandemonium broke loose, with eadi one trying to give his version of the "Rebel yell" — ^until finally everyone was obliged to sit or fall down, screaming with laughter. "But what," I demanded, when the excitement had subsided somewhat, "is the occasion for this crazy jam- boree?" "My birthday," explained Traxler, proudly. "Well, for goodness' sake . . . why didn't you invite me?" "Only remembered it when I got home," he said cheer- fully. "But don't complain, my boy. The evening is still young, and there's at least one bottle of beer left. Here, Miss Westcott — ^no sense in wasting good beer . . . If you ain't going to drink it, give it to Chandos. Come on, everybody — ^another toast to the great, the glorious, and the good Henry G. Traxler. Bottoms up, everybody!" The hour was late, and gradually, with the never-absent certainty of early rising next morning, the crowd began to thin out, and the tone of the conversation to subside from the high pitch of joviality it had attained at my arrival. The cessation of the beer supply, and the improbability of its replenishment also had something to do with the 178 THE EGOIST party's ending, I suspect. Finally no one remained but Traxler, Miss Westcott, and Heiny Fremsbourg, a young Austrian of impregnable taciturnity, who, studying English, never left a gathering while conversation lasted. When Traxler finally spoke, on the subject which was plainly close to his heart, it was haltingly. But his timidity soon vanished in his natural sincerity. "I say, Chandos — ^you know . . . you're not sore about the way I acted this afternoon ... at the office, you know? It must have seemed as if I didn't care much about your smash-up with Keppy. But honest — ^I . . ." "I waved away his protestations, and he went on more easily. "It wasn't that I didn't feel bad . . . but, well — you know how it is. Keppy was sore as a crab . . . and I didn't want to risk any scrap with him myself. I couldn't do anything, of course, and I ran a chance of gettin' him down on me for nothing. That wouldn't have done you no good, an' it might have put me on the street. And believe me — ^it's no cinch gettin' a job when you've been fired. That is," he continued in confusion at a dis- gusted glance from Miss Westcott, "it's hard for a clerk like me. Of course, it's different with you . . ." I smiled. "I don't just see where it's different. JDon't artists need references just the same as order-clerks?" Traxler reddened slightly, and coughed in obvious em- 179 THE JOY OF THE WORKING barrassment. But he disregarded my question. "Keppy certainly was sore at you. He went around after you left, tellin' everybody what a rascal you were. Gee, you must have lit into him for fair!" My room-mate was admiring, but manifestly apprehenave. "I don't suppose he'll go around the town telling his friends what a desirable gem I am, will he?" "Oh, well," said Traxler, looking very uncomfortable. "I don't think you'll have as much trouble as you think." "Oh, come now," I cried, with what must have seemed to my companions, not as yet knowing the true state of afiEairs, a pitifully vain-glorious indifference. "You know perfectly well, and so do I, that Keppy is going to spread the news far and wide in the advertising fraternity that I am a crook and a scoundrel . . . and he'll add a great many things that will do more credit to his imagina- tion than to his veracity. He's going to do everything in his power — ^which is a good deal — ^to make it exceedingly hard for me to get another job. Now admit it — ^both of you — ^isn't that the case?" Their silence, and expressions of discomfort, were answer enough. My cheerful laugh must have seemed almost inhuman to them, and my apparent disdain, a courage bom of ignorance — ^Ajax defjmig the lightning. "What are you going to do?" asked Miss Westcott, after a miserable little pause. "Oh shucks! — you don't need to worry," supplemented 1 80 THE EGOIST Traxler, with a brave, but not wholly successful, effort to imply complete confidence in my future. I dropped my bomb without a flourish. "I have an offer from the Gresham Food Products Company to be- come its advertising manager," I said quietly. "The devil you have!" exploded Traxler. "Then you . . . oh." The expression on his face was a curious compound of relief, surprise, suspicion, and misimder- standing. I sensed at once what was in his mind. "No, my boy — ^you're wrong. It isn't what you think," I laughed. "You're thinking just what Keppy will think when he hears about it. But he'U be wrong, too. I wasn't a spy in your midst. I only got my offer tonight." "Tonight?" cried Traxler. "Yes . . . from Mr. Gresham . . . not two hours past." "But — I . . ." Miss Westcott's surprise was as great as Traxler's — . "I thought you didn't know Mr. Gresham," she said accusingly. "Didn't you tell me you didn't?" I had a vague unwillingness to explain the truth. These people with whom I dwelt were so unaffectedly genuine, so candidly open-mouthed, in their reverence for names that possessed, naturally, not the slightest awe for me, that I felt uncomfortable at being obliged to confess an actual intimacy with the personalities back of the names. I was particularly averse to it just now, because of the words i8i THE JOY OF THE WORKING that had greeted me when I had entered the room. A confession now would seem almost like a confiimation of Miss Westcott's charge. But if there was really no pur- pose in concealment or evasion, there was even less possi- bility. So I made my confession — "I dined with the Greshams, tonight . . ," "Well, by George!" Traxler dropped his pipe in stark and unaffected amazement. "By George!" But Miss Westcott's astonishment was tempered with persistent curiosity. f "But how did he happen to invite you . . . and when?" she asked, with an interest too gentiine for im- pertinence. I had to make my revelations complete. "He didn't ask me ... his daughter did." "His daughter?" Traxler's eyes stared like a hyp- notic's. "Yes. You see, I've — er — ^known her for some time. And tonight I dined with her. Then she told her father all about the mess I had gotten into . . . and he ended by asking if I wotdd come out there to work. There's the whole story." "Well, by George!" said Traxler again, stupidly. "Talk about a fellow landing on his feet. Holy Smoke! And you know his daughter. Gee ... I read about her in the Sunday papers. Can you beat it?" Miss Westcott remained curiously silent, unsmiling. Her attitude rather piqued me. 182 THE EGOIST "Well . . . what do you think about it?" I asked. She smiled — ^rather weaMy, I thought. "You are very fortunate. It's a great opportunity. You'll accept the offer, of course?" "Oh, yes — of course." Conversation languished. Traxler was too amazed to speak. Fremsbourg, as usual, smoked and listened. Miss Westcott sat looking down at her hands, and I grew more and more uncomfortable in the silence. Finally she rose and held out her hand. "Good-night, Mr. Chandos. My sincerest congratula- tions ... I hope everything will come to you. Good-night . . ." She left without saying anjrthing further. Fremsbourg soon followed her, and Traxler and I were left alone. His first fit of stupefaction over, Traxler tended toward garrulity. But I had lost all desire for conversation. Miss Westcott's curious reception of my news had driven me into hurt and angry taciturnity. My replies to poor Traxler's overtures were almost brutal. Without further ado, and curtly disdaining the offer of one of his birthday cigars, I prepared for bed. For a while he tried hard to overcome my reticence, but finally, with his usual philo- sophical fortitude, he followed my example. We un- dressed almost in silence, save for an occasional observa- tion from him, like the few expiring pops from a package of fire-crackers. At length, with a brusque word, I ex- tingtiished the light and turned in. 183 M' CHAPTER X MORE POETRY THAN POETS DREAM OF Y first few months with the Gresham Food Products Company were not made up of days of unalloyed delight. Mr. Gresham made it clear from the start that I was to expect no evidences of favoritism, and that I was there strictly on my merits, with my coimection to be promptly terminated the moment he was convinced of my inability to hold the position. That, of cotirse, was as it should be, and I was rather pleased than otherwise at his attitude. But the work was all new, and strive as I did to learn, and to increase in capacity, I was constantly oppressed by the ghastly fear that I might fail to "make good." I threw myself into my duties with all the vigor that I possessed, resolutely putting aside all my distaste for "business," and resolving to make the best of my situation. But I seemed to move very slowly, and at times I grew very discotiraged indeed. But to balance and compensate for the manifold diffi- culties in my way, there was a largeness and breadth about the work that was very gratifying after the essential petti- ness of Keppy's establishment. Although my shoulders sometimes groaned imder the responsibilities that were 184 MORE POETRY THAN POETS DREAM OF put upon them, I could not but rejoice at the fact that I had responsibilities to bear. My first surprise came when I had been in my new position only a day or two. On one of my inspection tours, which I took to familiarize myself with the physical aspects of the business, I eiitered a dark passageway and collided smack with — Harrower. "Well of all things — " I gasped. "What are you doiag here?" "Same thing you are," he grinned cheerfully. "Work- in' for Gresham, I would have welcomed you to the place before, but I've been laid up for a couple of days, and I've been so busy this morning ..." "So you're a member, too. Been here long?" "About a year." He grinned again, but as he ap- peared anxious to be about his business, we separated without further talk. His work, I learned afterward, took him out a good deal, so that I saw him only occasion- ally. He was always the same, and I grew to like him very much. But I had to make my way without even his assistance. It is a law of psychology that what we know we like — that is, we like it if we know it thoroughly and fundamen- tally enough. So, as time went on, and my knowledge increased and went deeper, I found myself becoming actually interested in the prosaic business of making and distributing food products. I reached a point finally i8S THE JOY OF THE WORKING where I seemed to have di^^ded into two personalities — the old and the new. This new creature that had sprang into being unasked, and grew unaided, appeared half ready to confess almost a fiandness for the life it led, to rejoice in what it was doing, and to see poetry, romance, even beauty, in the complicated mechanisms of sordid commerce. But its predecessor, not yet dead, linga>ed, grimly contemptuous of such heresies. There were times, of course, when my longing for the beauty and the romance of life as it had once appeared to me, became so overpowering that it seemed as if my soul would never emerge again from the Slough of Despond into which it had been plunged. On those occasions, blessedly growing less and less frequent, I was wont to take long and solitary walks into the country, or if time lacked, to spend my allotted hour in self-commtmion on the Esplanade in Lincoln Park. The sullen roar of the Lake seemed to have power to take my thou^ts off my- self, and direct them to the miiverse. As I felt smallar and more in^gnificant, my soul-sickness, my nostalgia for the past, diminished, and then passed a\\-ay. It was a rather curious thing that these fits of depression always vanished more quickly when the Lake was stormy than when the sun was out and it was quiet. I suppose my feeling of personal unimportance was the keener vrhea the contrast between my power and that of Nature was the more apparent. i86 MORE POETRY THAN POETS DREAM OF I was sitting one Sunday afternoon in late Fall on a pile near the water's edge, ruminating upon my present, and speculating upon my futture, when I descried a familiarly angular figure coming toward me from the North. I waited until it was near enough to confirm my recognition, and then I whistled. She stopped short, and then came rapidly toward me. "Well, Miss Bennett," said I, in an effort to assume a joviality I was far from feeling. "What brings you out here on a day like this?" "Come on over to a bench," she said without smiling. "That is, if you're willing to chat a bit. I haven't seen you for months and months. I'm consumed with curi- osity." "You're a flatterer," I said, as I followed her. "I didn't say why I was curious . . ." Her voice was add, and I felt properly rebuked. "Now," she continued, as we seated ourselves. "You've got to talk about yourself while I gather my feelings together. I hear you've joined the forces of iniquity rep- resented by the Gresham Company." "Quite so . . . But why that aspersion upon their righteousness — and mine?" She favored me with a sardonic stare. "Do you mean to say that you have been there as long as you have with- out knowing what I mean?" "Business is business, dear lady!" I laughed cynically 187 THE JOY OF THE WORKING at the cynicism of my words, and the tmconscious ease with which I had uttered them. Truly my metamorphosis was as complete as it was rapid. "Um — ^you're one of them already, I see. Well, I don't blame you. Gresham's not the man to be subordinated by his subordinates. I don't wonder that you've fallen into his ways. I've just been to see him, myself. That's why I'm all upset." "You . . . what for, pray?" "Begging. We have a movement on foot to put a trellis on the^iailing vines of poesy in this degenerate day, and we have to persuade the men of commerce to sub- sidize the men of art. Poets are having a hard time of it because the magazines won't buy their poetry, and pub- lishers won't publish it. The only thing to do is to issue a publication devoted to literature instead of to making money." "And you hope to get these ignorant, hard-headed men of commerce to foot the bills?" I asked incredulously. "Precisely. And it's not nearly the task you think. I'm not afraid of the ignorant ones; it's the cultured men who won't donate. Why, I got a cheque for $500 this morning from a stock-broker who doesn't read ansrthing but the newspapers. He counts such a cost cheap to be enrolled for public admiration as one of the supporters of such an ultra cultured movement. It's the old principle of wanting what you haven't got." 188 MORE POETRY THAN POETS DREAM OP "But what about Gresham? Did he loose the money bags?" "Gresham!" she snorted, grinding her umbrella into the gravel. "Gresham — ^why he made me so mad I almost cried . . . and I haven't done that in twenty years!" "What did he say?" "Say? poodness, he didn't talk — ^he philosophized. Think of it, that disciple of mammon confounded me in epigram!" "He is rather terse, isn't he?" I said sympathetically. "Rather. I told him what the money was for, and what do you think his answer was? — 'My dear Miss Ben- nett, we don't write poetry nowadajrs ... we build it!" "But that's rather true, isn't it?" I said thoughtfully. "True? Of course it's true. That's why I couldn't answer him. Or rather it was true when he said it. It sounded true. And before I cotdd argue with the man any further he was forcing this book on me. Ever read it?" She held out Gerald Stanley Lee's Voice oj the Machines. "Look how he's got it underlined all through. One can't argue with a man like that. I've got to seek stock- brokers who haven't thought so much . . . nor read so much." "Yes," I admitted, "Gresham's not a man who is easy to dominate." "Well, how do you find him in business?" 189 THE JOY OP THE WORKING "Infinitely less of an evil than my former employer. I can't say that his code of ethics is any more ideal — but it is certainly broader. He's not a — ^what do you call it? — a 'piker.' He's big enough and broad enough to be rather fine in a way. Yes — I have to admit it ... I like him tremendously." "So do I," she said, with a regretfulness that was almost comic. "But he's just about spoiled me for this job. I can't beg from anybody now except those who are willing to subscribe to tickle their illiterate vanity. And I've lost all my assurance of the pvirpose for which I'm working. He's a sophistical demon, that man is! But here . . . I'm altogether too restless to sit still. And I certainly can't do any more soliciting this afternoon. I think I'll go home and see what this book has to tell me. I may lose all my faith in art itself before I'm through . . . and then 111 starve. Good-bye." "Oh, I say — don't run off like that. Stay and talk a bit," I cried. "Impossible. I've got to do a bit of silent thinking. And I've got to get off an article for the Bellman tonight. But come and see me some time, won't you? I'm in- tensely interested in your progress from Bohemia to Philistia. You're a man without a covmtry now . . . but you won't be long. Good-bye." And with that this curious, volatile, ugly, intensely capable creature made off 190 MORE POETRY THAN POETS DREAM OF through the trees, her ill-fitting skirts flapping about her gaunt limbs. I remained where I was for a while, thinking over Gresham's words about poetry. They were heretical, but strangely, I found myself quite understanding what he had meant. Poets were dumb, not because the meditims of expression were closed to them, but because they had nothing to say. There were no poets, as the world formerly considered poets — ^but there was poetry. And this poetry was greater than it had ever been before, because it was more expansive, more subtle, more vital and more significant. Electricity — steam — air . . . these were the threads from which the poetry of the future was to be spun. And because these forces could not, from their very nature, be expressed in words, the blind world persisted in thinking that there was no poetry, no beauty, in them. Westinghouse, Edison, Tesla, Parsons, Wright, Steinmetz, Pasteur . . . yes, and Rockefeller, Harri- man, Hill, Goethals, and — why not? — Gresham . . . these were the poets of our time. They dealt with actual- ities, not symbols, not content with attempting to express in words the inexpressible. My thoughts reverted to that day, so long ago it seemed, when I had stood at night- fall on the bridge, and seen, as in a vision, the mysterious beauty of things that had appeared all ugliness in the day. For a moment I had a penetrative glimpse into the reality of things. Beauty? There is beauty in a rose, for all the 191 THE JOY OP THE WORKING world to see, of course. But for the eye that can see it, there is also beauty in a troUey wire, in a jet of steam . . . in a bottle of Green Label Ketchup . . . and there is more sheer divine mystery, a greater manifestation of the inscrutable purposes of Creation, in a penny magnet, than there is in aU the sonnets that ever were written. I laughed aloud — ^but it was a laugh not unmixed with satisfaction — at the consternation and tumult I could arouse in my former haimts of Paris, by the promulgation of these doctrines. I would find short shrift at the hands of the Scholiasts, but something in my heart of hearts told me that my faith was the broader, the sweeter, the more pregnant with future — ^and in the end, truer than theirs. My days of toil had been productive of more than dollars. I had bartered my time, my thought and my body, and my identity had been submerged in the great sea of labor; but in return I bade fair to win my artistic salvation. I, who could never write a poem or paint one, was learning that there is more poetry in the world than is to be found at the ends of pens and brushes . . . more poetry than poets dream of. Suddenly I realized that it was dark, and remembering that boarding-house table d'h6tes wait not upon philoso- phy, I made quick time back to my humble abode. Such are the quick transitions from the sublime to the ridiculous . . . thus do we leave the stars to return to earth — and dinner I 192 MORE POETRY THAN POETS DREAM OP Traxler tried to persuade me to accompany him on his regular visit to the vaudeville, but I preferred to spend the evening with a book. It was not a "light" book, either, being Herkner's "Die Arbeiterfrage" ; but I had for some time been developing a keen interest in the clumsy, con- fused, unjust relations of Capital and Labor, and I could not be swerved from what promised to be an interesting and profitable evening. 193 CHAPTER XI PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT NOT very long after my change of positions, I moved from the boarding house that had sheltered me so long. The reason was the distance I had to travel to reach the Gresham factory. It was necessary for me to rise dose to five o'clock in order to reach the plant at eight; and as the dining-room was not at that hour open, I was obliged to get my breakfasts at a filthy little all- night place on Clark Street. To Traxler's oppressed regret, therefore, I took my few belongings to a new abode out on Indiana Avenue. Com- pared even with my Dearborn Avenue domicile, this new place was enoi^ to dismay lie most resolute. Such gentility as it had ever possessed had vanished long before my birth, I am sure. It was dirty and dark and malo- dorous, and the food was neither tasty nor sound. The people that dwelt there were no better ... at least they did not seem to be, though I really should not pass judgment upon them, because I kept sedulously to myself, and made no effort at social intercourse. I might have lived in a much better place, but not in so satisfactory' a location. Beades, I had had my financial instincts awakened, and I was saving my nickels with the 194 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT very definite purpose of investing ultimately in stock of the Gresham Food Products Company. I was not over- comfortabk, of course, but I had books, and the Club, which I visited every Saturday. Through Harrower I had slowly acquired a fairly large acquaintanceship, so that I was never lonely for companions when I wanted them; and in my position as Advertising Manager I had come in touch with numerous representatives of news- papers and magazines ... so that altogether, I was reasonably comfortable. Of Dorothy Gresham I saw very little. I dined with her about once a month, and so heard more or less about her doings. And then, once in a very great while, I donned my evening clothes, and sallied forth to a dance or a dinner. On these occasions I frequently met her; and once at least I took her out to dinner. She betrayed not the slightest embarrassment, and I am sure, felt none. She treated me as an old friend, with whom she was on terms of the most perfect intimacy. On these occasional encounters we talked on the most impersonal topics. Never once did we become so perilously personal as on that never-to-be-forgotten night of her dinner-party. Harrower, from what I was told, and from what I saw, still pursued her diligently: but with apparently small success. He seemed tongue-tied in her presence, and it amused me to watch the misery on his face when they were in a company of her choosing. She treated him exactly 195 THE JOY OF THE WORKING as one would treat a favorite collie, and I suppose assured him of the futility of his suit every time they met. But I could not but wonder why she did not want him. He and I had become rather intimate, and the better I knew him, the better I liked him. He was a rather admirable type, and he was succeeding. He was clean- cut, honest, good-looking, and able — as far as his total absence of imagination would allow. Her blindness seemed a pity to me. Harrower had such real possibilities in him, and she had such an opportunity to make the most of them, that I rather resented her failure to take it. I often wondered how long he would continue to wear his self-imposed shackles — a bondage that was the jest of the town. Dorothy constituted my one remaining link with the world of art. I had, of course, in my peregrinations in the world of society, met again most of the pseudo artistic people I had encountered at her home, and more like them. But the better I knew them, the flatter they seemed. As for really sincere workers at the arts, I saw Uttle of them. This was partly because there were not many of them, partly because the few that there were were inaccessible, and partly because I lacked both the time and the inclina- tion to seek them. The factory continued to grow as my prime interest in Hfe. It not only took all my time, but it took more and more of my thought. And the toll it exacted was more 196 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT and more freely paid. Without quite realizing the extent or the rapidity of the change, I felt myself becoming less the slave and more the master of destiny. The fetters of toil no longer galled, and every now and then I realized, with something akin to shock, that I was actually enjoying my work. Even the surroundings of the plant, which on my first visit had seemed so imsightly, no longer appalled me. Carlyle says something to the effect that "a rotting leaf by the road-side has beauty for him who has eyes to see it." That was the way with me. Even the grim, red, sprawling buildings, in all their intrinsic ugliness, lost their power to displease me as I came to know what was inside of them, and what had made them be. They acquired a kind of Soul for me. It was like learning to know an ill- favored woman. In my increasing love for those hideous factories, with all their dirt and noise and strife, I came to understand many marriages that had been inexplicable to me before. The effort I put into my work had its fruition. From a mere clerk, constantly under close supervision, I was accorded more and more responsibility, until, with the passage of time, I became Advertising Manager in fact as well as name. Then, very gradually, I increased the scope of my duties, tmtil finally I was put in charge of the sales force, too, and thus had under my command the dis- tributing end of the business. 197 THE JOY OF THE WORKING This advance caused my first friction with Harrower. He had not only been in the concern much longer than I, but he had also had much more business experience. He was, therefore, quite justified in the more or less open hostility he exhibited at my progress. He strolled into my office the morning the announce- ment of the change was made. "Well," he said, with a disagreeable Uttle smile, "for an artist with no knowledge of business, you seem to be doing pretty well . . . You've done some good selling up at 1700 . . ." "What do you mean by that?" I demanded hotly. "Oh, don't get on your ear. I'm not squealing . . . I know her myself. I had the same chance." I was hurt and angry. It was grossly unjust to bring Dorothy's name into the affair. "Really, Harrower, . . . are you trying to be insulting?" "Oh, no offense — ^no offense." He selected a cigarette, lighted it, blew a puff of smoke in my face, and smiled impleasantly. "You ought to play ingenue roles," he said, and strolled out of the office, whistling to himself. My new position did not give me any authority over him, but it gave me equal authority in his own department. There was, therefore, abundant opportunity for friction. I realized that I would need all the tact I possessed to keep even an appearance of amity between us. Thinking it over, even now, I realize the justice in Har- rower's pique. I was an "upstart" — ^there could be no 198 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT doubt of it. But I see more clearly now why I, with less practical experience, yet superseded him. It was because he lacked imagination — ^without which no man can ever reach the top in business. As an executive he possessed limitless possibilities: but he could not plan at all. He was a worker, not a dreamer . . . and the highest places in business, as in art, are occupied by dreamers. But it was not merely in titles that progress came, and my promotions were not the only marks of my develop- ment. As I increased my interest in the selling of the Gresham products I grew more and more interested in commerce as a whole. And I grew gradually, without quite noticing the steps, from a more or less confined interest in the products themselves, to an interest in the factors that had produced them. In other words, in the process of becoming a rather efficient business machine, I also became something of an altruist. I began to real- ize, with a certain poignancy, the men and women behind the Green Label. It was McNamara who first epitomized the changes that were going on in me. He was a disillusioned, harsh featured, harsh tongued Scot of some fifty years . . . a bachelor, and with no discoverable emotions. Until one afternoon he had meant nothing to me except that he was a thoroughly satisfac- tory workman who kept his machinery moving with com- mendable certitude. But on that particular afternoon, 199 THE JOY OF THE WORKING McNamara, without in the least suspecting it, gave me an insight into life that I never had had before. I chanced to be down in the engine room, on my vray out to the shipping platform. As I passed Mac, he merely nodded his head, with the privil^ed indifference of the old emplo3ree. But my eyes happened to fall upon what he was doing; and I was so interested that I stopped. '■"What in the name of heaven are you doing that for?" I asked, curious at the patient industry with which he was polishing one of the bolts on his dynamo. Mac looked a little confused, but went on with his polishing. "Will you tell me what good that does?" I continued, as he made no reply. ' 'Wfll it make the thing run better? Will it get ^TDU better wages? Will it give more power? What earthly good wUi it do?" He scratched his head, plainly puzzled. "Well, Mr. Chandos, I can't say that it'll do any of those things," he rephed, "but I like to help this here little lady look as well as she can. I suppose it ain't verra practical, as you might say, but • . . oh, wed . . . ye see — ^I like to do it." He patted the dynamo lovingly. I passed on to other af^drs. But I have never forgotten that incident- Why that hard-headed, hard-working man should busy himsdf over a task that was essentially an aesthetic one, presented a problem not easy of solution. If a man is an artist and a poet insofar as he creates for 200 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT the sheer joy of creation, and toils without reward for inutile beauty, then McNamara was fundamentally just as much an artist as Corot, and just as mudi a poet as Milton. The sole difference was in the medium. I went back to my desk, feeling in some curious way as if I had stumbled upon the Philosopher's Stone. Life seemed broader and clearer than it had ever seemed before. Toil took on a new significance. All the world's work was not performed merely to win bread or glory. Men built ships and bridges — ^yes, and factories . . . they made shoes and nails and food products — ^not to win divers forms of reward, but because they had to. They might not know it . . . and usually they did not: but the fact was there. In a flash I had a penetrative glimpse into Holy Writ — "Man created in the image of his Maker." . . . More than that . . . Man was God Himself — Man was a Creator, too. And he attained divinity whether he painted the most sublimely beautiful picture . . . or penned the most deathless poem ... or polished a bolt on a dynamo! I was so full of this tremendous thought that I found it impossible to concentrate upon the work I was doing. So I rose and wandered through the factory. Slowly I made my way through the cooking rooms, where the great vats steamed and sizzled, tended by dull-eyed, stupid looking men and women. I went into the rooms where great inachines, seemingly free from human attention, were 201 THE JOY OF THE WORKING stamping out cans, with a crash and roar as of hell itself. I passed on into the rooms where, at endless tables, light- ning-fingered girls sat putting on labels. I went down to the shipping rooms, where brawny men, half dressed, were swinging their hammers with the speed and precision of machines. Through room after room, and floor after floor I passed, studying everjd;hing, accommodating every- thing to this new, great idea; that the unwitting McNamara had germinated in my breast. I scrutinized the faces of the workers, who scarcely glanced at me, so intent were they upon the relentless tasks before them. Their faces indicated no sense of the divine power of creation. They were in no fierce joy of poetry. Every eye was dulled with miseries untellable, every back bent with the weight of ages of toil. Little did they suspect the divinity that was in them, the poetry of the machines they tended . . , these Sparks from the anvil of Infinity. But as I watched them, my eyes clearer than they had ever been before, and saw the sordidness reflected from every face, I was not dismayed. I had only the feeling that I have when I see some callow, dull-featured youth, with a couple of twisted boards, and some bits of cat-gut, pouring forth all the tears and laughter and mystery of life. What difference does it make whether he knows what he is doing? What difference does it make what trifles he does it with? What if these poor wretched 202 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT clods knew nothing of the song they were singing in the grinding clash of their machinery, what if they under- stood nothing of the endless pictures they were painting in the sweat of their humble brows? What need the player know ... if only the Song be there? It was not long after this that I had my first difference of opinion with my employer. I was summoaed one morning to see him in his office. "Chandos," he said, when I had seated myself. "I suppose you know that Remsen has knocked a hole in Wiley's nonsense about benzoate of soda? I think it would be a good idea to play that decision up pretty strong in our advertising." "Mr. Gresham," said I, "I've been thinking about that benzoate matter, mj^elf, and I think . . . why not cut it out?" "You mean say nothing about It in our copy? Well, perhaps. StiU, Remsen's a big man, you know . . . and the Stein people are talking a lot about their ketchup not having any benzoate in it." "No, I don't refer to the advertising. I mean . . . why not quit using benzoate ourselves?" Gresham stared at me. "Why — what's got int« you?" he said finally, more curious than annoyed. "Well . . . benzoate can't do any good — ^to the consumer . , . and it may . . ." 203 THE JOY OF THE WORKING "May what?" he interrupted sharply. "Hasn't the Remsen board declared it harmless?" "But a lot of other chemists have disagreed. At least you will admit that there's a difference of opinion. Why not be on the safe side?" "My dear young man." Gresham was patient, but there was just a hint of annoyance in his tone. "If a board composed of some of the biggest chemists in this country — one of them President of Johns Hopkins Uni- versity — decides that benzoate as a preservative is harm- less, isn't it just a bit . . . presumptuous . . . for you or me to discount its decision? You can't ques- tion either the ability or the impartiality of those men." "Quite true," I said, "but big men have made mistakes before. And in this case, there are big men on the other side. At best there is a difference of opinion. Why not play safe? It'll make a splendid drawing card for our advertising!" I added, enthusiastically. "... and increase our expense!" said Gresham grimly. "No, my boy, you mustn't be quixotic in this matter." "But see here, Mr. Gresham," I cried, " ... do you use Green Label Ketchup on your own table?" Gresham laughed. "That's like the man who went into a restaurant and asked if the proprietor was in, and one of the waiters said, 'No, he's out to lunch.' " 204 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT "Seriously, though," I pursued my point, "do you use it at home?" Gresham looked just a trifle uncomfortable. "Oh, come now, that is hardly a fair question. A man isn't obliged to use everj^hing he sells, is he? Woolworth probably doesn't furnish his house from his Five and Ten Cent Stores." "That's beside the point, Mr. Gresham. Green Label is the best ketchup that can be made . . . except for that benzoate. If you don't use it at home, it's because of the benzoate, and nothing else. Isn't that so?" Gresham leaned back and put his thumbs in his waist- coat. Then he smiled quizzically. "Chandos, I thought you had been here long enough to know more about business than you do. But apparently you haven't gotten the business view-point even yet. Now look here — Green Label may be the best ketchup on the market. But / know — and you know — that it's a devil of a long way from being the best ketchup that can be made. The consumer wants a hundred cents' worth of value in every dollar's worth of ketchup — and everything else — ^that he buys. And the manufacturer is going to give him just as much less than a hundred cents as he can — and still sell the goods. It's the difference between those two figures that makes his profit. I'm not in business for charity nor for fun, you know. I'd cut the value of that ketchup in half, if I thought it would 205 THE JOY OF THE WORKING sell to the same extent. And I don't propose to increase the value, or decrease the cost of manufacture and sale, unless there is a corresponding increase in the profit. And regardless of whether cutting out benzoate would increase the value, it certainly wouldn't increase the profit. There's your answer. You want to lose these sentimental notions about business, Chandos. The magazines are full of them nowadays, and young men are apt to lose their heads. Men are in business to make money, now and forever . . . and don't you forget it!" With that he turned to his work, and I left him, to write some copy extolling the innocuous virtues of benzoate. So men were in business to make money, and any other notion was "sentiment!" Any bolt-polishing that did not show a tangible profit was "sentiment." Well, that idea certainly had the sanction of numerous adherents . . . but it was wrong. In my heart of hearts I knew it was wrong. But what could I do — a mere wage slave? I had to do what my master bade me. But the day would come . . . well, contemplation of the future was profitless, and therefore sentimental. I had best adjust myself to the unideal present. And yet Gresham was a subscriber to numerous charities. His armual donation to St. Luke's Hospital, alone, was several times as large as my salary. I knew from several reliable sources that he was always prompt to alleviate suffering. His daughter had often told me of his generous 206 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT cheques to their church. It was hard to reconcile the two sides of the man. It was the same enigma that I had seen in Keppy. But his words regarding the quality of Green Label Ketchup made me look upon our other products with a new interest and understanding. I had, of course, by reason of my position, known all the details of manufac- ttu-e; but I had rather taken them as a matter of course. Now I began to resent them. I fell to taking frequent trips of inspection through the factory, and seeing, with pretematurally acute vision, wherein things could be improved. These things, of covu-se, I never brought to the attention of Mr. Gresham, because they all meant an increase of expense . . . and no "corresponding increase of profit." I never forgot what he was in business for. But as I studied the inner workings of the plant, I saw many ways in which the methods of manttfacture could be cheapened. I took to spending my evenings with Taylor and Emerson and the other exponents of naanufactviring eflSciency. And whenever I saw a practicable oppor- tunity to cut cost, I explained it to my employer. The result was that when McCarthy, the general manager, was taken ill, I was allowed tacitly to assume his duties. narrower made no sign that he had noticed any change in my work, or that he anticipated any results from it: but I noticed that he had quite ceased his occasional con- 207 THE JOY OF THE WORKING versational visits to my office, and that he no longer asked me to Itmch with him. There were no more visible signs of hostility on his part, but I would have been indeed obtuse not to sense his deepening animosity toward me. I aCected however, not to notice an3^thing untoward in his treatment of me, and threw mj^self with greater zest into my work. The work of the advertising department had been largely standardized, and so I was able to leave most of it to my subordinates, maintaining merely a supervision- Thus I was left free to develop the ideas that had been germinating in my mind, concerning the manufacturing end of the business. The other phase — selling and dis- tributing — ^I had long been familiar with. I found myself acqtiiiing a deepening fascination for the apparently iminteresting details of factory management. The limitiess opportunities for doing things better gave full scope for all the "creative instinct" that a man could possess, and I derived as much pleasure from working out improvements on a can-soldering machine as I ever had had from painting a picture. And in the Life that made those machines go, that watched, and tended, and fed them, there was fuH play for all my long-dormant sympathy with humanity. It was this latter interest that got me into disa^eement with Mr. Gresham a second time. In my work as superintendent, I had occasion to be 2oS PROMOTION— AkD A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT on my feet most of the time; and I noticed at night that I was very much more tired than I had ever been when I toiled at a desk. It was with tremendous relief that I sought surcease in an arm-chair from the dull dragging pains about the small of the back which had come on during the afternoon. And that personal experience of discomfort made me look upon the workers in the factory with new sympathy. So I went to the President. "I think I see another way of increasing efficiency," I said diplomatically. These suggestions of mine were usually in the nature of economics in material, or speeding up labor; and I knew that Gresham would be prepared to Usten. But at my next words the interest left his eyes — "Those women ought to have seats. Some of them have to stand up all day, you know, and it must be pretty hard on them." "My dear Chandos," said Gresham, with the note of exasperation that had lurked in his voice at the time ©f our benzoate controversy. "You don't want to pamper those people." "I'm not pampering them. But I never understood their position tmtil I've had to stand up myself. I tell you, it's no fun to be on your feet for ten hours." "Just remember that they're a very different class from you. You or L couldn't stand it, of course — ^but look at those girls. They're husky peasants . . . they're built for naanual labor. Why, my dear boy, they'd think 209 THE JOY OF THE WORKING you were crazy if they knew you were pit5riag them!" He laughed indulgently. "I don't care whether the5r're peasants or not. They're human beings . . . and they're women. And I know that they do suffer." My voice must have revealed some of the irritation I felt; for his manner seaned to show an effort to pacify me. "Oh, come now, Chandos. You're off on your old senti- mentality again. This won't do, you know." "Has my sentimentality, as you call it, been profitable, or has it not, since I've been doing McCarthjr's work?" I demanded with some heat. "That's why I hate to see you slip this way," he smiled. "Then you refuse to put in seats?" "WeU— really, I . . ." "Listen to this, then — " I played my last card. "I found a woman today who's likely to have a child any minute. She ought to be in bed. I had to drive her home. She cried because she said she needed the money. I laid her off by force . . . had to . . ." (I did not tell him that I had given her ten dollars. He would have wanted her name, so he could give her fifty . . . although he would not think of paying her wages during her enforced absence!) "They may be a husky lot of draft-horses . . . but you mustn't overlook the fact that they are mares." 2IO PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT He bit his lip, and I think an angry retort trembled on it. I did not hesitate to press my advantage — "Then I can put them in?" He nodded, but said nothing. I ventured to go fur- ther — "The air in the label room is very bad," I said as calmly as I could. "I think we'd better put ventilators in . . . it's an inside room, you know . . ." "Chandos," Qresham's voice was low, but it was obvious that he was suppressing a very considerable annoyance. "Some day it may dawn upon you that this is not an eleemosynary institution. Until then, I sup- pose, you'll be constantly endeavoring to break the Com- pany." "Then it's all right to put the ventilators in?" He looked at me for a minute without replying, twisting his mustache thoughtfully. I surmised that he was trying to control and conceal his growing irritation. "Put in anjrthing you've got a mind to . . . don't count the cost!" he snapped sarcastically. I did not wait to hear more, and I escaped before he could retract his concession. I had intended to ask per- mission to paint the label room, too; but I feared that that would prove the final straw. I was sufficiently satis- fied to have done as well as I had. McCarthy was more dangerously ill than any of us had suspected, and one day there came the news of his death. 211 THE JOY OF THE WORKING That afternoon I was smnmoned to the President's private ofiBce. Mr. Gresham looked at me in a curioudy bewildered fashion when I came in, and said nothing for quite a little while. "Chandos — " he began finally. Then he stared out of the window, and fell to tearing a bit of paper into minute strips. That was a habit I knew to indicate important matters. "Chandos ... it was a good day for this concern when Keppy fired you." "It was a good day for me," said I, wondering what might be forthcoming. "You've gone up like a rocket out here . . . and you've gone up on your own powder." He spoke as if to himself, and there seemed no reason for me to speak. "I wonder if you've got some more powder in you," he continued. "I'm afraid I don't quite vmderstand," I said. "FranMy," he went on reflectively, "you're a puzzle to me . . . a big one. You're a puzzle in the same way my daughter is. I don't quite imderstand either of you. In her case I consider it a simple case of youth — but in yours . . . well, I'm hanged if I know what to think of it!" "Why do I puzzle you?" Gresham latched. "That's the very question I ask myself. Why do you? Somehow, I . . . don't just 212 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT . . . trust you." My face must have fallen, for he hastened to add, with a smile. "Oh — not the way you think. It isn't that I don't think you're honest . . . the trouble is, I have a fear that you're too honest . . . altogether too honest. You make me feel that there's something wrong with me . . , somewhere. And no man likes to have that sort of an employee about him. Frankly, Chandos — " He leaned forward, and the smile faded from his face, "I'd fire you in a minute ... if I could afford to!" I coughed in embarrassment, and I must have reddened. But I said nothing — there was nothing to say. He went on presently. "I can't fire you. I've got to promote you, instead. You're holding down McCarthy's job nominally, and I'm afraid I've got to make it official. If there was another man in the plant that I could put into the place — I'd do it. But there isn't. There's Harrower, of covirse. He's able and he's honest. I think he understands me better than you do. And I'm more certain of the way he's going to jump. He's more reliable than you . . . but he's so damned reliable he'd be rtuining to me every hour to find out what I wanted. My time's too valuable to give him the place. No, Chandos, there's no other way out of it — I've got to make you General Manager of this company . . . and I tell you candidly, I never wanted to do anything less!" 213 THE JOY OP THE WORKING I tried to express my amazement at this curious speech, but there were no words available. Gresham leaned back and lit a cigar. "I suppose you think I'm a little out of my head," he said quizzically, as the smoke began to drift upward and add itself to the accumulated dirt of years on the ceiling. "But I'm not. You're an able chap, Chandos, and you get ahead because you deliver. But hitherto you've always been an underling. You haven't had a chance to make the trouble that I'm convinced is in you to make. In putting you into this job I'm taking the biggest chance I ever took in my life. I feel as if I was gambling on my ownfuttire. If I lose . . . one or the other of us is going to have to get out of this business." He paused for a moment, and smoked thoughtfully. "The trouble with you, Chandos, is that you've got a queer streak of senti- mentality in you. As long as you keep it down, and hold your nose to the work in hand, you're a world-beater. | But you've got a tendency toward dreaming. If you let that get the best of you — and I let you let it — ^you'll not only break yourself, but you'll break me. And I haven't built up this business, and spent my life doing it, to let any man come along and knock the whole thing down . . ." There was another long pause, during which he stared at me fixedly. "You're practically the whole Gresham Food Products Company from now on. And you've got just two things 214 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT to think about. One is to make our products for the least money, and the other is to sell 'em for the most. Every- thing you do has to contribute to one of those two things. You're not going to spend any money on the down-trodden help, and you're not going to spend any on the dear public. You can worry and philosophize to your heart's content about them both . . . but you aren't going to let your worrying cost ihe stockholders of this corporation real money. Just tack this up beside your alarm clock — ^that you're put in the position of G. M. for the sole, single, and solitary purpose of increasing dividends. If the stockholders want charity, they can attend to that for themselves. I wonder if you understand all that I'm driving at?" "Mr. Gresham, I would have to be very considerably less intelligent than you believe me to be not to under- stand you perfectly. There is no doubt in my mind as to your meaning." "Good!" Gresham held out his hand. "And I hope that you won't feel that there was an37thing of a personal nature in what I said. Outside of business hours I'm intensely interested in yotu* ideas. I want you to feel that up at the house you have full play for aU your senti- mentalizing. But in the factory . . ." "... I'm a machine?" "Precisely. As long as you remember that, there won't be anything here that's too good for you." 215 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I left him then. The exposition of his attitude had been too pellucid to require ftu-ther words, and its perfect sin- cerity had completely eliminated any possibility of resent- ment. He had simply stated the terms upon which he paid me a salary. In working hours he paid for my thoughts — and paid for them generously. I could not quarrel with him for demanding the kind and quality of goods for which he paid. Were our positions reversed, I would do exactly the same. The mere fact that what he demanded was in my eyes fundamentally wrong could not alter the justice of the demand. I felt curiously like a machine as I left his office. The soul of the new General Manager had already become automatically responsive to the demands of dividends. Prom now on, it was to be concentrated on just one thing. Everything else was for leisure hours. Gresham made money to spend it on his daughter, on motors, fine houses, opera boxes, social prestige: I made it to spend on . . . free thinking. It was the law of the world. Make your money as you can — spend it as you will. I could not quarrel with Cosmos. That same afternoon I took my first official tour of inspection of the entire plant. With me I carried a note- book, and in it I jotted down everything I saw that might be advantageously changed or corrected. And when I got home that night, I copied these jottings into another book — ^in two parallel columns. In one, looking it over 216 PROMOTION— AND A SENTIMENTAL SPLIT now, I find such remarks as "lockers," "ventilation sys- tem," "reading and rest rooms," "shower baths," "level- ling and cleaning the vacant lot on the comer for a ball field," "painting interior of plant white," "knock in some windows on south side of packing -room," "rebuild rotten stairways," and so on, for several pages. In the other column I find such notes as "charge up label wastage to help," "standardize box sizes to avoid lumber wastage," "put stenographers in separate room, and use dictaphones," "cut down pencil wastage," and so on . . . for several more pages. It was the second column that went with me to the factory next morning. The first one remained at home . . . to be used in leisure hours. 217 CHAPTER XII THE OLDEST TRADE IN THE WORLD AN obstinate break-down on my pet soldering machine kept me late at the factory one night, supervising its repairs, so that it would be ready for work on the morrow. It was after nine when I was finally able to get away, and a painfully empty stomach made me hurry. As I stood waiting for my car, I heard a thin voice behind me, whining, wheedling — "Out for a good time, dearie? . . ." It was a salutation new perhaps in words, but old as time in spirit, and I did not turn my head. But there was a wistful something in the voice, as if the speaker was not wholly brazen. And so, when the query was repeated, I looked around. She was a slender little thing, very young, dressed in the style of her sisters on the Lake Shore Drive — tan shoes, a white striped tailor suit of blue, a bit of lace thrown over one breast, a low collar, exposing the thin- ness of her neck, and a bucket-shaped hat, well down over her face. A block away she would have looked completely in the mode. But close at hand, the exaggeration of everything, its obvious tawdriness, revealed her station 218 THE OLDEST TRADE IN THE WORLD plainly. The feather in her hat was just a trifle too loi^, her skirt just a trifle too short, and the lace on her breast just a trifle too large. But it was the face that made me, having glanced once, glance again. I have lived in the world too long, and known too many women, to put much faith in faces. But the woman of the streets cannot ply her trade for long without acquiring an indefinable something, a varnish over her emotions that seems to extend to her face; and this girl's eyes had a tendency to drop as they looked at me. She appeared to lack practice in the art of with- standing the inspection of amorous males. She was pretty, too — in a vacuous, frail, unhealthy way. And at my stare she smiled furtively, revealing teeth that shone brilliantly under the arc light. It was a smile more of friendliness than of invitation, and it seemed to waver between wistfulness and shame. The experienced jUle de joie is neither wistful nor shamefaced, and there is no mistaking her ingratiating smile for one of mere friendliness. It is like as not to bear evidence of all the hate she bears your sex. It is a curiously wolfish expression, and it cannot rightly be called a smile, any more than the grin that comes over the face of a preda- tory animal when it bares its fangs for attack, can be called a smile. I was interested, therefore, in this young girl more for what she seemed not to be, than for what she plainly was. 219 THE JOY OF THE WORKING It was an inexplicable curiosity that impelled me to forget all thought of my empty stomach and follow her into the shadow of a doorway. "Hello, kid," I said jovially, in an effort to disann suspicion. She smiled at me, and brought her body up close to mine. Just then a car passed, throwing some of its radiance into the darkness of the doorway. The girl jumped as if she had been shot, and started to run. But I caught her by the wrist. "What's the matter?" I demanded, amazed at the obvious terror in her expression. She hung her head at my question, and said nothing. I had to repeat it. She mtmmured something that I could not catch, and still tried to drag herself away from my grasp. Her behavior was curious in the extreme. Then another car passed, again throwing her face momentarily into light. Some- thing stirred in my memory. "I'tc seen you before?" I asked. She nodded her head. "Where?" I could understand only one word of her answer, but it was enough. Of course I had seen her before. She was one of the label girls at the factory. That explained her sudden terror-stricken start when she recognized me. "Come on," I said, when she began to weep dismally. "This is no place to talk ... I want you to take me home." Her feather drooped like a dead thing when we 220 THE OLDEST TRADE IN THE WORLD started off, as if it had partaken of the misery of its wearer. I could feel the poor child tremble in my grasp, but I did not let go. I feared a possible flight, and some purposeless interest in this unhappy waif made me anxious to learn her story. "Now," I said as gently as I could, when we were in a dark side-street, with few passers-by, "been at this game long?" She shook her head. "Only a few weeks," she whis- pered. "What do you do it for?" I asked with sublime banality. All her terror seemed to vanish at that question, and she straightened up in angry defiance. "Wot yer goin' to do . . . preach t' me?" she demanded. "Not in the least," I assured her. "You're pla5ring what strikes me as a foolish game, and I'd just like to know what you play it for?" "I love t' hear youse guys talk," she said with a sneer that I felt rather than saw, for the darkness. Then, of a sudden, her manner seemed to change, and I could hear her whimper — "Please, Mr. Chandos . . . it's be- cause ... I need the money!" She broke down completely, then, and I had to stop until she could control her fit of sobbing. I noticed a policeman on the comer eyeing us curiously, and then start in our direction. Visions of a possible scandal made me shake the sniveling 221 THE JOY OF THE WORKING girl by my side, roughly. The word "copper" seined to silence her magicall}-, and we made o& in the opposite direction from the officer. "Which way is your home?" I asked, as we hxinied along. "Oh please, Mr. Chandos . . . please . . ." She gag)ed and clutched at my aim. 'Tlease don't take me hosiK. You don't know ... If my father knew . . . why ... if he knew what I'd been doin' . . . he'd kill me . . . honest t' God he would. You don't know 'im !" Her terror was plainly not feigned. "Well,"' I said, trying to be gentle. "Where does he think you are at this hour of the night?" "I told 'em at home that I'd be doin' overtime at the factory." "That amplifies it, then. I've been at the factory . . . I brought you home. Easy, isn't it?" She stopped momentarily, and looked at me curiously. "Say, Mr. Qiandos . . . excuse me for askjn' . . but what do you want with me, anyhow?" It was a legitimate querj'. What did I want with her? Would she understand if I told her the impulse that had made me speak to her? I took the chance — ' 'I spoke to you in the first place, because I felt sorry for you . . ." "Humph! . . ." She stiffened instantly. "You didn't look like the sort of girl you were trying to THE OLDEST TRADE IN THE WORLD lcx)k like. I figured that you weren't bad . . . only jtist foolish — and ignorant. Come now . . . er, — what is your name?" "Kitty." "Kitty what?" "Doyle." "Well, Kitty," I went on, floundering in my words, not knowing in the least what to say, yet with a very earnest desire to present to this unfortunate child the truth in such a way that she would accept it. It is exceedingly difficult to moralize with a person who knows you are right, but would rather die than admit it. "Can't you see that this sort of a life has only one ending?" "What's that?" she asked dully. "You know it perfectly well. You've got a clear skin and clear eyes now . . . but you know without my teUing you, how long you'll have them if you go on in this sort of a way. There's nothing in it, child . . . only misery and unhappiness and regrets. You're respect- able now . . . and your father and mother . . . haven't you any care about them?" "They don't need to know nothin' about it," she said, sullenly. "Not now, perhaps. But you can't keep on this way forever, you know. And your friends ... do you want to lose them?" She laughed mirthlessly. "They're all like me." 223 THE JOY OF THE WORKING I was aghast. "Do you mean that . . . many of the factory giris ... do this sort of thing? . . ." "Sore. An' you can't blame 'em. How's a giri goin' to have any fan with wot she gets at th' factor].-? She can't keep body and soul tt^ether, hardly . . . less she gets somethin' on the side . . ." "What do you get, for instance ... at the fac- tory?" I demanded- "Six doDais a week. An' lemme tdl ye, that don't go very fer wen yer father's laid up. an' y^s- kid brothas ain't big 'nough to woric. The bi^est one — ^Hany — ahiKis' got a job fer four a week, but they caught him at it, 'cause he was under age . . ." "Do you mean to say that you support the family 3-our- sdf ... on six dollars a week?" "Naw, the kids sdls japers, and there's a kike, Joe Lipsky . . . he boards with us. "It's no dnch, though, I can teU you," my companion went on drearily. "Ma picks up somethin' washin', but she ain't strong, and besides, she's gotta stay hcnnetakin' care of pa. It'd be a blesan' if he could be tak^i o£. I ain't so keen on this here . . ." There was an expres- sive pause. "... that I couldn't quit, but gee, I don't know what I'd do if I didn't make somethin' on the side. All the girls does it . . . Why, I know a girl what works in one