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PUTNAM'S SONS NEW YORK AND LONDON Zbe fcnicltecbocltec press igo6 PublKhed, August, 1905 Reprinted, December, 1905; February, 1906; April, 1906 Ube ftnicfierlfocftec prees* mew ]tforft PREFACE Thbse letters were returned to me, shortly after the death of the friend to whom they were written, by his widow. It seems that he had been sorting and destroying letters and papers a few days before his wholly unexpected end. "We won't destroy these," he had said to her, holding the bulky packet of my letters in his hand; "we will keep them together. T ought to publish them, and, some day, I hope he will." This was not, of course, a deliberate judg- ment ; but his sudden death, a few days later, gives the unconsidered wish a certain sanctity, and I have determined to obey it. Moreover, she who has the best right to decide, desires it. A few merely personal matters and casual details have been omitted ; but the main substance is there, and the letters are just as they were writ- ten. Such hurried compositions, of course, abound in literary shortcomings, but perhaps they have a certain spontaneity which more de- liberate writings do not always possess. I wrote iv Preface my best, frankest, and liveliest in the letters, be- cause I knew that Herbert would value both the thought and the expression of the thought. And, further, if it is necessary to excuse so speedy a publication, I feel that they are not let- ters which would gain by being kept. Their interest arises from the time, the circumstance, the occasion that gave them birth, from the books read and criticised, the educational problems dis- cussed ; and thus they may form a species of com- ment on a certain aspect of modem life, and from a definite point of view. But, after all, it is enough for me that he appreciated them, and, if he wished that they should go out to the world, well, let them go ! In publishing them I am but obeying a last message of love. T. B. Monk's Orchard, Upton, February 20, 1905. The Upton Letters The Upton Letters Monk's Orchard, Upton, January 23, 1904. My dear Herbert, — I have just heard the disheartening news, and I write to say that I am sorry toto corde. I don't yet know the full extent of the calamity, the length of your exile, the place, or the conditions under which you will have to live. Perhaps you or Nelly can find time to let me have a few lines about it all? But I suppose there is a good side to it. I imagine that when the place is once fixed, you will be able to live a much freer life than you have of late been obliged to live in England, with less risk and less overshadowing of anxiety. If you can find the right region, renovabitur ut aquila juventus tua ; and you will be able to carry out some of the plans which have been so often inter- rupted here. Of course there will be drawbacks. Books, society, equal talk, the English country- 2 The Upton Letters side, which you love so well, and, if I may use the expression, so intelligently; they will all have to be foregone in a measure. But fortunately there is no difficulty about money, and money will give you back some of these delights. You will still see your real friends; and they will come to you with the intention of giving and getting the best of themselves and of you, not in the purposeless way in which one drifts into a visit here. You will be able, too, to view things with a certain detachment — and that is a real advan- tage; for I have sometimes thought that your literary work has suffered from the variety of your interests, and from your being rather too close to them to form a philosophical view. Your love of characteristic points of natural scenery will help you. When you have once grown familiar with the new surroundings, you will penetrate the secret of their charm, as you have done here. You will be able, too, to live a more undisturbed life, not fretted by all the cross- currents which distract a man in his own land, when he has a large variety of ties. I declare I did not know I was so good a rhetorician; I shall end by convincing myself that there is no real happiness to be found except in expatriation ! The Upton Letters 3 Seriously, my dear Herbert, I do understand the sadness of the change; but one gets no good by dwelling on the darker side; there are and will be times, I know, of depression. When one lies awake in the morning, before the nerves are braced by contact with the wholesome day; when one has done a tiring piece of work, and is alone, and in that frame of mind when one needs occu- pation but yet is not brisk enough to turn to the work one loves; in those dreary intervals between one's work, when one is off with the old and not yet on with the new — well I know all the corners of the road, the shadowy cavernous places where the demons lie in wait for one, as they do for the wayfarer (do you remember?), in Bewick, who, desiring to rest by the roadside, finds the dingle all alive with ambushed fiends, homed and heavy- limbed, swollen with the oppressive clumsiness of nightmare. But you are not inexperienced or weak. You have enough philosophy to wait until the frozen mood thaws, and the old thrill comes back. That is one of the real compensations of middle age. When one is young, one imagines that any depression will be continuous; and one sees the dreary, uncomforted road winding ahead over bare hills, till it falls to the dark valley. But 4 The Upton Letters later on one can believe that " the roadside dells of rest" are there, even if one cannot see them ; and, after all, you have a home which goes with you; and it would seem to be fortunate, or to speak more truly, tenderly prepared, that you have only daughters — a son, who would have to go back to England to be educated, would be a source of anxiety. Yet I find myself even wish- ing that you had a son, that I might have the care of him over here. You don' t know the heart- hunger I sometimes have for young things of my own to watch over ; to try to guard their happi- ness. You would say that I had plenty of oppor- tunities in my profession; it is true in a sense, and I think I am perhaps a better schoolmaster for being unmarried. But these boys are not one's own ; they drift away ; they come back dutifully and affectionately to talk to their old tutor; and we are both of us painfully conscious that we have lost hold of the thread, and that the nearness of the tie that once existed exists no more. Well, I did not mean in this letter to begin be- moaning my own sorrows, but rather to try to help you to bear your own. Tell me as soon as you can what your plans are, and I will come The Upton Letters 5 down and see you for the last time under the old conditions ; perhaps the new will be happier. God bless you, my old friend! Perhaps the light which has hitherto shone (though fitfully) on your life will now begin to shine through it in- stead; and let me add one word. My assurance grows firmer, from day to day, that we are in stronger hands than our own. It is true that I see things in other lives which look as if those hands were wantonly cruel, hard, unloving; but I reflect that I cannot see all the conditions; I can only humbly fall back upon my own experience, and testify that even the most daunting and hu- miliating things have a purif}'ing effect ; and I can perceive enough at all events to encourage me to send my heart a little farther than my eyes and to believe that a deep and urgent love is there. — Ever afiectionately yours, T. B. Upton, January 26, 1904. Dear HerbBRT, — So it is to be Madeira at present? Well, I know Madeira a little, and I can honestly congratulate you. I had feared it might be Switzerland. I could not live in Switz- erland. It does me good to go there, to be iced 6 The Upton Letters and baked and washed clean with pure air. But the terrible mountains, so cold and unchanged, with their immemorial patience, their frozen tran- quillity; the high hamlets, perched on their lonely- shelves; the bleak pine-trees, with their indomita- ble strength — all these depress me. Of course there is much homely beauty among the lower slopes; the thickets, the falling streams, the flowers. But the grim black peaks look over everywhere; and there is seldom a feeling of the rich and comfortable peace such as one gets in England. Madeira is very different. I have been there, and must truthfully confess that it does not suit me altogether — the warm air, the paradisal luxuriance, the greenhouse fragrance, are not a fit setting for a blond, lymphatic man, who pants for Northern winds. But it will suit you ; and you will be one of those people, spare and compact as you are, who find themselves vig- orous and full of energy there. I have many ex- quisite vignettes from Madeira which linger in my mind. The high hill-villages, full of leafy trees ; the grassy downs at the top ; the droop of creep- ers, full of flower and fragrance, over white walls; the sapphire sea, under huge red cliffs. You will perhaps take one of those embowered Quintas The Upton Letters 7 high above the town, in a garden full of shelter and fountains. And I am much mistaken if you do not find yourself in a very short time passion- ately attached to the place. Then the people are simple, courteous, unaffected, full of personal in- terest. Housekeeping has few difficulties and no terrors. I can't get away for a night ; but I will come and dine with you one day this week, if you can keep an evening free. And one thing I will promise — when you are away, I will write to you as often as I can. I shall not attempt any formal letters, but I shall begin with anything that is in my mind, and stop when I feel disposed; and you must do the same. We won't feel bound to answer each other's let- ters ; one wastes time over that. What I shall want to know is what you are thinking and doing, and I shall take for granted you desire the same. You will be happier, now that you know ; I need not add that if I can be of any use to you in making suggestions, it will be a real pleasure. — Kver yours, T. B. 8 The Upton Letters Upton, February 3, 1904. My dear Herbert, — It seems ages since we said good-bye — yet it is not a week ago. And now I have been at work all day correcting exer- cises, teaching, talking. I have had supper with the boys, and I have been walking about since and talking to them — the nicest part of my work. They are at this time of the day, as a rule, in good spirits, charitable, sensible. What an odd thing it is that boys are so delightful when they are alone, and so tiresome (not always) when they are together. They seem, in public, to want to show their worst side, to be ashamed of being sup- posed to be good, or interested, or thoughtful, or tender-hearted. They are so afraid of seeming better than they are, and pleased to appear worse than they are. I wonder why this is ? It is the same more or less with most people; but one sees instincts at their nakedest among boys. As I go on in life, the one thing I desire is simplicity and reality ; pose is the one fatal thing. The dullest person becomes interesting if you feel that he is really himself, that he is not holding up some ab- surd shield or other in front of his shivering soul. And yet how hard it is, even when one appreci- ates the benefits and beauty of sincerity, to say The Upton Letters g what one really thinks, without reference to what one supposes the person one is talking to would like or expect one to think — and to do it, too, without brusqueness or rudeness or self-assertion. Boys are generally ashamed of saying anything that is good about each other ; and yet they are as a rule intensely anxious to be popular, and pa- thetically unaware that the shortest cut to popu- larity is to see the good points in every one and not to shrink from mentioning them. I once had a pupil, a simple-minded, serene, ordinary crea- ture, who attained to extraordinary popularity. I often wondered why ; after he had left, I asked a boy to tell me ; he thought for a moment, and then he said, ' ' I suppose, sir, it was because when we were all talking about other chaps — and one does that nearly all the time — he used to be as much down on them as any one else, and he never jawed — but he always had something nice to say about them, not made up, but as if it just came into his head. ' ' Well, I must stop ; I suppose you are forg- ing out over the Bay, and sleeping, I hope, like a top. There is no sleep like the sleep on a Steamer — profound, deep, so that one wakes up hardly knowing where or who one is ; and in the lo The Upton Letters morning you will see the great purple league-long rollers. I remember them ; I generally felt very unwell; but there was something tranquillising about them, all the same — and then the mysteri- ous steamers that used to appear alongside pitch- ing and tumbling, with the little people moving about on the decks ; and a mile away in a minute. Then the water in the wake, like marble, with its white- veined sapphire, and the hiss and smell of the foam ; all that is very pleasant. Good-night, Herbert ! — Ever yours, T. B. Upton, February 9, 1904. My dear Herbert, — I hope you have got Lockhart's Life of Scott with you ; if not, I will send it out to you. I have been reading it lately, and I have a strong wish that you should do the same. It has not all the same value ; the earlier part, the account of the prosperous years, is rather tiresome in places. There is something bois- terous, undignified — even, I could think, vulgar — about the aims and ambitions depicted. It sug- gests a prosperous person, seated at a well-filled table, and consuming his meat with a hearty ap- petite. The desire to stand well with prominent The Upton Letters n persons, to found a family, to take a place in the county, is a perfectly natural and wholesome de- sire ; but it is a commonplace ambition. There is a charm in the simplicity, the geniality, the childlike zest of the man ; but there is nothing great about it. Then comes the crash ; and sud- denly, as though a curtain drew up, one is con- fronted with the spectacle of an indomitable and unselfish soul, bearing a heavy burden with mag- nificent tranquillity, and settling down with splendid courage to an almost intolerable task. The energy displayed by our hero in attempting to write off the load of debt that hung round his neck is superhuman, august. We see him com- pleting in a single day what would take many writers a week to finish, and doing it day by day, with bereavements, sorrows, ill-health, all closing in upon him. The quality of the work he thus did matters little ; it was done, indeed, at a time of life when under normal circumstances he would probably have laid his pen down. But the spectacle of the man's patient energy and divine courage is one that goes straight to the heart. It is then that one realises that the earlier and more prosperous life has all the value of contrast ; one recognises that here was a truly unspoiled nature ; 12 The Upton Letters and that, if we can dare to look upon life as an educative process, the tragic sorrows that over- whelmed him were not the mere reversal of the wheel of fortune, but gifts from the very hand of the Father — to purify a noble soul from the dross that was mingled with it ; to give a great man the opportunity of living in a way that should furnish an eternal and imperishable example. I do not believe that in the whole of literature there is a more noble and beautiful document of its kind than the diary of these later years. The simplicity, the sincerity of the man stand out on every page. There are no illusions about himself or his work. He hears that Southey has been speaking of him and his misfortunes with tears, and he says plainly that such tears would be im- possible to himself in a parallel case ; that his own sympathy has always been practical rather than emotional ; his own tendency has been to help rather than to console. Again, speaking of his own writings, he says that he realises that if there is anything good about his poetry or prose, " It is a hurried frankness of composition, which pleases soldiers, sailors, and young people of bold and ac- tive disposition." He adds, indeed, a contempt- uous touch to the above, which he was great The Upton Letters 13 enough to have spared : " I have been no sigher in shades — no writer of Songs and sonnets and rustical roundelays Framed on fancies and whistled on reeds." A few days later, speaking of Thomas Campbell, the poet, he says that " he has suffered by being too careful a corrector of his work." That is a little ungenerous, a little complacent; noble and large as Scott's own unconsidered writ- ings are, he ought to have been aware that methods differ. What, for instance, could be more extraordinary than the contrast between Scott and Wordsworth — Scott with his "You know I don't care a curse about what I write"; and Wordsworth, whose chief reading in later days was his own poetry. Whenever the two are brought into actual juxtaposition, Wordsworth is all pose and self-absorption ; Scott all simplicity and disregard of fame. Wordsworth staying at Abbotsford declines to join an expedition of pleas- ure, and stays at home with his daughter. When the party return, they find Wordsworth sitting and being read to by his daughter, the book his own Excursion. A party of travellers arrive, and Wordsworth steals down to the chaise, to see if 14 The Upton Letters there are any of his own volumes among the books they have with them. When the two are to- gether, Scott is all courteous deference ; he quotes Wordsworth's poems, he pays him stately com- pliments, which the bard receives as a matter of course, with stiff, complacent bows. But, during the whole of the time, Wordsworth never lets fall a single syllable from which one could gather that he was aware that his host had ever put pen to paper. Yet, while one desires to shake Wordsworth to get some of his pomposity out of him, one half desires that Scott had felt a little more deeply the dignity of his vocation. One would wish to have infused Wordsworth with a little of Scott's unselfish simplicity, and to have put just a little stiffening into Scott. He ought to have felt — and he did not — that to be a great writer was a more dignified thing than to be a sham seigneur. But through the darkening scene, when the woods whisper together, and the Tweed runs hoarsely below, the simple spirit holds uncom- plaining and undaunted on his way : " I did not like them to think that I could ever be beaten by anything," he says. But at length the hand, The Upton Letters 15 tired with the pen, fails, and twilight creeps upon the darkening mind. I paid a pious pilgrimage last summer, as you perhaps remember, to Abbotsford. I don't think I ever described it to you. My first feeling was one of astonishment at the size and stateliness of the place, testifying to a certain imprudent pro- sperity. But the sight of the rooms themselves ; the desk, the chair, the book-lined library, the Jittle staircase by which, early or late, Scott could steal back to his hard and solitary work ; the death-mask, with its pathetic smile ; the clothes, with hat and shoes, giving, as it were, a sense of the very shape and stature of the man — these brought the whole thing up with a strange reality. Of course, there is much that is pompous, affected, unreal about the place; the plaster beams, painted to look like oak ; the ugly emblazonries ; the cruel painted glass ; the laboriously collected objects — all these reveal the childish side of Scott, the superficial self which slipped from him so easily when he entered into the cloud. And then the sight of his last resting-place ; the ruined abbey, so deeply embowered in trees that the three dim Eildon peaks are invisible. The birds singing in the thickets that clothe the ruined 1 6 The Upton Letters cloisters — all this made a parable, and brought before one with an intensity of mystery the won- der of it all. The brief life, so full of plans for permanence; the sombre valley of grief ; the quiet end, when with failing lips he murmured that the only comfort for the dying heart was the thought that it had desired goodness, however falteringly, above everything. I cannot describe to you how deeply all this affects me — with what a hunger of the heart, what tenderness, what admiration, what wonder. The very frankness of the surprise with which, over and over again, the brave spirit confesses that he does not miss the delights of life as much as he expected, nor find the burden as heavy as he had feared, is a very noble and beautiful thing. I can conceive of no book more likely to make a spirit in the grip of sorrow and failure more gentle, hopeful, and brave ; because it brings be- fore one, with quiet and pathetic dignity, the fact that no fame, no success, no recognition, can be weighed for a moment in the balance with those simple qualities of human nature which the hum- blest being may admire, win, and display. — Ever yours, T. B. The Upton Letters 17 Upton, Shrove Tuesday, February i6, 1904. Dear Herbert, — One of those incredible in- cidents has just happened here, an incident that makes one feel how little one knows of human beings, and that truth, in spite of the conscien- tious toil of Mr. H. G. Wells, does still continue to keep ahead of fiction. Here is the story. Some money is missed in a master's house ; cir- cumstances seem to point to its having been ab- stracted by one of the boys. A good-natured, flighty boy is suspected, absolutely without rea- son, as it turns out ; though he is the sort of boy to mislay his own books and other portable property to any extent, and to make no great difiiculty under pressure of immediate need, and at the last moment, aboiit borrowing some one else's chattels. On this occasion the small boys in the house, of whom he is one, solemnly accuse him of the theft, and the despoiled owner entreats that the monej;^ may be returned. He protests that he has not taken it. The matter comes to the ears of the house-master, who investigates in the course of the evening, and interviews the supposed culprit. The boy denies it again quite unconcernedly and frankly, goes away from the interview, and wandering about, finds the small 1 8 The Upton Letters boys of the house assembled in one of the studies discussing a matter with great interest. " What has happened?" says our suspected friend. "Have n't you heard?" says one of them; " Campbell's grandmother " (Campbell is another of the set) " has sent him a tip of ^2." " Oh, has she?" says the boy, with a smile of intense meaning; " I shall have to go my rounds again." This astonishing confession of his guilt is received with the interest it deserves, and Campbell is ad- vised to lock up his money, or to hand it over to the custody of the house-master. In the course of the evening, another amazing event occurs ; the boy whose money was stolen finds the whole of it, quite intact, in the pocket of his cricketing flan- nels, where he now remembers having put it. The supposed culprit is restored to favour, and becomes a reliable member of society. One of the small boys tells the matron the story of our hero's amazing remark on the subject, in his presence. The matron stares at him, bewildered, and asks him what made him say it. " Oh, only to rag them," says the boy ; " they were all so excited about it." " But don't you see, you silly boy," says the kind old dame, " that if the money had not been found, you would have been convicted The Upton Letters 19 out of your own mouth of having been a thief ? " "Oh yes," says the boy cheerfully; "but I could n't help it — it came into my head." Of course this is an exceptional case ; but it il- lustrates a curious thing about boys — I mentioned it the other day — which is, their extraordinary willingness and even anxiety to be thought worse than they are. Even boys of unexceptionable principle will talk as if they were not only not particular, but positively vicious. They don't like aspersions on their moral character to be made by others, but they rejoice to blacken them- selves ; and not even the most virtuous boys can bear to be accused of virtue, or thought to be what is called "Z*?. ' ' This does not happen when boys are by themselves ; they will then talk unaf- fectedly about their principles and practice, if their interlocutor is also unaffected. But when they are together, a kind of disease of self-accusation attacks them. I suppose that it is the perversion of a wholesome instinct, the desire not to be thought better than they are ; but part of the ex- aggerated stories that one hears about the low moral tone of public schools arises from the fact that innocent boys coming to a public school in- fer, and not unreasonably, from the talk of their 20 The Upton Letters companions that they are by no means averse to evil, even when, as is often the case, they are wholly untainted by it. The same thing seems to me to prevail very widely nowadays. The old-fashioned canting hypocrisy, like that of the old servant in the Master of Ballanirae, who, suffering under the eflfects of drink, bears himself like a Christian martyr, has gone out; just as the kind of pride is extinct against which the early Victorian books used to warn children, and which was manifested by sitting in a carriage surveying a beggar with a curling lip — a course of action which was invari- ably followed by the breaking of a bank, or by some mysterious financial operation involving an entire loss of fortune and respectability. Nowadays, the parable of the Pharisee and the publican is reversed. The Pharisee tells his friends that he is in reality far worse than the publican, while the publican thanks God that he is not a Pharisee. It is only, after all, a different kind of affectation, and perhaps even more dan- gerous, because it passes under the disguise of a virtue. We are all miserable sinners, of course ; but it is no encouragement to goodness if we try to reduce ourselves all to the same level of con- The Upton Letters 21 scious corruption. The only advantage would be if, by our humility, we avoided censoriousness. I